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MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

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12 hours ago, ChessieCat said:

May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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Will I ever get completely healed?

May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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On 8/4/2018 at 1:11 PM, dove said:

Will I ever get completely healed?

Now I am still taking Abilify and methylphenifate

May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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Antipshychotics worse than antidepressants?

 

In my experience it was much worse to leave amisulpride than for example paroxetine.

Is it posible that neuroleptics have worse withdrawal than antidepressants?

 

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May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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Hi Dove,

I can only speak for myself, but I think the neuroleptics are hideous. I am having a heck of a time.

2001- Klonopin 0.125 mg.  2011- increase to 1 mg.  2018- increase to 1.5 mg 

2010- Trials of SSRI's, several.

2011- Saphris 5 mg. CT. 6/2017- retry Saphris 5 mg sublingual, begin taper August 2020 10% taper with scale, and final taper liquid sublingual, August 2019- taper complete!

2011- Geodon 20 mg. Begin taper Sept 2019. 10% liquid taper. 2020: December-5 mg. 2021: Jan-4.5mg. (held Feb.for vacation). March-4mg. Apr-3.6mg. May-3.2mg. June-2.8mg. (Held July for vacation). Aug-2.4mg. Sept.- 2.2mg. Oct. 2mg. Dec 2022 - Taper complete!

2011- Gabapentin 300 mg to present- 2020. Increase 2023 to 400mg.

2014- Vyvanse 20 mg, 2020- Vyvanse 5 mg. Increase August 2022 20mg

2016- Lithium 300 mg, June 2016 - FT.

2017- Cogentin 0.5 mg. June-August 2019- off Cogentin.

2021 - Hydroxyzine 30mg. Holding.

Omeprazole 20 mg and holding, Omega 3's/fish oil, Magnesium

 

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@dove

 

I've merged the new Intro topic your created with your original Intro topic.  Each member has only 1 Intro topic.  This is the place to ask questions about your own situation and where you can journal your progress.  It keeps your history in one place.  Please do not create any more intro topics.

 

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MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

Post 0 updates start here    My tapering program     My Intro (goes to tapering graph)

 VIDEO:   Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management

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13 hours ago, dove said:

Antipshychotics worse than antidepressants?

 

In my experience it was much worse to leave amisulpride than for example paroxetine.

Is it posible that neuroleptics have worse withdrawal than antidepressants?

 

 

It depends on the person. SSRIs, benzos, neuroleptics, they're all powerful and withdrawal from any of them can be debilitating and disabling. Done slowly enough, tapering can minimize withdrawal from any of them.  

 

2020: After 18+ years (entire adult life) on Paxil, a dangerous doctor-led "taper" in 2015, and four years tapering off the last 1 mg thanks to SA and the Brassmonkey slide, 

I AM COMPLETELY FREE OF PAXIL! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Forever.

 

2021: Began conservative, proper, CNS-respecting taper of Zoloft, led by the only expert on me -- me. Making own liquid. 5-10% plus holds.

2022: Holding on Zoloft for now. Current dose 47 mg. Hanging in, hanging on. Severe protracted PAWS, windows and waves. While I may not be doing "a lot" by outside standards, things are graaaaadually getting better

 

Yoga (gentle to medium); walks; daily breath practice; nutrition, fruits/veg; nature; water; EastEnders (lol); practicing self-compassion, self-care; boundaries; connection; allowing feelings; t r u s t ing that I, too, will heal. (--> may need to be reminded of this.)

"You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story." - Baylissa

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Has any female taken Solian here? Did it take your period away?

May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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I think I have never told that amisulpride took my period away

May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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I've just done a quick google on the term:  Amisulpride menstruation

 

From:  wikipedia.org/wiki/Amisulpride

 

"Chemically it is a benzamide and like other benzamide antipsychotics, such as sulpiride, it is associated with a high risk of elevating blood levels of the lactation hormone, prolactin (thereby potentially causing the absence of the menstrual cycle, ..."

* NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA *

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

Post 0 updates start here    My tapering program     My Intro (goes to tapering graph)

 VIDEO:   Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management

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Does anyone have boredom as a withdrawal symtom? Can it also be a symtom the feeling of a general boredom?

