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Carmie: accidently doubling up on Seroquel one day while tapering


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12 hours ago, Martina23 said:

Oh hi Carmie I dont know if I am doing well. I am still going in one circle. I am still trying if the complaint with respect to Lyrica can not be submitted, but my success is very minimal, I must say. I took my children to my previous aupair today because my daughter is still ill and I was already afraid that they would kick me out of the work. Even if I dont know if I want to work, I would the most like to stay at home and paint. It is my love. I saw you also love art. I am a naive painter, I still make mistakes. But I really love it. I would be happy to see what you do but I know that it is a public platform and maybe showing your paintings here you wouldnt like.

 

Hi Martina, 

 

I just dabble in painting, nothing too serious. I’m sure your paintings are much better. 

 

I found a good distraction lately in diamond painting as a friend of mine sent me a craft set. It’s like paint by numbers but you stick on these little diamond looking things in different colours. It was fun. When you have no concentration to make your own masterpieces you can do this. I love just getting acrylics n painting but when you’re so braindead sticking these little diamond thingys on is great. I just ordered a tonne off eBay so when I’m in waves again I’ll have a good distraction.

 

Sending you hugs🤗

 

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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2 hours ago, Carmie said:

 

Hi Martina, 

 

I just dabble in painting, nothing too serious. I’m sure your paintings are much better. 

 

I found a good distraction lately in diamond painting as a friend of mine sent me a craft set. It’s like paint by numbers but you stick on these little diamond looking things in different colours. It was fun. When you have no concentration to make your own masterpieces you can do this. I love just getting acrylics n painting but when you’re so braindead sticking these little diamond thingys on is great. I just ordered a tonne off eBay so when I’m in waves again I’ll have a good distraction.

 

Sending you hugs🤗

 

That is great Carmie. I feel today so happy. I took today all my courage and asked if I could work part time because I wanted to have more time for painting. I was afraid that everyone would look at me reproachedly. I wanted to have more time for painting. And they took it absolutely perfectly. They said it is no problem. I should say how many hours a day I want to work and if now or from 1.8. and we will do it. My boss completely understood me. So at least this is so positive. I am sure diamond painting must be great. I never tried. I just mix everything together - use pencil, coal, acrylics, everything. And it makes me miraculously much fun.

 

I hope you are ok and today your withdrawal is "bearable".

05/2013 Lyrica 100 mg / per day for pain + PGAD resulting from caesarian delivery11/2014 started to taper: 50 mg per day/ for one week then c/tafter one month reinstated at 50 mg /per days of 10 July 2015 drug free-

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On 7/23/2018 at 6:38 PM, Martina23 said:

That is great Carmie. I feel today so happy. I took today all my courage and asked if I could work part time because I wanted to have more time for painting. I was afraid that everyone would look at me reproachedly. I wanted to have more time for painting. And they took it absolutely perfectly. They said it is no problem. I should say how many hours a day I want to work and if now or from 1.8. and we will do it. My boss completely understood me. So at least this is so positive. I am sure diamond painting must be great. I never tried. I just mix everything together - use pencil, coal, acrylics, everything. And it makes me miraculously much fun.

 

I hope you are ok and today your withdrawal is "bearable".

 

Hi Martina, 

 

That’s great news you can work part time n do more painting. It’s good to be able to do things that uplift the soul. 

 

I’ve never used coal, I love paintings with all the different mediums in them too, I think metallic paint looks brilliant too. I turned into a big kid with my last painting n even put glitter on it😁. Yes, you’re right there, it definitely is fium. You get so involved in it that before you know it hours have flown by. Great distraction when going through withdrawals.

 

I’m stocking up on different art n craft stuff at the moment so that when I’m in a wave again I have a lot of things to distract myself with. 

 

Sending hugs🤗

 

 

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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I just read a great analogy on withdrawals and how we need to accept them n not fight against them. Fighting against them will make them worse, they’re bad enough. 

 

The analogy was to imagine ourselves driving home and getting stuck in a big traffic jam. You know you will eventually get home but it might take a long time. You’re stuck there for now.

 

There is no way out, the only thing is to wait in the traffic until we come out of it and eventually arrive home. The same with our symptoms, we have to go through them so that we eventually arrive home. 

 

We can’t stop our symptoms, we just have to somehow accept them and get through them a moment at a time. We may be terrified of some of our symptoms but we know why they’re happening. When I got cold turkeyed off a million things years ago I didn’t have a clue what was wrong with me.

 

I thought there was something terribly wrong with me mentally n the akathisia made me suicidal. I thought it was something I would have to live with for the rest of my life. It wasn’t until years later I realised it was withdrawals. How grateful I was to know that what I’m going through now is temporary, even if I go through it for many years. 

 

We will all arrive “home” one day.

 

Wishing everyone the best in their recovery💚💚

 

 

 

 

 

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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Hi Carmie, You are like a sunflower full of positive energy to keeping active in your daily life which is really good in your tapering process and healing as well. Positive attitue and acceptance is key of your recovering. Keep it up and i believe your good and great attitue with your happy going life will help you healing more faster. Wish you all the best and well.Take care. 

Mid December 16 lorezapam 1mg and lexapro 5mg

Early April17 updosed lorezapam 2mg, mid Apr17 taper 1.5mg, mid May17-1.25mg, early Jun17- 1mg, mid Jun17-0.75mg, mid July17-0.5mg, End July 17 reduce from 0.4mg, 0.3mg,0.2mg until 0.1mg.lorezapam free on 9 August 2017.

Early Mar17 updosed to Lexapro 10mg , end Mar17 reduced 7.5mg, mid May17 reduced 0.5mg, End Aug17 reduced 2.5mg, early Sep17 -1.5mg, Mid Sept-1mg, End Sept - 0.5mg .lexapro free on 26 September 2017

 

Supplement- omega fish oil and magnesium citrate only.

