Zans Posted December 9, 2019 Share Posted December 9, 2019 17 hours ago, India said: I think I have damage in the frontal lobe of the brain,. I have all these symptoms. I can't remember anything or keep things in my working memory. I can't carry out so many easy tasks. I can walk, I am grateful for that. I can swim. I can see. i am grateful, but I don't want to feel constantly concussed as I have for 17 months now. I want to be able to write back to everyone here. I want to be able to write letters again and read books. I'd better stop myself going down this path. I have to try tp focus on my benefit application which is so hard , somethign so easy now so hard. The rage is strong. https://www.headway.org.uk/about-brain-injury/individuals/effects-of-brain-injury/executive-dysfunction/ Executive dysfunction after brain injury Executive dysfunction is a term for the range of cognitive, emotional and behavioural difficulties which often occur after injury to the frontal lobes of the brain. Impairment of executive functions is common after acquired brain injury and has a profound effect on many aspects of everyday life. This page explains what executive functions are, why they are so important and which part of the brain is responsible for controlling them. It then provides an overview of the causes, effects, assessment and rehabilitation of executive dysfunction. Some general coping strategies are also suggested to help brain injury survivors to compensate for impairments. What are executive functions? Executive functioning is an umbrella term for many abilities including: Planning and organisation Flexible thinking Monitoring performance Multi-tasking Solving unusual problems Self-awareness Learning rules Social behaviour Making decisions Motivation Initiating appropriate behaviour Inhibiting inappropriate behaviour Controlling emotions Concentrating and taking in information Hey, just dropping by to wish you strength. At one point I was convinced my frontal lobe was done as well. Accidentally I stumbled on this brazilian construction worker who got metal pole drilled through his head, recovered and lived to tell the story. His case became classical textbook for personality changes in damaged frontal lobe but most traits that been put on him were mere fabrications. https://uncommondescent.com/intelligent-design/phineas-gage-evolution-of-a-lecture-room-psychopath/ I mean if he could recover and live relatively good life (he later on worked with horses and such job isn't for "short tempered, adrifted psyhopath" as he been described by back then specialists) then we have as good and likely even better chances (if we have really damaged it in the first place). By the way most functions you describe operates mostly in relaxed state. I found WD switches us to amygdala, part of the brain that is concerned only with survival. Definitely no flexible thinking or creative problem solving ☺ Longer we're in symphathetic mode, more we're flooded with adrenaline, cortisol, anxiety which can make minor sound to be perceived as granade explosion, let alone our current state drawned in fear as some sort of permanent brain damage. Also as you probably know depression is energy preserving mode so again no time for higher brain functioning. Keep going, as you say yourself "we'll make it"! Paroxetin 20mg, Lexatonil 3mg - 5 pills total in December 2019 - CT. Coaxil12.5mg, Fluanxol 1mg, Olanzapine 5mg, Bromazepam 3mg, Mirtazapine 30mg, Relanium injections, Zolpidem 10mg full January - March 2019. CT all. Finlepsin 1/4, Olanzapine 2.5mg, Relanium 5mg, Brintellix 20mg, Imovan mid April - early May 2019. CT all. Brintellix 10mg 2019 May Brintellix 5mg June - July Brintellix 5mg August, 4.5mg September 7th - 4.6mg - 5mg ; November 21st - 4.8g December 5th - 4.6mg December 19th - 4.4mg January 3th - 4.2mg 17th - 4mg Link to comment
Moderator hayduke Posted December 11, 2019 Moderator Share Posted December 11, 2019 Hey India, no worries at all...take your time 🙂 I think Zans there makes a really good point about being in 'fight or flight' mode putting executive and other frontal lobe functions on hold. I'm reading this at the moment and it goes right into all that stuff. Anything you can do to relax and feel comfortable at the moment will help. Hang in there! I am not a health professional - your actions are your own. Please do not seek tapering support via private message - "Any reason to hold is a good one" My taper visualised as a graph | My intro thread Backdrop: 2003 10mg olanzapine | 2004 2-3mg risperidone | end 2014 3wks aripiprazole 2015: olanzapine 10 -> 7½ -> 6⅔ -> 5mg by crude pill cutter 2018: Mar 5.00mg -> water titrated taper -> Aug2.5mg tablet and hold Jan 2019 2.50mg water titration -> Jan 2020 1.214 -> Jan 2021 0.44 -> 2 Oct 0.205 ->3 Oct ZERO🥂 Jun 2023 💉150mg paliperidone "loading" depot shot, 100mg 1wk after Jul 100mg Aug-Dec 75mg/4wks Jul 2023 2.50mg aripiprazole/day attempt to lower prolactin^ Jan-Feb 2024 cross taper off shots to 1mg risperidone Ask not what you can do for your country, but what your country did to you" -- KMFDM Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted December 18, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 18, 2019 Hi India, I know you’re struggling to read at the moment but I just wanted to let you know I’m thinking of you.🧡 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
India Posted December 23, 2019 Author Share Posted December 23, 2019 @hayduke @Carmie @Zans thank you for all your thoughts . Last few days I’ve been panicking again about the possibility of permenant damage. The cognitive problems have been going on for 18 months now. I know some things have improved but still much impaired. I can get out in nature now and do a few things and i’m Grateful I can still little bits of joy but I still feel very weak a lot of the time.. and have to lie on the sofa . I want my ‘mind’ back , to write with ease..brain hurting just from writing this 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
