Tanha: never stabilize under diazepam but want to taper

December 16, 2018

Sorry for the messy postings. Can any of the mods delete the first faulty posts with my daily symptoms?

Can anyone reduce the lettersize to make it readable? I am very sick.

Today hyperarousel is worse and Longer. I believe that I can differentiate hyperarousel and akathisia. Yesterday akathisia was bad. I had no hyperarousel on 400 mg quetiapine and 50 mg levomepromazine. That makes me doubt that quetiapine has a paradoxical reaction in terms of hyperarousel.

December 16, 2018

And in addition to that:

my my hyperarousel was bad before I got Lorazepam and quetiapine.

it started around Ct cymbalta in march (tapered it fast since autumn 2017 and updosed it again around December 2017 back to 120 mg).

It got really bad then.

December 16, 2018

But

what again could be the case due to a paradoxical reaction of quetiapine/diazepam is

that right now I am having the worst hyperarousel after the first time I relaxed and forgot myself watching tv first time since may.

And all the sedating medication (mirtazapin quetiapine diazepam) push my body to an adverse reaction in that he upredulates adrenaline or similar to deal with this alienating medication induced oversedation.

This also could have happened this night when I woke in arousel and much too early due to my body pushing adrenals too much. The sedating medication is too much for my body and he might try to counteract this.

am I habituating bad sleep patterns now if this continues for a longer time as I cannot cut any medication right now due to bad withdrawls?

Am i stuck once again?

knowing or hypotethizing a likely cause of my hyperarousel yet not being able to change anything?

psychmeds are really messing with the bodies natural path to heal.

And again because I lack experienced doctors counsel like most of us i guess I might have made a mistake and thus caused this Probleme:

i tapered mirtazapin from 30 to -5 mg first because I thought it's noradrenalin effect at the higher dose causes my hyperarousel.

Now being on the more sedating and too little activating 16 mg I produced the problem of having only breaks in my medication as allostrata would say. Too much sedation cause by my mirtazapinreduction. My fault yet I didn't know better.

Now i am hurting myself with that achievement "mirtazapinreduction" every day and cannot do much about it.

Psychmeds are far too complex for doctors and patients to handle them properly. And that is me sitting here in the most professional surrounding of a psychiatric hospital (new Bildung, everything quite pretty, everybody friendly and helpful but also helpless and sometimes even admitting it.)

December 16, 2018

1 minute ago, Tanha said:

But

what again could be the case due to a paradoxical reaction of quetiapine/diazepam is

that right now I am having the worst hyperarousel after the first time I relaxed and forgot myself watching tv first time since may.

And all the sedating medication (mirtazapin quetiapine diazepam) push my body to an adverse reaction in that he upredulates adrenaline or similar to deal with this alienating medication induced oversedation.

This also could have happened this night when I woke in arousel and much too early due to my body pushing adrenals too much. The sedating medication is too much for my body and he might try to counteract this.

am I habituating bad sleep patterns now if this continues for a longer time as I cannot cut any medication right now due to bad withdrawls?

Am i stuck once again?

knowing or hypotethizing a likely cause of my hyperarousel yet not being able to change anything?

psychmeds are really messing with the bodies natural path to heal.

And again because I lack experienced doctors counsel like most of us i guess I might have made a mistake and thus caused this Probleme:

i tapered mirtazapin from 30 to -5 mg first because I thought it's noradrenalin effect at the higher dose causes my hyperarousel.

Now being on the more sedating and too little activating 16 mg I produced the problem of having only breaks in my medication as allostrata would say. Too much sedation cause by my mirtazapinreduction. My fault yet I didn't know better.

Now i am hurting myself with that achievement "mirtazapinreduction" every day and cannot do much about it.

Psychmeds are far too complex for doctors and patients to handle them properly. And that is me sitting here in the most professional surrounding of a psychiatric hospital (new Bildung, everything quite pretty, everybody friendly and helpful but also helpless and sometimes even admitting it.)

Sorry mistake, I tapered mirtazapin to 16 mg not 5 mg as above.

December 16, 2018

On 12/15/2018 at 1:54 AM, Altostrata said:

Tanha, please keep daily notes on paper about your symptoms, when you take your drugs, and their dosages. Use a simple list format with time of day on the left and notation (symptom, drug and dosage) on the right.

Post them here, in your topic. We can't answer your questions without that context.

But

what again could be the case due to a paradoxical reaction of quetiapine/diazepam is

that right now I am having the worst hyperarousel after the first time I relaxed and forgot myself watching tv first time since may.

And all the sedating medication (mirtazapin quetiapine diazepam) push my body to an adverse reaction in that he upredulates adrenaline or similar to deal with this alienating medication induced oversedation.

This also could have happened this night when I woke in arousel and much too early due to my body pushing adrenals too much. The sedating medication is too much for my body and he might try to counteract this.

am I habituating bad sleep patterns now if this continues for a longer time as I cannot cut any medication right now due to bad withdrawls?

Am i stuck once again?

knowing or hypotethizing a likely cause of my hyperarousel yet not being able to change anything?

psychmeds are really messing with the bodies natural path to heal.

And again because I lack experienced doctors counsel like most of us i guess I might have made a mistake and thus caused this Probleme:

i tapered mirtazapin from 30 to -5 mg first because I thought it's noradrenalin effect at the higher dose causes my hyperarousel.

Now being on the more sedating and too little activating 16 mg I produced the problem of having only breaks in my medication as allostrata would say. Too much sedation cause by my mirtazapinreduction. My fault yet I didn't know better.

Now i am hurting myself with that achievement "mirtazapinreduction" every day and cannot do much about it.

Psychmeds are far too complex for doctors and patients to handle them properly. And that is me sitting here in the most professional surrounding of a psychiatric hospital (new Bildung, everything quite pretty, everybody friendly and helpful but also helpless and sometimes even admitting it.)

December 16, 2018

Cannot reduce the brakes (sedating medication) fast enough so that leaves me with two options:

habituating the experience that always when my body learns to relax by itself it gets the message that the medication is pushing the relaxation too much which could be dangerous and thus the body reacts by setting free more adrenaline and thereby stopping its own relaxation.

