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I suppose I'm headed for lasting recovery, but it doesn't feel like it right now.  

 

Yesterday evening, I became anxious around 5:00.  I had gone to my daughter's gymnastics class, and a woman sitting next to us talked non-stop the entire time we sat there.  I could tell she was very lonely, but after about 30 minutes I was very agitated. We went to a "pub" for dinner that turned out to be a gourmet place with all kinds of ridiculous ingredients in most of the dishes.  I was very irritated.  There was nothing comforting to eat. I was able to have dinner.  We drove the 40 minutes home, and I was able to read to my daughter and go to sleep all with a lot of effort.  I have had cortisol since middle of night.  I had anxious  anxious dreams.  I woke up at first light and took magnesium, and fell asleep again, but I woke up to intense cortisol anxiety.  I'm needing to cry.  I did cry a little, but not enough.

 

Does anyone understand what this rapid cycling means?  I'm desperate for a word that this means I'm close to being done with the intense anxiety.  My husband keeps saying I'm healing.  When the anxiety is this intense it's hard to feel that way.  My coping  mechanisms don't work with cortisol anxiety.

 

Yesterday, we went to lunch and my husband said to me, with tears in his eyes, "It's so nice to have you back even if it's only for one day."  I started to cry, too.  We are both so very tired.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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7 hours ago, Rosetta said:

I suppose I'm headed for lasting recovery, but it doesn't feel like it right now.  

 

Yesterday evening, I became anxious around 5:00.  I had gone to my daughter's gymnastics class, and a woman sitting next to us talked non-stop the entire time we sat there.  I could tell she was very lonely, but after about 30 minutes I was very agitated. We went to a "pub" for dinner that turned out to be a gourmet place with all kinds of ridiculous ingredients in most of the dishes.  I was very irritated.  There was nothing comforting to eat. I was able to have dinner.  We drove the 40 minutes home, and I was able to read to my daughter and go to sleep all with a lot of effort.  I have had cortisol since middle of night.  I had anxious  anxious dreams.  I woke up at first light and took magnesium, and fell asleep again, but I woke up to intense cortisol anxiety.  I'm needing to cry.  I did cry a little, but not enough.

 

Does anyone understand what this rapid cycling means?  I'm desperate for a word that this means I'm close to being done with the intense anxiety.  My husband keeps saying I'm healing.  When the anxiety is this intense it's hard to feel that way.  My coping  mechanisms don't work with cortisol anxiety.

 

Yesterday, we went to lunch and my husband said to me, with tears in his eyes, "It's so nice to have you back even if it's only for one day."  I started to cry, too.  We are both so very tired.

 

Sorry you had the anxiety hit. I know you feelings all too well. There will be a day we look back at this intense anxiety and forget what it was like. You are getting there, remember your windows and how far you have come!

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Just now, DaveB said:

 

Sorry you had the anxiety hit. I know you feelings all too well. There will be a day we look back at this intense anxiety and forget what it was like. You are getting there, remember your windows and how far you have come!

 

Thanks, Dave.  I was looking at the Claire Weekes stuff.  I should try to incorporate those ideas.  I get frightened.  I've been crying all day.  I want to feel well and get things done that will improve my life and those of my husband and daughter.  But I can't.  I have accept that I can't.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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samanthaelizabeth
2 minutes ago, Rosetta said:

 

Thanks, Dave.  I was looking at the Claire Weekes stuff.  I should try to incorporate those ideas.  I get frightened.  I've been crying all day.  I want to feel well and get things done that will improve my life and those of my husband and daughter.  But I can't.  I have accept that I can't.

Hi Rosetta, I'm sorry you have been crying all day.  I hope you feel better soon!

  • Ativan Mid April 1999-to end of May 1999 ( COLD TURKEY and flushed them down the toilet) I went through hell for 3 months-I had no idea what was happening to me there was no information on the internet about this drug)
  • Zoloft 200mg 1999 to 2017
  • Wellbutrin 2015 6 months Started having exterme anxiety-quit taking switched back to Zoloft ( I have quit about 6 jobs from this time0  Klonopin .5-1.0 of and on for two months (tapered off in Dec-Jan)
  • 15 mg Remeron 2012-presnt
  • **Started tapering down Zoloft 12/?/17 12/09/17 down to 50mg; 12/12/17-12/14-17 Zoloft 100mg; 12/16/201712/19 -Zoloft 150mg; 12/20/17-01/06/18 Zoloft 200mg; 01/07/18-01//18/18 Zoloft 180mg
  • 01/18/18-present Zoloft 200mg
  • February 2018-Copaxone 40mg (3 times a week shots) (for Multiple Sclerosis)2/17/18 begin transition to liquid 200mg
  • magnesium, fish oil

 

 
   

 

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Thelongestroadhome
8 hours ago, Rosetta said:

I suppose I'm headed for lasting recovery, but it doesn't feel like it right now.  

 

Yesterday evening, I became anxious around 5:00.  I had gone to my daughter's gymnastics class, and a woman sitting next to us talked non-stop the entire time we sat there.  I could tell she was very lonely, but after about 30 minutes I was very agitated. We went to a "pub" for dinner that turned out to be a gourmet place with all kinds of ridiculous ingredients in most of the dishes.  I was very irritated.  There was nothing comforting to eat. I was able to have dinner.  We drove the 40 minutes home, and I was able to read to my daughter and go to sleep all with a lot of effort.  I have had cortisol since middle of night.  I had anxious  anxious dreams.  I woke up at first light and took magnesium, and fell asleep again, but I woke up to intense cortisol anxiety.  I'm needing to cry.  I did cry a little, but not enough.

