Cathy4 Posted January 27, 2020 Author Share Posted January 27, 2020 1/26 2am-5:30am awake, runaway thoughts, anxiety, hungry so eat snack 8am wake up from awful gruesome dream, 20mcg levothyroxine, water, stomach pain 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast, groggy, foggy-head, tired 10am .125mg klonopin, talk with withdrawal friend on phone, feeling of fullness in bowels 11:30am do part of a Feldenkrais lesson 12:30pm eat small lunch, play with nephew, a little unsteadiness 2pm watch news about Kobe Bryant, feel in dream-like state (weird day today) 3:30pm walk in neighborhood, shorter walk than normal, stomach pain again, feel discouraged about gastrointestinal stuff 7pm small dinner, took some iron because period trying to start sipped on magnesium after dinner, cleaned up kitchen, swept 8:30pm friend came by for hug, good to see her 9:30pm coconut yogurt, in bed, gonna listen to Baylissa meditation. Stomach better, whew. 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted January 27, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 27, 2020 Hi Cathy I see less anxiety in your diaries , do you agree? Big hugs ❤ 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted January 28, 2020 Author Share Posted January 28, 2020 16 hours ago, Erell said: see less anxiety in your diaries , do you agree? @Erell, You are correct! And the funny thing was that until you mentioned it, I was not totally aware... thank you for reminding me that I am improving. Hug to you, Cathy 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted January 28, 2020 Author Share Posted January 28, 2020 1/27 7:30am slept better, ahhh. 20mcg levothyroxine, water, lay in bed for a few minutes to savor the better sleep 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast, a little anxiety b/c manager wants me to stop by pool to help w/hot tub. 10am walk in woods, sun is out, feel a bit surreal, then realize I forgot to take .125mg klonopin until almost 11am. 11:30am anxiety kicks in about going to pool, brush Henrietta, empty garbage & yardwaste 12pm head to pool, replace part on hot tub, get hot tub up and running, did pretty well considering the anxiety, monthly period starts 1pm lunch, stomach okay, load up old pressure-treated wood to take to dumpster, drop off old clothes in donation bin, quick trip to drugstore to get toothpaste & tooth brush, did okay in drugstore 3pm paint, listen to sports 4:30pm snack: hard-boiled egg, cut up garlic for dinner, a bit chilled so take epsom salt bath 6:30pm ate part of dinner, heartburn/chest tension & some anxiety, went to room and started Feldenkrais lesson to “change the channel.” 8pm played w/Henrietta, ate a bit more dinner, some gas but not like the last few days, anxiety better 9:20pm in bed, rain on roof, hot pack + heating pad, read some threads on this forum, refrain from evening chocolate. Meditation soon. 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted January 28, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted January 28, 2020 This winter, I have needed Sassenach many times To finally notice that I was improving 😘 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted January 29, 2020 Author Share Posted January 29, 2020 1/28 8am 20mcg levothyroxine, water, very fatigued upon waking even though sleep was pretty good 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast, weird sensations in rear are back, kind of feel like I’m growing a tail (wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world). 10am .125mg klonopin, lie on heating pad and wait for overpowering sensations to pass, read threads on this forum 12pm small lunch, resigned to the fact that I need to rest today. Went back down for more rest & heat, leg muscles also cramping a bit 3pm friend arrived to give us estimate for painting living room, I sat in on meeting and was not too anxious 4pm painted, listened to radio, chest tension arose, kept painting 7pm anxiety, chest tension, a little heartburn, ate a bit of dinner (can’t wait until eating is a little easier and I don’t worry every time I ingest something that it will cause a gastrointestinal symptom! Argh!) 7:30pm shower, did some dishes and had unsteadiness 8pm anxiety calmed down, played with Henrietta (searched for her yellow ball), told her how good she is 9pm read more on SA, hoping to continue to spread awareness about psychiatric meds to friends & family (only two people really believe the medications could be causing this). The feeling of growing a tail has returned 9:30pm read a bit more on this site, prepare for Baylissa meditation *I seem to have adjusted alright from .25mg to .125mg klonopin. This makes me hopeful. I want to start tapering the zoloft in March if things keep going okay. 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
