Allreadygone: need help

[ChessieCat]

Have you tried Magnesium?  I have been taking it and several times I stopped and then restarted it and I noticed a difference each time.  It takes the edge off my anxiety.

[Altostrata]

16 hours ago, Allreadygone said:

very violent death stuff that I can’t control most of day accompanied by Depersonalization,depression,anxiety,paranoia

 

Yes, you can manage this. Please use CBT, meditation, or change the channel.

[Allreadygone]

1 hour ago, Altostrata said:

 

Yes, you can manage this. Please use CBT, meditation, or change the channel.

Thx alto I’m using my tools,some Times Akathisia can take over your mind.Im doin all I can to soothe my CNS. @Altostrata

[Allreadygone]

The naturopath doc I saw tues Gave  me some @ChessieCatim thinkin about doin it.thx for ur help I really appreciate u guys 

[ChessieCat]

Magnesium work better if taken throughout the day.

[Allreadygone]

Hi @AltostrataI’ve been reading The Akathisia blogs and it really fits.my question is once we get lamictal to pm should I make some tiny cuts in hopes to help healing?u may already be taking me that way just asking 

[Altostrata]

Please stop reading the akathisia blog. You have never reported akathisia.

 

How is moving the 12.5mg Lamictal going?

[Allreadygone]

it’s goin fine I did 945 today it will be in my notes tonite.I never feel Effexor or lamictal other than the reaction I had tgat put me in this state.The remeron makes me able to eat a Lil and rest a 3/4 hours @Altostrata

[Allreadygone]

11/1

3am woke up on couch went upstairs rested till 4am.

545-31.25 Effexor,25 lamictal 5linsinopril.

630 forced banana down

630-12 work

945-12.5 lamictal

 

symtoms tight knot in stomach,Dp,depressed but not as suicidal ,anxious not able to enjoy anything or smile.Neck and back stiff as always,Wired but can’t rest,intrusive thoughts not as sharp able to try grounding,listened to native Indian music all day.frequent urination. @Altostrata

Edited November 2, 2018 by Altostrata
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[Altostrata]

7 minutes ago, Allreadygone said:

symtoms tight knot in stomach,

 

What time of day do you get this symptom? Is it better or worse at any time of day?

 

Please continue to move 12.5mg Lamictal one hour later every day.

 

Please do not make me remind you over and over about anything. I'm only human and this annoys me.

[Allreadygone]

I have moved it up an hour a day today was 1045.The knot in my stomach hasn’t left me since this all kicked in.There has been a few moments here and there where I was able to eat @Altostratabut it’s persistent.i usually can get something down 9-1030 or after the 7.5dose of remeron.

[Altostrata]

Can you please include changes in the knot in your daily notes?

 

Look at it from my point of view: It's really impossible for me to remember everyone's symptom pattern, including yours, from day to day. I need to see the notes. Have some consideration and don't make me spend more time re-reading your topic. I'd like to have a life, too. Make it easy for me and put those notes out there in a clear way -- including the line breaks, even if you're on your phone.

[Allreadygone]

Ok Sorry @AltostrataI do respect your time and tryin to help me,you are really the only person who gets it.The death stuff just has overwhelmed me this week.The stomach  symtom hasn’t been in every note but has been present all along.Its one of the persistent SEs and I’m doin breathing,calming music,essential oils.work outs etc.if it wouid subside and I couod get hungry it would lift my mood some.my stomach will growl but no hunger.again sorry I’m not communicating better I will be thorough 

[Allreadygone]

12am-woke on couch went upstairs rested till 4

545-effexor31.25mgs/ lamictal25ms /linsinopril5mgs

Dp,knot in stomach, Anxious,depressed,Wired,hot

630-alternatenostril breaths before work

630-12)Forced clam chowder down no appetite,all symtoms present,tried to walk as much as possible and listen to Indian flute

1045-lamictal 12.5mgs

12-3 became agitated,sweating,panic,knot in stomach,doom,some thoughts of death-did deep breathing,walked, grounding, Mindfullness

