Rabe Posted July 1, 2018 Share Posted July 1, 2018 How was the fair? -Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016 -Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17, -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded -4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, -7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25 -1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, 1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit 1/week,Reacted Mag prn Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted July 1, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 1, 2018 Glad you’ve been feeling a little more normal Rosetta, Hope you had fun at the fair. It’s nice to get out and about here and there and do something different. I also hope that tomorrow is another normal day for you.💚 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Rosetta Posted July 1, 2018 Author Share Posted July 1, 2018 I dont know. I'm not very anxious this morning. It's Sunday and there's no pressure. I'm not depressed either. I think I feel frustrated. I feel generally off and confused. It's a feeling that is probably always there but gets drowned out by high anxiety sometimes. I want to put my house back in order. That's what I want. I can't do it all at once so I don't want to do a little bit that will be undone again before I get to the next little bit. I have no where to put anything until I get rid of things. It's a chicken and egg issue, but I do believe that someday I'll find my way through. Yes, I feel frustrated. That's the feeling. Yesterday, was an exhausting day at the fair, but worth it. She had a great time, and I enjoyed watching her have fun. I bought a hammock and two hammock "chairs," -- hanging chairs -- for that day when I feel able to sit outside and relax. Kinda of like a down payment on finding my way back to a good life. I can't stay home anyway because I can't rest, and I will worry all day. That's worse. I'm trying to decide what to do today. I dream of the day I can relax at home the way I used to, and feel recharged. Even today I don't know what to do. I feel that I'm running myself ragged, but it's not me -- its my brain. I hope that I'm re-training my brain to enjoy life by going out and engaging the world. The dystonia has come back in the night, but, and -- this may be my imagination -- it seems that the anxiety doesn't occur at night if the dystonia is there! I suppose that's possible. I'm constantly afraid of the next wave. I've come to dislike days I feel "normal" because it's a swing and that means another swing back is coming. I suppose one day that will pass, too. Oh, @Waterfall! I know what you mean. It's very hard to look at people with normal brain function -- even people who struggle with mild depression and anxiety -- and not feel somehow cursed. Why did this happen? Why did I trust anything that would affect my brain? How I wish I had not!!! But here I am. Yes, I am proof there is hope, and I think I'm also proof that fast tapers and cold turkeys are extremely dangerous. You and I are both lucky that our husbands are understanding. One less obstacle. I'm so glad your parents are there and helpful, too. That would be amazing. Carmie, thank you. I can't say I feel normal, but it's close enough for a Sunday. @Carmie @wantrelief. Thanks for reading here. Maybe I'm showing that better times are possible. @LexAnger @DMV64 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Rosetta Posted July 1, 2018 Author Share Posted July 1, 2018 I need advice. I'm beginning to wonder about something -- the days when I am most frustrated with the state of my house -- are those days a good sign? Does that mean that I want to move on with life? It's a perfectry normal feeling for anyone who had been ill for a long time and the house became a jumble because of their kids or a husband who wasn't good at organization. I'm sure it's a perfectly normal feeling for people who have a lot of kids. It's not normal that I can't start fixing it. It's not normal that I'll have another wave of illness and all the work I did will be lost. I think that's what is the most discouraging -- that it will be wasted effort. What won't be wasted effort is getting rid of things. That may be what I need to focus on the most. Clearing things out and making room for the organizational process. Making room for the things I want to keep. The second issue that stops me from making progress -- the fear of finding something that brings back a bad memory or even a good memory that makes me sad -- that will have to be handled, too. I don't really know how except to wait until the day I have less neuro-emotions. That's where I need help. I can't wait that long because I can't live like this that long. I think that's what I'm afraid of in the middle of the night -- how much longer I will live like this -- unable to have guests, unable to relax, unable to find anything without a meltdown. I think this state of confusion, frustration and fear is directly connected to the chaos here. It is a stark example of the harm that sertraline did to me -- the constant misdiagnosis of my illness (worsening anxiety instead of withdrawal) caused me to hoard and become insanely - literally - disorganized. I'm angry about that -- very angry. Am I turning that anger inward and becoming depressed about it instead of taking control? I think so, of course. https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
