mdwstrx Posted August 3, 2021 Author Share Posted August 3, 2021 @Frogie Thank you, my friend, for your thoughts. I agree it has gotten difficult at this low dose. In fact, the anxiety feels as if there is a task master standing over me with a whip ready to beat me each time I try to interact with anyone. I can't focus on the conversation or enjoy the activity because the whipping going on behind the scenes is painful and distracting. My stomach is in knots, and it also feels as if I'm on a rollercoaster. Today I golfed/lunched and was on edge whole time. It was all I could do to keep focus and I know people can feel I'm 'uncomfortable' in my skin. I'd give anything just to relax (AAF) and enjoy. It's been two months since cutting to .095. I am asking the mods @Gridley, @brassmonkey and anyone else, should I up dose to become more stable since I feel like I'm on my last nerve?!?. If so, by how much? It's at a time I need to be stable and it's not happening. I take magnesium twice a day, occasional propranolol etc. Many thanks, md 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted August 3, 2021 Moderator Share Posted August 3, 2021 Being that you are firmly into the Endgame Taper you really need to "play it by ear" and do what your body dictates. So you will need to adjust each reduction as required. That could be a longer hold, a slight updose or the like. You could try a "rescue dose" to see if an updose would help. If you updose I wouldn't go to more than 0.1mg. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted August 3, 2021 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 3, 2021 3 hours ago, mdwstrx said: should I up dose to become more stable since I feel like I'm on my last nerve?!?. I agree with Brassmonkey that if you do updose it shouldn't be more than to 0.1mg. That doesn't answer your main question. You're the only one who can decide whether a small updose is the best idea. We are in the realm of the unknown here. There's no guarantee that an updose will help. You could give it a week or two weeks and see how you feel before deciding. Anxiety is my main symptom too. A lot is situational. I relate very much to your symptom description. Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotics, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted August 3, 2021 Author Share Posted August 3, 2021 Thank you @brassmonkey and @Gridley It feels like a step back. But I will go to 0.96 mg. in morning. Hope it works. I'm very sorry that you relate Gridley. It's an awful feeling. Cortisol and adrenaline pumping thru I guess...usually situational for me but of late it's more often then not. Did you ever updose on your escitalopram taper? Did you have same trouble going lower? If this settles, I'm concerned I may be at the lowest point because as @Frogie said, don't wanna pull the "tigers tail". If it doesn't settle, don't know what to do. 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Gridley Posted August 3, 2021 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 3, 2021 (edited) 18 minutes ago, mdwstrx said: Did you ever updose on your escitalopram taper? No, I never did. I would hold longer when I had problems but never updosed. That's just me, of course. 18 minutes ago, mdwstrx said: Did you have same trouble going lower? Many people report problems at certain doses, different for everybody. I had some problems around the 3mg mark. But when I got really low, it went pretty smoothly. Edited August 3, 2021 by Gridley Gridley Introduction Lexapro 20 mg since 2004. Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017. End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg Oct. 30, 2020 Jump to zero from 0.025mg. Current dose: 0.000mg 3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete. Ativan 1 mg to 1.875mg 1986-2020, two CT's and reinstatements Nov. 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover to 18.75mg Valium Feb. 2021, begin 10%/4 week taper of 18.75mg Valium End 2021 year 1 of Valium taper at 6mg End 2022 year 2 of Valium taper at 2.75mg End 2023 year 3 of Valium taper at 1mg Jan. 24, 2024: Hold at 1mg and shift to Imipramine taper. Taper is 95% complete. Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986. Jan.-Sept. 2016 tapered to 14.4mg March 22, 2022: Begin 10%/4 week taper Aug. 5, 2022: hold at 9.5mg and shift to Valium taper Jan. 24, 2024: Resume Imipramine taper. Current dose as of April 1: 6.8mg Taper is 91% complete. Supplements: multiple, quercetin, omega-3, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotics, zinc, melatonin .3mg, iron, serrapeptase, nattokinase I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs. Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted August 4, 2021 Moderator Share Posted August 4, 2021 Yes I updosed a few times. But I made some bad mistakes and tapered too fast a couple of times. Lesson learned. I did what I was told to do from there on out and I did ok. Not great but it didn’t kill me either lol… I had a lot, and I mean a lot of nausea among the other symptoms. I jumped off at .05 mg though and probably should have tapered down a little further. You could updose .10 mg like Gridley and Brassmonkey said. Then give it a good long hold and I think you’ll be ok. You’re doing great with your taper. You’re almost there! PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted August 4, 2021 Author Share Posted August 4, 2021 13 hours ago, Frogie said: You could updose .10 mg like Gridley and Brassmonkey said. @Frogieoh.. thx!! Misread and was thinking it was .001 so would updose to .096. Guess a 0.1 increase would be to 1.05mg. I may try going to 1 mg. 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted August 4, 2021 Moderator Share Posted August 4, 2021 3 minutes ago, mdwstrx said: @Frogieoh.. thx!! Misread and was thinking it was .001 so would updose to .096. Guess a 0.1 increase would be to 1.05mg. I may try going to 1 mg. I’d try that and see if it helps. I bet you’ll feel some relief within a few days to a week. If you don’t want to go up .10 mg, you could try .05 mg and see if that might help. I went up that much quite a few times. You could always increase if the .05 mg doesn’t help. In the meantime, keep your chin up. Not the end of the world by any means 😊 just a little bump in the road. Nothing you can’t handle. Take care, Frogie xx PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted August 6, 2021 Author Share Posted August 6, 2021 On 8/4/2021 at 9:22 AM, Frogie said: You could always increase if the .05 mg doesn’t help. Yes, I think that's the safest way to try it. Went back to 1 mg. this morning. Even that seems like a lot after having reduced so far.🤷♀️This underlying anxiety is brutal, especially in the mornings as we all know. Thank you @Frogie! 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted August 6, 2021 Moderator Share Posted August 6, 2021 @mdwstrx You’re welcome. I hope you can find your sweet spot and be able to stabilize for a while! 1 PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted August 6, 2021 Share Posted August 6, 2021 @mdwstrx Hi Can i just ask underlying anxiety? Is thats your anxiety or what the withdrawal does the lower you go. May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted August 6, 2021 Author Share Posted August 6, 2021 53 minutes ago, Leo1983 said: Can i just ask underlying anxiety? Is thats your anxiety or what the withdrawal does the lower you go. Hi @Leo1983 I really can't tell you. It seems that up until this bump, I'd get the same stuff but it would fade over days and then I'd be back at wd normal. It's been 2 months since last real reduction and it hasn't faded yet. I've been on this a long time and had situational anxiety before... but not like this constant undercurrent. 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted August 6, 2021 Author Share Posted August 6, 2021 On 8/3/2021 at 6:28 PM, Gridley said: I would hold longer when I had problems but never updosed. Thanks @Gridley I would hold too normally but some opportunities are presenting for which I need to be back at wd normal quicker. Hopefully the .05 updose will help. 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
Leo1983 Posted August 6, 2021 Share Posted August 6, 2021 Yeh that is along time. I too had situational anxiety however, i never had anxiety morning noon and night until i started and stopped these crappy drugs. I would be inclined to think it is when you pull the drug away the CNS is going wild. I never was like this until the drugs. Im going to discuss my case with a professional. Hope you feel better soon. 1 May 2016 - Aug 2016 - Prozac 20mg March 2017 - June 2017 - Sertraline 100mg. Horrific withdrawal 5 m onths. July 2017 - Aug 2017 - Mirtazapine 15mg. Horrific. August 2017 - December 2017 Fluoxetine 10mg for 2 weeks ghen Escitalopram 20mg for 12 weeks. Never felt normal since this. Or baseline. March 2018 - June 2018 - Escitalopram 5mg for 12 weeks. Stopped and here i am full of symptoms i never had. Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted August 7, 2021 Author Share Posted August 7, 2021 On 8/3/2021 at 2:20 PM, brassmonkey said: You could try a "rescue dose" to see if an updose would help. Hi @brassmonkey Today I updosed from .095 to 1 mg. It's been a different day. Anxiety not as heavy but just a feeling of not being right and a bit nauseous, apathetic and down. I reread your comment above and at second glance, not sure I completely understood . What do you mean by a "rescue dose" as opposed to updose? Also, do you think I should have stepped up incrementally by .025 instead of .05? Hoping kindling isn't a factor on updosing? Do you think I'll see immediate effect or perhaps within the usual 4 day time it takes for the system to register the change? Sorry