315-Alternate nostril breathing

330-5Decided to go to a hill in my old neighborhood,agitation,knot less ,decreased,death stuff decreased,agitation decreased.Sat and listened to Indian flute almost fell asleep

530-8 went to gym and walked the neighborhood and read SA,symtoms stayed same death stuff came up Be was Lil easier to move thru

810- forced quesadillas no appetite

9-11 reasearch wds,1030-7.5 remeron knot still there,Dp always there other symtoms less. @Altostrata

Edited November 3, 2018 by Altostrata
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[Altostrata]

What kind of phone are you using? Is it impossible to add line breaks?

 

14 hours ago, Allreadygone said:

12-3 became agitated,sweating,panic,knot in stomach,doom,some thoughts of death-did deep breathing,walked, grounding, Mindfullness

 

Is this different from your prior symptom pattern. and how? Is the sweating a new thing? What do you mean by "agitated"?

 

14 hours ago, Allreadygone said:

knot still there,Dp always there other symtoms less.

 

Were other symptoms less than your prior symptom pattern? What was your sleep pattern?

[Allreadygone]

I have an iPhone,line breaks like /&( )?          My symtom pattern is usually the same as in my notes but yesterday at 315 they were all to lesser degree other than Dp which may lesson a moment here or there.Still had no appetite.My sleep pattern has been wake up on couch 1-3 then rest till 4. @AltostrataI get like a sick no positive outlook feeling I can’t describe that stays with me.

[Altostrata]

A lesser degree is good. Please keep moving the 12.5mg Lamictal.

 

The "sick no positive outlook feeling" is anxiety you're generating with your worrying.

 

To insert line breaks, use the Return button in the lower right corner of your iPhone onscreen keyboard.

[Allreadygone]

Thx @Altostrata Took lamictal at 1145 also took magnesium powder today. watched your video from SF as I live in the east bay.Very well done.TY for continuing to guide me thru this really hard time.

[Allreadygone]

230am-woke up on couch went to bed

545-31.25eefexor25lamictal5linsinoprip 

6-8am-laid in bed listen to Indian flute

symtoms(depressed not as dark,anxiety less,Less agitated,intrusive thoughts passed Lil easier,thoughts of wanting to die less.Dp always there,knot less no appetite.

8am drank bannana shake/magnesium 

1145-12.5lamictal

9-12worked at house,symtoms same 

12-130 walked at park listen to Indian flute

145-forced grilled cheese down(mind wants to eat buy my body won’t allow hunger.knot still there,throat tight 

2-5(worked&walked Park listen to Indian flute whole time.

5-6 gym 

630-930-coached youth football symtoms still there 

10-SA update forced macaroni down.    

@Altostrata

1030-7.5 remeron 

[Altostrata]

Much better. Thank you for the line breaks. Continue to move 12.5mg Lamictal later in the day.

 

You were getting an adverse reaction from taking 37.5mg Lamictal in the morning. Lamotrigine often works better in smaller dosages.

[Allreadygone]

I pray your right the updose for a week must have completely destabilized me,is it because the Effexor has been lowered from 75-31.25 over the year maybe it needed to be lowered as well.I know drug interactions change with cuts?orry for the question,and thx for all your help @Altostrata

[Allreadygone]

3am-woke in couch went bed

545-31.25Effexor 25lamictal 5linsinopril

7am-bannana Shake 

730-12(Symtoms DP,Anxious,less dark depression,easier intrusive thoughts to get thru,Thiughts of death less,twitching less)

1145-12.5lamictal,fish oil,magnesium 

12-pizza Less forced still not hungry

1-430 listened to flute music,alternate nostril breathing,tapping.Symtoms were manageable.

630-Mexican food able to eat less forced 

7-10 was finally able to sit down and watch Tv and not freak out.Starting to feel tired.symtoms Less other than Dp @Altostrata

[Allreadygone]

Forgot to add had some chest anxiety 10-11pm before falling asleep @Altostratacouod be the later Lamictal as I had that symtom when first titrating up,just a thought 

[Altostrata]

Hi, Allreadygone. Can I rely on you to keep moving 12.5mg an hour later each day without reminding you all the time?