jonnypeters1234567 Posted July 1, 2018 Share Posted July 1, 2018 The changing personalities is one of the most challenging things to deal with this in this for sure. Try not to over analyse each thought. I would say tidy when you feel well enough and don't feel pressure to when you don't. best wishes 2009-2010 Citalopram 20mg CT no problems Sertaline 2010- 6monnths 2011- 2017 June 2017- Citalopram 20mg CT Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted July 1, 2018 Moderator Share Posted July 1, 2018 Hi Rosetta-- I'm so glad you had a good time at the fair. they can be fun, but I've never been good with crowds so that's what stops me. Wanting to clean up the house is a very positive sign of healing. Having the energy and inclination is a problem. Several weeks ago I posted to you about doing a small bit at a time, that system really works. Worrying about it all getting undone is a form of spiral thinking both in worrying about the house getting messy again and worrying about how bad you will feel during the next wave. You've been through several bad waves and have always come out the other side and in better condition than when they started. To worry about the next wave is just a big waste of energy and emotions. Try not to worry about it until it happens, there is too much joy being wasted while you're waiting for it to happen. As for finding something that will set off good or bad emotions while cleaning, that's a Spiral Trigger and should be handled as such. When it happens, quickly set the item aside and move on to the next. Change the channel, the emotions will only take over if you let them. So put the object aside to be dealt with at another time. Once the house is organized a bit things will feel better. If it gets messy again you get to experience that joy all over again as you get things back in order. Each time it gets done you will move a little further ahead and the whole level will slowly rise. I can tell from your posts that this is a really big deal for you and putting it off is causing a lot of stress. this is a case where it is better to do something, anything, instead of just letting it build up and build up until there's a crash. (((((((((((HUGS))))))) Brass 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
TryingToHoldOn Posted July 1, 2018 Share Posted July 1, 2018 Thank you for the signature link. i am glad to see you are continuing to see improvements! I wish to be where you are currently at. Mid 2014 - June 2016 (~ 2.5 yrs): sertraline 75mg. Under advice of my Pysch NP, weaned off in 1 month Sept 2017 - Feb 2017 (6 months): Latuda (dose 20mg up to 80mg). Under advice of Psych NP, weaned off in 6 weeks (Jan - mid Feb). Tirtated down 20mg every 2 weeks. Nov 2017 - Feb 2017 (3 months): lamictal 100mg. Abruptly taken off. This was the "wean": 100mg, 50mg, then off Feb 2017: sertraline 150mg for 1 week to bring me out of a severe suicidal depression. Abruptly stopped due to serotonin syndrome. Tried to reinstate 50mg a week later, but the serotonin syndrome symptoms came back. Not possible to reinstate sertraline. March 2017: remeron 7.5mg. Took one dose that knocked me out for two days. Refused to take it again February 2017 - March 2017: Ativan 1mg. Took 5 pills total spread out over the course of 3 weeks. No longer taking it. 6/16/18 - 6/26: celexa 1.25mg 6/27/18 - 6/29: celexa 2.5mg, 6/29 had burning and agitation within 30min of dose 6/30/18 - present: celexa 1.25mg Link to comment
Rabe Posted July 2, 2018 Share Posted July 2, 2018 Hi Rosetta...I was going to say as well...the house seems to be such a hurdle for you. I do wonder if you started a bit at a time and got through it, and then did a bit more and got through that, and saw and felt the progress, that it might help you overall. For me, one of the things that is hardest is feeling 'stuck'...feeling like there is no door and no window and no way forward or out....and that leads to anxiety. I wonder if you aren't stuck and feeling that and if it might not be contributing to your anxiety. I don't know, but I do feel would be worth a try to start going through your things and see where it goes. You can always stop..come back to it...my gut tells me it would help though parts of it might not feel that way. Thinking bout you lots. Take care! 💜 -Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016 -Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17, -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded -4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, -7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25 -1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, 1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit 1/week,Reacted Mag prn Link to comment
