direstraits Posted June 23, 2019 Share Posted June 23, 2019 hope you had a great day at the beach! I'm jealous.š Ā glad you got to the movies and dinner,too. Ā we got out for dinner last night,too.had a nice healthy chickpea salad,was delicious. Ā hope your brain fog lifts soon. Ā love from ds.ā¤ļø went on Prozac 1994-99,60mg.poopout ctĀ back on 2001-2002,prozac weekly 2002,not working,Effexor 75 mg.?2003-mar.2004 gaining weight 8wk. taper,wellbutrin 150 mg.mar. -may 2004 ctmedfree til july 2005 back to Prozac gaining weight again,back on wellbutrin jan.2006150-300 mg.bad constipation.also was taking aygestin(hormone)perimenopausal irregular bleeding.back on Prozac around sept,?2006,hysterectomy jan30.2007(adenomyosis)off&on Prozac til 2009,citalopram about 1 mo, April 2010 no effect,Effexor again may -mar, 2011.ct,Prozac aug,-dec, 2011 &sept-nov 2012,paroxetine oct,23 2013-may 4 2014 20 mgs.tapered 6 wks.-failed RI in Oct.2014-in protracted WD.started 10 mgs. Fluoxetine May 25 2021 .Stopped fluoxetine May 2022 at 5 mgs. Link to comment
neroli Posted June 24, 2019 Share Posted June 24, 2019 Oh my, Carmie, you have had such a busy social time. Ā I'm pleased you were able to enjoy your trips out - amazes me everytime that you have such an ability to enjoy things. Ā I think anhedonia has stolen that from me. Ā You are doing so well, despite the brain fog and it's great that you come on here to post your gratitude lists. Ā love and best wishes Ā NeroliĀ š 2006Ā Citalopram 20mg on and off to 2013. Ā April 2013 - July 2014Ā Ā Sertraline, Venlafaxine, Fluoxetine, Mirtazapine v. bad reactions.Ā July 2014 - CT Mirtazapine. Ā July 2014 - February 2016 Medication free, long term w/d. Ā February - July 2016 Fluoxetine. Ā Medication free, long term w/d syndrome. Ā 2017 JanĀ physical breakdown. 2017Ā February - MarchĀ Escitalopram, Nortriptyline instated. Ā Lorazepam,Ā Zopiclone PRN. Ā April 2017 LithiumĀ Carbonate 250mg 1 wk.Ā 14 August 2017 finishĀ cross to Diazepam 22.5mg daily, stop Zopiclone Tapers: DiazepamĀ 2017Ā 21 August - 30 Dec 21.25mg to 14.5mgĀ 2018Ā 6 Jan -Ā 11 May to 12mg. Ā 2 June updose to 12.25mg - hold.Ā 2019Ā (0.5mg cuts) 12 Jan - 28 Dec 12mg to 10mgĀ 2020 (0.25mg cuts) -Ā 25 Jan - 29 Dec 9.75mg to 6.25mgĀ 2021 *May have bungled dose and accidentally took 1mg more for about a month (7.25mg), so 4 Jan started againĀ at 6.5mg; 19 Jan 6.25mg; 1 Feb 6.0mg; 23 Feb 5.75mg; 9 Mar 5.5mg; 23 Mar 5.25mg; 9 Apr 5.0mg; 6 May 4.75mg; 13 May 4.5mg; 6 Jun 4mg; 12 July 3.5mg; 2 sep 3.0mg; 15 Sep 2.5mg; 1 Nov 2mg; 15 Nov 1.5mg; 16 Dec 1mg; 26 Dec 0.5mg; 2022Ā 1 Jan - OFF EscitalopramĀ - 2022Ā 1 Mar to 9mg; 29 Mar 8mg; 24 May 7mg; 21 Jun 5mg; 19 Jul 4mg; 1 Sep 3mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 31 Oct 1.5mg; 22 Nov 0.5mg; 2023Ā 1 Jan 0.25mg; 1 Mar OFF NortriptylineĀ 2018Ā 90mg to 2020Ā 1 Dec down to 72.5mg; 2021 20 MayĀ 70mg; 8 Jun 67.5mg; 24 Jun 65mg; 31 July 60mg; 12 Oct 55mg; 23 Oct 50mg; 2022Ā 13 Jan 40mg; 22 Jan 30mg; 29 Mar 20mg; 26 Apr 10mg; 3 Aug 5mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 2023Ā 1 Jan - OFF Ā 1 March 2023Ā - off all drugs - 6-year taper off three drugs. Ā Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted June 27, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 27, 2019 Hi @direstraitsĀ @neroli Ā How are you guys doing today? Iām glad you enjoyed your yummy chickpea salad Direstraits.Ā Ā Neroli, the anhedonia has lifted a bit recently, but I make myself do things that I would normally enjoy even if I canāt enjoy them. Iām all for distracting myself.Ā Ā Okay, here goes my gratitude list for today: Ā 1. My feet are freezing so Iām going to put on a nice pair of warm socks.Ā š§¦š Ā 2. Iām switching on my heater now. Looove the glow of the heater.š„š„ Ā 3. Been stuck in bed today but had fun playing word games and watching YouTube videos.Ā Ā 4. Went for dinner the other night at a Thai restaurant. š²The food was so cheap and the portions were massive, and it was so delicious. Itās a shame the restaurant isnāt close by, because it would be cheaper to buy the meal at that restaurant than to buy all the ingredients and make it yourself. There was also a really cool Asian supermarket there. I was too braindead to look around, but if we ever go to that end of town again Iāll be doing some shopping there.Ā Ā 5. We had such a laugh at the restaurant. I went there with three friends. Two are from Poland and theyāre always asking me to correct their grammar. I feel like a teacher.šāļøš Ā As there was so much food I told one of my friends that they could ask for a doggy bag ( or is it doggie?š) .Ā They had never heard the expression before. When he went to ask for it he asked for a doggy dog!š¶š¶š¤£š¤£ We were all in stitches.Ā Ā 6. I actually got some ironing done this week. Yay! I very rarely iron, most of my clothes donāt need ironing. I feel like I have a new wardrobe now, usually those things that need ironing hardly get worn. šš Ā 7. Managed to do a bit of organising. Another yay! Ā 8. Finished another two diamond paintings, one of daffodils and one of a lady playing the violin on a keyboard next to the beach (very arty one). š»š¹š Ā 9. Been looking at lovely nature and animal pictures.š³š¼šæš»š¦š šš¦š¦ Ā 10. My friends checking in on me to see how Iām doing. Awww!! Ā Well, today is day 22 since dropping from 7mg to 6.75mg. Iāve been going through lots of waves this last week, including today, but my distractions keep me going.Ā Ā Take care šš Ā Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted June 28, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 28, 2019 Was just listening to Claire Weekes on YouTube. Boy, she has the most relaxing voice. Keep floating everyone!āļøāļøāļøš Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
neroli Posted June 28, 2019 Share Posted June 28, 2019 20 hours ago, Carmie said: Iāve been going through lots of waves this last week, including today, but my distractions keep me going.Ā Ā Ā You are such a trooper, Carmie. Ā Wishing you all the best for fewer waves. Ā NeroliĀ š 2006Ā Citalopram 20mg on and off to 2013. Ā April 2013 - July 2014Ā Ā Sertraline, Venlafaxine, Fluoxetine, Mirtazapine v. bad reactions.Ā July 2014 - CT Mirtazapine. Ā July 2014 - February 2016 Medication free, long term w/d. Ā February - July 2016 Fluoxetine. Ā Medication free, long term w/d syndrome. Ā 2017 JanĀ physical breakdown. 2017Ā February - MarchĀ Escitalopram, Nortriptyline instated. Ā Lorazepam,Ā Zopiclone PRN. Ā April 2017 LithiumĀ Carbonate 250mg 1 wk.Ā 14 August 2017 finishĀ cross to Diazepam 22.5mg daily, stop Zopiclone Tapers: DiazepamĀ 2017Ā 21 August - 30 Dec 21.25mg to 14.5mgĀ 2018Ā 6 Jan -Ā 11 May to 12mg. Ā 2 June updose to 12.25mg - hold.Ā 2019Ā (0.5mg cuts) 12 Jan - 28 Dec 12mg to 10mgĀ 2020 (0.25mg cuts) -Ā 25 Jan - 29 Dec 9.75mg to 6.25mgĀ 2021 *May have bungled dose and accidentally took 1mg more for about a month (7.25mg), so 4 Jan started againĀ at 6.5mg; 19 Jan 6.25mg; 1 Feb 6.0mg; 23 Feb 5.75mg; 9 Mar 5.5mg; 23 Mar 5.25mg; 9 Apr 5.0mg; 6 May 4.75mg; 13 May 4.5mg; 6 Jun 4mg; 12 July 3.5mg; 2 sep 3.0mg; 15 Sep 2.5mg; 1 Nov 2mg; 15 Nov 1.5mg; 16 Dec 1mg; 26 Dec 0.5mg; 2022Ā 1 Jan - OFF EscitalopramĀ - 2022Ā 1 Mar to 9mg; 29 Mar 8mg; 24 May 7mg; 21 Jun 5mg; 19 Jul 4mg; 1 Sep 3mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 31 Oct 1.5mg; 22 Nov 0.5mg; 2023Ā 1 Jan 0.25mg; 1 Mar OFF NortriptylineĀ 2018Ā 90mg to 2020Ā 1 Dec down to 72.5mg; 2021 20 MayĀ 70mg; 8 Jun 67.5mg; 24 Jun 65mg; 31 July 60mg; 12 Oct 55mg; 23 Oct 50mg; 2022Ā 13 Jan 40mg; 22 Jan 30mg; 29 Mar 20mg; 26 Apr 10mg; 3 Aug 5mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 2023Ā 1 Jan - OFF Ā 1 March 2023Ā - off all drugs - 6-year taper off three drugs. Ā Link to comment
