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Sassenach

Thanks LRH

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My other femme fatale. 😕

Toni is a friend from the village who provides canine holiday accomodation while owners are on holiday.

Forwarded as I thought you might like it.

It is really bad news about Rachel.

I don't understand the family dynamic and feel pretty hopeless just now.

Hugs

 

Sas

 

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I am going to try and sit down this weekend and write an email to you if that is ok.

This browser seems to lose part finished content some times.

At least on an email I can save a draft and finish later.

Seem to get continually interrupted on here.🤗

Got to go, have a great weekend.

Don't do anything I wouldn't, but if you do enjoy it😈

 

Sass

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😄Hey you

So much for writing an email have to keep zapping back and forth to see where we left it.

With me apologising for not having time.

Whats the point in another lady in your life if you can't spend time with her? Oops forgot you are no lady😈

How are things at work with the changes you were proposing, all talking about you when they think you are not looking. One of the best bits of being a boss, loved it.

Hope Georgie is getting her coat back, looking like winter here, snow next, someone said me, glass half full,ooooooooops

Bet you have not updated your signature to include the taper. Daren't look back to previous page to check cos it might delete this.

If you have not it is the headmasters office for you.🤣

Why does it take an Irish decorator twice as long to paint the ground floor as it does to do the first floor?

He has to dig a hole to put his ladder in,

what do you call an Irishman with half a brain?

Boris Johnson.

Both told to me by irish friends.

I would ask how you are but I have already put OK in your next reply

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Longroadhome

Hi Sas

ive had some pretty bad days since the decrease in pregabalin but I'm holding and not going back up.  I'll wait to stabilise.

ive tried to change my signature but still can't do it grrr it's not saving.  Need to have a good look I know it's me doh!

we haven't heard anything from Rachel then? What's your thoughts?

only found your message when I logged in I didn't get a nudge.

you are right of course I am no lady ha!!

yeah changes are happening at work and all for the better.  Everything calmer and we are more focused on the job and getting ready for our ofsted inspection which is due any time now.  Ofsted a major thing for me and the nursery as they can ruin you with their reports.  We have to be really on the ball.  If I get a bad report that really affects the 'business'. And anyway I don't do 'bad' reports 😉

Georgies coat growing back nicely though I still look at the patchwork quilt when she sidles past thinking how much it's cost me !! 

But she is still have problems with her gut.  I'm waiting to see how she goes this week and if no better back to the vets.  They said if she does return with the same problem it could mean having an endoscopy.  Fingers crossed it's just tail end of what's been troubling her. 

Ha like the jokes!!!

"I bought  some shoes from a drug dealer.  I don't know what he's laced them with but I've been tripping all day" 

 

" I've been taking Viagra for my sunburn.  It doesn't cure it but it keeps the sheets off my legs at night" 

 

" I got a part in a movie called cocaine.  I only have one line"

 

hope all "ok" with you and you had a nice weekend. 😉

 

 

Just now, Longroadhome said:

Hi Sas

ive had some pretty bad days since the decrease in pregabalin but I'm holding and not going back up.  I'll wait to stabilise.

ive tried to change my signature but still can't do it grrr it's not saving.  Need to have a good look I know it's me doh!

we haven't heard anything from Rachel then? What's your thoughts?

only found your message when I logged in I didn't get a nudge.

you are right of course I am no lady ha!!

yeah changes are happening at work and all for the better.  Everything calmer and we are more focused on the job and getting ready for our ofsted inspection which is due any time now.  Ofsted a major thing for me and the nursery as they can ruin you with their reports.  We have to be really on the ball.  If I get a bad report that really affects the 'business'. And anyway I don't do 'bad' reports 😉

Georgies coat growing back nicely though I still look at the patchwork quilt when she sidles past thinking how much it's cost me !! 

But she is still have problems with her gut.  I'm waiting to see how she goes this week and if no better back to the vets.  They said if she does return with the same problem it could mean having an endoscopy.  Fingers crossed it's just tail end of what's been troubling her. 

Ha like the jokes!!!