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On 7/26/2018 at 3:34 AM, Carmie said:

get through them a moment at a time

Thank you for reminding me I am not alone. It can feel so lonely in this among all the "normal" people out there.

2001- Klonopin 0.125 mg.  2011- increase to 1 mg.  2018- increase to 1.5 mg 

2010- Trials of SSRI's, several.

2011- Saphris 5 mg. CT. 6/2017- retry Saphris 5 mg sublingual, begin taper August 2020 10% taper with scale, and final taper liquid sublingual, August 2019- taper complete!

2011- Geodon 20 mg. Begin taper Sept 2019. 10% liquid taper. 2020: December-5 mg. 2021: Jan-4.5mg. (held Feb.for vacation). March-4mg. Apr-3.6mg. May-3.2mg. June-2.8mg. (Held July for vacation). Aug-2.4mg. Sept.- 2.2mg. Oct. 2mg. Dec 2022 - Taper complete!

2011- Gabapentin 300 mg to present- 2020. Increase 2023 to 400mg.

2014- Vyvanse 20 mg, 2020- Vyvanse 5 mg. Increase August 2022 20mg

2016- Lithium 300 mg, June 2016 - FT.

2017- Cogentin 0.5 mg. June-August 2019- off Cogentin.

2021 - Hydroxyzine 30mg. Holding.

Omeprazole 20 mg and holding, Omega 3's/fish oil, Magnesium

 

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4 hours ago, DMV64 said:

Thank you for reminding me I am not alone. It can feel so lonely in this among all the "normal" people out there.

Me too. The most if the people dont even understand what these "medications" can do. Most of them would think that these medicines are saving lives and they can not do harm and the doctor is always right.

05/2013 Lyrica 100 mg / per day for pain + PGAD resulting from caesarian delivery11/2014 started to taper: 50 mg per day/ for one week then c/tafter one month reinstated at 50 mg /per days of 10 July 2015 drug free-

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On 7/27/2018 at 6:29 PM, Miracle123 said:

Hi Carmie, You are like a sunflower full of positive energy to keeping active in your daily life which is really good in your tapering process and healing as well. Positive attitue and acceptance is key of your recovering. Keep it up and i believe your good and great attitue with your happy going life will help you healing more faster. Wish you all the best and well.Take care. 

 

Hi Miracle, thank you so much for your kind words, much appreciated. I try n be positive but I’m not always. Just doing the best I can, like all of us. Haven’t been able to come on here very much. Brain fog from CFS has made it hard to focus. I am in good spirits though, went to see Celine Dion this week. All I can say is WOW!! I go to tons of concerts but that one took the cake. I didn’t want it to end. 

 

Sending u hugs🤗

On 7/30/2018 at 1:19 AM, DMV64 said:

Thank you for reminding me I am not alone. It can feel so lonely in this among all the "normal" people out there.

 

Hi DMV, you’re certainly not alone, we are all struggling on here. 

 

Im still in a window as I’m not tapering until the end of August but I’m quite sick due to a chronic illness. I just take each moment as it comes n try n do the best in that moment. I’ve been in bed for most of the day but have kept myself entertained💚

 

On 7/30/2018 at 5:44 AM, Martina23 said:

Me too. The most if the people dont even understand what these "medications" can do. Most of them would think that these medicines are saving lives and they can not do harm and the doctor is always right.

 

Hi Martina, 

 

You’re right there. If people haven’t gone through withdrawals they have absolutely no idea how horrific it is. They think taking antidepressants is like taking aspirin, little do the know.

 

Take care💚

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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 just checking in with you to see how you been doing.

March-2017-Dec-2017 ativanCT /reinstated ativan 1mg tapered 2 months/June 2017-April 2018 zyprexa 10mg switched to seroquel 200-300mg in april 2018/dec-2017-present zoloft 100mg/ quit seroquel 200-300mg cold turkey May 6 2018 reinstated seroquel 100mg around May 25 2018 since then tapered to 50mg zoloft and 50 mg of seroquel presently other medications Testosterone cypionate 2oomg every 4 days

UPDATE -August 20 2018--october 20 2018 tapered off Testosterone/Nov 7 2018 --Dec 20 2018 Lamictal micro dose 2.50mg 1 1/2 weeks then reduced to 1.25 then fast tapered as it became paridoxial.nausea- racing thoughts- agitation and insomnia.

August 28 2018 to Present Cannabis indica micro dose PM bedtime only.

Presently Seroquel 37.5 mg bedtime /Zoloft 47mg morning

May 2018-Present Multivitamin/ Bcomplex/Vit C 1000MG/B12 1000MCG/Fish oils 2grams/

Jan 2019-Trace mineral liquid low dose

Update dec 2019 -29mg of zoloft tapering/Seroquel 37.5 holding/1 or 2  ativan 1mg a month as needed if that.

Black seed oil-caprylic acid-/b complex/b12/multi/D/E/melatonin

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19 hours ago, Carmie said:

Hi Miracle, thank you so much for your kind words, much appreciated. I try n be positive but I’m not always. Just doing the best I can, like all of us. Haven’t been able to come on here very much. Brain fog from CFS has made it hard to focus. I am in good spirits though, went to see Celine Dion this week. All I can say is WOW!! I go to tons of concerts but that one took the cake. I didn’t want it to end. 

