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It’s 5:44.  I had another spike.  I had finally fallen asleep.  I was up since 3:00.  I’m having daymares again.  The thought of horrible things happening.  Very visual.  I’m sick to my stomach again.  My heart doesn’t hurt too much compared to earlier.  I’m having akathisia again.  My legs are restless, I’m nervous, anxious.  Wishing I had never been born,

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Thanks, @Sheera.  Thank you, @bubbles.   I forgot to note that something physical has changed, and it’s a big deal.  Last Fall, in August, I tried to wear contact lenses again.  I had given

@Amira123 Oh, yes, all of that!  It all slowly lessened over time.  There were windows when I felt relief from those symptoms.  Then, they would come back and go away again.  At times, I had bad waves

I wrote something similar to this to another member, and I thought I would post it here before I sign off:   It WILL get better.  I am SO MUCH better!  Sometimes I think I should pinch mysel

I was up from about 3:00 am until about 5:00 am last night after a cortisol spike.  I woke with a cortisol spike at about 6:90, but it wasn’t too harsh.  Then I slept until about 8:00.  No aka, not much anxiety today.  I have restless legs tonight interfering with going to sleep.  I have my heating pad on my legs.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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  • Altostrata changed the title to Rosetta: Cold Switch May 2011 & too fast taper Feb 2017

How are you, dear Rosetta?

2008-2019: various ADs at various doses, initially for anxiety related insomnia.

2015-2018: Pristiq 50mg and Mirtazapine 30mg. Switched Pristiq to Venlafaxine.

2019-01: Stopped Venlafaxine after a 10 months taper. Updosed Mirtazapine to 45mg.

Summer 2019: Fast taper of Mirtazapine. Sept 2019, down to 30mg, hit bad W/D symptoms, so updosed to 45mg.

Tried escitalopram 10mg, C/T after 4 weeks. Tried Buspar, C/T after 5 days.

Jan 2020: Second mirtazapine weaning attempt, but end of january, big wave of symptoms, updose to 45mg Mirtazapine.

Feb 2020: 50mg quetiapineXR, CT after 2 weeks. 21 Feb 2020, found SA and staying on 45mg Mirtazapine, waiting for stabilization.

Quetiapine 25mg and Lorazepam 0.5mg PRN since may 2019, March 2020 stopped both.

Mirtazapine taper: 2020-10-21 43.88mg, 10-28 42.75mg, 11-04 41.63mg, 11-11 40.5mg, 11-24 41.6mg.

Supplements: Magnesium Glycinate, Omega-3, Melatonin2mg, Probiotic.

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I am better.  The cortisol spikes still happen, but they are weaker.  I’m awake for hours perhaps or only 1/2 an hour, but I don’t feel sick to my stomach.  Tonight, I’m having muscle tension, and I’m clenching my jaw.  This is better than what was happening before!

 

@Hanna72 @Mimi79 @Elyssa143 @Frogie @wantrelief Thank you all for being there for me recently.  It was very helpful.  I think I’m in what is a window for me.  It’s still hard, but I’m better.  All my love to you, and I hope you are doing well.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Oh ! I love reading that you're feeling better ! 🤗

Thank you for letting us know !

 

I hope this relief will allow you to rest more 🤗

2006 : 20mg Paroxetine + Bromazepam(no specific dose) 

2008 : cold turkey of both

2010 : 20mg Deroxat + Bromazepam

2013: Switch from Bromazepam To Prazepam (long half-life)

2014-June2017 : Prazepam taper, 3% drops. 

2018 to August 2019 : Paroxetine 20mg taper (3% every 15 days).

- 22nd August updosed To 10mg (was at 8.4mg) because of a big wave. 

25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paroxetine. 

 

April 2020-August 2020 : Paxil to Prozac bridge. Details https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/21457-erell-struggling-with-paroxetine/?do=findComment&comment=499847

 

Current Supplements : magnesium citrate/ fish oil/ evening primrose oil 

 

Current medication :

7mg Fluoxetine + toothpick Paroxetine (since 20 Aug 2020)

1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020)

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Thank you, @Erell.  I hope you feel better soon.

 

I’m beginning to think that sugar is a problem.  I’m wondering if I might recover if I stopped eating sugar.  Anything that affects hormones (well, ok, that’s everything), anything that affects hormones to a greater degree, is probably off limits.  Yeah, pretty depressing thought, huh?  But, for me, at this point, it’s worth a shot.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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6 minutes ago, Rosetta said:

 ’m beginning to think that sugar is a problem.  I’m wondering if I might recover if I stopped eating sugar.  Anything that affects hormones (well, ok, that’s everything), anything that affects hormones to a greater degree, is probably off limits.  Yeah, pretty depressing thought, huh?  But, for me, at this point, it’s worth a shot.

 

I definitely think sugar can be a problem : I've noticed that sugar makes me more restless or anxious. And it seems that other folks report that reaction too.

Like with alcohol, once you realise that something isn't good for you, it's definitely worth a shot ☺

My only sugar now is in fresh fruits. 

 

I used to find depressing the fact that I might not be able to drink alcohol again in my life. But now that I value so much my health, it doesn't bother me anymore.

