A14n Posted March 15, 2019 Author Share Posted March 15, 2019 11 minutes ago, eymen23 said: A14n, Anxiety is a very common withdrawal symptom. Unfortunately once the nervous system becomes destabilised, we can begin to feel extremely scared and anxious without any known cause. We can also become more triggered by external events which would normally be unchallenging. I know that your current taper has been relatively slow, but unfortunately it sounds like after the two cold turkeys, you’ve become destabilised and are still experiencing withdrawal type symptoms. Are you having any windows at all? Any signs of worsening or improvement at all? I know I have already asked similar questions, but I think this is important to really consider. I know when you feel bad most of the time, it all begins to blur together into ‘I always feel awful’, but any extra insight would be helpful. In the evening I feel slightly more at ease if you can call that a window?. I sleep ok. When I wake up I am ok for a few minutes and then BOOM I'm freaking out don't even feel safe in my own bed what is that about? It's as if someone is holding a gun to my head throughout the day awful feeling unbearable but have to endure it. My limbs feel like they have electricity running through them. I can't get any enjoyment out of life only suffer and try to survive. 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus eymen23 Posted March 15, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 15, 2019 Hi A14n, Yes, I understand the symptoms well and I truly do empathise. That is a classic sign of an overactive fight or flight system. It is incredibly draining and difficult to live with on a daily basis. As hard as it is, please rest assured that it is a common symptom pattern once the nervous system becomes destabilised by withdrawal. Many people with withdrawal syndrome report feeling their worst in the morning. Not always, but it is common. Cortisol is (usually) highest in the morning and lowest at night, so hyperarousal type symptoms are often worse in the morning and trickle off a little by night. Are there any days that you have less intense symptoms or where the symptoms drop off entirely? I think it would be sensible to keep notes of your symptoms across the next few days, so we can get a clearer view of the symptom pattern. I will post the suggested format shortly. PLEASE NOTE: I am not a medical professional. I can only provide information and make suggestions. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus eymen23 Posted March 15, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 15, 2019 Here is the suggested format. Please keep notes which include the timing or symptoms, drugs and dosage, meals and sleep patterns. 6 a.m. Woke with anxiety 8 a.m. Took 2.5mg Lexapro 10 a.m. Stomach is upset 10:30 a.m. Ate breakfast 11:35 a.m. Got a headache, lasted one hour 12:35 p.m. Ate lunch 4 p.m. Feel a bit better 5 p.m. Took 2.5mg Lexapro 6 p.m. Ate dinner 9:20 p.m. Headache 10:00 p.m. Took 50mg Seroquel 10:20 p.m. Feeling dizzy 10:30 p.m. Fell asleep 2:30 a.m. Woke, took 3mg Ambien (NOT "took 1/2 tablet Ambien") 2:45 a.m. Fell asleep 4:30 a.m. Woke but got back to sleep PLEASE NOTE: I am not a medical professional. I can only provide information and make suggestions. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Dejavu Posted March 15, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 15, 2019 A14n, I suffer from the same morning anxiety. Mine went away during my one and only window so far. Now that I'm back in a wave, it has returned, but noticeably less intense. I hope that gives you some reassurance that (1) it is a common withdrawal symtom as eyemen23 has told you; and (2) that symptoms will slowly abate with time. Please make sure to fully answer all the mods' questions. They've seen many, many cases and they can help you. Sending healing energy to you. Breathe! 2016 - Zoloft 50 mg for klonopin w/d Approx. Nov 2017 - successful taper of klonopin; Approx. Jan. 2018 - rapid taper Zoloft over 2 wks - no w/d symptoms; May 2018 - Reinstate 50 mg Zoloft per doctor; Aug 2018 - Rapid taper Zoloft over 3-4 weeks - no w/d symptoms for 1 mo.; Late Oct 2018 - pdoc rx'd 5mg lexapro -took for 1 wk; Early Nov 2018 - Reinstate 25 mg Zoloft; updose to 37.5 on Nov 28, 2018; Nov 30 2018 - returned to 25mg Zoloft upon mod. advice; Dec 9 - Dec10 2018 - 12.5mg zoloft liquid+12.5mg zoloft pill; Dec 11 2018 - 25mg zoloft all liquid; Feb 14 2019 - updosed to 26.25 mg liquid; Mar 6 2019 - updosed to 26.88 mg liquid - new symptoms; Mar 13 2019 - back down to 26.25 mg per mod suggestion Dose Changes: Dec 2 2019 - 5% to 25mg; Jan 14 2020 - 10% to 22.5 (increase in sxs all month); Mar 10-15? 2020, accidental updose to 25mg; Mar 22 2020 - back down to 22.5mg; Apr 12 2020 - 2.5% to 21.94mg; Apr 19 2020 - 2.5% to 21.375mg (symptom increase); May 17 2020 - 2.5% to 20.625mg; May 24 2020 - 2.5% to 20.1mg - Jun 14 2020 - noticed uptick in symptoms settled 2 days later - July 10 2020 - onset of wave Link to comment
