Alanmane: try hard

[sunnysideup69]

Happy birthday to you! Also, you're 28 and this way that you currently feel isn't going to last forever. I used to hate it when I was 28 and people said this to me, but you've got YEARS of your life left to live, god willing. 

Anyway, wishing you much healing in your 28th year  

[Alanmane]

2 hours ago, sunnysideup69 said:

¡Feliz cumpleaños a ti! Además, tienes 28 años y de esta manera sientes que no durará para siempre. Solía odiarlo cuando tenía 28 años y la gente me decía esto, pero tienes AÑOS de tu vida por vivir, si Dios quiere. 

De todos modos, deseándote mucha curación a los 28 años  

Thank you ! It is true that there is still a lot to live, that makes you want to overcome problems. I hope that this year my recovery will be greater, although I start it at a difficult time.

 

A hug!

[Alanmane]

12: 00: Wake up without anxiety, ruminating for a while in bed, I have a coffee and I go to sunbathe on the terrace.

 

13:00: I take 35 pearls of effexor, like without appetite.

 

14:00: In bed, reading about WD and trying to think clearly.

 

15:00: I go to the terrace to sunbathe and write.

 

16:00: I talk to a friend on the phone, it's hard to find the words sometimes, nice conversation.

 

17:00: I am going for a walk, I come home and think about what happens to me, I read success stories on the web. 18:00 Being at home, I go out to see my grandmother to give me the birthday present.

 

19:00: At home I hang out, lower anxiety.

 

20:00: I have dinner, I have a normal deposition.

 

21:00: I watch videos about abstinence, chat with someone. I feel palpitations in the back of my head.

 

22:00: I'm still in bed watching videos, trying to play a mobile game but I don't feel the motivation that I had for a week.

 

23:00: In bed, anguish over thinking about what he faces next week, going back to work and trying to act as if nothing happened. Palpitations in the back of my head.

 

The day has been better than the previous ones, although I do not feel stable, I think that the best thing will be to return next Friday to work and show myself that I can function, but I am afraid that I am not up to it and know that some people know my situation It creates insecurity for me.

 

 

[Hanna72]

Hi @Alanmane

9 minutes ago, Alanmane said:

The day has been better than the previous ones

That is great, I am glad you are seeing a little improvement, even though we usually want to have more. This is a very good sign👍
 

 

11 minutes ago, Alanmane said:

I think that the best thing will be to return next Friday to work and show myself that I can function, but I am afraid that I am not up to it and know that some people know my situation It creates insecurity for me.

 

 

I know how this feels.

But let me tell you that your stability is the most important thing  for you right now . Dont  let other people’s opinion or awareness of your situation wear you down. They have no idea of what you are going through and probably would be amazed if they only knew how much strength you are pulling💪
Keep your head up high, and try to ignore those thoughts in your head. Cause they are only thoughts. You will do good, it will improve, just see that it already has🙏 Hold on to that.

My best wishes to you, and may tomorrow be a little bit better for you.
 

[Alanmane]

13 hours ago, Hanna72 said:

Hola @Alanmane

Eso es genial, me alegra que esté viendo una pequeña mejora, a pesar de que generalmente queremos tener más. Esta es una muy buena señal 👍
 

 

Sé como se siente esto.

Pero déjame decirte que tu estabilidad es lo más importante para ti en este momento. No permita que la opinión de otras personas o el conocimiento de su situación lo desgasten. No tienen idea de lo que está pasando y probablemente se sorprenderían si supieran cuánta fuerza está tirando 💪
Mantenga la cabeza en alto e intente ignorar esos pensamientos en su cabeza. Porque son solo pensamientos. Harás bien, mejorará, solo mira que ya tiene 🙏 Aferrate a eso.

Mis mejores deseos para ti, y que mañana sea un poco mejor para ti.
 

Thanks for the cheering!

 

I greatly appreciate the support I receive from you. I have requested the discharge to go to work on Friday, I know it will not be easy but I have no option, extending the leave would be a mistake, leaving the job too.

 

I have to make an effort even if it costs and give my best. I'm going to start taking fish oil and magnesium to try to be more stable, making a little improvement is all I need.

 

I hope you are well and continue fighting as you have been doing.❤️

[Alanmane]

I have decided to return to work on Friday, I know that facing my obligations is positive despite having suffered a crisis a few days ago.

