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@Rosetta I’ve been thinking about you. It sounds as if you’re giving yourself grace during this wave. I hope you are-what you are doing is hard and like you said, you won’t feel like this forever. Waiting for it to pass is the hardest part but you’ve seen the light, it will return. ❤️
 

Sheera 

Started Lamictal and Brintellix in November 2015

May 2016 Discontinued Lamictal 100 to 50 and then stopped completely.

October 20, 2016 discontinued Brintellex 10 to 5 then went from 5 to 0 on November 10, 2016.

 

Currently off all antidepressants

 

Current Supplements:  L-Theanine, Natural Progesterone, L-Methylfolate, Vitamin D, Omega-3's, Probiotic

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You are welcome, Mimi.  Thanks you for being here, too.  Too bad we had to meet under such circumstances, but I’m glad we did. @Mimi79   Well, last night was a night of insomnia.  I was awak

Londoner,   You haven’t lived yet if you are 30 and you have been battling these drugs for 11 years.  There is so much out there in the world that is awe-inspiring. You can’t appreciate it b

@Amira123 Oh, yes, all of that!  It all slowly lessened over time.  There were windows when I felt relief from those symptoms.  Then, they would come back and go away again.  At times, I had bad waves

The last day or so has been better.  I felt less lethargic yesterday and today.  I rescued a lost dog, and that made me feel good especially, when I took him to his owner today.  He made me get up early this morning.  Maybe I missed a cortisol spike because of that, maybe not, but this morning was better.  Yesterday morning, I couldn’t eat breakfast because my stomach was upset due to a spike. Today, I’ve been feeling a tiny bit “maniac” compared to my usual dullness.

 

A memory I had when I was reading Erell’s thread:  Once one gets used to DP/DR, it is not as scary.  It’s always bizarre, but one loses some of the fear.  It’s just odd.  I used to feel as if there were a thick, plate-glass window between me and the world — the kind in enormous aquariums.  That happened when I looked at trees.  There was no magnification.  I could not pinpoint why I felt that way.  The world seemed two dimensional, but not quite.  It was impossible to adequately describe.  Maybe it had to do with sunlight?  Or shadows?  It was a “feeling” rather than a visual experience.  No more.  That never happens now.  It was so disconcerting.  Eventually, I realized that it could not hurt me; it did not mean I was insane.  It was harmless except for the fear it caused.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Hi Rosetta, I was reading through your thread and I’m glad you’ve been

 doing better the past days and yay! for rescuing the dog! :) 

 

I also struggle with really bad DR and I agree, if I obsess over it it gets way worse, but if I just accept it it gets easier to handle it. I’m so glad that’s getting better for you!

 

hope things are going well,

xx

•august 2016- feb 2019: on and off SSRIs (fluoxetine and agomelatine) also unknown drug and clonazepam for a short amount of time 

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•January 25 2020: 50mg of setraline and clonazepam 1mg 

•March 2020: increase to 100mg of setraline

•May 2020:  stopped setraline, fast tapper 3 weeks. stopped clonazepam, according to how my psychiatrists told me. 

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Strong spikes every time I fall asleep.  It’s been happening since late afternoon when I got very sleepy for about an hour.  Now that I’m in bed, it keeps happening over and over — for the last 2 hours.  It’s making me feel deep guilt and despair; I feel sick to my stomach and anxious, too.

 

In about one month, it will be 4 years since I tried to find out how to get off antidepressants.  I found the Mayo Clinic’s information and followed what turned out to be a quite rapid taper that was supposedly the proper way.  I’m still paying for that.  In February, it will be 4 years since I stopped taking a sleep aid, the drug I was prescribed after I went into severe withdrawal due to discontinuing Zoloft (and Xanax  “as needed”) too abruptly.


I’m still determined to get well and provide a good life for my little girl.  I know this is a dip in the road, but at the moment, it feels like I’ve fallen into a huge sinkhole. 
 

I just took some Benadryl.  I’ll have a hangover tomorrow, but I felt I had to.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Sending you warm wishes @Rosetta- I sometimes read through your thread because you also did a cold switch, as I did (but not the same drugs.)

Anyway, I also empathise with the 'feeling old' about which you write. In waves, on bad days, I also feel this process has aged me......but then it passes again. 

xxx

January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 200mg Magnesium Glycinate

 

 

 

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Aw, Rosetta, I am so sorry you are going through the wringer at the moment with cortisol spikes.  You are so strong and I know you'll get to the other side of this.  Hang in there....better days are ahead.