JackieDecides Posted June 28, 2019 Share Posted June 28, 2019 8 hours ago, Carmie said: Was just listening to Claire Weekes on YouTube. Boy, she has the most relaxing voice. Keep floating everyone!āļøāļøāļøš Ā I need to try that.Ā sometimes I think I amĀ too thin to float, I am no longer buoyant!Ā Ā Ā Ā ā¹ļø Currently taking Ramapril (blood pressure) 5 mg twice a day Omeprazole 10 mg AM and 20 mg PMĀ (the taper has gone nowhere after the first cut) FamotidineĀ Ā once a day (and I still needs tums sometimes) magnesium 200 mg at night as of yesterday 2 fish oil capsules "EPA-DHA 1000" Ā off Lexapro as of 5/2018Ā - last dose had been 5 mg every other day for a couple years Ā highest dose had been 20 mg at which point I was diagnosed with Bipolar II, which went away when I cut the lexapro down to 15 mg.Ā Ā I spent years on Paxil before Lexapro (can't remember dose), briefly on Effexor and Abilify and others I have forgotten. in fact, when I was diagnoses with BPII I was put on all kinds of things which made me feel so bad I stopped them cold turkey within maybe 3 or 4 weeks, thank goodness. since then I've known these pills were terrible and I weaned down the Lexapro with zero help or support over I'm not sure how many years.Ā Ā Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted June 29, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 29, 2019 19 hours ago, neroli said: Ā Ā You are such a trooper, Carmie. Ā Wishing you all the best for fewer waves. Ā NeroliĀ š Ā 13 hours ago, JackieDecides said: Ā I need to try that.Ā sometimes I think I amĀ too thin to float, I am no longer buoyant!Ā Ā Ā Ā ā¹ļø Ā Hi guys,Ā Ā Thanks for dropping by. Still going through waves, but Iām continuing to float.āļøāļøāļøāļø I have such a restless energy from the waves soĀ I canāt focus on one thing forĀ too long, but I continue to distract myself. At the moment Iām going from watching YouTube videos to watching Far From The Madding Crowd on DVD. Iām struggling to focus too long on anything. I should finish the DVD by the end of the day.š¤£š¤£š¤£ Iāve watched it before.Ā Ā I canāt do too many crafts at the moment as my RSI has flared up a little bit, though I might be able to do a little bit of a diamond painting later on if I feel like it. Iāve got five there to do, I like to always have a few in stock. Ā CFS is bad today and Iām stuck in bed.Ā Ā Going to do my gratitude list now, but I think Iāll do five things Iām grateful for instead of ten, otherwise my whole thread will be just full of things Iām grateful forš. Anyway, here goes: Ā 1. I have a comfy bed, I love my fluffy cushion too.š 2. I had a delicious lunch.š„š 3. My friends keep contacting me.š 4. My bedroom is very cheery with all the artwork and happy things on the wall, including balloons.ššš 5. Iām always really grateful that whenever Iām in a wave, or waves that seem to go on forever,Ā they always eventually end and I stabilise again.šš« Ā Okay, I think itās back to the DVD now. I love my period dramas.Ā Ā Sending hugsš¤ Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
neroli Posted June 29, 2019 Share Posted June 29, 2019 Hello Carmie Ā It's good to hear that whenever you have waves, they eventually end and you stabilise - I can only wish that this happens sooner rather than later for you. Ā I think you are amazing for being able to visit your thread and post what's happening for you as well as your gratitude list. Ā It must take quite a bit of energy do that with the wave and CFS to contend with. Ā Sorry to hear that you aren't able to do your crafts so much at the moment, I hope you will be able to do your diamond paintings. Ā It sounds like you have a good stock of distractions and I do hope they help you with the restlessness. Ā Thinking of you as you go through this period of extra discomfort (too mild a word?) - one moment at a time, tough to do at times, even for a seasoned professional like you, so I wish you the best for your return to WD normal. Ā love Ā NeroliĀ š 2006Ā Citalopram 20mg on and off to 2013. Ā April 2013 - July 2014Ā Ā Sertraline, Venlafaxine, Fluoxetine, Mirtazapine v. bad reactions.Ā July 2014 - CT Mirtazapine. Ā July 2014 - February 2016 Medication free, long term w/d. Ā February - July 2016 Fluoxetine. Ā Medication free, long term w/d syndrome. Ā 2017 JanĀ physical breakdown. 2017Ā February - MarchĀ Escitalopram, Nortriptyline instated. Ā Lorazepam,Ā Zopiclone PRN. Ā April 2017 LithiumĀ Carbonate 250mg 1 wk.Ā 14 August 2017 finishĀ cross to Diazepam 22.5mg daily, stop Zopiclone Tapers: DiazepamĀ 2017Ā 21 August - 30 Dec 21.25mg to 14.5mgĀ 2018Ā 6 Jan -Ā 11 May to 12mg. Ā 2 June updose to 12.25mg - hold.Ā 2019Ā (0.5mg cuts) 12 Jan - 28 Dec 12mg to 10mgĀ 2020 (0.25mg cuts) -Ā 25 Jan - 29 Dec 9.75mg to 6.25mgĀ 2021 *May have bungled dose and accidentally took 1mg more for about a month (7.25mg), so 4 Jan started againĀ at 6.5mg; 19 Jan 6.25mg; 1 Feb 6.0mg; 23 Feb 5.75mg; 9 Mar 5.5mg; 23 Mar 5.25mg; 9 Apr 5.0mg; 6 May 4.75mg; 13 May 4.5mg; 6 Jun 4mg; 12 July 3.5mg; 2 sep 3.0mg; 15 Sep 2.5mg; 1 Nov 2mg; 15 Nov 1.5mg; 16 Dec 1mg; 26 Dec 0.5mg; 2022Ā 1 Jan - OFF EscitalopramĀ - 2022Ā 1 Mar to 9mg; 29 Mar 8mg; 24 May 7mg; 21 Jun 5mg; 19 Jul 4mg; 1 Sep 3mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 31 Oct 1.5mg; 22 Nov 0.5mg; 2023Ā 1 Jan 0.25mg; 1 Mar OFF NortriptylineĀ 2018Ā 90mg to 2020Ā 1 Dec down to 72.5mg; 2021 20 MayĀ 70mg; 8 Jun 67.5mg; 24 Jun 65mg; 31 July 60mg; 12 Oct 55mg; 23 Oct 50mg; 2022Ā 13 Jan 40mg; 22 Jan 30mg; 29 Mar 20mg; 26 Apr 10mg; 3 Aug 5mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 2023Ā 1 Jan - OFF Ā 1 March 2023Ā - off all drugs - 6-year taper off three drugs. Ā Link to comment
Moderator hayduke Posted June 29, 2019 Moderator Share Posted June 29, 2019 You really seem to have the self-care thing going on in spades Carmie, a great example! Ā I struggle with fatigue from the olanzapine.Ā At first it was just excessive sleep, but after this many years and in the withdrawals it's become a considerable side effect along with demotivation (ironic in a drug they give you so you can 'get back to work'). Ā I was wondering if you were experiencing CFS before you were given these drugs, or whether it's more that the drugs induced it?Ā Ā I'd like to think we'll get restored energy levels back at some stage! Ā Hope your weekend is relaxing and pleasant Ā Cheers Ā PS yes Claire Weekes' voice is beaut, you don't hear that old school accent much these days.Ā Makes me think of being quite young and out in the country :-) I am not a health professional - your actions are your own. Ā Please do not seek tapering support via private messageĀ - "Any reason to hold is a good one" My taper visualised as a graph Ā | Ā My intro thread Backdrop:Ā 2003 10mg olanzapine | 2004 2-3mg risperidone | endĀ 2014Ā 3wks aripiprazole 2015:Ā olanzapineĀ 10 -> 7Ā½ -> 6ā -> 5mg Ā by crude pill cutter 2018: Ā Mar 5.00mg -> water titrated taper -> Aug2.5mg tablet and hold Jan 2019 2.50mg water titration ->Ā Jan 2020 1.214 Ā -> Jan 2021Ā 0.44 ->Ā 2 OctĀ 0.205Ā ->3 OctĀ ZEROš„ Jun 2023Ā š150mgĀ paliperidone "loading" depot shot, 100mg 1wk afterĀ JulĀ 100mg Aug-DecĀ 75mg/4wks Jul 2023Ā 2.50mg aripiprazole/day attempt to lower prolactin^ Jan-Feb 2024Ā cross taper off shots to 1mg risperidone Ā Ask not what you can do for your country, but what your country did to you"Ā -- KMFDM Link to comment
