Asta Posted October 5, 2019 Author Share Posted October 5, 2019 Thank you for the answer. Escitalopram (Cipralex): 17 Mar 2018, 5mg; 18 Mar, 10mg; 8 Jun, 5mg; 19 Jul, 2.5mg; 30 Jul 2018, 0mg Trazodone (Triticco): 28 Apr 2018, 50mg; 18 Jun, 66mg; 19 Jun, 75mg; 4 Oct, 67mg; 10 Nov, 62.5mg; 18 Nov, 62mg; 7 Dec, 56mg; 3 Jan 2019, 50mg; 30 Jan, 45 mg; 24 Feb, 41 mg; 23 Mar, 37 mg; 26 Apr, 33,3 mg; 22 May, 30 mg; 18 Jun, 27 mg; 5 Aug, 24,3 mg; 1 Sept, 21,9 mg; 28 Sept, 19,7 mg; 26 Oct, 17,7 mg; 23 Nov, 15,9 mg; 21 Dec, 14,3 mg; 18 Jan 2020, 12,9 mg; 16 Feb, 11,6 mg; 15 Mar, 10,44 mg; 12 Apr, 9,4 mg; 10 May, 8,5 mg; 7 Jun, 7,65 mg; 5 Jul, 6,89 mg; 2 Aug, 6,2 mg; 30 Aug, 5,58 mg; 27 Sept, 5,02 mg; 25 Oct, 4,52 mg; 22 Nov, 4,07 mg; 20 Dec, 3,66 mg; 17 Jan, 3,29 mg; 14 Feb, 2,96 mg; 14 Mar, 2,66 mg; 11 Apr, 2,39 mg; 9 May, 2,15 mg; Link to post
Asta Posted October 8, 2019 Author Share Posted October 8, 2019 https://withdrawal.theinnercompass.org Escitalopram (Cipralex): 17 Mar 2018, 5mg; 18 Mar, 10mg; 8 Jun, 5mg; 19 Jul, 2.5mg; 30 Jul 2018, 0mg Trazodone (Triticco): 28 Apr 2018, 50mg; 18 Jun, 66mg; 19 Jun, 75mg; 4 Oct, 67mg; 10 Nov, 62.5mg; 18 Nov, 62mg; 7 Dec, 56mg; 3 Jan 2019, 50mg; 30 Jan, 45 mg; 24 Feb, 41 mg; 23 Mar, 37 mg; 26 Apr, 33,3 mg; 22 May, 30 mg; 18 Jun, 27 mg; 5 Aug, 24,3 mg; 1 Sept, 21,9 mg; 28 Sept, 19,7 mg; 26 Oct, 17,7 mg; 23 Nov, 15,9 mg; 21 Dec, 14,3 mg; 18 Jan 2020, 12,9 mg; 16 Feb, 11,6 mg; 15 Mar, 10,44 mg; 12 Apr, 9,4 mg; 10 May, 8,5 mg; 7 Jun, 7,65 mg; 5 Jul, 6,89 mg; 2 Aug, 6,2 mg; 30 Aug, 5,58 mg; 27 Sept, 5,02 mg; 25 Oct, 4,52 mg; 22 Nov, 4,07 mg; 20 Dec, 3,66 mg; 17 Jan, 3,29 mg; 14 Feb, 2,96 mg; 14 Mar, 2,66 mg; 11 Apr, 2,39 mg; 9 May, 2,15 mg; Link to post
Moderator manymoretodays Posted October 10, 2019 Moderator Share Posted October 10, 2019 (edited) Hi Asta, Looks like you are coming along nicely, all things considered. Over a year now since the Lexapro. And a steady taper with the Trazodone. There's no shame in taking a HOLD period either, if you think you might need one. I don't know that any of us can blame the drugs for everything that might trouble us. What do you think? Have you explored at the link you left above? Oh, what did you decide on hyperbaric oxygen treatments? Of course, as at least I know, for myself, there is no hastening the healing that needs to happen as our bodies continue to readjust and further stabilize after the drug treatments. I do know, that now, for myself.......it's much easier, much better.......as the symptoms I had while drugged, and in the first couple of years of WD, were sure a whole lot worse, than anything that I have anymore. On 9/14/2019 at 11:52 AM, Asta said: There are also days where I feel worse, but they are not strong and short. It is very scary that I could get worse. I keep feeling bad about myself that I am a user of these toxins and that I am giving money to these doctors, but I am happy that I found this website. Next week I am traveling to a Sicilian island Panarea. I believe that good food and beautiful views will help me get better as well. Why do you think you could get worse? Has that chest symptom improved? The one that you had attributed to anxiety. It sounds like you manage to get some lovely vacations in. Healing is ongoing for me. Most days I don't even look at it as WD anymore. It hovers in the background however. Certainly, I am more cautious about what I put into my body. I do need to work hard on myself, at this point though. Some non-drug coping that I do, as well as take note, of what positive changes have occurred throughout all this.........my journey, so to speak . It's a good one. Trying to get on my fall/winter schedule now. Lot's and lot's of that work that I do.......that keeps me going. Best, Love, peace, healing, and growth, mmt Edited October 10, 2019 by manymoretodays Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. manymoretodays Link to post