-1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper; withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD)

-10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin
-Tried several times to slowly taper Zoloft by 10%, then 5% every 4-6 weeks; could never get below approx. 40 mg - spring 2012 experienced major WD symptoms due to stress; tried to updose but no relief, back on Klonopin 1 mg.
-Switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to Citalopram. Finished Zoloft 1/13; Citalopram 35 mg and 1 mg Klonopin.
-8/13: 27 mg Citalopram; 1 mg Klonopin

-11/14: 12.6 Citalopram - began to have bad withdrawal symptoms; out of desperation increased to 1.25 mg Klonopin at the beginning of December.  12/13/14 16 mg Citalopram - going to stay here to try to stabilize; stabilized on 16 mg Citalopram after 4-5 months

-7/15 - 3/16: reduced to 15 mg; ~ 2 months later w/d hit hard (probably r/t stress); 6/16 updosed to 20 mg Citalopram and trying to stabilize. Updosed to 1.5 Klonopin as well. Stabilized on 20 mg Citalopram after 4-5 months

8/17-9/17: feeling withdrawal symptoms at 20 mg Citalopram (due to stress) - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?)  - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg).

Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin

Citalopram taper:  2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg

2021: 1/3/21: 7.8 mg (1.27% drop); 1/24/21: 7.7 mg (1.29%); 1/31/21: 7.6 mg (1.17%); 2/7/21: 7.5 mg (1.19%); 2/14/21: 7.4 mg (1.34%); 2/28/21: 7.3 mg (1.25%); 3/7/21: 7.2 mg (1.25%); 3/21/21: 7.1 mg (1.25%); 3/28/21: 7.0 (1.25%); 4/25/21 - : generic clonazepam switch

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@sunnysideup69 and @wantrelief Thanks you for dropping by.  It helps to have the support.

 

I’m after a cortisol spike (or whatever it is — menopause issue coupled with PAWS?) at 3:00.  Feeling fearful, etc.  I decided to get up and watch and TV to avoid another one, but my daughter woke up.  So, now I’m getting her back to sleep.

 

 

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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I’ve been having a lot of pain and discomfort from dystonia for the last few days.

 

Yes, it will get better.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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More spikes this morning.  It’s 4:21 am.  Last night I was able to go back to sleep.  I’m telling myself it will be the same this morning.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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sunnysideup69

Hope you got back to sleep, Rosetta :) 

January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 200mg Magnesium Glycinate

 

 

 

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It was around 5:30 or 6 when I went back to sleep.  I drank warm milk and watched TV.

 

Here I am again.  It’s 2:00 am, and I just had a big spike — scared, sick to my stomach.  I had one right after I feel asleep around 9:45 pm, too.  My days aren’t bad.   I’m trying to be grateful for that.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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@Rosettai am so glad to hear your days aren’t so bad. I am having more manageable days but the waves are absolute hell. I told my fiancé I couldn’t do this anymore the other day. The suicidal stuff and intrusive thoughts and inner aka are so bad when the waves hit. I can’t believe I’m 33 months out and it’s still so bad. Anyway I was coming to ask if you had tried the adrenal cocktail all “food” but helps nourish the adrenals for cortisol spikes, what about l theanine or magnesium? I know your still struggling but I am glad to hear some things have improved hugs to u!

13 months on 25 mg of sertraline.

Fast taper in march 2018, reinstated 12.5mg

Cold turkey sertraline april 17,2018

Zyprexa 5mg april 17,2018

Zyprexa taper to lamictal May 4-13 (life threatening rash)

Back on zyprexa 5mg for 10days & tapered over 5 weeks.

21 months off sertraline 

19 months off zyprexa

22 months into withdrawl 

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Eventually, I went back to sleep, but it took a long time.  Here I am again.  I woke up around 2:30, scared, and then angry.  I have been unconsciously pressing my tongue against the roof of my mouth, and my chest is sore, my neck and jaw, too.  
 

I’m struggling with my daughter’s school issues.  It’s a long story, but it’s very complicated now that she’s in school 1/2 days.  I’m her teacher 1/2 the day, but I’m not privy to her classroom teacher’s reasoning.  I’m surprised by things, and the schedule I have made is unexpectedly altered.  I feel that we are always playing catch up.  I’m just not healthy enough to roll with this.  Today was very frustrating.  That’s what I’m feeling angry about.  I can’t be sure that I’m reacting with proper emotions.  So, I assume that I’m not, and I keep my mouth shut, but it is all getting pretty annoying.
 

