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Rosetta: CT May 2011 & too fast taper Feb 2017

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LexAnger

Oh rosseta, bless your heart. You have such a tender love to your kids. I know how you feel as I'm a mother too.

Try not to be hard on yourself. Even I was able when my son was little, looking back I always regret many things I should have done but not doe to lack of awarenees. Parents just want to do everything possible for their kids and you will find you eill never be able to do them all

 

You will do a lot more when you are better, more than a parent who is not in your situation can.

 

Hugs.

Lex

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Rabe

Oh Rosetta....the world and those in it can be so unkind sometimes.  It is one thing when we are the target of it but when it affects those we dearly love it is so much more difficult to accept.  This is about them..their lack of understanding, decency and kindness...its not about you...you are courageous, kind, thoughtful, compassionate and so much more!!   You have been and are doing all that you are capable of ... and often more.  If someone asks you for $50 and all you have is $25 that's all you can give...and it seems you always give what you have and often scramble to give more.  Just going to the zoo is HUGE!  What a wonderful day for and with your daughter.  Bless you.  Hope your sleep is good again tonight and that the sadness fades.

Thinking about you! 

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DMV64
17 hours ago, Rosetta said:

Today, I am still very, very sad

Oh sweetie. Big hugs to you. Things with our kids can be so very hard. You are doing a great job being there for your daughter. Be gentle with yourself. I am reminded of what I keep being told: acceptance, acceptance. Love to you!

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Rosetta

Thanks everyone.  Rabe, Wantrelief, Dmv64, LexAnger, thanks for all your kind comments.  You make me feel less alone.

 

This is neuro-emotion and fatigue on top of something that's tough for all of us.  Life in the U.S. is very isolating.  It takes a lot of effort to make friends after school is over.  I just don't have the energy.  With my daughter switching schools from pre-school to kinder to elementary it's very disruptive.  Nothing is natural or easy.

 

I expected her to not continue to see her friends from kinder except two boys whose mothers I connected with well.  I expected the invitations to parties to stop, but it's hard to deal with the reality of being lonely -- being lonely while also feeling blocked from being able to fix it -- having no energy or cog function to go beyond just getting through each day. 

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Rosetta

Journal:

 

Yesterday morning I had one cortisol spike.  My sleep had been ok that night.   I went out to breakfast and then stayed home yesterday.  My daughter's little friend came to play in the morning.  The dystonia was mild yesterday.  We stayed home the day before, too, mostly, except we went out to dinner.  I think staying home results in heavier symptoms.  

 

This morning I had 3 cortisol spikes.  My sleep was ok last except for one cortisol spike in the middle of the night.  I'm anxious this morning.  I feel a little depressed.  I've been forgetting my magnesium doses.  Maybe that has allowed the cortisol spikes to increase.  I took some last night and a small amount this morning.

 

I am going to go out today in the sun and play mini golf with a friend whose daughter was in preschool with mine.  I know it will be good for me.  

 

I think part of my loneliness is that I miss having a community.  Having individual friends is great, but I miss having friends/acquaintances who know each other and seeing them all together.  That's why the birthday party issue upset me so much.  I felt I was building a community, and then it was gone.  Now, I have to start over.  I'm tired of starting over.  I've had to do that so many times since high school.  I thought that by this time in my life I would have had a community.  I think I have to build one myself,  and I find it hard to get other people to cooperate.   It's a task for another time anyway as I don't have the energy.

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brassmonkey

Hi Rosetta--  Given the events of the past 24 hours I would expect your mind to be playing a lot of different tricks on you for a few days.  It appears that there has been a positive outcome, due in no small part to you, so now it's a matter of letting it all sink in and then when the mind in clearer to process it a little at a time.  For right now playing with the kids, getting out for activities and seeing friends is the best thing to do.

 

With our "modern times" and living in such a large mobile city as we do building and maintaining a community is a very tough thing to do. Getting out and doing things that interest you will help provide opportunities to connect.  Now that your daughter is entering into a longer term school will probably help too. Having to change schools every year really hampers efforts to connect. Keep up making the effort and it will work out.

