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I'm not suicidal as I have small kids and I could never do this to them and to my husband.

But I think of death every day and how nice it would be to get relief from all this:(

 

Is this common in withdrawal and will it go away?

 

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Was on Paxil 20 mg between 2007-2016 for social anxiety.

 

Off Paxil since 29 february 2016, after 9 years on the drug.

Tried to reinstate 6 weeks later with no results, tried then Prozac and Zoloft on advice of psychiatrist with bad results. Meds free since 1 of june and in withdrawal which I don't know any more what it is caused by. ( Paxil, Prozac or Zoloft).

 

Withdrawal symptoms: severe insomnia, nausea, weight loss, anxiety, brain zaps sometimes, strange pains in different places on my body (could be caused by the anxiety though),gastrointestinal issues, jaw pain (gone now), poor memory (could be the lack of sleep), poor concentration, irritability, depression, hopelessness, rumination, tinnitus (gone)

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Sean

Hey Roxanne, I had death weighing on my mind every single day for quite a while when I first started with my AD withdrawal. It was unbearable waking up every day with that weighing on my mind wondering if I was going to be like that forever. Some months passed and it became less frequent...and now 2 and a half years into WD, I'll have that thought pop in my head every so often for no reason what so ever...but the only difference is it's usually when I'm sick, or about to get sick, which makes my WD symptoms worse. I'm able to recognize that the thought isnt rational and I just kinda kick it to the curb and move on with my day. It does get better though. I never wanted to commit suicide, but those thoughts of me just not being here so I dont have to deal with all of this use to rush through my mind constantly. It would literally scare the hell out of me because I know I'm not a dark person, I see the good in everyone and everything. That darkness does go away over time...just keep looking ahead for the light :)

 

From what I've read of others journeys with WD, it seems to be fairly common for the most part depending on how severe the WD's are..so you're definitely not alone!


Started Lexapro (escitalopram) 10mg in 2009 for general depression/mild anxiety.

Stopped taking Lexapro in August of 2013 cold turkey.

Started having vertigo/dizziness in late January of 2014. Symptoms became worse over a few months. 

Re-instated Lexapro 10mg in June of 2014. Could only handle for a week before dropping down to 5mg.

Stopped taking Lexapro in March of 2015 and began taking Celexa 10mg.

 

Also taking topamax 25mg for headaches/migraines and losartan 25mg for high blood pressure.

 

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Terry4949

Hi Roxannes I have been in withdrawel for 3 years now and when I first started I had it every day from the moment I woke up I would start to think about it , I like you am not suicidel but would think how much easier it would be if I was not here and it would shorten my suffering , all I can say is it's something you have to learn to reconize as a inappropriate thought and try your best to ignore it , for me 3 years on I still get these thoughts but I said to my self I am not going to commit suicide so unless I die from some major illness I am not going to pay it any attention , I am hoping as my brain repairs it self that this will diminish in time , I wish you well


100mg Effexor 2000 untill jan 2015 severe withdrawals . Tapered 4weeks.

Jan to end of Feb 4 weeks on 15mg mirtazapine 20mg quetiapine , tapered of both 2 weeks , severe withdrawals , still some from Effexor possibly

End of Feb 2015 to end of July 30mg citolapram tapered 2weeks severe withdrawal , anxiety high , bouts of sever depression , severe emotional moods

Currently on 30mg mirtazapine appx 5 months , high anxiety, March cut dose 22.5 mg going on to liquid still no improvements with the depression , also started sept 2015 200mg pregabalin , currently on 22.5mg mirtazapine tablet form doing really badly. Cut beginning of May remeron 20mg still bad anxiety,August 15mg remeron ,100mg pregablin , severe depression headaches anxiety , oct 2016 doctor stoped pregablin c/t , 15mg mirtazapine still no let up in physical symptoms ,high anxiety ,Nov 2016 remeron 13.5 mg , Jan 2017 mirtazapine stopped flouxetine20mg added by hospital admission, no choice , doing really badly , akathesia suicidel ,, Flouxetine c/t by hospital after 7 weeks 20mg daily , currently on nothing , God help me

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RoxanneS

Thanks guys for your answers, they give me hope.


Was on Paxil 20 mg between 2007-2016 for social anxiety.