I don’t even understand the assignment she was given.  It seems like a jumble of different assignments smushed into one.  What’s the point?  Is the fact it’s a jumble the point or is it supposed to be logical?  How can I ask that question without offending her teacher?  I can’t.  So, what do I do?  Does it even matter?  This is elementary school.  So what?  The fact that she tries to do the assignment is all that matters, perhaps?  I really don’t know.

 

What I do know is that we had a very unpleasant evening.  There was a lot of crying.  I would not have done this in the evening if I had known I needed to be involved in this part of the project.  But this report is due Friday, and my daughter didn’t even understand what was being asked of her.  Anyway, I’m in no shape, mentally, to be dealing with this.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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I am awake again at almost 4:00 am, but I don’t feel as bad as I have previous nights.  Less pain although there is tension in my face and chest.  
 

I have had more energy the last two days.  Before that I was a couch potato.  
 

On goes the roller coaster . . .

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Awake again at 4 instead of 2.  Feeling less awful.  Had the motivation to bake a banana bread today and take a walk.  I do realize how far I’ve come.  The effect my cycle has on me is so frustrating, but I have to be grateful for today.  It was a pretty good one.  

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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I’ve been functioning better.  I don’t feel great, but it’s not bad either.  I got to bed very late last night.  I woke up at about 5:00 am and was awake until about 7:00.  Then I slept another 45 minutes.  


I would have slept more except my daughter is learning through “distance learning” again.  She has to get up at 7:30 every morning now whereas before she was going to the school at about 11:30 most days per week.  So, I’ll be losing all the morning sleep I used to get after hours of insomnia.  Oh, joy.

 

Oh well, I get used to the new schedule.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Hi Rosetta!  My goodness you sound WONderful!!!  I am so happy to catch up on things and so happy to hear how well things are going!!  Your journey is a true inspiration!!  

My life came to a halt for a while with family issues and my daughter in the hospital etc.  But things have settled and I am so so grateful for so many 'angels' in out lives!!  Lots of angels here as well!!

Love and hugs to you!!💜

-Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016

-Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. 

-November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17,     

-20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day

-Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17

-Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg  5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded  

-4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19

-July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, 

-7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25

-1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg,

  1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit  1/week,Reacted Mag prn

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Hi @Rosetta,

I was reading my thread as I need some encouragement, because my OCD symptoms are back, and I realized how lucky I was to have you on my path

since the beginning. When I first arrived here on SA, you were very present to encourage and give me hope when I needed to.

I realized that you were very good to explain how WDs was working on our CNS. You have the words to help me understand what is going on in my body. Your are so bright and knowledgeable!
Just for my curiosity, what is your profession? 

Thank you again for all your help, and I wish you a beautiful week.

 

Mimi
 

2008-2019: various ADs at various doses, initially for anxiety related insomnia.

2015: C/T Paxil - GP switch me to Mirtazapine and Pristiq. 2018: Switched Pristiq to Venlafaxine (For tapering)

2019-01: Stopped Venlafaxine after a 10 months taper. Updosed Mirtazapine to 45mg.

Summer 2019: Fast taper of Mirtazapine. Sept 2019, down to 30mg, hit bad W/D symptoms, so updosed to 45mg.

Tried escitalopram 10mg, C/T after 4 weeks. Tried Buspar, C/T after 5 days.

Jan 2020: Second mirtazapine weaning attempt, but end of january, big wave of symptoms, back to 45mg Mirtazapine.

Feb 2020: 50mg quetiapineXR, CT after 1 week. 21 Feb 2020, found SA and staying on 45mg Mirtazapine, waiting for stabilization.

Quetiapine 25mg  PRN since may 2019, March 2020 stopped.

Mirtazapine taper, from 45mg:  2020-10-21 43.88mg, 10-28 42.75mg, 11-04 41.63mg, 11-11 40.5mg, 11-24 41.6mg, 12-03 42.20mg, updose 2021–01-15 to 42,7 and holding.

Ativan prn since jan 2021. Became accidentally dep. March 2021.
2021-03-21 Ativan 0,29mg / 2021-03-28 0.28mg/ 2021-04-08 0.27mg/ 2021-04-26 0.25mg

Supplements: Magnesium Glycinate, Omega-3, D vit, Probiotic.