 

((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))

 

Brassmonkey

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Rosetta

Thanks, Brassmonkey!!!  Hugs to you, too.  I hope you are well. - R

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Rabe

Hi Rosetta,  what you said is so true, as brassmonkey said.  Being in a larger mobile city makes a huge difference.  Since leaving my home and my home city that has been a stark reality.  Your insights and what you have done and continue to do for your daughter and yourself always touches my mind and heart.  You are a gentle warrior who continues to fight for what you need and desire, while caring for others as well, and I find it so inspiring.  Hope the sun and mini golf are healing.  ♥️

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Rosetta

Thank you, @Rabe.  It's so nice to hear from you.  You always say the right thing.

 

Yesterday was nice.  By 4:00, I developed a headache from being dehydrated.  After I re-hydrated and took some ibuprophen, I was able to get through the evening ok and I was able to go to bed and fall asleep..  The whole experience was not the misery that it would have been a month or two ago.  Maybe the intensifying of pain that WD causes is less intense now. I slept pretty well.  Again, a good sign.  

 

I woke up without cortisol spikes!  Whew.  Now I'm trying to get ready to go out again.  I'm going to attempt to avoid a downturn by staying off the couch.  

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wantrelief

You sound good, Rosetta!  I hope you enjoy your outing today.

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Hazel

So glad to hear you are feeling better Rosetta! I hope things continue to get better and better for you-you deserve it:)

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Rosetta

Thanks Wantrelief and Hazel!!

 

Todays symptoms were mild.  Anxiety in the morning.  I was finally able to leave the house at about 2:30.  We went to the aquarium and the amusement park next door.  My jaw and face were painfully tight after driving there and that lasted until we --. Rode a little roller coaster.

 

It was a very mild coaster, but I was very worried about what might happen to my nervous system if I tried it.  Afterward, I felt fine and the tension in my jaw had gone away.  Maybe my system handled the surge of adrenaline properly for once?  I'm not counting my chickens yet.  I might really pay for that in the morning? Tonight, I don't feel any different than usual.  I have slight RLS.  The dystonia is bothering me because I have been reading.  (There are days when reading doesn't cause dystonia.  I guess some days there is a different mix in my brain?). I didn't get dehydrated today.  So, I'm wondering if my nervous system has finally found a balance.  I don't think it's a lasting balance.

 

I'm sure I will have more waves, but I have a feeling that there's been some serious healing.  I am very concerned about what will happen when my cycle comes back.  I have had no real cycle return yet.  I estimate it's been about 70-75 days or more.  I have had only the slightest indications that there was any ovulation or hormone activity.  I think that might be why withdrawal has been mild the last week or so.  I'm not sure, but it is very frustrating that it appears that my own hormones have been kindling me.  

 

For now, I'm feeling so grateful that I am getting something of a rest from severe anxiety and Akathisia.  I am almost at the 16 month mark.

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Rabe

Sleep, no spikes, roller coaster, serious healing...gosh those all have a very nice ring to them!!  So happy to hear it Rosetta!♥️

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BAT

That sounds like healing to me.  Hope it continues.  

 

Question.. You haven't had your cycle for over 2 months? Is this withdrawal related? Is that the first time this has happened?

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LexAnger

Oh, my dear friend, 

I'm so happy to hear every single improvement you are getting! 

Serious healing is such a huge milestone!

May more and continuous such milestones come along one after another!

 

16 months in this indescribable battle, you are a true aspiration and worior!

 

Lots love snd Big hugs !

Lex

 

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Carmie

Hi Rosetta, 

 

Im glad you had a fun day. The aquarium and amusement park sound like a blast.So happy to see too you’re having a bit of a break from the anxiety and akathisia.

 

You were concerned about having friends and a community for your daughter. Maybe on a day when your anxiety is low you could invite a mother and her child over for a cuppa and a bit of a play. Just small steps. 

 

You will eventually be symptom free, but the hard thing is you don’t know when it will come. You’ve done so well, the time Is flying by, 16 months so far, and the more time that flies by the more you will heal. 

 

You will again be able to go out and socialise and make new friends. You can join courses that you like, there are so many. Sometimes community centres and schools have different courses that don’t cost a lot. Even now, if you have some good days you could do something like that. Art classes would be fun, or learn some kind of craft.

