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On 12/20/2020 at 11:14 PM, Amira123 said:

Can anybody advise me please. Is it possible to recover from this. I am starting to doubt it and to lose hope. i am afraid i have done some permenant damage to my brain. I am now 26 months off and not recovered yet. 26 months is a good time for something to heal so why i am not recovered? I do not prefer to write about my suffering and each time i am having a wave i prefer to keep it to myself because i do not want to scare anybody. But i am feeling so hopeless.

 

I am very sad to still have the chemical dark depression and the thoughts which come with it even after 2 years. These thoughts are torturing me. the chemical fear, hopelessness, dread are beyond comprehension. The suffering is so surreal i sometimes wonder is it possible for feelings like this to exist in life

 

The symptoms are getting on my way of having a normal life. I want to have a job, to have money to enable me to live. I want to study and be able to read books again. Marriage and having kids are now distant dreams which i do not know will happen or not. I really want to have control over my brain again to do the basic things that humans do. To have the basic human feelings, positive feelings and emotions. I feel very sad i lost my cognitive functions, i cant be creative or plan anything. I am not able to connect to anythinng around me. I want to be able to solve normal life issues again. To be able to make meals for myself. To lay on my bed and not wish death every second.  And my family make it even harder by not believing me or even show empathy. They are asking me to have a job, marry, have kids, social life. And i  do not have any evidence for my illness. No scan or test to show i am ill. It all started when i was 23, now i will turn 28.

 

I can't believe a small pill prescribed by a dr can damage my life this way.

@Amira123

 

We all have to be patient. We must survive this ugly journey. One day we will reach ashore and celebrate. Hang in there. Do not give up. 

Read more about success stories and avoid searching details of your symptoms, it will all go away, one day. so, LET GO. 

May ALLAH bless you, and support you.

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2010-2016 Cipralex 25mg (escitaloram) 6 years. Developed some side effects, which triggered my desire to stop AD drugs.

October 31, 2015: Started tapering

March 29, 2016: Stopped Cipralex. For 6 months, things were OK, tolerable.

Sep 25, 2016: Started having very severe withdrawal symptoms. I took cipralex for one day only, then decided to move on without AD drugs.

Sep 2017: Slight improvements

June 2019: Much better, but not yet 100%.

 

 

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13 hours ago, Amira123 said:

Thank you for your support @Shep do you think these symptoms will go away one day? 

 

Yes, I do. 

 

Are you able to tolerate supplements?

 

We don't recommend a lot of supplements, as many members report their nervous systems are simply too fragile to handle them. However, magnesium and fish oil tend to be calming to the nervous system and many people report they do help. Please only add in one supplement at a time and at a small dose. For more, please see:

 

 King of supplements: Omega-3 fatty acids (fish oil)

 

Magnesium, nature's calcium channel blocker

 

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My Success Story:  Shep's Success: "Leaving Plato's Cave"

 

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On 12/22/2020 at 9:26 AM, Nsr99 said:

@Amira123

 

We all have to be patient. We must survive this ugly journey. One day we will reach ashore and celebrate. Hang in there. Do not give up. 

Read more about success stories and avoid searching details of your symptoms, it will all go away, one day. so, LET GO. 

May ALLAH bless you, and support you.

 

 

@Nsr99 You have always been supportive, Nsr. Thank you. I have hope in ALLAH swt. It is just that sometimes symptoms are very hard to handle.

Cymbalta 30 mg- 60 mg 

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Thank you @Shep for you advice. I am afriad to take any supplements as they mess my nervous system. I will give magnesium a try and see how it works

Cymbalta 30 mg- 60 mg 

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Start with a very small dose of magnesium. You may want to mix it with water and sip on it throughout the day. Many members find it to be calming. 

 

Or you may want to try taking a warm Epsom salt bath. Epsom salts contain magnesium, but some people find it's a more gentle way of getting magnesium. 

 

Let us know how you feel. 

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My Success Story:  Shep's Success: "Leaving Plato's Cave"

 

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Amira, I received your PM and am posting some information here in your thread so you have all your information in one place. 

 

For information on the validity of ADHD, you may want to check out the resources on the Mad in America site.