Bee5 Posted June 29, 2019 Share Posted June 29, 2019 I'm sorry that along with withdrawal, you have to deal with CFS and RSI. Thinking of you. 7 months of prescribed polypharmacy in 2015-2016, including severalĀ classes of psych meds. 1st attempt at taper was too fast. 2ndĀ attempt is underway. 1 MarĀ 2018: 37.5 mg paroxetine, 150 mg lamotrigine, 300 mg quetiapine 1 Oct 2020:Ā 30 mgĀ paroxetine, 150 mg lamotrigine, 37.5 mg quetiapine 15 May 2022: 25 mg paroxetine, 150 mg lamotrigine, 0 mg quetiapine 11 Jan 2024: 20 mg paroxetine, 118.75 mg lamotrigineĀ Supplements: Iron, Vit D magnesium glycinate, omega 3 I am not a medical professional. All my posts are my opinions only, based on my experiences. Ā Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted June 30, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 30, 2019 Hi there @neroliĀ Ā @haydukeĀ Ā @Bee5 Ā How are you all doing today? Hope youāve got lots of distractions to get you all through another day. It looks like itās another day in bed for me, though I have a tiny bit more strength today, so Iāll be getting up every now and again to do some housework. Iāve been watching videos this morning already, and have cleaned the kitchen. šŗš§½ I just have to still mop the floor when I get my next tiny spurt of energy.š§¹š¦Ā Ā Yes, Neroli, itās great knowing that when going through waves I always end up stabilising again. There is always light at the end of each dark tunnel.āØāØāØāØāØ I didnāt end up doing a diamond painting yesterday, I played word games instead. Love word games, before I know it hours have flown by which is fabulous when going through waves.šš Ā My RSI plays up when I use my wrists too much, and I was doing diamond paintingsš¼ non stop for days to help me get through the waves, thusĀ the flare up.Ā As long as I donāt do things non stop my wrists seem to be okay, itās only when I overdo it.Ā Ā Hayduke, self care is definitely a must. Itās the only way to help us to keep coping. Iāve had chronic fatigue syndrome for nearly 25 years, the meds didnāt cause it. I wasnāt on any meds back then. There have been people though that ended up getting CFS because of these meds, like Catherine from intothewoods if you want to check out her thread.Ā Ā CFS is a CNS illness, so because these meds muck up our CNS they can cause CFS. I donāt have a hope of even recovering from this illness until Iām off the meds, but Iāve got at least ten years of tapering to go because I can only taper by small amounts. I only learnt in the last few years that CFS is a central nervous system illness, due to research by different ones, so dampening down the nervous system is how one recovers from it. Iāve read lots of recovery stories too.Ā Ā Youāre right there about Claire Weekesā old school accent. I love it! So soothing! Ā Bee, thanks for your kind words. Iām doing okay, just taking an hour at a time. Ā Okay, my gratitude list for today: 1. I have a little bit of strength so I can do some housework. Yay!š§½š§¹š§ŗ 2. Iām cozy in my bedroom with the heater on, and IĀ enjoyed watching short videos this morning.Ā 3. Iām having a lovely cup of peppermint tea in my cute gold and white striped cup that I got from Kikki K. 4. I have plenty of food.ššš„šš„š„¬š„š 5. I have plenty of books to read when my brain fog isnāt too bad, including two John Grisham novels I havenāt read as yet. Love John Grisham, such a great writer.š Ā Sending hugs to you allš¤ Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Bee5 Posted June 30, 2019 Share Posted June 30, 2019 Good to see you back on SA. Just keep doing everything in moderation.Ā Ā 7 months of prescribed polypharmacy in 2015-2016, including severalĀ classes of psych meds. 1st attempt at taper was too fast. 2ndĀ attempt is underway. 1 MarĀ 2018: 37.5 mg paroxetine, 150 mg lamotrigine, 300 mg quetiapine 1 Oct 2020:Ā 30 mgĀ paroxetine, 150 mg lamotrigine, 37.5 mg quetiapine 15 May 2022: 25 mg paroxetine, 150 mg lamotrigine, 0 mg quetiapine 11 Jan 2024: 20 mg paroxetine, 118.75 mg lamotrigineĀ Supplements: Iron, Vit D magnesium glycinate, omega 3 I am not a medical professional. All my posts are my opinions only, based on my experiences. Ā Link to comment
DMV64 Posted June 30, 2019 Share Posted June 30, 2019 12 hours ago, Carmie said: Okay, my gratitude list for today: I am reading your post and I love this part so much. You have a great attitude, I really admire you. ā¤ļø I wish I could fine things I am interested in. It just doesn't seem to be there for me now. 2001- Klonopin 0.125 mg.Ā 2011- increase to 1 mg.Ā 2018- increase to 1.5 mg. Taper 2023-2024. Taper complete! 2010- Trials of SSRI's, several. 2011- Saphris 5 mg. CT. 6/2017- retry Saphris 5 mg sublingual, begin taper August 2020Ā 10%Ā taper with scale, and final taper liquid sublingual, August 2019- taper complete! 2011- Geodon 20 mg. Begin taper Sept 2019. 10% liquid taper.Ā 2020: December-5 mg. 2021: Jan-4.5mg. (held Feb.forĀ vacation). March-4mg. Apr-3.6mg. May-3.2mg. June-2.8mg. (Held July for vacation). Aug-2.4mg. Sept.- 2.2mg. Oct. 2mg. Dec 2022 - Taper complete! 2011- Gabapentin 300 mg to present- 2020. Increase 2023 to 400mg. 2014- Vyvanse 20 mg, 2020- Vyvanse 5 mg. Increase August 2022 20mg. CT (unavailable) 4/2023 2016- Lithium 300 mg, June 2016 - FT. 2017- Cogentin 0.5 mg. June-August 2019- off Cogentin. 2018- Lamictal 300mg. Holding 2021 - Hydroxyzine 30mg. Holding. 2014 Omeprazole 20 mg and holding, Omega 3's/fish oil, Magnesium Ā Link to comment
Rabe Posted July 1, 2019 Share Posted July 1, 2019 Thinking about you lots Carmie...sounds like things are moving along ok...could you start a 'home' for all of us to be together and distract, do emojis, have concerts, and go to outings at the beach??? Ā Take care of you!!! Ā š -Nardil 1976 <Ā year,Ā stopped. ReactĀ to AD's. Klonopin .5BIDĀ 1990, 2.5mgĀ til 2016 -Klonopin doubledĀ Jan '16.Ā TaperĀ to 2.25mg May to Nov '16.Ā Bad react toĀ Lexapro, stop. ReactĀ to Prevacid too, taperĀ off.Ā -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. JanĀ '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from FebĀ to JuneĀ '17,Ā Ā Ā Ā -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25Ā to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -ClonazepamĀ 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to endĀ November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg Ā 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react.Ā Clonaz compoundedĀ Ā -4/27 '18 ViibrydĀ 9.5mg, 6/11Ā 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19Ā Viibryd 8.75mg,Ā ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm,Ā Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19Ā 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19,Ā -7/27Ā Viibryd 8.5, 8/29Ā 8.25, 10/24Ā 8.0, 12/19Ā 7.75,Ā FebĀ '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21Ā 5.5, 2/23Ā 5.25 -1015Ā AM Viibryd,Ā vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, Ā 1115Ā 3t fish oil+DĀ 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230Ā Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B VitĀ Ā 1/week,Reacted MagĀ prn Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted July 1, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 1, 2019 (edited) Hi @DMV64Ā @Bee5Ā @Rabe Thanks for dropping by. Brain fog is bad today so I canāt interact or read a lot today, but I thought Iād just write down my gratitude list for today. Here goes again:Ā Ā 1. Some friends invited me to go to the beach with them yesterday.