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Fourth Year Wave (maybe)


I am getting better all the time.  I continue to have monthly dips in my well-being, and I never know how bad they will be.  The monthly hormone changes appear to trigger waves.  I can’t get around that conclusion.  They are not always long, hard or intense waves.  I suppose I may have just had the 4th year wave?  Menopause or a combination of both?  It’s hard to tell.  It was rough and long.
 

Usually, I don’t have the most obvious sign of my cycle, but I did have it in October.  I had a “bad wave” beginning in Oct and continuing through Nov.  It was nothing like what used to happen to me.  It was bad.  That’s true, and it’s a bit horrifying to realize, now that I am “on the other side,” that the wave’s lowered intensity level indicates that I am healing.  There was pain — headaches, dystonia.  There was akathisia at a much lower level than ever before.   It was panic inducing, but it was hard to tell if there was a Pavlov’s dogs type of effect or the aka caused the anxiety independently.  I said to myself, “You are safe.  You are home.  You don’t have to be afraid,” over and over. There was confusion, bouts of depression, anxiety, very occasional ringing in my ears, insomnia, cortisol awakenings, and the state of my home became much, much worse.  
 

Fortunately, I managed through Halloween, made the costume, tricked and treated.  It was a hard Halloween, but the pandemic kept a lot of the pressure off.  My daughter was going to school for about 5 weeks during that time.  That’s all we had — 5 weeks of in-person school, but only half days.  At least I had 2-3 hours per day to myself and a reason to leave the house.  The wave was deep enough that my husband took my daughter to school for a couple of weeks, but I could have done that if I had had to.  There were few days when I didn’t feel I could drive.
 

Then, the wave lifted, and I was able to have a Christmas tree this year!  That’s pretty telling in term of healing.  I dealt with Christmas well up to about the 22nd, but I was hoping to have the gift opening at my home with my MIL.  I couldn’t do it.  In the midst of making a gingerbread Santa’s workshop, I melted. So, after two days of stress and my toxic anger, we decided to open gifts at my MIL’s.  Taking all that pressure off was the key.  We had a nice Christmas.  Santa had his homemade cookies, admired the workshop we had made, filled the stocking, and left his gifts at our house where we had a tree for the first time in two years or three perhaps.  I’m not sure. I think it might be three years that he left his gifts at my MIL’s.  I was absolutely panicked about the fact that my daughter wanted Santa to bring her the cat who went missing in the Fall of 2019.  She handled it well that Santa couldn’t deliver.

 

@Mimi79Sorry, Mimi, I haven’t been here. You are welcome.  I’m happy you benefitted from what I have learned.  If not for SA, we would all be walking in the dark.  It makes me feel good that you think I helped you.  Thanks for reaching out.  I hope you are doing all right.


I was a social worker, essentially, not by title, a long time ago.  I have a Lit degree.  By accident, I worked with kids who were troubled, and then, again, by accident, with adult addicts - as the Fates must find very humorous.  I wasn’t supposed to be helping either group with their real problems.  I worked on a secondary consequence of those problems without the tools, training or funding to do anything remotely helpful for their situations.  It was only when someone who wasn’t an addict tripped and fell into my orbit that I was able to do anything useful.   So, no wonder I ended up on “anti-depressants.“

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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10 hours ago, Rosetta said:

I was a social worker, essentially, not by title, a long time ago.  I have a Lit degree.  By accident, I worked with kids who were troubled, and then, again, by accident, with adult addicts - as the Fates must find very humorous.

Maybe you hadn’t the title, but I do see in you this human intelligence, this foresight, this sensibility... I don’t know how to express it in English... You truly understand what we are living in WD, and you have the right words to explain it... 

Sometimes I didn’t understand myself in this WD nightmare, then you wrote it in your words, like if you were in my head, and It was exactly what I was trying to figure out!

I’m sure you are an exceptional person to be around.

 

Thank you again for all your help. Life or fate, or whatever you call it, put SA and all of you on my recovery path and I am grateful for that. Like you said, I was walking in the dark and all this big WD family appeared to help me.

 

And on top of that, it allowed me to improve my English...

 

Mimi79

 

 


 

2008-2019: various ADs at various doses, initially for anxiety related insomnia.

2015: C/T Paxil - GP switch me to Mirtazapine and Pristiq. 2018: Switched Pristiq to Venlafaxine (For tapering)

2019-01: Stopped Venlafaxine after a 10 months taper. Updosed Mirtazapine to 45mg.

Summer 2019: Fast taper of Mirtazapine. Sept 2019, down to 30mg, hit bad W/D symptoms, so updosed to 45mg.

