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On 2/1/2020 at 10:23 PM, WizeroAim said:

I knew sadboy personally, and whit sadness in my heart I have to announce that sadboy took his own life due to pssd.

I will miss you man.

So terrible to hear this and to know he suffered so much. 

1999:  Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse  reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months.                     2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects)

2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg  (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram  2mg ,  approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held.  2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg

(Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts)

I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath
- Dante
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How utterly awful. My god, it's a scandal these drugs are allowed.......Rest in Peace, Sadboy.

January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 100mg Magnesium Glycinate. Tried Vagifem 10mcg from mid May 2021 to mid June 2021; caused depression, so stopped.

 

 

 

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2 hours ago, sunnysideup69 said:

How utterly awful. My god, it's a scandal these drugs are allowed.......Rest in Peace, Sadboy.

 

 

Leading cause of death in the United States, suicide has become a significant public health issue both here and worldwide. Mental illness is one of many risk factors in cases of suicide, the most common being depression. Unfortunately, only half of those living with depression and other mental illnesses actually receive treatment. Sad but not everyone can cope with exercises yoga or music. I tried to commit suicide, before drugs. I was in so bad condition that I am happy I was given something. We can’t blame drugs, air, food or any other thinkings. That’s life and life is not only flowers. 

AD: Seroxat since 2005 20 mg and tapering from March 2018 10% every 4 weeks.

15-11-2019 down to 5.5 mg 

28-12-2019 crashed really bad on 5.5mg 

01-01-2020 updose to 7mg

16-01-2020 Updose to 9 mg

 

Benzos: Bromazepam 1.5 mg daily since 2015

Quit CT Bromazepam 16-01-2020 No withdrawals 

Occasionally 1.5 mg extra

Last extra 1.5 mg 12-01-2020

 

 

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9 minutes ago, pinciukas said:

 

 

Leading cause of death in the United States, suicide has become a significant public health issue both here and worldwide. Mental illness is one of many risk factors in cases of suicide, the most common being depression. Unfortunately, only half of those living with depression and other mental illnesses actually receive treatment. Sad but not everyone can cope with exercises yoga or music. I tried to commit suicide, before drugs. I was in so bad condition that I am happy I was given something. We can’t blame drugs, air, food or any other thinkings. That’s life and life is not only flowers. 

Hi, firstly, I'm so sorry you were in such a bad place. I've felt suicidal myself, although never carried it through. However, I still wish I had been aware of other alternatives/ had better social connections before trying psychiatric drugs.I think psychiatric drugs are woefully inadequate a lot of the time; they create problems when used in the long term for  a LOT of people, as this website and many other drugs forums are testament to. I'd never recommend purely exercises, yoga or music; people need connection and meaning rather than a list of strategies....and you also can't find connection/meaning in a pill. I'm glad you feel psychiatric drugs helped you, for me, I don't think they have. 

January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 100mg Magnesium Glycinate. Tried Vagifem 10mcg from mid May 2021 to mid June 2021; caused depression, so stopped.

 

 

 

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21 minutes ago, sunnysideup69 said:

Hi, firstly, I'm so sorry you were in such a bad place. I've felt suicidal myself, although never carried it through. However, I still wish I had been aware of other alternatives/ had better social connections before trying psychiatric drugs.I think psychiatric drugs are woefully inadequate a lot of the time; they create problems when used in the long term for  a LOT of people, as this website and many other drugs forums are testament to. I'd never recommend purely exercises, yoga or music; people need connection and meaning rather than a list of strategies....and you also can't find connection/meaning in a pill. I'm glad you feel psychiatric drugs helped you, for me, I don't think they have. 

Yes I know this is very long discussion with a lot of pin point. I am glad you can cope with other things. This is proof that we all are different you can cope with what I can’t but I am learning and trying :) I have gambling addiction and always blamed gambling company’s and other people but not myself later I learned that problem is not in them but I am the problem. So that’s why I don’t like to blame anyone for anything :) I wish you good luck in this long recovery journey!

AD: Seroxat since 2005 20 mg and tapering from March 2018 10% every 4 weeks.