šš I was too sick, but it was so heartwarming to be invited 2. Iāve been watching Gilmore Girls. My favourite series ever!šŗš 3. Watched a movie on Netflix last night which I enjoyed, though I canāt remember the name of it at the moment. 4. I received another diamond painting in the mail today of a beautiful beach scene. Canāt wait to do it. I started on a diamond painting of a lighthouse last night.āØāØ 5. Had a delicious omelette and salad for lunch. š³š„ 6. Iām so grateful for my friends. If I ever need anything they would be here at a moments notice.š©š½š©āš¦± 7. As usual, I looove my bedroom. I spend a lot of time in my bedroom due to CFS, but Iāve made it into the cheeriest place ever! 8. I made a collage of some photos I took of birds, flowers and water.š¦š¼š¦ 9. I managed to do a tiny bit of housework. 10. The sun was shining today.āļøāļøāļø Iām a massive fan of rain too though š¦š¦š¦āļø Ā Okay, I think itās soooooooo important to still focus on the things we are grateful for. Withdrawals really are the worst thing Iāve ever gone through in my life, but Iām not putting my life on hold. Iāve got at least ten years of tapering to go and Iām adamant that Iām still going to have a life during that time. If I only thought about the pain Iām suffering I might as well give up right now, but Iām not going to do that.Ā Ā Hang Ā in there everyone and please continue to look at the blessings despite the pain weāre going through.Ā Ā SendingĀ Ā hugs to all š¤š¤š¤ššš Ā Edited July 1, 2019 by Carmie Addition Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted July 1, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 1, 2019 P.s. Itās nearly time for beddyĀ byes now and my brain fog is still as thick as ever but I just wanted to say hang in there everyone! This is quite a fight we are all in, a fight for our lives really.Ā Ā I find just taking an hour an hour at a time is theĀ best thing to do, a minute at a time if need be.Ā Ā I have to runĀ an important errand tomorrow,Ā but I barely have any strength due to my illness, plus waves this week make everything hard. Iām not going to worry about that now. Tomorrow is another day.Ā Ā Hereās to living in the moment and making the best of it.š Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator hayduke Posted July 1, 2019 Moderator Share Posted July 1, 2019 Thanks for the CFS info Carmie, I'll look up intothewoods.Ā I've been finding restorative yoga incredibly good for giving my nervous system a break. Ā Good on you and rest well Ā Cheers, Hayduke I am not a health professional - your actions are your own. Ā Please do not seek tapering support via private messageĀ - "Any reason to hold is a good one" My taper visualised as a graph Ā | Ā My intro thread Backdrop:Ā 2003 10mg olanzapine | 2004 2-3mg risperidone | endĀ 2014Ā 3wks aripiprazole 2015:Ā olanzapineĀ 10 -> 7Ā½ -> 6ā -> 5mg Ā by crude pill cutter 2018: Ā Mar 5.00mg -> water titrated taper -> Aug2.5mg tablet and hold Jan 2019 2.50mg water titration ->Ā Jan 2020 1.214 Ā -> Jan 2021Ā 0.44 ->Ā 2 OctĀ 0.205Ā ->3 OctĀ ZEROš„ Jun 2023Ā š150mgĀ paliperidone "loading" depot shot, 100mg 1wk afterĀ JulĀ 100mg Aug-DecĀ 75mg/4wks Jul 2023Ā 2.50mg aripiprazole/day attempt to lower prolactin^ Jan-Feb 2024Ā cross taper off shots to 1mg risperidone Ā Ask not what you can do for your country, but what your country did to you"Ā -- KMFDM Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted July 2, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 2, 2019 Hi @hayduke Ā Hope youāre coping okay today. Actually there was someone else on here as well that got CFS fromĀ the meds, but I canāt remember who it was.Ā Iāve had it for so long, itās just part of my life. I canāt remember what itās like to feel well. Iām fortunate Iām positive by nature, otherwise it would have really gotten me down. I still get out and about and do things, but I spend a lot of time in bed too. My bedroom is very cheery though. I try and do the best I can in whatever situation Iām in. āļøāļø Ā I managed to run the errand I needed to run today, didnāt know if I would have the strength but I did it. Yay!š Ā Brain fog is bad still and Iām struggling to read anything, just part of my illness. Everything around me has felt surreal for the last twenty five years, but again Iāve learnt to live with that too.Ā Ā I woke up in a window this morning, but the waves have come again. My little brain is trying hard again to find some kind of equilibrium after the last taper. I always eventually stabilise again, and itās on to the next taper.Ā Ā Okay, Iām going to do something cheery now, maybe watch some favourite DVDs.Ā Ā Sendng hugsš¤ Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator hayduke Posted July 2, 2019 Moderator Share Posted July 2, 2019 Thanks Carmie.Ā I don't know if I have CFS as such but I'm sure the neuroleptics have wiped out a lot of energy I should otherwise have. Ā Your good cheer in the face of this and the wds is inspiring and it's great to see you find so many ways to enjoy yourself! Ā Today was ok, thanks.Ā I work part time and I like the people and the work, but it's pretty high powered stuff - most days I walk out of there feeling tired but brain slightly fritzed, today was one of those.Ā I nearly just crashed out when I got home but got out to restorative yoga which is always a huge help for anti-brain-frizz.Ā It's much less physically demanding than most types of yoga, you spend extended periods just resting and relaxing in various poses on comfy props and let the autonomous nervous system take over so its counterpart can rest.Ā I couldn't believe when I discovered this, like a missing piece suddenly showing up in my life šĀ Modern western society really thrashes our nervous systems, and coupled with the increased CNS sensitivity from my wds and past trauma setting off fight-or-flight way too often (that and anxiety are getting a lot better now after EMDR this year) this is one of the few reliable antidotes I've found. Ā Glad you were able to do your errand.Ā I'm learning to pace myself with the energy I do have.Ā It's frustrating and feels a bit crap when I have to stop before say having the whole house clean, but I know I'll do better to come back to it recharged.Ā I don't have the same capacity for exercise as before the WDs but am staying moderately active and am hoping that full strength will return later. Ā Hope your telly's good tonight - I'm really enjoying Star Trek Discovery, and have dug out Airwolf for some cheesy high-budget 80s fun š Ā *hugs* Ā I am not a health professional - your actions are your own. Ā Please do not seek tapering support via private messageĀ - "Any reason to hold is a good one" My taper visualised as a graph Ā | Ā My intro thread Backdrop:Ā 2003 10mg olanzapine | 2004 2-3mg risperidone | endĀ 2014Ā 3wks aripiprazole 2015:Ā olanzapineĀ 10 -> 7Ā½ -> 6ā -> 5mg Ā by crude pill cutter 2018: Ā Mar 5.00mg -> water titrated taper -> Aug2.5mg tablet and hold Jan 2019 2.50mg water titration ->Ā Jan 2020 1.214 Ā -> Jan 2021Ā 0.44 ->Ā 2 OctĀ 0.205Ā ->3 OctĀ ZEROš„ Jun 2023Ā š150mgĀ paliperidone "loading" depot shot, 100mg 1wk afterĀ JulĀ 100mg Aug-DecĀ 75mg/4wks Jul 2023Ā 2.50mg aripiprazole/day attempt to lower prolactin^ Jan-Feb 2024Ā cross taper off shots to 1mg risperidone Ā Ask not what you can do for your country, but what your country did to you"Ā -- KMFDM Link to comment