Thanks Carmie, i love it Celine Dion . Brain fog or pressure is really make me uncomfortable and hard to handle tasks. i hope you enjoy your concert this week. Take care.Sending my hugs to you too🤗

 

 

Mid December 16 lorezapam 1mg and lexapro 5mg

Early April17 updosed lorezapam 2mg, mid Apr17 taper 1.5mg, mid May17-1.25mg, early Jun17- 1mg, mid Jun17-0.75mg, mid July17-0.5mg, End July 17 reduce from 0.4mg, 0.3mg,0.2mg until 0.1mg.lorezapam free on 9 August 2017.

Early Mar17 updosed to Lexapro 10mg , end Mar17 reduced 7.5mg, mid May17 reduced 0.5mg, End Aug17 reduced 2.5mg, early Sep17 -1.5mg, Mid Sept-1mg, End Sept - 0.5mg .lexapro free on 26 September 2017

 

Supplement- omega fish oil and magnesium citrate only.

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Thinking about you Carmie!  Hoping you feel better soon!  Hooray for the concert...I saw Celine Dion in concert and it was as wonderful as you describe!  Take care!💜

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-Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. 

-November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17,     

-20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day

-Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17

-Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg  5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded  

-4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19

-July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, 

-7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25

-1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg,

  1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit  1/week,Reacted Mag prn

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10 hours ago, RusTW said:

 just checking in with you to see how you been doing.

 

5 hours ago, Miracle123 said:

Thanks Carmie, i love it Celine Dion . Brain fog or pressure is really make me uncomfortable and hard to handle tasks. i hope you enjoy your concert this week. Take care.Sending my hugs to you too🤗

 

 

 

4 hours ago, Rabe said:

Thinking about you Carmie!  Hoping you feel better soon!  Hooray for the concert...I saw Celine Dion in concert and it was as wonderful as you describe!  Take care!💜

 

 

Hi RusTW, Miracle n Rabe, 

 

Thank u all so much for dropping by. I’m not too bad, I spent the day with friends today but was lying down most of the day. I’m in good spirits, just have severe brain fog from CFS so I can’t read much. 

 

I will check in with u all when I have a bit more of a brain.

 

Thanks again for caring💚💚💚

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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hope you feel better soon, @Carmie

I'm not doing so hot either,so tired of this.

 

that's great you saw Celine Dion, love her!

 

take care,ds

xxx

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The fog sucks.I have it too.sorry.hope it lifts.wishing you a good day.
 

March-2017-Dec-2017 ativanCT /reinstated ativan 1mg tapered 2 months/June 2017-April 2018 zyprexa 10mg switched to seroquel 200-300mg in april 2018/dec-2017-present zoloft 100mg/ quit seroquel 200-300mg cold turkey May 6 2018 reinstated seroquel 100mg around May 25 2018 since then tapered to 50mg zoloft and 50 mg of seroquel presently other medications Testosterone cypionate 2oomg every 4 days

UPDATE -August 20 2018--october 20 2018 tapered off Testosterone/Nov 7 2018 --Dec 20 2018 Lamictal micro dose 2.50mg 1 1/2 weeks then reduced to 1.25 then fast tapered as it became paridoxial.nausea- racing thoughts- agitation and insomnia.

August 28 2018 to Present Cannabis indica micro dose PM bedtime only.

Presently Seroquel 37.5 mg bedtime /Zoloft 47mg morning

May 2018-Present Multivitamin/ Bcomplex/Vit C 1000MG/B12 1000MCG/Fish oils 2grams/

Jan 2019-Trace mineral liquid low dose

Update dec 2019 -29mg of zoloft tapering/Seroquel 37.5 holding/1 or 2  ativan 1mg a month as needed if that.

Black seed oil-caprylic acid-/b complex/b12/multi/D/E/melatonin

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20 minutes ago, RusTW said:

Do you get ringing ears

March-2017-Dec-2017 ativanCT /reinstated ativan 1mg tapered 2 months/June 2017-April 2018 zyprexa 10mg switched to seroquel 200-300mg in april 2018/dec-2017-present zoloft 100mg/ quit seroquel 200-300mg cold turkey May 6 2018 reinstated seroquel 100mg around May 25 2018 since then tapered to 50mg zoloft and 50 mg of seroquel presently other medications Testosterone cypionate 2oomg every 4 days

UPDATE -August 20 2018--october 20 2018 tapered off Testosterone/Nov 7 2018 --Dec 20 2018 Lamictal micro dose 2.50mg 1 1/2 weeks then reduced to 1.25 then fast tapered as it became paridoxial.nausea- racing thoughts- agitation and insomnia.

August 28 2018 to Present Cannabis indica micro dose PM bedtime only.

Presently Seroquel 37.5 mg bedtime /Zoloft 47mg morning

May 2018-Present Multivitamin/ Bcomplex/Vit C 1000MG/B12 1000MCG/Fish oils 2grams/

Jan 2019-Trace mineral liquid low dose

Update dec 2019 -29mg of zoloft tapering/Seroquel 37.5 holding/1 or 2  ativan 1mg a month as needed if that.

Black seed oil-caprylic acid-/b complex/b12/multi/D/E/melatonin

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On 8/4/2018 at 12:34 AM, direstraits said:

hope you feel better soon, @Carmie

I'm not doing so hot either,so tired of this.

 

that's great you saw Celine Dion, love her!

 

take care,ds

xxx

 

Hi Direstraits, 

 

Im sorry you’re not doing so hot. This journey will one day come to an end. I’ve been crook with my chronic illness n the brain fog has been quite severe n have been struggling to check in here. 

 

I’ve been doing a little bit of packing as I’m going on a holiday to the beach next week with friends. Should be nice. Not long after the holiday I’m planning to taper again. 

 

I hope you’re feeling a bit better today.

 

Sending hugs🤗🤗

On 8/4/2018 at 3:30 AM, RusTW said:

The fog sucks.I have it too.sorry.hope it lifts.wishing you a good day.
 