 

Our bodies are beautiful machines and I wanna cherish mine 😉

 

2006 : 20mg Paroxetine + Bromazepam(no specific dose) 

2008 : cold turkey of both

2010 : 20mg Deroxat + Bromazepam

2013: Switch from Bromazepam To Prazepam (long half-life)

2014-June2017 : Prazepam taper, 3% drops. 

2018 to August 2019 : Paroxetine 20mg taper (3% every 15 days).

- 22nd August updosed To 10mg (was at 8.4mg) because of a big wave. 

25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paroxetine. 

 

April 2020-August 2020 : Paxil to Prozac bridge. Details https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/21457-erell-struggling-with-paroxetine/?do=findComment&comment=499847

 

Current Supplements : magnesium citrate/ fish oil/ evening primrose oil 

 

Current medication :

7mg Fluoxetine + toothpick Paroxetine (since 20 Aug 2020)

1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020)

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13 hours ago, Erell said:

I used to find depressing the fact that I might not be able to drink alcohol again in my life.

I still find it very hard to not be able to drink a glass of wine, especially when I’m with friends or family. Sometime I put in my glass just a little quantity of wine, like one little sip, just to feel normal in the eyes of people around.  
I really hope that when I will be done with ADs I will be able to drink and eat what I want without any issues! 

2008-2019: various ADs at various doses, initially for anxiety related insomnia.

2015-2018: Pristiq 50mg and Mirtazapine 30mg. Switched Pristiq to Venlafaxine.

2019-01: Stopped Venlafaxine after a 10 months taper. Updosed Mirtazapine to 45mg.

Summer 2019: Fast taper of Mirtazapine. Sept 2019, down to 30mg, hit bad W/D symptoms, so updosed to 45mg.

Tried escitalopram 10mg, C/T after 4 weeks. Tried Buspar, C/T after 5 days.

Jan 2020: Second mirtazapine weaning attempt, but end of january, big wave of symptoms, updose to 45mg Mirtazapine.

Feb 2020: 50mg quetiapineXR, CT after 2 weeks. 21 Feb 2020, found SA and staying on 45mg Mirtazapine, waiting for stabilization.

Quetiapine 25mg and Lorazepam 0.5mg PRN since may 2019, March 2020 stopped both.

Mirtazapine taper: 2020-10-21 43.88mg, 10-28 42.75mg, 11-04 41.63mg, 11-11 40.5mg, 11-24 41.6mg.

Supplements: Magnesium Glycinate, Omega-3, Melatonin2mg, Probiotic.

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Muscle tension is the problem now.  I’m clenching my jaw in my sleep And waking up with pain in my chest, cheeks, and lower jaw.  Could be worse.  It’s not migraine level pain the way it used to be.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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I'm so sorry to hear that. I had a lot of trouble from clenching in my sleep. I ended up having shots of Botox in my masseters, which reduced the amount of damage I could inflict on myself. It helped a lot but took several weeks for the pain in my face to subside. I've always bruxed (at least, so the dentist said) but it was only on SSRIs that it was incredibly painful. Now that my dose is very low, I'm back to my baseline - occasionally I can tell I'm doing it but it never hurts that same way so I've not had to resort to the botox again. If it happened again, I would though - it really helped.

 

Hope it improves soon.

My thread here at SA: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/1775-bubbles/page/14/

2005 St John's Wort / 2006-2012 Lexapro 20mg, 2 failed attempts to stop, tapered over 4.5 months in early 2012

January 2013 started Sertraline, over time worked up to 100mg / July 2014 dropped from 100mg to 75mg, held for six months

2015 tapered to 50mg over several months, held for several months, some more drops

2016 Feb 35mg, 6 Mar 33mg, more drops (note big drop (calc error) & up to 25mg), more drops (about 2mg at a time)

2017 - more small drops, more long holds

2018 March at 11mg;  April 20 9mg; June 11 8.1mg; (July 10 7.7mg / July 18 7.3mg); ( Sept 2 7.2mg, Sept 5 7.1mg, Sept 9 7mg); 30 Sept 6.5mg, ? 6mg, 23 Nov 5.5mg) 19 Dec 5mg

2019 (micro drops over two weeks 24 Mar 4.9mg, 28 Mar 4.8mg, 31 Mar 4.7mg, 4 Apr 4.6mg, 7 Apr 4.5mg / 22 April 4.4mg, 26 April 4.3mg, 2 May 4.2mg, 5 May 4.1mg, 9 May 4mg), 3 Oct 3.9mg, (20 Oct 3.8mg, 27 Oct 3.7mg, 3 Nov 3.6mg), 24 Nov 3.5mg, 8 Dec 3.4mg, 15 Dec 3.3mg, 22 Dec 3.2mg

2020 19 Jan 3.1mg, 26 Jan 3.0mg; 1 Mar 2.9, 7 Mar 2.8, May (some drops here) 24 May 2.5, May 29 2.4, June 21 2.3, June 28 2.2mg,  July 4 2.1mg, July 24 (or maybe a bit before) 2mg

Current Sertraline: July 24: 2 mg / Armour Thyroid / endless allergy meds, erg

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Elyssa143

@Rosetta

of course, no need to thank me. I am glad you are better! I’m coming up on 30 months this week, definitely having better times but I’m in a wave right now and it’s extremely hard. The suicidal intrusive thoughts the feeling of wanting to die the inner akasthia, it’s horrible. I can’t believe I’m still dealing with the suicidal stuff this far out. I truly hope your big corner is sometime soon!!! Did you still have these feelings and thoughts at my time off? Hugs to you and thank you for always being there for me.