Tried escitalopram 10mg, C/T after 4 weeks. Tried Buspar, C/T after 5 days.

Jan 2020: Second mirtazapine weaning attempt, but end of january, big wave of symptoms, back to 45mg Mirtazapine.

Feb 2020: 50mg quetiapineXR, CT after 1 week. 21 Feb 2020, found SA and staying on 45mg Mirtazapine, waiting for stabilization.

Quetiapine 25mg  PRN since may 2019, March 2020 stopped.

Mirtazapine taper, from 45mg:  2020-10-21 43.88mg, 10-28 42.75mg, 11-04 41.63mg, 11-11 40.5mg, 11-24 41.6mg, 12-03 42.20mg, updose 2021–01-15 to 42,7 and holding.

Ativan prn since jan 2021. Became accidentally dep. March 2021.
2021-03-21 Ativan 0,29mg / 2021-03-28 0.28mg/ 2021-04-08 0.27mg/ 2021-04-26 0.25mg

Supplements: Magnesium Glycinate, Omega-3, D vit, Probiotic.

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10 hours ago, Rosetta said:

That’s good news!  How stressful.  I’m sure you need a break.  Having a contract job is a plus.  Enjoy your departure from an absurd situation.

Hi Rosetta

 

How is your dystonia and other muscles issues?? Have it improved?

 

Thanks

klonopin 14-15 pill in two weeks,  gabapentin 3 pill in 3 days in November 2018

 

after 2 year - head pressure, lower back stiffness , twitch , internal vibration

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You are welcome, Mimi.  Thanks you for being here, too.  Too bad we had to meet under such circumstances, but I’m glad we did. @Mimi79

 

Well, last night was a night of insomnia.  I was awake all night until about 7:00 am or later.  I slept only about 2 hours, and I have awakened with anxiety.  Not fun, but it feels so familiar, and I know it will go away.  That knowledge is a luxury that has been given to me due to years of healing from this horrible syndrome.  I won’t be able to do what I would like today, but I’m here to live it.  I’m very happy to be here with my little girl, and be alive.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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23 hours ago, Kiwi123456 said:

Hi Rosetta

 

How is your dystonia and other muscles issues?? Have it improved?

 

Thanks

 

Hi Kiwi, and Rosetta ❤️

 

I just moved Kiwi's recent post on ShiningLights Introduction over here.  @Kiwi123456 This way you can see Rosetta's Introduction and progress yourself and then Rosetta will also see your post.  Welcome aboard Kiwi123456. 

And happy New Year to you both!  The countdown begins......or something.....B)

 

Oh best, L, P, H, and G,

mmt

Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988.  In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm.

Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time).

5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014)

12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs.  My last psycho med ever!  Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to

2016 Dec 16 medication free!!

Longer signature post here, with current supplements.

Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. 

None of my posts are intended as medical advice.  Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. manymoretodays

 

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Thanks MMT.  I wrote on Kiwi’s thread.

 

DYSTONIA

 

Here are my thoughts on dystonia.  I developed dystonia many, many years ago.  It was in 2004, I think.  I started having all sorts of muscle problems.  I was taking Celexa, and I didn’t know about the important of consistent dosing, taking it everyday and at the same time.  I was suffering from anxiety after several years of Celexa, but not a word was ever said to me about this side effect.  I started falling down stairs, twisting my good ankle on the right side, and struggling to stretch out.  
 

I never knew it had a name, it was caused by anti-depressants not that it was anything other than aging or injuries.  I had a cracked vertebrae in 1995 before I ever took Celexa.  I had no problem healing from that although I was prescribe Fiorinal, a barbiturate for about 20 months or so.  I CT’d that in the Summer of 1996.  I think I developed PAWS after that and I was prescribed Paxil and some other anti-depressant.  I couldn’t tolerate them.  Then a doctor prescribed the sleeping pills, but she was very, very clear that they were dangerous.  I didn’t take many.  In 2001, I think, I was given Celexa.  By 2004, I now know, I was showing signs of dystonia: problems with my right hip and ankle and falling down stairs.

 

Dystonia is a real bear.  Mine was very painful for years.  Not anymore. It was undiagnosed for me.  My dose was raised and raised without any monitoring of my physical condition, of course.

 

It definitely gets better.  If you have seen it get better, I have no doubt you will heal.  The reason the doctors think it’s permanent is because they continue to make terrible mistakes.   They prescribe a different drug as a result of dystonia’s development.  Therefore, they throw the patient’s system into withdrawal from the first drug.  Withdrawal exacerbates dystonia.  