Asta Posted October 14, 2019 Author Share Posted October 14, 2019 I do not want to be too negative, but the medicine is to blame for all these life struggles. Like I said earlier, before taking medication I was living a happy, worthy life and enjoyed everything and traveled. Now I think, that after the surgery the headaches that I had could of been from narcotics and antibiotics. I probably should have done nothing and my headaches would have gone away and just strengthen the body. But I did not do that. I turned to doctors that I believed in and ended up getting 2 different antidepressants. This is definitely not normal, but this is the truth. My symptom in my chest is a lot smaller and migrates to different areas. The feeling comes from different movements like raising my arms, turning side to side, or bending down. It is also very sensitive if I touch those areas. It is definitely better when I am able to change my thoughts. I was always a very communicative person with people all around me. Now, I continue to try to be that way by socializing, traveling, and doing the things I love to get my mind off of the subject of the medication. I have shared this link, because I thought maybe it could help someone. I myself looked over it too because I did not want to miss anything that could possibly help me. I want to somehow accelerate this process so I could help myself, but everywhere I read the answer is time. It is sad that you really do need a lot of time. I really wanted to try out the Hyperbaric oxygen procedures after reading a lot about it, but I ended up deciding that I do not want to risk it. I am scared for it to get worse since I have such a bad experience already from stopping the intake of escitalopram, and I know that heeling takes place with the window and wave model. Also, the decrease of intake of trazadone and I do not know what to expect from every medication dose decrease. Even though I feel a lot better, I have fear of the horror coming back. I wish you the best so that one day you will reach your goal. Even if it is in small steps, it will still be forward. Escitalopram (Cipralex): 17 Mar 2018, 5mg; 18 Mar, 10mg; 8 Jun, 5mg; 19 Jul, 2.5mg; 30 Jul 2018, 0mg Trazodone (Triticco): 28 Apr 2018, 50mg; 18 Jun, 66mg; 19 Jun, 75mg; 4 Oct, 67mg; 10 Nov, 62.5mg; 18 Nov, 62mg; 7 Dec, 56mg; 3 Jan 2019, 50mg; 30 Jan, 45 mg; 24 Feb, 41 mg; 23 Mar, 37 mg; 26 Apr, 33,3 mg; 22 May, 30 mg; 18 Jun, 27 mg; 5 Aug, 24,3 mg; 1 Sept, 21,9 mg; 28 Sept, 19,7 mg; 26 Oct, 17,7 mg; 23 Nov, 15,9 mg; 21 Dec, 14,3 mg; 18 Jan 2020, 12,9 mg; 16 Feb, 11,6 mg; 15 Mar, 10,44 mg; 12 Apr, 9,4 mg; 10 May, 8,5 mg; 7 Jun, 7,65 mg; 5 Jul, 6,89 mg; 2 Aug, 6,2 mg; 30 Aug, 5,58 mg; 27 Sept, 5,02 mg; 25 Oct, 4,52 mg; 22 Nov, 4,07 mg; 20 Dec, 3,66 mg; 17 Jan, 3,29 mg; 14 Feb, 2,96 mg; 14 Mar, 2,66 mg; 11 Apr, 2,39 mg; 9 May, 2,15 mg; Link to post
Leo1983 Posted November 15, 2019 Share Posted November 15, 2019 How you doing Asta? May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to post
