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GonnaBeOk

My precious boys are 21 and 23. They both live out of state since attending college (one is newly married and staying out of state), and I’ve always looked forward to this time in our lives when my husband and I could enjoy their young adult and later adult years with them—traveling to spend time with them as well as enjoying our empty nest years together. Then I recently went through hell severe protracted withdrawal and all those dreams are dashed. I am unable to travel due to horrific symptoms and I know that grandkids will be in our near-ish future. I’ll be missing our son’s nursing school graduation in a few weeks due to my condition. I fear that my relationship with my new daughter in law and grandkids will be limited to FaceTime. My nervous system is quite severely compromised, and I am essentially housebound and often bedbound. I’m only 52. Can anyone relate? I am grieving because I know I have a very long road ahead of me and I miss my kids. We are all very close, but they are living their lives and I’m missing what could have been. I’m a Christian and I know that God is in control of all things, but the many losses due to withdrawal are heartbreaking. Just needed to vent. 😕


2002-ish-April 2018: Prozac 40mg (was on 20mg for many of those years); Jan-April 2018: too fast "taper" off Prozac

 

July 2018: Tried lowest dose dose Lexapro for 3 weeks; quick tapered off; Aug-Nov. 2108: Ambien and Ambien CR for sleep (appx 10 total doses). Made depression worse and did not work; Nov 2018: 7 doses .5mg Ativan for sleep over 12 days time. Stopped.

December 2018: One week Remeron for sleep. Did not work or help. "Tapered" off over a few weeks.

In past years also took/tried Wellbutrin, Seroquel, Klonopin, Paxil; Current supplements: 1 mg Melatonin; Transdermal magnesium; Fish oil; Ketotifen (mast cell stabilizer), vitamin C; milk peptides 

March 26, 2019: Re-instated  0.5mg Prozac; April 15, 2019 Started 0.75mg Prozac May 6 2019: 1mg Prozac; May 27: 1.25mg Prozac; July 29,  2019: Began 1.25mg Lamotrigine

 

 

 

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thecowisback

i know how you feel. i find it hard to travel with all this going on and visiting family is possible for me but takes a lot of willpower. i'm sure you will be able to visit them in the future when you're feeling better. i know it's easier said than done but try not to focus too much on what you can't do for now. face-time is better than no contact at all and you need to put your energy into getting better, not worrying about things that are beyond your control for now. it won't always be like this and i'm sure your kids understand. i keep beating myself up over the effect my withdrawals have had on the family but it doesn't serve any purpose. 

you will get better and there are plenty of years ahead for you to enjoy being with your kids. for now just concentrate on yourself xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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thecowisback

i should say i can empathise with how you feel, not i know how you feel as your withdrawals are so much worse than mine 😢


Took prozac 40 mg for 20 years.

January 2017 started cutting down prozac by 12.5% a week. End of February 2017 completely off prozac and withdrawals began.

Currently taking Levothyroxine 75 mcg, Magnesium citrate 200mg,Sage leaf 50mg daily

Amlodipine: October 2017 , discontinued 26 Feb 2019; Candesartan:  26 Feb 2019, 4mg.

Discontinued magnesium citrate 200mg Apr 3rd 2019

Reinstated prozac:  14 Jan 2019, 1mg; 26 Jan, 1.5mg; 4 Feb, 2mg; 16 Feb, 2.5mg; 2 Mar, 3mg; 5 Mar, 2.5mg, 23 Mar, 3 mg; 6 Apr, 3.5mg, 14 Apr 4mg, 23 Apr 5mg

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Katy398

I can really identify with you @GonnaBeOk I have one son planning to go away to uni and that terrifies me and my other son planning to never leave home which also terrifies me. Life’s challenges are  so much more intense in WD.

Hang on in there everyone, we have to get better.

Kx


 

Lexapro Fast Track/ Cold Turkey

Last dose end Dec 2018 

Tapered 1/2 a daily dose a week (20mg) for  14 weeks, last dose was a 20 mg pill!!  

 3.5 times slower than Psychiatrist recommended, I felt proud of myself!! Little did I know!!!!Got too scared to reinstate because I’d left it too long.

On ADs for 20 years (Prozac approx 10 years/ Pristiq approx 3 years/ Citalipram approx 2 years/. Lexapro a approx  5 years/. Last two years 40mgs Lexapro day.

 

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Pleasehelpme4

@GonnaBeOk I am praying for you! Im a christian aswell and it is God's sovereignty in my life that has kept me going. If you ever need a support friend you can PM me. I know how you feel about losses. These WD symptoms can make it to where even when you are with the people you love, you dont feel connected and meaningful. For me it is so hard to look at the woman I love and am going to propose to soon, and not feel anything. What has helped me though is know that Jesus has suffered with us. He knows what it is like. He knows what it is like to have his father turn his face from him on the cross and lose that connection. Keep leaning into Jesus. He loves you so much. 💚

 


2014 - April 2019 150mg Fluvoxamine ER 

Fast taper beginning in April 2019 and ending in June 2019

Off Fluvoxamine for 6 weeks with severe WD.

12 mg of Ambien xr for insomnia.

After 6 weeks reinstated fluvoxamine 150mg Aug 2019 - December 2019

Jan 2020 able to get off Ambien and started slow taper to get of Fluvoxamine but taper was not slow enough. 10% reduction every week. still experiencing WD from first attempt.

March 2020 switch to 75mg Effexor xr

April 2020 37.5mg Effexor xr, bridged to Trintellix, and now off Effexor

 

4/25/2020 5mg Trintellix

 

 

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