 

Off Paxil since 29 february 2016, after 9 years on the drug.

Tried to reinstate 6 weeks later with no results, tried then Prozac and Zoloft on advice of psychiatrist with bad results. Meds free since 1 of june and in withdrawal which I don't know any more what it is caused by. ( Paxil, Prozac or Zoloft).

 

Withdrawal symptoms: severe insomnia, nausea, weight loss, anxiety, brain zaps sometimes, strange pains in different places on my body (could be caused by the anxiety though),gastrointestinal issues, jaw pain (gone now), poor memory (could be the lack of sleep), poor concentration, irritability, depression, hopelessness, rumination, tinnitus (gone)

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Junglechicken

Yes, I have thought about death a lot, most particularly in WD, and my age.

 

There was a period of 2 months where I experienced suicidal ideation, but that passed thankfully.


Dose History: 19 Feb 2014 - Escitalopram 10mg daily June 2015 - Started taper, 5mg every other day July 2015 - 5mg every 2 days August 2015 - 5mg every 3 days September 2015 - 5mg every 4 days Sept 14th - Completed tapering, but at 7 weeks "drug free" I suffered serious WD symptoms as a consequence of "incorrect" tapering. Nov 25 2015 - Re-instated Cipralex @ 2.5mg daily. WD symptoms faded. Held at this dose and experienced "windows and waves". 12 Oct 2017 Reduced dose to 1.25mg. 13 Mar 2018 Reduced dose to 0.625mg (approx.). 16 April 2018 0mg. Windows and waves triggered by stress (IBS/reflux, headaches, sinus issues) Aug 2019 Mirena coil fitted 6 Jan 2020 MAJOR Wave hit 19 months following last dose (protracted WD).  Symptoms listed below Mar 2020 Mirena coil removal.

Therapy: Nov 15th 2016 Re-started therapy Jan 19th 2017 Started CBT Dec 2017 Started listening to Hypnotherapy CD (self-esteem). Nov 2019 Started couples therapy.

Supplements: "Bioglan" Biotic Balance Ultimate Flora 10 billion CFU, live Bacteria, Probiotic, suitable for Vegetarians, with Lactobacillus Acidophilus, Lactobacillus Rhamnosus, Bifidobacterium Longum"Pukka" Vitalise a unique blend of 30 energising botanicals.

Diet: 16 April 2018 Detox cleanse / anti-candida for 90 days. Jan 2020 Started "small plate" diet (i.e child size portions).

Exercise: Stretching, Yoga, Pilates, Spinning, Elliptical/upper body workout, walking.

Medical Test Results: 4 Jan 2017 Homeopathic Treatment starts 24 Feb 2017 Started weight loss program 24 Mar 2017 Naturopathic Treatment + anti-Candida diet started due to suspected Candida Related Complex (CRC). DETOXED for 7 weeks to "re-set" gut. April 2017 "Genova Diagnostics" Comprehensive Stool Analysis NEGATIVE; Full Blood Count (Normal) / Blood Cholesterol: 5.6 (Borderline) / Blood Sugar (Normal) / 28 Jun 2017 FSH 8.2 / 14 Nov 2017 FSH 17.7 Dec 2017 Blood Cholesterol: 3.9 (Normal) / Kidney Function (Normal) / Blood Sugar (Normal). December 2017 "Genova Diagnostics" Food panel allergy (bloodwork) analysis - a few "VERY LOW/VL" allergens; Mar 2018 "Genova Diagnostics" SIBO urine analysis: High Level of Yeast/fungal markers found in small intestine but NO SIBO.  April 2018 Thyroid (Normal) / Full Blood Count (Normal) / FSH (Normal). 16 April 2018 Started anti-Candida diet - 3 month protocol.   25 March 2020 All test results "Normal". CRP" 5 mg/L (normal range to 0-5 mg/L).

Symptoms:  Flu-like symptoms, anxiety, anhedonia, sinus headaches right-side (severe), IBS issues/reflux (severe)**, tinnitus, fatigue, inner tremor, nausea, chills/hot flushes, pounding heart, muscular issues including stiff left hip flexor, intense anger, PSSD (ongoing).  **Histhamine intolerance (suspected).