 

On 8/4/2018 at 3:53 AM, RusTW said:
On 8/4/2018 at 3:30 AM, RusTW said:

Do you get ringing ears

 

Hi

RusTW,

 

The brain fog is from CFS, not withdrawals. I’ve had it for way over twenty years, so it’s a part of my life. Sometimes it just gets really bad n I struggle to read a lot. In those times I have lots of other distractions like crochet, dvds, Netflix, arts n crafts, music etc etc.

 

No, I don’t really get ringing in my ears. I’ve had it occasionally but it never lasts long. A lot of people on this site have it though, so it’s quite common in withdrawals.

 

Take care💚

 

 

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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On 8/3/2018 at 3:16 PM, Rabe said:

Thinking about you Carmie!  Hoping you feel better soon!  Hooray for the concert...I saw Celine Dion in concert and it was as wonderful as you describe!  Take care!💜

 

Hi Rabe, 

 

Thanks for dropping by and your kind thoughts. How have you been? 

 

Ive spent most of the week in bed due to CFS but I’m in good spirits. Been keeping myself occupied, I’ve been crocheting n doing some diamond paintings. That’s a really good distraction, you stick little beads on pictures, it’s like paint by numbers, but it’s stick by numbers instead. I love seeing the final outcome. 

 

I’ve been watching Little Dorrit on DVD the last couple of days. I’ll probably finish it today. Love Charles Dickens. 

 

Started reading a John Grisham novel a while back but I never finished it due to brain fog etc. I’ll have to start from the beginning again as I’ve forgotten all the details. I’m going on a beach holiday with friends next week n will take it with me but I doubt my brain will let me read it. Well, you never know. Here’s to being positive.

 

Sending hugs n thanks again for checking in🤗

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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14 minutes ago, Carmie said:

 

Hi Direstraits, 

 

Im sorry you’re not doing so hot. This journey will one day come to an end. I’ve been crook with my chronic illness n the brain fog has been quite severe n have been struggling to check in here. 

 

I’ve been doing a little bit of packing as I’m going on a holiday to the beach next week with friends. Should be nice. Not long after the holiday I’m planning to taper again. 

 

I hope you’re feeling a bit better today.

 

Sending hugs🤗🤗

 

 

Hi

RusTW,

 

The brain fog is from CFS, not withdrawals. I’ve had it for way over twenty years, so it’s a part of my life. Sometimes it just gets really bad n I struggle to read a lot. In those times I have lots of other distractions like crochet, dvds, Netflix, arts n crafts, music etc etc.

 

No, I don’t really get ringing in my ears. I’ve had it occasionally but it never lasts long. A lot of people on this site have it though, so it’s quite common in withdrawals.

 

Take care💚

 

 

Carmine thanks.I've been doing better.I hope ya have a good trip to the beach.I will follow you as you taper.Best wishes. Rus

March-2017-Dec-2017 ativanCT /reinstated ativan 1mg tapered 2 months/June 2017-April 2018 zyprexa 10mg switched to seroquel 200-300mg in april 2018/dec-2017-present zoloft 100mg/ quit seroquel 200-300mg cold turkey May 6 2018 reinstated seroquel 100mg around May 25 2018 since then tapered to 50mg zoloft and 50 mg of seroquel presently other medications Testosterone cypionate 2oomg every 4 days

UPDATE -August 20 2018--october 20 2018 tapered off Testosterone/Nov 7 2018 --Dec 20 2018 Lamictal micro dose 2.50mg 1 1/2 weeks then reduced to 1.25 then fast tapered as it became paridoxial.nausea- racing thoughts- agitation and insomnia.

August 28 2018 to Present Cannabis indica micro dose PM bedtime only.

Presently Seroquel 37.5 mg bedtime /Zoloft 47mg morning

May 2018-Present Multivitamin/ Bcomplex/Vit C 1000MG/B12 1000MCG/Fish oils 2grams/

Jan 2019-Trace mineral liquid low dose

Update dec 2019 -29mg of zoloft tapering/Seroquel 37.5 holding/1 or 2  ativan 1mg a month as needed if that.

Black seed oil-caprylic acid-/b complex/b12/multi/D/E/melatonin

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Just now, RusTW said:

Carmine thanks.I've been doing better.I hope ya have a good trip to the beach.I will follow you as you taper.Best wishes. Rus

 

Hi again Rus, 

 

Glad to hear you’re feeling better💚

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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1 minute ago, Carmie said:

 

Hi again Rus, 

 

Glad to hear you’re feeling better💚

What is cfs Carmie

March-2017-Dec-2017 ativanCT /reinstated ativan 1mg tapered 2 months/June 2017-April 2018 zyprexa 10mg switched to seroquel 200-300mg in april 2018/dec-2017-present zoloft 100mg/ quit seroquel 200-300mg cold turkey May 6 2018 reinstated seroquel 100mg around May 25 2018 since then tapered to 50mg zoloft and 50 mg of seroquel presently other medications Testosterone cypionate 2oomg every 4 days

UPDATE -August 20 2018--october 20 2018 tapered off Testosterone/Nov 7 2018 --Dec 20 2018 Lamictal micro dose 2.50mg 1 1/2 weeks then reduced to 1.25 then fast tapered as it became paridoxial.nausea- racing thoughts- agitation and insomnia.

August 28 2018 to Present Cannabis indica micro dose PM bedtime only.

Presently Seroquel 37.5 mg bedtime /Zoloft 47mg morning

May 2018-Present Multivitamin/ Bcomplex/Vit C 1000MG/B12 1000MCG/Fish oils 2grams/

Jan 2019-Trace mineral liquid low dose

Update dec 2019 -29mg of zoloft tapering/Seroquel 37.5 holding/1 or 2  ativan 1mg a month as needed if that.

