jonnypeters1234567: 11 months off Citalopram

[jonnypeters1234567]

I would avoid msg, which is in chinese food, take it you know that. it may be different for you if you are still tapering, it may not effect you.

[RusTW]

 I feel like that too about being high on a drug. I think that our subconscious thinking is incorporated with our conscious thinking and they're trying to separate themselves or we're trying to separate them. Sometimes when I'm trippin now with the anxiety images of my dreams and night before just keep flashing over and over. Very strange

[RusTW]

Thanks JP They say they don't use msg.your right man I'm sensitive to all kinds of things now.Smells and sounds are very strong.I'm not sure about foods yet.I eat the same things everyday.I'm gonna have to venture a little bit.I stick to lean meats salads and fruits.no more suger artificial preservatives.I gained 32lbs on the antipsychotics.I've lost almost all of it.I felt really bad overweight about myself.the exercising has been crucial for me so far.it keeps our systems circulating the toxins out of the body.

[Rosetta]

Hi Rus, 

 

Thanks for your note on my thread.  I hope you are doing ok.  I'm still in a wave.  My husband keeps reminding me that as anxious as I feel, I am definitely doing better than in the past.  It's been a hard day.  Anxiety is not releasing me.  I'm sure it will slow down in the next couple of hours.  I went for a long walk today.  I just ate.  I'm surprised how long the anxiety is hanging around today, but there's been a little stress.

 

The parallel universe feeling and the fear that one will "lose it" at any moment -- both very familiar to me.  Getting lost when trying to figure something out -- been there.  It's very similar to having low blood sugar.  I had that at times long before meds.  I would get lost when driving somewhere and get very upset about it.  I could never remember that I had forgotten to eat when I was lost. I just got more lost.  I have the same response to this situation.  I think our neurotransmitters are controlling our hormones which control the blood sugar and sometimes I am low blood sugar and sometimes high.  If the neurotransmitters are off then the blood sugar isn't properly controlled. 

 

I hope you had a nice time with your mom.

 

-R

[RusTW]

31 minutes ago, Rosetta said:

Hi Rus, 

 

Thanks for your note on my thread.  I hope you are doing ok.  I'm still in a wave.  My husband keeps reminding me that as anxious as I feel, I am definitely doing better than in the past.  It's been a hard day.  Anxiety is not releasing me.  I'm sure it will slow down in the next couple of hours.  I went for a long walk today.  I just ate.  I'm surprised how long the anxiety is hanging around today, but there's been a little stress.

 

The parallel universe feeling and the fear that one will "lose it" at any moment -- both very familiar to me.  Getting lost when trying to figure something out -- been there.  It's very similar to having low blood sugar.  I had that at times long before meds.  I would get lost when driving somewhere and get very upset about it.  I could never remember that I had forgotten to eat when I was lost. I just got more lost.  I have the same response to this situation.  I think our neurotransmitters are controlling our hormones which control the blood sugar and sometimes I am low blood sugar and sometimes high.  If the neurotransmitters are off then the blood sugar isn't properly controlled. 

 

I hope you had a nice time with your mom.

 

-R

Hang in there it can leave anytime.I had it the worst yesterday.today almost completely gone.I just have a mild headache.hope ya feel better soon.

[RusTW]

JP how is it going?

[jonnypeters1234567]

Getting worse by the day

 

physical symptoms getting alot worse- burning skin, engine noise in ear (tinnitus)

 

SI at its highest, losing hope

 

considering a reinstatement out of desperation. I read that Hornsy had a successful reinstatement of lexapro 12 months out.

[jonnypeters1234567]

May face is dropping too

[jonnypeters1234567]

My windows feel more and more like fake happiness the further i get out as i am realising my true self.

 

This is driving me insane as im not happy in my waves and not in my windows..

 

Anyone else experience this?

[RusTW]

Sorry JP..Hang in there. Be careful with reinstatement because that might make it worse also. Your symptoms seem pretty severe. I've read on here that some people get waves that are pretty intense a year out. I've noticed that myself too when I get my waves sometimes they're so intense with different symptoms now that I think I'm just in the beginning of this. I'm praying for you man to get some relief.

[jonnypeters1234567]

cheers bro, white knuckling it at the moment

[RusTW]

I hope you get a window soon man I feel for you

[RusTW]

 I'm starting to get hit with some nausea. That and anxiety are my worst symptoms

[jonnypeters1234567]

sorry man, i hope you get some relief. Hows work?

