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thelegend

For real? Sorry man, hopefully it is just a blip and not a full blown wave. You deserve to get your big windows back!


April 2010 - January 2018: Zoloft 50-100 mgs (would go back and forth between these doses, mostly at 50mgs).

April - May 2018: Attempted to restart Zoloft for 6 weeks, made things worse so switched to...

June 2018 - Novemeber 2019: Lexapro 10mgs

August 2018 - Current: Zyprexa added for early morning extreme anxiety

November 2018 - February 2019: Lexapro 5mgs, then off since doctor said it “wasn’t working if still having anxiety.” Looking back I was probably stabilizing very slowly.

New Doctor reinstated:

May 1st, 2019 - Current - Zoloft 50mgs, 2.5mg Zyprexa 

 

 

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Tom37

Yip for real....sometimes waves just hit out of nowhere without any reason for me. Also had really stressful times an no wave do who knows what it happened other than just feels like the continuation of current cycle of symptoms. 

 

I just wish I had one set of symptoms or one main one because mine just continually cycle and morph around which makes it feel never ending. I’ve lost count with how many physical symptoms I’ve had.....it’s just crazy that your body can be that messed up. 

 

Managed to get through the work day but now I’m a bit scared about tomorrow even though I’ve done this many times before. Each wave just destroys any confidence I have and then when the wave ends it’s like why on earth did I even think that I would never feel better again....hate it.

 

Hopefully I’m healing but maybe it’s not meant to be for me.


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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sunnysideup69
10 hours ago, Tom37 said:

Just seem to be going a period of windows and waves quite close to each other....with similar but slightly different symptoms each time. My stomach seems to always be affected at the moment as the weird nausea is back with terrible taste in mouth along with the other symptoms.

 

 

Hope it's a short wave, Tom. It's incredible, what a bit of work stress can do. Our nervous systems are recovering but still a bit hair trigger in WD. Plus, bad dreams nearly a;ways set me off a bit. Wishing this wave gives way speedily to a long window for you :)


January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

 

 

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Tom37

Bit of a better day today but still not feeling too good. Had a decent 6 hours sleep without waking so that always helps.

 

Busy at work so managed to get through it which was good and tried to get a few things done for tomorrow to make tomorrow easier incase I feel worse.

 

Hopefully will be feeling better soon especially with Xmas around the corner and everything that comes with that.


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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Tom37

Was feeling quite a bit better the last three or four days but current symptoms back ramped up again. Seems like they go from a 2 or 3 up to a 7 or 8 and then back down again. Same symptoms all the time just at different intensity. Guess some part of me is trying to do some serious healing as been going on like this since early November. Hoping for a break from this cycle soon but also have the fear of what symptoms will come next. 

 

Also a little bit sad at the moment as this time last year I thought I would be pretty much back to normal and able to enjoy this time of year like everybody else but not to be as still stuck in this never ending nightmare. We take our health for granted for so long and only realise how valuable it is when you lose it and all you want when you have lost it is to get it back more than anything in this world. For the suffering to stop so you can be free to be the person you know you can be. 

 

Hope everyone has the best Xmas they can considering what we are dealing with and hopefully we all get the gift of healing for 2020.


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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sunnysideup69

Ditto @Tom37, had a seven day window, now two days of feeling worse. More anxious. I too thought I'd be better by now.... but I made more changes, so kind of scuppered that. Its really frustrating to hold for so long, I know.

Likewise, I also pray we all find more stable relief in 2020.

Hang in there. Hope your Xmas isn't too demanding... 


January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

 

 

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Katy398

Hi Tom,

Im going through exactly the same. I’m nearly 1 year out from my psychiatrist,  recommended FT/CT. The waves within waves are extreme. One minute I’m ok, cooking for Christmas, the next I’m in a panic that I’ve ruined every dish. This is so intense,yes let’s hope we can heal in 2020. 

Take care,  breathe, breathe, breathe Kx


 

Lexapro Fast Track/ Cold Turkey

Last dose end Dec 2018 

Tapered 1/2 a daily dose a week (20mg) for  14 weeks, last dose was a 20 mg pill!!  