neroli Posted July 2, 2019 Share Posted July 2, 2019 Hello Carmie Ā I'm so sorry to hear that you have such debilitating waves, it must be so difficult for you. Ā Hoping that you get that stabilisation soon. Ā NeroliĀ š 2006Ā Citalopram 20mg on and off to 2013. Ā April 2013 - July 2014Ā Ā Sertraline, Venlafaxine, Fluoxetine, Mirtazapine v. bad reactions.Ā July 2014 - CT Mirtazapine. Ā July 2014 - February 2016 Medication free, long term w/d. Ā February - July 2016 Fluoxetine. Ā Medication free, long term w/d syndrome. Ā 2017 JanĀ physical breakdown. 2017Ā February - MarchĀ Escitalopram, Nortriptyline instated. Ā Lorazepam,Ā Zopiclone PRN. Ā April 2017 LithiumĀ Carbonate 250mg 1 wk.Ā 14 August 2017 finishĀ cross to Diazepam 22.5mg daily, stop Zopiclone Tapers: DiazepamĀ 2017Ā 21 August - 30 Dec 21.25mg to 14.5mgĀ 2018Ā 6 Jan -Ā 11 May to 12mg. Ā 2 June updose to 12.25mg - hold.Ā 2019Ā (0.5mg cuts) 12 Jan - 28 Dec 12mg to 10mgĀ 2020 (0.25mg cuts) -Ā 25 Jan - 29 Dec 9.75mg to 6.25mgĀ 2021 *May have bungled dose and accidentally took 1mg more for about a month (7.25mg), so 4 Jan started againĀ at 6.5mg; 19 Jan 6.25mg; 1 Feb 6.0mg; 23 Feb 5.75mg; 9 Mar 5.5mg; 23 Mar 5.25mg; 9 Apr 5.0mg; 6 May 4.75mg; 13 May 4.5mg; 6 Jun 4mg; 12 July 3.5mg; 2 sep 3.0mg; 15 Sep 2.5mg; 1 Nov 2mg; 15 Nov 1.5mg; 16 Dec 1mg; 26 Dec 0.5mg; 2022Ā 1 Jan - OFF EscitalopramĀ - 2022Ā 1 Mar to 9mg; 29 Mar 8mg; 24 May 7mg; 21 Jun 5mg; 19 Jul 4mg; 1 Sep 3mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 31 Oct 1.5mg; 22 Nov 0.5mg; 2023Ā 1 Jan 0.25mg; 1 Mar OFF NortriptylineĀ 2018Ā 90mg to 2020Ā 1 Dec down to 72.5mg; 2021 20 MayĀ 70mg; 8 Jun 67.5mg; 24 Jun 65mg; 31 July 60mg; 12 Oct 55mg; 23 Oct 50mg; 2022Ā 13 Jan 40mg; 22 Jan 30mg; 29 Mar 20mg; 26 Apr 10mg; 3 Aug 5mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 2023Ā 1 Jan - OFF Ā 1 March 2023Ā - off all drugs - 6-year taper off three drugs. Ā Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted July 2, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 2, 2019 19 hours ago, Carmie said: I try and do the best I can in whatever situation Iām in. āļøāļø Ā You are a powerhouse, Carmie, and an inspiration! Gridley Introduction Ā LexaproĀ 20 mgĀ since 2004. Ā Begin Brassmonkey Slide TaperĀ Jan. 2017. Ā Ā End 2017Ā year 1 of taper at 9.25mgĀ EndĀ 2018 year 2 of taperĀ atĀ 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taperĀ at 1.0mgĀ Ā Oct. 30, 2020 Ā Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Ā Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10Ā month taper is 100%Ā complete. Ā Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mgĀ 1986-2020, twoĀ CT's and reinstatements Nov.Ā 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover toĀ 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, beginĀ 10%/4 weekĀ taper of 18.75mg ValiumĀ End 2021 Ā year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mgĀ EndĀ 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95%Ā complete. Ā ImipramineĀ 75 mg daily since 1986. Ā Jan.-Sept. 2016 taperedĀ to 14.4mg Ā March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Ā Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Ā Ā Ā Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate,Ā probiotics, zinc,Ā melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professionalĀ and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Miracle123 Posted July 3, 2019 Share Posted July 3, 2019 Hi Carmie,Ā How are you? Im quite some time seldom coming into SA but will occasional looking into it. Thanks for your warm and sweet message into my thread. Im really appreciated so much.Ā You are such a great person with a lots positive energy to keep going and faced it strong. You areĀ my inspiration too.Ā Keep going and keep it up, my sweetheart. Hope your taperingĀ always going smooth and wishing you all the best in your journey. A lots love and hugs.ā¤ļøš¤ Mid December 16 lorezapam 1mg and lexapro 5mg Early April17 updosed lorezapam 2mg, mid Apr17 taper 1.5mg, mid May17-1.25mg, early Jun17- 1mg, mid Jun17-0.75mg, mid July17-0.5mg, End July 17 reduce from 0.4mg, 0.3mg,0.2mg until 0.1mg.lorezapam free on 9 August 2017. Early Mar17 updosed to Lexapro 10mg , end Mar17 reduced 7.5mg, mid May17 reduced 0.5mg, End Aug17 reduced 2.5mg, early Sep17 -1.5mg, Mid Sept-1mg, End Sept - 0.5mg .lexapro free on 26 September 2017 Ā Supplement- omega fish oil and magnesium citrate only. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted July 3, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 3, 2019 Hi @haydukeĀ @neroliĀ @GridleyĀ @Miracle123 Ā Thank you all so so much for dropping by. Iāve been in bed for most of the day, but thatās due to my illness. Iām in fairly good spirits, keeping myself entertained. Iām still going through lots of waves, itās exactly four weeks since I tapered from 7mg to 6.75mg.Ā Ā Hayduke, How did you find the EMDR? Iāve always found that FasterEFT has been the best thing to help me deal with trauma. TheĀ last year though I canāt seem to motivate myself to do it regularly, even though I know itās the best thing ever for me. Iām going through soooo much stress, the cause ofĀ which I wonāt be mentioning on here, and I know it can really help me as itās helped me so much in the past. I keep procrastinating, it has to stop!Ā Ā Neroli, Thank you for your kind words. I always eventually stabilise. Itās been a month since my last taper and I hope I feel a bit better next week as I really, really, really want to go with friends to Australia Zoo. I love it there. Itās not just the withdrawals though, Iām struggling to do much at the moment due to my illness.Ā Ā Gridley, you are such a kind soul. When you mention Equador I can see such beautiful images in my head. A friend of mine went to Equador recently for a big international Bible Convention we had there and the photos were amazing! Everyone was in such beautiful colourful clothing. I would have absolutely loved being there. Iād also love to see the mountains where you live and the donkeys and the dogs. Ā Miracle, Thanks so much for popping by. Iāve missed you on this site. Your beautiful positive posts were always an inspiration to me. Iām sooo glad youāre able to live more of a normal life now. One day you will be 100% recovered and I canāt wait to read your success story.Ā Ā Sending much love to all of youššššššš Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Rabe Posted July 3, 2019 Share Posted July 3, 2019 Hi Carmie....so sorry about the CFS and the waves...but glad to hear you are resting and taking good care of yourself. Ā I so hope you feel better soon! Ā Love and hugs to you Carmie!!š -Nardil 1976 <Ā year,Ā stopped. ReactĀ to AD's. Klonopin .5BIDĀ 1990, 2.5mgĀ til 2016 -Klonopin doubledĀ Jan '16.Ā TaperĀ to 2.25mg May to Nov '16.Ā Bad react toĀ Lexapro, stop. ReactĀ to Prevacid too, taperĀ off.Ā -November '16 Tapered .25mg Klonopin in hospital. JanĀ '17 started Viibryd, 20mg from FebĀ to JuneĀ '17,Ā Ā Ā Ā -20mg to 10mg Viibryd from 3/25Ā to 6/10 2017, 12/15 10% Viibryd taper...back up next day -ClonazepamĀ 2mg to 1.85mg 4/14 '17 to endĀ November; taper to 1mg Clonazepam in hospital 9/1 tp 9/14 '17 -Feb '18 Amiloride .25mg Ā 5/18 off Amiloride d/t react.