Black seed oil-caprylic acid-/b complex/b12/multi/D/E/melatonin

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Just now, RusTW said:

What is cfs Carmie

 

Chronic fatigue syndrome 

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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That sucks- I'm sorry Carmie.

March-2017-Dec-2017 ativanCT /reinstated ativan 1mg tapered 2 months/June 2017-April 2018 zyprexa 10mg switched to seroquel 200-300mg in april 2018/dec-2017-present zoloft 100mg/ quit seroquel 200-300mg cold turkey May 6 2018 reinstated seroquel 100mg around May 25 2018 since then tapered to 50mg zoloft and 50 mg of seroquel presently other medications Testosterone cypionate 2oomg every 4 days

UPDATE -August 20 2018--october 20 2018 tapered off Testosterone/Nov 7 2018 --Dec 20 2018 Lamictal micro dose 2.50mg 1 1/2 weeks then reduced to 1.25 then fast tapered as it became paridoxial.nausea- racing thoughts- agitation and insomnia.

August 28 2018 to Present Cannabis indica micro dose PM bedtime only.

Presently Seroquel 37.5 mg bedtime /Zoloft 47mg morning

May 2018-Present Multivitamin/ Bcomplex/Vit C 1000MG/B12 1000MCG/Fish oils 2grams/

Jan 2019-Trace mineral liquid low dose

Update dec 2019 -29mg of zoloft tapering/Seroquel 37.5 holding/1 or 2  ativan 1mg a month as needed if that.

Black seed oil-caprylic acid-/b complex/b12/multi/D/E/melatonin

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Hi one and all, 

 

How are we all faring today?  Finally had enough brain power to catch up with some of you on this site today. There are so many different circumstances but we all know what it’s like to go through withdrawals.

 

Im still in a window but I’ve been limited in what I can do due to health, but I must say I’m in good spirits. In a moment I’ll watch some more of my DVDs, Little Dorrit is in my DVD player at the moment. I’ve seen it before, Charles Dickens was an amazing writer. 

 

Just wanted to say too please be careful of the people you hang around. I’ve learnt so much about narcissistic abuse over the last year, I’ve dealt with a lot of it but my eyes are open now. When you’re going through withdrawals the stress of being around people who just want to tear you down is incredible. Ive dealt with the abuse all my life but could never put a finger on it until this last year. There is so much info on it now.

 

Check out covert narcissism as well, you know those people you never feel comfortable around. They pretend to have your best interests at heart but you leave them feeling totally drained n confused. They hate that you have friends n a life n interests and always have to put you down but in a sneaky way. I say run if you have friends like these. You have enough stress dealing with withdrawals. 

 

I won’t go into details of what I’ve gone through my entire life but just want to say please take care of yourselves n don’t let people without emotions or empathy suck you dry. 

 

On a brighter note, had a lovely weekend last weekend. Spent time with beautiful friends, it was extremely upbuilding. Next week I’m going on holidays with friends too. My suitcase is almost packed, I’m going to take my crochet with me n art stuff stuff too. We will be near the beach, my happy place. Taking a novel too but it depends on how severe the brain fog is as to whether I will be able to read it. 

 

Take care everyone, we will win this fight💚💚💚

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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Hi Carmie,

You are a ray of sunshine!  And soon you will enjoy the sun and the beach you so love...I am so happy for you Carmie.  Please keep us posted on your trip...I certainly will be thinking about you!  When do you leave?

 

It is indeed a gift to have true friends and family....through this journey I have found them to be scarce, which is lonely, but it is so hard to understand it even when you are going through it....I can't get upset...hopefully someday they will somehow find a window that will allow them to comprehend even a bit of what all this has been like.

 

Hugs , hope and happiness Carmie!💜

-Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016

-Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. 

-November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17,     

-20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day

-Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17

-Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg  5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded  

-4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19

-July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, 

-7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25

-1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg,

  1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit  1/week,Reacted Mag prn

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18 minutes ago, Rabe said:

Hi Carmie,

You are a ray of sunshine!  And soon you will enjoy the sun and the beach you so love...I am so happy for you Carmie.  Please keep us posted on your trip...I certainly will be thinking about you!  When do you leave?

 

It is indeed a gift to have true friends and family....through this journey I have found them to be scarce, which is lonely, but it is so hard to understand it even when you are going through it....I can't get upset...hopefully someday they will somehow find a window that will allow them to comprehend even a bit of what all this has been like.

 

Hugs , hope and happiness Carmie!💜

 

Rabe, I just have to say you are one of the sweetest people ever!

 

You have the most amazing heart, I can really feel it. I also have lots of friends that have the most incredible hearts, just like you.

 

I’m sorry you have found friends to be scarce through this journey, you so deserve them, you are a real sweetheart. People will never understand the journey of withdrawals, but despite this my friends still love me n stick around. I appreciate their friendship n they appreciate mine. It really warms the heart.  I’m so thankful for all my friends. 

 

I’m going on holiday next Monday, by the way, n I’ll come back on Friday n then I’ve been invited to another friend’s place to a movie night that Saturday. 

 

I really have had enough of some so called friends n family that abuse me, putting me down, making me feel bad because I have lots of friends, love adventures n exploring, love being creative n quirky. They always make me the scapegoat for their lack of empathy n abusiveness. They are constantly trying to project how they feel onto me. 

 

I’m a free spirit that cares about people n doesn’t try to control them. I’ve had enough of people trying to control me with their stupid mind games. 

 

Im tapering again at the end of this month n I’m cutting out one of these abusers from my life, but can’t do so with another, though I’ve learnt strategies to cope with this. Don’t react n live my life n be me. I’m a work in progress but I’m learning every day n getting a bit smarter. 