13 months on 25 mg of sertraline.

Fast taper in march 2018, reinstated 12.5mg

Cold turkey sertraline april 17,2018

Zyprexa 5mg april 17,2018

Zyprexa taper to lamictal May 4-13 (life threatening rash)

Back on zyprexa 5mg for 10days & tapered over 5 weeks.

21 months off sertraline 

19 months off zyprexa

22 months into withdrawl 

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@Elyssa143 Oh, it is so hard, isn’t it?  Really life changing.  “This far out.”  Tell me about it.  The amount of time it takes for the brain to change!  I’m not having SI these days.  It’s been a while since that happened.  I think it was within the past 8 months, but I don’t remember exactly when.  It’s in my thread.  It’s amazing for that to be on hiatus.  I forget to be thankful for that, but it is such a change.  Someday, you will see.
 

Hi @bubbles Botox.  I have thought about that.  It scares me, but to not wake up feeling physical distress.  That would be so nice.  I wake in the night with my tongue pressed very hard against my palate. It seems that if I’m having physical issues when I wake in the night I’m not having emotional issues, and vice versa.  Once in a while, I have neither for one day or maybe two if I’m lucky.
 

It doesn’t seem to matter whether I exercised or not.  I think I need to lift weights or do resistance work on the chest and back.  For my jaw, I doubt there’s anything I could do.  Tonight, my right foot is cramping.  My toes, arch.  No headache.  That’s a huge plus.  

 

I’m glad you have seen such improvement, Bubbles.   
 

Yes, @Mimi79, me, too.  Me, too!

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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4 hours ago, Rosetta said:

Hi @bubbles Botox.  I have thought about that.  It scares me, but to not wake up feeling physical distress.  That would be so nice.  I wake in the night with my tongue pressed very hard against my palate. It seems that if I’m having physical issues when I wake in the night I’m not having emotional issues, and vice versa.  Once in a while, I have neither for one day or maybe two if I’m lucky.
 

It doesn’t seem to matter whether I exercised or not.  I think I need to lift weights or do resistance work on the chest and back.  For my jaw, I doubt there’s anything I could do.  Tonight, my right foot is cramping.  My toes, arch.  No headache.  That’s a huge plus.  

 

I’m glad you have seen such improvement, Bubbles.  

 

My physical therapist spent six months talking me into it, so I know what you mean! The clenching was causing a lot of pain and damage though, so it was the only thing left to try. The dentist tells me it's only for extreme cases. :( Oh well, it did help.

My thread here at SA: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/1775-bubbles/page/14/

2005 St John's Wort / 2006-2012 Lexapro 20mg, 2 failed attempts to stop, tapered over 4.5 months in early 2012

January 2013 started Sertraline, over time worked up to 100mg / July 2014 dropped from 100mg to 75mg, held for six months

2015 tapered to 50mg over several months, held for several months, some more drops

2016 Feb 35mg, 6 Mar 33mg, more drops (note big drop (calc error) & up to 25mg), more drops (about 2mg at a time)

2017 - more small drops, more long holds

2018 March at 11mg;  April 20 9mg; June 11 8.1mg; (July 10 7.7mg / July 18 7.3mg); ( Sept 2 7.2mg, Sept 5 7.1mg, Sept 9 7mg); 30 Sept 6.5mg, ? 6mg, 23 Nov 5.5mg) 19 Dec 5mg

2019 (micro drops over two weeks 24 Mar 4.9mg, 28 Mar 4.8mg, 31 Mar 4.7mg, 4 Apr 4.6mg, 7 Apr 4.5mg / 22 April 4.4mg, 26 April 4.3mg, 2 May 4.2mg, 5 May 4.1mg, 9 May 4mg), 3 Oct 3.9mg, (20 Oct 3.8mg, 27 Oct 3.7mg, 3 Nov 3.6mg), 24 Nov 3.5mg, 8 Dec 3.4mg, 15 Dec 3.3mg, 22 Dec 3.2mg

2020 19 Jan 3.1mg, 26 Jan 3.0mg; 1 Mar 2.9, 7 Mar 2.8, May (some drops here) 24 May 2.5, May 29 2.4, June 21 2.3, June 28 2.2mg,  July 4 2.1mg, July 24 (or maybe a bit before) 2mg

Current Sertraline: July 24: 2 mg / Armour Thyroid / endless allergy meds, erg

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@bubbles  Thanks for the suggestion.  Everything is improving for me, slowly but surely.  Bruxism, too.  I think menopause is a big part of why WD is lasting so long for me.  The hormones induce waves perhaps.  I think I will keep the idea of Botox in reserve, just in case, but I’m afraid that any drug could cause me to have akathisia again.  That is a terrifying thought.  If I do have aka now it’s pretty mild compared to before.  I think that when I have aka in my arms and legs that reminds me of having it in my “brain,” and that is a big part of the experience of aka now — a Pavlovian sort of reaction.  Sometimes, it affects my actions, but so infrequently compared to before.  When I go into a deeper, longer wave, I have the stronger mental effects of aka. Fortunately, the worst part of aka, SI, almost never happens any longer, and if it does, I know it won’t last long (even if it comes back the next day).  
 