Ā Clonaz compoundedĀ Ā -4/27 '18 ViibrydĀ 9.5mg, 6/11Ā 9.0 mg, 1/27 '19Ā Viibryd 8.75mg,Ā ; Clonazepam .2mg 530pm and .7mg 1130pm,Ā Premarin .3mg 830PM CARAFATE QID 2/27/19 to 3/5/19 -July 6'19Ā 1/2 10mg Claritin 230pm, stopped it about July 18, started Oct 11 '19,Ā -7/27Ā Viibryd 8.5, 8/29Ā 8.25, 10/24Ā 8.0, 12/19Ā 7.75,Ā FebĀ '20 7.50, 3/20 7.25, 5/20 7.0, 6/20 6.75, 7/20 6.5, 8/20 6.25, 10/2 20 6.0, 11/25'20 5.75, 1/9/21Ā 5.5, 2/23Ā 5.25 -1015Ā AM Viibryd,Ā vit D 4,000IU 130, 415 Clonazepam .2mg, 815 Premarin .3mg, 1015 Clonaz .7mg, Ā 1115Ā 3t fish oil+DĀ 1145 Castor Oil 650mg(4) 1230Ā Carafate 1/2GM,Methylated B VitĀ Ā 1/week,Reacted MagĀ prn Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted July 3, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 3, 2019 Good morning from Aussie Land @Rabe Ā How are you doing today?Ā Well today is day 29 since my last taper from 7mg to 6.75mg. IāmĀ still going through windows and waves. Iām not sure how long it will take to stabilise this time but last time it took 48 days.Ā Ā Here are a few positives for the day, even though the day hasnāt hardly started:Ā 1. I slept well. š“š“ 2. Itās nice waking up in a cheery bedroom. I woke up feeling awful, but my cheery bedroom is good for the soul.āļøāļø 3. A friend asked me to go for a drive on Sunday. Iām not sure if Iāll be well enough, but itās nice to be asked. šš 4. The internet is a fabulous distraction when going through waves. I particularly like YouTube as there are videos on pretty much any subject.Ā 5. My pajamas are comfy. 6. Electricity. How cool is electricity! Sometimes we can take things for granted. I just switched on the light and I switched on the heater when I first woke up. Yes, it really is amazing what we take for granted.š”š” 7. On that note, itās cool to have running water too. When I have the strength later on Iāll have a nice shower.šæšæ 8. The fact I can read, which is another cool thing. So grateful Iām literate. šš 9. Iāve got yummy food in the fridge. Iām a big fan of salads.š„š„ 10. Iāve got lots of distractions today to help me get through the day. Now, where to start.š¤ Ā Sending hugsš¤ Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted July 4, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 4, 2019 If you need a laugh despite what youāre going through check out the YouTube video entitled: ā How to be a psychiatrist - 9 years of education in 9 minutes.āĀ Itās about right! Sad thing itās not really a laughing matter, as we are all going through so much suffering because of it.Ā Ā Petunia posted it on this site. Ā Sending hugsš¤ Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Tom37 Posted July 4, 2019 Share Posted July 4, 2019 I wonāt look up your video as that will probably upset me but I do love how you find happiness in such simple everyday things. I love a good shower even more so during wd apart from when in a wave as nothing seems to make you feel any better.Ā Sounds sad but a shower then into bed with fresh sheets itās a great way to end a day. Ā As for electricity you probably need yours to turn your air conditioner on unlikeĀ us in NZ when itās finallyĀ got cold. Ā Enjoy your evening and hopefully Sunday comes and your good to go. 20mg Lexapro 2007 10mg Lexapro 2012 Started tapering approx (October 2017)Ā 12 months ago Ā from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3. Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction. Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov)Ā after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October. Back to 4mg (7th November)Ā and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 2018 Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov. Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November 2018 Link to comment
neroli Posted July 5, 2019 Share Posted July 5, 2019 Hello Carmie Ā I've seen that video - I like manyĀ of Daniel Mackler's opinions in his videos. Ā He also filmed a group meeting about coming off psych. drugs - Laura Delano and Will Hall are in it too. Ā Just in case you're interested:Ā Ā Ā Hope you're doing ok. Ā NeroliĀ š 2006Ā Citalopram 20mg on and off to 2013. Ā April 2013 - July 2014Ā Ā Sertraline, Venlafaxine, Fluoxetine, Mirtazapine v. bad reactions.Ā July 2014 - CT Mirtazapine. Ā July 2014 - February 2016 Medication free, long term w/d. Ā February - July 2016 Fluoxetine. Ā Medication free, long term w/d syndrome. Ā 2017 JanĀ physical breakdown. 2017Ā February - MarchĀ Escitalopram, Nortriptyline instated. Ā Lorazepam,Ā Zopiclone PRN. Ā April 2017 LithiumĀ Carbonate 250mg 1 wk.Ā 14 August 2017 finishĀ cross to Diazepam 22.5mg daily, stop Zopiclone Tapers: DiazepamĀ 2017Ā 21 August - 30 Dec 21.25mg to 14.5mgĀ 2018Ā 6 Jan -Ā 11 May to 12mg. Ā 2 June updose to 12.25mg - hold.Ā 2019Ā (0.5mg cuts) 12 Jan - 28 Dec 12mg to 10mgĀ 2020 (0.25mg cuts) -Ā 25 Jan - 29 Dec 9.75mg to 6.25mgĀ 2021 *May have bungled dose and accidentally took 1mg more for about a month (7.25mg), so 4 Jan started againĀ at 6.5mg; 19 Jan 6.25mg; 1 Feb 6.0mg; 23 Feb 5.75mg; 9 Mar 5.5mg; 23 Mar 5.25mg; 9 Apr 5.0mg; 6 May 4.75mg; 13 May 4.5mg; 6 Jun 4mg; 12 July 3.5mg; 2 sep 3.0mg; 15 Sep 2.5mg; 1 Nov 2mg; 15 Nov 1.5mg; 16 Dec 1mg; 26 Dec 0.5mg; 2022Ā 1 Jan - OFF EscitalopramĀ - 2022Ā 1 Mar to 9mg; 29 Mar 8mg; 24 May 7mg; 21 Jun 5mg; 19 Jul 4mg; 1 Sep 3mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 31 Oct 1.5mg; 22 Nov 0.5mg; 2023Ā 1 Jan 0.25mg; 1 Mar OFF NortriptylineĀ 2018Ā 90mg to 2020Ā 1 Dec down to 72.5mg; 2021 20 MayĀ 70mg; 8 Jun 67.5mg; 24 Jun 65mg; 31 July 60mg; 12 Oct 55mg; 23 Oct 50mg; 2022Ā 13 Jan 40mg; 22 Jan 30mg; 29 Mar 20mg; 26 Apr 10mg; 3 Aug 5mg; 23 Sep 2.5mg; 2023Ā 1 Jan - OFF Ā 1 March 2023Ā - off all drugs - 6-year taper off three drugs. Ā Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted July 5, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 5, 2019 Hi @Tom37Ā @neroli Ā Thanks for dropping around.Ā Ā Yes, a good shower is certainly one of the things to be grateful for Tom.Ā Speaking of showersĀ Iām trying to find the strength to get out of bed and have one. I need to get to the shops to get some groceries, and Iām catching up with friends this afternoon. I hope you slept okay, I see youāve been having problems with insomnia.Ā Ā Thanks for the video Neroli, I think Iāve seen a bit of it in the past. Iāll watch it when I have some brain power. Struggling to focus at the moment. I started reading a novel last night, but didnāt get very far.š Ā Just for documentation: Today is day 31 since I dropped from 7mg to 6.75mg.Ā Ā Okay, things Iām grateful for: 1. Iām looking forward to reading the novel I started: Camino Island by John Grisham. Iām a massive John Grisham fan.š 2. Iāve got a couple of other John Grisham novels that I havenāt read yet here too. Yay! Iāve read most of them.šš 3. I managed to do a bit of decluttering yesterday, and threw out a lot of paperwork etc. Decluttering is one of my favourite things, I always feel so good after I do it. I hate having lots of stuff. 4. I started another diamond painting of a beach scene. šš 5. Iām catching up with friends this afternoon. Yay!š 6. I had a good nightās sleep. I wake up exhausted and barely being able to move anyway because of my illness, but at least I know my body has has rest.š 7. Iāve been making some question and answer cards for friendāsĀ kids.š§š»š¦š¼š©š½ 8. Iām going to have a lovely shower, as soon I manage to get up. šæšæ 9. Going to make myself a yummy lunch.