 

I wish you all all the best Rabe, you really are a kindred spirit 💚

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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On 4/24/2018 at 6:07 AM, Carmie said:

Journaling: 

 

I’ve started writing my symptoms down in a journal at home as all I’ve written down in the past was the amounts I tapered by. It’s good to have a book with all the symptoms written in as you can see that everything is temporary, things come and go, come and go.

 

Woke up this morning shaking and am really jittery. It’s day 52 since my last taper. 

 

Yesterday my whole day was waves and windows. Strange how you can be up, down, up, down all in one day. I just kept distracting myself by watching Netflix, crocheting and doing some housework.

 

One minute I’m really warm and the next minute I’m really cold. I go from turning on the heater to turning on the fan.

 

I’ve really learnt too that all the weird symptoms are not other illnesses but withdrawals. A couple of weeks ago I had tooth pain and earaches and thought I had infections, but no. Withdrawals! Last year I had a burning mouth and couldn’t figure out why and have now realised again, it was withdrawals. Now, every time I get a new symptom I know it’s more likely than anything to be withdrawals.

 

Hang in there everyone.

 

 

 

 

Hi Carmie, Those withdrawals i had before and it sound so familiar when i read it. Actually i got the same reaction as your thinking of confusing in between withdrawals or health problem. Dont be affraid or worries......this is withdrawals and just for temporary as like a waves and windows. As you say its up and down and keep repeating...until u never feel it or you used to it. Hang in there. Always keeping your positive and cheerful attitue will help you so much in your healing.Hugs and take care.

 

Mid December 16 lorezapam 1mg and lexapro 5mg

Early April17 updosed lorezapam 2mg, mid Apr17 taper 1.5mg, mid May17-1.25mg, early Jun17- 1mg, mid Jun17-0.75mg, mid July17-0.5mg, End July 17 reduce from 0.4mg, 0.3mg,0.2mg until 0.1mg.lorezapam free on 9 August 2017.

Early Mar17 updosed to Lexapro 10mg , end Mar17 reduced 7.5mg, mid May17 reduced 0.5mg, End Aug17 reduced 2.5mg, early Sep17 -1.5mg, Mid Sept-1mg, End Sept - 0.5mg .lexapro free on 26 September 2017

 

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13 minutes ago, Miracle123 said:

Hi Carmie, Those withdrawals i had before and it sound so familiar when i read it. Actually i got the same reaction as your thinking of confusing in between withdrawals or health problem. Dont be affraid or worries......this is withdrawals and just for temporary as like a waves and windows. As you say its up and down and keep repeating...until u never feel it or you used to it. Hang in there. Always keeping your positive and cheerful attitue will help you so much in your healing.Hugs and take care.

 

 

 Hi Miracle, 

 

Hope you’re doing okay. I wrote this in April. I’ve been in a window for a while now n I’m doing okay. 

 

Im no longer worried about health problems, I can see clearly see now that new symptoms are usually withdrawals. I’m tapering again at the end of this month though, so if I get any new weird symptoms I’ll know it’s  probably withdrawals.

 

Im looking forward to a holiday next month. Going to the beach n one of my friends booked a fancy shmancy high rise to stay in. I checked it on YouTube n it’s got some beautiful pools n we are not far from the beach n all the yummy restaurants n cafes. Look forward to chilling. I’m making happy memories before I taper again at the end of the month. 

 

Sending u big hugs🤗

 

 

 

 

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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One last bit of journaling for the day. 

 

We don’t know what each day will bring. We can just take each moment as it comes. Life is hard when going through withdrawals n to get through withdrawals we need to go through withdrawals. There’s nothing else we can do. 

 

Again, my motto is make happy memories when you’re in windows that you can look back in when you’re in waves. Then when you’re in waves distract! didract! distract! 

 

Don’t let abusive people in your life suck the emotional energy out of you. In my last few post I mentioned I’ve been researching narcissistic abuse. Some narcissists are covert. They pretend like they care n they play the victim card but they try n make u feel bad about yourselves. Don’t allow this. Don’t respond to their abuse. Go no contact if you can. 

 

At the end of this month I’m going to get a compounded formula n I’m going to micro taper it. Let’s see how I go. I’m going to continue with water titration n make the reductions as small as I can, but as everyone knows it can still cause withdrawal symptoms. I have new distractions in place now that will help me get through this. 

 

We we will win this fight. I believe in each n every one of u, keep hanging in there, a minute at a time if u have to.

 

Sending the biggest hugs to all of you🤗🤗🤗

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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2 hours ago, Carmie said:

 

 Hi Miracle, 

 

Hope you’re doing okay. I wrote this in April. I’ve been in a window for a while now n I’m doing okay. 

 

Im no longer worried about health problems, I can see clearly see now that new symptoms are usually withdrawals. I’m tapering again at the end of this month though, so if I get any new weird symptoms I’ll know it’s  probably withdrawals.

 

Im looking forward to a holiday next month. Going to the beach n one of my friends booked a fancy shmancy high rise to stay in. I checked it on YouTube n it’s got some beautiful pools n we are not far from the beach n all the yummy restaurants n cafes. Look forward to chilling. I’m making happy memories before I taper again at the end of the month. 

 

Sending u big hugs🤗

 

 

 

 

Hi Carmie, I hope you enjoy your holiday trip so much. i love beach and see sunset too with a lots of yummy foods and drinks. My country mostly at east part got a lots of beautiful islands and beach thats why i really enjoyed it. After your holiday , i hope you can continue to taper without too much trouble and getting to zero withdrawals. 

im sorry to over look the dated of April 18 and send it to you. i too enjoyed reading inside your thread. Take care and warmest hugs from me.🤗

Mid December 16 lorezapam 1mg and lexapro 5mg

Early April17 updosed lorezapam 2mg, mid Apr17 taper 1.5mg, mid May17-1.25mg, early Jun17- 1mg, mid Jun17-0.75mg, mid July17-0.5mg, End July 17 reduce from 0.4mg, 0.3mg,0.2mg until 0.1mg.lorezapam free on 9 August 2017.