It’s very kind of you to share that botox helped you.  I should check your thread soon.  I hope you are doing well.  You were on a high dose of sertraline, too, I see.  Awful drug.  It’s super cool that you are at such a low dose!  

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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I'm doing well. Glad to hear things are improving for you too. 

My thread here at SA: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/1775-bubbles/page/14/

2005 St John's Wort / 2006-2012 Lexapro 20mg, 2 failed attempts to stop, tapered over 4.5 months in early 2012

January 2013 started Sertraline, over time worked up to 100mg / July 2014 dropped from 100mg to 75mg, held for six months

2015 tapered to 50mg over several months, held for several months, some more drops

2016 Feb 35mg, 6 Mar 33mg, more drops (note big drop (calc error) & up to 25mg), more drops (about 2mg at a time)

2017 - more small drops, more long holds

2018 March at 11mg;  April 20 9mg; June 11 8.1mg; (July 10 7.7mg / July 18 7.3mg); ( Sept 2 7.2mg, Sept 5 7.1mg, Sept 9 7mg); 30 Sept 6.5mg, ? 6mg, 23 Nov 5.5mg) 19 Dec 5mg

2019 (micro drops over two weeks 24 Mar 4.9mg, 28 Mar 4.8mg, 31 Mar 4.7mg, 4 Apr 4.6mg, 7 Apr 4.5mg / 22 April 4.4mg, 26 April 4.3mg, 2 May 4.2mg, 5 May 4.1mg, 9 May 4mg), 3 Oct 3.9mg, (20 Oct 3.8mg, 27 Oct 3.7mg, 3 Nov 3.6mg), 24 Nov 3.5mg, 8 Dec 3.4mg, 15 Dec 3.3mg, 22 Dec 3.2mg

2020 19 Jan 3.1mg, 26 Jan 3.0mg; 1 Mar 2.9, 7 Mar 2.8, May (some drops here) 24 May 2.5, May 29 2.4, June 21 2.3, June 28 2.2mg,  July 4 2.1mg, July 24 (or maybe a bit before) 2mg

Current Sertraline: July 24: 2 mg / Armour Thyroid / endless allergy meds, erg

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@RosettaI want you to know that your healing is always in the back of my mind. ❤️❤️ Slow and steady wins the race, warrior friend. 
 

Sheera

Started Lamictal and Brintellix in November 2015

May 2016 Discontinued Lamictal 100 to 50 and then stopped completely.

October 20, 2016 discontinued Brintellex 10 to 5 then went from 5 to 0 on November 10, 2016.

 

Currently off all antidepressants

 

Current Supplements:  L-Theanine, Natural Progesterone, L-Methylfolate, Vitamin D, Omega-3's, Probiotic

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Thanks, @Sheera.  Thank you, @bubbles.

 

I forgot to note that something physical has changed, and it’s a big deal.  Last Fall, in August, I tried to wear contact lenses again.  I had given up on them because I was too sick to deal with them.  I wanted to wear them in Spain.  When I tried the new pair, they made me so dizzy that I couldn’t use them.  I tried again just a couple of weeks ago, and the same pair worked out fine!!! Yesterday, I was able to wear them while driving!!  This is a very important  improvement to my life.  I see so much better with contact lenses.  Plus, this means that my brain or body — the connection between them — has changed.  Wow.  Just wow.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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20 minutes ago, Rosetta said:

Wow.

Wow is right.  That is great and a real sign of healing.

Gridley Introduction

 

Lexapro 20 mg since 2004.  Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017.   

End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg 

End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg

End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg  

Oct. 30, 2020  Jump to zero from 0.025mg.  Current dose: 0.000mg

3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete.

 

Lorazepam 1 mg 1986-1991 CT, soon reinstated.  CT 2000. RI 1 mg 2011-2016.  Sept. 2016  0.625mg X 3

Nov.27, 2020 Begin 6-week Ativan-Valium crossover.

 

Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986.  Jan. 2016 began every 3-weeks 10% taper, down to 15mg.  Aug 2016, discovered SA, updosed to 25mg and holding.  Taper is 66% complete.  

  

Supplements: omega, vitamins E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, melatonin .3mg


I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

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happy for you, @Rosetta !

keep healing!

xx

went on Prozac 1994-99,60mg.poopout ct  back on 2001-2002,prozac weekly 2002,not working,Effexor 75 mg.?2003-mar.2004 gaining weight 8wk. taper,wellbutrin 150 mg.mar. -may 2004 ctmedfree til july 2005 back to Prozac gaining weight again,back on wellbutrin jan.2006150-300 mg.bad constipation.also was taking aygestin(hormone)perimenopausal irregular bleeding.back on Prozac around sept,?2006,hysterectomy jan30.2007(adenomyosis)off&on Prozac til 2009,citalopram about 1 mo, April 2010 no effect,Effexor again may -mar, 2011.ct,Prozac aug,-dec, 2011 &sept-nov 2012,paroxetine oct,23 2013-may 4 2014 20 mgs.tapered 6 wks.-failed RI in Oct.2014-in protracted WD.