Rosetta Posted July 2, 2018 Author Share Posted July 2, 2018 I think you are right, Brassmonkey. I need to try to begin on a day when I'm able. It's driving me nuts, but I am really between a rock and a hard place. I experience very intense emotions in the night, and some days, and in the daytime on the days I'm doing okay I don't want to risk evoking those thoughts of grief and loss. All of my daughter's baby stuff is scattered throughout. This matter of the doctor switching my meds the night she was born has colored everything about motherhood for me. I spent years believing that motherhood was making me crazy, and that I was incapable of being a good mother for some inexplicable reason. Every time I see a toy or a tiny outfit or a picture, I risk feeling very intensely that I have lost my baby somewhere in time. My baby is gone, and I miss her so much. When she was 4 is when I started to get really sick. Before that I enjoyed her so much. We had so much fun. Even though my husband says I was nuts from the time she turned one, I didn't experience my time with her as a negative thing. She was 5 1/2 when I quit sertraline. That's still a baby really compared to how she is now. I can't explain how I feel very well, but it's almost surreal. Just 10 minutes ago she ruined a t-shirt that she won in a contest when she was 4, but only recently grew into, and it made me cry. https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
DMV64 Posted July 2, 2018 Share Posted July 2, 2018 18 hours ago, Rosetta said: I can't stay home anyway because I can't rest, and I will worry all day. Wow I really relate to so much of what you are saying. Sometimes it doesn't seem like there is a haven. Inside me is worry so solitude is no good. Outside me is social anxiety/dread and so that is no good. But your posts are hopeful and showing recovery. They help me. They inspire me to try to write a little bit, even when I feel I cannot. I also feel like, why did I mess with my brain... Then my therapist reminds me of self compassion. It is hard to find but so important for me. Tara Brach helps. 2001- Klonopin 0.125 mg. 2011- increase to 1 mg. 2018- increase to 1.5 mg. Taper 2023-2024. Taper complete! 2010- Trials of SSRI's, several. 2011- Saphris 5 mg. CT. 6/2017- retry Saphris 5 mg sublingual, begin taper August 2020 10% taper with scale, and final taper liquid sublingual, August 2019- taper complete! 2011- Geodon 20 mg. Begin taper Sept 2019. 10% liquid taper. 2020: December-5 mg. 2021: Jan-4.5mg. (held Feb.for vacation). March-4mg. Apr-3.6mg. May-3.2mg. June-2.8mg. (Held July for vacation). Aug-2.4mg. Sept.- 2.2mg. Oct. 2mg. Dec 2022 - Taper complete! 2011- Gabapentin 300 mg to present- 2020. Increase 2023 to 400mg. 2014- Vyvanse 20 mg, 2020- Vyvanse 5 mg. Increase August 2022 20mg. CT (unavailable) 4/2023 2016- Lithium 300 mg, June 2016 - FT. 2017- Cogentin 0.5 mg. June-August 2019- off Cogentin. 2018- Lamictal 300mg. Holding 2021 - Hydroxyzine 30mg. Holding. 2014 Omeprazole 20 mg and holding, Omega 3's/fish oil, Magnesium Link to comment
Waterfall Posted July 2, 2018 Share Posted July 2, 2018 11 hours ago, Rosetta said: Just 10 minutes ago she ruined a t-shirt that she won in a contest when she was 4, but only recently grew into, and it made me cry. I understand. I would cry too. If not for my mother, who has helped organize so much of my stuff (and is still discouraged by how much is left) I would be in the very same place as you are. I can only offer a few thoughts, and hope that they are helpful. Yes, you can do it in little bits. Pick one little spot, one little pile, and work on it. Every little bit is something. (I also totally understand if even one little bit feels like too much... been there) Yes, getting rid of things hurts. You will miss some things. But you'll be so glad you did it anyway. Life does feel better with less clutter. Trust me. I've gotten rid of a LOT of stuff. I only miss a few. And the things you miss, are totally worth the progress that you make. I urge you to consider a looking up 'FlyLady'. Now I will warn you, she sends a LOT of emails, which can be really overwhelming. I signed up, and then didn't look at it at all, because I couldn't handle so many emails. But what I do now (when I'm feeling well enough) is a skim through, and pick out one or two here and there, that look interesting, and I've read some good stuff from her about dealing with stuff, organizing, and getting stuff done little bits at a time. If the emails are too much, you can always try reading some of the stuff on her web page. There