May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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Or lack of meaning of life

May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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Yes, I think "boredom" as you have termed it is a withdrawal symptom.  However, it's not boredom in the usual sense of the word.  I think it is related to the anhedonia, cognitive/memory problems and depersonalisation/derealisation withdrawal symptoms.  For me it varies in intensity.  I went from noticing that things needed to be done but not caring about them at all.  Then it changed to noticing and wanting to do something but not having the mental energy to even get up and consider doing them.  This has changed a bit where I have times when I can do some things.  The winter before last I was enjoying crocheting, but this winter I didn't.  This time last year I spent a few months on sewing clothes for myself, including having to trace out the patterns, yet recently I've had the hardest time just making some very simple zippered pouches to hold my headset and coffee things for work.  The most noticeable thing I find is that I will be sitting at the computer and want to be doing something but when I go to do it I stand there and look around and think no, I don't have the mental energy to concentrate on doing it so I give up.  It's very frustrating.

 

During the 3 years I've been tapering I've also noticed that there are times when I can do word puzzles and at other times it's maths puzzles.  I used to play Angry Birds Friends for hours before tapering, then I found that it increased my anxiety so I had to stop.  I can now play it again but only for short periods of time because it still increases the adrenaline too much.  During my taper I had great difficulty reading a book.  I've recently started being able to do this but not to the same extent as I used to.

 

Links:

 

anhedonia-apathy-demotivation-emotional-numbness

 

derealization-or-depersonalization-dr-and-dp

 

brain-fog-blank-mind-comprehension-cognitive-and-memory-problems

* NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA *

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

Post 0 updates start here    My tapering program     My Intro (goes to tapering graph)

 VIDEO:   Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management

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How many years can withdrawal last? For me it has been 10 years now, can it last that long?

May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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are-we-there-yet-how-long-is-withdrawal-going-to-take

 

From this topic:  protracted-withdrawal-or-paws-post-acute-withdrawal-syndrome-how-long-does-it-last

 

Altostrata, this site's founder said back in 2011:

 

On 6/10/2011 at 3:03 AM, Altostrata said:

 

squirrel, no one can say what to do about treating protracted withdrawal syndrome overall because it's a lot of different symptoms. The primary cause probably is a brain center that was affected by the medication -- see one-theory-of-antidepressant-withdrawal-syndrome

 

From there, a lot of systems in the nervous system and the body get bad signals. The symptoms become diffuse.

 

The best we can do is try to reduce symptoms one by one.

 

I've still recovering, at nearly 7 years off Paxil.

 

 

 

And the link to Alto's journey:  about-altostrata-withdrawal-syndrome-since-2004

 

 

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* NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA *

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

Post 0 updates start here    My tapering program     My Intro (goes to tapering graph)

 VIDEO:   Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management

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I am afraid I have developed what is called PSSD, well not exactly PSSD because what I took was not an antidepressant but amisulpride.

The strange thing was that I hadn´t  develop it through all of these years of prolonged withdrawal.

Can you develop PSSD so late in withdrawal or is other thing?

May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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It has been a year now since I developed PSSD

May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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How are your other symptoms, dove?

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Depression has almost gone away, at least the worst syntoms of depression (severe anhedonia, crying, feeling suicidal, insomnia etc) but I still take medication because they force me to do so.

Currently on Abilify and methilphenidate (Ritalin)...

 

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May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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I am trying Evening Primrose oil for pssd, could it help? Or nothing really works for this?

May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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On 2/1/2019 at 4:42 AM, dove said:

Currently on Abilify and methilphenidate (Ritalin)...

 

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* NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA *

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

Post 0 updates start here    My tapering program     My Intro (goes to tapering graph)

 VIDEO:   Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management

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Topic title:  Drug free or not?

 

You end up in the trap that you need the drugs to function but they don't seem to make any effect. It is a tough decission wether to take the drugs or not.

 

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May-August 2006 Risperdal 1mg (left without tapering)

First depressive episode

One year 2006- 2007 Seroxat 60mg (again no taper)

Second depressive episode 8 months free of meds

May- December 2008 Solian 200mg (left it in less than two weeks)

Depression becomes "chronic"                 

February 2018 Abilify 5mg and methylphenidate until now 

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On 2/4/2019 at 6:43 PM, ChessieCat said:

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* NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA *

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

Post 0 updates start here    My tapering program     My Intro (goes to tapering graph)

 VIDEO:   Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management

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* NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA *

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED:  (6 year taper)      0mg Pristiq  on 13th November 2021

ADs since ~1992:  25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021   LAST DOSE 0.0025mg

Post 0 updates start here    My tapering program     My Intro (goes to tapering graph)

 VIDEO:   Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management

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