A14n Posted March 15, 2019 Author Share Posted March 15, 2019 10 hours ago, eymen23 said: Hi A14n, Yes, I understand the symptoms well and I truly do empathise. That is a classic sign of an overactive fight or flight system. It is incredibly draining and difficult to live with on a daily basis. As hard as it is, please rest assured that it is a common symptom pattern once the nervous system becomes destabilised by withdrawal. Many people with withdrawal syndrome report feeling their worst in the morning. Not always, but it is common. Cortisol is (usually) highest in the morning and lowest at night, so hyperarousal type symptoms are often worse in the morning and trickle off a little by night. Are there any days that you have less intense symptoms or where the symptoms drop off entirely? I think it would be sensible to keep notes of your symptoms across the next few days, so we can get a clearer view of the symptom pattern. I will post the suggested format shortly. Thank you, I will start taking notes. I've been in one continuous wave for so long it's hard to say if I ever felt any better. Today I woke up without the terror feeling, but quite anxious of it coming back. So I guess that is a positive. It usually hits me full force not long after I wake up but didn't happen today. Glad I'm writing it here so I can look back on it if I get way worse again. Thank you everyone so glad I found this site 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
A14n Posted March 15, 2019 Author Share Posted March 15, 2019 10 hours ago, Dejavu said: A14n, I suffer from the same morning anxiety. Mine went away during my one and only window so far. Now that I'm back in a wave, it has returned, but noticeably less intense. I hope that gives you some reassurance that (1) it is a common withdrawal symtom as eyemen23 has told you; and (2) that symptoms will slowly abate with time. Please make sure to fully answer all the mods' questions. They've seen many, many cases and they can help you. Sending healing energy to you. Breathe! Hi dejavu, I actually woke up not feeling terrorised today which is a first for a long time. But still anxious that it will happen. But I have a bit of hope. How are you feeling in your current wave? I hope you can get some respite from it very soon. This too shall pass. When in a wave it feels never ending but it will it has to 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
A14n Posted March 16, 2019 Author Share Posted March 16, 2019 8am woke up, eyes still closed. Random thoughts going through head, like I'm still dreaming? 11am thinking about getting up, random thoughts becoming less, fear level not too bad hoping it stays that way. 11:20am heart racing 12pm stomach ache 12:38 loose bowel movements 12:45pm having a cup of tea, the terror feeling is no where as bad today, feeling slightly hopeful 1:49pm ate an apple 2:15pm took sertraline 2:20pm hands and feet freezing 2:30pm ate a pizza 3pm stomach ache 3:10pm cup of tea 3:15pm get ready for work(heart racing) feel a little tired not too anxious 4pm start work 7:20pm tired, little anxious 7:30pm slightly nauseated feeling 9:30pm, left off work derealisation quite bad, head feels a little numb 10pm bicycled back home from work, tired anxiety quite low 10:20pm had a bite to eat. made cup of tea, trying to relax and watch some tv 12:25am in bed feels like today was a better day 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus eymen23 Posted March 16, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 16, 2019 Hi A14n, I’m glad today was a better day. Let’s hope you have more of those going forward. Thank you for providing notes. What we often find is that notes provide a more honest and objective view of symptoms. When we feel bad, we get stuck into thinking we have always felt bad, and will always feel bad. By keeping notes and having evidence of better periods, we can hopefully pick up on symptom patterns over time. PLEASE NOTE: I am not a medical professional. I can only provide information and make suggestions. Link to comment