 

In the last weeks my mood was perceived by several people from work and the day before taking the sick leave I had a few failures at work and an argument with a colleague, this added to the tension of weeks before made me fall into more anxiety and depression.

 

I have been idle for days and I am not feeling well with this, nor do I feel like doing any activity like reading, drawing, playing ... I think that taking on the challenge of returning to work can activate me. I have two months left to finish the contract, I want to at least finish, if they don't renew me I can find another job but above all I want to end the contract despite feeling fragile.

[Alanmane]

11:00 I wake up but I don't have the strength or desire to get up, I start to think about what should I do with my life at this point.

 

12:00: I get up and have a coffee, I spend time doing nothing, watching TV.

 

13:00 I go to my health center to ask for medical discharge to work this Friday. I feel anxiety, nervousness, tension, fear, I do not think that I will be able to return without suffering but I know that I must do it for my own good.

 

14:00 Like, I do normal deposition.

 

15:00 I spend time in bed, I take a short walk. Anguish, anxiety at the thought that I have to write to my bosses to say I'm coming back.

 

16:00 I go for a walk, I feel a little better.

 

17:00 I'm going to see my grandmother and my uncle, I manage to distract myself a little. I buy Valerian and take a capsule, it helps to calm the tension.

 

18: 00-19: 00 I go home and spend time reading about antidepressant withdrawal.

 

20:00 I have dinner with a little more appetite, I'm going for a walk, I feel better, normal deposition.

 

21: 00-22: 30 I hang out in bed, I got up late but I feel tired.

 

No one can know if this that I am experiencing is pure abstinence or depression, but it is very similar to depressive states that I have experienced in the past and that I have never tried to overcome without medication, I do not know if it is possible to get out of this so deep without psychotherapy or drugs. I hope it can be posible.

[Alanmane]

14:00 I get up late after many hours of sleep, drink coffee, lower anxiety

 

15:00 As without appetite, I go out for a walk, feeling of derealization when going outside.

 

16:00 I am at home without motivation, thinking about what is happening to me, thinking that I must return to work on Friday.

 

17:00 at home

 

18:00 I go to the street, I feel confused and tense

 

19:00 In bed, reading on the mobile, focusing on my problem and how to solve it.

 

20:00 As without much appetite, I went to buy sushi to go.  

 

21-00: In bed with the mobile reading about issues related to my situation.

[Altostrata]

Other than your habit of mind that causes you to be pessimistic about your future, is there some reason you cannot go back to work? Activity might be good for you.

 

You'll feel better with regular sleep hours.

 

Regarding coronavirus, is it safe for you to go to work?

[Alanmane]

8 hours ago, Altostrata said:

Aparte de su hábito mental que lo hace ser pesimista sobre su futuro, ¿hay alguna razón por la que no pueda volver a trabajar? La actividad puede ser buena para ti.

 

Te sentirás mejor con horas regulares de sueño.

 

Con respecto al coronavirus, ¿es seguro para usted ir a trabajar?

In situations of anguish, anxiety, low spirits, I have a marked tendency to self-sabotage and think catastrophically, it is something rooted years ago and that now without a "therapeutic" effect (I doubt that 35 effexor pearls cause any antidepressant effect) comes out to the light. I have a lot of work that I am going to tackle with psychotherapy.

 

Tomorrow I am going to go to work, despite having brain fog and anxiety fatigue that I have been feeling, I know that it is the best thing, being active even if there is stress can be beneficial for me.

 

On the coronavirus, I gave negative and in my residence there is no case so there is no problem.

 

Thanks Alto.

[Altostrata]

Alan, you may not want to believe it, but I believe you are on the path to healing. You need to learn to be your own best friend, not a mean critic.

 

Give yourself peace. See

 

Non-drug techniques to cope with emotional symptoms

 

Easing your way into meditation for a stressed-out nervous system

 

Music for self-care: calms hyperalertness, anxiety, aids relaxation and sleep

 

Ways to cope with daily anxiety

 

Shame, guilt, regret, and self-criticism

[Hanna72]

8 hours ago, Alanmane said:

Tomorrow I am going to go to work, despite having brain fog and anxiety fatigue that I have been feeling, I know that it is the best thing, being active even if there is stress can be beneficial for me.

I feel the same, being able to work helps me a lot. Even though it is hard sometimes due to withdrawals symptoms. 
Good luck tomorrow🙏

[Alanmane]

1 hour ago, Hanna72 said:

Siento lo mismo, poder trabajar me ayuda mucho. Aunque a veces es difícil debido a los síntomas de retiros. 
Buena suerte mañana 🙏

Thank you very much, today I feel more anxious to know that tomorrow I have a challenge to face, even so I know that there is no other option and I will do my best. I'll tell how it went.