 

Does anyone understand what this rapid cycling means?  I'm desperate for a word that this means I'm close to being done with the intense anxiety.  My husband keeps saying I'm healing.  When the anxiety is this intense it's hard to feel that way.  My coping  mechanisms don't work with cortisol anxiety.

 

Yesterday, we went to lunch and my husband said to me, with tears in his eyes, "It's so nice to have you back even if it's only for one day."  I started to cry, too.  We are both so very tired.

I think everyone has days where they feel super irritated by almost everything. Some time I crave silence but with young children still around that is impossible! Don’t be too hard on yourself. It sounded like a stressful time and your body was responding to that. I love Audible and try to listen to a book before going to sleep ( I listen in bed!) I choose very calming subjects, mostly on meditation or mindfulness. I find the sound of someone speaking calmly and quietly helps relax me and gives me restful sleep. I have incense gently burning, soft lights, you name it I have it! And it all helps bring peace to my troubled mind. 

 

I am interested by the books you listed. I am a firm believer in gut health although I come at it in a slightly different direction as a life long vegetarian. I make my own ferments and kombuch, coconut kefir etc. I definitely believe medication impacts the gut flora. 

 

You are healing! One day at a time 😘

Current...Drug free since September 2018

December 2007 30mg Lexapro and a benzodiazepine December 2008 25mg, December 2009 20mg, December 2010 15mg Lexapro, December 2011 10mg Lexapro. Long hold as I felt happy with the dose and saw no need at the time to reduce further. September 2015 dropped to 5mg. Terrible anxiety started two months later. June 2016 dropped to 3mg and terrible obsessive thoughts and anxiety so ten days later I reinstated back to 5mg. October 2016 dropped to 4mg. April 2017 dropped to 3mg. September 2017 dropped to 2mg. Terrible obsessive thoughts. Anxiety through the roof. OCD.  September 2018 quit cold turkey 2mg Lexapro. March 2019 feeling better than I have in years. 

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3 minutes ago, Longestroadhome said:

 

You are healing! One day at a time 😘

 Thanks LRH.  That's was nice for you to stop by.  There are a lot of hormonal issues going on with me, I think.  It's hard to imagine this going on for years because I am "of that age."  That worries me.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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39 minutes ago, samanthaelizabeth said:

Hi Rosetta, I'm sorry you have been crying all day.  I hope you feel better soon!

Thank you Samantha!  I know you are struggling, too.  Btw, I don't work. I can't.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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samanthaelizabeth
4 minutes ago, Rosetta said:

Thank you Samantha!  I know you are struggling, too.  Btw, I don't work. I can't.

Well you're lucky, my husband doesn't like that i'm not working.  BTW, I am from SoCal (Los Angeles area)  I sure do miss it!

  • Ativan Mid April 1999-to end of May 1999 ( COLD TURKEY and flushed them down the toilet) I went through hell for 3 months-I had no idea what was happening to me there was no information on the internet about this drug)
  • Zoloft 200mg 1999 to 2017
  • Wellbutrin 2015 6 months Started having exterme anxiety-quit taking switched back to Zoloft ( I have quit about 6 jobs from this time0  Klonopin .5-1.0 of and on for two months (tapered off in Dec-Jan)
  • 15 mg Remeron 2012-presnt
  • **Started tapering down Zoloft 12/?/17 12/09/17 down to 50mg; 12/12/17-12/14-17 Zoloft 100mg; 12/16/201712/19 -Zoloft 150mg; 12/20/17-01/06/18 Zoloft 200mg; 01/07/18-01//18/18 Zoloft 180mg
  • 01/18/18-present Zoloft 200mg
  • February 2018-Copaxone 40mg (3 times a week shots) (for Multiple Sclerosis)2/17/18 begin transition to liquid 200mg
  • magnesium, fish oil

 

 
   

 

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  • Mentor
8 minutes ago, Rosetta said:

Thank you Samantha!  I know you are struggling, too.  Btw, I don't work. I can't.

I can't work either.

PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. 

 Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal and Prilosec from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist.

 Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form)

---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine

 Xanax 1mg three times a day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) three times a day to .003 grams three times a day.

19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020)

 

 

I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience.

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Well then, it's 

5 minutes ago, samanthaelizabeth said:

Well you're lucky, my husband doesn't like that i'm not working.  BTW, I am from SoCal (Los Angeles area)  I sure do miss it!

a damn good thing you reinstated when you did.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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  • Mentor
5 hours ago, Rosetta said:

Books recommended by IceBat

Icebat attributes 40% of her healing at 1.5 years off AD (Lexapro) to meditation, getting her digestive system back on track, getting Vit D higher and getting B Vitamins higher.  At one year off Lexapro she had diarrhea and a lot of anxiety.  She attributes 60% of her healing to time.

 

> ***Depression Free Naturally*** <-- - This one connects all of the tiny biochemical bits in a very good, comprehensive and actionable book on depression. They go into histamine imbalance, mineral and vitamin deficiencies, diet, lifestyle, basically they cover a LOT of topics. If you only read one book, especially if you are struggling with depression, start with this one imo.

The Mood Cure - Good intro to neurotransmitter levels, very simplified though, It was helpful but I realized it was dangerous to only attack my mood from that one narrow angle. I would recommend to read this book but don't look at it as the end-all be-all, realize it is just a tiny slice of the pie.

Hope and Help for your Nerves - This was really useful back when my body was super whacked out. It basically reassured me that I would be able to get it back into balance and that I wasn't stuck having panic attacks every day forever. I put it down when I stopped having panic attacks.

Gut and Psychology Syndrome - Talked about the link between gut/digestion issues and mental/neurological issues. Followed their plan of drinking a lot of bone broth and taking sauerkraut and probiotics, and very slowly but surely my diarrhea started improving and my mind became less foggy.