15-11-2019 down to 5.5 mg 

28-12-2019 crashed really bad on 5.5mg 

01-01-2020 updose to 7mg

16-01-2020 Updose to 9 mg

 

Benzos: Bromazepam 1.5 mg daily since 2015

Quit CT Bromazepam 16-01-2020 No withdrawals 

Occasionally 1.5 mg extra

Last extra 1.5 mg 12-01-2020

 

 

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I still feel very haunted by sadboy’s death . That he suffered a nd lost all hope. That he was alone. That he did not see the recovery he deserved .

@WizeroAim how are you? Must have been very painful for you?

1999:  Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse  reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months.                     2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects)

2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg  (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram  2mg ,  approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held.  2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg

(Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts)

I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath
- Dante
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9 hours ago, pinciukas said:

 

 

Leading cause of death in the United States, suicide has become a significant public health issue both here and worldwide. Mental illness is one of many risk factors in cases of suicide, the most common being depression. Unfortunately, only half of those living with depression and other mental illnesses actually receive treatment. Sad but not everyone can cope with exercises yoga or music. I tried to commit suicide, before drugs. I was in so bad condition that I am happy I was given something. We can’t blame drugs, air, food or any other thinkings. That’s life and life is not only flowers. 

@pinciukasDrugs/meds may have helped you but that does not preclude the fact that drugs harm many. Their effects are not blanket. For every person they have helped, i’m willing  to bet there  is person who has been harmed or has yet to be harmed by WD or long term impacts of taking these meds.  In fact, from where i’m standing , they are quite obviously one of the  major causation factors in sadboy’s death . Pssd caused by SSRIs. he clearly suffered a great many damaging effects as reported by himself but I appreciate everyone has their view. 

1999:  Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse  reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months.                     2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects)

2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg  (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram  2mg ,  approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held.  2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg

(Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts)

I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath
- Dante
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16 hours ago, pinciukas said:

Yes I know this is very long discussion with a lot of pin point. I am glad you can cope with other things. This is proof that we all are different you can cope with what I can’t but I am learning and trying :) I have gambling addiction and always blamed gambling company’s and other people but not myself later I learned that problem is not in them but I am the problem. So that’s why I don’t like to blame anyone for anything :) I wish you good luck in this long recovery journey!

 

I wish you all the  best too, pinciukas, I guess we're all just struggling along in the best way that we can. I understand not blaming. I've had to take responsibility for myself, also :) 

January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

Supplements; 1100mg fish oil daily; also 100mg Magnesium Glycinate. Tried Vagifem 10mcg from mid May 2021 to mid June 2021; caused depression, so stopped.

 

 

 

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Very sad! im so sorry to hear this. 

 

I do think its one of the grey areas of this site. Its a great site and its very educating and people put alot of time in. However, been told to wait 3, 4, 5 years and stay away from Drs and meds it almost isolates people into waiting for a miracle. Its along time to suck up and lets face it WD is no virus or a headache, its life changing. 

May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg

 

March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths.

 

July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific.

 

August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline.

 

March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had.

 

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4 hours ago, Leo1983 said:

Very sad! im so sorry to hear this. 

 

I do think its one of the grey areas of this site. Its a great site and its very educating and people put alot of time in. However, been told to wait 3, 4, 5 years and stay away from Drs and meds it almost isolates people into waiting for a miracle. Its along time to suck up and lets face it WD is no virus or a headache, its life changing. 

I totally concur.

 

While we can attempt to empathise we can never truly know the depths of another’s suffering. 

 

I don’t see how taking responsibility for a gambling addiction is in anyway related to sadboy’s PSSD ; a sometimes intractable physical condition induced by SSRI’s. It’s clear sadboy was very intelligent and took it upon himself to educate himself as best he could on the condition. 

1999:  Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse  reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months.                     2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects)

2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg  (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram  2mg ,  approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held.  2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg

(Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts)

I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath
- Dante
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AD: Seroxat since 2005 20 mg and tapering from March 2018 10% every 4 weeks.