 3.5 times slower than Psychiatrist recommended, I felt proud of myself!! Little did I know!!!!Got too scared to reinstate because I’d left it too long.

On ADs for 20 years (Prozac approx 10 years/ Pristiq approx 3 years/ Citalipram approx 2 years/. Lexapro a approx  5 years/. Last two years 40mgs Lexapro day.

 

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sunnysideup69
On 12/6/2019 at 5:45 AM, Tom37 said:

Thanks @sunnysideup69

 

Try not to put a timeline on stabilising as only setting yourself up for failure as the brain will get there when it gets there. 

 

 

Reminding you of your best advice to me, by the way. This whole process takes time. I know I hope to be better by certain points in time also, its hard to NOT do that. Remember; you had two good months. That's enormous. (I'm chuffed about having had a 7 day window last week.) Healing is happening. 


January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

 

 

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rola

@tom37@sunnysideup69

Hello,
I'm in a wave right now and it's very difficult.
I understand you, and I wish you a window;
The festivities are approaching and I'm sad that I can't be normal;
I wish you a good christmas party in spite of our discomfort. 😉


Deroxat (paxil) 20 mg pour 10 ml

12/14 18 mg réduction de 5% tous les mois 13/01/15 14.4mg 15/08 9,6 mg 16.01 reduction3% 8 mg par mois 16/02 7,8 mg 18.02 3 mg

18.03 2,92 à 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg

 18/06 2,66 mg

26/06/18 2,58 mg en 26 jours

19/03 1,78 mg 15 jours

19/04 1, 64 mg 21 jours

19/05 1,58 mg

24/07/19 1,44 mg

14/08/19 1,4 mg

27/09/19 1,48 mg

10/09/19 retour à 1,58 mg  27/12/19 retour à 1,65mg direct transition to fluoxetine the 11/01/2020 1,65mg

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Tom37

Thanks @sunnysideup69 @rola And @Katy398.

 

I guess just feeling a little sorry for myself at the moment but sometimes it’s hard not to. Just wish these current symptoms would go as they are really getting to me. I know all other symptoms have been and gone so I’m sure these will too but just sticking around longer than i was expecting. I was thinking about the early months this morning and how I had what felt like a permanent headache for about 5 months that was always on the back left hand side of my head which normal pain drugs would hardly touch - but it stopped....or the horrible pain in my bones that lasted a few months on and off - but it stopped... plus numerous others that have gone. So going by the past this should go at some point as well🤞.

 

Was thinking about my weirdest (not worst) symptom so far and probably the wave I had where I had a vibrating right hand which just stopped as the wave ended....felt like a vibrating phone constantly going off in my hand....only in withdrawal could these things happen.


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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Katy398

It’s ok to feel sorry for yourself. We all go through this heaps. Withdrawal is crippling and at this time of year it seems to be exaggerated. Hang on in there Tom, hang on in there. 

Kx

 


 

Lexapro Fast Track/ Cold Turkey

Last dose end Dec 2018 

Tapered 1/2 a daily dose a week (20mg) for  14 weeks, last dose was a 20 mg pill!!  

 3.5 times slower than Psychiatrist recommended, I felt proud of myself!! Little did I know!!!!Got too scared to reinstate because I’d left it too long.

On ADs for 20 years (Prozac approx 10 years/ Pristiq approx 3 years/ Citalipram approx 2 years/. Lexapro a approx  5 years/. Last two years 40mgs Lexapro day.

 

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sunnysideup69
29 minutes ago, Katy398 said:

It’s ok to feel sorry for yourself. We all go through this heaps. Withdrawal is crippling and at this time of year it seems to be exaggerated. Hang on in there Tom, hang on in there. 

Kx

 

Totally agree.... 


January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

 

 

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getofflex

Tom I'm sorry you are going through this painful cycle.  I'm praying for you.  