to trouble you with so many questions. Hopefully, it won't get worse. Thank you. md 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted August 7, 2021 Moderator Share Posted August 7, 2021 A "rescue dose" is a tiny bit of the medication taken as a one time thing to alieveate severe symptoms. Usually it is done by dipping a toothpick liquid and sucking off the small drop of medication that clings to it. Going directly from .095 to .1 should not be a problem. It appears that it started to work right away, which is common. Things should improve more over the next few days. Trying to avoid kindling is the reason why we recommend such small updoses. This one is small enough to not cause problems unless you are extremely sensitive. Any kindling would have been felt with in a few hours of taking the dose. I'm glad it is helping. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted August 7, 2021 Author Share Posted August 7, 2021 @brassmonkey So many thanks Tom!!! You're a Godsend.🙏 I don't quite understand why the last taper hit so hard and wouldn't resolve. I'm not sure how long to hold after this stabilizes. 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted August 8, 2021 Moderator Share Posted August 8, 2021 I would hold for several weeks after things stabilize. Each reduction is a new experience, we can try to find a pattern between them, and sometimes can. But symptoms will always be unpredictable. I learned to "expect what I get". 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Crochet Posted August 8, 2021 Share Posted August 8, 2021 Praying that relief comes swiftly and completely. 1 2012-present - Escitalopram currently 2.55 mg Supplements: Daytime- Green Lipped Mussel 1200mg, Omega-3s 1710mg, Wheat Germ Oil 770mg, Sodium Butyrate 1.2g, Phosphatidylcholine 2600mg, Multi-Min 2 tablets, Liposomal Glutathione 4 pumps, Probiotic 1 capsule, Beyond Balance herbal tinctures for lyme and gut healing (including one only taken during menstruation); Nighttime - L-theanine 200mg, melatonin 1mg, magnesium glycinate 400mg. History: 2012-2017- Escitalopram 10mg 2017-2020 - Escitalopram 5mg 07/2019-11/2019 - Valium 10mg, every 2-3 days, then stopped 11/2020 - Stopped Escitalopram 5mg abruptly (crashed January 2021) 1/2021-12/2021 - Escitalopram Reinstated 2.5mg to 5 to 10 to 7.5 and then started slow taper 1/2021-2/2021 - Ativan .5mg - Took 13.5 pills over the course of 22 days and stopped 2/2021-9/2021 Hydroxyzine - 50-100mg tapering down to .8mg, then cross-tapered to Claritin and stopped 9/2021-9/2022 - Claritin 5 mg (tapered off) Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted August 22, 2021 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted August 22, 2021 On 8/8/2021 at 6:23 AM, mdwstrx said: I have a question. I'm having problems finding a syringe that will accurately pick up and display the small dosages. Are you tapering liquid? If so, what syringe do you use? I did a search in the liquid topic for syringe and this is the link to the results: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/search/?q=syringe&quick=1&type=forums_topic&item=2693 I purchased "slip tip" syringes. This is the Australia eBay ones that I bought. If you check out the images provided they have labelled what type of syringes they are: https://www.ebay.com.au/itm/123759915424 A couple of members use a tool that you can "dial in" the amount of liquid you require. They have provided link/s to what they have purchased. The posts are on the last couple of pages of this topic: how-to-make-a-liquid-from-tablets-or-capsules * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted August 23, 2021 Author Share Posted August 23, 2021 Thank you @ChessieCat update: Holding from this summer's mini crash that resulted in up dosing from .95 to 1 mg. Symptoms still present... slight burning in arms, low grade anxiety constantly as if my nervous system is extremely weak. Hot flashes, waking through the night and a general pain in my nerve endings, especially in arms and legs. Definitely a decline in my usual withdrawal normal status. No plans to resume taper until this fades. Not sure it will? Feel like I'm in no man's land... 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