wantrelief Posted January 29, 2020 Share Posted January 29, 2020 Hi Cathy, It is great you have had a decrease in anxiety - that must feel like such a relief! Also great you adjusted to the lower dose of Klonopin and are feeling hopeful. It seems like everything is headed in the right direction for you to be able to start your Zoloft taper in March! Will be here rooting you on! -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg; 4/20/24: 1.09 mg Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted January 30, 2020 Author Share Posted January 30, 2020 23 hours ago, wantrelief said: It is great you have had a decrease in anxiety - that must feel like such a relief Thank you @wantrelief, Yes, it definitely is—I almost hesitate to write or say anything because, well, you know how it is... fingers crossed. 😊 Thanks so very much for your support. ❤️ Cathy 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted January 30, 2020 Author Share Posted January 30, 2020 1/29 8am 20mcg levothyroxine, water 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast 9:30am soggy walk in woods, felt a bit surreal, more weird sensations near sacrum and in rear. Therapist thinks all these symptoms could be past trauma manifesting physically in different parts of body. 10am .125mg klonopin 11:30am energy bar, vacuumed & cleaned t.v. room & Henrietta’s condo. Thinking ahead about making drops in zoloft and having some anticipatory anxiety. 1pm light lunch, more cleaning, a little unsteadiness, fullness in rear, pay bill online 2:30pm talk on phone w/brother 3pm paint & listen to sports, putter in garage, Henrietta joins me 5:30pm dinner, eat too many black bean chips, little bit of equilibrium issues (they seem to pop up out of nowhere in the afternoon/evening but then correct pretty quickly—it probably helps that I am freaking out a little less, too) 6:30pm epsom salt bath 7:30pm part of Feldenkrais lesson, weird deja-vu feeling with bizarre memory I can’t even remember now. 8pm play w/Henrietta & make ginger tea, bad gas, still strange sensations ugh, sip magnesium 9pm in bed, watch a YouTube video, prepare for meditation, lie on heating pad 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted January 31, 2020 Author Share Posted January 31, 2020 1/30 8am 20mcg levothyroxine, water, didn’t want to get out of bed 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast, feel really lethargic even though I slept. Feel depressed, too 10am .125mg klonopin, rest on couch (maybe overdid yesterday?) 11-2pm didn’t do much, had a big drop in mood where I felt VERY down. Not much appetite but had small lunch, short chat with therapist (it still really annoys me he thinks he knows about psych drugs) 3pm wrote a couple letters, did some paperwork, felt bad 4pm ordered some take-out dinner, able to go pick it up even though this caused anxiety 6pm still hungry so had some leftovers (haven’t been eating as much the past couple days) 6:30pm short walk in rain 7:30pm discuss paint colors for living room with mother 9pm in bed, heating pad, still feeling pretty bad—haven’t had depression like this in at least a month, feeling overall frustration with life and discouraged about progress 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 1, 2020 Author Share Posted February 1, 2020 1/31 8am 20mcg levothyroxine, water, feel dread when waking up 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast, gear up for walk in wind/rain 10am walk, stomach pain begins while on walk, take .125mg klonopin, stomachache continues throughout walk 11:30am put heating pad on abdomen, wait for it to pass so I can possibly make a trip to Trader Joe’s for a few groceries. 12:30pm still feel bad, lie down for rest, feel really bitter & angry about trusting therapist & psychiatrist in past, have violent thoughts and some weird memories of dreams from years ago 3pm still no appetite, stomach feeling a little better, write letters to friends, make birthday card, sort through old paperwork, add to do-to list, drink lots of water, puzzle over gut issues 6:30pm try a few bites of dinner, feel a bit defeated about not venturing out today, but really was feeling bad. Play ball w/Henrietta & listen to wind & rain 7:30pm stumble upon 10 silver dollars grandpa gave me, decide to clean them b/c they’re tarnished. Bad gas starts up again. 