Lexapro   April02 - Aug17: 10 mg,  ***  Aug17 - Sept17: 5 mg ***  Sept17 - Nov17:  2.5 mg,  ***  Nov17: 0 mg, ***   Dec17 - Aug18: 5 mg  ***    Aug/1/18 - Aug/30/18: 2.5 mg     *** Sep/1/18 - Sep/27/18:  1.25 mg. ***   Sep/28/18 - Oct/31/18:  2.5 mg,  ***  Nov/1/18 - Nov/15/18: 1.25 mg  ***   Nov/16/18 - Nov/30/18: 2.5 mg  ***   Dec/1/18 - Dec/27/18: 2.0 mg (switched to liquid)  ***    Dec/27/18 - Jan/31/19: 1.5 mg ***    Feb/1/19 - Feb/20/19: 1.0 mg  ***  Feb/21/19 - Mar/7/19: 0.5 mg  ***  Mar/8/19 - May/03/19: 0.8 mg ***   May/04/19 - May/13/19 0.7 mg ***  May/14/19 - May/24/19 0.6 mg *** May/25/19 - June/05/19. 0.5 mg *** June/06/19 - July/19/19 0.4 mg. ***  July/20/19 - Sep 14 2019 0.3 mg.  ***  Sep 15 2019 - Oct 21 2019 0.27 mg. *** Oct 22 2019 - Jan 18 2020 - 0.23 mg. *** Jan 19 2020 - April 1 2020 0.2 mg  ***  April 2 2020 - July 15 2020 0.18 mg *** July 16 2020 - August 22 0.17 mg, August 23 -- Oct 6 0.16 mg, Oct 7 - present 0.15 mg

Trazodone.  used 50 mg once every 4-7 days for sleep, have discontinued altogether as of 12/23/19

Xanax. used 0.5 mg once every 4-7 days for sleep, have discontinued altogether as of 12/23/19 

When I cannot go to sleep, I take Benadryl 50 mg, Ibuprofen 800 mg, or Tylenol 1000 mg

other meds: Levothyroxine 75 mag. in AM 1/2 hour before breakfast with 24 ounces water

supplements AM: omega 3 fish oil, flax seed oil, natural multivitamin, vitamin C, vitamin E

supplements PM: Natural Calm magnesium 350 mg, GABA 750 mg, 5-HTP 50 mg. Estroven Sleep Cool and Calm (contains black cohosh 40 mg, soy isoflavones 56 mg) melatonin 3 mg

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Katy398

Hi Tom,

I get it I really do. I feel in the same situation. No sleep. Unable to cope with any level of stress. This wave is terrible. One year in and uncertainty of recovery. All I can say is we have to stick together and help each other out in our many hours of need. 

Hang on in there. Take care Kx

 


 

Lexapro Fast Track/ Cold Turkey

Last dose end Dec 2018 

Tapered 1/2 a daily dose a week (20mg) for  14 weeks, last dose was a 20 mg pill!!  

 3.5 times slower than Psychiatrist recommended, I felt proud of myself!! Little did I know!!!!Got too scared to reinstate because I’d left it too long.

On ADs for 20 years (Prozac approx 10 years/ Pristiq approx 3 years/ Citalipram approx 2 years/. Lexapro a approx  5 years/. Last two years 40mgs Lexapro day.

 

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Tom37

Thanks again @Katy398 @sunnysideup69 And @getofflex.

 

I hope you guys are doing ok. It’s just so easy to get frustrated about all this...the ups and the downs etc.

 

Managed a good 6 plus hours of deep sleep last night so that is always good even though felt quite unwell in bed. Even slept better than my partner who was up a couple times as got a cold and didn’t even hear her. Still not feeling too good this morning but will battle on and thankfully not much work to do and hopefully feel bit better tomorrow to get through Xmas day.

 

 


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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Katy398

6 hours!!! what more could we want for Christmas, apart from the obvious miracle cure. But Ill settle for 6 hours at the moment. congratulations Tom little by little we are healing.

Kx


 

Lexapro Fast Track/ Cold Turkey

Last dose end Dec 2018 

Tapered 1/2 a daily dose a week (20mg) for  14 weeks, last dose was a 20 mg pill!!  