 

You may want to start with this article, as it goes into the brain scan studies:

 

Lancet Psychiatry Needs to Retract the ADHD-Enigma Study

 

And some more articles: 

 

Mad in America - ADHD info

 

The Scientism of Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD)

 

ADHD: A Destructive Psychiatric Hoax

 

The Spin Doctors: “ADHD” Research

 

ADHD: Disempowerment By Diagnosis

 

Dr. Timimi is posting his book for free (chapter by chapter) online on the MiA site. These chapters deal with ADHD:

 

Insane Medicine, Chapter 3: The Manufacture of Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) (Part 1)

 

Insane Medicine, Chapter 3: The Manufacture of ADHD (Part 2)

 

 

 

Drug free May 22, 2015 after 30 years of neuroleptics, benzos, z-drugs, so-called "anti"-depressants, and amphetamines 

 

My Success Story:  Shep's Success: "Leaving Plato's Cave"

 

And what is good, Phaedrus, and what is not good — need we ask anyone to tell us these things? ~ Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance


I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

 

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Thank you for the resources, Shep. I will read them

Cymbalta 30 mg- 60 mg 

06/2016-  10/2018 ( Cold Turkey) 

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On 1/2/2021 at 12:46 AM, Amira123 said:

Thank you for the resources, Shep. I will read them

2 years is not long, it might seem that way but ive been in “withdrawal” now for ten years, some people i know have been in it for 11-15 years also, though that is far more rare. Theres no telling how each individuals journey will pan out...i use “withdrawal” in quotes because i firmly believe this will be considered a form of brain damage eventually....i do have windows though, they are brief and mild but its enough to keep going, 2 years might seem like a life time but its really not compared to a lot of people going through this, just keep hanging on and check in with people on this site as much as possible, this site saved me from my own ignorance. 

Was put on SSRIS at age 18, came off at 20 due to side effects, have been in withdrawal ever since, am 27 now. 7 years of protracted withdrawal. have not been able to work. I didnt taper, i basically came off cold turkey in less than a month....no one informed me of anything, including protracted withdrawal . my symptoms include absolutely everything you can imagine, you name it, i have it 

 

 

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Hello Amira, I'm happy to see you as a mentor! :) How are you feel now? At your point of your journey are the waves less intense? I hope so!🙏

July 2015: the 20mg citalopram for great stress begins

After two years I start tapering (slow but without medical advice) and I guess wrongly. First up to 10 mg, then 5 mg and 2 mg (liquid solution) and skips

January 2020 (I don't remember exactly the day): off citalopram (last dose 2mg).

June 2020: adrenal crash. The beginning of Hell on Earth

 

Current supplement:

- saffron pill (20 mg) + vit. E, omega 3 (EPA + DHA) 2g, magnesium bisglycinate 300 mg, iron , vitamin D3 (2500ui) +K7 (50 ui), vitamin C (1g) + quercitin (25 mg), theanine (as necessary).

 

Try meditating / mindfulness, walking every day, CBT/ACT, massage.

 

"E quindi uscimmo a riveder le stelle" ("And so we went out to see the stars again")

(Dante Alighieri, Divine Comedy , Inferno, XXXIV, 139)

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Hi @Leila Thank you. I am better and improving. But still not out of the woods yet. Take care 🌸

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Cymbalta 30 mg- 60 mg 

06/2016-  10/2018 ( Cold Turkey) 

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You had to be proud of yourself! I wish you more and more healing!🙏

July 2015: the 20mg citalopram for great stress begins

After two years I start tapering (slow but without medical advice) and I guess wrongly. First up to 10 mg, then 5 mg and 2 mg (liquid solution) and skips

January 2020 (I don't remember exactly the day): off citalopram (last dose 2mg).

June 2020: adrenal crash. The beginning of Hell on Earth

 

Current supplement:

- saffron pill (20 mg) + vit. E, omega 3 (EPA + DHA) 2g, magnesium bisglycinate 300 mg, iron , vitamin D3 (2500ui) +K7 (50 ui), vitamin C (1g) + quercitin (25 mg), theanine (as necessary).

 

Try meditating / mindfulness, walking every day, CBT/ACT, massage.

 

"E quindi uscimmo a riveder le stelle" ("And so we went out to see the stars again")

(Dante Alighieri, Divine Comedy , Inferno, XXXIV, 139)

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Hello @Shep and @Altostrata

 

Is there any topic on SA which has a list of the medications that affect the CNS and the brain, Like cipro and etc..?

 

Thanks

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Cymbalta 30 mg- 60 mg 

06/2016-  10/2018 ( Cold Turkey) 

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Please look in the Symptoms and Self-Care forum.

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