Natural relaxation + too much medical sedation = hyperarousel

what a bad learningexperience that relaxing and sleeping causes hyperarousel?

or updosing Mirtazapin in order to get its more sedating effect at lower dose out of the way (15 mg mirtazapin are sedating, 30 mg are activating, are is the typical pharmakocinetics of mirtazapin). I learned that around 15 mg all the sedative receptors (Histamine) are fully blocked that is why 30 mg is not necessarily more sedating than 15). At 30 mg other receptors like noradrenaline (activating, antidepressant as is being thought) are more in the focus of action of this medication.

My my English used to be better before the brainfog.

December 16, 2018

The good news is that I am getting angry at these meds and I haven't had this feeling for months.

Very good for my Selfesteem.

December 16, 2018

Spikes of anxiety every time I closed my eyes

i had this in June or July when we tried to reduce 0,5 mg diazepam and two days after a switch from 1 mg Lorazepam (once) back to 4 mg diazepam with added Chlorprotixen 4x 50 mg.

I had this so bad for three nights I had to keep my eyes open absolutely all the time also at night.

Only an updose from 200 to 400 mg quetiapine, adding 50 mg levomepromazine and updose diazepam from 4 to 7,5 mg stopped this nightmare.

my medication when it happeed was quite similar to the one I have now:

250 mg quetiapine (then 200 mg)

15 mg mirtazapine (then 45 mg)

5 mg diazepam (then 4 mg)

today i woke up from an adrenaline spike at 5 am first time since that nightmare. I hope things will be different now.

December 16, 2018

15 hours ago, Altostrata said:

Please specify exactly how much quetiapine and mirtazapine you are taking in each dose. We need to know your symptoms before and after you take each drug. Use a simple list format with time of day on the left and notation (symptom, drug and dosage) on the right.

I don't understand. Do you think your frequent quetiapine dosing is preventing interdose withdrawal from diazepam?

When did you have interdose withdrawal from diazepam? You're taking that all day long, too. Interdose withdrawal during the day seems unlikely.

To me, more likely is that your "akathisia" is a paradoxical reaction to TOO MUCH diazepam and quetiapine.

Spikes of anxiety every time I closed my eyes

are they coming back?

today i woke up from an adrenaline spike at 5 am first time since that nightmare with no closing eyes for three days and nights in June.

i had this in June or July when we tried to reduce 0,5 mg diazepam and two days after a switch from 1 mg Lorazepam (once) back to 4 mg diazepam with added Chlorprotixen 4x 50 mg.

I had this so bad for three nights I had to keep my eyes open absolutely all the time also at night. Closing them ment that strong electric anxiety immediately exploded in my head and body.

Only an updose from 200 to 400 mg quetiapine, adding 50 mg levomepromazine and updose diazepam from 4 to 7,5 mg stopped this nightmare.

my medication when it happeed was quite similar to the one I have now:

250 mg quetiapine (then 200 mg)

15 mg mirtazapine (then 45 mg)

5 mg diazepam (then 4 mg)

December 16, 2018

Today adrenaline is making the whole day so difficult.

December 16, 2018

We can't answer your questions without the context of your daily notes. Please keep daily notes on paper about your symptoms, when you take your drugs, and their dosages. Use a simple list format with time of day on the left and notation (symptom, drug and dosage) on the right.

I need to see times of day and dosages for every dose, also symptoms prior to and after every dose.

December 17, 2018

7 hours ago, Altostrata said:

We can't answer your questions without the context of your daily notes. Please keep daily notes on paper about your symptoms, when you take your drugs, and their dosages. Use a simple list format with time of day on the left and notation (symptom, drug and dosage) on the right.

I need to see times of day and dosages for every dose, also symptoms prior to and after every dose.

Dear allostrata,

i really did best I Could.

i am really having no energy left. So sick and brainfog gibt.

I could only type my notes into the post as I did

as you read through it you will see that I could only say if a Symptome shows up during morning, afternoon or evening.

I try to be more precise with my future Symptoms but I also have so many symptoms persisting for hours.

I know the benefit of lists and columns. I simply cannot do that at the moment. Please try to get something out of my notes as they are.

My symptoms are always so severe that I have great difficulties writing them down at all.

I know it isn't easy but if you could make something out of my notes I would be so thankful.

I am so sick all the time that absolutely everything is too painful. Cannot even wash myself.

16. dec

4:30 am wake up with hyperarousel that stays whole morning

7:30 meat, vegetables, oats and oatmilk, hempprotein

55 mg quetiapine, 1 mg diazepam, vitamin d, magnesium

8 am hyperarousel, anhedonia,

10 am sick like flue, magnesium, Mini juice

11 am flue and hyperarousel slightly better

12 lunch spiced beef, potatoes

55 mg Quetiapine, 1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm hyperarousel unbearable (after I relaxed a bit), anhedonia

2:30 pm magnesium and Vitamine juice, magnesium

3 pm akathisia

4 pm until 7 pm akathisia and hyperarousel unbearable

5 pm fluelike sickness a little bit

5:30 pm dinner

67,5 mg quetiapine, 1,5 mg diazepam, magnesium

Until 7:30 hyperarousel and akathisia still bad

8 pm 16 mg Mirtazapin

8 pm extremely tired

9:30 pm 72,5 mg quetiapine, 1 mg diazepam

Started to sleep

December 17, 2018

16. dec

4:30 am

Woke with hyperarousel that

Stays whole morning

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

55 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Hyperarousel, anhedonia,

10 am

sick like flue, magnesium,

Vitamine juice

11 am

Flue and hyperarousel

Slightly better

12

lunch spiced beef, potatoes

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Hyperarousel unbearable

(After I relaxed a bit),

Anhedonia all day

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

3 pm

Akathisia

4 pm until 7 pm

Akathisia and

Hyperarousel unbearable

5 pm

Fluelike sickness a little

5:30 pm

Park, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel and

Akathisia still bad

8 pm

16 mg Mirtazapin

8 pm

Extremely tired

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

December 17, 2018

Generally when I get up for half an hour things are mostly fine

evenings 5 pm are mostly better, mirtazapin puts me back to normal for a few hours, brainfog always bad

sleep from 10 pm to 7 am, since November only until 5 am.

i have Depersonalisation do 24/7 sometimes it is worse

i have diarrhea since April or may

Since then also no appetite or hunger at all

Anxiety is absolutely new to me since February, increased a lot during the summer

for a long time I couldn't understand that I had good mood but anhedoniA but no expression, I called it depression then

long time I couldn't differentiate between akathisia and hyperarousel so I called it hyperarousel

i feel constantly physically sick like a slight flue and depressed or anhedonic during the day, mostly with anxiety but little other feelings

i am mostly bedridden

in the following I list additional problems.