India Posted December 29, 2019 Author Share Posted December 29, 2019 Thrown back into symptoms today, fatigue, weakness, hyperacusis , irascible, palpitations. Had strange numbness in my legs and arms. Brain fog. I’ve made a 2% reduction over last 4 weeks. In bed now. May have taken wrong bottle of meds ( liquid mix beyond 4 week open expiry date). Or reductions or WD? Worries about MRI playing on mind. Always feel upset that I still struggle cognitively. Try to focus away. New symptom over last 8 weeks: sleep amnesia.. waking up not knowing who or what or where I am. Not knowing where I am in space and time. Anyone else have this? 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
Kernol Posted December 29, 2019 Share Posted December 29, 2019 Hi @India I just wanted to say I have that exact symptom sometimes of waking up and not knowing who I am or where I am. It does pass fairly quickly but it is distressing when it happens. I have almost got used to it now when it does happen as I know it will pass. At first I was very scared. I hope yours passes quickly. 10 years on Sertraline 100mg. 75mg Dec 2016 - Apr 2017, 50mg May 2017 - Oct 2017, 37.5mg 2018 - Sertraline 25mg Mar - July 2018, 13.75mg Aug- Sept 1.5 month (‘not accurately measured), came off completely 10 October, reinstated by doctor on 10 November 25 mg. 25 November raised to 50mg 2 December 100mg 11 December 150mg 30 November. Lorazepam started 2mg x daily 1 November 2019 - Sertraline reduced to 100mg 5 Feb, 23 Feb 75mg, 18 Mar 50mg, 23 Apr 37.5mg, 1 Jun 25mg, 3 Jul 16mg, 3 Aug 8mg, updosed on 1 Sept to 16.67mg 20 Feb lorazepam 2mg x day crossed over to diazepam 20mg x day over 2 week period to taper. diazepam reduced by 1mg every 2/3 weeks got down to 3.5mg in August. 22 Sept resorted to taking 1mg lorazepam after sertraline destabilisation instead of diazepam. took lorazepam 1mg x day 22 Sept - 28 Sept then returned to diazepam on 29 Sept 4mg,, 30 Sept 4.5mg 1 Oct 5mg 2 Oct 5mg 16 Nov 4.75mg. 15 Dec 5mg 29 Dec 4.75mg Vortioxetine 5mg started 1 July. 14 July 10mg -Reduced on 20 July to 5mg. 12 Sept reduced to 3.75mg, 19 Sept reduced to 2.5mg, 15 Oct reduced to 2mg, 22 Oct 1.9mg, 29 Oct 1.8mg reduced down every 3 days and then daily stopped on 2 Dec 2020 - sertraline 8 Apr - 16mg 29 Apr - 15.5mg 13 may - 15.25mg may 19 - 15mg may 22- 14.75mg 22 Jun 14mg 6 July 13.3 - 20 July 12.6 - 3 August - 11.97 - 17 August 11.37. Held. Then started 2.5% fortnightly drops. 9.5mg 4 Dec diazepam 19 Apr - 4.25mg 20 May - 4mg 20 Jun 3.75mg 4.25mg 22 Sept 4.5mg 29 Sept. 4.75ng Oct 5 Nov 10 4.5mg Link to comment
India Posted December 30, 2019 Author Share Posted December 30, 2019 Today I feel like giving up. The unbearable weight of all this, and of my life, the symptoms, the pain. My previous traumas. Everyday I fight for some sort of sunrise that may never come. i can’t get freedom and I can’t get peace. Is this it? For years I fought My body is falling apart. I felt all my mental strength collapse tonight. I know that it is no one else’s responsibility to fix it. Somehow I will have to find a way to fight another day. I feel like I am fighting an impossible battle with my body. How much can one human take? is this depression, or the grief of my whole life, always fighting but always sinking. what do you do when you have lost everything? 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
intothewoods Posted December 31, 2019 Share Posted December 31, 2019 (edited) 3 hours ago, India said: what do you do when you have lost everything You've not lost anything important, in fact you're stronger than ever these past few months. I am AMAZED at your progress in great leaps. Your posts to others (yes, we ❤️ you @Gemma92) are powerful and prolific. You see so much more, your awareness and research has taken off. I learn from you nearly every day. What a gift! (plus you could be Talitha's twin, which, how cool is that? 😎). This night of horror will pass. It's not you, it's the meds. I feel so not human the past two weeks and ask many of the same questions you did above, yet my brain comes back around to the healing light. Perhaps we heal more when we hurt more. It seems that way. Keep warrioring..... Edited December 31, 2019 by intothewoods had the wrong Gemma 1 * Fluoxetine: 40 mg 1999-2012; 60 mg 2012-March 2019; 45.2 mg at present. * Provigil: 25-100 mg PRN 2005 to mid-2015; 200-300 mg mid-2015 to early 2016; tapered from 300 mg in early 2016 to 100 mg early 2017; tapered from 100 mg early 2017 to 33 mg June 15, 2019; 8.9 mg at present. * Amitriptyline: 10-15 mg 2002-2013; 25 mg 2014 to December 5, 2018; December 15, 2018 converted to water suspension and tapered to 16.5 mg at present * Diazepam: 5 mg at night 2002-present. Supplements: Iron for anemia Recent tapering timeline: 2019: Fluoxetine 60 mg Provigil 33.5 mg Amitriptyline 25 mg Diazepam 5 mg 2022: 45.2 mg 8.9 mg 16.5 mg 5 mg Back Story: From 2012 thru early 2017, relocated and cycled through over 20 primary and psych docs (supposedly for severe Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) who prescribed two dozen different psych meds in search of the "perfect therapeutic combo." Took most for only a few days, some for a week. Included Wellbutrin, Cymbalta, Lexapro, Seroquel, Lamictal, Klonopin, Lyrica, Gabapentin, Belsomra, Tramadol, Librium, Halcyon, Remeron and -- the last straw, Trintellix. Began in early 2016 when it was still called Brintellix (Pharma's attempt to combine the words "brilliance" and "intelligence" in a pill name), became unable to eat or sleep, lost 25 lbs and the ability to speak. Slowly tapered myself back to Prozac by 2017 but was unable to stop akathisia, cortisol mornings and kindling which continue, actively, through present. Link to comment