The Good Gut - You are not just your own cells, you are also the bacteria in your gut. Antidepressants, stress, and malnourishment affect your gut, which then go on to affect mood and disease progression and even personality. This one is huge. It's based on cutting-edge research, I strongly recommend reading it.

The Prime by Kulreet Chaudhary - A western-trained Indian neurologist who started getting neurological issues and neuro meds weren't working. She finally, stubbornly, turned to Ayurveda out of desperation and her symptoms improved and she wrote the book. I am currently reading this one and putting it into practice.

Fat For Fuel - The best intro to Keto diet imo. Unlike most other diets, keto is actually a natural way that people have eaten historically, and it has actual proven results in weight management and the treatment of certain types of mood and neurological conditions. I cycle into light keto every few weeks and make sure with my test strips that I hit ketosis. Usually it is just by doing a low-carb day of bone broth, meat and sauteed veggies. Just to keep my body's metabolism on its feet.

My fiancé and I are just starting the keto diet. We haven't followed it to a tee, but following it pretty close. Really good easy to make food. :) A person at his work has lost over 20 pounds since before Christmas.

PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. 

 Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal and Prilosec from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist.

 Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form)

---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine

 Xanax 1mg three times a day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) three times a day to .003 grams three times a day.

19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020)

 

 

I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience.

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Sending you the biggest of hugs Rosetta. Thinking of you as always. K xo

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  • Lurasidone 20mg ~Mid May 2016 - Mid June 2016
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  • Amitriptyline 200mg ~July 2016 - September 2016 (ceased over 1 week)
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"Whenever you feel yourself doubting how far you can go,  just remember how far you have come.  Remember everything you have faced, all the battles you have won, and all the fears you have overcome"    Unknown 

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samanthaelizabeth
29 minutes ago, Frogie said:

Ayurveda

I'm going to get this.

  • Ativan Mid April 1999-to end of May 1999 ( COLD TURKEY and flushed them down the toilet) I went through hell for 3 months-I had no idea what was happening to me there was no information on the internet about this drug)
  • Zoloft 200mg 1999 to 2017
  • Wellbutrin 2015 6 months Started having exterme anxiety-quit taking switched back to Zoloft ( I have quit about 6 jobs from this time0  Klonopin .5-1.0 of and on for two months (tapered off in Dec-Jan)
  • 15 mg Remeron 2012-presnt
  • **Started tapering down Zoloft 12/?/17 12/09/17 down to 50mg; 12/12/17-12/14-17 Zoloft 100mg; 12/16/201712/19 -Zoloft 150mg; 12/20/17-01/06/18 Zoloft 200mg; 01/07/18-01//18/18 Zoloft 180mg
  • 01/18/18-present Zoloft 200mg
  • February 2018-Copaxone 40mg (3 times a week shots) (for Multiple Sclerosis)2/17/18 begin transition to liquid 200mg
  • magnesium, fish oil

 

 
   

 

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34 minutes ago, samanthaelizabeth said:

I'm going to get this.

Talk to a mod first. They can tell you if this supplement is ok to take or if it could have side affects. I have never heard about it. I was talking about the keto diet. :)

Take care,

Frogie xx

PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. 

 Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal and Prilosec from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist.

 Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form)

---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine

 Xanax 1mg three times a day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) three times a day to .003 grams three times a day.

19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020)

 

 

I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience.

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Ayurveda is not a supplement. It is an entire interrelated system of well being developed in India.  It looks quite useful, but I would be very careful with any supplements that are recommended.

 

https://chopra.com/articles/what-is-ayurveda

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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9 hours ago, Rosetta said:

 Thanks LRH.  That's was nice for you to stop by.  There are a lot of hormonal issues going on with me, I think.  It's hard to imagine this going on for years because I am "of that age."  That worries me.

Yes, I totally ‘get’ the hormonal bit. As of next month I will officially be menopausal,or so my doctor informs me. That is unless ‘ the monthly visitor’ decides to come back uninvited. How much of what I am going through is hormonal and how much is withdrawal I do not know. I do have a bone to pick with God though, us women do it hard with pregnancy and giving birth only then to have to walk through a hormonal minefield of peri menopause followed by menopause. When does it bloody end? I do admit that men have their own mid life crisis but often they fix that by dumping their wife of thirty years and trading her in for a younger model. All us women get offered is hormone replacement therapy and a dose of antidepressants 🤪🤪

Current...Drug free since September 2018

December 2007 30mg Lexapro and a benzodiazepine December 2008 25mg, December 2009 20mg, December 2010 15mg Lexapro, December 2011 10mg Lexapro. Long hold as I felt happy with the dose and saw no need at the time to reduce further. September 2015 dropped to 5mg. Terrible anxiety started two months later. June 2016 dropped to 3mg and terrible obsessive thoughts and anxiety so ten days later I reinstated back to 5mg. October 2016 dropped to 4mg. April 2017 dropped to 3mg. September 2017 dropped to 2mg. Terrible obsessive thoughts. Anxiety through the roof. OCD.  September 2018 quit cold turkey 2mg Lexapro. March 2019 feeling better than I have in years. 

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17 hours ago, Rosetta said:

Does anyone understand what this rapid cycling means?  I'm desperate for a word that this means I'm close to being done with the intense anxiety.  My husband keeps saying I'm healing.  When the anxiety is this intense it's hard to feel that way.  My coping  mechanisms don't work with cortisol anxiety.

 

Hi Rosetta. I'm sorry to hear that you're currently struggling, to an even greater degree ~

 

It's very hard to say what the rapid cycling means for you, at this time, as everyone has their own individual patterns of recovery. I found that I also had frequent cycling between windows and waves at various times, and often it could even be in the same day, just hours apart.This was sometime in the first 6 - 12 months but it happened at various other times throughout the withdrawal process. I tried to find it in my thread but it's way too long. :rolleyes: Anyway, I remember being unsure of what it meant, exactly.