I had two very enduring patterns since April:

everyday from 4 to 6 pm arousel and feelings (if I have any that day) gets intense

this pattern was only broken while I was on much more quetispine (350 - 400) for a few months

the other pattern is much younger, persisted from sept/oct till a week days ago

: terrible fluelike sicknesssickness and nausea and weakness and anhedonia between 10 am and 3 pm (during mirtazapin and quetiapine withdrawl)

18. oct

levomepromazine

from 3 to 1,5 mg

Until 26. oct

24 mg mirtazapin

5 mg diazepam

275 mg quetiapine

24 oct forgot to take mirtazapine

26 oct

7 am

Woke with hyperarousel that

Stays whole day

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

0 mg levomepromazine

Vitamin d, magnesium

10 am

Feeling of low

Bloodpressure, magnesium,

11. Noni juice

12 lunch Fish vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Fluelike sick unbearable

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

3 pm Fatigue/very tired

5 pm Severely depressed

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

75 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm 20 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm. Better

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

27 oct

5am woke up

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

10 am

Feeling of low

bloodpressure, bad dp/dr

magnesium,

11. Noni juice

12 lunch beef,

Vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

3 pm Fatigue/very tired

Severely depressed,

extreme hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

75 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm 20 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm. Better

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

28 oct

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

10 am

Feeling of low

bloodpressure all day, bad

Dp/dr, magnesium,

11.am Noni juice

12 lunch pork, vegtables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm.

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

4 pm Bad hyperarousel, anxiety

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

75 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm 20 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm. Better

100 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam

29. Oct

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

Bad depression,

10 am

hyperarousel, feeling of Low

Bloodpressure

11 am. Noni juice

12

lunch beef

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

feeling of low

Bloodpressure

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

75 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7 pm

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

30 oct

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad depression, dp/dr bad

11. Noni juice

12

lunch spiced beef, potatoes

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Hyperarousel unbearable

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

5 pm

burning skin, bad

Hyperarousel, dp/dr

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

75 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7 pm. Anxiety, hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin

8 pm

Better

9:30 pm

100mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

31 oct

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Otrmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Severe depression, dp/dr,

11 am

anxiety, Noni juice

12

lunch beef vegetable

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

depressed all day, dp/dr

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm Fatigue/tired badly

5 pm

Fluelike sickness

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

75 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

1. nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 ? mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium,

10 am

bad hyperarousel, dp/dr,

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch chicken, vegetables

50 ? mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Hyperarousel, anxiety

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

4 pm

Hyperarousel, anxiety

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

50 ? mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100? mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

2. nov 262,5 mg quetiapine

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

extreme anxiety

10 am

Hyperarousel, magnesium,

Vitamine juice

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

Anxiety, fatigue/tired

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

4 pm

Burning skin

Hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Depressed

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

3 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

bad Depression, dp/Dr,

10 am

Hyperarousel, magnesium,

Vitamine juice

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

Hyperarousel, bad

Fatigue/tired,

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel and

Dp /dr

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin

8 pm

Extremely tired

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

4 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Dp/dr, depressed

10 am

Bad anxiety,

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

3 pm

Poor concentration,

Nausea, hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

5 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Depression, bad anhedonia,

11 am

Noni juice, fluelike sick until

2 pm

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

3 pm

Severely fatigue/tired

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

6 Nov.

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Hyperarousel, severe

Anhedonia, depressed, sick

Like glue, nausea

10 am

hyperarousel,

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Still bad fluelike pain

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

3 pm

depressed, nausea

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30 pm

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

7 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

anxiety,

10 am

hyperarousel, depressed

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Anxiety, dp/dr, feeling

Like Löw bloodpressure

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Nausea

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

8 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

dp/dr, anhedonia bad,

Anxiety

10 am

Hyperarousel,

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

3 pm

anxiety, feeling like low

Bloodpressure

4 pm Nausea

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

11 pm. Ruminated badly, cannot

sleep until 1 am

9 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad depression, bad

Anhedonia,

10 am

Bad anxiety, dp/dr

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

Hyperarousel, anxiety

3 pm

depressed

5 pm

Nausea

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30 pm

Bad hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

10 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Severe depression,

Severe anhedoniA,

10 am

anxiety, hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

sick like flue, nausea

3 pm

Depressed , hyperarousel

5 pm

burning skin, bad dp/dr

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

11 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Extreme hyperarousel, do,

10 am

hyperarousel all day

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2 pm. Anxiety, bad depression

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

3 pm. Hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Park, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

12 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad hyperarousel, anhedonia,

10 am

burning Skin badly

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

depressed, anhedoniA,

Anxiety

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Hyperarousel, anxiety, dp

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

13 nov

7 am nausea

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad dp/dr all day

11 am

noni juice

Hyperarousel

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

3 pm

Hyperarousel extreme

5 pm

burning skin, anxiety,

Depressed

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

14 nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

dp/dr bad,

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Dp better

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

severely depressed,

4 pm Burning skin, do bad

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

15 nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad anxiety,

10 am

hyperarousel, dp

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch spiced beef, potatoes

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2 pm. Extreme hyperarousel,

Depressed, anhedonia,

Dp/dr

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Extreme hyperarousel

Akathisia?