Tom37 Posted December 31, 2019 Share Posted December 31, 2019 You haven’t lost everything as this is only temporary. I know how it feels to have those feelings and sometimes there is nothing you can do other than to accept this is how you feel for now and just keep breathing until you start to feel a bit better. Just try to remember that it’s not always going to be like this and it does get better which I know is easier said than done as we live in our current reality but it will change. Change is one thing that wd guarantees. Hopefully you feel better soon. 1 20mg Lexapro 2007 10mg Lexapro 2012 Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3. Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction. Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October. Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 2018 Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov. Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November 2018 Link to comment
rola Posted December 31, 2019 Share Posted December 31, 2019 8 hours ago, India said: Today I feel like giving up. The unbearable weight of all this, and of my life, the symptoms, the pain. My previous traumas. Everyday I fight for some sort of sunrise that may never come. i can’t get freedom and I can’t get peace. Is this it? For years I fought My body is falling apart. I felt all my mental strength collapse tonight. I know that it is no one else’s responsibility to fix it. Somehow I will have to find a way to fight another day. I feel like I am fighting an impossible battle with my body. How much can one human take? is this depression, or the grief of my whole life, always fighting but always sinking. what do you do when you have lost everything? hi I'm feeling the same way right now, but we have to keep fighting. We've come a long way. And don't look back. I'm offering you my hand. I hope a window will come soon. 1 Deroxat (paxil) 20 mg pour 10 ml 12/14 18 mg réduction de 5% tous les mois 13/01/15 14.4mg 15/08 9,6 mg 16.01 reduction3% 8 mg par mois 16/02 7,8 mg 18.02 3 mg 18.03 2,92 à 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 18/06 2,66 mg 26/06/18 2,58 mg en 26 jours 19/03 1,78 mg 15 jours 19/04 1, 64 mg 21 jours 19/05 1,58 mg 24/07/19 1,44 mg 14/08/19 1,4 mg 27/09/19 1,48 mg 10/09/19 retour à 1,58 mg 27/12/19 retour à 1,65mg direct transition to fluoxetine the 11/01/2020 1,65mg Link to comment
India Posted December 31, 2019 Author Share Posted December 31, 2019 I’ve got akathisia. I felt like I was loosing my mind. Terrified. I walked round and round. I held onto a towel bar. I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t find safety in my mind. I can’t stand noise. I feel like everything is a threat. I feel frozen but then I can’t be still. Sorry. I know I have received replies. I am terrified. Can liquid medication over 4 weeks open cause this? @jozeff 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted December 31, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 31, 2019 I know how terrifying these feelings are, and ow exhausting they can be. Please hang on dear India, it will pass ❤️ 1 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Kernol Posted December 31, 2019 Share Posted December 31, 2019 17 hours ago, India said: Today I feel like giving up. The unbearable weight of all this, and of my life, the symptoms, the pain. My previous traumas. Everyday I fight for some sort of sunrise that may never come. i can’t get freedom and I can’t get peace. Is this it? For years I fought My body is falling apart. I felt all my mental strength collapse tonight. I know that it is no one else’s responsibility to fix it. Somehow I will have to find a way to fight another day. I feel like I am fighting an impossible battle with my body. How much can one human take? is this depression, or the grief of my whole life, always fighting but always sinking. what do you do when you have lost everything? hi @India I feel exactly the same as you. I ask myself how much more can I endure of this endless emotional pain but then I see stories of encouragement on your thread and others and we have to cling on and fight through another day as it could be the day that things change ever so slightly for the better. I tell myself that and I hope that we both and everyone else severely suffering feels the peace that we desperately long for soon. ❤️ 2 10 years on Sertraline 100mg. 75mg Dec 2016 - Apr 2017, 50mg May 2017 - Oct 2017, 37.5mg 2018 - Sertraline 25mg Mar - July 2018, 13.75mg Aug- Sept 1.5 month (‘not accurately measured), came off completely 10 October, reinstated by doctor on 10 November 25 mg. 25 November raised to 50mg 2 December 100mg 11 December 150mg 30 November. Lorazepam started 2mg x daily 1 November 2019 - Sertraline reduced to 100mg 5 Feb, 23 Feb 75mg, 18 Mar 50mg, 23 Apr 37.5mg, 1 Jun 25mg, 3 Jul 16mg, 3 Aug 8mg, updosed on 1 Sept to 16.67mg 20 Feb lorazepam 2mg x day crossed over to diazepam 20mg x day over 2 week period to taper. diazepam reduced by 1mg every 2/3 weeks got down to 3.5mg in August. 22 Sept resorted to taking 1mg lorazepam after sertraline destabilisation instead of diazepam. took lorazepam 1mg x day 22 Sept - 28 Sept then returned to diazepam on 29 Sept 4mg,, 30 Sept 4.5mg 1 Oct 5mg 2 Oct 5mg 16 Nov 4.75mg. 15 Dec 5mg 29 Dec 4.75mg Vortioxetine 5mg started 1 July. 14 July 10mg -Reduced on 20 July to 5mg. 12 Sept reduced to 3.75mg, 19 Sept reduced to 2.5mg, 15 Oct reduced to 2mg, 22 Oct 1.9mg, 29 Oct 1.8mg reduced down every 3 days and then daily stopped on 2 Dec 2020 - sertraline 8 Apr - 16mg 29 Apr - 15.5mg 13 may - 15.25mg may 19 - 15mg may 22- 14.75mg 22 Jun 14mg 6 July 13.3 - 20 July 12.6 - 3 August - 11.97 - 17 August 11.37. Held. Then started 2.5% fortnightly drops. 9.5mg 4 Dec diazepam 19 Apr - 4.25mg 20 May - 4mg 20 Jun 3.75mg 4.25mg 22 Sept 4.5mg 29 Sept. 4.75ng Oct 5 Nov 10 4.5mg Link to comment