8:30pm have a little more dinner, think of more things to sell/get rid of, look at possible paint colors for accent wall w/Mom 9pm shower, pick Henrietta up (even though she doesn’t like it much), tell her how good she is 9:30pm In bed, heating pad, no one understands this withdrawal stuff except you guys. Frustrated with G.I. issues despite healthy diet. Feels like my gut is just trying to figure things out or readjust somehow. I hope it’s withdrawal—it has to be. Looking forward to better days ahead. 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 2, 2020 Author Share Posted February 2, 2020 2/1 8am 20mcg levothyroxine, water 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, light breakfast, feel like gut is trying to work, digest 10am .112mg klonopin, set out for walk, stomach pain, some intense anxiety like my focus has narrowed again and the world is far away from me 11:30am more anger/grief about withdrawal and having agreed to take the medications in the first place, violent thoughts, fatigue at the same time, decide to rest and see if I get more energy 1:30pm managed some tuna & cassava chips, hard to tell sometimes whether I’m hungry or not, stomachache there but faint 2:30pm get in car to try & go to store, really not feeling good, so abort that mission, worried/afraid of something wrong with gut 4pm clean up garage to try and take my mind off feelings and symptoms. Work at this for awhile. Helps a bit. Text therapist, wish I had someone better. 6pm able to eat a little dinner. Feel hungry. 7:30pm stomachache returns. 8pm watch a little tv—the screen & how fast the images change are too much, clean up kitchen instead 9pm put clothes in dryer, heat hot pack in microwave to put on stomach/belly, text friend who works at Safeway and ask her to pick up a few things. *do other people have major gut problems withdrawal? This isn’t uncommon, is it? 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted February 2, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 2, 2020 11 hours ago, Cathy4 said: *do other people have major gut problems withdrawal? This isn’t uncommon, is it? No dear Cathy, it doesnt sound uncommon : I've read this a lot on SA. Actually it sounds quite logical if you look at our guts as our second brain Try To notice if some food aggravate it : for example, I rarely eat sugar or dairies. Take care ❤ 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 3, 2020 Author Share Posted February 3, 2020 11 hours ago, Erell said: Try To notice if some food aggravate it : for example, I rarely eat sugar or dairies. Thank you, Erell. You’re right, if I think of my gut as my second brain, this totally makes sense and eases my mind a bit. You swooped in when I was at a really low point and helped pick me up. Thank you, Erell. I have not been eating dairy or gluten and hardly any processed foods. Perhaps I should not have chocolate, either. Hug to you, Erell ❤️ 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 3, 2020 Author Share Posted February 3, 2020 2/2 8am water, totally forgot thyroid med. 9am cried & cried, felt hopeless, did have a little breakfast so could take 67.5mgai sertraline, cried more, folded some laundry. The sun was actually out. 10am .112mg klonopin, Sister & nephew arrive, played with nephew a little bit but so rowdy and loud, had heart palpitations, felt untethered 11am set out for walk in woods. Sun out, a little more energy for walking today, ate hard-boiled egg on trail 12:30pm chopped vegetables for soup, made guacamole, feeling a lot more stable at this point (much more so than yesterday), stomach doing okay, a little blood from rear, but not even after b.m. Maybe hemorrhoid from last night(?) 2pm painted a little, tried to just quiet mind with painting, butt feeling weird again 3:30pm chilled, watched a little of Super Bowl, ads are too fast-paced, feel not grounded, low-blood sugar so grab snack 5pm bath, need more epsom salt, got warmer at least 6:30pm eat soup, goes down okay, stomach feels okay, yay. Watch more football but take frequent breaks—just a lot of stimulation, clean up kitchen, tend to Henrietta who decided she didn’t like her food tonight 8pm make ginger tea, some anxiety, get ready for bed, eat apple. 9pm in bed, post daily notes, find new Baylissa meditation, grateful stomach not sour or acidic tonight, ignore call from therapist. 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