 3.5 times slower than Psychiatrist recommended, I felt proud of myself!! Little did I know!!!!Got too scared to reinstate because I’d left it too long.

On ADs for 20 years (Prozac approx 10 years/ Pristiq approx 3 years/ Citalipram approx 2 years/. Lexapro a approx  5 years/. Last two years 40mgs Lexapro day.

 

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sunnysideup69

Hey @Tom37, just dropping by to say I hope your Xmas has been okay. Maybe it has even been good, but WD being what it is.... 


January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

 

 

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Tom37

Hi @sunnysideup69

 

Xmas was actually not to bad as came out of the wave on Xmas eve. Been feeling pretty good but slumped back into another wave this morning so back into the thick of it. I still wasn’t feeling normal at baseline but a lot better than in the wave so was able to enjoy Xmas.

 

Pretty much the same set of symptoms in this latest wave so it’s still cycling around whatever is attempting to be fixed. Been like it since beginning of November so hopefully get a longer window at some point soon.

 

Hope your doing ok.


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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Tom37

Wave in full force now. Wouldn’t let me sleep last night as feeling so horrible physically plus affects me mentally as have intrusive and weird thoughts. Just makes me fell so ill and it comes in bursts then eases a bit then comes back again. I just wish I wouldn’t get these physical symptoms that make me feel so sick.


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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sunnysideup69
47 minutes ago, Tom37 said:

Wave in full force now. Wouldn’t let me sleep last night as feeling so horrible physically plus affects me mentally as have intrusive and weird thoughts. Just makes me fell so ill and it comes in bursts then eases a bit then comes back again. I just wish I wouldn’t get these physical symptoms that make me feel so sick.

Yes, the physical symptoms are awful. Well, something is definitely being fixed and needs to keep being turned back off and on. Seems like you had a longer window followed by a longer wave... I think a really big window is coming for you. Not that this process follows much logic, but am really sending you good wishes for an enormous window. 


January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

 

 

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Tom37

Thanks @sunnysideup69 

 

Yeah it just makes me feel so unwell and that’s why I can’t sleep when it’s at it’s worse plus the weird random thoughts and having s great time.

 

Every wave last two months as been very similar but slightly different so god knows what is happening but you would think this cycle has to end at some point. Just wish I could get a couple of weeks in between waves but not to be at the moment.


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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Tom37

Thanks @sunnysideup69 

 

Yeah it just makes me feel so unwell and that’s why I can’t sleep when it’s at it’s worse plus the weird random thoughts and having s great time.

 

Every wave last two months as been very similar but slightly different so god knows what is happening but you would think this cycle has to end at some point. Just wish I could get a couple of weeks in between waves but not to be at the moment.


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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Altostrata

Tom, how has your symptom pattern changed since you updosed November 7? What times of day do you take your drugs?


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Tom37

Hi @Altostrata

 

Just to clarify it was November 2018 when I crashed while tapering. Have stayed at same dose since and take it in the morning around 7.30am.

 

My symptoms have constantly changed and morphed throughout but things have definitely got better over last 12 months. I no longer get the horrible bone pain, the constant headaches, the hot and cold chills plus many others.  When I’m in a window or at baseline I feel ok and am pretty much fully functional apart from excerising. I still have symptoms but they are tolerable. The difference between a window and a wave is now quite a lot. Just since early November this year seem to have gone into a cycle of windows and waves with the waves very very similar but slightly different and the main feature of them is feel really unwell like having the flu but it’s not.....plus I get bit of nausea (not in my stomach - weird) and few other weird feelings and usually mentally I’m not right either. Feels like my nervous system is trying to fix this one particular area but can’t quite sort it out yet so keeps trying. I’m guessing this is normal?

 

Still plan on staying at my dose as have seen a lot of improvement just hope the rest of it comes soon or at least the waves get easier.


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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Sorry Tom, hopefully you get some relief soon! I was curious, why did you go on the lexapro to begin with? Did it help at all? If so for how long, and why did you stay on so long?


April 2010 - January 2018: Zoloft 50-100 mgs (would go back and forth between these doses, mostly at 50mgs).