is a lot more in the emails, so I think it could help to give it a try. The only way it worked for me, was to approach, even her approach, in small doses. I can't say that I do everything like she says (in case you accidentally think I'm amazing). I've just found her ideas to be helpful, in much more slowly approaching being able to tackle my own household (and I mean much more slowly than she is saying to do it). Oh, and I suppose it's worth mentioning that I send all her emails, in my inbox, to their own folder. Otherwise they would clog up everything. Anxiety since I was 5, and my Grandma died. Depression since at least my early 20s. Wellbutrin for unknown length of time in 2009 Guess: 6-9 months. Cold Turkeyed in Dec 2009. Citalopram 40mg end of 2014 until June 2017. Began within a few months after 4th child was born because I crashed. Quit CT. Had no major symptoms until Sept. Took Gaba from spring until near end of Nov 2017 Took St. John's Wort mixed with who knows what else from mid-summer to end of Sept.. Clonazepam 0.25 mg once a day since Sept. 18. To stay sane. Rough time since Sept. 18. Tried to reinstate. Repeatedly. Failed. Bad reaction. Horrible cortisol spikes I seem to react badly to anything I take right now. Except Clonazepam. End of December, forgot to take Clonazepam for a few days. Thought I could do without. Appears I was wrong, Jan. 1-2? Trying to find the right way to deal with things. Holding at 1/4 of 0.25mg pill morning and night. Reinstated Jan. 5 Apr. 30, Got a scale. Measuring roughly .25 mg of a .80mg pill that contains .25mg Clonazepam. Link to comment
Rosetta Posted July 3, 2018 Author Share Posted July 3, 2018 Decent night's sleep. Dystonia got better over the night. Woke up without the crazy anxiety. Had decaf and fish tacos for breakfast. Walked 6 miles. Stayed away from home all day. Got dehydrated. Felt terrible for a few hours. Had apple and coconut water Felt better about 6:30 pm Had salami, Apple, grapes, carrots and granola cereal. Bed at 8:30 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Waterfall Posted July 3, 2018 Share Posted July 3, 2018 6 miles!? Wow. I wish I could walk across my house without trouble. That's amazing! Not the getting dehydrated part... But I'm glad you felt better again later. Anxiety since I was 5, and my Grandma died. Depression since at least my early 20s. Wellbutrin for unknown length of time in 2009 Guess: 6-9 months. Cold Turkeyed in Dec 2009. Citalopram 40mg end of 2014 until June 2017. Began within a few months after 4th child was born because I crashed. Quit CT. Had no major symptoms until Sept. Took Gaba from spring until near end of Nov 2017 Took St. John's Wort mixed with who knows what else from mid-summer to end of Sept.. Clonazepam 0.25 mg once a day since Sept. 18. To stay sane. Rough time since Sept. 18. Tried to reinstate. Repeatedly. Failed. Bad reaction. Horrible cortisol spikes I seem to react badly to anything I take right now. Except Clonazepam. End of December, forgot to take Clonazepam for a few days. Thought I could do without. Appears I was wrong, Jan. 1-2? Trying to find the right way to deal with things. Holding at 1/4 of 0.25mg pill morning and night. Reinstated Jan. 5 Apr. 30, Got a scale. Measuring roughly .25 mg of a .80mg pill that contains .25mg Clonazepam. Link to comment
Rabe Posted July 3, 2018 Share Posted July 3, 2018 WOW is right...that is so SO wonderful to hear Rosetta!!! 6 miles is HUGE at this point! Must have felt so good? And staying away from home all day that is fabulous too! That would feel so good! Yes take care in the heat...these drugs mess up receptors, as we know, receptors that also channel our electrolytes...and I feel thats what causes the disturbances there. Gatorades and all are good because they have the salt as well. I stay with the coconut water because my issue has usually been the potassium and more salt just will make that go lower. Again, SO happy to hear about your day!!!💜 -Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016 -Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17, -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded -4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, -7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25 -1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, 1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit 1/week,Reacted Mag prn Link to comment
jonnypeters1234567 Posted July 3, 2018 Share Posted July 3, 2018 2 hours ago, Rosetta said: Decent night's sleep. Dystonia got better over the night. Woke up without the crazy anxiety. Had decaf and fish tacos for breakfast. Walked 6 miles. Stayed away from home all day. Got dehydrated. Felt terrible for a few hours. Had apple and coconut water Felt better about 6:30 pm Had salami, Apple, grapes, carrots and granola cereal. Bed at 8:30 Sounds a good day, many more to come 2009-2010 Citalopram 20mg CT no problems Sertaline 2010- 6monnths 2011- 2017 June 2017- Citalopram 20mg CT Link to comment