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wantrelief

So happy to read this, Rosetta....what a wonderful sign of healing! 

-1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper; withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD)

-10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin
-Tried several times to slowly taper Zoloft by 10%, then 5% every 4-6 weeks; could never get below approx. 40 mg - spring 2012 experienced major WD symptoms due to stress; tried to updose but no relief, back on Klonopin 1 mg.
-Switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to Citalopram. Finished Zoloft 1/13; Citalopram 35 mg and 1 mg Klonopin.
-8/13: 27 mg Citalopram; 1 mg Klonopin

-11/14: 12.6 Citalopram - began to have bad withdrawal symptoms; out of desperation increased to 1.25 mg Klonopin at the beginning of December.  12/13/14 16 mg Citalopram - going to stay here to try to stabilize; stabilized on 16 mg Citalopram after 4-5 months

-7/15 - 3/16: reduced to 15 mg; ~ 2 months later w/d hit hard (probably r/t stress); 6/16 updosed to 20 mg Citalopram and trying to stabilize. Updosed to 1.5 Klonopin as well. Stabilized on 20 mg Citalopram after 4-5 months

8/17-9/17: feeling withdrawal symptoms at 20 mg Citalopram (due to stress) - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?)  - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg).

Supplements: fish oil; vitamin D3; curcumin

Citalopram taper:  2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg

2020: 1/14/20: 10.89 mg (1.27% drop); 1/22/20: 10.75 mg (1.29% drop); 2/28/20 toe surgery; 4/26/20: 10.62 mg (1.21% drop); 5/3/20: 10.5 mg (1.22% drop); 5/10/20: 10.4 mg (1.24% drop); 5/17/20: 10.2 mg (1.25% drop); 6/7/20: 10.10 mg (1.27% drop); 6/14/20: 9.98 mg (1.19% drop); 6/21/20: 9.85 mg (1.30% drop); 6/28/20: 9.7 mg (1.22% drop); 7/12/20: 9.6 mg (1.23% drop); 7/19/20: 9.5 mg (1.25% drop); 7/26/20: 9.4 mg (1.26% drop); 8/2/20: 9.3 mg (1.28% drop); 8/17/20: 9.14 mg (1.19% drop); 8/31/20: 9.0 mg (1.31% drop); 9/6/20: 8.9 mg (1.22% drop); 9/27/20: 8.8 mg (1.23% drop); 10/4/20: 8.7 mg (1.25% drop); 10/11/20: 8.6 mg (1.27% drop); 10/18/20: 8.5 mg (1.28% drop); 11/8/20: 8.4 mg (1.18% drop); 11/15/20: 8.3 mg (1.19% drop); 11/22/20: 8.2 mg (1.21% drop)

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Thanks, everyone!  Insomnia tonight.  I’ve been awake for hours.  It’s 5:17 am.  No cortisol wake up.  For that I’m grateful.  Dystonia is returning.  My toes, arch of my foot, front of my calf, hip, neck and jaw.  It’s not painful; it’s more of a sensation. Annoying.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Bad jaw clenching for two nights.  Waking up in pain that doesn’t go away.  The muscle tension remains.  It’s now 11:49 am.  I’m thinking Epsom salt bath.  Wish I had some right now. I lost control

of my hands earlier today and spilled soup all over the floor.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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ShiningLight

Rosetta,

 

So sorry to hear about the jaw clenching. I just finished a 3 day headache from that, it was awful. Very hard when the jaw clenching happens in your sleep, how the heck are you supposed to prevent that?! My dentist is making me a new nightguard but that only saves my teeth (to the extent possible), it doesn't stop it.

 

I hope you're doing a little better today.

Now: Gabapentin 31 mg 4x/day =124 mg, 150 mg Zoloft am since 2004, 50 mg Trazodone bedtime.  Daily drug burden decreased from 2050 mg to 324 mg 🐢🐢

2020, Gabapentin each dose 4x/day: Aug 20 31 mg, Aug 18, 33 mg, July 29, 35 mg, July 23 38 mg, July 22 40 mg Jun 24 42 mg, Jun 15 44 mg, Jun 9 48 mg, May 22 50 mg, May 14 54 mg, May 7 56 mg, Apr 16 58 mg, Mar 28 60 mg, Mar 18 62 mg. Feb 26 64 mg. Feb 19, 66 mg. Jan 23, 70 mg.

2019 Dec 19, 72 mg. Nov 14 ,76 mg. Aug 8, 80 mg. Aug 6, 85 mg. Jul 26, 90 mg. Jul 11, 95 mg.

Jul 16 trazodone from 100 to 50 mg.

Jun 17-July 10 Slowly changed gab fr pill to liquid at same dose 100 mg 4x/d.