 

A hug!

[Alanmane]

1 hour ago, Altostrata said:

Alan, es posible que no quieras creerlo, pero creo que estás en el camino hacia la curación. Necesitas aprender a ser tu mejor amigo, no un crítico malo.

 

Date paz. Ver

 

Técnicas no farmacológicas para hacer frente a los síntomas emocionales.

 

Abriendo camino a la meditación para un sistema nervioso estresado

 

Música para el autocuidado: calma la hipertensión, la ansiedad, ayuda a la relajación y al sueño

 

Formas de lidiar con la ansiedad diaria

 

Vergüenza, culpa, arrepentimiento y autocrítica

I agree that my beliefs and ways of thinking do not help, but as you say, it is best to have faith right now. I'm going to read those points.

 

Thanks Alto.

[Cocopuffz17]

6 hours ago, Alanmane said:

Thank you very much, today I feel more anxious to know that tomorrow I have a challenge to face, even so I know that there is no other option and I will do my best. I'll tell how it went.

 

A hug!

You will do great! Smash that challenge! 

[Alanmane]

Update:

A few days ago I went back to work, the first day was quite difficult due to anxiety and tension, angry coworkers because they think that because they have anxiety, they should not take a sick leave since that is a run away from the problem and not face it, people judge quickly without knowing the full story, still facing all this is going well for me. I no longer awake with anxiety, I have a little more appetite and my stools are normal.

 

The stress is there but it has gone down. I realize that I care too much about how others see me, and if I see myself as a disaster my mind reacts believing that others see me as I see myself.

 

I still feel that this crisis that I have suffered after a few weeks of a reduction of 5 pearls has been due to taking less Effexor and other situations in my life. I am not feeling well but enough to continue working, I find it hard to accept that my concentration is poor and my memory too, I feel confused many times, I suppose I am so deep in myself that looking abroad is in second place .

 

I am going to continue with 35 pearls for a long time, now I am not in a hurry, I will not risk more.

 

Thanks for all the support.

[Hanna72]

Yes, good job💪
So glad you are feeling a little bit better. 
Don’t listen to criticism from other people, yes people judge, but it is up to us to ignore it, and don’t take it to heart. Everyone in here DO understand, I have myself stopped to explain what I am going through, people don’t understand, and that’s ok. 
 This life is for you, live it your way.

You are strong, believe in yourself 🙏

[Alanmane]

18 hours ago, Hanna72 said:

Sí, buen trabajo 💪 Me
alegra que te sientas un poco mejor. 
No escuche las críticas de otras personas, sí, la gente juzga, pero depende de nosotros ignorarlo y no tomarlo en serio. Todos aquí entienden, me he detenido a explicar por lo que estoy pasando, la gente no entiende, y eso está bien. 
 Esta vida es para ti, vívela a tu manera.

Eres fuerte, cree en ti mismo 🙏

thanks for the support!

 

Yes, I was not used to working with a group of many people and I am seeing that there are people who quickly get angry or cross you off something without even talking to you, if you are not in the mood it affects and hurts but you have to continue with life and ignore those people.

 

People like to talk about others, it is a way of being distracted but it is toxic many times. I am still affected by the opinion of others and I know that it will take time and I will have to do things well to have a good work environment again, also my mood is somewhat dark and people prefer cheerful, energetic and positive, I get a little disappointed because I just do my job but I speak what is necessary and I don't feel very comfortable, that's fine.

 

A greeting!

[Alanmane]

I can safely say that the point I am at (35 pearls after more than two years reducing from 150mg), is not good for me. Maybe it is mental fog, or stress, my character and personality after years taking antidepressants ... the fact is that I do not know what is happening to me, it is too difficult to get something clear because I do not have enough concentration or mental agility to understand why why i feel like this Every time I feel less pleasure, hope, love, self-esteem, security ... if I want to talk to someone I feel that I do not express myself well because ideas do not come out smoothly, my relationship with others is not ideal either because I do not think it can help Nothing since I don't feel like talking, nor that they know why I am now so introverted, grumpy, insecure, unstable ... I tend to think that my head has been damaged by using effexor and that without it I am useless (be aware that Your cognitive skills are depleted (it's hard to accept, I feel slow, silly, less than others) I have no idea if this will improve or if I will become with a healthy and agile mind, but I need it sooner.