will351 Posted February 3, 2020 Share Posted February 3, 2020 On 10/9/2019 at 1:47 AM, manymoretodays said: of some further stability with that. Klonopin has a much longer half life than Xanax does, and so generally speaking, only needs to be dosed daily. Xanax most people take 3- 4 times a day. I don't think it's a bad idea to perhaps stick with a 0.5 mg dose daily with the Klonopin now. Same dose, same time of day. It may be of value, in offsetting some of the severe WD(withdrawal) that set Are you lowering the klonopin 1993-2017 Sertraline 50 mgs 2017- 2018 Effexsor 75mgs 6 months 75 mgs Prozac. 5/18 3 months 20 mgs Pristiq. 8/18. 3 months 50 Paxil 9/18 - 4 months 20 mgs Klonopin .5 once a day 2019 Amitriptyline 2/19- 8/19 Klonopin .25 once a day Luvox 5/2019- 1/2020 withdrawal from 12.5 mgs on 1/9/2020, Sertraline 9/24/19-1/8/2020 50mgs, Rexalti .25 mg 1/2/20-1/17/20 PRESENT (Sertraline. 1/9/19 - present 62.5 mg) 7:00 am (Mirtazipine 9/18- present 7.5mgs). 7:30pm (Klonopin 12/24- 2/23/2020 (.125). 7:00am Klonopin 2/24/ 2020 (.112mg) (Luvox 12/2019- 6mgs). Luvox 2/1/2020 (3mgs) 1988- present. Lisinipril 40mgs blood pressure 9:00 Amlodipine besylate. 7:00am Lipitor cholesterol 40mgsam Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 4, 2020 Author Share Posted February 4, 2020 14 hours ago, will351 said: Are you lowering the klonopin @will351, I’ve lowered it to .112mg, yes. I know that it is not recommended to taper the benzo before the ssri. The reason I’m doing this is because I have been having gut issues ever since I started the klonopin last October. I’m wondering if the klonopin is affecting my gut, as I’ve never been on it on a daily basis for this amount of time. The gut stuff could just be overall withdrawal, as Erell pointed out, but I’m trying to rule out benzo belly. I could be making a mistake trying to lower it, but at this point I’m so uncomfortable with the gut problems that I’m willing to risk it. 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 4, 2020 Author Share Posted February 4, 2020 2/3 7:30am awoke, drank water, low back discomfort, laid in bed with heating pad for little while 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast, feel discombobulated. Fullness in rectum is back, keep getting false alarms to go to bathroom 10am .112mg klonopin, take call from pool manager & try to help with pump situation. Helps to get mind off symptoms a little bit, take quick call from therapist, cry afterwards 11:30am decide to walk despite possibly needing to go to bathroom, head out on trail & listen to Peter Breggin podcast 1pm help move stuff out of living room so painters can work, peel a few sweet potatoes & eat a little lunch, feel anxious/uneasy 3:30pm do dishes, paint, listen to sports radio, concentrating on painting & fine details helps a bit, feel safer 6:30pm eat some dinner, chest tension, unsteadiness, contemplate another walk 7:30pm short walk, run into neighbors who are getting divorce, have awkward social interaction which reignites anxiety 8:30pm shower, give Henrietta some attention 9pm in bed, still anxious (been that kind of day!), prepare for meditation and focus on healing affirmations 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 4, 2020 Author Share Posted February 4, 2020 2/3 continued 2:27am Wake up scared because stomach pain/cramping, burping, more gas. Feel hungry yet sick at same time. Put heating pad on abdomen. Wish there were something to eat that sounded good and eased gut symptoms. Gonna try packet of nut butter 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 5, 2020 Author Share Posted February 5, 2020 2/4 8:30am wake up after not sleeping well at all, feel tired, anxious, painters here making loud noises 9:30am 67.5mgai sertraline, tiny breakfast, light box, feel dread/depression 10:30am .112mg klonopin, sit in room, listen to noise of painters. Need to go get levothyroxine at some point today 11am find Henrietta and bring her to room, rest and watch wet snow out window. Feel very very down. 1-3:30pm spent a lot of time staring into space, contemplating life in withdrawal, feeling angry with therapist again, ate tuna fish 4pm drive to drugstore to pick up levothyroxine & epsom salt. Moderate anxiety, feel somewhat detached 4:30pm painted w/palette knives, feel calmer and able to really focus on painting, thirsty but painters are spraying ceiling so I’m trapped in garage at my easel 5:30pm Carry Henrietta upstairs because she’s afraid of plastic painters have put down. She pees all over me out of fear. Change all my clothes, feel bad for traumatizing her further. 