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Hi All,

 

I haven’t posted on here before but I’ve read posts while I was withdrawing and thinking I was going to die. I’m here to share some hope with you. One of the most difficult things when I was withdrawing was the thought “what if I’m like this forever”. That thought petrified me.  I almost didn’t post this because once I was healed I just wanted to get on with my life. But I came back because I felt you all needed to know that you will get through it just like I did as well as to share with you the different things I did.

 

I had withdrawals for two years approximately and in that period had depression, anxiety, an inability to sleep and constant heart palpitations. It sucks. I don’t think I’ve gone through anything harder in my life. It took me to the edge of sanity. The hardest thing with recovery is the constant swinging. I went back and forth between different symptoms. First anxious then depressed then anxious etc etc. What I’ve realised is that these changes are really just something healing in your brain and then the body goes onto the next thing. After a switch I often noticed that my thought process was better than before. It’s not going back and forth but really just around your brain healing you. It does cause a feeling of hopelessness unless you frame it as progress rather than just the body going in circles. 

 

The things I did to heal

 

1. Fasting (tricky one. At different stages this makes you feel better or worse but I’m sure it helps the healing process. It might be uncomfortable for you though depending on where you are. I did both dry and water fasting up to 3 days and intermittent fasting. 

2. Keto. If you have anxiety this should help bring it down. You will feal crap for a few days tho. After this depending on where you are in the healing process it could tip you into depression. 

3. Supplements Vitamin D, Iron, C, Fish Oil, Lions Mane, B. Once again depending on where you are on the healing curve these will have a different impact. Early on a Fish Oil pill have me anxiety for days. Now it’s fine and relaxing. You need to keep trying different things because your body keeps changing.

4. Worked out about 4 times a week for the 2 years. Weights mostly and some cardio.

5. Cold showers. Good for sleeping.

6. Meditation. Listen to Eckart Tolle. Do your mindfulness meditation. You will be stronger after going through this nightmare if you do. 

 

Anyway I wish you all luck. I’m sure I’ve said what other people have said before but make sure you take care of yourselves. 

 

Much love 

 A. 

 

 

 

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Lexapro in 2017 for 2-3 months with very bad side effects from the get go.

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Hi Athosverona and welcome to SA,

 

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On ‎11‎/‎17‎/‎2012 at 3:24 AM, Altostrata said:

Summarize who you are (age, medications you quit, your taper strategy) and, looking back, the pattern of your recovery, including how long each stage took, what helped you heal, and what you've learned from the experience.

 

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Current from 25 September 2021:  Pristiq 0.02mg

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering Oct 2015 

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Athosverona, thank you for visiting and posting your Success Story. 

 

We do need to know more about your drug history, that information is vitally important to our members.

 

Please come back and give us more details, also respond to any questions. Your experience can indicate ways people can aid their healing. These Success Stories give our members hope.

 

 

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Congratulations Athosverona! ☺️ And thank you for sharing your story and giving hope. Well done. 💕

2010 - 2015: 50mg Sertraline, 30mg Mirtazapine.

2015 - 2016: Last dose Mirtazapine 28.11.2015 and Sertraline 04.01.2016. (6 months taper)

2016/June: 6 months off. Feeling better but a lot of symptoms, name one and i have it.

2016/Dec: 12 months off. Hit a very bad wave, can't function at this moment, isolate and many intense symptoms. Very intense heart palpitations and very intense anxiety.

2017/June: 18 months off. Things are better, experiencing a lot of flashbacks, walking everyday.

2017/Nov: Things have finally started to improve and i'm now much better than a year ago, starting to feel a lot of improvements, but still symptoms that come in waves and windows.  

2018/June: Feeling better. Starting to do some normal things again, but still some improvements needed. All symptoms still there, just less intense.

2018/Oct: Almost 3 years off. Symptoms are milder and more manageable, but lots of anger issues at the moment. Still some depersonalization etc. Heart palpitations almost gone. There's hope.

2021/april: 5 years and 3 months off. Symptoms less intense, but still struggling, still not able to socialise much, very tired, i just want to feel normal again. In a tough and awful wave.

 

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On 1/10/2019 at 7:56 PM, Athosverona said:

I did both dry and water fasting up to 3 days and intermittent fasting.

Hi there and THANK YOU so much for your success story. I want to fast but do not know the difference between dry/water/intermittent. Can you explain? Thanks and congratulations for surviving this total crazy nightmare.