 

If I were given a choice between living without antidepressants and being useless unable to think or take them and being able to use my head, I would choose to take these drugs. I am making a great effort to work and not make mistakes, I forget things that I was told minutes ago, or I listen to ideas and do not understand them because I do not have much attention.

 

It is terrible. Even so, I'm going to give him more time, although my self-esteem is being seriously damaged. Obviously I'm not in a hurry to finish my tapper, I don't mind waiting the years that it takes, I just want to feel joy and satisfaction for something.

[Altostrata]

Hang in there. A. You're doing well, having gone back to work.

 

Perhaps you can change your style of responding to your co-workers, say: "We all need to take care of ourselves as best we can right now." Is there someone you can practice with, to train yourself to respond to criticism? People consult psychotherapists for this -- how to set self-protective boundaries in interactions with other people. This will give you more confidence.

 

You are in the stage of recovery where you need to change some habits of mind, such as being mean to yourself:

 

On 5/12/2020 at 2:14 AM, Alanmane said:

The stress is there but it has gone down. I realize that I care too much about how others see me, and if I see myself as a disaster my mind reacts believing that others see me as I see myself.

 

I think your decision to hold at 35 beads is a good one, particularly since you've just made a big change, going back to work. I would focus on learning coping skills for your work relatiionships. When you feel more comfortable there, you might consider continuing tapering VERY SLOWLY.

[Alanmane]

31 minutes ago, Altostrata said:

Cuelga ahí. A. Lo estás haciendo bien, habiendo vuelto al trabajo.

 

Tal vez pueda cambiar su estilo de respuesta a sus compañeros de trabajo y decir: "Todos necesitamos cuidarnos lo mejor que podamos en este momento". ¿Hay alguien con quien pueda practicar para entrenarse para responder a las críticas? Las personas consultan a psicoterapeutas para esto: cómo establecer límites de autoprotección en las interacciones con otras personas. Esto te dará más confianza.

 

Estás en la etapa de recuperación donde necesitas cambiar algunos hábitos mentales, como ser malo contigo mismo:

 

 

Creo que su decisión de mantener 35 cuentas es buena, particularmente porque acaba de hacer un gran cambio, volviendo al trabajo. Me enfocaría en aprender habilidades de afrontamiento para sus relaciones laborales. Cuando se sienta más cómodo allí, podría considerar continuar disminuyendo MUY LENTAMENTE

I think I'm just still in shock from everything that happened a few days ago, I'm seeing what life is like without the effect of these drugs and it's not easy for me, I'm untrained, I think my cognitive symptoms, my emotional state, my perception. ... everything is linked to the withdrawal, I am pretty sure that if I had continued taking, for example 37.5mg all this I had not lost. I am talking to a therapist by phone since now is the only way, I also see that I can cope with the work despite my negative and distorted perception (I know it is but I still feel emotions that do not fit with reality and I do not know how to solve this, I guess it's a matter of time).

 

What worries me the most is my passive and depressive state is related to a slower, less creative mind, with little agility, and this disturbs me a lot, does not identify me with this new me nor do I really want to accept it, I feel silly not to receive thoughts or ideas, finding words to have a conversation ... it is as if something is missing in my mind to make it work as it should. All this is very complex.

 

Still I hope to learn to deal with this situation and not sink.

[Altostrata]

13 minutes ago, Alanmane said:

Still I hope to learn to deal with this situation and not sink.

 

Alan, the good news is you know what to change now, among your habits of mind. You know you need to take care of yourself by replacing self-sabotaging, blaming thoughts with thoughts that are not hurtful to your well-being.

 

Here in the US, therapists are talking to people over Google Meet and other Internet video apps. You might be able to do that with a therapist in your area, who can coach you in developing new habits of mind.

[Alanmane]

30 minutes ago, Altostrata said:

 

Alan, la buena noticia es que sabes qué cambiar ahora, entre tus hábitos mentales. Sabes que necesitas cuidarte reemplazando los pensamientos de auto sabotaje y culpa por pensamientos que no son perjudiciales para tu bienestar.

 

Aquí en los EE. UU., Los terapeutas están hablando con personas a través de Google Meet y otras aplicaciones de video de Internet. Es posible que pueda hacer eso con un terapeuta en su área, que pueda entrenarlo para desarrollar nuevos hábitos mentales.

