Kronos18: Lexapro withdrawal

[brassmonkey]

In that case it sounds like you're getting hit by a bad wave. It should run it's course given time.

[Kronos18]

26 minutes ago, brassmonkey said:

In that case it sounds like you're getting hit by a bad wave. It should run it's course given time.

In this case can i try going to the gym again brassmonkey?I’m not training hard, light dumbells, 8-10kg, i’m not overdoing it.Or should i wait more?

[brassmonkey]

You could give it a try, but keep things real easy and pay close attention to how you react for the several days afterwards.  Many people find that even moderate exercise during a wave will make things worse.

[Rabe]

Hi Kronos...I just wanted to share that I went back to the gym and each time it was ok for a bit and then I crashed.  Now I can do very very little....little yoga and sometimes a short walk.  I kept taking a break and returning and the same thing would happen so I finally put it on hold for now.

The other thing that I believe for myself is that the exercise and weights affected my electrolytes more because of the need for them increase with exercise.  If you have had any issues with those you might want to be sure to keep hydrated and up on all your electrolytes with exercise.  

Take good care!

[Kronos18]

Update 15 weeks out.I’m in a pretty bad wave, exhaustion to the point of feeling of faint, high anxiety but not as severe, exploding headaches, body tremors especially in head, legs and hands, tingling in arms more pronounced, neck stiffness, severe dr/dp, joint pain, face numbness feeling especially in forehead, panic bursts but not as powerfull, depression episodes also dismished, dry eyes, slurred speech,poor cognitive function,muscle spasm, weakness in the whole body.Hoping for better days to come.

[Kronos18]

15 weeks out update.I’m currently flying back to london with anxiety, severe dr/dp, i’m drained l, little to no energy, extremely fatigued, blurred vision and other vision problems,balance problems, panic, hot flushes.It’s awful, hearth is skipping a beat,I was never expecting this, it’s a living nightmare.I don’t even know what is to be a normal person any more

[powerback]

On ‎5‎/‎7‎/‎2019 at 2:34 PM, Kronos18 said:

15 weeks out update.I’m currently flying back to london with anxiety, severe dr/dp, i’m drained l, little to no energy, extremely fatigued, blurred vision and other vision problems,balance problems, panic, hot flushes.It’s awful, hearth is skipping a beat,I was never expecting this, it’s a living nightmare.I don’t even know what is to be a normal person any more

Nightmare ,I can just imagine this .I was flying back and forth to Scotland about 5 times a year last year and the year before ,not a hope I could do it the last few months .

Hope your ok . 

[Kronos18]

1 hour ago, powerback said:

Nightmare ,I can just imagine this .I was flying back and forth to Scotland about 5 times a year last year and the year before ,not a hope I could do it the last few months .

Hope your ok . 

Yes.Thank you.I hope too it will be ok.Is it normal too feel panic, doom, fear for no reason?

[Kronos18]

1 hour ago, powerback said:

Nightmare ,I can just imagine this .I was flying back and forth to Scotland about 5 times a year last year and the year before ,not a hope I could do it the last few months 

Hope your ok . 

i am afraid of developing PTSD from this

[eymen23]

4 minutes ago, Kronos18 said:

Yes.Thank you.I hope too it will be ok.Is it normal too feel panic, doom, fear for no reason?

 

Hi Kronos,

 

It’s totally normal to feel those emotions for no reason, that is a classic sign of an overactive sympathetic nervous system, where your bodies ‘fight or flight’ system is stuck in overdrive and is either set off by no stimulus at all, or overreacts to common emotional stimulus. 

 

Please remember the ‘windows and waves’ pattern of recovery. You have had days of less intense symptoms and you will have them again. The travelling may well have stirred things up and caused more symptoms. Either way, I’m sorry you’ve had to experience such intense symptoms whilst travelling, it can be a lonely and scary experience for sure. 

 

Please try forms of self-care to help you get through this rough wave and any extra strain from the travelling. Examples would be meditation, breathing exercises, gentle exercise in a nice environment etc. 

 

Things will improve, you just need to find a way to get yourself through the storm. 

[Kronos18]

10 minutes ago, eymen23 said:

 

Hi Kronos,

 

It’s totally normal to feel those emotions for no reason, that is a classic sign of an overactive sympathetic nervous system, where your bodies ‘fight or flight’ system is stuck in overdrive and is either set off by no stimulus at all, or overreacts to common emotional stimulus. 