jozeff Posted December 31, 2019 Share Posted December 31, 2019 Ho India, Sorry to hear you are having such a hard time. I really wish there was something we could do to end this suffering immediately. In these days of despair we don't see a lot of improvement. I feel exactly the same as you do sometimes. I hardly remember the days I just lived my life and didn't feel so hopeless and helpless. What do you mean by liquid medication being 4 weeks open? Open bottle you mean? Keep the faith India! You have been a great community member for so long. Don't loose hope now. We're all in the same boat. All suffering immensely and we all want this to end.. You can do it!!! Cheers Jozeff 2 Sep- 2016 - Okt 2017 citalopram some months 15 mg some months 20 mg Nov 2017- Apr 2018 citalopram 25 mg Apr 2018 - Jun 2018 citalopram 3 month TAPER too fast from 25mg to 16.5 mg (0.1 mg per day decrease, felt horrible and crashed) Jun 2018 - Aug13th 2018 citalopram trying to stabilize at 16.5 mg for 5 wks - August 14th 2018 - April 29th 2019 citalopram 18 mg (1.5 mg updose). 2019 apr 27 : START taper citalopram @ 18 mg: 29Jun 16.4 mg / 19aug 15.4 mg / 25aug 15.2 mg / 30sep 14.0 mg / 4dec 13.1 mg 2020 03Jan 12.75 mg / 28Jan 12.29 mg / 18Feb 11.83 mg, 25Feb 11.68 mg hold.. / 7May 11.33 mg hold...., 4Aug 10.98 mg / 5Dec 10.0 mg 4 month hold... 2021 30mar 9.8 mg / 06apr 9.5 mg / 13apr 9.4 mg / 14may 8,5 mg / 04jun 8,0 mg / 11jun 7.75 mg, 02jul 7.35 mg / 09jul 7.2 mg hold 3 weeks during holiday /31jul 7 mg/ 8aug 6.8 mg / 15aug 6.63mg / 22aug 6.5mg / 1sep 6.3 mg / 8sep 6.15 mg / 15sep 6.0 mg / 22sep 5.9 mg / 29sep 5.8 mg / 04 oct 5.65 mg / 10oct 5.55 mg / 17oct 5.45 mg / 24oct 5.35mg / 30oct 5.25 mg hold 3 wks / 22nov 5.15 mg / 01dec 5.1mg / 12dec 5.0mg / 20dec 4.85mg / 30dec 4.70mg 2022 08jan 4.5 mg / 16jan 4.4 mg / 23jan 4.3 mg / 27jan 4.2 mg / 18feb 4.1 mg / 25feb 4.0 mg / 04mar 3.9 mg / 11mar 3.75 mg / 18Mar 3.65 mg / 09apr 3.55 mg / 16apr 3.45 mg / 23apr 3.35 mg / 01may 3.25 mg / 8may 3.15 mg / 17may 3.10 mg / 28 may 3.0 mg / 7jun 2.94 mg / 18 Jun 2.88 mg / 27 jun 2.84 mg / 05 jul 2.80 mg / 16 jul 2.75 mg / 23 jul 2.70 mg / 01aug 2.65 mg / 09aug 2.60 mg hold 5wks / 18sep 2.55 mg / 25sep 2.5 mg /02oct 2.45 mg / 10oct 2.40 mg / 19oct 2.35 mg / 27oct 2.30 mg / 05nov 2.27 mg / 14nov 2.25 mg / 22nov 2.20 mg / 29nov 2.10mg / 09dec 2.05 mg / 15dec 2.0 mg 2023 hold 2.0 mg for 5 months / 05may 1.95 mg / 14may 1.90 mg / 24may 1.87 mg / 02jun 1.85 mg / 17jun 1.82 mg / 27jun 1.79 mg / 07jul 1.75 mg / 31jul 1.72 mg / 12aug 1.69mg / 27aug 1.67 mg / 04sep 1.65 mg / 09sep 1.63 mg / 22sep 1.61 mg / 27sep 1.60 mg / 12oct 1.58 mg / 18oct 1.56 mg / 31oct 1.54 mg / 06nov 1.52 mg / 18nov 1.50 mg / 04dec 1.48 mg / 11dec 1.46 mg / 22dec 1.45 mg / 28dec 1.44 mg 2024 01jan 1.43 mg / 06jan 1.42 mg/ 10jan 1.40 mg hold / 08apr 1.38 mg / 15apr 1.36 mg / 20apr 1.34 mg Link to comment
Moderator hayduke Posted January 1, 2020 Moderator Share Posted January 1, 2020 Hey India. Sorry to hear you're having such a rough time of it. It will pass. Are you able to make it to a yoga class? I find restorative yoga in particular is really good at getting out of limbic system overdrive. Otherwise do you think a small updose, maybe to before the latest cut or two, might help? Cheers 1 I am not a health professional - your actions are your own. Please do not seek tapering support via private message - "Any reason to hold is a good one" My taper visualised as a graph | My intro thread Backdrop: 2003 10mg olanzapine | 2004 2-3mg risperidone | end 2014 3wks aripiprazole 2015: olanzapine 10 -> 7½ -> 6⅔ -> 5mg by crude pill cutter 2018: Mar 5.00mg -> water titrated taper -> Aug2.5mg tablet and hold Jan 2019 2.50mg water titration -> Jan 2020 1.214 -> Jan 2021 0.44 -> 2 Oct 0.205 ->3 Oct ZERO🥂 Jun 2023 💉150mg paliperidone "loading" depot shot, 100mg 1wk after Jul 100mg Aug-Dec 75mg/4wks Jul 2023 2.50mg aripiprazole/day attempt to lower prolactin^ Jan-Feb 2024 cross taper off shots to 1mg risperidone Ask not what you can do for your country, but what your country did to you" -- KMFDM Link to comment
sunnysideup69 Posted January 1, 2020 Share Posted January 1, 2020 Hey London neighbour, want to send you good wishes for a happy and healthy new year. Your update caught my eye... 15 hours ago, India said: I’ve got akathisia. I felt like I was loosing my mind. Terrified. I walked round and round. I held onto a towel bar. I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t find safety in my mind. I can’t stand noise. I feel like everything is a threat. I feel frozen but then I can’t be still. Sorry. I know I have received replies. I am terrified. Can liquid medication over 4 weeks open cause this? @jozeff My answer to that question is, anything is possible. If you are sensitive generally to reductions, then maybe you are sensitive to meds which have been open a while.... Guess it depends on how much over 4 weeks old the bottle is. It's still within its best before date too? Or maybe it's just your last reduction catching up? Is there any way you might have accidentally updosed? I'm so sorry you're experiencing this and just know it will end again. Sending good wishes your way for peace and calm. SSU 1 January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 100mg Magnesium Glycinate. Tried Vagifem 10mcg from mid May 2021 to mid June 2021; caused depression, so stopped. Link to comment
Kernol Posted January 1, 2020 Share Posted January 1, 2020 Hi @India I hope you are feeling a little better. Wishing us all strength and much healing in 2020 1 10 years on Sertraline 100mg. 75mg Dec 2016 - Apr 2017, 50mg May 2017 - Oct 2017, 37.5mg 2018 - Sertraline 25mg Mar - July 2018, 13.75mg Aug- Sept 1.5 month (‘not accurately measured), came off completely 10 October, reinstated by doctor on 10 November 25 mg. 25 November raised to 50mg 2 December 100mg 11 December 150mg 30 November. Lorazepam started 2mg x daily 1 November 2019 - Sertraline reduced to 100mg 5 Feb, 23 Feb 75mg, 18 Mar 50mg, 23 Apr 37.5mg, 1 Jun 25mg, 3 Jul 16mg, 3 Aug 8mg, updosed on 1 Sept to 16.67mg 20 Feb lorazepam 2mg x day crossed over to diazepam 20mg x day over 2 week period to taper. diazepam reduced by 1mg every 2/3 weeks got down to 3.5mg in August. 22 Sept resorted to taking 1mg lorazepam after sertraline destabilisation instead of diazepam. took lorazepam 1mg x day 22 Sept - 28 Sept then returned to diazepam on 29 Sept 4mg,, 30 Sept 4.5mg 1 Oct 5mg 2 Oct 5mg 16 Nov 4.75mg. 15 Dec 5mg 29 Dec 4.75mg Vortioxetine 5mg started 1 July. 14 July 10mg -Reduced on 20 July to 5mg. 12 Sept reduced to 3.75mg, 19 Sept reduced to 2.5mg, 15 Oct reduced to 2mg, 22 Oct 1.9mg, 29 Oct 1.8mg reduced down every 3 days and then daily stopped on 2 Dec 2020 - sertraline 8 Apr - 16mg 29 Apr - 15.5mg 13 may - 15.25mg may 19 - 15mg may 22- 14.75mg 22 Jun 14mg 6 July 13.3 - 20 July 12.6 - 3 August - 11.97 - 17 August 11.37. Held. Then started 2.5% fortnightly drops. 9.5mg 4 Dec diazepam 19 Apr - 4.25mg 20 May - 4mg 20 Jun 3.75mg 4.25mg 22 Sept 4.5mg 29 Sept. 4.75ng Oct 5 Nov 10 4.5mg Link to comment