Just when I went into crisis I searched the internet and found an association that gives psychological support by phone, I called and I'm doing therapy with a psychologist, my idea is to physically go to a therapist when the quarantine ends.

 

Stop, surely you see from all my messages that I am a very worried, obsessive person with low self-esteem, but do you find that the cognitive symptoms that I describe are common in abstinence? I have read people who have gone through similar things, others who have not ... I know it is difficult to give an answer but I am distressed to be so disconnected and absent-minded. a greeting

[Altostrata]

Bravo! I think you are a sensitive person who will improve greatly when you can realign your habits of mind.

[Alanmane]

Update: More than a week since I returned to work, this is still a source of stress and I think it exacerbates my symptoms, even so until June I do not finish the contract and I do not know if I will be renewed or if I will leave there.

 

My condition is still difficult although I can function with effort, I do not have any pleasant sensation, I move in fear and anxiety all day worried about what happens to me and how it will progress, I know that I have a lot to do with it but it costs me a lot do not pay attention to my difficulties because my mind is not clear and I cannot think well. I don't feel myself and I don't like how I am lately, I think about resetting a small amount of pearls (1,2?) To test if my mood rises a little.

 

I feel miserable and that's why I think others see me like this, I live in a distorted reality that I feel very real, I'm going to try to hold on there.

[Altostrata]

Alan, it appears much of your low mood is due to anxiety at work and habits of mind that are self-sabotaging. We have discussed your getting counseling for this.

 

It does not seem your low mood is a withdrawal symptom.

 

If you want to take an antidepressant to manage your mood, you can do so. But you will never be able to go off because you will always be faced with difficult situations.

 

I hope whatever dosage you choose works for you.

[Alanmane]

On 20/5/2020 at 20:18, Altostrata said:

Alan, parece que gran parte de tu bajo estado de ánimo se debe a la ansiedad en el trabajo y a los hábitos mentales que se auto sabotean. Hemos discutido su consejería para esto.

 

No parece que tu bajo humor sea un síntoma de abstinencia.

 

Si desea tomar un antidepresivo para controlar su estado de ánimo, puede hacerlo. Pero nunca podrá salir porque siempre se enfrentará a situaciones difíciles.

 

Espero que cualquier dosis que elija funcione para usted.

At the moment, although it is very difficult, I will continue with the dose I take, I do not plan to make changes

 

About my low mood and my mismanagement of emotions I will continue with psychotherapy, I started three weeks ago to talk to a psychologist on the phone and for free, she uses psychoanalysis but for the moment I chat once a week. It helps and makes me realize things that I have deep inside.

 

Now I am very sensitive to stress and I am invaded by insecurity, I am sure that my poor cognitive performance is linked to the depression I feel and anxiety. Changing this is slow but I think it is possible and at least I am facing work, which is something that causes me anguish right now because it requires concentration and serenity that I lack.

 

My manager is testing me with difficult tasks and I think it is so that I can show that I can do it. At the moment I am able so I will continue like this.

 

 A greeting

[Altostrata]

Do what you can to remain calm and change the channel when that mean voice starts to talk to you.

[Alanmane]

10 hours ago, Altostrata said:

Haga lo que pueda para mantener la calma y cambiar el canal cuando esa voz mala comience a hablar con usted.

I'm trying to do it, I'm sure that after this drop in mood there will be a rise, it always is. I realize that for years I have not felt well without taking these drugs and everything is different now, I have no choice but to learn to manage my state. My brain fog is caused by anxiety, of this I am sure, once I learn to eliminate it all problems will be solved.

[Alanmane]

Hello everyone !

 

I come back here to tell that I managed to get out of the state of extreme anxiety and anguish that I experienced a month ago. When it happened, I blamed abstinence because it's something I'm obsessed with and too afraid of, but I realized this was a lie that I believed not to hold myself responsible and yes to the drug, I'm not saying it's not difficult leave an antidepressant, but I am sure that fear and all the horror stories read have made me somatize to unimaginable levels.

 

Now I take 30 pearls from a 37.5mg capsule (160 pearls), my condition is not optimal but I can work, I am starting to think that most of the discomfort I feel is because of how I see life and myself, my self-esteem, my fears, my beliefs ... I have decided to stop being afraid to reach 0 mg, I am very close and the dose I take is ridiculous, I doubt it will have more effect than the psychological one that I give it, even so I am not going to quit or go fast, although I want to forget about counting pearls every day, I am very tired of all this and afraid of who I am without drugs.