15-11-2019 down to 5.5 mg 

28-12-2019 crashed really bad on 5.5mg 

01-01-2020 updose to 7mg

16-01-2020 Updose to 9 mg

 

Benzos: Bromazepam 1.5 mg daily since 2015

Quit CT Bromazepam 16-01-2020 No withdrawals 

Occasionally 1.5 mg extra

Last extra 1.5 mg 12-01-2020

 

 

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@Leo1983 and @India I don't think this site nor its members advocate not seeing doctors or shunning meds in all situations.  I consider myself "recovered' in the sense I can manage my symptoms through CBT and other behavioral tools, but I still have a script for generic Klonopin when the physical symptoms are too much (maybe two to three times a month)--I still have trouble in crowded situations.  Without a therapist with knowledge of withdrawal, I would have have a lot more difficulty. We all suffered in unique ways but we all share the struggle.  Whatever the cause, anxiety and/or depression are chronic conditions like diabetes; they can be managed but may not be "cured".  If you're diabetic, you may need meds to help control your blood sugar, but you also need to eat right.  I think its about finding the right balance and what works for you; that may include occasional use of meds but without some behavioral changes meds alone won't help.  I know how lonely it feels to suffer every day, but you aren't alone!

Tim C

Started Paxil for GAD in 1999

Unsuccessful taper attempt in 2006

Paxilprogress helped with a successful taper completed in 2009

Using therapy and CBT to manage my anxiety

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4 hours ago, mstimc said:

@Leo1983 and @India I don't think this site nor its members advocate not seeing doctors or shunning meds in all situations.  I consider myself "recovered' in the sense I can manage my symptoms through CBT and other behavioral tools, but I still have a script for generic Klonopin when the physical symptoms are too much (maybe two to three times a month)--I still have trouble in crowded situations.  Without a therapist with knowledge of withdrawal, I would have have a lot more difficulty. We all suffered in unique ways but we all share the struggle.  Whatever the cause, anxiety and/or depression are chronic conditions like diabetes; they can be managed but may not be "cured".  If you're diabetic, you may need meds to help control your blood sugar, but you also need to eat right.  I think its about finding the right balance and what works for you; that may include occasional use of meds but without some behavioral changes meds alone won't help.  I know how lonely it feels to suffer every day, but you aren't alone!

I agree. I concur on the fact it can be isolating and lonely experience.

1999:  Paroxetine (20mg). Age 16. 2007-2008: Fluoxetine (Prozac) for 1.5 years (age 25) Citalopram 20mg 2002-2005, 2009: Escitalopram (20mg), 2 weeks, (age 26) (adverse  reaction)/*Valium 5mg/Temazepam 10mg 2010: Mirtazipine (Remeron)( do not remember dosage) 2010, 5 months.                     2010-2017: Citalopram (20mg) (age 27 to 34) 2016: i.1st Sept- 31st Oct Citalopram 10mg , ii.1st November 2017-30th November 2017, Citalopram 5mg iii.1st December 2017- 4th February 2018, Citalopram 0mg, iv.5th February 2018- March 2018 Citalopram 5mg (10mg every other day) 28th February- tried titration of 5mg ( some adverse effects)

2018: 1st March 2018- 1st June Citalopram 10 mg (tablet form) /started titration 8mg , then 7 mg.2018: June 15th- 10th July Citalopram 10 mg pill every other day 2018: 10th July - 13th Sept Citalopram- 0mg  (CBD oil first month of 0mg, passiflora on and off) 2018 13th Sept Citalopram  2mg ,  approx 16th Sept 4mg , approx 25th Sept 6mg held.  2019: 11 Feb 19: 7mg (instant bad rxn) 12 Feb 19 6mg held 1 May 19 5.4mg held 5 Oct 19 5.36mg 22 Oct 19 5.29mg 30 Oct 19 5.23mg 4/NOV/19 5.18mg 12 Nov 19 5.08mg 20 Nov 19 4.77mg 7 May 22 2.31mg 17/09/2023 0.8mg

(Herbal/Supplements since 1st September: Omega Fish Oil 1200mg, 663mg of EPA- 2 tablets a day, magnesium and magnesium bath salts)

I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath
- Dante
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Okay Folks..Please show a little respect for one of our sadly departed members. A lose of this nature has a profound affect on our entire community and I don't want to see it trivialized in this manner. 

 

I will have to ask you to take this discussion to one of your own personal threads.  This thread is still Sadboy's and it is for discussions about him and ATM condolences, memories and expressions of emotion.  It is not the place to be debating personal beliefs about the right or wrong of using ADs.

 

Consider this a verbal warning.

 

20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Final Dose 0.016mg.     Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking

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