India Posted January 1, 2020 Author Share Posted January 1, 2020 15 hours ago, sunnysideup69 said: Hey London neighbour, want to send you good wishes for a happy and healthy new year. Your update caught my eye... My answer to that question is, anything is possible. If you are sensitive generally to reductions, then maybe you are sensitive to meds which have been open a while.... Guess it depends on how much over 4 weeks old the bottle is. It's still within its best before date too? Or maybe it's just your last reduction catching up? Is there any way you might have accidentally updosed? I'm so sorry you're experiencing this and just know it will end again. Sending good wishes your way for peace and calm. SSU @jozeff maybe 2 months. Sell by date is 3/21 i realised with my brothers brief calculations that I added 1ml less of water to my dilutions for over a month. Or maybe more months. Throwing my tapering calendar out. A disaster. thank you to everyone who has written. I don’t know how I am still here this morning after a night of dark abyss. To receive support has kept me going . I have read and reread today. I had intense suicidal impulses and rage out of proportion and a sense that my whole identity was collapsing in on itself. 1 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
Moderator hayduke Posted January 3, 2020 Moderator Share Posted January 3, 2020 Hey India, well done on finding the dosage problem. Hopefully correcting this sees you feeling a lot better before long. Cheers Hayduke 1 I am not a health professional - your actions are your own. Please do not seek tapering support via private message - "Any reason to hold is a good one" My taper visualised as a graph | My intro thread Backdrop: 2003 10mg olanzapine | 2004 2-3mg risperidone | end 2014 3wks aripiprazole 2015: olanzapine 10 -> 7½ -> 6⅔ -> 5mg by crude pill cutter 2018: Mar 5.00mg -> water titrated taper -> Aug2.5mg tablet and hold Jan 2019 2.50mg water titration -> Jan 2020 1.214 -> Jan 2021 0.44 -> 2 Oct 0.205 ->3 Oct ZERO🥂 Jun 2023 💉150mg paliperidone "loading" depot shot, 100mg 1wk after Jul 100mg Aug-Dec 75mg/4wks Jul 2023 2.50mg aripiprazole/day attempt to lower prolactin^ Jan-Feb 2024 cross taper off shots to 1mg risperidone Ask not what you can do for your country, but what your country did to you" -- KMFDM Link to comment
jozeff Posted January 3, 2020 Share Posted January 3, 2020 Ok India, What are you taking now? I mean how much of your med and how do you prepare it? You added too little water you say. To what volume and for how long? At least a month you say... What is you total volume. You have been taking too much medication according to your miscalculation. This has to be undone slowly so you can taper correctly again. I would love to think a bit about your dose so let me know what you did! Don't try to panick too much. This is a temporary setback! Cheers Jozeff 1 Sep- 2016 - Okt 2017 citalopram some months 15 mg some months 20 mg Nov 2017- Apr 2018 citalopram 25 mg Apr 2018 - Jun 2018 citalopram 3 month TAPER too fast from 25mg to 16.5 mg (0.1 mg per day decrease, felt horrible and crashed) Jun 2018 - Aug13th 2018 citalopram trying to stabilize at 16.5 mg for 5 wks - August 14th 2018 - April 29th 2019 citalopram 18 mg (1.5 mg updose). 2019 apr 27 : START taper citalopram @ 18 mg: 29Jun 16.4 mg / 19aug 15.4 mg / 25aug 15.2 mg / 30sep 14.0 mg / 4dec 13.1 mg 2020 03Jan 12.75 mg / 28Jan 12.29 mg / 18Feb 11.83 mg, 25Feb 11.68 mg hold.. / 7May 11.33 mg hold...., 4Aug 10.98 mg / 5Dec 10.0 mg 4 month hold... 2021 30mar 9.8 mg / 06apr 9.5 mg / 13apr 9.4 mg / 14may 8,5 mg / 04jun 8,0 mg / 11jun 7.75 mg, 02jul 7.35 mg / 09jul 7.2 mg hold 3 weeks during holiday /31jul 7 mg/ 8aug 6.8 mg / 15aug 6.63mg / 22aug 6.5mg / 1sep 6.3 mg / 8sep 6.15 mg / 15sep 6.0 mg / 22sep 5.9 mg / 29sep 5.8 mg / 04 oct 5.65 mg / 10oct 5.55 mg / 17oct 5.45 mg / 24oct 5.35mg / 30oct 5.25 mg hold 3 wks / 22nov 5.15 mg / 01dec 5.1mg / 12dec 5.0mg / 20dec 4.85mg / 30dec 4.70mg 2022 08jan 4.5 mg / 16jan 4.4 mg / 23jan 4.3 mg / 27jan 4.2 mg / 18feb 4.1 mg / 25feb 4.0 mg / 04mar 3.9 mg / 11mar 3.75 mg / 18Mar 3.65 mg / 09apr 3.55 mg / 16apr 3.45 mg / 23apr 3.35 mg / 01may 3.25 mg / 8may 3.15 mg / 17may 3.10 mg / 28 may 3.0 mg / 7jun 2.94 mg / 18 Jun 2.88 mg / 27 jun 2.84 mg / 05 jul 2.80 mg / 16 jul 2.75 mg / 23 jul 2.70 mg / 01aug 2.65 mg / 09aug 2.60 mg hold 5wks / 18sep 2.55 mg / 25sep 2.5 mg /02oct 2.45 mg / 10oct 2.40 mg / 19oct 2.35 mg / 27oct 2.30 mg / 05nov 2.27 mg / 14nov 2.25 mg / 22nov 2.20 mg / 29nov 2.10mg / 09dec 2.05 mg / 15dec 2.0 mg 2023 hold 2.0 mg for 5 months / 05may 1.95 mg / 14may 1.90 mg / 24may 1.87 mg / 02jun 1.85 mg / 17jun 1.82 mg / 27jun 1.79 mg / 07jul 1.75 mg / 31jul 1.72 mg / 12aug 1.69mg / 27aug 1.67 mg / 04sep 1.65 mg / 09sep 1.63 mg / 22sep 1.61 mg / 27sep 1.60 mg / 12oct 1.58 mg / 18oct 1.56 mg / 31oct 1.54 mg / 06nov 1.52 mg / 18nov 1.50 mg / 04dec 1.48 mg / 11dec 1.46 mg / 22dec 1.45 mg / 28dec 1.44 mg 2024 01jan 1.43 mg / 06jan 1.42 mg/ 10jan 1.40 mg hold / 08apr 1.38 mg / 15apr 1.36 mg / 20apr 1.34 mg Link to comment