Early Mar17 updosed to Lexapro 10mg , end Mar17 reduced 7.5mg, mid May17 reduced 0.5mg, End Aug17 reduced 2.5mg, early Sep17 -1.5mg, Mid Sept-1mg, End Sept - 0.5mg .lexapro free on 26 September 2017

 

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1 hour ago, Miracle123 said:

Hi Carmie, I hope you enjoy your holiday trip so much. i love beach and see sunset too with a lots of yummy foods and drinks. My country mostly at east part got a lots of beautiful islands and beach thats why i really enjoyed it. After your holiday , i hope you can continue to taper without too much trouble and getting to zero withdrawals. 

im sorry to over look the dated of April 18 and send it to you. i too enjoyed reading inside your thread. Take care and warmest hugs from me.🤗

 

Hi Miracle, 

 

Yes, Im so looking forward to my holiday next week. Your country sounds beautiful with the beautiful islands n nature. Australia is  beautiful too, lots of nature n beaches. 

 

I don’t like living in the city, I’m happiest when in nature. 

 

At the moment I’ve got the music cranked up. Another one of my pleasures. Major music freak here. Music is amazing in withdrawals too, I’ve had it cranked up many a time to help me through waves. I’ve got a cool speaker that flashes different colours n pulsates according to the music. 

 

Thanks for the warm hugs, sending them right back to you🤗🤗🤗🤗

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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Hi @Carmie

hope you have a wonderful holiday at the beach,you so deserve it.

I love the beach,my favorite place to be.

I think my mom had narcissistic traits, was difficult to be around and like you said sucked the emotional energy out of me.

anyway,we can't choose our parents,unfortunately.

 

let us know how your trip goes xx

hugs,ds

went on Prozac 1994-99,60mg.poopout ct  back on 2001-2002,prozac weekly 2002,not working,Effexor 75 mg.?2003-mar.2004 gaining weight 8wk. taper,wellbutrin 150 mg.mar. -may 2004 ctmedfree til july 2005 back to Prozac gaining weight again,back on wellbutrin jan.2006150-300 mg.bad constipation.also was taking aygestin(hormone)perimenopausal irregular bleeding.back on Prozac around sept,?2006,hysterectomy jan30.2007(adenomyosis)off&on Prozac til 2009,citalopram about 1 mo, April 2010 no effect,Effexor again may -mar, 2011.ct,Prozac aug,-dec, 2011 &sept-nov 2012,paroxetine oct,23 2013-may 4 2014 20 mgs.tapered 6 wks.-failed RI in Oct.2014-in protracted WD.started 10 mgs. Fluoxetine May 25 2021 .Stopped fluoxetine May 2022 at 5 mgs.

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Thank you for your kind words Carmie...means so much!!

 

Could you tell me...how have you been tapering?  My system is so sensitive too and my doctor just doesnt get that.  I could get a compounded liquid...would be cheaper than the tablets.  Could I ask how much you reduce by or have reduced by?  I just find the 5% or more so upends me!  Im

still not stable from all the tapering last year much less this year.

 

I would like to have a bit of a life while doing this.  Both drugs seem to be awful to get off of...but I feel every one of us can say that!  

 

Take care...you are a most special soul!  You remind me of my son...an 'old' soul...very wise...💜

-Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016

-Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. 

-November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17,     

-20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day

-Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17

-Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg  5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded  

-4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19

-July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, 

-7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25

-1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg,

  1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit  1/week,Reacted Mag prn

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18 hours ago, Carmie said:

At the moment I’ve got the music cranked up. Another one of my pleasures. Major music freak here. Music is amazing in withdrawals too, I’ve had it cranked up many a time to help me through waves. I’ve got a cool speaker that flashes different colours n pulsates according to the music. 

Music is part of my life....when im driving i always listening to music...this will helping to keeping myself relax and enjoyed it. Agreed with you carmie. Music is great tools to help me during day or night when im at home.

i live in the city but natural is always my flavourite. During holiday season i will choose back to village or country side with a lots green and jungle to catch natural and fresh air as well.

Hope you enjoy this coming holiday and catch more awesome beautiful photo. 🤗

Mid December 16 lorezapam 1mg and lexapro 5mg

Early April17 updosed lorezapam 2mg, mid Apr17 taper 1.5mg, mid May17-1.25mg, early Jun17- 1mg, mid Jun17-0.75mg, mid July17-0.5mg, End July 17 reduce from 0.4mg, 0.3mg,0.2mg until 0.1mg.lorezapam free on 9 August 2017.

Early Mar17 updosed to Lexapro 10mg , end Mar17 reduced 7.5mg, mid May17 reduced 0.5mg, End Aug17 reduced 2.5mg, early Sep17 -1.5mg, Mid Sept-1mg, End Sept - 0.5mg .lexapro free on 26 September 2017

 

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Carmie, I hope you are well. - R

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/16629-rosetta-ct-may-2011-too-fast-taper-feb-2017/?page=25

2001-2011 Celexa 10 mg raised to 40 mg then 60 mg over this time period

May 2011 OB Doctor's Cold switch Celexa 60 mg to 10 mg Zoloft sertraline (baby born)

2012-2016 - Doctors raised dose of Zoloft up to 150 mg

2016 - Xanax prescribed - as needed - 0.5 mg about every 3 days (bad reaction)

2016 - Stopped Xanax

Late 2016- Began (too fast) taper of Zoloft

Early 2017 - Trazodone prescribed for bedtime (doseage unknown)

Feb 2017 - Completed taper/stopped Trazodone

Drug free since Feb 2017

2017 - Unisom otc very rarely for sleep

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Just thinking about you Carmie and wanted you to know...hope things are going ok and that you are enjoying your vacation! 💜

-Nardil 1976 < year, stopped. React to AD's. Klonopin .5BID 1990, 2.5mg til 2016

-Klonopin doubled Jan '16. Taper to 2.25mg May to Nov '16. Bad react to Lexapro, stop. React to Prevacid too, taper off. 