 

Major Life Events: 

Re-located to UK from Canada: Jan 2016

My father died: 5:05pm, Monday 5 Feb 2018 Last Lexapro dose: 16 April 2018 (its now been over a year since I quit ADs)

Moved house: Friday 23rd February 2018  "Divorced" toxic Mother: Monday 26 March 2018 Starting working again: 19 November 2018

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xena81

I was on 50mg of zoloft for 19 months. My psychiatrist got me off the drug so quickly that I have experienced major withdrawals including suicidal thoughts. I have seen darkness that I hope to never see again in August of 2018. I recognized that those dark feelings were not mine and I tried to do whatever it took to overcome it. I have a 10 year old son, he was my main motivation, but sadly he was not enough. As a last straw, I purposely reached out to my financial adviser to check with him if my life insurance covered suicide to either make sure my son would be taken care of financially, or that I was not covered  to give me another incentive to fight. I have overcome the feelings. I hope you don't mid, I share the emails I exchanged with my financial adviser. Please fight with every ounce of your being!!! Do not let the drug whisper lies to you. Things will get better. Call suicide hotlines, call/talk to your friends/family, go to the emergency room, but FIGHT!!! As difficult as it is, tell yourself those feelings are not yours, they are not real. I am still battling severe depression, but the dark thoughts are gone.  Here below are my emails. I hope some may find this helpful. 

 

 

 

Aug 30, 2018, 8:29 AM

 

 

 

To G

 

Hi,

 

Does my life insurance cover in case of suicide?

 

Please let me know. Thank you.

 

 

Aug 30, 2018, 9:36 AM

 

 

 

to me

Hey, 

I hope all is well. There is a two year contestability clause in the contract.  If you commit suicide in the first 2 years they will contest the claim. Is everything OK?.

Call me if you need to talk.

Best,

G

 

 

Aug 30, 2018, 9:51 AM

 

 

 

to G

Being completely honest with you. No, I am not ok. I needed to hear that they would contest the claim so that I can have another incentive to keep living in this cruel world. At least that will give me 2 more years fighting for my life, because I got this insurance to protect my little one.  Hopefully then, I will be better.

 

 

 

Aug 30, 2018, 10:29 AM

 

 

 

to me

 

I would go back to therapy so you have someone who can help you work through your feelings. Life can be very hard, at times...but it's a beautiful thing. I can promise you that you will not feel this way forever, you need to keep getting up and keep moving forward. Your son needs you...no one can ever replace you in his life. If you are unhappy with your life, change it...don't end it.

You are a beautiful person and ending your life may stop the momentary pain, but it will pass it on to those you love most. This too shall pass and you will be happy again...be strong...don't give up!

Stay in touch with me...I'm here if you need to vent.

 

 

 

 

 


  • August 2016 started Zoloft 50mg
  • May 2017 came off Zoloft fast taper, back on Zoloft 50mg mid June 2017
  • September 2017 started Xanax 0.5  for a week and stopped
  • May 2018 requested to come of Zoloft fast taper instructed by psychiatrist
  • Completely off of Zoloft mid May 2018. After that took 1 pill in July 2018.
  • Last 50mg Zoloft pill 07/22/2018
  • Last Xanax 0.25 mid November 2018

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powerback

🙏👍💪.bless your soul .inspiring .


Alcohol free since February 2015 

1MG diazepam

4.5MG PROZAC.

 

 

 

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I have had suicidal ideation, hoping if I drive enough I will get hit by an 18 wheeler or have a blowout and flip over and die. 

It continues to this day and I am at 14 months. I wouldn’t commit suicide because I couldn’t do that to my kids. 

Sometimes I wish I were free to just do it. 

These are daily thoughts. 

Hope they go away.

 It is just the suffering talking.


This is the best of my recollection.

20 mg Prozac 3-4 days per week until May 2018.

Beginning May 15 I began to drop doses. 

I dropped 1 dose per week for the next 4 weeks.

It was not systematic at all. I don't have which days I took what.

so the week of May 13 I took 4 doses, which was pretty normal for me.

Then the week of May 20 I took 3 doses 20 mg.

The week of May 27 I took 3 doses 20 mg.

The 1st week in June l took 2 doses 20 mg.