A14n Posted March 16, 2019 Author Share Posted March 16, 2019 11 hours ago, eymen23 said: Hi A14n, I’m glad today was a better day. Let’s hope you have more of those going forward. Thank you for providing notes. What we often find is that notes provide a more honest and objective view of symptoms. When we feel bad, we get stuck into thinking we have always felt bad, and will always feel bad. By keeping notes and having evidence of better periods, we can hopefully pick up on symptom patterns over time. I will try and keep notes now. Today I feel more anxious thought I was turning a corner yesterday. At work yesterday I had quite a few sugary sweets and last night ate some fish sticks think they had Msg in them wonder if thats made me worse 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
A14n Posted March 16, 2019 Author Share Posted March 16, 2019 Don't understand why I feel so bad again, my hearts pounding, I feel so scared and depressed nothing feels real so detached what's going on 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted March 16, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 16, 2019 9 hours ago, A14n said: last night ate some fish sticks think they had Msg MSG is a neurotoxin / excitotoxin which tricks the brain into thinking food has more flavour than it does. msg-food-what-to-eat-what-not-to-eat chinese-food-and-msg 7 hours ago, A14n said: Don't understand why I feel so bad again, If the fish sticks had MSG, that may be why you feel bad again. * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
A14n Posted March 16, 2019 Author Share Posted March 16, 2019 54 minutes ago, ChessieCat said: MSG is a neurotoxin / excitotoxin which tricks the brain into thinking food has more flavour than it does. msg-food-what-to-eat-what-not-to-eat chinese-food-and-msg If the fish sticks had MSG, that may be why you feel bad again. What other effects does MSG have on the CNS? It feels like I have a chemical terror attack going on inside my brain. I find it unbearable but I want to feel normal again. I can't imagine anything worse than this feeling 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted March 16, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 16, 2019 (edited) The worst thing you can do is panic. That is only going to add additional stress and cause more reactions in your body. If what you are experiencing is completely new then that it could well be that you have ingested MSG and because of withdrawal your nervous system may be more sensitive which is why you might be noticing the reaction/s from the MSG. It might take a few days for things to settle down, assuming that it is caused by the MSG. I think it would be better not to research further but to accept that you have/may have eaten MSG and that is what is causing the symptoms you are currently getting. Edited March 19, 2019 by ChessieCat added missing word - completely "new" * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted March 16, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 16, 2019 And of course, don't eat any more MSG. * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
A14n Posted March 17, 2019 Author Share Posted March 17, 2019 10am woke up, feeling anxious 11:30am up and dressed dpdr bad, depressed quite fearful 11:45am cup of tea 1:00pm trying to stay grounded, confusion bad 1:15pm getting chills throughout my body 1:20pm ate some fruit 2:05pm loose bowel movement 2:10pm feeling scared and depressed 2:25pm took sertraline 3pm ate scrambled egg on toast 3:25pm feel total despair 4:00pm at work, feel dread and this horrific dark feeling 6:00pm anxiety is so extreme 6:20 zoning out (dissociation? ) 7:00pm ate dinner 8:15pm feel very tired 9:38pm electric feeling in limbs, feel fear 10:30pm home from work, head feels numb and fear feels pretty high 11:00pm unable to focus, zoned out. Nothing makes sense, confusion 11:30pm afraid to go to bed incase tomorrow is also unbearable 12:00am watching TV can't concentrate on it 12:05am random muscle twitching in left arm 12:40am ate some cereal bran flakes 1:20am in bed anxious about tomorrow 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