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On 1/17/2019 at 6:58 PM, Altostrata said:

Athosverona, thank you for visiting and posting your Success Story. 

 

We do need to know more about your drug history, that information is vitally important to our members. 

 

Please come back and give us more details, also respond to any questions. Your experience can indicate ways people can aid their healing. These Success Stories give our members hope.

 

 

 

FINISH LINE here I come!!!

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Current from 25 September 2021:  Pristiq 0.02mg

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering Oct 2015 

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Athosverona what was the first signs in your recovery that you were getting there or close.

Near the end did you have Windows and waves. How did that pattern go or change.

Thank you Russ

March-2017-Dec-2017 ativanCT /reinstated ativan 1mg tapered 2 months/June 2017-April 2018 zyprexa 10mg switched to seroquel 200-300mg in april 2018/dec-2017-present zoloft 100mg/ quit seroquel 200-300mg cold turkey May 6 2018 reinstated seroquel 100mg around May 25 2018 since then tapered to 50mg zoloft and 50 mg of seroquel presently other medications Testosterone cypionate 2oomg every 4 days

UPDATE -August 20 2018--october 20 2018 tapered off Testosterone/Nov 7 2018 --Dec 20 2018 Lamictal micro dose 2.50mg 1 1/2 weeks then reduced to 1.25 then fast tapered as it became paridoxial.nausea- racing thoughts- agitation and insomnia.

August 28 2018 to Present Cannabis indica micro dose PM bedtime only.

Presently Seroquel 37.5 mg bedtime /Zoloft 47mg morning

May 2018-Present Multivitamin/ Bcomplex/Vit C 1000MG/B12 1000MCG/Fish oils 2grams/

Jan 2019-Trace mineral liquid low dose

Update dec 2019 -29mg of zoloft tapering/Seroquel 37.5 holding/1 or 2  ativan 1mg a month as needed if that.

Black seed oil-caprylic acid-/b complex/b12/multi/D/E/melatonin

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Athosverona
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I for many years would occasionally come to this forum when I was desperate and thought I was never going to recover. 

 

What we are going through is such an ordeal that the idea that we could be stuck in such a state forever is almost unbearable. As such I feel obliged to share my recovery. I believe that many people who are active on the forums disappear once they heal and don't look back as it is too painful, I didn't want to take without giving back.

 

My SSRI journey is short. I was on Lexapro for 3 months and had some abnormal nasty side effects from it. Hairloss, blood in my stool, huge anxiety getting on to it, brain zaps ... the works. My doctor said to stay the course and actually increased my dose, but I knew something was off. I was having a bad reaction to the drug. So I stopped cold turkey. For most people, they would be back to normal in no time after such a short dose. Due to my bad reaction, for me this was not the case. I stopped taking Lexarpo in July of 2017.

 

My withdrawal symptoms 

 

1. Rapid heart beat and a very heavy heart beat. About 110 resting heart rate - now 58 to 60

2. Initially very high levels of body anxiety and feeling like I was basically on fire. This lasted for about 3 months and then led to...

3. Depression. Very heavy depression. I couldn't think. I was in emotional agony.

4. I had some other symptoms, brain zaps, loss of self esteem, neuro emotions, performance anxiety, phobias etc. These came and went like the tides.

 

Then I would go in waves between depression and anxiety. It was about 1-3 months in each state and once in a while I would get a window in the beginning, a day of relative normalcy. This pattern continued for about 2 years without much change in its nature. Slowly the intensity of the suffering eased, however my mind was still not my own.

 

Then slowly the windows became bigger and the waves became smaller. I started to be able to think more clearly and a lot of the self talk (which is not us, it is just chemicals in the brain going crazy) softened and went away.

 

I am now 95% of the way recovered. I still have the odd day or anxiety or depression but now my primary state is windows and the waves are the odd events as opposed to it being the other way around. I am still seeing improvement and progress. 

 

On my journey I have done the following to heal (note that you should speak to a Dr if you are going to change your regime. I can't recommend anything to you I'm just telling you what I did.

 

1. LOTS of meditation. Mindful meditation and zen meditation. Check out Alan Watts and Eckhart Tolle. 

2. Exercise as often as I could. I read many studies which connect exercise with brain healing, increased neurogenesis, mood stability etc. I tried to do 30 minutes of cardio a day with some weights. 