Rosetta Posted July 3, 2018 Author Share Posted July 3, 2018 @DMV64 @Waterfall @Rabe @jonnypeters1234567 @TryingToHoldOn Thanks everyone for your support!! I'm so grateful. Yesterday was too much, and yet I'm not paying for it today. I feel ok despite being awakened by my daughter quite a bit. She was a bit dehydrated and woke up with a headache in the night. She kicked me awake a couple of times. We went to sleep late because she could settle down. Slept ok. Heated the shoulder wrap once around 12:30 and again at 2:00 just for insurance. Very little dystonia. Woke up without anxiety. Amazing -- second day in a row. This feels very strange. An egg, an English muffin, cream cheese, cherry jam and decaf for breakfast Took daughter to camp 3 mile walk by the stream Stayed home most of the day Picked up daughter from camp Happy 4th to all the U.S. people! https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Waterfall Posted July 3, 2018 Share Posted July 3, 2018 43 minutes ago, Rosetta said: Yesterday was too much, and yet I'm not paying for it today. 44 minutes ago, Rosetta said: I feel ok despite being awakened by my daughter quite a bit. 44 minutes ago, Rosetta said: Woke up without anxiety. Amazing -- second day in a row. This feels very strange. 44 minutes ago, Rosetta said: 3 mile walk by the stream Wow again, Rosetta! I'm so happy for you. This sounds amazing!!! We get so used to feeling off that feeling more normal does feel strange, doesn't it? Yay, for this new strangeness!! I hope it continues, and if not, I hope it returns! Anxiety since I was 5, and my Grandma died. Depression since at least my early 20s. Wellbutrin for unknown length of time in 2009 Guess: 6-9 months. Cold Turkeyed in Dec 2009. Citalopram 40mg end of 2014 until June 2017. Began within a few months after 4th child was born because I crashed. Quit CT. Had no major symptoms until Sept. Took Gaba from spring until near end of Nov 2017 Took St. John's Wort mixed with who knows what else from mid-summer to end of Sept.. Clonazepam 0.25 mg once a day since Sept. 18. To stay sane. Rough time since Sept. 18. Tried to reinstate. Repeatedly. Failed. Bad reaction. Horrible cortisol spikes I seem to react badly to anything I take right now. Except Clonazepam. End of December, forgot to take Clonazepam for a few days. Thought I could do without. Appears I was wrong, Jan. 1-2? Trying to find the right way to deal with things. Holding at 1/4 of 0.25mg pill morning and night. Reinstated Jan. 5 Apr. 30, Got a scale. Measuring roughly .25 mg of a .80mg pill that contains .25mg Clonazepam. Link to comment
wantrelief Posted July 3, 2018 Share Posted July 3, 2018 I like what Waterfall said about "yay for this new strangeness".....yay, indeed! It also sounds really positive that there haven't been negative repercussions for having done a lot yesterday....wonderful news! -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg Link to comment
Rabe Posted July 4, 2018 Share Posted July 4, 2018 SOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy to hear Rosetta!!!! 💜 -Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016 -Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17, -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded -4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, -7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25 -1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, 1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit 1/week,Reacted Mag prn Link to comment
Rabe Posted July 4, 2018 Share Posted July 4, 2018 and 2 more miles today! THATS truly incredible..and a very lovely form of strange. -Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016 -Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17, -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded -4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, -7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25 -1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, 1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit 1/week,Reacted Mag prn Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Songbird Posted July 4, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 4, 2018 Yay to waking up without anxiety! 2001–2002 paroxetine 2003 citalopram 2004-2008 paroxetine (various failed tapers) 2008 paroxetine slow taper down to 2016 Aug off paroxetine2016 citalopram May 20mg Oct 15mg … slow taper down2018 citalopram 13 Feb 4.6mg 15 Mar 4.4mg 29 Apr 4.2mg 6 Jul 4.1mg 17 Aug 4.0mg 18 Nov 3.8mg 2019 15 Mar 3.6mg 21 May 3.4mg 26 Dec 3.2mg 2020 19 Feb 3.0mg 19 Jul 2.9mg 16 Sep 2.8mg 25 Oct 2.7mg 23 Oct 2.6mg 24 Dec 2.5mg 2021 29 Aug 2.4mg 15 Nov 2.3mg Link to comment
