Cloudskishawna Posted September 26, 2019 Author Share Posted September 26, 2019 Yeah it explains alot of my symptoms from the hypothyroidism I'm going to start focusing on trying to get it better Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted September 27, 2019 Author Share Posted September 27, 2019 (edited) Last dose tonight I'm scared to be honest and I actually hope that everything is going to be alright it's like I see people on the Facebook group say taper slow I wonder if I did taper slow enough for my nerves because it's like old memories are coming in my head and songs just random and I feel a certain emotion or almost like a sting in my nerves especially if it's a bad one to does that mean I wonder if that means I went to quick so many emotions it's weird because I remember just maybe 3 weeks ago I was numb I couldn't feel anything no emotion just numb I'm kinda happy to feel somewhat emotions I really hope this earworm madness settles down because it's kinda making me go crazy I think once my body balances out this music and all this nerve stuff will settle down I hope thanks everybody Edited September 27, 2019 by ChessieCat added topic title Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted September 27, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 27, 2019 So that we can see your drug history at a glance and not have to read through your posts, please create your drug signature using the following format. Keep it simple. NO diagnoses or symptoms please - thank you. details for last 2 years - dates, ALL drugs, doses summary for older than 2 years - just years and drug/s Account Settings – Create or Edit a signature * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 27, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 27, 2019 Hi Cloud You did not taper too fast. The taper was advised by Alto, one of most knowledgeable people on this subject. She balanced how fast to taper, with the potential risk of your becoming addicted before the end of the taper. All the changes above are signs you CNS is changing for the better. Over the next few days your brain is still going to expext a dose of the drug which it will not get. It is possible you may feel worse for a while, but do not panic or believe you are getting ill again. You also need to continue with the healthy lifestyle. Once you get treatment for Hyperthyroidism there is no reason why you cannot be happy and healthy. Are you seeing the counsellor next week? Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted September 27, 2019 Author Share Posted September 27, 2019 Thanks sanssech sorry for the late reply I had went to bed and had the longest sleep I took you and alto advice no phone an hour before bed and it helped no I'm not seeing a therapist next week but I want to find a therapist that specializes in ocd and I want to find a good nautropath for the hyperthyroidism the natural way I'm done with pills forever Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 27, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 27, 2019 Hi Cloud 25 minutes ago, Cloudskishawna said: I'm done with pills forever Great attitude at your age. Good to hear you slept well. Keep in touch over the next few days, especially if you feel anxious as your system settles. Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 28, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 Hi Cloud How have you felt today? Are you having any symptoms? Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted September 28, 2019 Author Share Posted September 28, 2019 I feel decent today my sleep was pretty bad and today I'm going to start exposing myself to my fears today I guess my symptoms are I feel my nerves feel a little jittery Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 28, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 16 minutes ago, Cloudskishawna said: start exposing myself to my fears today What does this mean Cloud? Did you use the good sleep routine last night? Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted September 28, 2019 Author Share Posted September 28, 2019 There's a certain song I don't like it causes anxiety so that's what I'm doing feeling the anxiety I did the sleep hygiene thing but I did it late Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 28, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 28, 2019 6 minutes ago, Cloudskishawna said: I did the sleep hygiene thing but I did it late Unless you go to bed same time every night your sleep pattern will not improve. Let me know how you feel tomorrow. Early to bed tonight. Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted September 28, 2019 Author Share Posted September 28, 2019 Ok same time every day but some people say if you don't feel sleepy in about 20 minutes then get out and try it again Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 29, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 Hi Cloud Did you sleep better? How have you been feeling today? What symptoms do you have. Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted September 29, 2019 Author Share Posted September 29, 2019 Somewhat I feel somewhat fatigue Earworms as symptoms I think I'm going to go on histamine diet Because I heard mirtazapine hits the histamine receptors and since I'm not taking it anymore I need to avoid and histamine foods in order to heal Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 29, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 Did you sleep better? it is good to see you are looking after yourself and have a plan. Junk food is not part of that diet.😁 Hope you are still getting some sun. You are doing better than I expected two days off Mirt. The end is in sight. Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted September 29, 2019 Author Share Posted September 29, 2019 I slept somewhat ok I think I would do alot more better if a change my diet the end is in sight I believe Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 29, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 29, 2019 11 minutes ago, Cloudskishawna said: I think I would do alot more better if a change my diet Health is Happiness😃 Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted September 29, 2019 Author Share Posted September 29, 2019 So true Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 30, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 30, 2019 Hi Cloud How are you feeling today? When are you having your thyroid check? Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted September 30, 2019 Author Share Posted September 30, 2019 I'm doing pretty good I'm reading a book by Jeffrey m Schwartz about ocd it's good learning all about this all I had got my thyroid checked on the 25th I'm still trying to found a nautropath that is not so high Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted September 30, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted September 30, 2019 Do you know what treatment they are proposing for your thyroid? You are right to not want drugs but there is a laser treatment available. Whether it would apply to you I don't know but worth asking. I am really pleased that you are researching your condition. Knowledge is strength, Health is happiness. Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted October 1, 2019 Author Share Posted October 1, 2019 Health is happiness But I had did something I had took a mirtazapine on Friday and also before trying the mirtazapine I was taking a hydroxzine before These past days my memories are starting to come back now Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted October 1, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 1, 2019 Hi Cloud 16 hours ago, Cloudskishawna said: But I had did something I had took a mirtazapine on Friday Why did you do this? How are you feeling today? 16 hours ago, Cloudskishawna said: These past days my memories are starting to come back now This is good. 23 hours ago, Cloudskishawna said: Jeffrey m Schwartz about ocd How are you doing with your reading and are you learning? Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted October 1, 2019 Author Share Posted October 1, 2019 I thought I wasn't going to be able to sleep so I took only another quarter of the pill but that was it haven't took any since then I feel ok but my brain feels like it's burning I'm doing well with reading and stuff I learned with the ocd is that how our reaction to a certain thought prolongs the issue so just as long as you don't react then your brain will stop sending the wrong signals then Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted October 2, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 2, 2019 Hi Cloud. How was your sleep last night? Are you still keeping more sensible hours and phone/tv off? IDo you still have the brain burning? Are the ear worms improving? The more you learn the easier it will be to cope without drugs, you are doing really well. How about your diet? Health is Happiness Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted October 2, 2019 Author Share Posted October 2, 2019 I slept pretty good Yes im still working on the hours that I'm on my phone before bed No burning brain feeling today Still working diet but I'm eating more fruits Still having earworms but there not that important to me as much I'm about start doing this food delivery thing to keep me busy instead of at home ruminating which doesn't help me at all Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted October 2, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 2, 2019 5 minutes ago, Cloudskishawna said: I'm about start doing this food delivery thing to keep me busy instead of at home ruminating which doesn't help me at all Brilliant you should be proud of yourself. Are your mum and dad happy to see you getting better? Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted October 2, 2019 Author Share Posted October 2, 2019 I have my days but I'm going to work toward recovery Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted October 4, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 4, 2019 Hi Cloud One week off meds, how are you doing? Do you still have symptoms? Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted October 4, 2019 Author Share Posted October 4, 2019 Other than earworms I'm doing pretty good Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted October 4, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 4, 2019 Good to hear. Have you finished the book by Jeffrey m Schwartz . If so was it helpful? Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted October 4, 2019 Author Share Posted October 4, 2019 No not yet it's a good book I just came back from nautropath and learned alot about my body and mind it was amazing way better than the medical doctors Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted October 4, 2019 Author Share Posted October 4, 2019 I'm also trying learn about acceptance and to not follow thoughts because that just creates more emotion that I really don't need Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted October 4, 2019 Author Share Posted October 4, 2019 For right now everything is going pretty decent still have earworms other than that I'm ok I went to The nautropath today and learned alot about my body and mind things are finally making since Now come to find out The reason I haven't been able to absorb nutrients is because something going on with my small intestine so until I deal with that then I won't be able To get my nutrients that means no amount of supplements I take won't be Absorb until i fix that. And another surprising thing is that she said my brain and all its functions are healthy and normal and that somewhere on my brain its showing it under alot of stress .still trying to learn how to let thoughts pass by and just observe them I find it hard I'm so use to talking back to them figuring out everything but now I know that by doing that it showing to my brain there's danger the mind is a tricky thing I be catching myself in The car in my thoughts I'm glad in gaining awareness of it thanks to mediation but other than that my life been ok just trying to find a job and that's about it Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Cloudskishawna Posted October 4, 2019 Author Share Posted October 4, 2019 For right now everything is going pretty decent still have earworms other than that I'm ok I went to The nautropath today and learned alot about my body and mind things are finally making since Now come to find out The reason I haven't been able to absorb nutrients is because something going on with my small intestine so until I deal with that then I won't be able To get my nutrients that means no amount of supplements I take won't be Absorb until i fix that. And another surprising thing is that she said my brain and all its functions are healthy and normal and that somewhere on my brain its showing it under alot of stress .still trying to learn how to let thoughts pass by and just observe them I find it hard I'm so use to talking back to them figuring out everything but now I know that by doing that it showing to my brain there's danger the mind is a tricky thing I be catching myself in The car in my thoughts I'm glad in gaining awareness of it thanks to mediation but other than that my life been ok just trying to find a job and that's about it Mirtazapine August 10 2019 - Sept 26 2019 Lexapro August 27 2019- August 28 2019 Trazodone July 29 2019 - July 31 2019 Didnt like neither of them Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Sassenach Posted October 12, 2019 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 12, 2019 Hi Cloud What W/D symptoms are you experiencing? Sass Escitalopram 10mgs from mid 2007 ( can't remember exact date) to 11th Dec 2018 Fentanyl patches ( don't remember dose ) from Nov 2014 to 11 Dec 2018 Quit both cold turkey Dec 2018 Reinstated 3rd March 2019 2.5 mgs. Updosed 8March to 5mgs and holding 25/11/19 Started taper 4.5mgs and holding This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner If you are going through Hell, keep going. NCIS series 15, David MaCallum Link to comment
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