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I promised myself a few things I wanted to accomplish this year.  Finish reading Anna Karenina, loose 10 lbs and discontinue suboxone and lexapro.  I’m halfway through my book.  I’m gaining weight at about 1-2 lbs a month and only halfway off of the pills.

 

I have been on both the lexapro and the suboxone for about three years.  Best and worst three years of my life.  Best in that I have a home, a caring partner whom I love, my family and my health is well and I’m enjoying work.  Why would I discontinue the drugs if things have continuously improved while I’ve been on them?  I guess I just want to see what life is like free of man made drugs.

 

i have been on some shape or form of antidepressants my entire life.  Since he age of about 17 the doctors have shoved medications down my throat and convinced me there is something wrong or different with my brain chemistry.  It almost seemed romantic; that I was a sort of damaged or broken being and blamed it for all my shortcomings and excused my addiction and compulsive behavior. 

 

I am 41 now.  Happily coupled for 6 years strong and no longer physically addicted to opiates as I was prior to the subs and the lexapro.

 

I am ready to experience life on my own terms and see who I really am underneath all these drugs.  

 

I have striggled with weight and lost and lost and then gained nearly 60 lbs and I feel like a sugar addiction is to blame, partially involved by the opiates.

 

I am here to share my experience and provide and receive feedback and tips.  It’s a bumpy ride.  The withdrawal combo from the subs and lexapro is terrible, like the flu plus feeling mad in my head.

 

Yelling and agitated, tired and depressed with a touch of chills and body aches now. My taper started about a month ago, I steadily decreased both my 4mg dosage of Suboxome and the 30 mg dosage of Lexapro to about 2 mg and 5 mg respectively before I’m now only still taking the suboxone while completely discontinuing the lexapro.  I have been microdosing psilocybin tiny amounts to help me get through my demanding job that requires public speaking and giving training / instruction.

 

Wishing everybody a very safe recovery and hoping to share my experience and learn from others too.

 

God bless,

 

OlliePop the Cockapoo’s Mom, Yvonne.

 

 

October 19, 2018 2.5 mg Lexapro & 2 mg Suboxone

Taper started in September 2018, Lexapro from 30 to 20 to 10 to 5mg over 4 weeks stopped after last 3 days to 0.

Suboxone from 16mg to 8 to 4 to 2 over last three weeks.  Now on 2mg daily.

Last three years prior to my taper:

Suboxome, 8 mg twice daily.

Lexapro, 30 mg once daily.

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Thank you Chessie Cat, I hope this will help.  I’ve completed my signature.

 

I have been in bed all day.  Not sure how to shake this awful dibilitatiing feeling.  I am lathargic and having flu symptoms.  I had to take a small chip of my Suboxone but it’s not helping.  I know the real problem is the Lexapro.  It has ruined my mind.

October 19, 2018 2.5 mg Lexapro & 2 mg Suboxone

Taper started in September 2018, Lexapro from 30 to 20 to 10 to 5mg over 4 weeks stopped after last 3 days to 0.

Suboxone from 16mg to 8 to 4 to 2 over last three weeks.  Now on 2mg daily.

Last three years prior to my taper:

Suboxome, 8 mg twice daily.

Lexapro, 30 mg once daily.

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Welcome, Olliepop.

 

When was your last dose of Lexapro?

 

You have been brave but I fear a little too brave. You probably have withdrawal syndrome now, that's what's keeping you in bed. A tiny bit, such as 1mg, of Lexapro might help a lot. You can taper off that by miniscule amounts later.

 

Please don't change your Suboxone dosing for now.

 

For titrating Lexapro, see Tips for tapering off Lexapro (escitalopram)

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Hi Altostrata,

 

it was about bout three days ago.  I was forced to take a little chip of lexapro just now, maybe 2.5 mg.

 

I feel awful, very depressed and wish for this to end.

 

Thank you for your response and support.

October 19, 2018 2.5 mg Lexapro & 2 mg Suboxone

Taper started in September 2018, Lexapro from 30 to 20 to 10 to 5mg over 4 weeks stopped after last 3 days to 0.

Suboxone from 16mg to 8 to 4 to 2 over last three weeks.  Now on 2mg daily.

Last three years prior to my taper:

Suboxome, 8 mg twice daily.

Lexapro, 30 mg once daily.

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3 hours ago, Olliepop said:

I was forced to take a little chip of lexapro just now, maybe 2.5 mg.

 

Pleased add date and dose to your drug signature.  Thank you.

 MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:    13 November 2021 -  0mg Pristiq      

Woohoo!!!  Finally off Pristiq   

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

My full tapering program     My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)    My website

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.  Please DO NOT TAG me -thank you.

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Update:

 

Called my doctor, today was unbearable.  Crying and felt very despaired.  She wrote a script for 10mg and recommended staying on 10 until see her next week and we discuss.

 

Will keep all informed.

 

Thanks for the support and feedback, as well as patience as I learn the ropes on this kind forum.

October 19, 2018 2.5 mg Lexapro & 2 mg Suboxone

Taper started in September 2018, Lexapro from 30 to 20 to 10 to 5mg over 4 weeks stopped after last 3 days to 0.

Suboxone from 16mg to 8 to 4 to 2 over last three weeks.  Now on 2mg daily.

Last three years prior to my taper:

Suboxome, 8 mg twice daily.

Lexapro, 30 mg once daily.

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I am unable to see if my signature is posting.  Can you confirm also if it meets he criteria / format?

October 19, 2018 2.5 mg Lexapro & 2 mg Suboxone

Taper started in September 2018, Lexapro from 30 to 20 to 10 to 5mg over 4 weeks stopped after last 3 days to 0.

Suboxone from 16mg to 8 to 4 to 2 over last three weeks.  Now on 2mg daily.

Last three years prior to my taper:

Suboxome, 8 mg twice daily.

Lexapro, 30 mg once daily.

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Hi Olliepop,

I can see your signature.  Thanks.  Good job!

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Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time).

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Yes, it is.  A few details to adjust only.  I posted on your introduction topic with directions.

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Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988.  In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm.

Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time).

5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014)

12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs.  My last psycho med ever!  Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to

2016 Dec 16 medication free!!

Longer signature post here, with current supplements.

Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016.  And.....I quit smoking 11/2021.  Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜

None of my posts are intended as medical advice.  Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. manymoretodays

 

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29 minutes ago, Olliepop said:

She wrote a script for 10mg and recommended staying on 10 until see her next week and we discuss.

 

Before increasing your dose from 2.5mg please read post #1 of this topic:  About reinstating and stabilizing to reduce withdrawal symptoms

 

It takes about 4 days for a dose change to get to full level in the blood and a bit longer for it to register in the brain.  Going back up to 10mg may be too much.  Once we get withdrawal symptoms the CNS can become sensitised.

 

It's important to try not to panic and stay as calm and patient as possible during this time as the drug is getting into your system.

 

It is better to take a small amount and take another small amount to gradually increase rather than risk taking too much.  You might find that 5mg is enough.  The idea of reinstating isn't to get rid of withdrawal symptoms completely but to get them to a bearable level.

 

Please keep daily symptom notes on paper so that you can assess how reinstating is going.

 MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:    13 November 2021 -  0mg Pristiq      

Woohoo!!!  Finally off Pristiq   

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

My full tapering program     My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)    My website

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.  Please DO NOT TAG me -thank you.

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