 

People on this site care about you.

 

💚💚💚💚💚💚

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Rosetta

Thanks, Carmie.  Yes, someday I will feel normal and I will feel true joy.  For now, I just have to muddle through.  I read your thread.  You are doing really well.  You are so fortunate to be tapering properly.  Your life is organized and easier because of that.  

 

Journal:

 

Last night was very hard.  I felt ok before going to bed.  Every time I fell asleep my daughter woke me up.  She was either not ready to sleep because she's been sleeping until 9:00 the past couple of days or she was over tired.  I'm not sure which.  I became more and more agitated every time she woke me.  

 

While lying in bed, I lost her ring yesterday.  She gave it to me in the bathroom at the park yesterday.  Santa had given it to her.  So, replacing it is a bit complicated.  I spiraled on that issue for what seemed like hours.  I think I have convinced myself I can get another one and pretend that I found it.  It took a lot of time and effort to go to sleep after that.  Boy, I have intense issues about material things!!  It's so silly.  

 

Then I woke with a cortisol spike before 2:00.  I spiraled and fought off spiraling for a long time.  I heated my shoulder wrap 3 times.  Finally, I slept again and woke up at 7:00.  

 

Today, I'm going to wake my daughter earlier and try to get her back on my schedule.  I was enjoying being alone during these the mornings of anxiety, but if the trade off is having destabilizing wake ups several times after falling asleep that's not sustainable.  Trouble is that now I'm a mess this morning and Im going to wake her up.  I have to do it.  I can't go on like this.  It's happened three or so nights in a row.  It's really taking its toll.  I feel terrible this morning.

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Rabe

I think it is ok to have an attachment to the material things Rosetta...because the material things often times have beautiful beautiful memories attached to them...and for now I know that I need to hang onto those...well many days I clutch them...because those memories bring the peace, joy, love and knowledge of what was and can be that for now I have lost...me.

I know that you will find a way to bring the ring back that will have a new memory to treasure...perhaps that is why it was taken...to give you something even lovelier in its place...I hope so.

I also hope that today brings you both the sunrise and the dawn...joy and peace.  Thinking about you!! ♥️

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Hazel
1 hour ago, Rosetta said:

Thanks, Carmie.  Yes, someday I will feel normal and I will feel true joy.  For now, I just have to muddle through.  I read your thread.  You are doing really well.  You are so fortunate to be tapering properly.  Your life is organized and easier because of that.  

 

Journal:

 

Last night was very hard.  I felt ok before going to bed.  Every time I fell asleep my daughter woke me up.  She was either not ready to sleep because she's been sleeping until 9:00 the past couple of days or she was over tired.  I'm not sure which.  I became more and more agitated every time she woke me.  

 

While lying in bed, I lost her ring yesterday.  She gave it to me in the bathroom at the park yesterday.  Santa had given it to her.  So, replacing it is a bit complicated.  I spiraled on that issue for what seemed like hours.  I think I have convinced myself I can get another one and pretend that I found it.  It took a lot of time and effort to go to sleep after that.  Boy, I have intense issues about material things!!  It's so silly.  

 

Then I woke with a cortisol spike before 2:00.  I spiraled and fought off spiraling for a long time.  I heated my shoulder wrap 3 times.  Finally, I slept again and woke up at 7:00.  

 

Today, I'm going to wake my daughter earlier and try to get her back on my schedule.  I was enjoying being alone during these the mornings of anxiety, but if the trade off is having destabilizing wake ups several times after falling asleep that's not sustainable.  Trouble is that now I'm a mess this morning and Im going to wake her up.  I have to do it.  I can't go on like this.  It's happened three or so nights in a row.  It's really taking its toll.  I feel terrible this morning.

Hi Rosetta,

I can relate to your troubles as my youngest still sleeps in bed with me and wants to stay up later now that school is out, but I still go to bed at my normal time. I try to let her sleep in so I can have my morning to myself now, but today she was up shortly after me, so so much for that.  I felt awful this morning as well and I know I don’t sleep as well with her in bed with me, but I don’t have the energy or patience to try and get her in her own bed right now.

