Everyone here is a freak, just like me

[GiaK]

Organic trauma therapy: Ecstatic dance as profound mindfulness practice
https://beyondmeds.com/2019/06/30/freak-just-like-me/

I’m healing multiple brain injuries and a rather extreme trauma history. Dance helps with both.
 

A few months ago someone at the end of one of our dances said, *Everyone here is a freak, just like me.*  The room broke up in laughter because, indeed, we’re all freaks just like him and we get to come together and celebrate that fact in safety. There really are no words to express what happens there on that floor and yet, that is what I’m intending to do here today. Speak what happens on that magical dance floor. I warn you, I will fail. If you really want to know what goes on I highly recommend finding your local Ecstatic Dance scene and experiencing the wonder for yourself.
 

Dance and movement in general has been my most important tools for healing. Dancing can be used as a tool to learn how to live well. Also, it’s not limited to those who can be on their feet. We can do it seated or even laying down if we have to. Just move to the music and feel it. I have spent an entire dance on the floor nodding my head and shaking my legs around on days I’ve not been strong enough to be on my feet.

 

Dancing is a practice and discipline as well as also just plain fun. There is no need to think about any of this for most people. Just showing up and having a good time is plenty.
 

The ecstatic aspect can be light or dark. People might cry either in despair or in joy on the dance floor. Anything goes. You can curl up in the fetal position in a corner and cry or leap as high as you can while running about in circles. Men and women both can let their internal 5 year old ballerina out on the floor and there is nothing more beautiful than watching that happen among adults. I have spent time sitting cross-legged in meditation or laying on my back with my feet up the wall, too. Feeling the vibrations of dancing feet and loud music while lying flat on the floor is quite nice too and then ventures into sound healing which is equally powerful to dance in my opinion.
 

The dance practice involves letting the body do what it wants to do. All while wonderful music pulsates around us as well.  It’s a liberating and lovely celebration every single time I partake and that holds true whether I’m in a good mood or not because this is a place where any mood is okay. It’s a safe and beautiful space to feel and emote as we need to among others who allow for that which is human to unfold to music and movement.
 

The dance floor has been container to some of my most profound trauma healing I’ve been privileged to experience. It’s hard to explain how that happens because it also often involves other dancers while never communicating via speech. A lot of much more profound communication happens in our body movements. We see the stories of others being enacted right there on the dance floor even while we enact our own stories via the movements of our body.  The language of energetics just happens and the trauma release just happens too…sometimes while laughing and/or crying too. I am finding that I still don’t know how to articulate what is happening and so I’ll just say, that, yes, there is something frankly magical about how it works.
 

I can feel both dance and music changing and healing my brain’s neurons. Seriously. We can change our brains and I’m doing it. Neuroplasticity. There is a multitude of ways to heal. My self-directed protocol involves many different things and amounts to learning to live well in all ways at all times. A seamless integration of all the things we do to support ourselves.
 

If your nervous system goes into overdrive very easily as mine did for so many years it’s very important to listen very intently to the body so that we don’t overdo it. I know a lot of folks recovering from psychiatric drug use and withdrawal are in similar conditions so I share my strategies that you, too, might learn to ask for what you need and start to create safe spaces for yourselves as I am learning to do. I’m so grateful to have found so many lovely people in my community that are willing to help support my rehabilitation process. I needed to ask, though, to find them.

 

Dancing brings the most joyous and wonderful moments of my life as I continue to heal. When one surrenders to the energy on the dance floor one is swept away with everyone else….dancing from this trance state is a miracle every time as your body leads the way doing things you didn’t even know it could do. (and when it doesn’t come easy — because no, it doesn’t always come easy for me either, we just do what does come easy, that day. No rules. No right or wrong.) If we do feel insecure that part of us needs tender love and care too, so there is no reason to push if this particular form isn’t for you. Trust your instincts.
 

This is a joyous and ecstatic form of movement meditation…one of these waves can stay with me all week…as if I received an information download of sorts during the dance that is then processed later…healing at every turn…
 

Moving in many different ways has become and will remain a foundational aspect of becoming well for me. I do yoga, I walk, I dance, I garden, I do qi gong and I am mindfully present with the movements of my body when I do just about everything. Even when I do the dishes, laundry or any other household chores. Becoming conscious of our incredibly lovely animal bodies can be a deep and profound joy.
 

Ecstasy is not overstating the wonder of listening to and moving your body in this attentive and meditative trance-like state.

see more posts on this: Ecstatic Dance

More on trauma and post traumatic stress

https://beyondmeds.com/2019/06/30/freak-just-like-me/

 

Edited June 30, 2019 by ChessieCat
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[JackieDecides]

2 hours ago, GiaK said:

If your nervous system goes into overdrive very easily as mine did for so many years it’s very important to listen very intently to the body so that we don’t overdo it.

 

the dancing sounds wonderful - I searched in meetups and the closest is in California, so a couple states away. 

 

but it sounds very high energy? I find I have trouble with music that is anything but classical or soft jazz these days.  luckily, that's temporary. 

 

thank you for sharing this! 

[GiaK]

 

On 6/30/2019 at 8:04 PM, JackieDecides said:

 

the dancing sounds wonderful - I searched in meetups and the closest is in California, so a couple states away. 

 

but it sounds very high energy? I find I have trouble with music that is anything but classical or soft jazz these days.  luckily, that's temporary. 

 

thank you for sharing this! 

Hi, sorry, I don't think ever saw this .... so yes, dance is often high energy but generally the music starts really gentle and then works its way up to a chaos and then back down to stillness...that's called a wave...it's got everything. If I can't deal with the noise I don't go...right. That still happens...but sometimes letting the music move me while my body stays still is excellent medicine too...it's a learning process...I don't go unless it feels right. There was a two year period after dancing for 2 years that I couldn't go at all...now I go again. The only discipline I practice is listening to my body...so that takes precedence. Only my body know when and if I'm going to show up on any given day.