"I bought  some shoes from a drug dealer.  I don't know what he's laced them with but I've been tripping all day" 

 

" I've been taking Viagra for my sunburn.  It doesn't cure it but it keeps the sheets off my legs at night" 

 

" I got a part in a movie called cocaine.  I only have one line"

 

hope all "ok" with you and you had a nice weekend. 😉

 

 

By the way my daughters in labour it's going to be my first grandchild.  She's having a girl. 

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1 minute ago, Longroadhome said:

Hi Sas

ive had some pretty bad days since the decrease in pregabalin but I'm holding and not going back up.  I'll wait to stabilise.

ive tried to change my signature but still can't do it grrr it's not saving.  Need to have a good look I know it's me doh!

we haven't heard anything from Rachel then? What's your thoughts?

only found your message when I logged in I didn't get a nudge.

you are right of course I am no lady ha!!

yeah changes are happening at work and all for the better.  Everything calmer and we are more focused on the job and getting ready for our ofsted inspection which is due any time now.  Ofsted a major thing for me and the nursery as they can ruin you with their reports.  We have to be really on the ball.  If I get a bad report that really affects the 'business'. And anyway I don't do 'bad' reports 😉

Georgies coat growing back nicely though I still look at the patchwork quilt when she sidles past thinking how much it's cost me !! 

But she is still have problems with her gut.  I'm waiting to see how she goes this week and if no better back to the vets.  They said if she does return with the same problem it could mean having an endoscopy.  Fingers crossed it's just tail end of what's been troubling her. 

Ha like the jokes!!!

"I bought  some shoes from a drug dealer.  I don't know what he's laced them with but I've been tripping all day" 

 

" I've been taking Viagra for my sunburn.  It doesn't cure it but it keeps the sheets off my legs at night" 

 

" I got a part in a movie called cocaine.  I only have one line"

 

hope all "ok" with you and you had a nice weekend. 😉

 

 

By the way my daughters in labour it's going to be my first grandchild.  She's having a girl. 

My drug signature has changed. Now I just have to wait for Alto ...

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Longroadhome

Thought it was time to write this months update on my symptoms etc and how I'm getting on

 

ive left it until today to write because last week wasn't very good but today I'm having a little window so time to write before the tsunami re appears.

 

symptoms

sense of humour: gone but not forgotten ..

anxiety :  at times unbearable but coping 

little panics but not full blown panic attacks: every day on and off 

depression :  moderate 

muscle spasms:  Mornings in particular. Very painful

akathesia: comes and goes throughout the day (awful)

tinnitus:  all the time and worse this month but doesn't really bother me

insomnia: waking at about 4ish each morning with cortisol spikes dozing thereafter

hip pain : much better this month

dry eyes: getting better

blurry vision: getting better

hot tingly skin: comes on and off during the day

hot flashes and night sweats: better this month but still there

stomach pain: on and off but doesn't bother me

nausea: new this month comes on and off all day but doesn't worry me I eat in-between

pains in body: on and off but doesn't bother me

visual interference: new one. White clouds that descend in my pheriferal vision both eyes outer sides. Doesn't bother me. On and off anytime.

blood blisters under the skin on arms: new one. Well not brand new! I have had this on and off for a period of time and associate it with the AD.  Would like to hear if anyone else gets the same?

headaches: gone (last couple of months anyway)

allergies: getting worse. Pollen etc

numbness in toes and pins and needles in body: numbness there all the time and pins and needles on and off

Tired

there are more but these are the main ones.

 

Things that help

Gym.  Though I am unable to do spin or body pump due to bursitis ( yet another symptom I associate with Wd) as well as pain in my feet ! Short term I'm doing Yoga and aqua aerobics 

walking every day with my dog 🐶 

Completing my daily diary of how I'm doing and my symptoms ( great way of checking miniscule improvements )

Work. Really good for trying to take my mind off me for a short while

Reading success stories

The support I get from moderators.  This site is a life saver

Lovely friendships I have made on this site and the support we give each other

Taking part in life even during difficult days.  Example:  going out to a restaurant with my lovely family

 

Things that don't help

Fixated on negative stories on this site. Keep off.