I don’t have any answers, but wanted to let you know I definitely can relate.  I hope your day is improving!

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Rosetta

@Hazel Exactly.  It's not something I want to change right now.  She is confused enough by my moods and crying.  For myself, I can't imagine going through the upheaval of forcing her into her own bed.  But she kicks me in the night even when she's asleep.  I wouldn't mind being awakened if not for the cortisol spikes that seem to get more likely the more awakenings that occur!

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Carmie

Hi Rosetta, 

 

I’m so sorry the mornings are so bad for you. I think mornings are the worst time for a lot of people. I’m in a window but I still wake up shaking a lot of mornings and with this weird sense of dread. Hard to describe to people unless they are going through withdrawals. Even in windows I have quite a number of symptoms but they’re bearable. I spend a lot of time lying down or in bed as I have CFS, I don’t have much strength or energy so I’m very balanced in what I do. I have brain fog all the time.

 

I do believe that one can get over CFS even though I’ve had it for over twenty years buts it’s also a CNS illness and I don’t have a chance of getting over it until I’m off these meds as one’s CNS has to calm down. The way I’m going I think I’ll be tapering for another ten years. 

 

I was just looking back to your first post and yes, it is so sad that you found SA too late to reinstate. If only doctors knew about withdrawals. I was cold turkeyed off things in the past and it was horrific. I didn’t know I was going through withdrawals though, I just thought there was something terribly wrong with me for a long time. I thought the symptoms were permanent and felt suicidal. 

 

It was a relief to know my symptoms weren’t permanent. 

 

It must be hard going through withdrawals when you have children, when you’re barely coping yourself and then have to be cheery for them and try and put on a front. I feel for you. You must love all the cuddles though. 

 

I hope your your day gets better and I hope tomorrow morning is a little better for you💚💚

 

 

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Rabe

She wants to be with her mom♥️...wish that didn't kick up those spikes!!!  😡  Hope tonight is better Rosetta!!! ♥️  

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Rosetta

Journal:

 

Yesterday, I was anxious all day, crying, akathisia in my arms and shoulders, and my mind, etc.. I was able to read my daughter a book, but not much else.  I had several cortisol spikes in the night.  The first was at 12:30 am.  Then, one or two in the early morning and one right before 7:00 am.  Woke up desperately anxious.  However, I know it's fake anxiety.  I have nothing to be truly worried about in the immediate future so I worry how my inaction today will affect my future and my daughter's future.   It's wasted energy.  I'm trying to tell myself that it will all work out for the best.  There's nothing I can do about it anyway.  It is what it is.  I should just try to enjoy the little bits of the day that I can and wait for the anxiety to pass.  It always does.  

 

No other symptoms, besides depression, of course, that are troubling.  Slight dystonia as usual.  My hip feels as if I pulled a muscle or sprained it, but it's not too bad.  There were some muscle spasms in my neck yesterday.  I suspect my dystonia is slowly resolving and these two symptoms are the result of that.  Gastrointestinal is ok.  

 

I'm struggling most with anhedonia and how all this downtime is making my life less interesting, less enjoyable, and how it's affecting my poor husband.  I want to try harder to make our lives good, and I don't believe I can right now.  At least that's a sign that the motivation is coming back,

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Rabe

Oh Rosetta...I woke up so hoping you had slept better...I am sorry that was not so....

 

Do you think the thoughts about not making your lives good are your depression?  You worry about that often and then work so hard to make things good...sometimes I think we are doing more than we give ourselves credit for.  And you certainly help make many many lives far better here!  Bless you and hugs that your day will get better!!! ♥️

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wantrelief

So sorry to hear you had a bad day yesterday.  You have such a good attitude about it all.  I am thinking about you and sending big hugs - WR.

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Hazel

Hi Rosetta,

just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you and hope your day gets better.  Today has been a struggle for me as well.  I think your positive attitude about the situation will only help you and it helps me to try to be more positive as well.

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LexAnger

Dear rosseta, 

 

Thank you so much for your greatest and continuous care and support to my battling!

 

With my recent experience with the mental sxs, anxiety and insomnia etc. I now have a true undetstanding as how challenging these sxs are and admire much more your strength and resilience to the daily struggling. 