3. Supplements. NOTE. In the beginning when I was super sensitive I had a 3 day anxiety attack from vitamin B. Then the same thing happened with Fish Oil. At different stages I was able to handle different supplements. Now I take Vitamin D, CBD Oil, Fish Oil, Green Tea, Boswellia, Vitamin C, Niacin, NAC, Resveratrol, Grape Seed Extract, Pine Bark Extract, Reshi Mushroom, Magnesium, Potassium, Probiotic, Prebiotic, Quercin, Turmeric, Black Pepper 

4. Fasting. I did both intermittent fasting and prolonged fasting. Intermittent fasting looked like eating every other day. Prolonged fasts were 3 to 5 days. (DO NOT TRY A PROLONGED FAST WITHOUT SPEAKING TO YOUR DR). For me, fasting felt like it healed me and stabilized my mood. Subjectively I think it really helped. 

5. Cold Showers X 2 each day. This is a great mood booster. It takes about 3 weeks for me to start to have effect +

6. Wim Hoff breathing every night. This is a great relaxation technique for me.

7. Healing gut and blood brain barrier with a Lectin free diet. Within 2 weeks of adopting this diet my symptoms improved 50% in a leap. It amazed me. Google the Plant Paradox. My opinion is that inflation has a big part to play in our issue and this is an anti-inflammatory diet which for me personally has done wonders. 

8. Sauna X 4 per week.

9. Hyperbaric Oxygen therapy 

10. Ketosis (sometimes). I also go in and out of Ketosis, I find this is a good mood booster and calms the mind.

11. Alpha Stim. This is a CES brain stimulation machine. I did this nearer to the end of my journey and found it helped with the anxiety and depression within 2 weeks of using it. 

 

 

I hope that some of this can help you. I know that you are suffering and that sometimes it feels like you can't go any further. I felt the same way and know that we can all heal. There is light at the end of this tunnel. Once you are through this you will be a stronger mother$#@% than you ever expected you could be. Hang in there. Be kind to yourself. You are not alone. 

 

Much love,

 

A xoxo

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I've uploaded an updated version of my success story. I actually totally forgot I had written this one a couple of years ago. My new one has update supplements and some extra techniques I learnt along the way. Sorry for the double up. 

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Hi Russ,

The first signs of recovery from my perspective was a changing of the problem. Ie not just having depression all the time but it changing from depression to anxiety to social anxiety to neuro-emotions. It felt like my mind was a marble was dropped into a wash basin and it was trying to find it's way home. There was a lot of suffering along the way but these changes gave me some comfort. When I had my first "normal" day. Then I was like... well if this can happen once when my brain obviously has the capacity to do this. I committed myself to making my body as healthy as possible so that my mind could follow. 

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Farm girl works. Sorry for the late reply... You probably don't need the answers anymore but I'll go ahead anyway. 

 

Dry fasting is when you don't consume any water or food. I did this for 3 days. Can't recommend it at all mind you. It's just what I did. Many will say it is very dangerous.

A water fast is where you just consume water for a period of time. For example 3 days or 5 days is what I did. Speak to your doctor if you want to follow this protocol. 

Intermittent fasting is where you pick a protocol like eating one day and then only having water for the next day.

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topics merged, retitled (mmt), @Athosverona

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Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time).

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12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs.  My last psycho med ever!  Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to

2016 Dec 16 medication free!!

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On 7/20/2021 at 6:05 AM, Athosverona said:

My withdrawal symptoms 

 

1. Rapid heart beat and a very heavy heart beat. About 110 resting heart rate - now 58 to 60

2. Initially very high levels of body anxiety and feeling like I was basically on fire. This lasted for about 3 months and then led to...

3. Depression. Very heavy depression. I couldn't think. I was in emotional agony.

4. I had some other symptoms, brain zaps, loss of self esteem, neuro emotions, performance anxiety, phobias etc. These came and went like the tides.

Hi,

 

We have sorta similar stories, I only took my AD for 1 month and suffering for the past 4 months. I'm not sure if I am going through withdrawal, but I know that I took Pristiq 50mg for 1 month, and I have terrible side affects. I cold turkey after 1 month because I couldn't sleep and other major issues.

 

My withdrawal symptoms for 4 months:

 

Extreme Anxiety 

Extremely depressed 

Headaches almost every day

Fatigued Daily 

And the worst one is Ringing in my head (tinnitus) its like a high power line sound constantly buzzing. 