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

15 nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

dp/dr bad,

9 am

hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

Severely depressed

Anhedonia, extreme

Hyperarousel

4 pm Bad nausea, burning

Skin

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7 pm

Bad hyperarousel, bad

Dp/dr

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

17 nov

7:30 mal

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Nausea, anhedonia,

Depressed

9 am

dp/dr, hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch fish vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2 pm. Severely depressed,

hyperarousel, apathy,

Anhedonia

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Bad nausea

5:30 pm

Park, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7 pm

Hyperarousel

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

18 nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad hyperarousel, anhedonia,

10 am

hyperarousel

Unbearable

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Hyperarousel still bad

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

hyperarousel Bad, bad

Anxiety,

5 pm

hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

depressed, dp

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

19 nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad anxiety,

10 am

hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch vegetables meat

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Dp Bad

4 pm. Nausea, extreme

Hyperarousel,

Worse Dp

5:30 pm

Park, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Depressed

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

20 nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

bad depression, bad nausea,

9 am

extreme hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch fish vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

feeling better but

depressed, feeling of

Low bloodpressure

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

3 pm

Anxiety

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel, bad

Depression

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

21 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

bad Dp, anhedonia,

9 am

Hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

Nausea, feeling of low

Bloodpressure

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

fatigue/ tired, depressed,

bad hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7 pm

Hyperarouse

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

22 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Ok,

9 am

DEpressed, Dp/dr,

Hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

Nausea

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

feeling of low

Bloodpressure

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Bad nausea, no

Concentration, fatigue/

Tired, hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5!mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

8 pm

Extremely tired

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

23 nov

237 mg instead of 250 mg quetiapine)

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Ok, ,

9 am. Anxiety, hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch spiced beef, potatoes

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2 pm. Akathisia, hyperarousel,

No concentration

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

4 pm Nausea

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel burning

Skin, akathisia, numb

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

75 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

24 nov

(230 mg quetiapine)

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Fluelike sickness ,

10 am

No concentration, brainfog

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch fish vegetable

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Anxiety all day, no

Nausea, no anhedonia

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

3 pm

akathisia bad

5 pm

Akathisia bad

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30 pm

Akathisia still bad

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

25 nov

5 am woke

good mod all day

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium,

10 am

akathisia Little better, no

concentration, anhedonia

All day, bad anxiety

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

3 pm

Bad anxiety

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel and

Akathisia still bad

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin

8 pm

Extremely tired

9:30 pm

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

26. Nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

9 am

Good mood, anhedonia,

Extreme akathisia

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch vegetables meat

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Extreme sickness:

Brainfog, flue, movement

Problems, burning skin,

Weakness, dizzy, vertigo

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

27. nov

lost another 2 kg weight

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

extreme akathisia whole day,

Attended no therapy

10 am

nad brainfog, dizzy

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

4 pm

long bad anxiety,anhedonis

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Depressed

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

28 nov

5 am Woke with anxiety

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

akathisia Little betterbetter

Whole day,

11 am

Noni juice

Bad nausea, very weak,

Very sick like glue,

Bedridden, mental

Akathisia all day,

Anhedonia all day

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Depressed

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Anxiety and

Akathisia still bad,

MUscle cramps

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

29 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

extreme akathisia, whole day

Little better, Whole day

Bad dp/dr, depression

10 am

Flue sick, attended no

Therapy

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Bad anxiety

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Akathisia

5 pm

Bad musclecramps, bad

Cognition, anhedonia

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Akathisia still bad

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapine, better

9:30 pm

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

30 nov

(245 mg quetiapine, don't know which Dose was wrong)

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 ?mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Musclecramps musclepain

Attended no therapy,

Whole dax depression and

Very bad flue

10 am

Feeling of low bloodpressure

11 am

Noni juice

December 17, 2018

Generally when I get up for half an hour things are mostly fine

evenings 5 pm are mostly better, mirtazapin puts me back to normal for a few hours, brainfog always bad

sleep from 10 pm to 7 am, since November only until 5 am.

i have Depersonalisation do 24/7 sometimes it is worse

i have diarrhea since April or may

Since then also no appetite or hunger at all

Anxiety is absolutely new to me since February, increased a lot during the summer

for a long time I couldn't understand that I had good mood but anhedoniA but no expression, I called it depression then

long time I couldn't differentiate between akathisia and hyperarousel so I called it hyperarousel

i feel constantly physically sick like a slight flue and depressed or anhedonic during the day, mostly with anxiety but little other feelings

i am mostly bedridden

in the following I list additional problems.

I had two very enduring patterns since April:

everyday from 4 to 6 pm arousel and feelings (if I have any that day) gets intense

this pattern was only broken while I was on much more quetispine (350 - 400) for a few months

the other pattern is much younger, persisted from sept/oct till a week days ago

: terrible fluelike sicknesssickness and nausea and weakness and anhedonia between 10 am and 3 pm (during mirtazapin and quetiapine withdrawl)

18. oct

levomepromazine

from 3 to 1,5 mg

Until 26. oct

24 mg mirtazapin

5 mg diazepam

275 mg quetiapine

24 oct forgot to take mirtazapine

26 oct

7 am

Woke with hyperarousel that

Stays whole day

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

0 mg levomepromazine

Vitamin d, magnesium

10 am

Feeling of low

Bloodpressure, magnesium,

11. Noni juice

12 lunch Fish vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Fluelike sick unbearable

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

3 pm Fatigue/very tired

5 pm Severely depressed

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

75 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm 20 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm. Better

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

27 oct

5am woke up

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

10 am

Feeling of low

bloodpressure, bad dp/dr

magnesium,

11. Noni juice

12 lunch beef,

Vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

3 pm Fatigue/very tired

Severely depressed,

extreme hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

75 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm 20 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm. Better

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

28 oct

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

10 am

Feeling of low

bloodpressure all day, bad

Dp/dr, magnesium,

11.am Noni juice

12 lunch pork, vegtables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm.