 

As there are often, never really any definitive answers in W/D, I decided to assign it, with my own positive meaning ~ which was : that it was a sign of healing, in terms of many nervous system processes being up - regulated etc at a fairly rapid speed. I took it as a good sign and it helped me to feel better about it, despite going through the pain.

 

The quoted piece below is an excerpt from : What is happening in your brain? It's a very good read which helps to explain a lot and I find very encouraging.

 

It would be like if the World Trade Center Towers hadn't completely fallen - but had crumbled inside in different places.. Imagine if you were [...] to rebuild the tower - WHILE people were coming and going and [...] to work in the building!  You'd have to set up a temporary elevator - but when you needed to fix part of that area, you'd have to tear down that elevator and set up a temporary elevator somewhere else. And so on. You'd have to build, work around, then tear down, then build again, then work around, then build... ALL while people are coming and going, ALL while the furniture is being replaced, ALL while the walls are getting repainted... ALL while [...] is going on INSIDE the building. No doubt it would be chaotic. That is EXACTLY what is happening with windows and waves.  The windows are where the body has "got it right" for a day or so - but then the building shifts and the brain works on something else - and it's chaos again while another temporary pathway is set up to reroute function until repairs are made. 
And just like the Twin Towers- it's possible - but the building is a major effort -and it takes a good year or more sometimes
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amygdala  - This is the FEAR center in the brain. It's a tiny part in the middle of your brain. Fear is protective and it's GREAT if you need to assess something that is dangerous and to ACT  - like if a rabid dog were chasing you. - but it's hard in recoveyr when it's all you feel for months! But the FEAR is not truly in your MIND. It's in your BRAIN.  There is too much glutamate acting here in the amygdala and not enough GABA. So the nerves are firing off in the fear center when nothing scary is really there in your environment.  It is normal for that to happen given the circumstance physiologically. But it feels awful, doesn't it?  I know.  But it's just a brain structure. This can account for fear, agoraphobia, fear of water, fear of anything.  It's not that you're really "scared" of the moon - it's that you're in almost constant fear because this brain structure is healing. The glutamate is pruning back. The GABA receptors are opening back up.  It may or may not continue for awhile. It will abate. Then come back. But eventually, the brain will get it right.

 

 

I personally found that if I understood what was happening, then I could cope more effectively and it would help to see me through the tougher times.

 

 

The anxiety, although difficult is normal in withdrawal. What coping techniques are you currently using?

 

Have you tried " legs up the wall "? Magnesium ?  Deep breathing ?  I employed all of these tools ~ and they can all work to a degree, most of the time. I often sipped, dissolved Magnesium in water during the day and the epsoms salt bath ( added lavender oil) is also calming and helpful for anxiety. Guided meditations are good or a few yoga poses ~ Salutation to the Sun ~ or the simple " legs up the wall". Walking helps, also. It may even be painting/ coloring or journalling, music ~ whatever helps to calm you and that you enjoy doing.

 

 

 

Hopefully, there is something here that may just help you through this extremely tough time. Just remember that this is all temporary and improves over time. You just have to work out the ways to get through the day to day , while you are waiting ...   :)

 

Ali

Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014

 

                                                  Psych Drug - free since May 2014
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6 hours ago, AliG said:

As there are often, never really any definitive answers in W/D, I decided to assign it, with my own positive meaning ~ which was : that it was a sign of healing, in terms of many nervous system processes being up - regulated etc at a fairly rapid speed. I took it as a good sign and it helped me to feel better about it, despite going through the pain.

 

 

Thank you, Ali, for your time. I am sure you are right -- this is healing.  My husband thinks so, too.  It is painful.  Maybe this is the 12 month wave.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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I am in a very bad state.  I just lost it in front of my child.  My husband let the cat in and I didn't want it on my lap so I pushed it off and it scratched me very badly. 

It's happening again today.  Two days in a row.  It happened last Sat & Sun -- two days in a row.

 

This morning, I woke up before light in absolute panic as if I had an adrenaline shot to the heart.  It's physical and mental pain.  This is the way it was back in Sept - Nov.. It's very hard to experience this again after so much time -- a mere 2 months or so -- of being free of that for the most part.  My whole day is spent with that sick feeling in my stomach and feeling overstimulated and irritable until it abates in the evening.  It's very, very hard to be with my child.  She overstimulates me so badly.  My husband has taken her away two days this week after school so that I can see her only in the evening.   

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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I am so sorry, Rosetta.  I know it is distressing to have a repeat of this after you thought it had gone away.  

Gridley Introduction

 

Lexapro 20 mg since 2004.  Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017.   

End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg 

End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg

End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg  

Oct. 30, 2020  Jump to zero from 0.025mg.  Current dose: 0.000mg

3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete.

 

Ativan 1 mg 1986-1991 CT, soon reinstated.  CT 2000. RI 1 mg 2011-2016.  Sept. 2016  0.625mg X 3

Nov.27, 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover + change to one 18.75mg dose, w/1 month hold.

Feb. 9, 2021, begin 10% every 4 weeks taper.  Current dose as of April 10: 13mgai.  Taper is 31% complete.

 

Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986.  Jan. 2016 began every 3-weeks 10% taper, down to 16mgai (44mgpw).  Aug 2016, discovered SA, holding at 16mg.  Taper is 78% complete.  

  

Supplements: omega, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, zinc, melatonin .3mg.


I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

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52 minutes ago, Gridley said:

I am so sorry, Rosetta.  I know it is distressing to have a repeat of this after you thought it had gone away.  