 

I have a constant buzzing sound and sensation in my head, and it gives me more anxiety than I ever had. Its also a weird sensation of my nervous system buzzing and I feel like I am neurons are hyper active and like I constantly on edge or oversensitive to loudness and big crowds with a lot going on. When I go to the grocery store I feel like I'm buzzing and hypersensitive to everything and everyone around me.  Did you ever have ringing in your head? I'm praying it goes away. 

 

I also do intermittent fasting (usually fast 16 hours of the day then eat my daily calories in 8 hours)

Fish oil

Lots of water. 

I run 3-4 times a week. 

 

Thanks for your success story, be well

 

November 11th 2020 - Pristiq 50mg

November 25th 2020- Cold Turkey 

February 28th 2021- Pristiq 50mg 

March 25 2021 Cold Turkey 

 

Tinnitus Since March 1st and has not stopped/ Softened/ Improved  3 Months later.

 

 

 

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I don’t remember having a ringing… but the whole thing is such an overwhelming mess that I could have forgotten it.

 

Can definitely connect with being over sensitised tho. I used to think of it like being a frayed electrical cable. Like the insulation was missing. This passes.

 

Fish oil gave me anxiety at the beginning of my withdrawal. Just something to note in case it is happening to you too and you’ve missed it. 
 

Be kind to yourself during this state. I know this is scary as hell. Thoughts that you will be stuck like this might be terrifying you. But you will slowly get past this. 
 

Also try to remember that this crap that is going on is not you. You are inside this but it doesn’t define you. 
 

best of luck Jayy. Be strong 💪 you’re not alone. 

 

Lexapro in 2017 for 2-3 months with very bad side effects from the get go.

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@Athosverona thank you for returning and reminding us suffering that we will make it through and it does get better ❤️ forever great full for your success story

 

 

started celexa 10mg feb 2nd 

feb 25th took my last 10g

feb 26th took 5mg

feb 27th took 5mg 

feb 28th cold turkey 

currently taking mag

 

 

 

 

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@Athosverona hi , did you take cbd oil at any point in withdraw ??? 🙂

 

 

started celexa 10mg feb 2nd 

feb 25th took my last 10g

feb 26th took 5mg

feb 27th took 5mg 

feb 28th cold turkey 

currently taking mag

 

 

 

 

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Athosverona

Hi Phoenix mama,

 

Yes I took CBD oil. I would say it definitely helped but in a subtle way. Like before I took it the world was very dull and lacklustre. After I took it, it was like a little bit of sunshine returned. It wasn’t a cure

all but I definitely think anything anti inflammatory helps.

 

The biggest thing that helped was probably diet. Going Keto and lectin free. Also eating beef liver boosted my mood too. I think that is due to the B12 in it. It’s the best source

of B12 in my opinion. Supplements don’t work as well. 

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@Athosverona thanks for responding 🌞 i appreciate it very much

 

 

started celexa 10mg feb 2nd 

feb 25th took my last 10g

feb 26th took 5mg

feb 27th took 5mg 

feb 28th cold turkey 

currently taking mag

 

 

 

 

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@Athosverona I'm almost in the same boat as you but with vision issues . How do you know if its getting normal the first time , visually

April 21/21-23/21 0.25mg alprazolam for 3 days then quit. Took0.25-0.5mg as needed later.

 

July 11/21 - started cipralex 10mg experienced reaction 

July 16/21- Lowered the dose by 5mg. Worsened visual snow.

July 17/21- 5mg Cipralex - had nausea and vomiting 

July 18/21- 5mg - nauseous

July 19/21- 2.5mg - felt fine

July 20/21- 2.5mg , increased eye strain , light and sound sensitivity. Decided to discontinue. 

 

Symptoms: visual disturbance when eyes closed and open, light and sound sensitivity , anxiety.

 

Supplements taking : fish oil , b12 and multivitamins.

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@RuhikI can’t remember any visual disturbance. My most pronounced physical symptom were heart palpitations and a racing heart. I thought it was going to kill me!

 

The body is a pretty amazing thing, one by one the symptoms slowly fade. Sometimes There is a waxing and waning but that’s part of the healing process.

 

I would check my eyes out with a professional just to be sure there isn’t another element to this. 
 

Also make sure that you are being as healthy as you can. Excercise, diet, sleep, supplements, therapies etc. Your body is a wonder it’ll get back on track!

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