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

4 pm Bad hyperarousel, anxiety

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

75 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm 20 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm. Better

100 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam

29. Oct

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

Bad depression,

10 am

hyperarousel, feeling of Low

Bloodpressure

11 am. Noni juice

12

lunch beef

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

feeling of low

Bloodpressure

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

75 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7 pm

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

30 oct

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad depression, dp/dr bad

11. Noni juice

12

lunch spiced beef, potatoes

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Hyperarousel unbearable

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

5 pm

burning skin, bad

Hyperarousel, dp/dr

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

75 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7 pm. Anxiety, hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin

8 pm

Better

9:30 pm

100mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

31 oct

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Otrmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Severe depression, dp/dr,

11 am

anxiety, Noni juice

12

lunch beef vegetable

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

depressed all day, dp/dr

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm Fatigue/tired badly

5 pm

Fluelike sickness

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

75 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

1. nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 ? mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium,

10 am

bad hyperarousel, dp/dr,

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch chicken, vegetables

50 ? mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Hyperarousel, anxiety

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

4 pm

Hyperarousel, anxiety

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

50 ? mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100? mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

2. nov 262,5 mg quetiapine

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

extreme anxiety

10 am

Hyperarousel, magnesium,

Vitamine juice

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

Anxiety, fatigue/tired

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

4 pm

Burning skin

Hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Depressed

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

3 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

bad Depression, dp/Dr,

10 am

Hyperarousel, magnesium,

Vitamine juice

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

Hyperarousel, bad

Fatigue/tired,

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel and

Dp /dr

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin

8 pm

Extremely tired

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

4 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Dp/dr, depressed

10 am

Bad anxiety,

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

3 pm

Poor concentration,

Nausea, hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

5 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Depression, bad anhedonia,

11 am

Noni juice, fluelike sick until

2 pm

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

3 pm

Severely fatigue/tired

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

6 Nov.

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Hyperarousel, severe

Anhedonia, depressed, sick

Like glue, nausea

10 am

hyperarousel,

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Still bad fluelike pain

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

3 pm

depressed, nausea

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30 pm

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

7 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

anxiety,

10 am

hyperarousel, depressed

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Anxiety, dp/dr, feeling

Like Löw bloodpressure

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Nausea

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

8 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

dp/dr, anhedonia bad,

Anxiety

10 am

Hyperarousel,

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

3 pm

anxiety, feeling like low

Bloodpressure

4 pm Nausea

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

11 pm. Ruminated badly, cannot

sleep until 1 am

9 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad depression, bad

Anhedonia,

10 am

Bad anxiety, dp/dr

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

Hyperarousel, anxiety

3 pm

depressed

5 pm

Nausea

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30 pm

Bad hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

10 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Severe depression,

Severe anhedoniA,

10 am

anxiety, hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

sick like flue, nausea

3 pm

Depressed , hyperarousel

5 pm

burning skin, bad dp/dr

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

11 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Extreme hyperarousel, do,

10 am

hyperarousel all day

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2 pm. Anxiety, bad depression

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

3 pm. Hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Park, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

20 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

12 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad hyperarousel, anhedonia,

10 am

burning Skin badly

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

depressed, anhedoniA,

Anxiety

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Hyperarousel, anxiety, dp

8 pm

20 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

13 nov

7 am nausea

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad dp/dr all day

11 am

noni juice

Hyperarousel

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

3 pm

Hyperarousel extreme

5 pm

burning skin, anxiety,

Depressed

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

14 nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

dp/dr bad,

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Dp better

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

severely depressed,

4 pm Burning skin, do bad

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

15 nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad anxiety,

10 am

hyperarousel, dp

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch spiced beef, potatoes

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2 pm. Extreme hyperarousel,

Depressed, anhedonia,

Dp/dr

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Extreme hyperarousel

Akathisia?

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

15 nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

dp/dr bad,

9 am

hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

Severely depressed

Anhedonia, extreme

Hyperarousel

4 pm Bad nausea, burning

Skin

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7 pm

Bad hyperarousel, bad

Dp/dr

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

17 nov

7:30 mal

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Nausea, anhedonia,

Depressed

9 am

dp/dr, hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch fish vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2 pm. Severely depressed,

hyperarousel, apathy,

Anhedonia

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Bad nausea

5:30 pm

Park, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7 pm

Hyperarousel

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

18 nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad hyperarousel, anhedonia,

10 am

hyperarousel

Unbearable

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Hyperarousel still bad

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

hyperarousel Bad, bad

Anxiety,

5 pm

hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

depressed, dp

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

19 nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad anxiety,

10 am

hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch vegetables meat

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Dp Bad

4 pm. Nausea, extreme

Hyperarousel,

Worse Dp

5:30 pm

Park, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Depressed

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

20 nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

bad depression, bad nausea,

9 am

extreme hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch fish vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

feeling better but

depressed, feeling of

Low bloodpressure

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

3 pm

Anxiety

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel, bad

Depression

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

21 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

bad Dp, anhedonia,

9 am

Hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

Nausea, feeling of low

Bloodpressure

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

fatigue/ tired, depressed,

bad hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7 pm

Hyperarouse

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

22 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Ok,

9 am

DEpressed, Dp/dr,

Hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

Nausea

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

feeling of low

Bloodpressure

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Bad nausea, no

Concentration, fatigue/

Tired, hyperarousel

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5!mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

8 pm

Extremely tired

9:30 pm

100 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

23 nov

237 mg instead of 250 mg quetiapine)

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Ok, ,

9 am. Anxiety, hyperarousel

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch spiced beef, potatoes

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2 pm. Akathisia, hyperarousel,

No concentration

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

4 pm Nausea

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel burning

Skin, akathisia, numb

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

75 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

24 nov

(230 mg quetiapine)

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Fluelike sickness ,

10 am

No concentration, brainfog

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch fish vegetable

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Anxiety all day, no

Nausea, no anhedonia

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

3 pm

akathisia bad

5 pm

Akathisia bad

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30 pm

Akathisia still bad

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

25 nov

5 am woke

good mod all day

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium,

10 am

akathisia Little better, no

concentration, anhedonia

All day, bad anxiety

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

3 pm

Bad anxiety

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel and

Akathisia still bad

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin

8 pm

Extremely tired

9:30 pm

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

26. Nov

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

9 am

Good mood, anhedonia,

Extreme akathisia

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch vegetables meat

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Extreme sickness:

Brainfog, flue, movement

Problems, burning skin,

Weakness, dizzy, vertigo

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

27. nov

lost another 2 kg weight

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

extreme akathisia whole day,

Attended no therapy

10 am

nad brainfog, dizzy

11 am

noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

4 pm

long bad anxiety,anhedonis

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Depressed

8 pm

15 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

28 nov

5 am Woke with anxiety

7:30 am

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

akathisia Little betterbetter

Whole day,

11 am

Noni juice

Bad nausea, very weak,

Very sick like glue,

Bedridden, mental

Akathisia all day,

Anhedonia all day

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Depressed

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

Anxiety and

Akathisia still bad,

MUscle cramps

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

29 nov

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

extreme akathisia, whole day

Little better, Whole day

Bad dp/dr, depression

10 am

Flue sick, attended no

Therapy

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Bad anxiety

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Akathisia

5 pm

Bad musclecramps, bad

Cognition, anhedonia

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Akathisia still bad

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapine, better

9:30 pm

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

30 nov

(245 mg quetiapine, don't know which Dose was wrong)

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50 ?mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Musclecramps musclepain

Attended no therapy,

Whole dax depression and

Very bad flue

10 am

Feeling of low bloodpressure

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 ?mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Hyperarousel unbearable

(After I relaxed a bit),

Anhedonia all day

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 ?mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

pm

emotional akathisia still

bad, severely depressed,

No concentration

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

67,5 ?mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

1 dec

(215 mg don't know which Dose was wrong)

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

50? mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

anxiety

9 am

strong akathisia whole day

11 am

Noni juice

Flue and nausea until 4 pm

12

lunch meat vegetables

50? mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 ?mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Akathisia still bad

Muscle cramps

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

67,5 ?mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

2 dec

(162,5 mg quetiapine)

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

50 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

most severe depression,

Anhedonia, bad flue all day,

Mental akathisis bad all

Day

But urge to move better

11 am

Noni juice,

Nausea, burning skin

12

lunch meat vegetables

50 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Bedridden

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

5 pm

Fluelike sickness a little

better, anxiety

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

8 pm

Extreme despair, anxiety

9:30 pm

0 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

3 dec

(280 mg quetiapine)

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

70 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

Bloodpressure 102/62

8 am

akathisia whole day

A little better, whole day

Bad anhedoniA

10 am

extreme brainfog, dizzy

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

62,5 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

More feelings but alien,

Dp/dr bad, mild nausea

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 Pm Bad flue sickness, longing

For life, hopeless, vision

impaired, burning Skin

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

75 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

emptyness

8 pm

15 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

4 dec

(250 mg quetiapin, 16 mg Mirtazapin)

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

55 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

weak, dp, anxiety, many

Feelings,

10 am

extreme brainfog, dizzy

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

better but no pleasure

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

4 pm

More akathisia,

Depression worse

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 6:30

Hyperarousel suddenly

Extreme, burning chest

8 pm

16 mg Mirtazapin

8 pm

Extremely tired

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

5 dec

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

55 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Bad akathisia, anxiety,

10 am

Bad flue, Nausea, burning

Skin, weakness

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Much better

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

16 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

6 dec

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

55 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

very restless, utter despair,

Heart pounding and burning

No flue, worst akathisia,

No Therapies attended

NO Depression, anxiety

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

4 pm severe depression and

Akathisia till late,

heartrate high

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

16 mg Mirtazapin

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

7 dec

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

55 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Akathisia, depression,

severe anxiety,

11 am

Noni juice

All day Bad flue, burning

Skin, weak, nausea, bad

Anhedonia, akathisia

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

akathisia better, despair,

severe anxiety,

Severe depression,

Heartpounding

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

5 pm

all better but depression

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

Until 7:30

Hyperarousel suddenly

Extreme, fast heartrate

8 pm

16 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

8 dec

7:30

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

55 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

all day raised anxiety

Depresion an der dp,

10 am

Bad sickness until 3 pm

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Hyperarousel unbearable

(After I relaxed a bit),

Anhedonia all day

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice, magnesium

3 pm. Hyperarousel gets bad

During afternoon, dp,

akathisia Little better,

Mental akathisia bad,

Mild skinburning, mild

Flue, weakness better

4 pm

less depressed (101/75)

5 pm

Fluelike sickness a little

5:30 pm

Park, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

6 pm

Extreme hyperarousel

8 pm

16 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

9 dec

4:30 am ruminate

7:30 mg

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

55 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

MOst severe depression and

Anhedonia, dp and anxiety

Bad all Day, dizzy,

Akathisia all day

9 am until 1 pm, nausea

extreme flue, weakness

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2-4 pm

Hyperarousel unbearable

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

16 mg mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

10 dec

(255 mg quetiapine)

4:30 am Woke up

7:30 mg

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

60 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

Heart 112/71

8 am

enduring strong anxiety,

Many feelings, good mood

Interest

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1:30 to 3 pm

Hyperarousel unbearable

Akathisia all day

No flue, heart 207/57

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Weakness, fatigue/

sedation, Dp, no

Feelings

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

hyperarousel

8 pm

16 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

11 dec

(255 mg quetiapine)

5 am. woke

7:30 mg

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

60 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

enduring strong anxiety,

Many feelings, good mood

Interest

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 to 3 pm

Hyperarousel unbearable

All day akathisia little

better, heartbeating,

Anxiety, good mood

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Weakness, fatigue/

no Motivation, bad dp,

BAD anhedonia

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

extreme hyperarousel

8 pm

16 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

12 dec

(250 mg quetiapine)

4:30 am Woke up

7:30 mg

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

60 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

hyperarousel and

and akathisia a Little better

, good mood, dp better,

Anhedonia Bad

9 am painful depression

11-13. extreme sick, pain, nausea,

Very weak, good mood

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

2 pm

Akathisia mild, flu mild

Mild burning skin

Hyperarousel

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

5 pm. Everything better

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

62,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7 pm

extreme hyperarousel

8 pm

16 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

13 dec

(250 mg quetiapine)