India Posted January 4, 2020 Author Share Posted January 4, 2020 On 1/3/2020 at 12:06 PM, jozeff said: Ok India, What are you taking now? I mean how much of your med and how do you prepare it? You added too little water you say. To what volume and for how long? At least a month you say... What is you total volume. You have been taking too much medication according to your miscalculation. This has to be undone slowly so you can taper correctly again. I would love to think a bit about your dose so let me know what you did! Don't try to panick too much. This is a temporary setback! Cheers Jozeff @jozeff thank you so much for taking the time to respond . I know your energy is valuable. It's a bit of a mess. Very blurry vision at the moment To answer: For 2-3 months now I had been doing some bottles at 1ml of medication which is 40mg AI in 7 mls of water but mostly I was diluting 1ml of Citalopram 40mg/ml in 14 ml of water NOT 15ml as I was supposed to. On my tapering chart I had worked out these ml values to take in my syringe based on what my brother was saying should have been 1ml of liquid 40mg/ml to 15ml of water and was using a taper off chart of roughly 4% drop with one month holds. Really I was sort of using the sliding method. Here were my amounts 22/10/19 started tapering 2.5ml and ended up last 1 week on 1.93ml This last week I was taking 1.93mg from 15ml (with AI of citalopram 40mg) Last two days I went back to taking 1.93mg from 16ml (with AI citalopram 40mg) I think when I was measuring out 1ml of the liquid and adding 7 ml I was taking lower amount but many times taking the 15ml mixture ( def last month). 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
jozeff Posted January 5, 2020 Share Posted January 5, 2020 To be honest it is not completely clear how many mgs you are taking right now. You dissolved 1 ml 40 mg/ml citalopram solution to 14 ml instead of 15 ml..... How much of that total solution do you take? You say you took 1.93 mg but I think you mean 1.93 ml If you dissolve 1 ml of 40mg/ml solution and add that to 15 ml you get a 2.5 mg/ml solution. Taking 1.93 ml of that equals 4.83 mg citalopram If you dissolve 1 ml of 40mg/ml solution and add that to 14 ml you get a 2.67 mg/ml solution. Taking 1.93 ml of that equals 5.15 mg citalopram If you have been taking 5.15 mg accidentally I would continue to take that and work your way down. It is important for you to take the same amount of meds now for a couple of weeks to settle down a bit. I would do that first and then continue tapering. Mistakes are evil but there is nothing you can do about it. These things happen and we learn from it. Good luck and hopefully you recover soon. cheers Jozeff Sep- 2016 - Okt 2017 citalopram some months 15 mg some months 20 mg Nov 2017- Apr 2018 citalopram 25 mg Apr 2018 - Jun 2018 citalopram 3 month TAPER too fast from 25mg to 16.5 mg (0.1 mg per day decrease, felt horrible and crashed) Jun 2018 - Aug13th 2018 citalopram trying to stabilize at 16.5 mg for 5 wks - August 14th 2018 - April 29th 2019 citalopram 18 mg (1.5 mg updose). 2019 apr 27 : START taper citalopram @ 18 mg: 29Jun 16.4 mg / 19aug 15.4 mg / 25aug 15.2 mg / 30sep 14.0 mg / 4dec 13.1 mg 2020 03Jan 12.75 mg / 28Jan 12.29 mg / 18Feb 11.83 mg, 25Feb 11.68 mg hold.. / 7May 11.33 mg hold...., 4Aug 10.98 mg / 5Dec 10.0 mg 4 month hold... 2021 30mar 9.8 mg / 06apr 9.5 mg / 13apr 9.4 mg / 14may 8,5 mg / 04jun 8,0 mg / 11jun 7.75 mg, 02jul 7.35 mg / 09jul 7.2 mg hold 3 weeks during holiday /31jul 7 mg/ 8aug 6.8 mg / 15aug 6.63mg / 22aug 6.5mg / 1sep 6.3 mg / 8sep 6.15 mg / 15sep 6.0 mg / 22sep 5.9 mg / 29sep 5.8 mg / 04 oct 5.65 mg / 10oct 5.55 mg / 17oct 5.45 mg / 24oct 5.35mg / 30oct 5.25 mg hold 3 wks / 22nov 5.15 mg / 01dec 5.1mg / 12dec 5.0mg / 20dec 4.85mg / 30dec 4.70mg 2022 08jan 4.5 mg / 16jan 4.4 mg / 23jan 4.3 mg / 27jan 4.2 mg / 18feb 4.1 mg / 25feb 4.0 mg / 04mar 3.9 mg / 11mar 3.75 mg / 18Mar 3.65 mg / 09apr 3.55 mg / 16apr 3.45 mg / 23apr 3.35 mg / 01may 3.25 mg / 8may 3.15 mg / 17may 3.10 mg / 28 may 3.0 mg / 7jun 2.94 mg / 18 Jun 2.88 mg / 27 jun 2.84 mg / 05 jul 2.80 mg / 16 jul 2.75 mg / 23 jul 2.70 mg / 01aug 2.65 mg / 09aug 2.60 mg hold 5wks / 18sep 2.55 mg / 25sep 2.5 mg /02oct 2.45 mg / 10oct 2.40 mg / 19oct 2.35 mg / 27oct 2.30 mg / 05nov 2.27 mg / 14nov 2.25 mg / 22nov 2.20 mg / 29nov 2.10mg / 09dec 2.05 mg / 15dec 2.0 mg 2023 hold 2.0 mg for 5 months / 05may 1.95 mg / 14may 1.90 mg / 24may 1.87 mg / 02jun 1.85 mg / 17jun 1.82 mg / 27jun 1.79 mg / 07jul 1.75 mg / 31jul 1.72 mg / 12aug 1.69mg / 27aug 1.67 mg / 04sep 1.65 mg / 09sep 1.63 mg / 22sep 1.61 mg / 27sep 1.60 mg / 12oct 1.58 mg / 18oct 1.56 mg / 31oct 1.54 mg / 06nov 1.52 mg / 18nov 1.50 mg / 04dec 1.48 mg / 11dec 1.46 mg / 22dec 1.45 mg / 28dec 1.44 mg 2024 01jan 1.43 mg / 06jan 1.42 mg/ 10jan 1.40 mg hold / 08apr 1.38 mg / 15apr 1.36 mg / 20apr 1.34 mg Link to comment
India Posted January 16, 2020 Author Share Posted January 16, 2020 On 1/4/2020 at 1:14 PM, India said: @jozeff thank you so much for taking the time to respond . I know your energy is valuable. It's a bit of a mess. Very blurry vision at the moment To answer: For 2-3 months now I had been doing some bottles at 1ml of medication which is 40mg AI in 7 mls of water but mostly I was diluting 1ml of Citalopram 40mg/ml in 14 ml of water NOT 15ml as I was supposed to. On my tapering chart I had worked out these ml values to take in my syringe based on what my brother was saying should have been 1ml of liquid 40mg/ml to 15ml of water and was using a taper off chart of roughly 4% drop with one month holds. Really I was sort of using the sliding method. Here were my amounts 22/10/19 started tapering 2.5ml and ended up last 1 week on 1.93ml This last week I was taking 1.93mg from 15ml (with AI of citalopram 40mg) Last two days I went bacto taking 1.93mg from 16ml (with AI citalopram 40mg) I think when I was measuring out 1ml of the liquid and adding 7 ml I was taking lower amount but many times taking the 15ml mixture ( def last month). On 1/5/2020 at 3:39 PM, jozeff said: To be honest it is not completely clear how many mgs you are taking right now. You dissolved 1 ml 40 mg/ml citalopram solution to 14 ml instead of 15 ml..... How much of that total solution do you take? You say you took 1.93 mg but I think you mean 1.93 ml If you dissolve 1 ml of 40mg/ml solution and add that to 15 ml you get a 2.5 mg/ml solution. Taking 1.93 ml of that equals 4.83 mg citalopram If you dissolve 1 ml of 40mg/ml solution and add that to 14 ml you get a 2.67 mg/ml solution. Taking 1.93 ml of that equals 5.15 mg citalopram If you have been taking 5.15 mg