Zeipii: severe PSSD and total emotional numbness

[Zeipii]

In brief:

in 2017 took bupropion 150mg 5 days, 300mg 8 days and very abruptly experienced pain in testicles, loss of libido, 80% ED, genital and other skin numbness. Stopped due to this ct and ran into a terrible state including total anhedonia, deep amotivation, loss of appetite, loss of tiredness and panic-like anxiety for multiple weeks. 11 months later no real improvements beside less anxiety, using remeron 15mg and getting some sleep. All in all very wide and disastrous symptoms. So bad, had to leave job and basically have been in bed ever since. Nothing feels and motivates. Lately also quite severe anxiety attacks for hours.  Scared and worried about ever recovering. Pssd alone is a tragedy, but having lost all emotions and motivation and will to live is even more devastating. Really sad about the small number of found recovery stories in contrast to number of sufferers. Bupropion is no safer than 'ssri' s. Forget about the categories, they are all poisons. I deeply regret ever taking one, which I did after weeks of thinking. Was so anxious that I fell for the 'marketed safe' one. It turned out to be a disaster and made the original state even worse (depression and anxiety into panic). I am really angry for these poisons and their prescribers being legal. Ready to join into any group/class suite etc. It is unbelievable how the pdocs cover themselves and each other all over the world using same phrases and not even 'believing' the victim. Many say they are clueless, I say they are collegially lying. To them it is nothing if 1 or even 5 in 100 get the devastating lasting symptoms. It is still low enough to claim that everything is due to depression etc. Glad to hear any encouraging recovery stories or talk PM with similar cases. 

[ChessieCat]

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[bhasski]

Hi..

I  am sorry that you are suffering. Also know what you are talking.. and CTed too.

After 2 yrs .. I couldn't find any solution except wait and distract - well both are difficult for us. 

 

I think I distract by going through supplements .. ayurveda.. homeopathy.. natural remedies.. these are all distractions enough to keep believe for 1- 2 months.

 

Well, one thing for sure .. it has slightly gotten better .. But not enough to go looking for another job.

 

For me.. they have taken from me 4 yrs of engineering.. 2.5 yrs of job.. + another 2.5 yrs.. And lots of money. 

 

They all will get back their karma.

[Altostrata]

@Zeipii, how are you doing?