April - May 2018: Attempted to restart Zoloft for 6 weeks, made things worse so switched to...

June 2018 - Novemeber 2019: Lexapro 10mgs

August 2018 - Current: Zyprexa added for early morning extreme anxiety

November 2018 - February 2019: Lexapro 5mgs, then off since doctor said it “wasn’t working if still having anxiety.” Looking back I was probably stabilizing very slowly.

New Doctor reinstated:

May 1st, 2019 - Current - Zoloft 50mgs, 2.5mg Zyprexa 

 

 

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Tom37

@thelegend I went on it for anxiety and panic attacks and I was really struggling at the time with it. Probably did help a little bit as it numbs those emotions but cbt was the big thing for me. I stayed on it as I guess I was a bit scared that coming off would cause a relapse and didn’t want to go through that again plus I had heard about withdrawal but only mild short term stuff and didn’t want to deal with that. Plus I didn’t have any side effects other than disturbed sleep so felt fine on it.


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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Tom37

Still feeling pretty rubbish due to this wave so unfortunately nye for me will be spent with an early night in bed and hopefully get some sleep tonight if symptoms allow. 

 

One thing I hate when im in a wave is that I start thinking  that I’m not going to be able to manage working etc because of how I feel. That any job would be too much for me. Then when I window comes itstotslky the opposite. Annoyingly I go through this with every wave especially if it gives me a sleepless night because my mind then starts asking if I’ll ever sleep again because of the symptoms. Even though I know the answer still happens every time. 

 

Anyway hopefully tomorrow is a better day but we shall see. Hope everyone has had a year of seeing some improvement and I hope 2020 brings a lot more for all of us and hopefully we won’t be on here come 2021!


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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Altostrata

Please add the year to the drug changes in your history.

 

Yes, constantly mutating waves of symptoms interrupted by windows is "normal." You might mark the waves on a calendar, see if there's any pattern that could be related to external factors.

 

Very best for the new year to you!


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jozeff

Best wishes Tom,

 

You're absolutely right! I have these exact same feelings. I know I managed to get through it last time but each time I am in a wave I loose hope and think I felt like this forever.

 

Each time it passes but then again each time I'm scared to hell it will stay this time.

 

Recently you said that thing have gotten better in the last 12 months. Don't forget this!!

 

 

Cheers

Jozeff

 

 

 


- 2016 - Okt 2017 citalopram some months 15 mg some months 20 mg

- Nov 2017- Apr 2018 citalopram 25 mg

- April 2018 -  June 2018 citalopram 3 month TAPER too fast  from 25mg to 16.5 mg (0.1 mg per day decrease, felt horrible and crashed)

- June 2018 - Aug13th 2018 citalopram trying to stabilize at 16.5 mg for 5 weeks, felt absolutely awful.

- August 14th 2018 - April 29th 2019  citalopram 18 mg (1.5 mg updose). Try to stabilize.-

START TAPER 29 apr 2019 @ 18 mg,    29th Jun 16.4 mg / 19th aug 15.4 mg / 25th Aug 15.2 mg / 30th sep 14.0 mg / 4th dec 13.1 mg2020 citalopram taper approx 1 % per week: 03rd Jan 12.75 mg / 28 Jan 12.29 mg / 18th Feb 11.83 mg, 25th Feb 11.68 mg hold../7th May 11.33 mg hold, 4th Aug 10.98 mg. Holding because of not feeling well.

 

 

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Tom37

Thanks Joseff.....symptoms settled a bit last night so managed 6 or so hours sleep which is the norm for me at moment. I must be quite a deep sleeper as I slept through the fireworks the city let off which isn’t too far away and while used ear plugs still very loud. Still feeling like I have these last couple of days but sleep always helps. One thing that is different compared to the previous waves over the last 6 to 8 weeks is my stomach seems pretty much ok and nausea feeling I get is not even really there so something has changed. 