Simple withdrawal goes away.  Post-acute withdrawal syndrome (PAWS), which what everyone here means by WD, lasts months or years.  (It’s the same condition that alcoholics and recovering alcoholics have.) PAWS has a pattern of windows and waves.  So, dystonia comes back over and over.  
 

PAWS also has periods when symptoms are much worse than during the latest wave.  Don’t be concerned if dystonia gets worse.  If so, you are having a bad wave.  It does not means dystonia is worse for all time.  Bad waves can come at anytime, but they often come within two months of your anniversary of quitting the drug.  Whether that holds true for short term/bad reaction people I’m not sure.
 

Each time my medication was increased, the dystonia got a little worse.  Giving birth with dystonia in my hip was quite the feat — 32 hours.  No one ever warned me about dystonia, told me what to look for, asked me any questions about my physical condition . . . No.  It was always a simple refill of the prescription or increase in dosage with no one breathe of concern for side effects or long term issues or, quite frankly, my well being, in general.  I’m sure that some of them cared, but they didn’t bother to find out what the consequences could be nor how to prevent or minimize them.
 

Dystonia was bad even before my medicine was cold switched to Zoloft right after my baby was born in 2011.  It stayed steadily annoying, but not debilitating throughout increases in Zoloft from 10 mg to 150 mg.  It was much, much worse after I quit Zoloft in February of 2016.  At first, I felt good.  Within a couple of months I thought I had had a stroke.  The whole right side of my body was hurting on various places due to muscle contractions that caused, pain, pins and needles, numbness, and much decreased mobility. My right forearm was the worst.  Eventually, I figured out that a heating pad on my right forearm not only helped my forearm, but my headaches, too.
 

I have seen windows and waves type healing with dystonia.  I no longer have severe headaches or a twisting of my neck and head.  I feel an uncomfortable sensation, get slight headaches and have limited mobility in my neck and hip.  I feel discomfort in my calf and my right ankle doesn’t work properly.  I used to fall down stairs.

 

My hormonal cycle affects dystonia a lot.  Progesterone and estrogen level affect the level of dystonia.  Less estrogen is a negative thing, I think.  
 

I have been off all drugs for 3 years, 10 1/2 months.  I still have dystonia, but the fact that it has improved a lot gives me hope that it will eventually heal.

 

Stretching, yoga, and some exercise will help. At time stretching will do nothing.  At times exercise will make it worse.  When I’m having a bout, reading and writing make it worse.  It’s in my eye.  In fact, it’s up and down the entire right side of my body.  I’m now to the point that I can read or write without getting a headache except on some occasions.  

 

There is a mental component to dystonia.  I haven’t been able to find out exactly why or how, but my mood is worse while I have it.  I’m easily irritated, easily angered, that sort of thing.  It’s not just because Im uncomfortable or in pain.  It’s something more.  The changes in the body that allow dystonia affect mood perhaps?

 

Dystonia is one of the longest lasting withdrawal effects for me.  It’s at tolerable level now.  I really regret that it affects my ability to ride a bike.  Getting off the bike is hard, and I’m afraid of falling.  Getting on isn’t bad.  Having to get off quickly scares me, so I think I’ll get one that is a bit short for me.

 

There you have it.  I try not to be bitter . . . But I fail frequently.


 

 

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Carolina

Rosetta,

I am new to the SA community. Reading your thread filled me with awe and dread. You are truly so very brave and strong to have gone and continue to go through WD. I have a daughter and am planning on embarking on a lexapro taper. I sincerely  ask you, is it worth it? Is being off the medication worth the pain?

Current ( 3/7/2021):

Medications: 20 mg Lexapro. 7.5 mg remeron ( started at 15 mg)

Supplements: fish oil

Tapering: Remeron (50% complete). 

Med History:

Lexapro ( 20mg) 2013-current 

Remeron (15 mg) 12/2020- tapering @10% a month followed by 2 week hold

 

 

 

 

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Hi Rosetta,

Sent you a message but wanted to say hi here as well. Im SO excited about your Christmas tree, gingerbread house, and cookies...oh my!!!  I hope you are as proud of yourself as I am!!  And to see the need to let go, ease the stress, and go to your MILs for a relaxing happy Christmas is fabulous!  

The dystonia is something I didnt understand was even happening until I came here and thank you for always making it as clear as you do!

