☼ xDebbiejo

[Skyler]

Not sure I'm posting this question in the correct place !

 

Just was wondering why I am not getting email notifications anymore when a post is relied to. ???????

 

Thank you xx

 

Hi Debbie.. I used to get notifications when posts were replied to but no longer. I do get notification for PMs, but not when messages are left in the forum... not sure why?

[xDebbiejo]

I do tick the box to receive notifications. :/

 

I much prefer to receive notification because I get behind on posts and I need a reminder lol

[Skyler]

I do tick the box to receive notifications. :/

 

I much prefer to receive notification because I get behind on posts and I need a reminder lol

 

Same here, I checked the box and do not get notifications.

[Altostrata]

In My Settings, make sure you have your Notification Options checked off, click the Save button at the bottom.

 

To get e-mail notifications for a topic, click the big blue Watch Topic button at the top right of the topic.

 

See http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/246-how-to-use-this-site-questions-and-answers/

[xDebbiejo]

Thanks alto

 

But, I have lost all the topics I was following and don't want people to think I'm ignoring them.

 

I will have a look when I'm on my pc

 

Debbie x

[xDebbiejo]

Just found my notifications in my spam folder, maybe yours are in there too skyler, new name.

 

I hope everyones ok, or as well as can be expected on this not wanted journey.

 

Sorry Ive not been around for a while, not in a good place at present, feel like running off and leaving them all to it so maybe I could have a life. But, of course I wouldnt.

 

I am getting very snappy and abrupt lately with my family and my work. I really dont know whats come over me as it is so unlike me to behave this way. At least Im noticing these changes in me! I have a lot going on so maybe its stress.

 

I did forget to take my meds 3 days last week due to unsociable working hours, how stupid! I am forgetting things in general.

 

My Son is 17 next month and is becoming more obsructive if he doesnt get his own way, he bangs and slams things around and causing damage to my property which I'm holding onto by the skin of my teeth. My ex and kids dad is meant to be moving back at the end of Jan but dont know if I can handle it. His Dad moans at him all the time and then gives in to him, such a mess. My Son is such a worry at present Im not sure what to do.

 

So sorry to go on but I think i need to get it all out!

 

I often posted about my fuzzy head feeling and the pressure I sometimes felt on my head and thought it WD symptoms.

I have this weird lump growing along the top of my head in the middle, its kind of a ridge with a dent either side.

 

I have been to the doctors several times as they kept telling me it must have always been there and its the shape of my head.The third time I went I demanded they check it out as I know my own head shape and it was not this shape 8 weeks ago.

 

They sent me for an ultra sound which showed that it was not my head shape(not bone)but something growing but did not know what. I have now been sent to a dermatologist as they say its attached to the inside of my scalp. I have to wait untill the 18th feb for this appointment though. No one has seen anything like it before, thats what they say anyway.

 

Ive looked all over the internet trying to find info without success. I feel its this thing in my head that has been causing the heady tingling pressure and now headaches on waking in the morning.I also get this dull headache when its been examined or I prod it. It sometimes now tingles down the left side of my face.

 

Just wondering if anyone has come accross anything simular.

 

I need to be positve which is quite difficult at the moment but then again it is probably due to lack of sleep and no walking.

 

I do know what I have to do so I have to find the motivation to do it!

 

Oh what a negative post! So sorry but now I seem to feel a little better

 

Much love and healing to all

 

Debbie x

[Skyler]

I did forget to take my meds 3 days last week due to unsociable working hours, how stupid! I am forgetting things in general.

Try not to forget as the 'fallout' can linger for weeks. I did this once... yikes. Be good to yourself mon ami.

 

My Son is 17 next month and is becoming more obsructive if he doesnt get his own way, he bangs and slams things around and causing damage to my property which I'm holding onto by the skin of my teeth. My ex and kids dad is meant to be moving back at the end of Jan but dont know if I can handle it. His Dad moans at him all the time and then gives in to him, such a mess. My Son is such a worry at present Im not sure what to do.

Merdre.. he is giving you a run for it. Your ex is moving back, does that mean to your area of the planet or in with you? Either would be complicating, but the latter... wow! And with closer proximity, the differences in your parenting styles will become more problematic. I hope your ex sees the light!

 

I often posted about my fuzzy head feeling and the pressure I sometimes felt on my head and thought it WD symptoms.