Thinking I'm going to be like this forever 

Watching people get on with their lives while mine is on hold

 

My diet remains good.  All fresh food lots of fruit and veg and nuts and seeds and oily fish daily. No caffeine no alcohol.  Magnesium supplement 3x100 mg daily.

 

Thought for this month ....

" and if today all you did was hold yourself together, I'm proud of you"

 

 Healing is never linear. Never underestimate the power of positivity

 

 

 

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Sassenach

Hi LRH

 

Just got an email from Rachel.

Telling you now as you're online.

Not read it yet.

Back shortly

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Sassenach

Daughter in labour and you do Viagra joke, only you😮 granny hehe.

Respond tomorrow, hope all the best mum and baby, when she arrives.

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Longroadhome

Ha I’m smiling !!! 

Thank you Sas x 

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DeterminedAnna
56 minutes ago, Longroadhome said:

Thought it was time to write this months update on my symptoms etc and how I'm getting on

 

ive left it until today to write because last week wasn't very good but today I'm having a little window so time to write before the tsunami re appears.

 

symptoms

sense of humour: gone but not forgotten ..

anxiety :  at times unbearable but coping 

little panics but not full blown panic attacks: every day on and off 

depression :  moderate 

muscle spasms:  Mornings in particular. Very painful

akathesia: comes and goes throughout the day (awful)

tinnitus:  all the time and worse this month but doesn't really bother me

insomnia: waking at about 4ish each morning with cortisol spikes dozing thereafter

hip pain : much better this month

dry eyes: getting better

blurry vision: getting better

hot tingly skin: comes on and off during the day

hot flashes and night sweats: better this month but still there

stomach pain: on and off but doesn't bother me

nausea: new this month comes on and off all day but doesn't worry me I eat in-between

pains in body: on and off but doesn't bother me

visual interference: new one. White clouds that descend in my pheriferal vision both eyes outer sides. Doesn't bother me. On and off anytime.

blood blisters under the skin on arms: new one. Well not brand new! I have had this on and off for a period of time and associate it with the AD.  Would like to hear if anyone else gets the same?

headaches: gone (last couple of months anyway)

allergies: getting worse. Pollen etc

numbness in toes and pins and needles in body: numbness there all the time and pins and needles on and off

Tired

there are more but these are the main ones.

 

Things that help

Gym.  Though I am unable to do spin or body pump due to bursitis ( yet another symptom I associate with Wd) as well as pain in my feet ! Short term I'm doing Yoga and aqua aerobics 

walking every day with my dog 🐶 

Completing my daily diary of how I'm doing and my symptoms ( great way of checking miniscule improvements )

Work. Really good for trying to take my mind off me for a short while

Reading success stories

The support I get from moderators.  This site is a life saver

Lovely friendships I have made on this site and the support we give each other

Taking part in life even during difficult days.  Example:  going out to a restaurant with my lovely family

 

Things that don't help

Fixated on negative stories on this site. Keep off.

Thinking I'm going to be like this forever 

Watching people get on with their lives while mine is on hold

 

My diet remains good.  All fresh food lots of fruit and veg and nuts and seeds and oily fish daily. No caffeine no alcohol.  Magnesium supplement 3x100 mg daily.

 

Thought for this month ....

" and if today all you did was hold yourself together, I'm proud of you"

 

 Healing is never linear. Never underestimate the power of positivity

 

 

 

Love love love this. WELL DONE LRH. WELL DONE XXXXXXXX

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Onmyway

LRH,

your thought of the month there brought tears to my eyes!  

Thank you for your positivity on this site and for your support for so many people. I love seeing your progress but even more I love the "doesn't bother me" notes on some of the symptoms. I am inspired to try that as much as I can! 

 

May you be well!

 

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Dejavu
11 hours ago, Longroadhome said:

By the way my daughters in labour it's going to be my first grandchild.  She's having a girl. 

Congrats!! Grandparenthood is just the best thing ever. Enjoy that baby girl!