DMV64 Posted July 4, 2018 Share Posted July 4, 2018 13 hours ago, Rosetta said: Woke up without anxiety. I am so so happy to read this! What a blessing!!! 2001- Klonopin 0.125 mg. 2011- increase to 1 mg. 2018- increase to 1.5 mg. Taper 2023-2024. Taper complete! 2010- Trials of SSRI's, several. 2011- Saphris 5 mg. CT. 6/2017- retry Saphris 5 mg sublingual, begin taper August 2020 10% taper with scale, and final taper liquid sublingual, August 2019- taper complete! 2011- Geodon 20 mg. Begin taper Sept 2019. 10% liquid taper. 2020: December-5 mg. 2021: Jan-4.5mg. (held Feb.for vacation). March-4mg. Apr-3.6mg. May-3.2mg. June-2.8mg. (Held July for vacation). Aug-2.4mg. Sept.- 2.2mg. Oct. 2mg. Dec 2022 - Taper complete! 2011- Gabapentin 300 mg to present- 2020. Increase 2023 to 400mg. 2014- Vyvanse 20 mg, 2020- Vyvanse 5 mg. Increase August 2022 20mg. CT (unavailable) 4/2023 2016- Lithium 300 mg, June 2016 - FT. 2017- Cogentin 0.5 mg. June-August 2019- off Cogentin. 2018- Lamictal 300mg. Holding 2021 - Hydroxyzine 30mg. Holding. 2014 Omeprazole 20 mg and holding, Omega 3's/fish oil, Magnesium Link to comment
Rosetta Posted July 4, 2018 Author Share Posted July 4, 2018 I slept even better last night. I didn't need to heat my shoulder wrap even once. This morning I had a couple of mild cortisol spikes. I calmed rather quickly. Today, I didn't feel anxiety upon waking up, but after lying there and thinking I did. I was in bed late because my child has no camp today. (It sure beats waking up at 5:30 or 6:00 in a blind panic.). So, I sort of did a CBT exercise and convinced myself to think only of today. I made a gratitude list in my head, and I let my worries be shelved. This worked! (It doesn't always work especially after days on end of anxiety.) Of course, it's the 4th so we have to prepare food and go to my MIL's. She's invited a bunch of people, and I feel ok about that. I keep thinking that I should be upset and anxious, but I'm not. It's more like a normal level of anticipation. I've come through a rough period. Some kind of a yo-yo type wave that was very long, and it turned into unmistakable akathisia for a few days. June 12-June 22 was very hard, and there was Akathisia. The aka got worse and worse and was panic inducing for the last 24 hours. I'm not sure the yo-yo-ing is over, but everything has been improving since the 22nd. I have been getting relief from the anxiety for the last few days. It's less severe and does not happen every morning, but it flares up here and there. Its been about 8 days with tolerable levels of anxiety and about 5-6 days of a window feeling with a few stress induced crying spells that cleared quickly. This is the longest window yet It's a change in the pattern -- that's clear, and it shows me such hope. My period stopped about 3 months ago. It just stopped. I think that may have something to do with the anxiety reducing. I'm hoping that even if my period comes back this break will have been a good rest from hormones irritating my nervous system. Mid-July will be 17 months free. https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
Rosetta Posted July 4, 2018 Author Share Posted July 4, 2018 @Rabe @Waterfall @wantrelief @DMV64 and Songbird Thank you for your support and for just being there! https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
wantrelief Posted July 4, 2018 Share Posted July 4, 2018 Aw, thank you Rosetta for being there for me! I am so happy for you that your window continues. I hope you enjoy the time at your MIL's - how wonderful not to feel anxious about it. -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg Link to comment
Rabe Posted July 5, 2018 Share Posted July 5, 2018 So good to hear you say it shows you such hope...so awful to feel hopeless. Hope your day has gone well Rosetta!!! -Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016 -Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17, -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded -4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, -7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25 -1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, 1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit 1/week,Reacted Mag prn Link to comment
bubbles Posted July 5, 2018 Share Posted July 5, 2018 Quote My period stopped about 3 months ago. It just stopped. I think that may have something to do with the anxiety reducing. I'm hoping that even if my period comes back this break will have been a good rest from hormones irritating my nervous system. I'm not sure of your age, but I'm well into my perimenopause. A few times I've thought "this is it, it's been three months" but they've started again. I'm loving the stability! I feel so well, bar a few "warm flashes". I think I'd underestimated the hormonal upheaval of being a woman in her fertile years. 