 

Been thinking about my progress and maybe how much longer this will last and think it’s going to be another year or two for me at least. Im guessing that I still have a way to go as it’s still all windows and waves and both quite close together and still yet to feel normal in a window. If I follow the way most recover then need my windows to start getting longer and better and waves not so deep and only then will I feel like this will actually end.


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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Tom37

Another day over with and while bit better than yesterday still struggling along with this wave. At least my ‘struggling’ at the moment isn’t like it was in those first few months but is still hard. Always think a good nights sleep with reduce the symptoms but it never does it just makes them bit more tolerable.

 

Was planning on going out to the beach but wasn’t feeling too good so a walk close to home and just taking it easy for rest of day and hopefully will start feeling better over next few days. While the windows and wave pattern I have does my head in I know I’m lucky to get windows where I can feel pretty good so I am grateful for that.

 


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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thelegend

Hold to this my friend, if struggling isn’t nearly what it used to be, that show definite improvement. Unfortunately for me, I am not sure I see much improvement if any, though I guess at 8 months of a hold, it is still fairly early.


April 2010 - January 2018: Zoloft 50-100 mgs (would go back and forth between these doses, mostly at 50mgs).

April - May 2018: Attempted to restart Zoloft for 6 weeks, made things worse so switched to...

June 2018 - Novemeber 2019: Lexapro 10mgs

August 2018 - Current: Zyprexa added for early morning extreme anxiety

November 2018 - February 2019: Lexapro 5mgs, then off since doctor said it “wasn’t working if still having anxiety.” Looking back I was probably stabilizing very slowly.

New Doctor reinstated:

May 1st, 2019 - Current - Zoloft 50mgs, 2.5mg Zyprexa 

 

 

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sunnysideup69

@Tom37, hang in there, you've made great improvements. Stability is coming. Wishing you a happy new year 😊


January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

 

 

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rola

happy new year tom that this new year be filled with windows... 😘


Deroxat (paxil) 20 mg pour 10 ml

12/14 18 mg réduction de 5% tous les mois 13/01/15 14.4mg 15/08 9,6 mg 16.01 reduction3% 8 mg par mois 16/02 7,8 mg 18.02 3 mg

18.03 2,92 à 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg 3% 5 mai 2018 2,74 mg

 18/06 2,66 mg

26/06/18 2,58 mg en 26 jours

19/03 1,78 mg 15 jours

19/04 1, 64 mg 21 jours

19/05 1,58 mg

24/07/19 1,44 mg

14/08/19 1,4 mg

27/09/19 1,48 mg

10/09/19 retour à 1,58 mg  27/12/19 retour à 1,65mg direct transition to fluoxetine the 11/01/2020 1,65mg

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Tom37

Thanks guys.

 

Had another decent sleep so that helps but still in this wave with no real let up yet.

 

Just hate the secondary fear that comes with the waves.....will I be able to work....will it stop me from sleeping....will it ever end. These thoughts don’t give me any physical anxiety symptoms and do manage to control them but they are there in the background . It doesn’t matter how many waves I have had they are always there during them. Then when the waves end I don’t really think like that at all. So frustrating.

 

 


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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Tom37

Got through another day. Still not feeling great but getting through it. Have been able to go for walks during this wave when a lot of the other times for a few days I just can’t manage it or if I do it’s very short. This wave is definitely a bit different than what I had been dealing with since early November so looks like the nervous system has decided it’s time to work on something else. You just wonder how many parts are still out of sync ....just like the rubix cube I guess.


20mg Lexapro 2007

10mg Lexapro 2012

Started tapering approx (October 2017) 12 months ago  from 10mg to 9mg then 8 then 7 then 6 then 5 then 4 then 3.

Held for approx 4 to 6 weeks min on each reduction.

Hit severe symptoms (started 7th Nov) after dropping to 3mg. Dropped to 3mg approx 22nd October.

Back to 4mg (7th November) and stabilising. Current symptoms started 23rd November 

Used diazepam (2018) 10mg 10th Nov, 5mg 11th Nov, 2.5mg 12 Nov, 2mg 13th Nov.

Used diazepam 10mg 24th Nov, 7.5 25th Nov and 5mg 26th November.

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