Apr 24 Stopped klon!!! 🌞 Apr 4  Decreased gaba to 400 mg (100 mg 4x/day)-Apr 4, 2019   0.25 klon

March 11  Klonopin .5 mg twice daily, varied dose til Apr 15. Started Klon fast taper 25%, short use

Mar 16, 450 mg gaba 3x/day cut 600 mg--not exact!--updose after learning w/d

Feb 20, 2019 1800 mg gabapentin; MD taper; off 3 days=mvt disorder & autonomic instability. July 2018 temazepam 15 mg 1-2; prn several x/wk til Jan/Feb 2019 when cold turkey, flu illness for months

July 2018 started gabapentin 100 3x/day; titrated up to 1800 mg (600 3x/day)

Buspar, I forget how much, 2 pills a day Jan 2017-July 2018 cold turkey

*I speak from my experience. Nothing I say is medical advice. I'm not a doctor.

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@Rosetta

so sorry to hear of the dystonia returning. Do you take magnesium or spray magnesium? Not sure if it helps but those symptoms sound similar to needing magnesium. I’m 30 months now, I had 5 really good days not healed of course. But much better and of course now back down, the inner akasthia is horrific. And the si and intrusive si is so hard it makes me feel alone especially being this far out with this stuff that I see so many people get rid of early off. :( quite discouraging to still have the suicidal stuff. I do hope all in all your improving! Hugs to you

13 months on 25 mg of sertraline.

Fast taper in march 2018, reinstated 12.5mg

Cold turkey sertraline april 17,2018

Zyprexa 5mg april 17,2018

Zyprexa taper to lamictal May 4-13 (life threatening rash)

Back on zyprexa 5mg for 10days & tapered over 5 weeks.

21 months off sertraline 

19 months off zyprexa

22 months into withdrawl 

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Today, I am much better.  Still achey.  I pulled some muscles in my neck and back during the clenching yesterday morning.  I woke up with a crick in my neck.  Reduced range of movement without pain — all that. So frustrating.  
 

Yes, @Elyssa143, it is very discouraging to have severe symptoms for so long.  I’m sorry you are one of us.  This is a marathon for some of us and not others.  It’s very hard to avoid feeling jealous, I’ll admit.  I’m happy for those who have a short recovery because ADWD can be life threatening.  I wish I had been lucky.  However, I was luckier than many who didn’t have the support I had, and some who never discovered SA.  The SI will eventually go.  It did for me.  It’s strange to live without it after decades of having it come back over and over again.  
 

@ShiningLight I’m glad you are getting a break.  What a crazy thing it is that medicine harmed us all so much.

 

@wantrelief @Gridley @direstraits I seem to be come back up for air again.  Thanks for your comments earlier.  Knowing you are out there is such a comfort to me.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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So sorry to hear that the clenching is so bad. We can inflict a lot of pressure when we do that. :(

My thread here at SA: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/1775-bubbles/page/14/

2005 St John's Wort / 2006-2012 Lexapro 20mg, 2 failed attempts to stop, tapered over 4.5 months in early 2012

January 2013 started Sertraline, over time worked up to 100mg / July 2014 dropped from 100mg to 75mg, held for six months

2015 tapered to 50mg over several months, held for several months, some more drops

2016 Feb 35mg, 6 Mar 33mg, more drops (note big drop (calc error) & up to 25mg), more drops (about 2mg at a time)

2017 - more small drops, more long holds

2018 March at 11mg;  April 20 9mg; June 11 8.1mg; (July 10 7.7mg / July 18 7.3mg); ( Sept 2 7.2mg, Sept 5 7.1mg, Sept 9 7mg); 30 Sept 6.5mg, ? 6mg, 23 Nov 5.5mg) 19 Dec 5mg

2019 (micro drops over two weeks 24 Mar 4.9mg, 28 Mar 4.8mg, 31 Mar 4.7mg, 4 Apr 4.6mg, 7 Apr 4.5mg / 22 April 4.4mg, 26 April 4.3mg, 2 May 4.2mg, 5 May 4.1mg, 9 May 4mg), 3 Oct 3.9mg, (20 Oct 3.8mg, 27 Oct 3.7mg, 3 Nov 3.6mg), 24 Nov 3.5mg, 8 Dec 3.4mg, 15 Dec 3.3mg, 22 Dec 3.2mg

2020 19 Jan 3.1mg, 26 Jan 3.0mg; 1 Mar 2.9, 7 Mar 2.8, May (some drops here) 24 May 2.5, May 29 2.4, June 21 2.3, June 28 2.2mg,  July 4 2.1mg, July 24 (or maybe a bit before) 2mg

Current Sertraline: July 24: 2 mg / Armour Thyroid / endless allergy meds, erg

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@Rosetta

thank you so much, it’s exhausting all of it. I know your exhausted too!  Did you have the inner akasthia? I’m so glad to hear the si goes!!! This is awful and the inner aka has been awful for me lately, I also still have the intrusive si, exactly like you explained in in your response to me I am so glad to hear that goes and yes it will be so strange to live with out it as well. Look forward to hearing back hope your doing a bit better I will be much relieved when my brain doesn’t go to suicide for every uptick in symptoms. Hugs to you

13 months on 25 mg of sertraline.

Fast taper in march 2018, reinstated 12.5mg

Cold turkey sertraline april 17,2018

Zyprexa 5mg april 17,2018

Zyprexa taper to lamictal May 4-13 (life threatening rash)

Back on zyprexa 5mg for 10days & tapered over 5 weeks.