 

It breaks my heart you are still having the crippling sxs being 16 months off. I do wish a miracle is right on the corner and turn off all the agony suddenly for you!

 

No other sxs which I'm sure is encouraging to you, every single tiny improvement and appreciation of it can bring positive energy that can send powerful positive signals to the brain for better mental status. I hope they continue to improve and encourage you for overall healing!

 

 your positive altitude And self assurance is very admirable and will do you more good for healing too!

 

Hope you are feeling better as the day goes.

 

Love and hugs,

Lex

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Rabe

Just been thinking about you all day Rosetta...take care!!! ♥️

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Rosetta

@Rabe @wantrelief @LexAnger @Hazel

Thanks for all the well wishes.  

 

I have no choice but to just keep enduring this horrendous experience.

 

Last night was a repeat of the night before more or less.  Daughter wouldn't let me sleep; kept waking me up; I got frustrated.  Cortisol spike in the night.  Awake and anxious for about an hour.  Cortisol spike this morning at 6:15.  Tried to go back to sleep, but just started spiraling.  Today has been hard.  The muscle tension, akathisia, and anxiety is so tiring.  

 

I took my daughter to the park this morning, but I don't feel normal today.  I had a very hard time getting ready.  I managed to stay calm and get ready on time somehow.  I didn't feel normal when I was talking to the other mom I had invited.  Her daughter wasn't interested in playing with mine.  So, mine played with the little sister who is 5 -- very nicely.  It was all very awkward.  She had parked at my house and it was awkward that I couldn't invite her in.  

 

I feel the way I felt months ago when akathisia was nearly constant except that I know it's going to go away again.  I feel that people can tell there's something wrong with me.  I mean, of course, my friend notices that I don't invite her in.  This is the second time.  I told her everything was a mess because I'd been sick.  It's not as if anything bad will happen to me if this person thinks I'm strange, but I FEEL that something bad will happen to me if I don't act normal.

 

Do people think I'm on drugs?  Do they think I'm an alcoholic?  Both would be reasonable.  I'm anxious all the time.  I'm "sick" a lot.  I can't let them in my house.  How weird is that?

 

Tomorrow - another play date.  Next day - orientation for daughter's camp. Sunday - Fathers Day.  Monday - get a child who sleeps until 9 up at 7:30 for camp.  Tuesday - same thing.  

 

I simply feel that something bad is going to happen when while in a wave that deepens to this point.  Is that akathisia?  Is it something less than akathisia?  Does it matter?  Sigh . . . More magnesium, right?

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Rabe

Rosetta is there a friend that you feel you can share with?  Would that maybe help with some of the feelings and fears that you are having? 

 

I haven't shared with many but I have shared with a couple and, having finally done that, opened a door that helped me move forward in a way I can't really explain except to say it freed me a bit, I didn't feel so 'stuck', I didn't feel I had to hide as much, it seemed to give me more freedom to be who I was and am each day without feeling as bad about that as I had been.  I don't know if it would help you or not...I only talk to one friend often about everything but it is always helpful to me because she is not going through what I am and therefore has a unique perspective and is supportive in a unique way.  I basically continue to 'hide' but at least the door is open.  When I opened it and  no one gasped and fell over it was like I wasn't as 'bad' a person as I had thought.   

 

If i'm making no sense let me know...having some trouble with that.

 

In any case I am sorry that you continue to deal with all the agitation and worry...I can hear the fatigue in your voice...and yet I hear the strength as well.  Perhaps tomorrow the akathisia will be better and that will open a little window and the view will be clearer....thinking about you!!! ♥️

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Rabe

This if for you and all, ...Rosetta 

 

In the clearing stands a boxer and a fighter by his trade

and he carries the reminders of every glove that laid him down

or cut him til he cried out in his anger and his shame, "I am leaving...I am leaving"...

but the fighter still remains.... 

               and

When the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter, far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed, that with the sun's love....in the spring....becomes the rose.
 
Wish we all could have our spring this spring/summer...and that all the seeds we have
planted would become our unique shade of a lovely colored rose!  Hugs Rosetta...hoping you sleep!

