☼ Bonesy44

[ChessieCat]

Q:  Have you tried magnesium?  I have found it helpful for that "on edge" feeling.  I take half of my tablet morning and half at night. 

 

Magnesium

 

I also find that self talk helps.  When I recognise what is happening I just tell myself that I'm okay and something like chill, or don't stress and take a few deep breaths.  I also try to check to see what might have triggered sort of using the HALT check; hungry, angry, lonely, tired or anything else that might have happened, eg overstimulated by noise, lights, crowds, smells etc.

[Leila]

@bonesy44, I'm sorry that WD hit you so far and I can't imagine how disheartening could be...By your description it seems to me that you saw very good improvements during these 2,5 years... Maybe sometimes triggered this moment (on and off of some supplements, antibiotics, anesthesia, alcohol, diet?) or it could be only a wave that will live you in a better place than you were before. I hope so! Keep us update! It's important to follow progress of people before us in their journey! Send to you all my support!

[ChapNasty]

Did the wave finally subside? Hope you're doing well as I’m literally a month behind and have been hit by wave that you described last month. Just wanted to see how it progressed with you. 

[Leila]

Dear @Bonesy44 and @ChapNasty, I'm thinking of you (I'm damaged from your own drug molecules)! Hope this bad wave that hits you so far in your journey has faded or disappeared! Give us an update when you can!

All my affect,

Leila

[Bonesy44]

Hey everyone its been a while since I have been on here. I try to not come on here as much as I think reading some posts was activating. 

Since my last post, the wave in december didnt last long after I posted. Its been a great 6 months with ups and downs but no real significant waves at all. My sleep improved even more and can now get 6-8 hours every night almost. Its nice not to be dead tired all day everyday. From March to the beginning of June I only really had 6 days in between which I would have really called a wave. It was fantastic! I thought I was there.....but 3 weeks ago I was sitting eating breakfast and all of a sudden out of nowhere I started having a random anxiety attack. That anxiety and inner restlessness feeling hasnt really left since then. I have hours or maybe a day here and there where I feel better but for the most part I have been plauged with this. 

I am 10 days away from my 3 year CT anniversary and I wish I had better news. I know that the 3 or 4 months of awesomeness I had is a great sign of healing but this feels like im going to be stuck like this forever. I know deep down inside I wont be but this is the longest wave I have had in a long time, and to be 3 years out and have this happen is very disheartening and makes me feel like I am doomed. 

For the people who replied to my post, I thank you for the kind words and I am sorry I didnt respond months ago. I hope everyone is doing well and get healed up soon.

[Erell]

Hello @Bonesy44

 

I don't think that we can put specific timeframe is this process, and without enough rigorous scientific studies and data we can only make assumptions.

 

So I can't tell if it's your case or even if the three years wave is a "real thing", but your post really does sound like many others I've read about a late wave happening while things were getting really better.

I won't disminish how frustrating and hard it can be to hit a hard wave so far out, but I feel hopeful when I read you. Your post echoes so many testimonies of people who hit a late wave only to reach a better and steady baseline. To my humble amateur ears, it sounds like recovery may be closer than you think 😉

 

Have you taken new drugs, alcohol, supplements,... lately?

 

Hang on, we are all rooting for you ☀️❤💪

Edited July 3, 2021 by Erell

[brassmonkey]

As Erell pointed out, we can't put an exact time frame on recovery, especially for a CT. What we do know is that it takes a frustratingly long time and the recovery symptom pattern will be highly unpredictable. From what you describe, your symptoms fit the pattern associated with a CT very closely, Feeling great and then being hit by a bad wave, minor symptoms for awhile and then :back to square one". Under it all the body is healing all the time, even when it feel like it isn't. Please take heart in knowing that your are getting better and with time return to where you want to be.

[Bonesy44]

3 hours ago, Erell said:

Hello @Bonesy44

 

I don't think that we can put specific timeframe is this process, and without enough rigorous scientific studies and data we can only make assumptions.

 

So I can't tell if it's your case or even if the three years wave is a "real thing", but your post really does sound like many others I've read about a late wave happening while things were getting really better.

I won't disminish how frustrating and hard it can be to hit a hard wave so far out, but I feel hopeful when I read you. Your post echoes so many testimonies of people who hit a late wave only to reach a better and steady baseline. To my humble amateur ears, it sounds like recovery may be closer than you think 😉

 

Have you taken new drugs, alcohol, supplements,... lately?

 

Hang on, we are all rooting for you ☀️❤💪

Thanks Erell for the kind words.

I try not to put a timeline on recovery but its hard not to sometimes lol l

The wave has subsided thankfully. I decided to go get my first covid vaccine so I think that caused me some anxiety. Right after I got the shot a calmness fell over me. But now insomnia has stepped in again last night. I read that some people get insomnia as a side effect from the vaccine. Hopefully it goes soon because I got used to sleeping good real fast and to be back to 2 hours last night brought back painful memories lol

[Bonesy44]

I am now 38 months since my CT of 5mg of Cipralex. Things were going really well up until about June. I only had 2 symptoms left which were mild anxiety here and there and muscle tension on my scalp and behind my right ear. 

Then I hit a really high amount of stress from this covid vaccine. I didnt want to get it but both mine and my wifes work were forcing it or we lose our jobs, so we had no choice. My first shot was on July 2nd and was very uneventful in terms of symptoms. The stress went away and I went back to my baseline of recovery. My second shot was on Aug 6th. A few days before I started to get a little stressed but nothing I couldnt handle. Three days after my second shot all hell broke lose. My nervous system went haywire from it. Insane anxiety attacks, insomnia, crazy back and head muscle tension like ive never experience all throughtout my 3 years of withdrawal so far. I also got tingling in my feet and legs as well as arms and legs. It was all day everyday for 2 weeks. It finally started to break up into waves and windows again. The tingling went away in a couple weeks but the rest remain. My gut health went down the drain as well. 

 Unfortunately my month long windows are gone and im back to a day here and there with week long waves. Ive tried magnesium bisglycinate and it really helps with the muscle tension but not much at all for anxiety unfortunately. Ive read the entire thread of the covid vaccine on here and it seems I am the only one to have such a severe setback from the vaccine. Sucks even more so that I didnt even want to get it but had my hand forced into it. Needless to say I am back to a point in time where I was approx 1.5 years ago symptom wise. 

I hope everyone else is doing good and I am glad nobody else had a reaction like mine. I know a year from now I am going to have to do this all over again for a 3rd shot. I guess this is just who I am going to be from now on.

[ChapNasty]

Bonesy- just checking in with you. I’m coming up on 41 months off CT of Celexa. Our time frame has matched up pretty seamlessly. How are you feeling these days? I’m having week long waves and maybe a couple nice days but recently it’s been a rough ride. Hoping your getting some success on your end. Best to you!

[andy96gr]

How are you doing now @Bonesy44🙂?