[RusTW]

 

Works good man. Driving around helps me out.  because I really do have to slow down you know in the traffic so I slow down in my thinking and pay more attention to stuff so it's pretty good distraction. It's hard going to work with the symptoms sometimes that I think the working actually helps alleviate some of the symptoms for a little bit. I'm a manager there so I have to make sure everything of mine is on point and everyone else is. I usually get a good window between 8 p.m. and 12 a.m.. that to be my best time right now the nausea thing seems to be about 90% in the daytime only . The nausea and the anxieties one hell of a combo.

[RusTW]

I'm sorry your symptoms are so bad man. Everything's going to be a breeze after this. Smooth sailing your strength enduring this is very encouraging. Good job . thank you

[Elyssa143]

@jonnypeters1234567 im so sorry your struggling so far out, 😕 howhow scary as ive already been in hell and only really into this for 5 months :/. II was on zoloft one year off 3 years and then 13 months this last time at the lowest dose this withdrawl has been hell and im so scared. Hope your doing ok 

[RusTW]

JP how are you doing?

[RusTW]

I'm feeling the nausea ..I hope that it goes first.

[ChessieCat]

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2 hours ago, jonnypeters1234567 said:

Does anyone suffer from this and had it diminish over time?

 

Its a loud vibrating noise, sounds like an engine

 

Its so loud it keeps me awake at night and wakes me up in the night..

 

Your new topic has been merged with the existing topic.

 

tinnitus-what-does-all-that-noise-mean

 

[Rosetta]

Jonny,

 

I'm sorry you are feeling bad.  There an be a lot of up and down.  Windows can feel very strange.  All in all I think you are experiencing healing, but I know it's painful and scary.  Try to distract to avoid panic.  It really is going to be ok.  Another window that feels more comfortable will come.  Can you think of anything you are eating or drinking that might be shaking things up?

[jonnypeters1234567]

Thanks Rosetta

 

I woke up feeling clear headed, 1 hour late SI, levelled for a couple of hours- watched some tv with my brother and dad- could feel tension building- then sent into a wave. Now got the numb head feeling of a wave- which is nice compared to nervousness which happens at the start of the wave- do you get that??

 

Thanks

[Elyssa143]

@jonnypeters1234567 im sorry your having such a hard time, are you on any other meds at this time? I would really avoid reinstating but thats my opinion. Hope today gets better. 

[Elyssa143]

@jonnypeters1234567 how long were u on lexapro? And did you ct from a high dose?

[jonnypeters1234567]

No more meds, my symptons are changing

[Elyssa143]

@jonnypeters1234567 were you on other meds previously? 

[Elyssa143]

@jonnypeters1234567 did you have severe depression in the beginning of your withdrawl? 

[jonnypeters1234567]

6 years citalopram 20mg

 

Youll heal faster as i think its taking me along time to come down as i was on a long time

[jonnypeters1234567]

I felt like i was losing my mind but not severe depression all the time only at times. The symptons seem more real now

 

You will be ok

[Elyssa143]

@jonnypeters1234567 i felt as if i was loosing my mind too. The depression has been absolutely unbearable.  I was on zoloft for a year 3 years ago and then a year last year. Do u think the consecutive part adds to it? Im so scared. Ive never been suicidal before. And the depression has been horrific and scary.  Are your symptoms more bearable now? Are u able to function a bit better? Have u had your thyroid checked?

[jonnypeters1234567]

Did you have a bad reaction to the reinstament? What are your symptons now?

[Elyssa143]

@jonnypeters1234567 i sure as **** did. I reinstated 4 days after a fast taper. Got worse over 3 weeks went inpatient they upped it and added buspar got 1000x worse went back 6 days later they pulled me off zoloft and put me on zyprexa i was on that 10 days switched to lamictal for 14 got a life threatening rash, went back to zyprexa for 10 days and tapered over 5 weeks. Ive had severe suicidal and homicidal ideations. Severe suicidal depression, not feeling like myself . Insomnia although that seems to be getting better and my depression seems to be gradually getting a bit better too. 

[jonnypeters1234567]

I need to get my hormones checked to be honest.

[jonnypeters1234567]

What is your diet like? Avoid gluten, dairy, sugar and msg

[Elyssa143]

@jonnypeters1234567 im on naturthroid for my thyroid. I dont eat dairy, sugar, gluten, grains, artificial sweetners, msg. I would try to see a natural doctor one who will run all the thyroid panels. Are your symptoms more manageable? Im so terrified ill get worse im barely hanging on most days as it is

[jonnypeters1234567]

Yes they are more managemenable, definately- i dont feel like im on a different planet as much