Thank you, Gridley.  I suppose it will go away again.  It's difficult to feel that that is enough when it can come back again, and it's so random.  There's no way to know what I'll be able to handle from one day to the next.  I can't even live normally on the days I feel normal because I am too tired, and I'm afraid that any extra effort will cause a return of the anxiety.  

 

I went to volunteer at the school, and it went so well, but it seems that going to the gymnastics lesson that evening was too much.  I don't know.  Maybe that isn't the reason.  I still have hope, but it's very hard to be 12 months out and feel this way.  I feel worse than I ever did before ADs.  How ludicrous is that?  They are poison!! This is absolutely nothing like the depression I used to feel before I took Celexa.  I never had anything but the most mild of anxiety back then, and it had no effect on my life.  If I had understood that this Hell was a possible result of trying to cure my depression, I would have never, ever taken that risk.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Yes, it is random but if you can think of it as healing, as the rubix cube turning and twisting and your neurotransmitters coming back to life like a foot that's been asleep.  As much as you can, accept what's going on.  From what I've read, these waves are common at 10 to 12 months out.  That's cold comfort, I know, but it is normal.  So too the depression that is unlike the depression you used to feel.  That is a hallmark sign that it's WD and not "the return of the underlying disease," as the doctors like to say.

 

Like you, I'm wary of too much extra effort because that does often bring on the anxiety for me, even a trip down the mountain to our little village or a small social effort.  On good days, I can do a little garden work.  Other days, I can feel the start-up of the anxiety.  I have a feeling that the gymnastic lesson was the culprit.

 

Be kind and compassionate to yourself.  That's my watchword.   And don't kick yourself over the cat incident and your child.

Gridley Introduction

 

Lexapro 20 mg since 2004.  Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017.   

End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg 

End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg

End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg  

Oct. 30, 2020  Jump to zero from 0.025mg.  Current dose: 0.000mg

3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete.

 

Ativan 1 mg 1986-1991 CT, soon reinstated.  CT 2000. RI 1 mg 2011-2016.  Sept. 2016  0.625mg X 3

Nov.27, 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover + change to one 18.75mg dose, w/1 month hold.

Feb. 9, 2021, begin 10% every 4 weeks taper.  Current dose as of April 10: 13mgai.  Taper is 31% complete.

 

Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986.  Jan. 2016 began every 3-weeks 10% taper, down to 16mgai (44mgpw).  Aug 2016, discovered SA, holding at 16mg.  Taper is 78% complete.  

  

Supplements: omega, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, zinc, melatonin .3mg.


I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

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Hey Rosetta,  I'm so sorry you are suffering.  Thank you for your kind words on my thread even though you are in a storm yourself.  I am thinking of you and I just wish I could make this go away for all of us.  Sending you love and healing. K xo

  • Citalopram 20mg - 40mg ~ approx 2010 - October 2015 (stopped over one week)
  • Parnate  20mg - 50mg and olazapine 5mg ~ Jan 2016 - May 2016 (ceased over 2 days) 
  • Lithium 450mg-900 mg and Thyroxin ~May 2016 - May 2017
  • Diazepam various doses (including PRN) ~ 2015 - 2017
  • Oxazepam various doses (including PRN) ~ May 2016 - June 2016
  • Lurasidone 20mg ~Mid May 2016 - Mid June 2016
  • Vortioxetine 10mg - 20mg ~ 6th June 2016 - 20th July 2016 (abruptly ceased)
  • Amitriptyline 200mg ~July 2016 - September 2016 (ceased over 1 week)
  • Nortriptyline  (dose ?) ~October 2016 ~ November 2016 (abruptly ceased)
  • Seroquel XR 100mg - 300mg ~ May 2016 - August 2017 (ceased over 3 weeks)
  • Escitalopram 10mg - 30mg ~ August 2016 - March 2017 (ceased over 2 weeks)
  • Bupropion 300mg ~ December 2016 - May 2017 (ceased over 1 week)
  • Clonazepam 1.5mg daily ~ July 2016 (started tapering May 2017 - September 2017 currently on 0.375mg..ie 0.125mg TDS) 27th May 2018 5% 0.357mg (possible paradoxical reaction - see benzo thread)  28th June 5% 0.337mg, 28th July 10% 0.303mg, 12th September10% 0.272mg, 18th September reinstated 10% due to intolerable WD 0.303mg, 1st October-11th Oct 10% (1% reduction over 10 days) 0.272mg, 22nd October clonazepam ceased crossed over 10mg diazepam
  •  Dexamphatamine 20mg ~ December 2016 (started tapering October 2017 - tapered 1.25mg 4th Dec 2017, 1.25mg 19th Dec 2017 6.25mg, Speed up decrease due to major interaction between Dex and fluoxetine- ref to thread 10% 17th Feb 2018 5.63mg, 10% 21st Feb 2018 5.1mg, 10% 26th Feb 2018 4.5mg 10% 28th Feb 4.1mg, 10% 1st March 3.7mg, 10% 5th March 3.3mg, 10% 8th March 3mg, 10% 10th March 2.7mg, 10% 12th March 2.4mg, 10% 14th March 2.16mg, 10% 16th March 1.94mg, 10% 18th March 1.74mg, 10% 20th March 1.57mg, 10% 21st March 1.41mg, 10% 22nd March 1.26mg, 10% 23rd March 1.13mg, 10% 24th March 1.01mg, 10% 25th March 0.9mg, 10% 27th March 0.81mg, 10% 29th March 0.73mg, 10% 31st March 0.66mg, 10% 2nd April 0.59mg , 10% 4th April 0.53mg, 10% 6th April 0.47mg, 10% 8th April 0.42mg, 10%10th April 0.37mg, 11th April 0.2mg, 12th April 0.1mg (last dose) OFF! 
  • Fluoxetine 40mg ~December 2016 -.31 Jan 2018 reduced to 20mg (probable serotonin toxicity) 10th March 2020 10mg, 7th April 9mg, 1st May 8.5mg, 15th May 8.0mg, 27th May 7.5mg, 8th Sept 7.2mg, 2nd Oct 7mg, 19th Oct 6.8mg, 28th Oct 6.6mg, 5th Nov 6.4mg, 26th Nov 6mg, 2nd April 2021 5.9mg, 9th April 5.8mg, 19th April 5.75mg, 22nd April 5.7mg, 26th April 5.65mg,28th April 5.6mg, 1st May 5.5mg, 4th May 4.45mg
  • Diazepam 10mg ~ 22nd Oct 2018, 10th November 8mg, 14th Nov 7mg, 8th December 6mg, 30th December 5mg (Nocte), 7th March 2019 4.5mg,14th March 4mg, 5th April 3.5mg, 9th April 3mg, 18th April 2.5mg,1st May 2mg, 17th May 1.75mg, 25th May 1.6mg, 4th June 1.59mg, 5th June 1.58mg, 6th June 1.57mg, 7th June 1.56mg, 8th June 1.55mg, 22nd June 1.4mg, 4th July 1.2mg, 16th July 1mg, 30th July 0.8mg, 13th Aug 0.6mg, 28th Aug 0.4mg, 10th Sept 0.2mg, 23rd Sept Off! 
  • SR Circadin 2mg (melatonin) 25th May - 20th June 
  • Zolpidem 10mg 25th May (7 tablets)
  • Supplements: Magnesium glycinate (soluble - sip throughout the day) 