6pm went to drive through to get fast-food. Haven’t had fast food in 1.5 months but so frustrated with G.I. issues that I decide what the heck it doesn’t matter how healthy I eat—still have issues everyday. So frustrated. So frustrated. 7:30pm epsom salt bath 8:30pm eat chocolate 9pm phone call with pool manager who has now put both her son & daughter on prozac and daughter having adverse reaction. I try to explain this but to no avail. 9:30pm Henrietta braves the plastic & joins me on bed. Time for meditation. *didn't walk, didn’t eat well, trying to be gentle with myself, right when I thought I was becoming accepting of this process I’m back to anger & some bad depression. 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 7, 2020 Author Share Posted February 7, 2020 2/5 pretty bad day. Didn’t post daily notes. 2/6 7:30am 20mcg levothyroxine, water, went up to make a little breakfast before painters arrive 8:30am 67.5mgai sertraline, small breakfast, obsessed with going to store but have not been able to get myself there. It’s become this huge monster in my head. 9am walk on trail, flooding w/all the steady rain, began to feel weird brain stuff going on, some derealization, repeated affirmations on trail, felt intense fear like everywhere unsafe 10:30am .112mg klonopin, really don’t feel better after taking klonopin, decide to vacuum downstairs and do load of laundry 12pm brain & head feel like throwing up, and strange intense restless feeling from top of head to tips of toes: akathisia of some sort. Make salad & try to avoid talking to painters. One asks questions and restless feeling grows 1:30pm load goodwill into car, try and escape at my easel but feelings described above occupy my attention. 2:30pm very frustrated with not feeling like I’m able to go out, so decide to take load to goodwill. Turn down wrong street for goodwill, anxiety rises. Finally get there and drop load. Contemplate stopping at store on way back but don’t stop. 4pm walk-through with painter, anxious but try to hide it. Pretend to inspect work but just want anxiety to calm down. 5pm eat falafel wrap, vacuum, move furniture, hold paintings up to wall, mop hardwood floor (just trying to keep moving to distract myself) 7pm salad w/chicken (eating more today, that’s good) 8pm epsom salt bath. Wondering if drinking magnesium is hurting stomach... stopped yesterday to see 9pm try & sell sewing machine on offer up. 9:30pm exhausted, in bed, daily notes, hopefully no hypnagogic hallucinations tonight. Prepare for meditation. 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 8, 2020 Author Share Posted February 8, 2020 2/7 7:30am awake, having slept better than the previous night, 20mcg levothyroxine & water 8:30am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast 9:30am walk in greenbelt, windy & rainy, walk fast. Some anxiety near end of walk, took .112mg klonopin at 10:30am while walking 11:30am time to brave outside world & head to store. Repeated affirmations while driving and as fears kept cropping up. In store, powerful urge to drop basket & run out. More self-talk. Feel really scattered and like everyone knows how anxious I feel. Movements, lights, noise all a bit too much. Got a few things and went through self-checkout. 1pm light lunch, started working on sweet potato purée and putting house back together post-painting. 4pm cut, filed, weighed zoloft for rest of February, also cut levothyroxine (not sure why I’m even still taking this. Thyroid values were fine last May) 6pm nephew over, too loud, also getting anxious b/c someone coming to get tiny light box I listed. Anxiety rises as 7pm approaches. So fearful for this interaction with harmless stranger. 7:20pm person finally arrives to pick up light box. Anxiety lowers a bit after she leaves but it takes awhile. 