The week of June 10, 2018 was my last dose 20 mg.

I had been on Prozac only. No other medications.

 

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Nelly

I have been saying for a long time.....I don’t mind if I go now. Life is too difficult x


Approx 1984 to present date prescribed various ADs consistently. 1995 approx-present Thyroxine 100 mcgrms. 19 Feb2019 stopped venlafaxine 150mg cold turkey. 

06 March 2019 restarted venlafaxine 150mg 10 beads.

04 April 2019 9 beads. 02 May 2019 8 beads 01 July 2019 7 beads. 29 July started using magnesium oil spray before bed 31 July 2019 started natures best fish oil 1300mg 01 Aug 2019 stopped fish oil 1000mgs 06 Aug 2019 Magnesium citrate 100mg .18 Aug 2019 reduced to 6 beads .11 Aug 2019 increased fish oil to 2,600 mg. 8 Sept 2019 increased magnesium citrate 200mg. 22 Sept  2019 reduced magnesium citrate to 100mg. 24 Sept 2019 reduced venlafaxine to 5 & half beads. 25th Sept increased fish oil to 3900mg . 11 October reduced venlafaxine to 5 tablets 

14 October stopped fish oil. 16 October stopped magnesium & started taking lemon balm infused in water with ginger & lemon.

 

 

 

 

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Denas1969

I am so scared and so tired of these feelings and thoughts.  Noone or nothing can save me.  I thought i was getting better but now I am stuck back in hell and I really just think death is the answer. i have alteady mourned my losses several times over a d as i lay in bed every morning with every breath i take I think maybe today I will end it.  I just do not see any other way out.  I do not know what keeps me going.


Lexapro 5mg titrated to 10mg 2016

CT Lexapro October 2018

No symptoms of WD / used cannibis daily

April 2019 Lexapro 5mg 3 days mild serotonin syndrome was told I had the flu and to stop lexapro and restart 2.5 when "flu" got better. Took 3 weeks!

May 2019 took 2.5mg Lexapro and woke up 2 hrs later in akathesia terror restless body paranoia manic horrible suicidal. Hospitalized on a 302. Given 10mg celexa and did okay until day 5 akathesia returned.  Ended up in ER dx drug withdrawal given 1mg ativan and released.  

June 2019 Mirtazipine 7.5 one dose 

June 2019 Pristiq 1 dose landed me in er and i was 302 inpatient put on lithium 150 2x daily and zyprexa 2.5 plus klonipin which refused to take.

July 2019 Hospitalized 302 given zoloft 25mg 3 days 50mg for 4 weeks. And ativan .5 only 1x at night took sporatically horrid side effects and akathesia... Fast taper down to 25 for one week 12.5 for one week then stopped.  

November 11 started 2.5 olanz and 5mg prozac. Took 2.5 for 5 days then reduced to 1.25 for about 2 months. February went down to .66 for two weeks and felt ok then down to .33 for a few weeks and anxiety got really bad so went back to .66 and been there since. Still at 5mg prozac

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ChessieCat

 


Being very patient.  I'll get there - slowly.  ETA mid 2021

ADs:  25 years - 1 unknown, Prozac (caused muscle weakness), Zoloft/sertraline; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after)

Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (mild Serotonin Toxicity)

Began tapering Oct 2015  Current from 12 Sept 2020:  Pristiq 0.625 mg (compounded)

My tapering program

My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)

My website - includes my brief history + links to videos & information on the web

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

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Denas1969

You all are so much stronger than I am. I cannot deal with this stuff. I feel like I am going insane.  I am having a wabe so bad right now i think i am goong to crash under it.  I know I need to be committed or I am afraid of what I migjt do.  And I will be drugged.  But I cannot help thinking thats what I need to survive.  I just do not think I have a choice.  Please help me.  

 

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Lexapro 5mg titrated to 10mg 2016

CT Lexapro October 2018

No symptoms of WD / used cannibis daily

April 2019 Lexapro 5mg 3 days mild serotonin syndrome was told I had the flu and to stop lexapro and restart 2.5 when "flu" got better. Took 3 weeks!