š 10. Going to have a yummy cup of peppermint tea.āļø Ā Well, one, two, three, shower here I come.šæšæš¦š¦š¦š Ā Sending hugsš¤š¤ Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted July 6, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 6, 2019 Okay, I think this is really important. I know withdrawals are the worst thing any of us will ever go through, but I think itās important to continue to distract ourselves. We canāt stop the withdrawals so we just have to somehow put our focus on something else.Ā Ā The art of flow is extremelyĀ too. Some days when withdrawals are severe Iāll watch DVDs, but then I canāt seem to distract myself enough so I start playingĀ word games or doing crafts etc. Itās so important to do something that puts us into flow.Ā Ā Being in flow is doing something that makes the hours pass by, and before you know it you donāt know where the time went.Ā Ā Iāve done that with lots of things. One evening I was playing word games and before I knew it it was bedtime, the same thing happened with some crafts I did or a book I read when my brain fog wasnāt so bad.Ā Ā I canāt concentrate much at the moment and Iām really faint due to low blood pressure but Iām going to catch up with friends this afternoon. If I need to lie down, so be it. Ā Pleeeeeeease find things that put you in flow.Ā Ā Sending hugsš¤ Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator hayduke Posted July 6, 2019 Moderator Share Posted July 6, 2019 Hey Carmie, Ā Good to hear you're catching up with friends, I'm doing similar later.Ā Mostly work, planning the move and packing aside from that. Ā Re EMDR, the clinical psychologist I went to specialises in the kind of things that get you put on neuroleptics.Ā I've linked to the BPS pamphlet in my thread which links psychosis to past trauma and discusses approaches to treating it besides the toxic drugs.Ā I was very pleased to find a sympathetic ear.Ā She offered me a couple of ways of working through my issues and we agreed EMDR was probably the most helpful approach.Ā We had a few sessions working out the stresses and life difficulties that led to my 'crisis' in the 90s.Ā Ā It seems to me now anyone with half a brain would have been able to get me on the right track if they had listened to me better back then, but the prescribing goblin in the 90s denied any kind of talk therapy could help, told us all I had some defect 'chemical imbalance' and put me on the olanzapine "for life", the miserable sod. Ā I didn't give up on taking charge of my own healing (it was clear no one else would - they only really cared whether I was holding down a job), started lowering my dosage, exercising and after years of meditation some really hard things started coming up.Ā That's when I found my own psychologist as mentioned above. Ā The idea with the EMDR is that when you have unresolved trauma, particularly in your subconscious, it just hangs around being spiky rotten and unpleasant and sets off your fight-or-flight reflex way too often.Ā So if you can make these trauma/s conscious and pass them on to the part of the brain that normally stores memory like all the normal experiences do, you can unclog your body from hanging onto the pain and start healing. Ā I knew there was something amiss there most of my life.Ā The EMDR worked amazingly well and a bunch of things started coming up over a few sessions.Ā I was staggered by how vivid the recall is with this technique, and how my body was storing tensions from early childhood.Ā The smells, the time of day, who was there, what was said, how I was feeling, right back there again.Ā Practical time travel in a sense! Ā After two sessions we both felt there was something that was still to be unearthed, the root issue.Ā It was a huge relief in a way but there it was the next time, I had to relive being sexually abused at age 4 or 5.Ā Revolting and very uncomfortable, but now I know what happened, and my body and brain can process it consciously.Ā I found it hard to believe for a while but my body left me in no doubt. Ā My so-called 'diagnosis' back then was based on symptoms that are directly congruent with surviving child sexual abuse.Ā No need for any of the goblin's rubbish to explain things.Ā Nothing wrong with me in the first place, and nothing I could have done at age 4 or 5 could have repelled that attack.Ā My poor developing brain! Ā Everything started falling into place after that, parts of my life that had confused me made sense, depression and anxiety are less than 1/5 of what they were before.Ā Lots of anger, like lots.Ā So much of my lifetime effectively stolen that I will never get back. Ā My psychologist has been able to help me channel that into safe and constructive outlets.Ā Still working out how to tell my family, but I feel they need to know some time.Ā Will probably write them a letter.Ā Ā On the up side I'm a lot less shy now.Ā The only problematic symptoms I'm having now all seem wd-related, and each time I hold for a while it confirms that for me as they settle.Ā I feel once I'm off the rest of this blasted compound for a while I'm going to be pretty much who I should've been already.Ā Looking forward to that and it does keep getting better as I go. Ā So yeah it was kind of an archaeological dig for me.Ā Tiring, painful, difficult and messy.Ā But I'm on the right side of it now and life keeps improving.Ā Finding the right practitioner made it possible.Ā I didn't even know if I was going to be able to get the result I needed but thankfully did.Ā Feels like I've walked over the biggest mountain in my life path so far.Ā Sure, there'll be more healing to do but I've got the splinter out now. Ā Hope that's useful info and that your weekend is ace! Ā *hugs* I am not a health professional - your actions are your own. Ā Please do not seek tapering support via private messageĀ - "Any reason to hold is a good one" My taper visualised as a graph Ā | Ā My intro thread Backdrop:Ā 2003 10mg olanzapine | 2004 2-3mg risperidone | endĀ 2014Ā 3wks aripiprazole 2015:Ā olanzapineĀ 10 -> 7Ā½ -> 6ā -> 5mg Ā by crude pill cutter 2018: Ā Mar 5.00mg -> water titrated taper -> Aug2.5mg tablet and hold Jan 2019 2.50mg water titration ->Ā Jan 2020 1.214 Ā -> Jan 2021Ā 0.44 ->Ā 2 OctĀ 0.205Ā ->3 OctĀ ZEROš„ Jun 2023Ā š150mgĀ paliperidone "loading" depot shot, 100mg 1wk afterĀ JulĀ 100mg Aug-DecĀ 75mg/4wks Jul 2023Ā 2.50mg aripiprazole/day attempt to lower prolactin^ Jan-Feb 2024Ā cross taper off shots to 1mg risperidone Ā Ask not what you can do for your country, but what your country did to you"Ā -- KMFDM Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Songbird Posted July 6, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 6, 2019 @haydukeĀ would you consider copying your post about your experiences with EMDR to our topic: Ā https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/14238-emdr-has-anyone-tried-this-eye-movement-desensitization-reprocessing-therapy/ Ā 2001ā2002 paroxetine 2003 Ā citalopram 2004-2008 Ā paroxetine (various failed tapers)Ā 2008 Ā paroxetine slow taper down to 2016 Ā Aug off paroxetine2016 Ā citalopram May 20mg Ā Oct 15mg ā¦ slow taper down2018 Ā citalopram 13 Feb 4.6mg 15 Mar 4.4mg 29 Apr 4.2mg 6 Jul 4.1mg 17 Aug 4.0mgĀ Ā 18 Nov 3.8mg 2019 Ā 15 Mar 3.6mgĀ 21 May 3.4mgĀ 26 Dec 3.2mgĀ 2020Ā 19 Feb 3.0mgĀ 19 JulĀ 2.9mgĀ 16 Sep 2.8mgĀ 25 Oct 2.7mgĀ 23 Oct 2.6mgĀ 24 Dec 2.5mg 2021Ā Ā 29 Aug 2.4mgĀ Ā 15 Nov 2.3mg Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted July 6, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 6, 2019 (edited) Hi @hayduke Ā Thank you so much for explaining what helped you with the abuse you went through. Iām really sorry for what youāve gone through. Good on you for taking care of your own healing.