21 months off sertraline 

19 months off zyprexa

22 months into withdrawl 

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@Erell I replied in your thread, dear.  I hope you are feeling better soon.

 

I’m hanging in there.  There has been some increased anxiety lately.  Trying to make my daughter do her school work is very frustrating.  My anxiety doesn’t help her much, as you can imagine.  She’s lonely.  I’m tired, and I’m not sleeping well.
 

My symptoms are yo-yo-ing again.  From day to day there are changes.  The swings are not as wide as they used to be, but it’s not easy.  I’m so tired.  One thing I’m grateful for is that no one can come inside my house.  I used to have weekly panic attacks because the cleaning lady was coming.  Now, my house is dirty, but I don’t feel invaded.  I wish I had the energy to clean.  
 

I’m so worn out by the arguments over school work that I have no energy for anything else.  I’m very depressed by how my relationship with my daughter is going.  She’s stressed out, too.  There is a lot of work for 4th grade, and just managing it all is hard.  She is seeing school work as a negative thing.  It’s not fun very often, and I don’t have the energy to make it fun.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Hi dear Rosetta,

I’m sorry to see you are struggling a bit these days. Homeschooling is not an easy task, we are not teachers, we are parents!. I think it’s normal that your anxiety is higher because of that. It would be the same for me.
 

Luckily, here the schools have re opened  and I’m so glad that my girls are back to their school, with their friends. They are so happy to be back in a more «normal » routine. I just hope that the schools won’t close again. I hate homeschooling, I don’t have the patience and the energy.

 

I hope you are able to find some time to take care of yourself and relax. And some happy time with your daughter. 
 

Take care of you!

 

Anne-Marie

2008-2019: various ADs at various doses, initially for anxiety related insomnia.

2015-2018: Pristiq 50mg and Mirtazapine 30mg. Switched Pristiq to Venlafaxine.

2019-01: Stopped Venlafaxine after a 10 months taper. Updosed Mirtazapine to 45mg.

Summer 2019: Fast taper of Mirtazapine. Sept 2019, down to 30mg, hit bad W/D symptoms, so updosed to 45mg.

Tried escitalopram 10mg, C/T after 4 weeks. Tried Buspar, C/T after 5 days.

Jan 2020: Second mirtazapine weaning attempt, but end of january, big wave of symptoms, updose to 45mg Mirtazapine.

Feb 2020: 50mg quetiapineXR, CT after 2 weeks. 21 Feb 2020, found SA and staying on 45mg Mirtazapine, waiting for stabilization.

Quetiapine 25mg and Lorazepam 0.5mg PRN since may 2019, March 2020 stopped both.

Mirtazapine taper: 2020-10-21 43.88mg, 10-28 42.75mg, 11-04 41.63mg, 11-11 40.5mg, 11-24 41.6mg.

Supplements: Magnesium Glycinate, Omega-3, Melatonin2mg, Probiotic.

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I take it for granted much of the time, but every so often I think, “This is so amazing.  I can live through all sorts of days, and moments, that used to take me so low, and there is no SI.”  It’s an absurd thought, no?  How many people go through life never thinking that thought?  
 

I’m in a wave that is not too deep.  I’m having dystonia again, tremors in my hands, insomnia, lack of appetite — those sorts of things.  There is some anxiety mixed with anhedonia.  It’s all very mild compared to what happened before.  My husband says I have been anxious for about three weeks.  
 

I’m making a Halloween costume for my daughter.  It’s going well.  I can tell how much I have healed from how I deal with Halloween this year compared to last year.  Last year, we were In Europe, moving from one apartment to another on the same day we had a Halloween party in a park.  It was very stressful.  This year, we are at home.  There are no parties, of course.  The kids can wear their costumes to school on Friday.  We will go trick or treating — very carefully.

 

My daughter has been back in school for just over a week.  She has class Tues through Friday from 11:45 am to 2:45 pm.  That is all.  It’s not enough schooling, but it has been good to have a break from having her doing only virtual school.  It’s better for our relationship this way.  One thing that is fantastic — I do not have to get her off to school in the morning.  I can wait until the morning anxiety has worn off or at least lessened before I have to pester her to get ready.  This is amazing!!!!
 

It’s very odd to have anxiety and anhedonia at the same time.  Sometimes, I’m anxious, but I don’t care?  Is it that I know the anxiety means nothing?  Is this a taste of what being “normal” feels like?  Is it simply a lower level of anxiety, and I’m not used to that?  

Oh, thank you, @Mimi79!


 

 

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Hi @Rosetta,

I’m so happy to read you! You seems peaceful!

Indeed, passing through the hell of withdrawal helps us to see life with new eyes. 
 

You were very courageous to travel in Europe in the midst of WD. Not sure I would have been able to do that. It was my gift for my 40th birthday,  I was suppose to go to Paris in May, and I’m happy that Covid19 forced me to cancel. I wouldn’t have had a good time with all my symptoms. At the time I was suppose to be in Europe, I was in one of the worse wave ever.