A14n Posted March 19, 2019 Author Share Posted March 19, 2019 Do we eventually stabilise if keeping on the same dose long enough? I wish I could just feel ok, the pounding heart conscious of every beat, don't feel connected to reality at all, no appetite or libedo no emotions feel completely dead inside apart from high anxiety it's a nightmare my memories are fading away, can't think it's like an awful reality so dark and terrorfying 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted March 19, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 19, 2019 Please see this post where you said you felt like you had a better day. That was only last Saturday. * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
A14n Posted March 20, 2019 Author Share Posted March 20, 2019 12 hours ago, ChessieCat said: Please see this post where you said you felt like you had a better day. That was only last Saturday. It's hard to even remember feeling any better when I'm like this. I have alot going on as moving house, during withdrawal is extra tough, plus having to work. I still get these waves of terror for no reason and feeling disconnected from everything its the worst thing I can imagine 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
A14n Posted March 20, 2019 Author Share Posted March 20, 2019 @Altostrata don't know if you have seen my posts, just wondering if you have any idea what's going on with me? The fear, and confusion and feeling disconnected from reality, no appetite is really getting to me 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
VincentV Posted March 20, 2019 Share Posted March 20, 2019 1 hour ago, A14n said: @Altostrata don't know if you have seen my posts, just wondering if you have any idea what's going on with me? The fear, and confusion and feeling disconnected from reality, no appetite is really getting to me Do you find your emotions/symptoms cycle through a kind of pattern? Some days you feel more disconnected and other days you feel more anxious or confused? Citalopram. Briefly early twenties, no ill effects seemingly. Don't remember dose. Sertraline on and off for ten years. I was ignorant and started and stopped frequently. Doses of 50, 75 and 100. I can not recall/did not record dates prior to 2018. JANUARY 2018: Last period of use was was 150mg of sertraline on 14/01/18 (which triggered extreme depression and anxiety that never settled, amongst other symptoms). I then tapered to 100mg in March (15/03/18), then down to 75mg in April(01/04/18) , 50mg later (11/04/18) 25mg in May (16/05/18), and was at 0mg in June (02/06/18). Mirtazapine 15mg: 01/08/18- 02/10/18, 15mg (6 weeks at 15mg the two week taper). - caused deeply unpleasant waves of extreme anxiety, depression, zombie state and mania. Still on 40mg of Propranolol twice a day since April 2018. Supplements: Fish oil, Magnesium, Vit B6 Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted March 21, 2019 Administrator Share Posted March 21, 2019 On 3/9/2019 at 5:49 AM, A14n said: Thanks @ChessieCat Will I ever get better I keep losing hope, being on antidepressants since 2011 and stopping cold turkey last year I feel has done so much damage, I'd cry if I could. I had sertraline 50mg reinstated last July after 3 months ct from sertraline and mirtazapine that I took for 3 weeks. I feel so detached out of body and extreme fear that seems to just get worse. I been tapering off sertraline since October last year. Down to 32.1mg. Just want these feelings to stop, feel like I'm dying I'm so weak On 3/14/2019 at 6:39 PM, A14n said: I think it was October I dropped dosage from 50mg to 45mg my first drop. Then 42.8mg November. 40.6mg 2/12/18... 38.6mg 14/12/18. 36.7mg 25/12/18. 34.8mg 18/1/19.... Then I tried 2% taper. 34.1mg 22/2/19.... On 03/03/19 I skipped 33.4mg and 32.8mg and went to 32.1mg which is where I am at now. My taper has been pretty random, is that causing issues? Am I going way too fast with the drops? A1, when you reinstated 50mg Zoloft in July 2018, did you feel better? Why did you decide to taper it in October? Did you feel better or worse when you reduced in October? How about November? Please stop changing your drug dosing for the time being. Take 32.1mg Zoloft at the same time each day. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