4:30 am Woke up

7:30 mg

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

60 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

Sick stomach, depression

9 am. Bad mood, empty, sick,

akathis a Little better

11 am-1 pm

mild flue, muscleweakness

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Hyperarousel

fatigue/sedated

Anxiety

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Weakness, fatigue/

sedation, Dp, no

Feelings

5 pm. Severe anhedonia

Until late

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

16 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

14 dec

4:30 am Woke up

7:30 mg

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oarmilk, hempprotein

60 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

extreme anhedonia,

akathisia milder,

Bad fatigue

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Less sick, less nausea

Very sedated, Bad

MUscleweakness

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Weakness, fatigue/

sedation, Less depri

4-5 pm. Extreme akathisia

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

8 pm

16 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

15 dec

5 am Woke up

7:30 mg

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

60 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

7 am - 2 pm

VERy sick, bad flue,

Burning skin, bedridden

, Intense anhedonia,

hopeless

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

much better

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

4 pm

intense akathisia

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

mag

8 pm

16 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

16 dec

5 am Woke up, hyperarousel

all morning, anxiety

7:30 mg

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

60 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

muscleweakness, sick

LIKe flue but milder

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1 pm

Hyperarousel unbearable

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

4:30 pm bad akathisia,

Hyperarousel, burning

Skin, lichtsensitiv

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

hyperarousel, sickness

8 pm

16 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

17 dec

5 am Woke up

7:30 mg

Meat, vegetables, oats and

Oatmilk, hempprotein

60 mg quetiapine,

1mg diazepam,

Vitamin d, magnesium

8 am

good mood, bad anhedonia

Until 9

flue all morning, muscle-

weakness

10 am. More feelings but distant

11 am

Noni juice

12

lunch meat vegetables

55 mg Quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam

1pm

little better

2 pm. anxiety

2:30 pm

magnesium and Vitamine

Juice,

3 pm

Hyperarousel

unbearable

5:30 pm

Pork, cucumber, oatmilk,

Oats, hempproteine

67,5 mg quetiapine,

1,5 mg diazepam,

magnesium

7:30

hyperarousel again,

burning chest

, vision impaired

8 pm

16 mg Mirtazapin, better

9:30 pm

72,5 mg quetiapine,

1 mg diazepam

The old pattern (see intro of this post) is back:

hyperarousel everyday 4-6 pm

December 17, 2018

Thanks for posting your symptom pattern. Please show some consideration for the staff and make it easier to read by posting it in a more compact fashion.

As you can see, your doses of quetiapine and diazepam are not reducing your symptoms. On the contrary, my guess is that you are getting a paradoxical reaction from them by taking too much of both too often and this causes your symptoms all day long.

Doctors and patients alike think that taking more quetiapine and diazepam is better for subduing symptoms such as anxiety and other types of activation. However, taking too much of these "brakes" causes the nervous system to rebel and produce more of the symptoms.

Since it seems you have a lot of control over your drug dosing, you have, at least in part, been designing your own over-drugging with diazepam and quetiapine. If you insist that more is better, we don't have any magic recipe for making your drug-caused symptoms to go away.

The only way to reduce a paradoxical reaction is to reduce the drugs. We advise reducing them one at a time, slowly, to avoid withdrawal symptoms. If I were you, I'd start on the quetiapine because it is far worse for your general health than diazepam.

December 17, 2018

20 hours ago, Altostrata said:

We can't answer your questions without the context of your daily notes. Please keep daily notes on paper about your symptoms, when you take your drugs, and their dosages. Use a simple list format with time of day on the left and notation (symptom, drug and dosage) on the right.

I need to see times of day and dosages for every dose, also symptoms prior to and after every dose.

Dear altostrata,

thank you you for enduring this project with me.

Now i put everything in an order that might be much closer to what is being needed (the listformat with two columns).

Unfortunately i posted it zwice and it is very long.

Nobody is ever going to find any interest in such a mess.

Any chance of clearing up that chaos?

December 17, 2018

Please see my post just above yours.

We don't spend a lot of time editing out mistakes. Thanks.

December 17, 2018

7 minutes ago, Altostrata said:

Thanks for posting your symptom pattern. Please show some consideration for the staff and make it easier to read by posting it in a more compact fashion.

As you can see, your doses of quetiapine and diazepam are not reducing your symptoms. On the contrary, my guess is that you are getting a paradoxical reaction from them by taking too much of both too often and this causes your symptoms all day long.

Doctors and patients alike think that taking more quetiapine and diazepam is better for subduing symptoms such as anxiety and other types of activation. However, taking too much of these "brakes" causes the nervous system to rebel and produce more of the symptoms.

Since it seems you have a lot of control over your drug dosing, you have, at least in part, been designing your own over-drugging with diazepam and quetiapine. If you insist that more is better, we don't have any magic recipe for making your drug-caused symptoms to go away.

The only way to reduce a paradoxical reaction is to reduce the drugs. We advise reducing them one at a time, slowly, to avoid withdrawal symptoms. If I were you, I'd start on the quetiapine because it is far worse for your general health than diazepam.

Dear altostrata

I agree with you about the paradoxical reaction,

only I cannot think of a proper strategy to solve this.

1. i am absolutely determined to reduce these Meds.

2. I can reduce quetiapine only by small amounts and slow since I have enormous withdrawl effects (e.g. most severe depression, nausea, flue everyday, pain).

Slow taper means I have to wait for months until I will reduce the paradoxical effect substantially.

3. I am bedridden and have never stabilized at any Dosage and will never stabilize because of the paradoxical reaction.

4. i had many dosechanges lately: mirtazapin i reduced one month ago and updosed it by 1 mg 2 weeks ago.

The last dosechange of quetiapine as you can see is also only 14 days old (updose from 230 to 250).

All this makes it almost impossible

to decide the next step.

so if you could give me an idea when and how much quetiapine i could try to reduce that would be of great help.