8pm another walk. Very windy & almost full moon, clouds racing past. Feels good to walk after being anxious. Walking makes me feel stronger & more in my body (most of the time) 9pm shower, play with Henrietta 9:30pm eat rx bar, in bed, text good friend, prepare for meditation 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted February 8, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 8, 2020 Hi dear Cathy, I'm just stopping by To say hello and To tell you that I'm thinking of you ❤ How do you Feel these days ? 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 9, 2020 Author Share Posted February 9, 2020 20 hours ago, Erell said: I'm just stopping by To say hello and To tell you that I'm thinking of you ❤ How do you Feel these days ? Hello dear @Erell I am okay. Some days I have a few hours where I feel okay, not many symptoms. Other days are very hard. Thank you for asking. I think of you often. ❤️ Cathy 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 9, 2020 Author Share Posted February 9, 2020 2/8 2-3:30am awake. Hungry, get snack, obsessive thoughts 8am 20mcg levothyroxine, water, anxiety, constipation-type pains 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast, prepare for walk but wait to see if can go to bathroom 10am walk, sun peeks through, anxiety near end of walk, take .112mg klonopin at 10:30am 11:45am meet w/best friend to look at paint job, less social anxiety 1pm make guacamole, eat, feel chilled & extremely fatigued, slight stomach pain 2pm lay down, hard to get warm, fall asleep, sleep til 3:30 4:30pm burping, gas, stomachache, hang pictures back up on walls, feel angry that stomach pain is back. Could it be the garlic in the guacamole? Or just withdrawal. 6:30pm try to eat a little chicken & asparagus, do dishes, play with Henrietta, continue to feel angry. Contemplate calling therapist but don’t. 8pm shower, eat cookie because craving sugar 9pm read other people’s threads, post notes 9:24pm watch video and prepare for meditation with heating pad on abdomen 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Erell Posted February 9, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted February 9, 2020 2 hours ago, Cathy4 said: 11:45am meet w/best friend to look at paint job, less social anxiety It Feels good right? I'm trying To see friends more often, let's say that it is also healing for us To interact and socialize Thinking of you, take care ❤ 2006 : 20mg Paxil+Bromazepam. 2008 : cold turkey of both. 2010 : Reinstatement 20mg Paxil + Bromazepam. 2014-June2017 : Switch from Bromazepam to Prazepam, slow taper to 0mg. 2018 to August 2019 : Paxil 20mg taper (3% every 15 days). 22 Aug 2019 updose to 10mg (was at 8.4mg). 25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paxil. April 2020 : Paxil 10mg to Prozac 7mg bridge. Details : topic/21457 Current Supplements : magnesium citrate + fish oil Current medication : * 7pm Diazepam : 0.85mg (15 Aug 2022) / 0.95 mg (24 April 2022) / 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020) * 8am Prozac : 6.16mg (25 oct 2022, feel awful, slight updose) / 6.08 mg (9 oct 2022) / 6.24mg (11 July 22) / 6.44mg (22 May 22) / 6.64mg (4 Nov 21) / 6.72mg (8 oct 21) / 6.8 mg (15 Sept 21)/ 6.88mg (14 Aug 21)/ 6.92mg (23 Jun 21) I am not a professional, I don't give medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 10, 2020 Author Share Posted February 10, 2020 19 hours ago, Erell said: It Feels good right? I'm trying To see friends more often, let's say that it is also healing for us To interact and socialize Yes, it definitely does, @Erell!!! I am trying to be more social, too. I am so grateful for any bit of relief I get. Hugs to you, @Erell. ❤️🤗 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 10, 2020 Author Share Posted February 10, 2020 2/9 7:30am 20mcg levothyroxine, water, lay in bed and remember some dreams 8:30am 67.5mgai sertraline, quick breakfast, head out to meet friend and walk with her and her dogs. 9am anxiety, derealization while walking w/friend. When dogs barked it made anxiety worse. Sun seems very very bright, too 10:30am .112mg klonopin, recover from anxiety, sister & nephew arrive, nephew very annoying 11:45am decide to take solo walk on trail, very pleasant, encounter two big well-behaved dogs & friendly owners, have nice brief conversation, feel good 1:30pm eat leftover chicken & attempt to set boundaries with annoying nephew. 3pm talk with another friend on phone, make spirulina balls, clean up kitchen, stand in sun with Henrietta. 