A14n Posted March 21, 2019 Author Share Posted March 21, 2019 6 hours ago, Altostrata said: A1, when you reinstated 50mg Zoloft in July 2018, did you feel better? Why did you decide to taper it in October? Did you feel better or worse when you reduced in October? How about November? Please stop changing your drug dosing for the time being. Take 32.1mg Zoloft at the same time each day. @AltostrataI started tapering because I felt no better, i just feel so confused and I'm conscious of my heart beating 24/7,and constant waves of fear. Reality doesn't feel real I have no sense of comfort only scared all the time. It's like non stop adrenaline also getting heart beats that skip. I don't get hungry or thirsty have to force myself to eat and drink 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
A14n Posted March 21, 2019 Author Share Posted March 21, 2019 18 hours ago, VincentV said: Do you find your emotions/symptoms cycle through a kind of pattern? Some days you feel more disconnected and other days you feel more anxious or confused? It's pretty much the same all the time, paralysed with fear thinking something bad is about to happen. Feel very confused about everything 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
A14n Posted March 21, 2019 Author Share Posted March 21, 2019 Another thing I find myself zoning out just staring blankly very hard to snap out of and focus 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted March 22, 2019 Administrator Share Posted March 22, 2019 When you reinstated 50mg Zoloft last July, how did your symptoms change? After you take Zoloft at about 2 p.m., do you feel any different? Do you take it at that time every day? Why 2 p.m.? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
A14n Posted March 22, 2019 Author Share Posted March 22, 2019 7 hours ago, Altostrata said: When you reinstated 50mg Zoloft last July, how did your symptoms change? After you take Zoloft at about 2 p.m., do you feel any different? Do you take it at that time every day? Why 2 p.m.? I don't feel any better when I take it, maybe worse. I feel so restless can't relax maybe the dose is way too high still? After reinstating so high after 3 months cold turkey. Every day is hell don't know what to do. Take it 2pm every day as I work late not sure how I still work to be honest 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
A14n Posted March 22, 2019 Author Share Posted March 22, 2019 I have a bad stomach diarrhea every day, feel like im being poisoned by the sertraline 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
Vonnegutjunky Posted May 30, 2019 Share Posted May 30, 2019 Reading your post A1 and I have the same exact terror feelings as you. Today they were reduced. I just want you to know your not alone. These feelings made me feel psychotic. My brain wouldn’t work right and I am having strange thoughts and bizarre feelings, but I am still here. Hang on and hopefully soon yours will lessen a bit too. *Currently at 8.2-8.5 mg of my 10mg pill of Paxil (they actually weigh 12.5mg) january 2023 I began reducing my med again. I was a 9mg weight for years, I went to 8.9 in January, went to 8.6mg in February, and in March 2023 I went down to 8.5-8.2 mg ( my scale varies, so I stick within that .3 range because of that) *No other supplements or vitamins *Taper schedule in the pdf Blank.pdf https://docs.google.com/document/d/1-5vShtJtwAOGA30OxIP87steLmMdFzD29F0fzAPD564 Link to comment
A14n Posted May 30, 2019 Author Share Posted May 30, 2019 2 hours ago, Vonnegutjunky said: Reading your post A1 and I have the same exact terror feelings as you. Today they were reduced. I just want you to know your not alone. These feelings made me feel psychotic. My brain wouldn’t work right and I am having strange thoughts and bizarre feelings, but I am still here. Hang on and hopefully soon yours will lessen a bit too. Hi vonne, Thank you for replying, I hope it eases off soon. We aren't psychotic. I get weird thoughts also and my memory is poor. Does the terror feeling ease up for you? Is it less at certain times of the day? I read that it's common in benzo withdrawal but I've never taken those. Take it easy 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
