Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 16, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 16, 2019 Been rough. Tragic loss for some very friends and neighbours. Sorry if it was a bit melodramatic. Really glad I know you. Will chat tomorow, better then. Look after yourself, I have a suspision ( can't spell agin arggh ) you are not feeling so great either. Sleep well Sas Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 16, 2019 Author Share Posted June 16, 2019 I’m ok Sas up and down. Hope you’re ok and feeling better tomorrow. Take care LRH Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 17, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 17, 2019 What are you doing on here I thought you were working hard speak later bye Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 17, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 17, 2019 How have you been today? Good job we're not married, too much alike, how are you, OK. Translation, not feeling great but don't want to talk about it😀 Or leave me alone, I like to feel unwell by myself. Did the withdrawal symptoms start when you you began to taper or when you reached poop out? Your early cuts were pretty big! Are the eyelashes back home yet and did she bring a pressie? Gsd on email. Take care of yourself, things may be tough now but they will get better. Lots of hugs Sas Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 17, 2019 Author Share Posted June 17, 2019 Hi Sas ! Had a day off work today and in the garden . Ive really gone for it prob overdone, my usual trick, but garden looking the business another day on it Thursday and I reckon Ive cracked it !! ( brummie saying meaning job well done LRH!!) yes you’re right I’m not great but managing and yes I keep it inside like you. Withdrawal symptoms began when I hit poop out last August and have continued since. Tapering too fast just increased them. I’ve held now for nearly 5 months and am thinking of starting to taper again now as I really don’t think things are going to improve for me unless I do. Dr told me to decrease by those amounts and put me on the pregabalin to cope with the symptoms last November . Can’t stay on pregabalin for another two years while I taper the correct way and it stresses me out taking that as well as Paxil so I’m going to decrease that again this month before the Paxil taper starts . What about you Sas? What symptoms do you have ? And when do you think you will start your taper ? Millie the eyelashes is back with half an eyelash missing (presumably left in the bottom of a glass in Majorca!!) she had a great time went with two other girls had their ups and downs by the sound of it but let’s just say I think they’d probably go again given the chance and a cooling off period ..😉 Aaah I’ll check my mail now Things are tough for all of us that landed on this site at beginning of this year we all seem to be at the same stage in withdrawal have you noticed? All holding .. were like planes in a holding pattern waiting for the ok to continue to descend ... I don’t like flying but maybe after this I’ll no longer be afraid. Things will get better for all of us it’s just the waiting that’s a pain .. in more ways than one !! You ok after the weekend and the upset with the neighbours ? Take care Sas Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 17, 2019 Author Share Posted June 17, 2019 Danny looks so much like Archie such a beautiful boy. It made me really smile when I seen him holding the log I have a piccy just like that somewhere and the log was just as big ! Danny didn’t take into account the width of the bridge by the look of it 😊 I see he has his companion with him . Such a handsome breed don’t you think Thank you for sending them x Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 18, 2019 Author Share Posted June 18, 2019 Today I need to share something special for me to look back on when I’m pulled back into the black hole of wd; ‘I have experienced my first real window’ and it has lasted a whole morning! i have been in a bad place for the last 3 weeks with a ‘high’ wave 🌊. but today for no reason (nothing has changed or altered) I’ve been granted a window and it has reminded me of the person ‘I truly am’. Today I’m grateful for the reassurance that recovery will come. Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 18, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 18, 2019 Hi you. I am so happy for you, you can own up now, were you beginning to doubt it would ever happen? If I was there I would give you the biggest hug, a really tight one🤗. You deserve it after the last few weeks. One question. Why are you on here and not enjoying it with real people? Hope it continues and thank you for sharing, really good timing. Hugs Sas Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 18, 2019 Author Share Posted June 18, 2019 Thanks Sas! yeah I was feeling hopeless 😩 and that’s an understatement. Ive even managed to head a meeting at work using “big” words not forgetting my train of thought and having a clear head. That hasn’t happened even before wd and poop out!! I have had to record it in case it doesn’t happen again for a while and I can remind myself it really did 😊 thank you for hug 🤗 Sas how are you and do please answer ? Your friend LRH Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 18, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 18, 2019 I was having a thoroughly awful day. I was beginning to doubt whether the drug was working. I suppose most people know if it stops working as they may feel depressed. Problem is I was given this as a precaution and don't believe I was ever depressed. Fed up, down, tired, lousy but not depressed. I have no way of knowing for sure whether I had poop out or WD. 18 minutes ago, Sassenach said: Hope