Crochet Posted August 28, 2021 Share Posted August 28, 2021 Hi Mdwst, It will fade. If I've learned anything from this experience, it's that there is a tendency towards change and improvement, timing is just unpredictable. I hate that you are in pain. Much love, Crochet 2012-present - Escitalopram currently 2.55 mg Supplements: Daytime- Green Lipped Mussel 1200mg, Omega-3s 1710mg, Wheat Germ Oil 770mg, Sodium Butyrate 1.2g, Phosphatidylcholine 2600mg, Multi-Min 2 tablets, Liposomal Glutathione 4 pumps, Probiotic 1 capsule, Beyond Balance herbal tinctures for lyme and gut healing (including one only taken during menstruation); Nighttime - L-theanine 200mg, melatonin 1mg, magnesium glycinate 400mg. History: 2012-2017- Escitalopram 10mg 2017-2020 - Escitalopram 5mg 07/2019-11/2019 - Valium 10mg, every 2-3 days, then stopped 11/2020 - Stopped Escitalopram 5mg abruptly (crashed January 2021) 1/2021-12/2021 - Escitalopram Reinstated 2.5mg to 5 to 10 to 7.5 and then started slow taper 1/2021-2/2021 - Ativan .5mg - Took 13.5 pills over the course of 22 days and stopped 2/2021-9/2021 Hydroxyzine - 50-100mg tapering down to .8mg, then cross-tapered to Claritin and stopped 9/2021-9/2022 - Claritin 5 mg (tapered off) Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted August 29, 2021 Author Share Posted August 29, 2021 @Crochet Thank you for your kind words. They mean a great deal and are helpful. I'll jump over to your thread to see how things are going. Well, I pray. Much love... in return, md 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted August 29, 2021 Author Share Posted August 29, 2021 @brassmonkey Sorry to trouble you again but looking for some advice as to whether I should continue to hold or consider another up dose as presently not at wd normal. It's making life challenging and I can't consider tapering 'til this smooths out. Today is day 24 from an up dose (.095 to 1 mg on 8/6/21) to address significant w/d symptoms from the previous taper. Not sure how I got into trouble with a consistent taper but it found me nonetheless! I had improved symptoms but now they're fluctuating and certainly not back to wd normal yet. I'm noticing some rumination along with anxious mood swings, hot flashes, early morning waking, cognitive dysfunction (missing turns, forgetting things etc).🤷♀️ Would appreciate any thoughts on where to go from here. Thanks Tom! 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted August 30, 2021 Moderator Share Posted August 30, 2021 Even with a reinstatement there are going to be swings in symptoms. As long as they are not too extreme things should be fine with holding. If they seem to be getting slowly worse on average then another small updose might be in order. That was a pretty small one to start, which is the best way to do it. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted August 31, 2021 Author Share Posted August 31, 2021 @brassmonkey Thank you for your reply! 17 hours ago, brassmonkey said: As long as they are not too extreme things should be fine with holding. Does "be fine" mean eventually settle - even though it's been 3 months since initial reduction? I suspect a couple of 'good' stressors may be adding to the mix. I'm practicing mindfulness, meditation, sports, good nutrition, etc. Reinstating is gamble correct? How does reinstating to 1.05 mg fit w/tapering? Heading the wrong way on a gamble seems counterproductive unless you think that timing is the issue and anticipate a future successful reduction. 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted August 31, 2021 Moderator Share Posted August 31, 2021 Yes, given time things should settle and return to your baseline. state. There are a lot of factors involved in a reinstatement that make it unpredictable. If done sooner rather than later it is usually more successful, but is still highly dependent of how sensitive ones body has become to changes. There is no way of gaging that sensitivity before hand. Going backward during a taper is sometimes called for. If the symptoms become intolerable it indicates that the medication has been removed too quickly for the body to adjust. Increasing the drug by a very small amount can help alleviate those symptoms. Once a person has regained stability they can start to taper off again. All it does is slow down the process, but hopefully makes it more comfortable. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted September 5, 2021 Author Share Posted September 5, 2021 @brassmonkey Happy Sunday! It's a beautiful September morning from here. Hope it is for all! It's been well over two months and two up-doses from .095 mg to 1.05 mg since w/d normal. Brief update: Day 6 -today - slept mostly well, woke twice from bad hot flashes. Nausea, brainfog, chemical anxiety Day 5- systemic chemical anxiety back. Worse day yet. Propranolol took edge off! Forgetful, unfocused. Day 4- debilitating chemical anxiety faded. Thought it might be gone. Not so. Day 1- reinstated to 1.05 mg. Feelings of fluctuating stability throughout the days. Reinstating again has restarted the stability clock without seeing improvement, at least yet. I'm second guessing having not held at 1 mg. Holding indefinitely unless thoughts are to reduce again to 1 mg.?? 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted September 5, 2021 Moderator Share Posted September 5, 2021 Yes, hold for a while and let things settle in. Making an updose can cause a spike in symptoms for some people. It should settle out and calm down. Ahh Fall.... I love it. We are sitting at 102F today. September and October are the hottest months here, followed by November which is usually the coldest. I find it ironic working on Halloween decorations in such heat. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted September 5, 2021 Author Share Posted September 5, 2021 2 hours ago, brassmonkey said: Ahh Fall.... I love it. We are sitting at 102F today. September and October are the hottest months here, followed by November which is usually the coldest. I find it ironic working on Halloween decorations in such heat. @brassmonkey Your reply above gave me a big smile and warm feeling! Enjoy your decorations! If I recall, you go big for the holiday! 😈👻🎃 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted September 6, 2021 Moderator Share Posted September 6, 2021 We are in the middle of changing themes this year. We've done a carnival for about ten years and are changing over to a circus this time. Building circus acts, weight lifter, balancing act, saber toothed tiger taming act, and a 17 foot tall Ferris Wheel. Lots of fun, but a lot of work especially in the heat. 1 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted September 9, 2021 Author Share Posted September 9, 2021 Another beautiful early fall day! Feeling better (90%) since reinstating from .095 mg to 1.05mg. Holding... md 🌻 1 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted September 9, 2021 Author Share Posted September 9, 2021 @Thelongestroadhome Thanks for your concern and support! I went back and read some of your posts. It's a crazy ride, isn't it! It seems so often that the default is darkness encroaching unless we actively seek the light; ADWD or no. It's a choice! Our attitude allows us to successfully probe the darkness and it's easy enough to let that drop without encouragement from others such as yourself. I hope you're seeing much light these days! md 💜 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
mdwstrx Posted September 22, 2021 Author Share Posted September 22, 2021 On 9/5/2021 at 2:07 PM, brassmonkey said: Yes, hold for a while and let things settle in. Making an updose can cause a spike in symptoms for some people. It should settle out and calm down. Checking in again @brassmonkey Still feeling rough two months into mini crash. Last updose was to 1.05 mg on 8/31. Symptoms have morphed into what I think is a mild akathisia. Two questions. 1. Continue to hold? 2. Is taking .25 mg Lorazepam, spaced out by a week or longer risking addiction? I'm well aware of the dangers of benzos and see it as an absolute last resort. However, until this nagging inner agitation fades, I must be functional at times when Propranolol isn't cutting it. Another gorgeous fall day! Temps are beginning to cool a bit here in the Midwest. Early harvest is beginning. Great time of the year! md 🍂 1997 Prozac ?mg 1991 Sertraline ?mg 2002 Escitalopram 10 mg 2018 2.5 mg - stopped by Dr./Reinstated, up-dosed to 7.5 mg 04/19 Began BM slide @7.5 mg CURRENT 0.34 mg 🌼 "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Mark 9:23 Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted September 22, 2021 Moderator Share Posted September 22, 2021 Yes, I would continue to hold. Work with the relaxation exercises, deep breathing, meditation and the like. Be really careful of the Lorazepam, once a week shouldn't be a problem, but you never can tell. 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
92sharks Posted September 22, 2021 Share Posted September 22, 2021 @mdwstrxI would like to suggest adding acupuncture to your self-care routine, if possible. I think there are many, many benefits with acupuncture. Let your acupuncturist know what you are dealing with and what symptoms you need help with. Acupuncture can support your CNS and for me is a pretty passive way of self-care. I just lay there and try to relax. It is one thing I don't have to force myself to do or expend much energy to get there. It is one of my "tools". 1 1999 began Wellbutrin, and Zoloft, then off both, tried Lexapro, then eventually Effexor XR 2009 slowly weaned self off Effexor XR experienced 7 months of withdrawal syndrome, became suicidal 2010 went on Prozac (dose ?), then off Prozac (agitation/anxiety), resumed Effexor XR 2010-2014 titrated up to Effexor XR 150mg and Effexor 37.5mg 2014-2018 have been on this dose for 4 years~Effexor EX 150mg and Effexor 37.5mg (Total 188mg) January 22, 2018, began decreasing dose of Effexor 37.5mg (Continuing 150mg dose unchanged) February 19, 2018 Effexor XR 150mg + 29 balls of Effexor 37.5mg capsule (29mg?????) x 2 days August 15, 2020 Effexor ER 60mg x 5 months August 10, 2021 Effexor ER 10mg Experiencing vertigo since last taper (from 11 beads/?mg to 10 beads/?mg) 4 days ago. August 21, 2021 Vertigo gone 🥳(lasted 8 days) Will stay at 10 beads/?mg. July 1, 2022 Effexor 7 beads/?mg Link to comment
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