I have this weird lump growing along the top of my head in the middle, its kind of a ridge with a dent either side.

 

They sent me for an ultra sound which showed that it was not my head shape(not bone)but something growing but did not know what.

 

Ive looked all over the internet trying to find info without success. I feel its this thing in my head that has been causing the heady tingling pressure and now headaches on waking in the morning.I also get this dull headache when its been examined or I prod it. It sometimes now tingles down the left side of my face.

 

Just wondering if anyone has come across anything similar.

This is awful. Keep us advised. Rant away!!!

[xDebbiejo]

"Merdre.. he is giving you a run for it. Your ex is moving back, does that mean to your area of the planet or in with you? Either would be complicating, but the latter... wow! And with closer proximity, the differences in your parenting styles will become more problematic. I hope your ex sees the light!"

 

Dont think he will ever see the light skyler thats why he had to leave in the first place - I know I feel im doing the wrong thing but I keep thinking I can keep my house if there are two incomes.

 

All the wrong reasons, such a mess!

 

Thanks for your reply Skyler- do hope you are well!

[Altostrata]

Good for you, you insisted the doctors take a good look at that lump, Debbiej.

 

It probably will turn out to be nothing serious. Please let us know what happens.

[xDebbiejo]

Yep sure will especially now I've found my notifications

 

Thanks Alto

[xDebbiejo]

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!

[Karma]

Happy New Year to you as well Debbiejo.

 

It is likely that the growth on your scalp is benign ... but as it grows it may be causing pressure on nerves and that could result in some of the sensations you're feeling ... the headaches, too. My brother had something like this on his neck - my niece convinced him to see a doctor and it was easily removed. I believe it was actually an outpatient procedure. (US health care system vs. UK health care system).

 

As for the ex moving back ... perhaps you can set some clear boundaries and make some agreements about parenting to prevent upsets down the road. Just a thought, better to have a plan going in.

 

Wishing you a happy, healthy new year.

 

Love and light,

Karma

[strawberry17]

Happy new year to you too Debbiejo, sorry to hear you're having a troubled time though.

[xDebbiejo]

Thanks karma & strawberry.

 

I do feel more positive now and more proactive, I've decided I have no choice but to be lol.

 

Again a lot if it must come down to the missed doses, spins me out if control.

 

Feel a little more grounded now and clearer in my mind to make decisions.

 

It's agreed that I will do the parenting and ex keeps out of it but I need to have a jolly good go at it.

 

Thank you for the advice and kind comments, it is so much appreciated

 

Debbie x

[Nikki]

Hi Debbiejo....

 

Please don't judge yourself harshly for having your ex move back in. Many people have had to do this in the last three years.

 

Hugs

[tezza]

Hi Debbiejo,

 

I'm sorry to hear about your struggles recently.

 

Teenagers can induce much stress and worry. I hope things get better with your son and that things go well when your ex moves back in.

 

Happy New Year,

T

[xDebbiejo]

Thank you Nikki and Tezza for your kind replies

 

Im happy to hear youre feeling better Tezza!

 

I do hope youre well too Nikki

 

Debbie x

[xDebbiejo]

Hi all

 

Just to keep you posted on this weird ridge growing on my head.

 

I did have an appointment at the hospital referred by my GP for dermatology. They have now cancelled this appointment due to the consultant stating it is not for his department.

 

I have given the cancelation letter to my surgery and waiting to hear from my GP. It states in the letter my GP has been informed, but not according to the receptionist.

 

So basically, back to square 1.

 

I have been reading through posts, so many of us have ups and downs with the added pressure of everyday life

 

I wish us all more ups than downs !

 

I have not been having my reiki lately as have not had the time to drive there.

 

I have been doing more of mindfulness meditation tho and for some reason it works, I think, it helps me feel better and helps to keep me calm. Just have to keep doing it.

 

Thank you all for the help and support

 

Debbie x

[xDebbiejo]

Hi everyone

 

Sorry I've been away from this site so long

 

So many new people on here.

 

I've been dealing with a lot of issues far to many to go in to.

 

I do hope everyone is ok ! All the new people, I hope you find help and support like I did on this site. This site iwas a lifesaver for me.

 

I'm not experiencing psyical symptoms any longer but do feel in a kind of rut. No motivation what so ever but I guess that's down to willpower.