 

Please remember the ‘windows and waves’ pattern of recovery. You have had days of less intense symptoms and you will have them again. The travelling may well have stirred things up and caused more symptoms. Either way, I’m sorry you’ve had to experience such intense symptoms whilst travelling, it can be a lonely and scary experience for sure. 

 

Please try forms of self-care to help you get through this rough wave and any extra strain from the travelling. Examples would be meditation, breathing exercises, gentle exercise in a nice environment etc. 

 

Things will improve, you just need to find a way to get yourself through the storm. 

Thank you so mich Eymen.I had good days, but these days just make me feel so hopeless.I am afraid of developing PTSD because of this..

[eymen23]

Just now, Kronos18 said:

Thank you so mich Eymen.I had good days, but these days just make me feel so hopeless.I am afraid of developing PTSD because of this..

 

I understand Kronos, I really do. Thankfully my taper is helping limit my symptoms, but I too have moments of feeling completely helpless and break out in tears or get nervous, it is all part of the healing process.

 

It is normal to feel anxiety or lose some amount of confidence when going through or having gone through something traumatic. Maintaining a positive attitude and feeling like you have adequate understanding of your struggles, helps to reduce the chances of developing PTSD. I find that thinking of my waves as healing, helps me to not fear the next wave or worrying about permanent damage from these drugs. Many people get through withdrawal and even become stronger and more resilient people. Try your best to peep the faith in yourself. 

[Kronos18]

1 minute ago, eymen23 said:

 

I understand Kronos, I really do. Thankfully my taper is helping limit my symptoms, but I too have moments of feeling completely helpless and break out in tears or get nervous, it is all part of the healing process.

 

It is normal to feel anxiety or lose some amount of confidence when going through or having gone through something traumatic. Maintaining a positive attitude and feeling like you have adequate understanding of your struggles, helps to reduce the chances of developing PTSD. I find that thinking of my waves as healing, helps me to not fear the next wave or worrying about permanent damage from these drugs. Many people get through withdrawal and even become stronger and more resilient people. Try your best to peep the faith in yourself. 

The thing is, when I am in a window, it’s ok, I can do things, but in these bad times they only make me so hopeless..Thank you so much.Hope it will end one day

[Kronos18]

Do anyone gets intensified symptoms after eating?including hightened anxiety, head pressure, intensified dr/dp, tingling, diziness

[BigPharmaStinks]

On 5/9/2019 at 10:53 AM, Kronos18 said:

Do anyone gets intensified symptoms after eating?including hightened anxiety, head pressure, intensified dr/dp, tingling, diziness

I do unfortunately, it's just withdrawal. I was supposed to go to medical school this summer, but psychiatry and pharma have ruined that for me so I have to wait another year. You will heal by next Christmas, I have zero doubt :). It's a fight we must endure, but we will emerge tougher!

[Wesofthewest]

On 5/9/2019 at 9:53 AM, Kronos18 said:

Do anyone gets intensified symptoms after eating?including hightened anxiety, head pressure, intensified dr/dp, tingling, diziness

Yes, I get this too. It also seems to depend on what I’m eating. I have to avoid sugar for sure and anything with caffeine. Generally if it doesn’t have sugar I’m pretty good, I’d be interested to hear what foods are giving you more symptoms. 

[Kronos18]

2 hours ago, Wesofthewest said:

Yes, I get this too. It also seems to depend on what I’m eating. I have to avoid sugar for sure and anything with caffeine. Generally if it doesn’t have sugar I’m pretty good, I’d be interested to hear what foods are giving you more symptoms. 

Hi mate, it’s not a certain food that gives me anxiety, as you said i’m trying to avoid too sugars and coffee, but generally I feel anxious and get some symptoms after I ear most of the meals

[Wesofthewest]

Thats unfortunate, but that seems to be a common thing with withdrawal. It will surely get better over time along with everything else. The fact that you are seeing windows is such a good sign

[Kronos18]

Update of almost 17 weeks.This wave is getting deeper and deeper, feeling exactly like in the begining.Severe dr/dp, waking with panic and tremors, high anxiety, diziness and balance problems, tingling in hands, fatigue, waking up 3 times per night, sleeping less, currently i’m housebound because of these symptoms.Is hypervigilance a symptoms of withdrawal?i’m hoping for better days

[Kronos18]