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Sassenach

Are you a granny yet and they both ok?

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Longroadhome
6 hours ago, Onmyway said:

LRH,

your thought of the month there brought tears to my eyes!  

Thank you for your positivity on this site and for your support for so many people. I love seeing your progress but even more I love the "doesn't bother me" notes on some of the symptoms. I am inspired to try that as much as I can! 

 

May you be well!

 

Hello there Onmyway!

thank you for your reply! 

It’s so very hard going through this that I want to be able to look back one day when I’m recovered and read my journey as so many say it’s a blur when they get to the other side. 

What’s your story ?

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Longroadhome
5 hours ago, Dejavu said:

Congrats!! Grandparenthood is just the best thing ever. Enjoy that baby girl!

Thank you Dejavu

she arrived early hours this morning . They haven’t named her yet . 6lb 14oz. 

Ive waited so long to be a grandparent . 

Im going to the hospital today to say hello to my granddaughter :) 

“granddaughter” . That’s brought a smile to my face !! 

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54 minutes ago, Sassenach said:

Are you a granny yet and they both ok?

Morning Sas ..

YES I’m a granny 

botn early hours this morning not sure of time yet !

6lb 14oz. 

Both fine but daughter very tired it’s been a long few days. 

I’m  going up the hospital today so I’ll send you a photo later.

how are you I hope the brain fog has lifted.

it’s really funny because I always forget to write that as a symptom each month because I’ve had it for years and never associated it with my use of antidepressants until now. 

Im going to write s thread shortly because there are so many symptoms I have had while on antidepressants that I thought were  “just me” that were there long term or came on and off and it’s only now that I’m going through WD And have had them  that I realise the association. 

Hope your day is good and productive 

take care speak later 

your friend LRH x

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Sassenach

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay Great news.

Enjoy the day.

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Hi Granny😈 ( bet you will soon get sick of this. Will I stop???????????

Have not replied to your thread as I thought you might be distracted today for some reason.

Do we have a name yet?

Hugs to Gran-ma, oh there are so many words for it.😇

The emojis, Beach Boys, which title?

 

Sass

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Sassenach

PS why aren't babies metric, everything else is?

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Sassenach

Have you got the baby blues👶

Hope you are OK.

 

Hugs

 

Sass

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Longroadhome
On 7/9/2019 at 6:11 PM, Sassenach said:

PS why aren't babies metric, everything else is?

You’re right never thought of that !!

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Longroadhome
1 hour ago, Sassenach said:

Have you got the baby blues👶

Hope you are OK.

 

Hugs

 

Sass

Hi Sas

up hospital again today can’t keep away .

they are home tomorrow and only live 5 min walk away so I’ll be round helping whenever I’m needed . 

Im better today than yesterday so yeah im

OL thank you 😊 

are you ok ? 

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Sassenach

Ok I get the message😢

 

Hugs

 

Sass

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Longroadhome

And the message is ? 

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Sassenach

Tiny packages better than large ones and droo🤣py bits

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Longroadhome
52 minutes ago, Sassenach said:

Tiny packages better than large ones and droo🤣py bits

 🤔 ...

well I don’t know about you but I’m ready for the weekend it’s been a very long week with my granddaughter arriving !

how has your week been Sas? 

Paul has decided to take himself off to Palma for the week to do some painting (oil and pastels) and mill and dame staying with me . 

I have one or two pieces of his round my house. His living room is full of his canvas work . 

Whats on for the weekend for you Sas busy or relaxing 😎

Big hugs right back 

LRH

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Sassenach

Hi

 

No I was not ready for the weekend, had a good week so knew what had to happen  today, particularly as my baby bro'☹️ is over from Ireland tomorrow.

I felt jealous when I got the pics😈 never going to know what that feels like.  Awwwwwwww poor Sass.

Paul, coals to Newcastle ( not under Lyme ) it is red hot here. Are you sure he is not running away? Naw he would miss your humour,  the sense you do not have.

Must be nice to be artistic, hopelessly practical me.