 

What bothers me most about my current state is anhedonia, fuzzy thinking, poor mental clarity ... there are times when I think that now I am this silly because of taking these drugs, but I cannot know for sure so It doesn't matter, the fact is that I'm sick of complaining and I need to disconnect from all this.

 

I hope to return one day and tell that I am already well and I have managed to completely leave effexor. a greeting

[Alanmane]

I want to record my current situation: I have recently reached a point where I feel very vulnerable and I am convinced that much of it is because of how I am living reality with a dose of 26 pearls of effexor. I have suffered very severe "depressive" states on several occasions, what I am experiencing is a milder but paradoxical form, I think I can handle it because I am more mature and because I no longer use marijuana for years, I still see my mind in ruins, emotionally I am very weak and my character has changed to a fearful, anxious, depressive, without desire or strength ... I feel pathetic and I cannot connect with people as I would like, the belief that I am not worth anything is very strong and it gets to the point where if I try to express myself and speak, my words get stuck and I show insecurity and nervousness.

 

On the other hand I am better at work although anxiety makes me not enjoy, now I do not enjoy anything, I feel that I am going downhill and that what I am after what I have lived is not worth it, I will still follow this road.

[Cocopuffz17]

I know how you feel! You need to hang on and stabilize and it will get better! It will come back. I thought the exact same thing. It may not feel like it but your body is healing! You will get there! Everyday that passes is one day closer to being healed ! 

[Alanmane]

18 hours ago, Cocopuffz17 said:

¡Se como te sientes! ¡Necesitas aferrarte y estabilizarte y mejorará! Regresará ¡Pensé exactamente lo mismo! Puede que no lo parezca, ¡pero tu cuerpo está sanando! ¡Llegarás ahí! ¡Cada día que pasa está un día más cerca de ser sanado! 

It will surely improve, now I only feel ashamed for who I am, a 28-year-old man scared and too fragile, the only thing I feel all the time is a paralyzing fear that does not allow me to live and I do not know or imagine that this is going to get better, I no longer I have a desire to tattoo or draw, I never have an appetite, I have no energy, I hardly speak to people at work, I have no sexual appetite, I feel my mind constantly confused and without mental agility.

 

This I don't think is WD, this is what the medication was hiding and honestly it is beyond me, how am I going to fix my life if I am not even able to think? Now I don't know who I am, I feel like I'm losing my mind. I decided to stop the antidepressants and I will come to the end, maybe I spend a lot of time being dysfunctional, maybe I never feel good.

 

It's a living hell to feel like this.

[Altostrata]

You must stop punishing yourself, Alanmane. Can you talk to your therapist about this?

[Cocopuffz17]

18 hours ago, Alanmane said:

It will surely improve, now I only feel ashamed for who I am, a 28-year-old man scared and too fragile, the only thing I feel all the time is a paralyzing fear that does not allow me to live and I do not know or imagine that this is going to get better, I no longer I have a desire to tattoo or draw, I never have an appetite, I have no energy, I hardly speak to people at work, I have no sexual appetite, I feel my mind constantly confused and without mental agility.

 

This I don't think is WD, this is what the medication was hiding and honestly it is beyond me, how am I going to fix my life if I am not even able to think? Now I don't know who I am, I feel like I'm losing my mind. I decided to stop the antidepressants and I will come to the end, maybe I spend a lot of time being dysfunctional, maybe I never feel good.

 

It's a living hell to feel like this.

 

Never say that again. Coming off these drugs is the hardest thing a person will ever do in their life.  

 

Your emotions will come back. All of those things you stated I had and have reversed with time since coming off my medication. 

 

 Your body needs time to heal. IMO nutrition changes are absolutely necessary. I tried 3 times before to get off of my medication and was completely unable to. I had to change my whole lifestyle to be able to weather this storm .

 

Everyday that passes is one day closer to being healed 

[wantrelief]

Hi Alanmane,

 

I have been rooting for you from afar and wanted to let you know that I often feel similarly to what you have written (I am always impressed with how well you express yourself when English is not your native language!) so I do think what you are going through is related to withdrawal. 

 

I also worry about how it will be once off of the drug (or drugs in my case) but have to believe we will eventually be like others here who didn't feel well and healed.  It just all takes way more time than we would have ever imagined and in the meantime it is so so hard.

 

I am with you as we navigate this most difficult of journeys.