December 17, 2018

11 minutes ago, Altostrata said:

Please see my post just above yours.

We don't spend a lot of time editing out mistakes. Thanks.

I understand that very well.

December 17, 2018

Stop randomly trying drugs. You are generating side effects.

See Tips for tapering off Seroquel (quetiapine)

If it's impossible for you to reduce quetiapine, there's nothing we can do for you here. This is a site for going off drugs.

December 17, 2018

I know that you can images how determined I am to get off these drugs.

since march i lost my life to withdrawl which is unhealthy in itself.

December 17, 2018

4 minutes ago, Altostrata said:

Stop randomly trying drugs. You are generating side effects.

See Tips for tapering off Seroquel (quetiapine)

If it's impossible for you to reduce quetiapine, there's nothing we can do for you here. This is a site for going off drugs.

Altostrata,

please give me an idea of when and how much I can taper quetiapine in my situation.

i am only talking about quetiapine!!

i don't Wyatt to change anything else

just the problem is I did it too much and am in agony

December 17, 2018

See Tips for tapering off Seroquel (quetiapine)

December 17, 2018

1 minute ago, Tanha said:

Altostrata,

please give me an idea of when and how much I can taper quetiapine in my situation.

i am only talking about quetiapine!!

i don't Wyatt to change anything else

just the problem is I did it too much and am in agony

I know all the tapering literature by heart.

It says waiting until I stabilize and then wait four werks and more.

yet i do not stabilize. I tried that before. What can I do under these circumstances?

in one of your first posts you recommended to taper much sooner because you believe the paradoxical reaction is really a huge problem!

December 17, 2018

7 minutes ago, Altostrata said:

See Tips for tapering off Seroquel (quetiapine)

2 minutes ago, Tanha said:

I know all the tapering literature by heart.

It says waiting until I stabilize and then wait four werks and more.

yet i do not stabilize. I tried that before. What can I do under these circumstances?

in one of your first posts you recommended to taper much sooner because you believe the paradoxical reaction is really a huge problem!

i am absolutely dedicated to coming off!

just I need good counsel.

December 17, 2018

My guess is you haven't "stabilized" because the more you take, the more adverse reactions you generate. You will never "stabilize" when you're taking an excessive amount of drugs.

If I were you, I'd start tapering Seroquel right away.

December 17, 2018

I hope you have a good day today

December 18, 2018

11 hours ago, Altostrata said:

My guess is you haven't "stabilized" because the more you take, the more adverse reactions you generate. You will never "stabilize" when you're taking an excessive amount of drugs.

If I were you, I'd start tapering Seroquel right away.

I did a lot of fast tapering quetiapine and mirtazapin and levomepromazine.

I hope I didn't damage myself with this. I feel sick like never before.

now I only want to taper quetiapine although I feel sick like hell and anhedonia and akathisia get much worse during dosereduction.

December 18, 2018

I have the flue constantly for two months now.

and I became lightsensitive.

Do i have to wear sunglasses now all the time to prevent damage to the eyes?

December 18, 2018

I came down from 400 mg quetiapine to 250 mg in 4 months.

That was too quick and I have to pay for this now.

December 18, 2018

12 hours ago, Altostrata said:

My guess is you haven't "stabilized" because the more you take, the more adverse reactions you generate. You will never "stabilize" when you're taking an excessive amount of drugs.

If I were you, I'd start tapering Seroquel right away.

I came down from 400 mg quetiapine to 250 mg in 4 months.

That was too quick and I have to pay for this now.

Since two two months I have a bad flue every day.

i became lightsensitive.

Must I wear sunglasses now all the time to prevent damage to the eyes? Here it iswinter and wearing sunglasses would be strange.

Can i do lighttherapiy? Doesn't feel good.

December 18, 2018

Wow,

i just understood that The fluelike condition I am in since two months or more could be a response to elevated stress.

this could be anxiety e.g. or as it might be in my case the stress that medication itself puts onto my body.

December 18, 2018

16 hours ago, Altostrata said:

My guess is you haven't "stabilized" because the more you take, the more adverse reactions you generate. You will never "stabilize" when you're taking an excessive amount of drugs.

If I were you, I'd start tapering Seroquel right away.

May I ask

why do you think reducing quetiapine might relief me of the paradoxical reaction I am definitely experiencing

if the combi of both diazepam and quetiapine might be the cause of this?

i just learned that fluelike symptoms during withdrawl could be a stressreaction.

Although this symptom is very debiliating I begin to hope that less medication (some time) will reduce stress onto the body.

Not only but also.

Only I have to taper so slowly which means I have to endure this for quite a while. That is so sad.

I always wonder how much I can reduce at a time and how long to hold. With these persistent symptoms it is very difficult to decide.

i think anhedonia and depression could be better indicators. Maybe.

December 18, 2018

1 minute ago, Tanha said:

May I ask

why do you think reducing quetiapine might relief me of the paradoxical reaction I am definitely experiencing

if the combi of both diazepam and quetiapine might be the cause of this?

i just learned that fluelike symptoms during withdrawl could be a stressreaction.

Although this symptom is very debiliating I begin to hope that less medication (some time) will reduce stress onto the body.

Not only but also.

Only I have to taper so slowly which means I have to endure this for quite a while. That is so sad.

I always wonder how much I can reduce at a time and how long to hold. With these persistent symptoms it is very difficult to decide.

i think anhedonia and depression could be better indicators. Maybe.

For a start I think of 15 mg quetiapine every three weeks to be able to deal with akathisia. But this might make the taper very slow and the flue much longer.

Or it might be too fast for symptoms to subside or lessen before the next step and then symptoms pile up.

this is too complex.

December 18, 2018

I read that quetiapine/ seroquel is more sedating the lower the dose?

i am at 250 mg cutting my slow way down and since a week I experience daytime sedation quite badly. Doesn't go well with the depressions and two more sedating drugs.

Any hope that my slow taper won't be all in all oversedating for two years?

how does one manage?

Tanha: never stabilize under diazepam but want to taper

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