it continues and thank you for sharing, really good timing. The really good timing has lifted me and I am sure I will get there eventually. You make a really good Guinea Pig ( no offence intended ). I hope you get chance to share this Paul and the girls. SAS Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 18, 2019 Author Share Posted June 18, 2019 Do you mean your antidepressant? How long have you been on them ? I knew I had hit poop out because of the symptoms I had started to experience . Pins and needles in face and feet, anxiety that was different in that I could instantaneously make it worse and if I consciously relaxed it would die down . It was different to my usual anxiety I have had in the past . Also my history is I get depression first followed by anxiety but the real depression didn’t come until a few months after poop out began. Anxiety was the first symptom . Have you experienced windows ? Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 18, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 18, 2019 Before I answer. Are you still feeling good? Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 18, 2019 Author Share Posted June 18, 2019 Give me a brief description of why you started on antidepressant and why you came to be on this site and what’s happening now ? Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 18, 2019 Author Share Posted June 18, 2019 Yes Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 18, 2019 Author Share Posted June 18, 2019 Not as good but good nevertheless i just keep looking over my shoulder Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 18, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 18, 2019 I will answer but you should go and enjoy it please. I hope you feel as good tomorrow but make the most of now. You have already helped on here by posting your success. You know I like talking to you but can't you go see Paul while you feeling good? Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 18, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 18, 2019 Give me, never gets🤣 Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 18, 2019 Author Share Posted June 18, 2019 Nobody not even Paul understands so I try not to speak about it if I do it’s to ian my ex who knows my history Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 18, 2019 Author Share Posted June 18, 2019 Come on you stop diversion tactics Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 18, 2019 Author Share Posted June 18, 2019 Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 18, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 18, 2019 On 6/5/2019 at 5:52 PM, Sassenach said: 1983 botched gall bladder op. First time I was ill in my life. Had to give me blood which we found out almost 20 years later was infected. Virus was dormant for all that time ( had no idea that was possible ) Luckily was only the least worst possible infection but it pretty much left me useless. Reacted badly to everything they tried, I had not even liked taking anadol for headaches as it made me nauseous. Eventually there was only one left which had been linked to two deaths, so I was prescribed Ecitalopram as a precaution. Talk about the cure being worse than the illness.😭 I will answer properly tomorrow, honest but got to check on neighbours now. Sas Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 19, 2019 Author Share Posted June 19, 2019 Hi Sas read this when you posted before are you holding on ad and how’s it going are you stabilising? Do you have anxiety and depression? Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 19, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 19, 2019 Hi LRH I am holding on 5mgs Escitalopram. I thought things were improving about a month ago and have had some windows but the last few weeks have not been great. I certainly do not feel anywhere near being stable ( maybe if I were a horse ) Anxiety and depression not really. The nearest I get to anxiety is palpitations sometimes. I don't really know what depression is, I have never felt like some on here including yourself obviously have. I count myself lucky, you hide it well most of the time, but for some it seems to dominate their life, and of course I have you to cheer me up🤗. Symptoms really started three years ago, the worst is fatigue which has been an issue from 2002 but became much worse, some days my feet feel like lead. Occasionally it will vanish completely and I have muscle power and stamina again, of course it never lasts long. Today has been rough how about you? Really hope the window is still around. 22 hours ago, Longroadhome said: Nobody not even Paul understands Does that mean Paul has not seen the real you? On 6/18/2019 at 2:25 PM, Longroadhome said: it has reminded me of the person ‘I truly am’ Scaryyyyyyyyyy🤣 Have a good evening Sas Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 19, 2019 Author Share Posted June 19, 2019 Hi Sas alas the window faded but it did me good as I keep reading what I wrote in my diary yesterday and thinking “did that really happen?” Yes it did! you can let depression and anxiety dominate your day but I’m finding the less afraid I am of it the quicker it subsides . Not always possible mind but I am getting there and for me the only way is to taper off no matter what . I am very determined. It does sound like you hit poop out doesn’t it ? fatigue seems to be a common problem for so many but the fact you are getting respite from it is very positive. Do you think some of the fatigue is down to your gall bladder problem you were left with ? Im glad I cheer you up that’s good to hear 👂 I’m back in wd today but feeling stronger emotionally. As from yesterday I’ve decreased my pregabalin to 1 x 25mg daily. My intention is to be off it completely by the end of