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Carmie

Dear Rosetta, 

 

I’m so sorry that you’re struggling so much, yes the stress and anxiety can get too much at times. It is a horrible feeling when you want to invite someone in but can’t and when conversation n interactions are stifled. I feel for you. 

 

I like Rabe’s idea of maybe confiding in one close friend, really pouring out your heart to them. I know it can be hard, especially when anxiety is sky high, and there really is nothing worse than the akathisia. When that is in full swing one definitely doesn’t feel normal at all, you don’t even feel like you’re on this planet. It’s good though that you can see it will subside again.

 

Despite how awful you’re feeling you are such an encouragement to people on this site. You have such a good heart and are always helping other people to cope and feel better even though you’re barely hanging in there yourself some days. Thanks fior your kindness to me too. 

 

Hope you have a better day tomorrow 💚💚💚

 

 

 

 

 

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wantrelief

Oh Rosetta - I am really sorry you had such a rough day.  When I read your posts I always come away with great admiration for all that you are doing despite how you are feeling.  Some thoughts I had after reading this recent post...all of my life I've worried about what other people think about me, it has gotten better as I've gotten older but it is still there.  I've noticed it coming back more now in withdrawal, perhaps because I feel so different from my peers who are all working, traveling and socializing (I do a little socializing but not as much as I used to).  I am really trying to accept that what I am going through makes me different at the moment and it really doesn't matter what people think.  Maybe we are going through this so we come out stronger, more secure with who we are and less concerned about what others think. Truth be told, I've always been a little different and that isn't a bad thing.  Also, usually people are way too caught up in their own lives to even think about the things we worry they are thinking....I think this is harder to remember when we are feeling vulnerable. Perhaps focus on what you do accomplish, not only with your daughter but in caring for yourself and others here even when you aren't feeling well.  Not that you should care what I think lol but I think you are an amazing person!  Lot of hugs - WR.

 

 

 

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Rosetta

Ah, it finally eased early this morning.  I had a very hard night and then woke up at 5:15 feeling that the akathisia had gone.  I got very little sleep from 10:00 to about 12:30 when I had a cortisol spike.  I was up for about an hour and a half heating my shoulder wrap over and over.  Then I had another cortisol spike sometime after 2:00.  I think I haven't felt quite that desperate in a very long time, but this morning I have only low level anxiety. I was able to doze a bit between 6:00 and 8:00.  

 

Thank you @wantrelief @Rabe and @Carmie.  Thank you so very much for your kind words.  I would be so alone without this forum.  No one else has any idea what this feels like.  

 

No, I don't have anyone to talk with.  I have moved too many times to have any close friends.  Those I had years ago are far away and are busy or are depressed themselves.  One friend I had hoped to have a closer friendship with has a mother who is now dying of cancer.  I feel I can't complain to her very much as my life on the outside is pretty good.  

 

My best friend from high school is probably in WD.  I'm not sure, but it seems like it.  If not, she's had two hip replacements and maybe the anesthesia has harmed her brain.  She works full time.  Her husband left her, and she has an autistic teenage son.  She doesn't initiate contact with me and often doesn't respond to my texts.  Apparently, she sleeps a lot.  

 

Sometimes when I do an "inventory" of my friends to consider asking for support I realize that I'm lucky I don't have their problems.  I imagine they would find it very annoying if I complained to them about "anxiety."  How could they ever understsnd that this is not anxiety nor depression?  It's something so much worse.

 

I presume many of you can relate to this.  

 

Im going to do the best I can to have a good day today!!!!

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Rabe

Well knowing you, you then will have a pretty good day!  I hope so Rosetta!

 

Im sorry about your support r/t moving.  You're stuck with us then! 🤗♥️

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Hazel

Hi Rosetta,

just wanted to let you know I’m thinking about you and can relate to feeling alone.  It’s hard to try and explain how this feels to people who have never gone through it.  My husband thinks going to the doctor will make it better and I tried telling him again it will likely make things much worse.

My mom is my biggest support, but it’s hard for her to understand too.  It’s nice to know she is there for me though, and usually that’s what helps the most.

 I do appreciate this forum and having people to “talk” to who get this.

Hope your day is going well😊

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