Have a good weekend and I hope the Ofsted thing goes well if they descend next week.

Hugs to everyone, maybe not the baby yet. I am too clumsy.

 

Sass

 

PS cant keep calling the baby,  she must have a name by now.

Tell you a story about a dog called " If " sometime.

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2 hours ago, Sassenach said:

Hi

 

No I was not ready for the weekend, had a good week so knew what had to happen  today, particularly as my baby bro'☹️ is over from Ireland tomorrow.

I felt jealous when I got the pics😈 never going to know what that feels like.  Awwwwwwww poor Sass.

Paul, coals to Newcastle ( not under Lyme ) it is red hot here. Are you sure he is not running away? Naw he would miss your humour,  the sense you do not have.

Must be nice to be artistic, hopelessly practical me.

Have a good weekend and I hope the Ofsted thing goes well if they descend next week.

Hugs to everyone, maybe not the baby yet. I am too clumsy.

 

Sass

 

PS cant keep calling the baby,  she must have a name by now.

Tell you a story about a dog called " If " sometime.

Why long face didn’t you want a visit from him ? 

I know I’m lucky to have a grandchild . Her name is Amalie. My sister  has 9 . 

Ive  called again today fed and changed her and done the ironing and watered the outdoor plants 🌱 I’m cooking for them all tomorrow plus my son and his partner a nice Sunday roast . 

think Paul has gone to Palma because of my granddaughters arrival and maybe lack of attention you know what you men are like !!! 

And what’s the story about the dog called “if”? 

LRH x 

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Hi LRH

 

Been trying to write this all weekend but constantly interrupted by notifications, so switched off for now.

I lose over 60 children to school so it’s alwsys a time of year I start to stress regarding replacing the leavers.

If you keep losing them not surprised you are stressed:rolleyes: it's the parents I feel sorry for.

On 7/13/2019 at 8:12 PM, Longroadhome said:

think Paul has gone to Palma because of my granddaughters arrival and maybe lack of attention you know what you men are like !!!

I have no idea what you mean. I bet you believe in man flu!!!!!!!!!!!!

We had a great day with my brother. Saturday was a bad day for me after a good week.

So thought sunday might be bad and spoil the day. Luckily I felt good on the day.

On 7/13/2019 at 8:12 PM, Longroadhome said:

And what’s the story about the dog called “if”?

When I was showing Rough Collies we took a pick of litter in lieu of a stud fee.

Puppy arrived at 8 weeks old but for various reasons we did not get round to naming him quickly.

As you know puppies can be a handful but this one was something else.

He was always in mischief and kept being told.

If you not stop that-------------

If you don't behave----------

Started to recognise IF so it became his name.

Got some interesting responses from judges over the years when using his name in the ring.

It was a bit ironic he had such a short name because the full one was:

Wenderdebs Mr IF of Aberhill at Jansten 🤔

I think I still have a photo of him winning his first Challenge Certificate as puppy.

"IF" I have will send a copy.

Are you intending to start tapering now you are off Pregbalin?

 

Hugs to all three generations and furry friend.

I miss our regular exchanges and your determination and strength.

 

Sassenach

 

PS. Rachel PMed Ruthmcg to say she needed to stay off the site for the moment.

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Hi Sas! 

Weekend here was busy as usual and a trip up the hospital due to water infection ! So that was my weekend up the Swany! 

Ha yes I would be stressed losing 60 children. I used to get upset when they were going because you form such an attachment when you have them from babies through to pre school but over the years I’ve hardened (in a nice way ) and I enjoy how much they have achieved while in our care so im

proud to send them off to ‘big school” with a head start . 

Yes I believe in man flu. Why; because it’s reall !! 😜 

great that you had a good day with your brother . Wd is so unpredictable so it’s good that someone up there was looking out for you . 

Sounds like yr having quite a few good days which is great 👍

You seem to have made a lovely hobby of showcasing your dogs in the ring . Thank goodness you shortened his name . Well I bet he was the only dog called “if” and yes I would love to see a piccy of him . 