[Allreadygone]

Yes u can @Altostratai have moved up an hour every day I believe u said keep goin till it’s 6pm correct?

[Altostrata]

17 minutes ago, Allreadygone said:

keep goin till it’s 6pm correct?

 

Correct, and keep tracking your symptoms.

 

It looks like there has been improvement.

[Allreadygone]

Yes,last 2/3 days have been baby steps,I’m tryin to use all my tools when stuff comes up and not worry about a fall back @Altostrata

[Allreadygone]

3am wake head upstairs 

545-31.25 Effexor,25lamictal 5linsinopril 

6-8am laid in bed breathing 

8-9 yoga&breathing(symtoms anxiety,DP, ,depression,intrusive thoughts, twitching, Death thoughts all less,sense of doom less

9am-Bannana Shake,fish oil,magnesium 

10-11am-walked Lafayette resovoir with wife(stuff came up but got thru it)

1245-12.5 lamictal 

1-3 worked at storage(symtoms all there but stayed less)

4-6pm Gym lifted weights no Runnin due to poisen oak from work.

7-10 ate bbq no hunger but able to eat wth lots of water to chase food down.Also able to watch football game and be around my family.Dp always there but I’m m used to it after 20yrs 

1030-7.5?remeron @Altostrata

[Altostrata]

That looks good, keep moving the 12.5mg Lamictal.

[Allreadygone]

Ok @Altostrata

[Allreadygone]

1am-woke went to bed sleep not great 

545-31.25 Effexor 25lamictal 5linsinopril 

6am-woke with a lot of anxiety in chest which continued in drive to work,deep breathing and banana Shake seemed to clear it up.All symtoms still less.

630-12work 

12-ate nations lil easier to get down knot in stomach being less.

145-12.5 lamictal 

12-3 finish work(alternate nostril breathing)(intrusive thoughts come up but able to use mindfullness to pass

5-10pm for the first time in 2months was able to sit still and watch tv and football film without wanting to die or intrusive thoughts.

1030-7.5 remeron @Altostrata

[Allreadygone]

One thing I havnt put in symtoms because of all the psychological pain is my neck and back pain,was able to make an appt and actually make it there .ferls like pinched nerve couod be unrelated just wanted to make note @Altostrataalso noticed I twitch more when doin deep breathing

[Allreadygone]

3am-woke couch went bed 

545-31.25 Effexor,25lamictsl 5 linsinopril 

6am banana shake alternate nostril breaths 

630-12 work(symtoms all the same as yesterday about same level,I get times where it’s lil easier and times I really have to breath but able to calm down.Dp,anxiety,Depression ,dread,Death stuff,twitches Do seem more faint not as strong)(been Lil easier to get food down still not really hungry throat tight.

12-chiropracter for bad back and neck pain.

1230-3 work I get chest anxiety at times and just deep breath to help.

245-12.5 lamictal 

4-5 went to storage alternate nostril breaths 

630-8 football practice with youth was able to get thru it felt Lil anger with practice fieid situation,made me very anoxiuis did breathing.

8-10 watched tv read SA 

1030-7.5 remeron 

ive noticed I have bowel movements after I get food down except at night. @Altostrata

[Altostrata]

Looks like splitting the Lamictal dose is working well.

 

Up to you to set your bowel movement habits. Psyllium can be helpful.

[Allreadygone]

Ok thx @Altostrataya the mental pain has gotten softer,still there but not as sharp.pray the trend continues.wirh my BMovements They Just come After I eat like my metabolism is on high speed.Frequent urination as well which I think is anxiety related 

[ChessieCat]

13 hours ago, Altostrata said:

Up to you to set your bowel movement habits. Psyllium can be helpful.

 

I found adding a few prunes and 1/8 cup of bran sticks to my muesli for breakfast has helped with this problem.