Asta Posted November 18, 2019 Author Share Posted November 18, 2019 Hello, thank you for your interest. I am taking slow steps forward, but struggling to get the the necessary spot. Sometimes I feel better and sometimes worse, but obviously the bad times are not as bad as they were before, but sometimes they are scary. Like I wrote before, to notice that I feel better, I have to compare it to how I felt a couple months ago which helps me realize that I am moving forward. There is an improvement, but it is very very slow. Since it is so slow, it is hard to notice the progress. For example, one day I feel a lot better and then the next it comes back to the same spot as before and makes me feel that it is going downhill. Even though it is not actually that way, only after the improvement times do I end up in the same spot and then later on I improve very slowly. But it is definitely been better these past couple months. My main symptom is a migrating feeling like I’ve shownin the past, in the pictures. It sometimes comes and increases from movement and when you touch it feels sensitive, but less painful. In one spot, it is slightly swollen. A couple days ago when I woke up in the morning my legs were in bad pain and I had a slight headache. After a couple hours, it got even harder. After about two hours and eating it got better and the symptoms were gone. Overall, I try to eat as healthy as possible and get lots of fresh air. I have noticed that I feel worse when I am in a hot shower, so I try to shower in cooler water. I also have noticed that sometimes when I take the trazadone at night I habe trouble breathing and my legs experience pain. A couple months ago I did a blood test and the results told me I am low on iron, magnesium, and potassium is on the verge. I did not take iron pills which surprised me that the iron problem was figured out from the food I ate. I used magnesium pills sometimes and was hoping to get enough potassium from the foods. Now I am thinking to pull in good probiotics, but it is hard to find which ones are actually really good. I used Escitalopram for only 2 months and 3 weeks and then I dropped it in 1 month and 3 weeks. I still cannot believe how it is allowed to prescribe this poison with just a hand, how it is allowed to be sold in pharmacies even though it is probably all written in the book - "Side Effects: Death". But, one day this will all come to an end. How are you Leo? I am hoping you are seeing progress? Escitalopram (Cipralex): 17 Mar 2018, 5mg; 18 Mar, 10mg; 8 Jun, 5mg; 19 Jul, 2.5mg; 30 Jul 2018, 0mg Trazodone (Triticco): 28 Apr 2018, 50mg; 18 Jun, 66mg; 19 Jun, 75mg; 4 Oct, 67mg; 10 Nov, 62.5mg; 18 Nov, 62mg; 7 Dec, 56mg; 3 Jan 2019, 50mg; 30 Jan, 45 mg; 24 Feb, 41 mg; 23 Mar, 37 mg; 26 Apr, 33,3 mg; 22 May, 30 mg; 18 Jun, 27 mg; 5 Aug, 24,3 mg; 1 Sept, 21,9 mg; 28 Sept, 19,7 mg; 26 Oct, 17,7 mg; 23 Nov, 15,9 mg; 21 Dec, 14,3 mg; 18 Jan 2020, 12,9 mg; 16 Feb, 11,6 mg; 15 Mar, 10,44 mg; 12 Apr, 9,4 mg; 10 May, 8,5 mg; 7 Jun, 7,65 mg; 5 Jul, 6,89 mg; 2 Aug, 6,2 mg; 30 Aug, 5,58 mg; 27 Sept, 5,02 mg; 25 Oct, 4,52 mg; 22 Nov, 4,07 mg; 20 Dec, 3,66 mg; 17 Jan, 3,29 mg; 14 Feb, 2,96 mg; 14 Mar, 2,66 mg; 11 Apr, 2,39 mg; 9 May, 2,15 mg; Link to post
Leo1983 Posted December 15, 2020 Share Posted December 15, 2020 Hi. How are you doing? May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to post
Asta Posted December 17, 2020 Author Share Posted December 17, 2020 Hi. I feel a lot better than I did a year ago and even better than I did 6 months ago. The main symptom: an uncomfortable feeling in my body, which activates from movement. The feeling is 1000 times smaller than it was in the start and occurs less frequently. A few times each month I get a feeling of uncertainty in my head, but it only lasts a short period of time. Every few months I feel better and better, and feel like I am taking steps forward towards my full recovery. The fluctuation of the symptoms brings a feeling of sadness. I sometimes get thoughts about everything being okay soon, but sometimes I also think it won’t. Through it all I still try to be strong, patient, and calm. I often go on walks in the woods and by the sea. I also completely gave up sugar, white flour, and eat meat rarely (only organic). Overall, I really watch what I eat and eat mostly organic foods because I believe that cleaner food can help the body heal. I want to tell everyone that even though you are feeling bad right now, it will definitely get better because there is no other way. I wish you all a beautiful holiday! Good healing, love, and light! 