On 12/31/2020 at 11:35 AM, Rosetta said:

Well, last night was a night of insomnia.  I was awake all night until about 7:00 am or later.  I slept only about 2 hours, and I have awakened with anxiety.  Not fun, but it feels so familiar, and I know it will go away.  That knowledge is a luxury that has been given to me due to years of healing from this horrible syndrome.  I won’t be able to do what I would like today, but I’m here to live it.  I’m very happy to be here with my little girl, and be alive.

THAT is so beautiful and brought a tear to my eyes!!!  There has been such a huge leap from last winter!!  It truly warms my heart, Rosetta!  Not only are you here to live it but you are really really living it.  I couldn't be happier for you and in anymore awe of you as well.  You have fought through SO much!  Your strength and determination and sharing are a gift that everyone here is able to open again and again with each new day. Blessings and thanks to you Rosetta in this new year and always!!💜

-Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016

-Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. 

-November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17,     

-20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day

-Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17

-Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg  5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded  

-4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19

-July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, 

-7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25

-1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg,

  1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit  1/week,Reacted Mag prn

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ShiningLight

Rosetta,

 

I'm so glad to hear that you are having some better times.

This is responding to an older post of yours, but I'm going to do it anyway. Don't forget that plenty of people are poor housekeepers even at baseline. I count myself among the ranks. During wd it's gotten so much worse.

 

 

Now: 150 mg Zoloft am since 2004, 50 mg Trazodone bedtime.  Daily drug burden decreased from 2050 mg to 200 mg 🐢🐢

🌞 Feb 28, 2021 0 mg Gapapentin 🌞 yaaaaaaaaaaaaaassssssss!!!

2021 Gaba each dose 4x/day: Feb 27 7 mg (one dose only), Feb 10, 7 mg, Jan 14 10 mg 2020 Current taper schedule from Aug 30-present: drop 8 mg every 2-3 weeks. Aug 20 31 mg, Aug 18, 33 mg, July 29, 35 mg, July 23 38 mg, July 22 40 mg Jun 24 42 mg, Jun 15 44 mg, Jun 9 48 mg, May 22 50 mg, May 14 54 mg, May 7 56 mg, Apr 16 58 mg, Mar 28 60 mg, Mar 18 62 mg. Feb 26 64 mg. Feb 19, 66 mg. Jan 23, 70 mg.

2019 Dec 19, 72 mg. Nov 14 ,76 mg. Aug 8, 80 mg. Aug 6, 85 mg. Jul 26, 90 mg. Jul 11, 95 mg.

Jul 16 trazodone from 100 to 50 mg.

Jun 17-July 10 Slowly changed gab fr pill to liquid at same dose 100 mg 4x/d.

Apr 24 Stopped klon!!! 🌞 Apr 4  Decreased gaba to 400 mg (100 mg 4x/day)-Apr 4, 2019   0.25 klon March 11  Klonopin .5 mg twice daily, varied dose til Apr 15. Started Klon fast taper 25%, short use

Mar 16, 450 mg gaba 3x/day cut 600 mg--not exact!--updose after learning w/d

Feb 20, 2019 1800 mg gabapentin; MD taper; off 3 days=mvt disorder & autonomic instability. July 2018 temazepam 15 mg 1-2; prn several x/wk til Jan/Feb 2019 when cold turkey, flu illness for months

July 2018 started gabapentin 100 3x/day; titrated up to 1800 mg (600 3x/day)

Buspar, I forget how much, 2 pills a day Jan 2017-July 2018 cold turkey

*I speak from my experience. Nothing I say is medical advice. I'm not a doctor.

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Lexapro88

Rosetta, 

 

I am new to the SA community. I have a 15 month old daughter. I wanted to say you have shown such courage and strength. I hope I can display half as much courage and grit as you for what is to come. 

Lexapro/escitalopram ( 20 mg) since 2012 

Tried to taper over four month period-starting May 2020-and crashed in November 2020

Hospitalized November 2020 

11/28/2020 reinstated Lexapro (20 mg) and started 15 mg Remeron and 2.5 olanzapine

1/1/2021 Lexapro 20 mg, Remeron 15 mg, olanzapine 0

 

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So happy that your Christmas has been better and you’re seeing improvements. ❤️

Started Lamictal and Brintellix in November 2015

May 2016 Discontinued Lamictal 100 to 50 and then stopped completely.

October 20, 2016 discontinued Brintellex 10 to 5 then went from 5 to 0 on November 10, 2016.