May 2019 took 2.5mg Lexapro and woke up 2 hrs later in akathesia terror restless body paranoia manic horrible suicidal. Hospitalized on a 302. Given 10mg celexa and did okay until day 5 akathesia returned.  Ended up in ER dx drug withdrawal given 1mg ativan and released.  

June 2019 Mirtazipine 7.5 one dose 

June 2019 Pristiq 1 dose landed me in er and i was 302 inpatient put on lithium 150 2x daily and zyprexa 2.5 plus klonipin which refused to take.

July 2019 Hospitalized 302 given zoloft 25mg 3 days 50mg for 4 weeks. And ativan .5 only 1x at night took sporatically horrid side effects and akathesia... Fast taper down to 25 for one week 12.5 for one week then stopped.  

November 11 started 2.5 olanz and 5mg prozac. Took 2.5 for 5 days then reduced to 1.25 for about 2 months. February went down to .66 for two weeks and felt ok then down to .33 for a few weeks and anxiety got really bad so went back to .66 and been there since. Still at 5mg prozac

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ShiningLight

Please get help in real time. You can also try non drug coping skills. Take it moment by moment.


Now: Gabapentin 31 mg 4x/day =124 mg, 150 mg Zoloft am since 2004, 50 mg Trazodone bedtime.  Daily drug burden decreased from 2050 mg to 324 mg 🐢🐢

2020, Gabapentin each dose 4x/day: Aug 20 31 mg, Aug 18, 33 mg, July 29, 35 mg, July 23 38 mg, July 22 40 mg Jun 24 42 mg, Jun 15 44 mg, Jun 9 48 mg, May 22 50 mg, May 14 54 mg, May 7 56 mg, Apr 16 58 mg, Mar 28 60 mg, Mar 18 62 mg. Feb 26 64 mg. Feb 19, 66 mg. Jan 23, 70 mg.

2019 Dec 19, 72 mg. Nov 14 ,76 mg. Aug 8, 80 mg. Aug 6, 85 mg. Jul 26, 90 mg. Jul 11, 95 mg.

Jul 16 trazodone from 100 to 50 mg.

Jun 17-July 10 Slowly changed gab fr pill to liquid at same dose 100 mg 4x/d.

Apr 24 Stopped klon!!! 🌞 Apr 4  Decreased gaba to 400 mg (100 mg 4x/day)-Apr 4, 2019   0.25 klon

March 11  Klonopin .5 mg twice daily, varied dose til Apr 15. Started Klon fast taper 25%, short use

Mar 16, 450 mg gaba 3x/day cut 600 mg--not exact!--updose after learning w/d

Feb 20, 1800 mg gabapentin; MD taper; off 3 days=mvt disorder & autonomic instability. July 2018 temazepam 15 mg 1-2; prn several x/wk til Jan/Feb 2019 when cold turkey, flu illness for months

July 2018 started gabapentin 100 3x/day; titrated up to 1800 mg (600 3x/day)

Buspar, I forget how much, 2 pills a day Jan 2017-July 2018 cold turkey

*I speak from my experience. Nothing I say is medical advice. I'm not a doctor.

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Altostrata

Please remind yourself, a thought is just a thought. You do not have to focus on or pursue any thought. It's your choice.

 

Suicide is an extreme solution to suffering, but it is only one solution among many. Some people become frightened because the thought of suicide occurs to them as they are considering their options. There is no need to be afraid of a suicidal thought, merely having a thought will not hurt you, you can let it go.

 

The neurological uproar caused by drug changes and withdrawal may cause you to have unbidden, spontaneous dark thoughts, sometimes revealing your deepest fears. You do not have to explore those thoughts, or you can explore them with therapeutic support when you're ready.

 

If the thoughts are caused by the neurological uproar (Neuro-emotions), they will come and go in waves that are sometimes intense. Do your best not to add fear of these feelings to your symptoms. Remind yourself they will pass, distract yourself if you can with a constructive activity such as taking a walk, petting a puppy, or playing with your children. Leave the door open so a bad thought can go away.