4pm sudden urge to bike around neighborhood! Pump up tires and bike up hill. A few heart palpitations 5pm chest tension, neck & shoulder tension, chop onion & garlic for dinner 6pm epsom salt bath. Notice in mirror I’ve lost weight. Hoping to gain some back, gas 7pm eat dinner, try to eat a little more, feel anxious & watch some of Oscars. Internal self-talk, more gas (bad) 8pm a little diarrhea, but feel like things are just stuck there wanting out. Feel full back there again. Put clothes in dryer, feel very tired. Lots of physical activity today. 8:30pm in bed, put heating pad on abdomen, hoping fullness in rear goes away. More gas. Prepare for meditation & sleep. Might grab snack at 9pm if hungry. 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 11, 2020 Author Share Posted February 11, 2020 2/10 3:22-5:30am awake, trouble falling back to sleep, ate snack, nightmares after falling back to sleep 8am 20mcg levothyroxine, water 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast, butt hurting and feeling full, answer emails & rest on heating pad. 10am cry because some days are just hard. Today is one of them. Have small b.m., butt hurts & irritated, take .112mg klonopin at 10:30am 11am walk, bled a little from hemorrhoid 1pm go to drugstore to get hemorrhoid cream & witch hazel wipes. Eat lunch 3pm paint, listen to radio 4:30pm cry in room again, heating pad (feel like a child) 5pm talk on phone with therapist. Wish he could help me like he used to. Epsom salt bath 6:30pm dinner, dishes, pet Henrietta 7:30pm try & do 1st day of 30-day challenge friend wants to do. 8pm feel extremely extremely sad/depressed. In bed, going to do some of Baylissa’s meditations. This too shall pass. 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
wantrelief Posted February 11, 2020 Share Posted February 11, 2020 Hi Cathy - I wanted to send some support your way as it sounds like it was a hard day. I like listening to Baylissa's meditations as well. I really hope tomorrow is a better day for you. Hugs from across the lake - WR. -1/06 - 3/07 Cymbalta. Fast taper (essentially CT); withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos (didn't realize was WD) -10/07: 100 mg Zoloft; 1 mg Klonopin - tapered off Klonopin after 4 mos. Several unsuccessful slow tapers of Zoloft; went up and down in dose a lot -Spring 2013 back on 1 mg Klonopin to counter WD symptoms; switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to 35 mg citalopram -Two attempts at slow tapering citalopram, always increased dose due to WD; also increased Klonopin to 1.25 mg in 2014, then to 1.5 mg in 2015 -8/17-9/17: After holding one year at 20 mg, feeling withdrawal symptoms due to stress - slowly increased to 25 mg. No change in symptoms after 6 months (? tolerance ?) - decided to start citalopram taper February 2018 (still on Klonopin 1.5 mg). Supplements: fish oil; magnesium; vitamin D3; curcumin Citalopram taper: 2/2018 - 12/2019: 25 mg - 11.03 mg I 2020: 10.89 mg - 7.9 mg I 2021: 7.8 mg - 5.26 mg I 2022: 5.2 mg - 3.36 mg I 2023: 3.3 mg - 1.47 mg 2024: 1/5/24: 1.44 mg; 1/19/24: 1.40 mg; 1/26/24: 1.37 mg; 2/2/24: 1.34 mg; 2/9/24: 1.31 mg; 2/23/24: 1.28 mg; 3/1/24: 1.25 mg; 3/8/24: 1.22 mg; 3/15/24: 1.19 mg; 3/29/24: 1.17 mg; 4/5/24: 1.14 mg; 4/13/24: 1.11 mg; 4/20/24: 1.09 mg Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 11, 2020 Author Share Posted February 11, 2020 12 minutes ago, wantrelief said: Hi Cathy - I wanted to send some support your way as it sounds like it was a hard day. I like listening to Baylissa's meditations as well. I really hope tomorrow is a better day for you. Hugs from across the lake - WR. Oh my gosh. You are such a Dear, @wantrelief. Thank you so so much. I was just crying again and feeling alone. Thank you for making me feel less alone and supported. HUG ❤️ 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 12, 2020 Author Share Posted February 12, 2020 2/11 2:30-5:30am awake, feel angry, obsessive thoughts 7:30am 20mcg levothyroxine, water, butt pain, turn heating pad on 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, small breakfast, butt pain, rested, cried 12pm took garbage & recycle bins down, cleaned litter box, took .112mg klonopin (forgot to take at normal time), ate burger & fries 3pm butt pain eases 4:30pm stomachache. Acid, sour stomach, lie with heating pad 5pm epsom salt bath, lie down again 6:30pm try a little dinner 8pm pain in butt returns, lay in bed, watch YouTube 9pm meditation in bed 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 13, 2020 Author Share Posted February 13, 2020 2/12 3am briefly awake but able to fall back asleep! 