 

Currently off all antidepressants

 

Current Supplements:  L-Theanine, Natural Progesterone, L-Methylfolate, Vitamin D, Omega-3's, Probiotic

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FarmGirlWorks

@Rosetta: good post on dystonia. It is amazing how much you’ve endured and I’m so glad that the situation has improved. Hope your holidays were good.

  • Prozac | late 2004-mid-2005 | CT WD in a couple months, mostly emotional
  • Sertraline 50-100mg | 11/2011-3/2014, 10/2014-3/2017
  • Sertraline fast taper March 2017, 4 weeks, OFF sertraline April 1, 2017
  • Quit alcohol May 20, 2017
  • Lifestyle changes: AA, kundalini yoga

 

"If you've seen a monster, even if it's horrible, that's evidence of divinity." – Damien Echols

 

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Thanks @FarmGirlWorksHope yours was, too!  Are you doing all right?  I’ll check your thread. -R

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Thanks @ShiningLight  Yeah, I wasn’t exactly June Cleaver to begin with.  It’s going to get better!  It has to.

 

I posted on your threads @Carolina and @Lexapro88.  Welcome to our community!

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Having a bit of a small wave.  Feeling pretty irritable, especially after dark.  Not sleep so well. I was up for at least 2-3 hours last night.  Had to get up at 8:00 for the little one’s zoom school.

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Hello dear

 

I just read your post about Dystonia : with all you have endured, I'm amazed by your strenght, and inspired by your trust in healing.

You certainly are an inspiration to this community !

 

I sure hope that this year will bring you more and more healing ❤

2006 : 20mg Paroxetine + Bromazepam(no specific dose) 2008 : cold turkey of both

2010 : 20mg Deroxat + Bromazepam

2013: Switch from Bromazepam To Prazepam

2014-June2017 : Prazepam taper

2018 to August 2019 : Paroxetine 20mg taper (3% every 15 days).

- 22nd August updosed To 10mg (was at 8.4mg)

25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paroxetine. 

April 2020 : Paxil to Prozac bridge. Details topic/21457-

 

Current Supplements : magnesium citrate/ fish oil/ evening primrose oil 

 

Current medication :  7mg Fluoxetine (since 20 Aug 2020)

+ 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020)

(Toothpick Paroxetine from September 2020 to 17th March 2021)

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Hi Rosetta.  Im sorry about your wave.  I have hit one as well.  I forget how they are when I am in a window and viceversa it seems.  

I wanted you to know I was thinking about you so much lately and how you have been there for your daughter in spite of everything you have been going through!!  Your strength, perseverance,  determination and SUCH devotion and love is so inspiring!  The teaching at her school, at home, prepping her for classes and now the zoom sessions, etc.  Being there when she would be fearful or up at night...just so so much to keep her life as normal as possible.  You have been such an inspiration to me as well as a voice of experience and reason.  You are one of the angels in my life and I am so grateful to have you as a friend.  

I hope you are feeling some better.  Thinking about you Rosetta!  Take care my friend!💜

-Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016

-Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. 

-November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17,     

-20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day

-Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17

-Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg  5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded  

-4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19

-July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, 

-7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25

-1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg,

  1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit  1/week,Reacted Mag prn

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Hi Rosetta, 

 

Thanks so much for popping around to my thread. I’m sorry you’ve been in a wave. How have you been doing the last year? I can’t read a lot because of brainfog, sending hugs🧡

Been on antipsychotics, benzos, antidepressants and painkillers for chronic pain. 

Been cold turkeyed and put on and off all sorts of things. Was suicidal n ended up in a psych ward because I had akathisia from withdrawals. Can’t remember what I was put on but when I was released was in the same predicament with severe akathisia n was suicidal again.

Back to the ward and was given different meds. Tapered off one and have been trying to taper off Seroquel since. It’s been many, many years of tapering so far.

I’ve  tapered from 300mg of Seroquel to 7.5mg./ March 10 2019=7.25mg / 17th of April=7 mg / June 5th=6.75mg/ July 14th=6.50mg/ August 28=6.25mg/ 10th of Oct= 6.20mg/ October 21=6mg/ December 16=5.80mg/.   January 21 2020=5.60mg/April 2=5.40g/ May 29=5.20mg/ August 14= 5mg/ September 29=4.80mg/ Jan 31, 2021=4.60 mg/

 

I AM NOT A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL. These are my own views based on what I’ve experienced myself.

 

 

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