next month. I have not taken it regularly from the start so yes this may have contributed to my symptoms but I’m optimistic I’ll be ok without it. Then from September I’ll start the brass monkey taper with my Paxil until I’m off it completely however long it takes. Has Paul seen the real me ? I’ve been honest about the ad I’ve been on for years and the wd I’m going through. But I think I’m the same as you I don’t like to share how I’m feeling as it somehow makes me feel worse if I voice it. Then I know I’m in a bad place so I can’t go there. I keep it to myself unless it gets unbearable then I may say something along the lines of “it’s a bad day today” . And the nicest thing is a hug in return ha ! The person I am is still inside me as I found out yesterday . I enjoy life, filling my day with interesting things like shopping gym cinema gardening and socialising ! And that’s just the first half of the day !! sorry you’re having a bad day Sas but do remember tomorrow you may very well have a lovely “window” of opportunity. It will happen. LRH Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 20, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 20, 2019 Hi LRH Guess you have been gardening today, come and do mine please Need to go for my tea. Chat tomorrow. Sas Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 21, 2019 Author Share Posted June 21, 2019 Asthenia and chronic fatigue are another common side affect of SSRIs and wd so why not poop out ? What you thinking ? Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 21, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 21, 2019 Stop using big words I don' undersrand. How did you know you had crashed? In a rush will be on 5-7pm. SAS Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 22, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 22, 2019 Hi You've disappeared so off for an adrenaline rush Byeeeeeeeeee Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 23, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 23, 2019 Hi LRH Hope you are ok. SAS Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 23, 2019 Author Share Posted June 23, 2019 Hi Sas have sent you two replies long ones too both Friday have you not received? It was in answer to your questions about poop out? Im in Lincoln this weekend with my mother in law and yes im Ok back in waves but managing, as you do. she’s keeping me occupied in her garden. Weeding !! Hardly my favourite job outdoors. How are you ? Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 23, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 23, 2019 Hi LRH Only got one short one on Friday, checked PMs and email too, nothing. Really sorry if if you spent a long time replying, never happened before on here. Can you resend or are they deleted? I asked you do to my garden but you not even your mum in law's, your ex mum in law's, shows where I am in the pecking order Safe home. Chat soon. Sas Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 25, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 25, 2019 Hi Missing You. Hope you are OK, whatever that means to us😄 SAS Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 25, 2019 Author Share Posted June 25, 2019 3 hours ago, Sassenach said: Hi Missing You. Hope you are OK, whatever that means to us😄 SAS Hi Sas sorry msnager off this week and as predicted just about everything is going wrong printers aren’t working staff going off sick children down with chicken pox and to top it off Georgie has been sick with small blood clots in it so I’m taking her to vets this afternoon how are you? Missing you too Sas LRH Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 25, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 25, 2019 Sorry to hear this LRH Hope Georgie is ok. Try and get some quiet time to yourself. Lots of hugs🤗🤗🤗 SAS Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Longroadhome Posted June 25, 2019 Author Share Posted June 25, 2019 Just come from vets Georgie staying in fir tests and vet asked if she’d had access to rat poison !!! She hasn’t £650 to pay and she only cost me forty quid !!!! Insurance ran out April grrrrrr anyway some good news today Paul’s biopsies show nothing worrying . Inflammation . just waiting on CAT scan results . Sas how are you you’re not answering ? Right back at ya with hugs 🤗 Nov 2018 Pregabalin 2x50 mg a day to help with Paxil WD. Aug 2019 2 x 25mg a day, April 2020 45mg, May 40mg, June 35mg, July 30mg, end July 25mg, Aug 24mg, June 2021 14mg, Jan 2022 14mg (2x7mg a day), Oct 10mg, Nov 5mg, December 25th 2022 0mg 🎈 Oct 2004 - Oct 2018 Paxil 20 mg, Nov 15mg, Dec 10mg, Feb 2019 7.5mg crashed, Feb 8.5mg, Nov 8mg, March 2020 7.2mg, April 6.5mg, May 5.9mg, June 5.4mg, July 4.8mg, Dec 4.5mg, Jan 2021 4mg, Feb 3.6mg, March 3.2mg, April 2.9mg, Aug 2.7mg, Sept 2.4mg, Oct 2.2mg, Nov 2mg, Dec 1.8mg, Feb 2022 1.6mg, March 1.4mg, April 1.2mg, May 1.0mg, June 0.8mg, July 0.6mg, Aug 0.4mg, Sep 0.2mg, October 6th 2022 0mg 🎈 December 25th 2022 drug free these dates are approximate Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted June 25, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 25, 2019 This is my yorkshire coming out, £650 quid for what? The insurance would probably have found a reason not to pay out 😈 But we all know it does not matter what they cost. Great news about Paul, it's not all bad. How am I doing ? OK Ta. Seriously get this week over for both of us and go from there. Have you seen Anna has posted? Have not had time to read properly but does not look great. Was not going to tell you but seemed unfair after you offered so much. Please do not add to your stress though or I will have nobody to be silly with. Sas Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
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