 

"Whenever you feel yourself doubting how far you can go,  just remember how far you have come.  Remember everything you have faced, all the battles you have won, and all the fears you have overcome"    Unknown 

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1 hour ago, Gridley said:

Be kind and compassionate to yourself.  That's my watchword.   And don't kick yourself over the cat incident and your child.

 

I'm trying to imagine you on a mountain in Ecuador and being so far from a "little village" that's it's a trip down the mountain to get there.  I hope it's peaceful, and there are no leaf blowers!!  

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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No leaf blowers!  Not even lawnmowers.  Yes, it's very peaceful.

Gridley Introduction

 

Lexapro 20 mg since 2004.  Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017.   

End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg 

End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg

End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg  

Oct. 30, 2020  Jump to zero from 0.025mg.  Current dose: 0.000mg

3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete.

 

Ativan 1 mg 1986-1991 CT, soon reinstated.  CT 2000. RI 1 mg 2011-2016.  Sept. 2016  0.625mg X 3

Nov.27, 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover + change to one 18.75mg dose, w/1 month hold.

Feb. 9, 2021, begin 10% every 4 weeks taper.  Current dose as of April 10: 13mgai.  Taper is 31% complete.

 

Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986.  Jan. 2016 began every 3-weeks 10% taper, down to 16mgai (44mgpw).  Aug 2016, discovered SA, holding at 16mg.  Taper is 78% complete.  

  

Supplements: omega, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, zinc, melatonin .3mg.


I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

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Hope you are feeling a bit better by now. Surround yourself with things you love. Nurture. Self love. Do you have a space in the home you could go to retreat when you feel your nerves are on edge?  If not then consider making one. I use my bedroom. I play soothing music, paint, burn candles and incense, soak my feet in an epsom salt foot bath! My children know that when the door is locked mummy is having her soothing time! If your nerves are on edge you need to focus on YOU because you are no good to anyone in that state. By being selfish ( or selfless as I call it) you can build yourself up to the point that meeting others needs isn’t so hard. I know that is mother’s are not too good at taking care of ourselves but in this instance it is so important. Take care of yourself sweetie 💖😘💖

Current...Drug free since September 2018

December 2007 30mg Lexapro and a benzodiazepine December 2008 25mg, December 2009 20mg, December 2010 15mg Lexapro, December 2011 10mg Lexapro. Long hold as I felt happy with the dose and saw no need at the time to reduce further. September 2015 dropped to 5mg. Terrible anxiety started two months later. June 2016 dropped to 3mg and terrible obsessive thoughts and anxiety so ten days later I reinstated back to 5mg. October 2016 dropped to 4mg. April 2017 dropped to 3mg. September 2017 dropped to 2mg. Terrible obsessive thoughts. Anxiety through the roof. OCD.  September 2018 quit cold turkey 2mg Lexapro. March 2019 feeling better than I have in years. 

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Today is a "feeling normal" day.  What a relief.

 

Icebat's recommendations for digestive health:

 

  • I count calories to make sure I am eating enough (others might need to make sure they are not eating too much)
  • I hydrate mostly between meals, and don't drink more than a little water/drink with my meals
  • If I am not hungry but I need to get more calories, I drink fresh ginger tea, which tends to stimulate my hunger a little bit and makes it easier to eat.
  • I take apple cider vinegar (diluted) and digestive bitters before I eat meat (I am not super good about this but I do seem to make a small improvement when I do)
  • I track my bathroom trips and stool consistency to notice any patterns that could signal that I need to change up my diet/lifestyle
  • I eat fruit separate from every other type of food, which is an Ayurvedic technique to avoid reducing digestive power. According to Ayurveda, fruit digests quickly and should be eaten at least 20min before a meal, or a few hours after a meal when the meal is done digesting (though with my sluggish digestion it feels like sometimes the food never fully stops digesting!)
  • Lately if my digestion gets really bad for a few days straight, I do a Khichdi (rice and mung bean) monodiet for a few days which is very easy for me to digest.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Mm, it’s always a blessing when those “feeling normal” days make themselves known. Like you, I did a too fast taper of Zoloft, and I’m starting to wonder if experiencing those days will become a reality for me. But your story gives me hope!