accidentally I would continue to take that and work your way down. It is important for you to take the same amount of meds now for a couple of weeks to settle down a bit. I would do that first and then continue tapering. Mistakes are evil but there is nothing you can do about it. These things happen and we learn from it. Good luck and hopefully you recover soon. cheers Jozeff @jozeff thank you ive been too ill to reply. Lying down all the time with extreme fatigue and so on. Thank you for this calculation. My mixture is 16ml in total containing 1ml of citalopram (40mg) I was previously taking ,as you worked out correctly, 5.15mg (total mixture= 15ml containing 40mg Citalopram) Since then I made up the 16 ml mixture and worked my way down from equivalent of 5.15mg to where I am now. For 4 days I’ve been taking 1.94ml of the 16 ml mixture ( containing 40mg of citalopram). i plan to hold here. i think I have probably gone too quickly maybe? But ill is ill. I am so ill. and I am exhausted from explaining over and over to everyone on the outside why I am so ill. Even with my compassionate therapist .. I’ve been lying in bed having Skype therapy .. my hyperacusis is back and I feel like a raw nerve ending! I am a recluse!! Even the shower hurts my skin. Clearly all my conditions are intersecting. One minute it feels like fibromyalgia then chronic pain and fatigue then it feels like a brain injury , floating in all this is my psychological state and trauma... i think I will stay on 1.94ml for a least 6 weeks. i see now it’s going to take me years and years to get off this horrid drug. How are you? i can’t see screens very well or retain what’s been said if it’s not on screen. Thank you for replying and everyone else too. I grateful appreciate it even if I can’t type and express this . Once again brain has reached limit. Can’t write more. So frustrating and sad. 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
India Posted January 16, 2020 Author Share Posted January 16, 2020 On 1/1/2020 at 2:18 AM, hayduke said: Hey India. Sorry to hear you're having such a rough time of it. It will pass. Are you able to make it to a yoga class? I find restorative yoga in particular is really good at getting out of limbic system overdrive. Otherwise do you think a small updose, maybe to before the latest cut or two, might help? Cheers I think I should stay here for now??? 1.94ml thank you. my mum just sent me a Pilates ball. When I have strength I will use it just for breathing to start.. been sofa bound for days ... and struggling for breath fatigued and heavy head so angry , then sad , the circle .. i keep surviving though how are you? 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
Moderator hayduke Posted January 18, 2020 Moderator Share Posted January 18, 2020 Yep since your dose got out of whack definitely best to sit tight for a bit. I'm doing ok thanks. Had a pretty foul sort of week but it came good at the end. Still lots of fatigue, can relate. Hate knowing I want the house cleaner but not having the energy to get up and do it. I just do bits and pieces whenever I have the energy. Much of the time I'm too knackered to even play video games (I have to laugh at that). Restarting my taper again after a bit of a hold. Hope you're feeling better soon India. Cheers I am not a health professional - your actions are your own. Please do not seek tapering support via private message - "Any reason to hold is a good one" My taper visualised as a graph | My intro thread Backdrop: 2003 10mg olanzapine | 2004 2-3mg risperidone | end 2014 3wks aripiprazole 2015: olanzapine 10 -> 7½ -> 6⅔ -> 5mg by crude pill cutter 2018: Mar 5.00mg -> water titrated taper -> Aug2.5mg tablet and hold Jan 2019 2.50mg water titration -> Jan 2020 1.214 -> Jan 2021 0.44 -> 2 Oct 0.205 ->3 Oct ZERO🥂 Jun 2023 💉150mg paliperidone "loading" depot shot, 100mg 1wk after Jul 100mg Aug-Dec 75mg/4wks Jul 2023 2.50mg aripiprazole/day attempt to lower prolactin^ Jan-Feb 2024 cross taper off shots to 1mg risperidone Ask not what you can do for your country, but what your country did to you" -- KMFDM Link to comment
India Posted January 20, 2020 Author Share Posted January 20, 2020 I find the SA format hard to use. update : bad experience with neurologist in that he has questioned the credibility of my symptoms .. 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
India Posted January 25, 2020 Author Share Posted January 25, 2020 @Sunnysideup Thank you for your best wishes and response. Cognivity I one of my struggles. It’s hard to write consistently. london neighbour yes. This bitter sweet city. I’m mostly a recluse because of WD but I get out to the local green spots near my flat on better days!! How are things currently? @hayduke thank you also. How are you. currently I’m on 4.9mg or something ( it’s on my tapering chart) . I’m reducing by 1% a week with s planned break . Recovered from the breaking point but struggling with hyperacusis again. I feel like my brain is fried , concussion. Can’t write more 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
India Posted January 25, 2020 Author Share Posted January 25, 2020 Update. Very ill today, nausea , in a big wave. I feel frustrated I cannot engage more here and by email to members of the site. I compare myself to the fluidity and clarity of their writing. I feel like there is a heavy weight in my brain . The world does not feel real. I feel like a vegetable. i went into deep fear over permenant brain damage today. I have made roughly an 8% drop since November . I am going to have to hold here for now. In July , it will two years since this nightmare started. I imagined myself back to my vibrant self, reading, writing , painting. Still bruised and traumatised but at least 70% back to where I was. I’d say I’m 10% of who I was , that’s better than the 0% I started out with but not acceptable in the realm of living. Will I ever not feel this vegetable brain? This concussion. These terrible drugs, to me those that have rigged these pharma trials are absolutely culpable! Am I healing at all? Or will I not heal until I reach 0? in spite of all the theories, I fear what might have happened to my brain.. I feel the damage, or at least, the lack of ability of my brain to compensate. what does it mean that I am where I am 18 months later? Will I only begin to heal at 0 and will it be years. Or am I one of those that never heals? so many dire questions ... from my bed/sofa. If its ok I was hoping to tag ppl who I knew here to ask their views. 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
