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You are so wise, @brassmonkeyand I appreciate you very much. Means a lot. 
 

I’ll let my body heal and not try to fight it, per your advice. One last question before I do that very thing- are there any clear indicators that an updose would be beneficial or is that just all round bad idea, regardless of how long it takes me to stabilize?

 

2005- 2008: Lorazepam (max dose- 1 MG daily)

2008- 2016: Lexapro (max dose-10 MG daily)

January 2017- March 2017- Pristiq (max dose- 100 MG daily)

April 2017- June 2017: Trintellix (max dose- 10 MG)

July 2017- October 2017:  Lexapro (max dose-10 MG daily)

November 2017- April 2018- Luvox (max dose- 100 MG)

May 2018- Zoloft (max dose- 18.75)

5/28/18- 3 MG Lexapro, 6/3/18- 3 MG Lexapro, 6/7/18- 3.5 MG Lexapro, 6/13/18- 4 MG Lexapro, 6/21/18- 4.5 MG Lexapro, 6/28/18- Present- 4 MG Lexapro  

 

"The Journey is The Reward"

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If the wave is starting to recede and your symptoms starting to calm down, then an updose is not called for. Let things stabilize as they are. Adding or switching medications will just stir the pot an

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Updosing is generally seen as a "last resort" type of move. If a person can get away without it, all the better. It is usually done when ones symptoms are are to the point of being debilitating, can't get out of bed, wash, care for themselves, that sort of thing. If symptoms are improving, even at a slow rate then updosing is more of a step backward. Even when symptoms are really bad updosing is a gamble, it doesn't always work and can really backfire at times making things worse.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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Love it- thanks again, @brassmonkey. I'd be so lost without this site and people like you who are willing to lend a hand. Thank you so much.

2005- 2008: Lorazepam (max dose- 1 MG daily)

2008- 2016: Lexapro (max dose-10 MG daily)

January 2017- March 2017- Pristiq (max dose- 100 MG daily)

April 2017- June 2017: Trintellix (max dose- 10 MG)

July 2017- October 2017:  Lexapro (max dose-10 MG daily)

November 2017- April 2018- Luvox (max dose- 100 MG)

May 2018- Zoloft (max dose- 18.75)

5/28/18- 3 MG Lexapro, 6/3/18- 3 MG Lexapro, 6/7/18- 3.5 MG Lexapro, 6/13/18- 4 MG Lexapro, 6/21/18- 4.5 MG Lexapro, 6/28/18- Present- 4 MG Lexapro  

 

"The Journey is The Reward"

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Just an update. Vertigo came back pretty badly the past 2 days and today was more of the splitting headache in the forehead variety. Still praying I wake up one day and it’s all gone. 

2005- 2008: Lorazepam (max dose- 1 MG daily)

2008- 2016: Lexapro (max dose-10 MG daily)

January 2017- March 2017- Pristiq (max dose- 100 MG daily)

April 2017- June 2017: Trintellix (max dose- 10 MG)

July 2017- October 2017:  Lexapro (max dose-10 MG daily)

November 2017- April 2018- Luvox (max dose- 100 MG)

May 2018- Zoloft (max dose- 18.75)

5/28/18- 3 MG Lexapro, 6/3/18- 3 MG Lexapro, 6/7/18- 3.5 MG Lexapro, 6/13/18- 4 MG Lexapro, 6/21/18- 4.5 MG Lexapro, 6/28/18- Present- 4 MG Lexapro  

 

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Interesting update, @brassmonkey. My wife makes shakes for us nearly every day and I peeked at the ingredients today. Do you think this could be extending my wave?  There's a lot of stuff in there, including ashwaganda.

https://res.cloudinary.com/teambeachbody/image/upload/v1564083557/Teambeachbody/shared_assets/Shop/Shakeology/Shakeology Chocolate Vegan/Benefits/Ingredients/shk-ing-choc-vgn-en-us-072519.pdf 

 

Also, I take a pretty serious probiotic that comes with a teeny tiny dosing spoon. I take some every day but definitely am not taking the same amount each day:

https://www.getsmidge.com/collections/all-products/products/sensitive-probiotic-powder

 

At this point, I'm down to a splitting frontal/top of head headache 24/7 and tinnitus. Curious if you or anyone has any experience of these things making a bad situation worse. 

2005- 2008: Lorazepam (max dose- 1 MG daily)

2008- 2016: Lexapro (max dose-10 MG daily)

January 2017- March 2017- Pristiq (max dose- 100 MG daily)

April 2017- June 2017: Trintellix (max dose- 10 MG)

July 2017- October 2017:  Lexapro (max dose-10 MG daily)

November 2017- April 2018- Luvox (max dose- 100 MG)

May 2018- Zoloft (max dose- 18.75)

5/28/18- 3 MG Lexapro, 6/3/18- 3 MG Lexapro, 6/7/18- 3.5 MG Lexapro, 6/13/18- 4 MG Lexapro, 6/21/18- 4.5 MG Lexapro, 6/28/18- Present- 4 MG Lexapro  

 

"The Journey is The Reward"

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Ashwaganda is something we do not recommend, if possible it would be a good idea to leave it out of your shake. Do a site search, there is a lot of information on it.

 

We have had a number of members complain about bad reactions to probiotics, you could try cutting them out and see what happens.

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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Stopped the shakes and the probiotic. Eating as clean as can be. 
 

The splitting headaches, light sensitivity and tinnitus continue but I haven’t taken anything for it. 
 

I don’t have suicidal thoughts per se because I have too many people that depend on me. But I’d be lying if I said I still wanted to be here. This wave has crushed me and I don’t know when it will end. I can usually find the positive in most things but struggling now. I feel incredibly helpless.  
 

Sadly, we’re canceling our big family trip because of how I feel. 

2005- 2008: Lorazepam (max dose- 1 MG daily)

2008- 2016: Lexapro (max dose-10 MG daily)

January 2017- March 2017- Pristiq (max dose- 100 MG daily)

April 2017- June 2017: Trintellix (max dose- 10 MG)

July 2017- October 2017:  Lexapro (max dose-10 MG daily)

November 2017- April 2018- Luvox (max dose- 100 MG)

May 2018- Zoloft (max dose- 18.75)

5/28/18- 3 MG Lexapro, 6/3/18- 3 MG Lexapro, 6/7/18- 3.5 MG Lexapro, 6/13/18- 4 MG Lexapro, 6/21/18- 4.5 MG Lexapro, 6/28/18- Present- 4 MG Lexapro  

 

"The Journey is The Reward"

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