2005 St John's Wort / 2006-2012 Lexapro 20mg, 2 failed attempts to stop, tapered over 4.5 months in early 2012 January 2013 started Sertraline, over time worked up to 100mg July 2014 Sertraline dropped from 100mg to 75mg, held for six months, slower tapering until 2019 22 Dec 3.2mg 2020 Sertraline 19 Jan 3.1mg, 26 Jan 3.0mg; 1 Mar 2.9, 7 Mar 2.8, May (some drops here) 24 May 2.5, May 29 2.4, June 21 2.3, June 28 2.2mg, July 4 2.1mg, July 24 (or maybe a bit before) 2mg, early Nov switched to home made suspension; 29 Nov 1.8mg; approx 25 Dec 1.6mg) 2021 Some time in about Jan/Feb realised probably on more like 1.8mg and poss mixing error in making suspension; doses after 10 Feb accurate; 10 Feb 1.6mg; 7 Mar 1.4, continued monthly 10% drops until 1mg, then dropped 0.1mg monthly. May 2022,0.1mg, now dropping 0.01mg per week 29 August 2022 - first day of zero! My thread here at SA: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/1775-bubbles/page/21/ Current: Armour Thyroid Link to comment
Rosetta Posted July 5, 2018 Author Share Posted July 5, 2018 @bubbles Yes, it's perimenopause. I agree with you. Some of us have a lot of hormonal issues, and it's probably exacerbated by diet. https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
jonnypeters1234567 Posted July 6, 2018 Share Posted July 6, 2018 On 7/4/2018 at 5:59 PM, Rosetta said: I slept even better last night. I didn't need to heat my shoulder wrap even once. This morning I had a couple of mild cortisol spikes. I calmed rather quickly. Today, I didn't feel anxiety upon waking up, but after lying there and thinking I did. I was in bed late because my child has no camp today. (It sure beats waking up at 5:30 or 6:00 in a blind panic.). So, I sort of did a CBT exercise and convinced myself to think only of today. I made a gratitude list in my head, and I let my worries be shelved. This worked! (It doesn't always work especially after days on end of anxiety.) Of course, it's the 4th so we have to prepare food and go to my MIL's. She's invited a bunch of people, and I feel ok about that. I keep thinking that I should be upset and anxious, but I'm not. It's more like a normal level of anticipation. I've come through a rough period. Some kind of a yo-yo type wave that was very long, and it turned into unmistakable akathisia for a few days. June 12-June 22 was very hard, and there was Akathisia. The aka got worse and worse and was panic inducing for the last 24 hours. I'm not sure the yo-yo-ing is over, but everything has been improving since the 22nd. I have been getting relief from the anxiety for the last few days. It's less severe and does not happen every morning, but it flares up here and there. Its been about 8 days with tolerable levels of anxiety and about 5-6 days of a window feeling with a few stress induced crying spells that cleared quickly. This is the longest window yet It's a change in the pattern -- that's clear, and it shows me such hope. My period stopped about 3 months ago. It just stopped. I think that may have something to do with the anxiety reducing. I'm hoping that even if my period comes back this break will have been a good rest from hormones irritating my nervous system. Mid-July will be 17 months free. Great news on the window, long may it continue. 2009-2010 Citalopram 20mg CT no problems Sertaline 2010- 6monnths 2011- 2017 June 2017- Citalopram 20mg CT Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted July 6, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 6, 2018 That’s so wonderful to hear Rosetta💚 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Rosetta Posted July 6, 2018 Author Share Posted July 6, 2018 July 5th was a little worse. I developed some muscle tension/ aka in my jaw after visiting with a friend who wanted to talk politics. I wish I had said that I didn't want to think about that subject. I'm not sure that the tension was caused by the conversation though. I felt a bit more anxious yesterday. I was awake in the night for a couple of hours with dystonia, and then I woke up without it. The tension in my jaw is still there. This morning I'm more anxious than I was yesterday, but it's bearable. Last day of camp for the little one. Pretty nervous about the next week with no camp, but I'm hoping we will have some fun if I don't go into a deep wave. Please, please, please!!! Onward. https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25 2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born) 2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg 2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction) 2016 - Stopped Xanax Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown) Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone Drug free since Feb 2017 2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep Link to comment