Update of almost 17 weeks.This wave is getting deeper and deeper, feeling exactly like in the begining.Severe dr/dp, waking with panic and tremors, high anxiety, diziness and balance problems, tingling in hands, fatigue, waking up 3 times per night, sleeping less, currently i’m housebound because of these symptoms.Is hypervigilance a symptoms of withdrawal?i’m hoping for better days

[RichT]

2 minutes ago, Kronos18 said:

Update of almost 17 weeks.This wave is getting deeper and deeper, feeling exactly like in the begining.Severe dr/dp, waking with panic and tremors, high anxiety, diziness and balance problems, tingling in hands, fatigue, waking up 3 times per night, sleeping less, currently i’m housebound because of these symptoms.Is hypervigilance a symptoms of withdrawal?i’m hoping for better days

 

Hi Kronos,

 

better days will surely come! Hang on in there.

 

Hypervigilance is definitely a symptom that can be triggered by withdrawal. 

 

R

[Kronos18]

13 minutes ago, RichT said:

 

Hi Kronos,

 

better days will surely come! Hang on in there.

 

Hypervigilance is definitely a symptom that can be triggered by withdrawal. 

 

R

Thank you RichT.There were some good days so i’m hoping in the near future i will get them again.How are you feeling?

[RichT]

Just now, Kronos18 said:

Thank you RichT.There were some good days so i’m hoping in the near future i will get them again.How are you feeling?

 

Not too bad, though a bit stressed by having visitors staying with us this week, and my stepdad being ill at the moment. Our visitors are lovely people, but I struggle with the amount of socialisation having them here involves!

 

 

[Kronos18]

44 minutes ago, RichT said:

 

Not too bad, though a bit stressed by having visitors staying with us this week, and my stepdad being ill at the moment. Our visitors are lovely people, but I struggle with the amount of socialisation having them here involves!

 

 

Oh, i’m sorry for your dad.Hope he will get well.I know the feeling, i can’t socialise too like this, but I try my best.Hope we all get better soon.

Adrian

[Kronos18]

Can someone relate? I am almost bedridden, i can’t walk more than 2 minutes without headaches being horrodeous, i feel like my head is about to explode, head pressure also a lot, haven’t experienced it until now.also diziness, leg weakness, vertigo

[powerback]

1 hour ago, Kronos18 said:

Can someone relate? I am almost bedridden, i can’t walk more than 2 minutes without headaches being horrodeous, i feel like my head is about to explode, head pressure also a lot, haven’t experienced it until now.also diziness, leg weakness, vertigo

OH yes I can .It hasn't been that long since you were on the plane[this took an awful lot out of you ] ,your in a massive wave .Also I read you called 10kg weights light ,all bets are off when your system is so  sensitized .it really needs to be experienced to understand doesn't it .im wrecked today myself and trying to accept it ,nightmare hey .

Take care .

[Kronos18]

 

6 minutes ago, powerback said:

OH yes I can .It hasn't been that long since you were on the plane[this took an awful lot out of you ] ,your in a massive wave .Also I read you called 10kg weights light ,all bets are off when your system is so  sensitized .it really needs to be experienced to understand doesn't it .im wrecked today myself and trying to accept it ,nightmare hey .

Take care .

I’m sorry you’re struggling like this too.It was a pure coincidence with the gym, as I haven’t been  to the gym more than a month ago i think, and this wave is much much worse than that one.I don’t know what to believe any more, I am only 21 and it seems like the life has gone from my path, I am bedridden with not much hope left.Hope that one day it will be alright. 

Adrian

[powerback]

1 hour ago, Kronos18 said:

 

I’m sorry you’re struggling like this too.It was a pure coincidence with the gym, as I haven’t been  to the gym more than a month ago i think, and this wave is much much worse than that one.I don’t know what to believe any more, I am only 21 and it seems like the life has gone from my path, I am bedridden with not much hope left.Hope that one day it will be alright. 

Adrian

its weird in the last 30 mins after my dinner im relaxing enjoying music and being flooded with nice emotions .

 

Take it from someone that did a good job at destroying there life,[unconscious self destructive, im 38],your age is your golden ticket away from this ,you wont believe me in this wave but it will change .

There aren't many coincidences in withdrawl ,a heavy workout could affect you weeks  down the road ,Add that with the plane ride ,im not having a go so apologies if it looks like that ,your human and you want to feel human ,I was the king at not accepting and respecting  withdrawl  and doing way to much because I didn't want to believe it was real but I finally pushed it to a point in the last 6 months that nearly killed me .

Do your activities when this wave is over at a much lighter level ,maybe even a 1/5 of your previous ability .