 

Also see

 

The Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization

 

Non-drug techniques to cope with emotional symptoms

 

Easing your way into meditation for a stressed-out nervous system

 

Music for self-care: calms hyperalertness, anxiety, aids relaxation and sleep

 

Deep emotional pain and crying spells, spontaneous weeping

 

Shame, guilt, regret, and self-criticism

 

Health anxiety, hypochondria, and obsession with symptoms

 

Sudden fear, terror, panic, or anxiety from withdrawal

 

Ways to cope with daily anxiety

 

Coping with irritation, anger and rage

 

Dealing With Emotional Spirals 

 

For those who are feeling desperate or suicidal

 


This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

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JackieDecides
On 9/29/2019 at 9:46 AM, Denas1969 said:

You all are so much stronger than I am. I cannot deal with this stuff. I feel like I am going insane.  I am having a wabe so bad right now i think i am goong to crash under it.  I know I need to be committed or I am afraid of what I migjt do.  And I will be drugged.  But I cannot help thinking thats what I need to survive.  I just do not think I have a choice.  Please help me.  

 

 

I don't know you at all but there are other options and this board is one of them - keep posting and talking about things, keep reading the links people post. tell yourself suicide is just an idea, you don't have to act on it, as often as you need to. 

 

I think being drugged is better than killing yourself so if you need to be committed you should do it. but that, too, is just an option. 

 

I think there is more than one suicide hotline out there but here is one Lifeline. the number is 800-273-8255.    they are always there for you to talk to. 


Currently taking Ramapril (blood pressure) 5 mg twice a day

Omeprazole 10 mg AM and 20 mg PM  (the taper has gone nowhere after the first cut)

Famotidine   once a day (and I still needs tums sometimes)

magnesium 200 mg at night

as of yesterday 2 fish oil capsules "EPA-DHA 1000"

 

off Lexapro as of 5/2018  - last dose had been 5 mg every other day for a couple years

 

highest dose had been 20 mg at which point I was diagnosed with Bipolar II, which went away when I cut the lexapro down to 15 mg. 

 

I spent years on Paxil before Lexapro (can't remember dose), briefly on Effexor and Abilify and others I have forgotten. in fact, when I was diagnoses with BPII I was put on all kinds of things which made me feel so bad I stopped them cold turkey within maybe 3 or 4 weeks, thank goodness. since then I've known these pills were terrible and I weaned down the Lexapro with zero help or support over I'm not sure how many years. 

 

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Denas1969

Thank you. I have calmed down some maybe a window idk. Sunday and Monday were extremely awful. My husband had a heart attack and my neighbor still harasses us and i had to go to court over his stuff tuesday morning then to the hospital to sprnd the day with my husband waiting for his release.  I had therapy on Monday and cried for most of it not able to talk much. Lots and lots of crying then feeling zombified as if I had nothing left just kind of numb with some occasional agitation. Eating better again. Noe money is an issue cuz he is out of work for a while and i cant bring myself to work with my dysfunctional self. But the si had lightened up. I just want to get through this wd and life circumstances beyond my control. Some days easier than others for sure.  I have the hotline number and will use it if i need to unload. Ty agaun. 


Lexapro 5mg titrated to 10mg 2016

CT Lexapro October 2018

No symptoms of WD / used cannibis daily

April 2019 Lexapro 5mg 3 days mild serotonin syndrome was told I had the flu and to stop lexapro and restart 2.5 when "flu" got better. Took 3 weeks!

May 2019 took 2.5mg Lexapro and woke up 2 hrs later in akathesia terror restless body paranoia manic horrible suicidal. Hospitalized on a 302. Given 10mg celexa and did okay until day 5 akathesia returned.  Ended up in ER dx drug withdrawal given 1mg ativan and released.  

June 2019 Mirtazipine 7.5 one dose 

June 2019 Pristiq 1 dose landed me in er and i was 302 inpatient put on lithium 150 2x daily and zyprexa 2.5 plus klonipin which refused to take.

July 2019 Hospitalized 302 given zoloft 25mg 3 days 50mg for 4 weeks. And ativan .5 only 1x at night took sporatically horrid side effects and akathesia... Fast taper down to 25 for one week 12.5 for one week then stopped.  

November 11 started 2.5 olanz and 5mg prozac. Took 2.5 for 5 days then reduced to 1.25 for about 2 months. February went down to .66 for two weeks and felt ok then down to .33 for a few weeks and anxiety got really bad so went back to .66 and been there since. Still at 5mg prozac

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