Armorall Posted January 26, 2020 Share Posted January 26, 2020 Hey India if you read Judith's success story, her healing didn't start until her 4th year. I know, it's a long time, but it is there. Hang in there, peace and love to you. 3/21/19 started Bupropion XL 150 mg 3/21/19 started Risperidone 2mg 7/7/19 start Abilify half dose 5 mg. discontinue Risperidone 7/9/19 full dose Abilify 10 mg 7/29/19 discontinued Abilify due to panicky side effects 8/2/19 Began Latuda 20 mg 8/5/19 discontinued Latuda due to similar side effects 8/10/19 discontinued Bupropion after realizing it was causing the insomnia From 8/10/19 no drugs whatsoever Currently taking vitamin C, D, E, a probiotic and fish oil. Message me here if you want: https://www.facebook.com/morra.lal.3/ I've been getting a lot of fake friend requests, so please send a message before friend requesting me, thank you! Link to comment
Superwoman Posted January 26, 2020 Share Posted January 26, 2020 India, hang in there. The brain has tremendous ability to heal. Even when people have stokes and one part of the brain dies, other areas of the brain take over. Healing is a frustrating slow process. Just one step at a time and one day at a time. 1 1993-2000: Zoloft few months CT, Prozac 1-2 yrs, Ritalin PRN 2002/2003: Wellbutrin, Paxil 25mg FT, and Xanax PRN CT (all 3 to 6 months), Adderal 40mg, Strattera 40mg 2003- 2016: Effexor XR 75 mg to 150 mg., Strattera (2002-2008) 2017: Effexor XR 225 mg. Gabapentin 300 mg. Elavil 25 mg. 2018: (Sept.) Effexor XR 187.5 mg, Zoloft 10 mg. (OCT.) FT off Gabapentin (NOV.) FT off Elavil (DEC) FT Effexor to 150 mg. 2019: (JAN.) D/C Zoloft, added Viibryd 10mg (FEB) CT Viibryd, (MAR) Prozac bridge, Effexor xr 112.5mg, (Sept.) Effexor XR 112.5 mg + 0.4 mg (1 bead), (Oct.) Effexor XR 112.5mg, (Dec.28) start 10% taper Effexor XR 101.25 mg, 2020: (Jan. 25) Effexor XR 91 mg., (Feb. 22) Effexor xr 82 mg., (Mar. 21) 75 mg. Supplements: Vitamin D 5000 IU topical, Probiotic 6 billion CFU, Epsom salt bath 1C 2 to 3 X week, California Poppy 2 droppers, various essential oils https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/21446-superwoman-effexor-taper/page/8/?tab=comments#comment-475779 Link to comment
India Posted February 2, 2020 Author Share Posted February 2, 2020 Current symptoms : extreme fatigue- run over by bus and heavy weights hyperacusis again body pain concussion feeling cognitive problems coordination impaired new symptom: nausea yesterday : terrible grief, sadness today very bad depression thank you to those that have replied unfortunately very limited brain power at moment. Even this was hard to write. Comments mean a lot . 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
Moderator hayduke Posted February 6, 2020 Moderator Share Posted February 6, 2020 Hope you're gradually feeling better India. Holding should tend to even things out. Sometimes when things have got to a certain point or had a bit of an upset you have to hold for longer to start feeling ok again. Cheers 1 I am not a health professional - your actions are your own. Please do not seek tapering support via private message - "Any reason to hold is a good one" My taper visualised as a graph | My intro thread Backdrop: 2003 10mg olanzapine | 2004 2-3mg risperidone | end 2014 3wks aripiprazole 2015: olanzapine 10 -> 7½ -> 6⅔ -> 5mg by crude pill cutter 2018: Mar 5.00mg -> water titrated taper -> Aug2.5mg tablet and hold Jan 2019 2.50mg water titration -> Jan 2020 1.214 -> Jan 2021 0.44 -> 2 Oct 0.205 ->3 Oct ZERO🥂 Jun 2023 💉150mg paliperidone "loading" depot shot, 100mg 1wk after Jul 100mg Aug-Dec 75mg/4wks Jul 2023 2.50mg aripiprazole/day attempt to lower prolactin^ Jan-Feb 2024 cross taper off shots to 1mg risperidone Ask not what you can do for your country, but what your country did to you" -- KMFDM Link to comment
India Posted February 8, 2020 Author Share Posted February 8, 2020 I’m in hell again 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted February 9, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 9, 2020 Hi India, I’m so sorry you’re struggling so much, sending big hugs your way🤗 Seroquel. 2019:➡️ From 7.25mg to 5.80mg✔️ 2020➡️From 5.60 to 4.80✔️ 2021➡️From 4.60 to 4.0✔️ 2022➡️From 3.95 to 3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️ 2024➡️Jan15=3.20✔️ Feb19=3.15✔️ March26=3.10✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted February 9, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 9, 2020 Sending big hugs and my love dear India ❤💪 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
India Posted March 10, 2020 Author Share Posted March 10, 2020 @Erell @Carmie @hayduke @Superwoman And anyone I’ve missed: thank you for the support. It means even more 20 months down the line. I am sure I have frontal lobe damage and I cry a lot about it. I struggle to write , leaving me feeling caged in a prison. Ive spent most (80%) of the last 3 months in my flat... with walks out only locally. Wednesday I have my MRI. I am scared. I also now have anger and aversion triggered by hospitals and medics .. a kind of trauma.. Because my harm has not been recognised. Thats my update. i realise now I am in for the long haul. Its 2 years in July. Not even off the drug!!! simply unable to write much due to concussed feeling in my brain. 1999: Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram 2mg , approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. 2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath - Dante Link to comment
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