 

your bedridden because your body is under huge stress ,but our Ego and a want to be normal overrides our common  sense .

I totally feel your pain ,im traumatised after this winter sofa/bed ridden but we keep fighting and replace these memories with nicer ones when its over  .

Take care mate 🤝 

 

[Kronos18]

1 hour ago, powerback said:

its weird in the last 30 mins after my dinner im relaxing enjoying music and being flooded with nice emotions .

 

Take it from someone that did a good job at destroying there life,[unconscious self destructive, im 38],your age is your golden ticket away from this ,you wont believe me in this wave but it will change .

There aren't many coincidences in withdrawl ,a heavy workout could affect you weeks  down the road ,Add that with the plane ride ,im not having a go so apologies if it looks like that ,your human and you want to feel human ,I was the king at not accepting and respecting  withdrawl  and doing way to much because I didn't want to believe it was real but I finally pushed it to a point in the last 6 months that nearly killed me .

Do your activities when this wave is over at a much lighter level ,maybe even a 1/5 of your previous ability .

 

your bedridden because your body is under huge stress ,but our Ego and a want to be normal overrides our common  sense .

I totally feel your pain ,im traumatised after this winter sofa/bed ridden but we keep fighting and replace these memories with nicer ones when its over  .

Take care mate 🤝 

 

I understand perfectly mate.My hope is that I had some ok windows, dismished symptoms, and I am convinced I will have more, it will take some time tho, but i’m battling everyday, doing what I can when I can.You’re perfectly right, I’m glad for your response and hoping that you will be ok.Thank you mate 🤝

[powerback]

7 minutes ago, Kronos18 said:

I understand perfectly mate.My hope is that I had some ok windows, dismished symptoms, and I am convinced I will have more, it will take some time tho, but i’m battling everyday, doing what I can when I can.You’re perfectly right, I’m glad for your response and hoping that you will be ok.Thank you mate 🤝

Your welcome mate ,take care.🤝

[Kronos18]

Quick update.

Symptoms get stronger, diziness, weakness, vertigo, creepy anxiety with severe dr/dp, felings of hopeless, felings of panic, restlessness, itchy skin(new symptom), tingling in fingers especially got stronger, stronger vision problems, sensivity to light and sound, hypervigilance got stronger, sleep problems ( waking couple times in night again), buzzing feeling in head, tinnitus, tremors in legs and hands especially, restless legs, weightless body feeling sometimes.I’m in the point where I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, despite i’m only 22.18 weeks off still awful

[RichT]

36 minutes ago, Kronos18 said:

Quick update.

Symptoms get stronger, diziness, weakness, vertigo, creepy anxiety with severe dr/dp, felings of hopeless, felings of panic, restlessness, itchy skin(new symptom), tingling in fingers especially got stronger, stronger vision problems, sensivity to light and sound, hypervigilance got stronger, sleep problems ( waking couple times in night again), buzzing feeling in head, tinnitus, tremors in legs and hands especially, restless legs, weightless body feeling sometimes.I’m in the point where I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, despite i’m only 22.18 weeks off still awful

 

I’m Sorry to hear you’re suffering so badly. Hang in there - there are people in this site who’ve made it through to recovery, so can you. You will feel better.

 

sending you warmest wishes

[Kronos18]

3 minutes ago, RichT said:

 

I’m Sorry to hear you’re suffering so badly. Hang in there - there are people in this site who’ve made it through to recovery, so can you. You will feel better.

 

sending you warmest wishes

Hi mate.Hope you are ok.I’m struggling, but at least I don’t have that dark depression any more.I’m struggling so hard with the anxiety, in bad waves is just overwhelming.In windows, I can even go out with my friend with no problems, i’m trying to keep busy as much as I can but sometimes all I can do is lay in bed, waiting for the day to pass..How are you feeling mate?

[Kronos18]

I’m feeling so tense, nervous, overwhelmed by fear, anger, sadness and despair.I don’t know what to do any more, I can’t stay calm, I can’t enjoy life anymore, it’s not depression, but big style anxiety that doesn’t let me do literally anything.Anything I do, anywhere I go gives me anxiety.My mind started racing again, my body feels so restless and tense all the time, all these symptoms are overwhelming me.

[Kronos18]

Can someone relate why My body feels so weightless? A free floating feeling

[Kronos18]

Since this bad wave started, I find myself being in a constant state of panic.Like literally every move around me would ramp my anxiety.I’m overwhelmed by thesecthings