RealMe Posted July 6, 2018 Share Posted July 6, 2018 1 hour ago, Rosetta said: but I'm hoping we will have some fun Hi Rosetta, I can't talk with anyone who is too intense whether it is politics or family issues. I tend to isolate, so I have to be careful not to find reasons to stay alone ruminating. I soak up other people's feelings and anxiety like nobody's business, so I try to hang with positive people as much as I can. I feel like I'm always on emotional overload, so I avoid conversations that upset me. I react to television pretty much like others have described here, especially pharma commercials, news and political talking heads. I used to watch mainly drama, but now I watch a lot of comedy, game shows and history on tv. I hope you have a nice time with your daughter on summer vacay. My grandchildren are very good distractors for me. xo RM Alcohol periodic excessive 1963-1976, Valium sporadic 1964-1973, Imipramine off & on 1982-1985, Fluoxetine 10mg-80 mg. Oct., 1995-Jan., 2014; Cymbalta, other ADs 1/2014-3/2014; Abilify 5 mg. 3/2014 - 8/8/17; Trintellix 20 mg. 3/2014 - 9/2017; Propranolol 60-80 mg. sporadically Sept-Oct, 2017; Seroquel few days Sept 2017 (c/t); Wellbutrin 150 mg. Sept, 2017 updosed to 300 mg. few days till c/t Oct 8, 2017, fish oil, vitD, vitE Oct 16, 2017-pres. Lipoflavonoid 4/2017-pres. Fluoxetine 10 mg. Sept-Oct 8, 2017, 20 mg. 10/9- 10/15; 10 mg. 10/16 - 12/29; 9 mg. 12/30 - 2/9; 2 mL liquid (8.1mg) 2/10 - 3/7; 1.8 mL (7.29 mg) 3/8 -3/20; 1.6 mL (6.561mg) 3/20-4/2; 1.4 mL (5.9 mg) 4/3-4/14; 1mL (4 mg.) 4/15-4/22; .9mL (3.6mg) 4/23-5/1; .81mL (3.24 mg) 5/2-5/24; .73mL (2.916mg.) 5/25-6/8; .65mL 6/9-6/23; .6mL 6/24-7/17; .58mL 7/18-7/28; .525mL 7/29-8/13; .5 mL 8/14-21; .45mL 8/22-31; .4mL 9/2-21; .35mL 9/22-10/4; .3mL 10/5-28; .25mL 10/28-11/10; .2mL 11/11-11/24; .18mL 11/25-12/3; .1mL 12/4-12/18. Zero-12/19/18-present. Link to comment
mirage Posted July 6, 2018 Share Posted July 6, 2018 @Rosetta Just saw your post for the 4th and today. Glad you were able to get in a family celebration for the 4th and that the wave has lifted. Saw that you had a rougher day yesterday. I started a wave last Wednesday. I had a little window on the 4th and yesterday and today, poopy. You mention the jaw tension. I have that too. When it gets bad, it actually creates a feeling of fullness in my ears. I know it is tension related. Came on when this journey started so I know it will go away with it. I see that you will be 17 months free in a couple of weeks. That is wonderful! The further along you get the more and longer windows you get. Well, from what I read from the success stories. Has that been happening for you? This is a tough journey. For you to have to do it with little ones is really amazing. You have great strength and I admire that. You are setting a great example as a mom on how to overcome. Sending big hugs to you. Started Wellbutrin 300xl mid July, 2009. Stopped Wellbutrin 300xl cold turkey May 8, 2017 Started having symptoms started June 2, 2017. Started Wellbutrin 150xl July 7, 2017 Started Remeron 15mg August 15, 2017. Increased Remeron to 30mg October 4, 2017 Increased Wellbutrin to 300xl November 24, 2017. Lowered Wellbutrin 300xl back to 150xl January 8, 2018 Started weaning off of Remeron 30mg. Cut to 22.25mg January 11, 2018 Cut Remeron to 15mg January 18, 2018 Cut Remeron to 7.5mg January 25, 2018 Cut Remeron to 3.5mg January 30,2018. Stopped taking Remeron February 1, 2018 Currently taking: Fish Oil, Magnesium, Calcium, Vit D, Progesterone, Hormone Replacement Pellets-Estrogen Testosterone Link to comment
EdinburghGuy Posted July 6, 2018 Share Posted July 6, 2018 Keep fighting, thanks for keeping me alive - 40mg 10 years on prozac, tappered down 2 months. 5 months later huge panic, cant sleep. pssd also. - 27/04/2018 April 27th 2018 (approx) - reinstated Prozac 20mg again Early May 2018 Took 1 Venlafaxine tab and benzos for a week. zopiclone 2 weeks. Symptoms improved, pssd healed but not normal, not well - Mid May 2018 - took one Sertraline tab, stopped after fear, reaction etc. - Currently 20mg Prozac morning Vits - fish oil, magnesium, vit c but currently stopped. Link to comment
Rabe Posted July 7, 2018 Share Posted July 7, 2018 Hi Rosetta...I still think you are doing so well! I think of all that you DID do these past days...I mean the miles of walks and the fair and the 4th etc! I still say WOW in my head. Your body is asking for a bit of a rest perhaps....hoping things stay manageable!!! HUGS!!!💜 -Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016 -Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17, -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded -4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, -7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25 -1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, 1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit 1/week,Reacted Mag prn Link to comment
jonnypeters1234567 Posted July 7, 2018 Share Posted July 7, 2018 You really are doing fantastic Rosetta, they way you are managing is inspirational 2009-2010 Citalopram 20mg CT no problems Sertaline 2010- 6monnths 2011- 2017 June 2017- Citalopram 20mg CT Link to comment
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