 

I have just started the Brass Monkey 10% reduction  taper. 

Symptoms not good at the moment. the way I figure it is I was in poop out so stability for me if I go real slow will come on the way down at some point . Hopefully. 

Thank you for your hugs I will pass them on :)

I miss our exchanges but always look out for you and your lovely replies to those in need that first hit the site. 

Big hugs Sas x take care 

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You will always be special catch you later

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Longroadhome

@Altostrata  I hope you will be able to help me with a question I have.

i decreased pregabalin I was taking from 3x25mg daily  to 1x25mg daily from April to July 2019, going down 25mg each month.  I was only on 2x50mg from November 2018 to January 2019 and from January 3x25mg until April.  I have been on 25mg for 4 weeks and I think I'm either getting symptoms from cutting my dose or it is no longer masking my Seroxat wd symptoms.

i am currently on 8.1mg seroxat having tapered too fast holding until yesterday from Feb this year.  Yesterday I commenced the brass monkey sliding taper.

i do not wish to go back up on the pregabalin but would contemplate increasing the 25mg tablet by 10% as you advice if this would quell the symptoms i am having .

these being increased anxiety and depression, very itchy skin, burning skin and increased tinnitus and vertigo as well as bad stomach cramps.  All either came on or increased just after the last drop of pregabalin exactly 4 weeks ago.

i know that you are going to say I tapered too fast but I was not taking this medication consistently and was only put on it in November 2018 to help with wd from seroxat.

will the symptoms fade if I remain consistent with the medication as it is or do you think a 10% increase would help?

 

here is a two day symptom pattern for you to see:

 

18/07/19

6am     woke up slept quite well woke on and off. 7 hrs. Cortisol spike on waking for approx 10 mins. Vertigo on rising

8am     Seroxat 8.4mg feeling anxious (tense, edgy, fast heart etc)

9am      Work.  feel very anxious and depressed.  Stomach cramps 

9.15am breakfast 100mg magnesium

10am     25mg pregabalin

1pm.     Costa coffee decaf  light headed and anxious and depressed. Lunch 100mg magnesium

4pm       visit to solicitor      Anxious

4:45pm.  Home feeling calmer. Stomach cramps and itchy skin

5:15pm  walked Georgie my dog. Calm

7pm.       Partners house. Dinner. 100mg magnesium. Calm but stomach cramps

 

 

 

19/07/19

 

6am   Woke up.  Good sleep 😴 Cortisol spike lasted about 7-10mins.  Vertigo on rising

7am.   Showered feeling flat

8am.   8.4mg seroxat

9am.   Work.  Breakfast.  100mg magnesium.   Anxiety symptoms as above. Depression and ruminating thoughts 

10am. 25mg pregabalin

11am.   Hospital visit with partner.  Felt quite calm. Stomach cramps

1pm.    Met friend for coffee and lunch .  Feeling anxious.  100mg magnesium

5pm.    Walked Georgie .  Feeling calm

6:15pm. At daughters house.  Feeling nervous and horrible feelings of tingly skin

7pm.      Showered this is when itchy skin is really bad.  It started on my arm three weeks ago now all over

8pm.     At partners house.  Dinner.  100 mg magnesium .  Feeling calmer. Stomach cramps

10pm.   Bed

 

 Thank you for your continued support

LRH

 

 

 

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Sassenach

Typical, don't ask me😈

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Longroadhome
42 minutes ago, Sassenach said:

Typical, don't ask me😈

Ha

 

42 minutes ago, Sassenach said:

Typical, don't ask me😈

;) 

I’m  listening 👂 what should I do ? 

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Sassenach

How the hell would I know, only a junior ( ancient ) mod.

1 hour ago, Longroadhome said:

Showered this is when itchy skin is really bad.  It started on my arm three weeks ago now all ove

No wonder, 2 showers a day, once a month enough for anybody, Phawwwww what' that smell😎

I should be serious. I am sorry you are having it rough but you asked the right person.

Hope you feel better tomorrow.

Lots of hugs, if you can bear them.

 

Sass

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