2 Escitalopram (Cipralex): 17 Mar 2018, 5mg; 18 Mar, 10mg; 8 Jun, 5mg; 19 Jul, 2.5mg; 30 Jul 2018, 0mg Trazodone (Triticco): 28 Apr 2018, 50mg; 18 Jun, 66mg; 19 Jun, 75mg; 4 Oct, 67mg; 10 Nov, 62.5mg; 18 Nov, 62mg; 7 Dec, 56mg; 3 Jan 2019, 50mg; 30 Jan, 45 mg; 24 Feb, 41 mg; 23 Mar, 37 mg; 26 Apr, 33,3 mg; 22 May, 30 mg; 18 Jun, 27 mg; 5 Aug, 24,3 mg; 1 Sept, 21,9 mg; 28 Sept, 19,7 mg; 26 Oct, 17,7 mg; 23 Nov, 15,9 mg; 21 Dec, 14,3 mg; 18 Jan 2020, 12,9 mg; 16 Feb, 11,6 mg; 15 Mar, 10,44 mg; 12 Apr, 9,4 mg; 10 May, 8,5 mg; 7 Jun, 7,65 mg; 5 Jul, 6,89 mg; 2 Aug, 6,2 mg; 30 Aug, 5,58 mg; 27 Sept, 5,02 mg; 25 Oct, 4,52 mg; 22 Nov, 4,07 mg; 20 Dec, 3,66 mg; 17 Jan, 3,29 mg; 14 Feb, 2,96 mg; 14 Mar, 2,66 mg; 11 Apr, 2,39 mg; 9 May, 2,15 mg; Link to post
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted December 17, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 17, 2020 Because you're feeling better, I added our cheerful "here comes the sun" symbol ☼ to the title of your Intro topic, to show you're recovering. Please continue to let us know how you're doing. I hope you will add your story to our Recovery Success Stories eventually! NEW!!! INTERVIEW with Altostrata, SA's founder NEW!!! Plodding along inch by inch: 12" = 1', 3' = 36 " or 1 yard, 1760 yards = 63,360" or 1 mile Current from 17 Apr 2021: Pristiq 0.2665mg now holding each dose for 3 weeks ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering Oct 2015 My tapering program My Intro (goes to my tapering graph) My website PLEASE NOTE: I am not a medical professional. I provide information and make suggestions. Link to post
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted December 17, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted December 17, 2020 (edited) Altostata, SA's founder, was interviewed recently: INTERVIEW with Altostrata, SA's founder Returning to update is very important to the SA community: On 11/7/2020 at 8:23 AM, Altostrata said: This is such a vital community because members help each other. It wouldn't be what it is without that mutual kindness and attention. One of the things that's very important to each person here is knowing that healing is possible. Please don't just go away when you feel better! "Pay it forward" by updating your Intro topic with your progress and come back to post your success story when you are finally clear of all those awful symptoms. Nothing is more valuable to the community than seeing how recovery happens. You have lots of people hoping you'll get better. Please let them know when you do. Edited December 17, 2020 by ChessieCat NEW!!! INTERVIEW with Altostrata, SA's founder NEW!!! Plodding along inch by inch: 12" = 1', 3' = 36 " or 1 yard, 1760 yards = 63,360" or 1 mile Current from 17 Apr 2021: Pristiq 0.2665mg now holding each dose for 3 weeks ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering Oct 2015 My tapering program My Intro (goes to my tapering graph) My website PLEASE NOTE: I am not a medical professional. I provide information and make suggestions. Link to post