 

I’m so happy for you that your daughter is back to school. It is so important for our kids to socialize with others. School is important for their learning, but for their psychological development too. This is in school that we learn how to interact with others, that we learn how to live in society. This is why here, our gouvernement really try to keep schools opened. 
 

I’ve just started my taper and I’m a little bit anxious about it. Every time a symptom appears, I’m wondering if it is link to that. I can’t wait to reach the point where you are! I can’t believe I will be in this WD thing for at least 4-5 years. It is so frustrating...

 

So, I wish you a great Halloween with your daughter. I will give candy me too, with an original set up to stay at a distance of 2 meters from the kids. Don’t know if my daughters will go « trick or treating ». My older girl don’t want too much, she think she’s too old for that. Anyway, it will bring some joy in this boring « Covid19 » time.

 

Have a great weekend and I send you big hugs from Montreal.

 

Anne-Marie
 

 

2008-2019: various ADs at various doses, initially for anxiety related insomnia.

2015-2018: Pristiq 50mg and Mirtazapine 30mg. Switched Pristiq to Venlafaxine.

2019-01: Stopped Venlafaxine after a 10 months taper. Updosed Mirtazapine to 45mg.

Summer 2019: Fast taper of Mirtazapine. Sept 2019, down to 30mg, hit bad W/D symptoms, so updosed to 45mg.

Tried escitalopram 10mg, C/T after 4 weeks. Tried Buspar, C/T after 5 days.

Jan 2020: Second mirtazapine weaning attempt, but end of january, big wave of symptoms, updose to 45mg Mirtazapine.

Feb 2020: 50mg quetiapineXR, CT after 2 weeks. 21 Feb 2020, found SA and staying on 45mg Mirtazapine, waiting for stabilization.

Quetiapine 25mg and Lorazepam 0.5mg PRN since may 2019, March 2020 stopped both.

Mirtazapine taper: 2020-10-21 43.88mg, 10-28 42.75mg, 11-04 41.63mg, 11-11 40.5mg, 11-24 41.6mg.

Supplements: Magnesium Glycinate, Omega-3, Melatonin2mg, Probiotic.

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Glad to read that you're seeing some progress in your ability to manage daily events.

It really sounds like healing ☀️

 

And wow, really you travelled to Europe in the midst of WD ! What a strong woman you are !

 

Sending hugs ❤

2006 : 20mg Paroxetine + Bromazepam(no specific dose) 

2008 : cold turkey of both

2010 : 20mg Deroxat + Bromazepam

2013: Switch from Bromazepam To Prazepam (long half-life)

2014-June2017 : Prazepam taper, 3% drops. 

2018 to August 2019 : Paroxetine 20mg taper (3% every 15 days).

- 22nd August updosed To 10mg (was at 8.4mg) because of a big wave. 

25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paroxetine. 

 

April 2020-August 2020 : Paxil to Prozac bridge. Details https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/21457-erell-struggling-with-paroxetine/?do=findComment&comment=499847

 

Current Supplements : magnesium citrate/ fish oil/ evening primrose oil 

 

Current medication :

7mg Fluoxetine + toothpick Paroxetine (since 20 Aug 2020)

1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020)

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Deat @Rosetta may i ask you, did you have lack of emotions like you are unable to feel any positive emotions only negative ones? Did you have the feeling of wanting to die and life not worth it? Did you have inner akath. And feeling of dread/fear/depression? If yes, did they go away? I am now 2 years off AD and struggling with these symptoms and i am scared that it will never go away as i am having them this far out. Your input will be appreciated. Thanks

Cymbalta 30 mg- 60 mg 

June 2016- October 2018 ( Cold Turkey) 

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@Amira123 Oh, yes, all of that!  It all slowly lessened over time.  There were windows when I felt relief from those symptoms.  Then, they would come back and go away again.  At times, I had bad waves when the symptoms were very strong instead of being weaker than during the most recent wave.  After the bad wave, there would be another back and forth with a lessening of intensity each time a new wave began.

 

At two years off I was still suffering a lot.  I worried for so long that I would not get better.  It wasn’t true.  Healing takes a very long time for some people, and not others.  You will heal.  It’s absurd that at 2 years you are still struggling, I know, but, based on my experience, the fact that you are still sick means nothing.  You will get over all those awful symptoms, you will have positive emotions again, the dread will disappear — all of it will stop, and you will return to normal.

 

Rosetta

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Thank you so much for your words of encouragment!❤️ @Rosetta

Cymbalta 30 mg- 60 mg 

June 2016- October 2018 ( Cold Turkey) 

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I’m doing all right.  I don’t have much energy.  I’m spending what I do have on my daughter which can be good most of the time - if I’m not irritable.  
 

I’ve had some dystonia off and on.  Nothing too difficult, and it goes away in a few hours.  A few nights, I had insomnia.  Again, not too bad.  It went away in a few hours.  It wasn’t all night.

 

Essentially, all the bad is less bad, and the good is better, but I’m not feeling great.  

I’m really, really glad that I’m not feeling terrible anymore!  I guess I’m feeling more patient about the fact that this is still going on.  I definitely have moments of being angry and frustrated that this continues, but I’m so happy to have a couple weeks with no pain or meltdowns or really dark thoughts.  

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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