Vonnegutjunky Posted May 30, 2019 Share Posted May 30, 2019 3 hours ago, A14n said: Hi vonne, Thank you for replying, I hope it eases off soon. We aren't psychotic. I get weird thoughts also and my memory is poor. Does the terror feeling ease up for you? Is it less at certain times of the day? I read that it's common in benzo withdrawal but I've never taken those. Take it easy For me its doesn't lessen during certain times of the day. It seems to go away very slowly for days and then return out of the blue so yes it does alleviate and come back I am grateful so grateful for that. I have never used benzos before either, just paxil. Please keep updating with your progress. And I hope you can write a good post soon enough. *Currently at 8.2-8.5 mg of my 10mg pill of Paxil (they actually weigh 12.5mg) january 2023 I began reducing my med again. I was a 9mg weight for years, I went to 8.9 in January, went to 8.6mg in February, and in March 2023 I went down to 8.5-8.2 mg ( my scale varies, so I stick within that .3 range because of that) *No other supplements or vitamins *Taper schedule in the pdf Blank.pdf https://docs.google.com/document/d/1-5vShtJtwAOGA30OxIP87steLmMdFzD29F0fzAPD564 Link to comment
A14n Posted June 8, 2019 Author Share Posted June 8, 2019 Hi I am still feeling very much the same on the 18th of March the Dr swapped me to citalopram 10mg. But I feel no difference feel fear non stop pretty much for the past year or so. Was also given diazepam 2mg afraid to take it though. Not sure where to turn to be honest. Will this ever get better? 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
Vonnegutjunky Posted June 8, 2019 Share Posted June 8, 2019 It does get better, I used my benzo with success when things got to be too much. But everyone is different. *Currently at 8.2-8.5 mg of my 10mg pill of Paxil (they actually weigh 12.5mg) january 2023 I began reducing my med again. I was a 9mg weight for years, I went to 8.9 in January, went to 8.6mg in February, and in March 2023 I went down to 8.5-8.2 mg ( my scale varies, so I stick within that .3 range because of that) *No other supplements or vitamins *Taper schedule in the pdf Blank.pdf https://docs.google.com/document/d/1-5vShtJtwAOGA30OxIP87steLmMdFzD29F0fzAPD564 Link to comment
A14n Posted June 9, 2019 Author Share Posted June 9, 2019 It happens every morning soon as I wake up without fail. Its always too much but there's nothing I can do about it 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
A14n Posted June 9, 2019 Author Share Posted June 9, 2019 Will taking 2mg diazepam help relax me? Been afraid to try. Not that I can feel much worse than I do already. I keep getting this goosebumps feeling come over my head randomly what's that about? 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
Maca44 Posted June 9, 2019 Share Posted June 9, 2019 All Diazepam will do is mask the feelings, I would have thought that avoiding it if you can would be wise. Been on Mirtazapine 30mg for 3yrs and want to come off due to weight gain & morning hangover. Mid March 2019 went to 15mg one night 30mg the next for a week Was feeling ok so dropped to 15mg per night but anxiety came back so tried to get back to 30mg but body didnt like it so I panicked and found this site. Dr told me to get stable at 22 1/2mg for a month but have stuck at 15mg and plan to get stable on this, its day 3 on 15mg. Reinstated back to 30 mg of Mirt and have been on this for a few weeks. Now feel leveled out to a point where I can function and work at a level of anxiety I can cope with. Link to comment
A14n Posted June 12, 2019 Author Share Posted June 12, 2019 Ugh bad day, feel terrorfied of everything. It doesn't make sense to me, I have fear that just attaches itself to anything and everything. Scared to look out of the window, door bell went... Postman thought I was going to have a heart attack then the phone rang. Why am I living in fear all the time? Had it since the Dr cold turkey me off sertraline and put me on mirtazapine which I took for 3 weeks. Then took nothing for 3 months. Then Dr reinstated the sertraline which I'm sure made things worse. I tapered down to 25mg over several months but felt worse now got swapped to citalopram 10mg about 4 weeks ago. It's not helping at all. Not sure where to go from here? Do I carry on taking the citalopram I'm not sure nothing seems to help ugh 1996 prozac 20mg I 1998 Seroxat 2011 - 2016 citalopram 20mg 2016 fluoxetine upto 40mg for approx 10 weeks 2016 16th June - until 2018 7th March sertraline 50mg propranolol 10mg to take when needed) 2018 13th March - started mirtazapine 15mg, stopped 03/04/18 2018 2nd July reinstated sertraline 50mg. Started tapering October 2018. Straight swap from 25mg sertraline to 10mg citalopram 18/5/19 stopped 21/6/19 Link to comment
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