 

 
medication history 
  • Aropax - 1997-1998
  • Zoloft (round 1) - 1998-2001
  • Risperdal - approx. February 2002-August 2002
  • Zyprexa - August 2002 - early 2003
  • Cipramil - few months in 2003
  • Cymbalta - 2003 - 2004
  • Effexor 2004 - late 2008
  • Prozac - late 2008 - early 2012
  • Seroquel - mid-2010 - 2011(?)
  • Zoloft (round 2, 100mg) - early 2012 - tapered by 25mg over fortnightly intervals in Oct-Dec 2017
  • Prozac (round 2) - took one day on 20mg in early December, before cutting down the dose to 10mg over a period of a week before stopping it.
  • Ceased Prozac 16th December 2017
  • reinstated Prozac 1mg 19/2/18, having some bad reactions thus far
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20 hours ago, Rosetta said:

Today is a "feeling normal" day.  What a relief.

 

This made me VERY happy, enjoy it!

2008 - October 28th, 2016: Zoloft 50 - 150 mgs, settled on 50mgs from 2011 - 2016.
January 23rd - March 1st 2017: Zoloft 50mgs, direct switch to Lexapro.
March 1st - May 1st 2017: Lexapro 10 mgs, down to 5mgs for a week, then off.
June 1st - July 31st 2017: Paxil 20mgs, Lyrica 600mgs
August 1st - September 30th 2017: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs
October 1st  - November 12th 2017: Paxil 60mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs
November 12th, 2017 - September 4th 2018: Paxil 40mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs 

September 4th - September 27th: Paxil 30mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs

September 28th - November 7th: Paxil 20mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs (Also Testosterone Therapy started in June 2018 and ended in November 2018)

November 7th 2018 - February 22nd 2019: Paxil 10mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs

February 22nd 2019 - April 17th: Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin 1mgs

April 17th - Now: Zoloft 25mgs, Zyprexa 2.5mgs, Klonopin .5mgs

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Another "feeling normal" day -- so far!!!

 

I've been trying to reconstruct how I got to the point that I decided to quit Zoloft in 2016.  

 

I believe that if I had stayed at 10 mg of Zoloft after my baby was born I would have been ok (if I tapered properly later.)  Zoloft wasn't the drug I needed, and nonetheless, I did feel good enough to live a normal and happy life for a long while -- until the doctor raised the Zoloft dose.

 

When I was on Zoloft for the first few years my life was not all bad.  I think I did stabilize because I remember that I was happy at times.  Until 2016, my quality of life was much, much better than it is now.  Now that my mind is clear, and I understand the theory of WD, I often think back to those years, and I wish I had known to stop raising the Zoloft dose (and to stop drinking alcohol, too.)

 

It wasn't until 2016 that everything went to Hell in a way that I could see.  I was able go on vacation every year before that, and I enjoyed it.  I cooked, and baked cakes and did crafts with my daughter.  I took care of her in 2011, when she was a baby, and when she was 2, 3 and 4 with preschool being only 3 days a week.  My husband says I was a good mother, but that I was very confused and distracted from 2012-2015.  My point is that the first years that I took Zoloft my life improved slowly, but surely until I crashed in 2016.  I attributed most of my stress and confusion before 2016 to being a new mother.  I had no idea that the switch of medications destabilized my system.  Most of what I know about how I looked from the outside I know because by husband has told me -- I was not myself, I wasn't well, but I was happy and active.  

 

In 2015, I did business development 2 or 3 times a week.  That required me to dress up, wear make up, be there on time and interact with a lot of people I didn't know.  I had to be "on" when I was there.  It wasn't easy, but I did it all, and I enjoyed it.  I even made new friends that I still have.  

 

There are many things I was able to do in 2015 that I could not do in 2016 -- not even in everyday private life.  When I think about it and try to reconstruct what was happening, I was drinking at the races all Summer in 2015, and by the time the Fall race season started, I figured out that the alcohol was affecting me negatively.  So, I didn't drink as much in November.  I started to lose control of the interior of my house in 2015.  Christmas of 2015 was very, very stressful.   I would have to look back and see when the Zoloft doses were changed during 2011-2015 and 2016, but 2016 is when I really felt terrible.  I couldn't understand why.  I now see that the alcohol in 2015 further destabilized my CNS and each higher dose of Zoloft after that destabilized CNS.  

 

I suppose that if my husband weren't with me all along I might believe the alcohol consumption in 2015 was the beginning of the major problems.  He assures me that I was not functioning properly long before and even back as far as 2007.  It's hard to accept that I've been having cognitive difficulties from ADs for over 10 years, but he insists its true.  

 

In 2016, I couldn't have my daughter's birthday party (in May) at home.  I had it at a vacation place that a friend had nearby.  My house was such a wreck.  No one could visit.  In 2016, I didn't go to the races one single day that whole year.  I could not get ready to go, I didn't want to go, and the entire idea made me feel anxious and upset.  That's the year I was prescribed Xanax, and it made everything worse.  So, I rarely took it and finally I didn't fill the prescription again.

 

I suppose I should be glad that I'm actually doing better, except on my worst days, this year than I was in 2016!!!

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Hi Rosetta, I too have been trying to deconstruct what has happened to me over the past few years.  Half of me doesn't know what is MS( as I was officially diagnosed via MRI and Lumbar Puncture in 2008) and what is from these drugs). I am so upset that I have lost what was my life, before I was put on Wellbutrin.  Now this, I am going to go to counseling to try and fix what is left of my life.  I am going to mention the Wellbutrin and what it did to me, do you think that is a bad idea?  I need to get my confidence back, I try to tell my husband that I have lost my confidence and he says "No, you have always been confident"  I just feel like I have dissapointed him, so..  