Ā Ā EMDR sounds very similar to FasterEFT. Itās all to do with the subconscious and once you get rid of the emotions connected to anything we haveĀ gone through there are no longer triggers. We can still remember the events but we no longer have an negative emotional response connected with them.Ā Ā I have a friend who is a practioner in FasterEFT and she really helped me get rid of the negative emotions connected to hospitals. Iāve spent a lot of time in hospitals and every time I drove past the hospital I would get a feeling of being trapped. Thatās gone now, I donāt feel anything, I even went with someone to the hospital the other day. All I thought was, these doctors sure are trigger happy with their pills.š¤£ I donāt trust doctors whatsoever now, I go with my gut instinct. I didnāt feel uncomfortable atĀ the hospital though, I just thought from now on Iām responsible for my own health and Iām not going to be persuaded by anyone.Ā Ā You have inspired me to continueĀ working on other traumas. Iām so glad EMDR works as good for you as FasterEFT works for me. Now, I just have to stop procrastinating and put it into practice. I can do it on my own, but I might go and see my friend again as well in the future and get a few sessions.Ā Ā Hereās to working on our subconscious pain.Ā Ā Sending hugsš¤ Edited July 6, 2019 by Carmie Typo Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
Moderator hayduke Posted July 6, 2019 Moderator Share Posted July 6, 2019 @Carmie yep find the ones who can help you on your wavelength, not the ones who want to boss you round with the 'father knows best' crap :-) Ā That's good your EFT helps make you more relaxed and comfortable, has to be a good thing.Ā Ā If it helps but it's hard to keep in the habit (meditation, exercise, eating healthy are all a bit like that, fine once you're up and running but hard to kick start sometimes after a break) I'm a fan of getting someone else involved!Ā Like meditating solo is great but if I'm too tired and just wouldn't, a guided meditation is still a good option.Ā Ā The stuff that we worked on with EMDR for me was what had made me think "time to get a pro in" and I'm glad I did.Ā I don't think I would have resolved it on my own.Ā Even if that was just 3% of the stuff I've worked through with meditation :-) Ā @Songbird done, cheers :-) I am not a health professional - your actions are your own. Ā Please do not seek tapering support via private messageĀ - "Any reason to hold is a good one" My taper visualised as a graph Ā | Ā My intro thread Backdrop:Ā 2003 10mg olanzapine | 2004 2-3mg risperidone | endĀ 2014Ā 3wks aripiprazole 2015:Ā olanzapineĀ 10 -> 7Ā½ -> 6ā -> 5mg Ā by crude pill cutter 2018: Ā Mar 5.00mg -> water titrated taper -> Aug2.5mg tablet and hold Jan 2019 2.50mg water titration ->Ā Jan 2020 1.214 Ā -> Jan 2021Ā 0.44 ->Ā 2 OctĀ 0.205Ā ->3 OctĀ ZEROš„ Jun 2023Ā š150mgĀ paliperidone "loading" depot shot, 100mg 1wk afterĀ JulĀ 100mg Aug-DecĀ 75mg/4wks Jul 2023Ā 2.50mg aripiprazole/day attempt to lower prolactin^ Jan-Feb 2024Ā cross taper off shots to 1mg risperidone Ā Ask not what you can do for your country, but what your country did to you"Ā -- KMFDM Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Carmie Posted July 8, 2019 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 8, 2019 Just dropping inĀ briefly, Iām really braindead. Iāve had more windows the last couple of days. Hopefully within a week or two Iāll be able to taper again. I get really excited every time the numbers go down a little. Today is day 33 since dropping from 7mg to 6.75mg.Ā Ā As usual just want to write down the things Iām grateful for, so here goes: 1. A friend rang me mid morning yesterday wanting to go for a drive, so we went to a town up on a mountain. It took us about an hour an a half each way to get there. I love road trips!š 2. We cranked up the music while driving, love itš¼š¼š¼š¼ 3. Itās such a beautiful place, so much greenery everywhere.š³š³š³ 4. We went to some gardens and saw beautiful flowers. šøšŗ. 5. We played on the playground, big kids that we are.š§š» 6. There was a spectacular lookout looking over other mountains and we took some fun photos.šøā° 7. We met some cute dogs while in one of the gardens, one dogĀ was called Dribbles n I know why.š¶ 8. Iām going to Australia Zoo tomorrow. Yay!ššššššššššššššš 9. So looking forward to catching up with a friend thatās going with me to the zoo tomorrow.š 10. Just had a delicious lunch.š Ā @haydukeĀ thanks for dropping by. Yes, Iām all for finding people on our wavelengths. Hope you are having a good day.Ā Ā Ā Sending hugs to allš¤ Ā Seroquel. 2019:ā”ļøĀ From 7.25mg to 5.80mgāļøĀ 2020ā”ļøFrom 5.60 to 4.80āļøĀ 2021ā”ļøFrom 4.60 to 4.0āļøĀ 2022ā”ļøFrom 3.95 to 3.55āļø2023ā”ļø Jan 26=3.50āļøMarch 17=3.45āļø June12=3.40āļøĀ July30=3.35āļøĀ Sep14=3.30āļøĀ Oct31=3.25āļø 2024ā”ļøJan15=3.20āļø Feb19=3.15āļø March26=3.10āļøThis is NOT medical advice.Consult your doctor. Link to comment
India Posted July 9, 2019 Share Posted July 9, 2019 On 7/6/2019 at 6:56 AM, hayduke said: It seemsļ»æļ»æ toļ»æ me nowļ»æ anyone with half a brain would have been able to geļ»æt mļ»æeļ»æ on theļ»æ rightļ»æ track if they had listened to me better back then, ļ»æ My sentiments exactly. When I could still read Foucault was good for this. My current trauma therapist sees my going to psychiatrists as a destructive act and a repetition of powerlessness or trauma. Maybe this might resonate. Ā Carmie, your determination is wonderful. I find myself very blocked cognitively . Do you have any current Ā tips other than just attending to nervous system? Ā You like period dramas. Try āBeecham Houseā . Itās set in late 1700s India. Currently on itv or British tv. Ā Ā 1999:Ā Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008:Ā Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5Ā years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg),Ā 2 weeks,Ā (age 26) (adverseĀ reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mgĀ 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( doĀ not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months. Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā 2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg)Ā (age 27 to 34)Ā 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4thĀ February 2018,Ā Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mgĀ (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects) 2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018:Ā June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other dayĀ 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mgĀ Ā (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off)Ā 2018Ā 13th SeptĀ CitalopramĀ 2mg ,Ā Ā approx 16th SeptĀ 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held. Ā 2019: 11 FebĀ 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mgĀ 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19Ā 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg (Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts) I did not die, and yet I lost lifeās breath -Ā Dante Link to comment
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