-November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. Jan '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from Feb to June '17,     

-20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25 to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day

-Clonazepam 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to end November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17

-Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg  5/18 off Amiloride d/t react. Clonaz compounded  

-4/27 '18 Viibryd 9.5mg, 6/11 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19 Viibryd 8.75mg, ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm, Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19

-July 6'19 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19, 

-7/27 Viibryd 8.5, 8/29 8.25, 10/24 8.0, 12/19 7.75, Feb '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21 5.5, 2/23 5.25

-1015 AM Viibryd, vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg,

  1115 3t fish oil+D 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230 Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B Vit  1/week,Reacted Mag prn

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On 8/10/2018 at 7:13 PM, Miracle123 said:

Hi Carmie, I hope you enjoy your holiday trip so much. i love beach and see sunset too with a lots of yummy foods and drinks. My country mostly at east part got a lots of beautiful islands and beach thats why i really enjoyed it. After your holiday , i hope you can continue to taper without too much trouble and getting to zero withdrawals. 

im sorry to over look the dated of April 18 and send it to you. i too enjoyed reading inside your thread. Take care and warmest hugs from me.🤗

 

Hi Miracle, 

 

Thanks so much for checking by. Yes, been having an amazing time at Surfers Paradise with friends. I don’t  have a lot of strength so I’ve had to rest a lot, but I’ve had the best time. One of my friends booked us into a fancy schmancy high rise. Sooo beautiful. You should see the pool area, it’s like paradise.

 

The outdoor pool is too cold to swim in at the moment, though there is a warm spa outside that I didn’t use. I went to the indoor heated pool. It was amazing. I helped young kids that were staying there to swim from one end of the pool to the other. I think the best thing one can do in this struggle with withdrawals is to help others. It really does help to get ourselves outside ourselves. I’m in a window but still have symptoms. 

 

We were on floor 33 n every morning I could see the beautiful sunrise. It was amazing!

 

Hope you’re doing okay Miracle, I’ll check in with you soon, Sending you hugs 🤗

 

 

On 8/11/2018 at 12:06 AM, direstraits said:

Hi @Carmie

hope you have a wonderful holiday at the beach,you so deserve it.

I love the beach,my favorite place to be.

I think my mom had narcissistic traits, was difficult to be around and like you said sucked the emotional energy out of me.

anyway,we can't choose our parents,unfortunately.

 

let us know how your trip goes xx

hugs,ds

 

 

Hi Direstraits, 

 

I’m so glad you love the beach too. It’s really extremely important to not forget about nature when you’re going through withdrawals. Best thing ever!!!!

 

Thanks for asking about my trip. It’s been amazing, pools, the beach, delicious food etc. Surfers Paradise here in Australia is a mecca for tourists n I thought it would be too touristy but I was terribly wrong. Even though there’s lot of tourists it’s so chill!  Looooovee the atmosphere. Its such a family atmosphere. My friends n I were in bed around 10pm though too😁.

 

Sending hugs to you🤗

 

 

 

 

 

 

On 8/12/2018 at 2:11 AM, Rosetta said:

Carmie, I hope you are well. - R

 

Hi Rosetta, 

 

Thanks for your kind words. Not doing too bad. Going to get my compounded formula in a week n I’m going to try n get myself steady in that first n then I’ll start tapering. Ahhh!!! The process of tapering is no fun, but that’s life. What can we do except to slowly keep moving forward💚

 

On 8/16/2018 at 10:02 AM, Rabe said:

Just thinking about you Carmie and wanted you to know...hope things are going ok and that you are enjoying your vacation! 💜

 

 

Hi Rabe, 

 

You are a sweetheart, thanks for checking in. Yes, I had an amazing time. I went on a boat to explore all the Gold Coast canals yesterday. I didn’t want it to end. I’m happiest when in nature. 

 

Sending you big hugs Rabe🤗🤗🤗

Been on APs, benzos, ADs and opiates, for chronic pain. Had Akathisia in the past that made me suicidal. Still on Seroquel. 2019:➡️ March10=7.25mg ✔️ April17=7.0✔️ June5=6.75✔️ July14=6.50✔️ Aug28=6.25✔️ Oct10=6.20  ✔️ Oct21=6.0✔️ Dec16=5.80 ✔️ 2020➡️ Jan 21=5.60 ✔️ April2=5.40 ✔️ May29=5.20 ✔️ Aug14= 5.0 ✔️Sep29=4.80✔️2021➡️ Jan31=4.60 mg✔️ April24=4.40mg✔️Jul17=4.30mg ✔️ Aug 28=4.20 ✔️ Oct 11=4.15✔️Nov1=4.10 ✔️ Nov21= 4.05✔️ Dec13= 4mg ✔️2022 ➡️ Jan8=3.95✔️ Jan31=3.90✔️ March2=3.85 ✔️ April4=3.80 ✔️ June16=3.75✔️ July26=3.70✔️ Sep2=3.65✔️ Oct21=3.60 ✔️ Dec8=3.55✔️2023➡️ Jan 26=3.50✔️ March 17=3.45✔️ June12=3.40✔️ July30=3.35✔️ Sep14=3.30✔️ Oct31=3.25✔️This is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor.

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