I hope you continue to feel better!

 

Hugs-SE

  • Ativan Mid April 1999-to end of May 1999 ( COLD TURKEY and flushed them down the toilet) I went through hell for 3 months-I had no idea what was happening to me there was no information on the internet about this drug)
  • Zoloft 200mg 1999 to 2017
  • Wellbutrin 2015 6 months Started having exterme anxiety-quit taking switched back to Zoloft ( I have quit about 6 jobs from this time0  Klonopin .5-1.0 of and on for two months (tapered off in Dec-Jan)
  • 15 mg Remeron 2012-presnt
  • **Started tapering down Zoloft 12/?/17 12/09/17 down to 50mg; 12/12/17-12/14-17 Zoloft 100mg; 12/16/201712/19 -Zoloft 150mg; 12/20/17-01/06/18 Zoloft 200mg; 01/07/18-01//18/18 Zoloft 180mg
  • 01/18/18-present Zoloft 200mg
  • February 2018-Copaxone 40mg (3 times a week shots) (for Multiple Sclerosis)2/17/18 begin transition to liquid 200mg
  • magnesium, fish oil

 

 
   

 

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33 minutes ago, Rosetta said:

I suppose I should be glad that I'm actually doing better, except on my worst days, this year than I was in 2016!!!

I, too, am trying to reconstruct why in the hell I went on Zoloft. And how I was those five years when I vacillated between 50-100 mg. The mood swings, the still present depression (but no anxiety), and eventual poop-out after deciding not to raise my dose.

 

I think the reconstruction impetus occurs as one starts to stabilize (way to go on the "normal" day, Rosetta) although I still feel intense, burning rage at the western medical institution that doesn't take your situation into account and just prescribes an AD to get you out of the door. And, the self-anger at wanting a pill to be a magic bullet. Only after 10 months have I stabilized the past couple weeks (thank god) through diligent lifestyle changes and, more to the point, time.

  • Prozac | late 2004-mid-2005 | CT WD in a couple months, mostly emotional
  • Sertraline 50-100mg | 11/2011-3/2014, 10/2014-3/2017
  • Sertraline fast taper March 2017, 4 weeks, OFF sertraline April 1, 2017
  • Quit alcohol May 20, 2017
  • Lifestyle changes: AA, kundalini yoga

 

"If you've seen a monster, even if it's horrible, that's evidence of divinity." – Damien Echols

 

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Samantha,

I went through a phase of feeling terrible about disappointing my husband.  Eventually, I stopped feeling bad all the time because I realized it wasn't my fault.  He is very understanding, but he's so tired, too.  I still feel bad for him, but I realized that all the stress I was putting on myself was making it harder for me to do what he needed me to do.  I'm not sure if that realization helped me or not, but I did stop worrying as much and I didn't start to feel better.  It was probably just time.  One way or another, I do know that pushing yourself too hard is not going to get the results you want.  I hope your husband will -- and can -- let you rest as much as you need to.

 

FGW,

 

23 minutes ago, FarmGirlWorks said:

I think the reconstruction impetus occurs as one starts to stabilize (way to go on the "normal" day, Rosetta) although I still feel intense, burning rage . . .

 

Do you think so?  I wondered about that myself.  Am I able to think better which means I am healing, and therefore I do think about these things whereas I used to be in survival mode all the time?  I see in your signature that you have a low histamine diet.  Can you describe that?  Is it on your thread?

 

You are getting whole days that are normal days, too?

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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3 hours ago, Rosetta said:

Do you think so?  I wondered about that myself.  Am I able to think better which means I am healing, and therefore I do think about these things whereas I used to be in survival mode all the time?  I see in your signature that you have a low histamine diet.  Can you describe that?  Is it on your thread?

 

You are getting whole days that are normal days, too?

I am getting partially normal days... in that, most of the day is blue but not anxious. I just was triggered a few hours ago and felt sadder than normal. But I do feel that for the past two weeks I have started to stabilize. I started getting acupuncture once a week (today was the 4th time) and that coincides with stability although who can say if it is that, the change in weather, or (my guess) time.

 

Low histamine started in late August to reduce inflammation (theory by docs: depression is inflammation in brain and gut). Avoiding nightshades (eggplant, tomatoes) and spinach, nuts, avocados, fermented foods, and nuts. You know, everything good for you. Does seem to help though. I started adding kombucha and avocados back in the mix this week but am wary. For instance, had 1/2 avocado a few hours ago and also got triggered pretty easily. Coincidence or not, I don't know.

 

Also, I started being gluten-free two weeks ago (inflammation) and that has been great for my body.

 

I do have Magic Oatmeal once a day to support my CNS and that makes me feel good. It's oatmeal, coconut flakes, turmeric, honey, bee pollen and blueberries.

  • Prozac | late 2004-mid-2005 | CT WD in a couple months, mostly emotional
  • Sertraline 50-100mg | 11/2011-3/2014, 10/2014-3/2017
  • Sertraline fast taper March 2017, 4 weeks, OFF sertraline April 1, 2017
  • Quit alcohol May 20, 2017
  • Lifestyle changes: AA, kundalini yoga

 

"If you've seen a monster, even if it's horrible, that's evidence of divinity." – Damien Echols

 

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36 minutes ago, FarmGirlWorks said:

I started adding kombucha and avocados back in the mix this week but am wary. For instance, had 1/2 avocado a few hours ago and also got triggered pretty easily. Coincidence or not, I don't know.

 

I had kombucha for the first time today -- blueberry-ginger flavor, and I had pistachios and avocado.  We'll see if there's a reaction.  So far I'm fine.

 

I understand the anger.  The medical profession has lost all credibility with me.

 

 

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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