 

Searching through the posts to see how you all are but no recent posts like myself. Just hope everyone is doing well!

 

Debbie x

[strawberry17]

Hi Debbie, nice to hear from you, I remember you!

[xDebbiejo]

Thanks Strawberry

 

I still read your FB page

 

Hope you're ok x

[strawberry17]

Nice to know someone reads it

 

When you have more time update us on how you're doing!

[tezza]

Hi Debbie,

 

I've thought about you and wondered how you're doing! I'm glad you posted and glad the physical symptoms are gone.

 

I totally understand the lack of motivation. I have some at times, other times not. I sometimes feel like a nut, too.

 

There's a lot going on in my life, mown too; therefore, I haven't posted a lot lately, either.

 

Hopefully, things will calm down for both of us soon!

 

It's good to hear from you!

[Jemima]

Hi, Debbie!

 

I've thought of you from time to time and wondered how you were doing. Glad to hear the physical withdrawal symptoms are gone, but don't be hard on yourself about the lack of motivation. That, too, is part of withdrawal and has nothing much to do with willpower. If you're able to get yourself going by sheer determination, more power to you, but it doesn't work for me.

 

I've been off the Lexapro going on eighteen months now, but my emotions aren't quite back to normal yet. I've had big windows of feeling pretty good, but it's still the windows and waves pattern. I'm hoping that I'll be back to my old self in a few more months.

 

Do keep in touch!

[xDebbiejo]

Hi all

It's good to hear things are better for some of you!

I seem to have down days and now have realised when I have loads to do the depression bit kicks in and never catch up completely but when several tasks are done I begin to feel better.

 

I get behind due to my workload then feel too tired to do anything.

 

BUT if I hadn't found this site I would be so much worse.

Still have the worry of finding another home and trying to keep this one so I don't have to find another.

 

I'm still trying to practice "the power of now" but keep forgetting. Being a bit slack on the meditation which is really silly of me as it so helps the busy mind be free.

 

Always too much to do at mo very hectic but must find time for meditation.

 

I'm on 1.8 ml of seroxat now doing a very slow withdrawal....

 

Sorry for not being so active on this site... I will try to be from now on as I could be of help to some newer people

 

All the best

 

Lots of love

 

Debbie x

[xDebbiejo]

Hello all

 

I've not been here for quite a while now and found the site to be updated and can't quite remember how to use it.

I've had a terrible year trying to actually stay in my home but now have lost the fight and am moving into rented accommodation next week.

 

I am now down to .5 mil of seroxat no depression really only the odd days, then anxiety is better but still get anxious sometimes but am extremely worried about my temper and lose it very easily and resorted to throwing things which is not me at all ???? most of this is because of my 18 year old son thinking he can do what ever he wants and has no respect for family members. He is smoking weed and have often come home from work with the house stinking of the stuff.

 

I'm wondering if I should up my dose of seroxat as I'm sure this is the reason I'm not controlling my temper well

 

Any help would be greatly appreciated as I feel I'm turning into some kind of mad women

 

Love to all

 

Debbie x

[Rhiannon]

Hi Debbie, good to see you again!

 

You're under a lot of stress--losing your home, plus whatever led up to that, plus moving, plus a teenager being a normal teenage jerk. It is no wonder to me at all that you're losing your temper, for heaven's sake! I would certainly be losing mine, and probably over much less! There is nothing medically wrong with you. You're a human being reacting in a very normal, typical, healthy emotional way to a very difficult situation and a ton of stress, grief, disappointment, stress, pain, and stress.

 

What you need is not a pill to fix you. What you need is a sane, supportive, compassionate society that takes care of its members and doesn't force people to go through what you're going through.  Humans evolved living in tribes where we all worked together for the mutual care and survival of everyone in the tribe; we're not designed for this modern dog-eat-dog kind of world.

 

But given that you're stuck here, I think you should give yourself a huge pat on the back for surviving this past couple of years (WOW!) AND tapering (WOW WOW!). And then I think you should cut yourself a huge slice of slack. (Is that just an American expression? cut yourself some slack?) So you're angry. So you're grumpy. So you're throwing things. So you maybe yell and holler and maybe you're irrational. Have you started threatening people with the kitchen knives yet? I think you would have mentioned that, so I'm going to say "no."