7:30am 20mcg levothyroxine, water, feel better having slept most of night, butt pain 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast, clean up kitchen, text w/people, fold clothes, hang paintings 10:30am .112mg klonopin, walk in woods, friend calls while starting walk & I talk with her 12pm stop by market on way home & get ginger + plantains, low anxiety in store 1pm make plantain pancakes but upon sampling them, stomach pain begins—maybe too starchy. 1:30pm bit of anxiety attack, throat feels like its closing up, stomach pain 2:30pm stomach pain stops, eat tuna 3pm paint 5pm epsom salt bath, text brother 6:30pm eat dinner 7pm gas & fullness in rear 8:30pm friend stops by 9pm in bed w/heating pad, Henrietta joins me. Small wave of anxiety for no apparent reason, feel shoulders and they are very tight 9:23pm prepare for deep breathing & meditation 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 14, 2020 Author Share Posted February 14, 2020 2/13 early am: scary dreams 7:30am 20mcg levothyroxine, water, some cramping like gut is moving, but no b.m. 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast, rear end pain, do 30-day challenge exercises 10am walk in woods, see bald eagle flying low! Take .112mg klonopin 10:30am 12pm set out for hardware store & grocery store: both have self-checkout, some anxiety, feel a bit surreal 1:30pm eat tuna, spinach—while eating, shoulder & chest tension come, then heart does fluttering thing, not the normal palpitations, more like a weird erratic fluttering. It seemed like it lasted an eternity, even though only 5-10 seconds. Scared, ran downstairs to room and feared death. I haven’t made any drug changes for 2 weeks. ??? 5pm more chest tension, did alternate nostril breathing 6:30pm more muscle tension, lots of anxiety, tried to eat but couldn’t even though hungry, went to room to calm down 7:30pm ate a little, anxiety lifts a little 8:30pm search for Henrietta’s blue ball, find it and play. Heart palpitation 9:15pm in bed, heating pad, deep breathing and prepare for meditation. *spent a good chunk of the day feeling really scared. The heart stuff freaked me out. 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 15, 2020 Author Share Posted February 15, 2020 2/14 6am awoke but dozed in bed for awhile. Felt comfortable because no bad dreams(!) 7:30am 20mcg levothyroxine, water 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast, feel okay, do exercises, put load of laundry in 10:30am .112mg klonopin, walk 12pm call friend who is in hospital , light lunch in room, feel chest tension coming back & worry about heart doing weird things 1:30pm blow debris off roof, clean up beds 3pm paint 5pm nephew arrives, play with him & eat piece of chicken, take epsom salt bath 6:30pm make guacamole, eat more dinner 7pm play with Henrietta, clean up kitchen, cut & weigh more klonopin 9pm in bed, much better day today, less anxiety and more engagement in life. Prepare for meditation & breathing 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
Cathy4 Posted February 16, 2020 Author Share Posted February 16, 2020 2/15 8am 20mcg levothyroxine, water 9am 67.5mgai sertraline, breakfast, a few morning exercises 10am sorted fridge, peeled sweet potatoes for purée, swept kitchen, .112mg klonopin @ 10:30. 12pm walk 1:30pm made chia seed pudding, sweet potato purée, some anxiety & chest tension, feeling of fullness in rear 3pm painted 5:30pm nephew comes to spend night, go to pick up food. Anxiety on drive, start alternate nostril breathing, a bit of derealization 6:30pm eat dinner 7:30pm weird sensations in rear, some shooting pain, play w/nephew a bit, strong derealization 8:30pm make tea, clean up kitchen, worry about weird pains/sensations hope they pass soon 8:45pm in bed, Henrietta joins me, put heating pad on, write notes, prepare for meditation 1999-2006 Luvox, xanax 2007-2009 Prozac, xanax, klonopin 2009-2018 Zoloft, xanax, klonopin 2019 January zoloft 150mg, February 100mg, April 75mg, mid-May 50mg, July 25mg, (xanax .5mg or .25mg as needed) August zoloft 25mg HOLD, CT xanax, reinstate 50mg zoloft, September reinstate 100mg zoloft w/.375 klonopin, mid-September lower to 75mg zoloft 2020 January: .125mg klonopin February 1st: .112mg klonopin February 24th: 60.3mgai zoloft 2020 December 1st: off klonopin completely currently on 15mgai zoloft Link to comment
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