Asta Posted December 17, 2020 Author Share Posted December 17, 2020 I am happy to see a new light symbol and I will definitely return to share my progress. 1 Escitalopram (Cipralex): 17 Mar 2018, 5mg; 18 Mar, 10mg; 8 Jun, 5mg; 19 Jul, 2.5mg; 30 Jul 2018, 0mg Trazodone (Triticco): 28 Apr 2018, 50mg; 18 Jun, 66mg; 19 Jun, 75mg; 4 Oct, 67mg; 10 Nov, 62.5mg; 18 Nov, 62mg; 7 Dec, 56mg; 3 Jan 2019, 50mg; 30 Jan, 45 mg; 24 Feb, 41 mg; 23 Mar, 37 mg; 26 Apr, 33,3 mg; 22 May, 30 mg; 18 Jun, 27 mg; 5 Aug, 24,3 mg; 1 Sept, 21,9 mg; 28 Sept, 19,7 mg; 26 Oct, 17,7 mg; 23 Nov, 15,9 mg; 21 Dec, 14,3 mg; 18 Jan 2020, 12,9 mg; 16 Feb, 11,6 mg; 15 Mar, 10,44 mg; 12 Apr, 9,4 mg; 10 May, 8,5 mg; 7 Jun, 7,65 mg; 5 Jul, 6,89 mg; 2 Aug, 6,2 mg; 30 Aug, 5,58 mg; 27 Sept, 5,02 mg; 25 Oct, 4,52 mg; 22 Nov, 4,07 mg; 20 Dec, 3,66 mg; 17 Jan, 3,29 mg; 14 Feb, 2,96 mg; 14 Mar, 2,66 mg; 11 Apr, 2,39 mg; 9 May, 2,15 mg; Link to post
Moderator Erell Posted December 18, 2020 Moderator Share Posted December 18, 2020 Thank you for taking the time to share ☺ 2006 : 20mg Paroxetine + Bromazepam(no specific dose) 2008 : cold turkey of both 2010 : 20mg Deroxat + Bromazepam 2013: Switch from Bromazepam To Prazepam 2014-June2017 : Prazepam taper 2018 to August 2019 : Paroxetine 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). - 22nd August updosed To 10mg (was at 8.4mg) 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paroxetine. April 2020 : Paxil to Prozac bridge. Details : topic/21457- Current Supplements : magnesium citrate/ fish oil/ evening primrose oil Current medication : 7mg Fluoxetine (since 20 Aug 2020) + 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) (Toothpick Paroxetine from September 2020 to 17th March 2021) Link to post
Asta Posted Wednesday at 06:52 PM Author Share Posted Wednesday at 06:52 PM Hello, short update. I haven’t fully recovered yet, but I feel better every month, which makes me very happy. My main symptom, which is felt from movement is very weak, but only lasts for a short time. Sometimes my short memory is disrupted briefly, but that’s okay because I know it will pass. Sometimes my head is not clear, but not for a long time. Sometimes my ears and throat hurt a little and for a short period of time. With increasing steps, I am marching towards the finish line. I continue to watch my diet. I do not consume sugar, white flour, and coffee. I rarely eat meat and if I do it is organic. I also eat lots of fruits and vegetables. Most of my food is organic so I think it gives my body more strength. I walk a lot, bathe in cold water, and sometimes meditate. I do everything I can to help my body fully recover. And most importantly, I try to stay calm and patient. Warmest wishes of love and light to everyone! No matter how hard it is to stay optimistic, sooner or later we will all recover! P.S. I highly recommend everyone to read the book: “You Are the Placebo: Making Your Mind Matter” by Joe Dispenza. We have all the power, we can help ourselves recover, even from this poison. Or we can at least try to distract our minds from our symptoms until we fully recover. 2 Escitalopram (Cipralex): 17 Mar 2018, 5mg; 18 Mar, 10mg; 8 Jun, 5mg; 19 Jul, 2.5mg; 30 Jul 2018, 0mg Trazodone (Triticco): 28 Apr 2018, 50mg; 18 Jun, 66mg; 19 Jun, 75mg; 4 Oct, 67mg; 10 Nov, 62.5mg; 18 Nov, 62mg; 7 Dec, 56mg; 3 Jan 2019, 50mg; 30 Jan, 45 mg; 24 Feb, 41 mg; 23 Mar, 37 mg; 26 Apr, 33,3 mg; 22 May, 30 mg; 18 Jun, 27 mg; 5 Aug, 24,3 mg; 1 Sept, 21,9 mg; 28 Sept, 19,7 mg; 26 Oct, 17,7 mg; 23 Nov, 15,9 mg; 21 Dec, 14,3 mg; 18 Jan 2020, 12,9 mg; 16 Feb, 11,6 mg; 15 Mar, 10,44 mg; 12 Apr, 9,4 mg; 10 May, 8,5 mg; 7 Jun, 7,65 mg; 5 Jul, 6,89 mg; 2 Aug, 6,2 mg; 30 Aug, 5,58 mg; 27 Sept, 5,02 mg; 25 Oct, 4,52 mg; 22 Nov, 4,07 mg; 20 Dec, 3,66 mg; 17 Jan, 3,29 mg; 14 Feb, 2,96 mg; 14 Mar, 2,66 mg; 11 Apr, 2,39 mg; 9 May, 2,15 mg; Link to post
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