 

It's okay to be human! Millions of teenagers' moms yell and throw things every day, all over the world, I am pretty sure!

 

Now, I do agree that this is not the time to be tapering, and if you've made any cuts recently, and you think you'd like to unmake them and adjust your dose back up a wee bit, there's nothing wrong with that. Just don't change it so much that you end up causing more destabilization and making yourself feel even worse, because that's the last thing you need right now.

 

And to whatever extent you can take care of yourself--beat your bed with a pillow while you holler and let off steam, tear up a phone book, heck smash a plate if you don't mind the cleanup, and also do the more usual things like go for walks, eat a good diet as much as possible, get a massage--do those things.

 

Girl, sometimes life sucks, and you know what? you are allowed to go a little mad from time to time. We all do it. Heaven knows you have good cause. 

[Rhiannon]

(And sometimes Mom really losing it is what it takes to actually get a teenager's attention. Who knows, right?)

[xDebbiejo]

Thank you Rhi

 

For your kind and logical reply

 

You are so right and have given me hope as my son seems to have changed his attitude somewhat after going crazy at him.

I'm not really speaking to him much at the moment as this seems to make him more respectful. The minute I start to be nice to him as in past experiences the less respect he has for me.... Very strange

 

I have not resorted to kitchen knives etc lol but am sometimes worried what comes out my mouth when losing it as its not me and it just happens before I can even think and don't seem to have any control.

 

I am going through a stressful time at the mo with moving etc and I guess that it makes it worse as I really don't want to move as I feel I'm losing any security I once had. But I'm sure it will get better when I've actually settled in then I can start to plan.

 

Thanks Rhi again for your reply

 

Debbie x

[Altostrata]

Debbie, how are you doing?

[xDebbiejo]

I'm quite fine Altostrata, thank you. How are you? I am now off my Paxil, three years of tapering but finally meds free thanks to you and support from this life saving site. I've not been on here for a year now. I'm sorry as I did intend to visit and update. I don't get notifications any longer so must try to set that up as it will remind me that you are all here. I also have quite a large bag of 1ml syringes that may be of use to someone. There seems to be many new people here but don't see any of the people here from when I first joined.. I hope they're all ok.

 

I've been off my meds now for around 8 months I think but was extremely nervous when it was time to stop that I was actually sticking the very tip of my tongue in the bottle for a while as I was so scared to stop, as the memories of when I tried to stop before came flooding back... But I did it and if it wasn't for this site, well, I don't know where I would be now.

 

JUST A MASSIVE THANK YOU! TO YOU ALTO AND ALL WHO SUPPORTED AND GUIDED ME TO FINALLY BE MEDS FREE!

 

I am not at all depressed any longer do get a bit anxious when I have too many things to do sometimes but I just get on with them and it goes away. I still have magnesium baths when I get the chance, which I love, but am very busy with my work as I am now a regional manager for the same company.

 

Love

 

Debbie x

[DLB]

Wow, that sounds like a sucess! Hopefully we will be seeing you in the sucess stories thread soon...

[strawberry17]

I remember you Debbie, I don't come here often but I got a notification in my e mails that you'd updated. Well done you!! It's good to hear success stories x

[xDebbiejo]

Hi Strawberry

 

Good to hear from you, how are you doing?

So are you not on Prozac taper any longer and back on Sertraline? I remember you were tapering with Prozac ... I think it was easier or me as I was only on one med since 1996 apart from diazepam when attempting to come off to quickly.

 

Hi DLB

Yes certainly a success story, hate to think what would have happened if I took advice from my GP instead of all the help on this site.

You mention you have knee pain, I too suffer with knee pain, looking at remedies at the moment. I'm going to try turmeric and ginger tea, made by myself using organic ingredients obviously... Looks like you've had success too.. Hope you're well

I'm trying to work out how to receive notifications... Still doesn't seem to work

 

Debbie x

[Altostrata]

Very happy to hear from you, xDebbiejo. I added our cheerful "here comes the sun" symbol

☼

to the title of your Intro topic, to show you're recovering.

Please continue to let us know how you're doing. I hope you will add your story to our Recovery Success Stories eventually!

[strawberry17]

Hi Debbie, yes I went back on Sertraline which is where I have stayed, it just didn't work out for me.