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Guilietta
On 10/12/2019 at 3:17 AM, Rhiannon said:

that the reinstatement I did back in August seems to have worked great. I am feeling MUCH better, almost completely back to normal.

 

I am so glad for you! Does almost completely back to normal mean your sleep has also improved? I saw the line about NAP NAP NAP.... :)

 

How do you like the Double-Wide? I have thought of these myself - rents are sky high - $1800 for 800-900 square feet 40 miles outside a major US city. The climate for double-wides is not friendly in a cold climate. Does htis mean you have only to rent the space your house is on? 

 

Holdind for the next few months would be a nice gift to your body even though you are anxious to get off everything.

On 10/12/2019 at 3:53 AM, Erell said:

I just read an article about unemployment in USA, and about millions people Being removed from allowances!

 

There are 'help wanted' signs everywhere for jobs in retail, service (coffee shops), and lower level manufacturing jobs. It's a positive change. I hope things turn around in France. I see not so many yellow vests in the news.

 

Rhi - I am so pleased you are 'back to normal' and the bath paint job is returning to full swing. :)

 

 

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Rhiannon
On 10/13/2019 at 7:11 PM, Guilietta said:

 

I am so glad for you! Does almost completely back to normal mean your sleep has also improved? I saw the line about NAP NAP NAP.... :)

 

How do you like the Double-Wide? I have thought of these myself - rents are sky high - $1800 for 800-900 square feet 40 miles outside a major US city. The climate for double-wides is not friendly in a cold climate. Does htis mean you have only to rent the space your house is on? 

 

Holdind for the next few months would be a nice gift to your body even though you are anxious to get off everything.

 

There are 'help wanted' signs everywhere for jobs in retail, service (coffee shops), and lower level manufacturing jobs. It's a positive change. I hope things turn around in France. I see not so many yellow vests in the news.

 

Rhi - I am so pleased you are 'back to normal' and the bath paint job is returning to full swing. :)

 

 

 

Yes, my sleep has been better, although I've been taking codeine cough syrup at night until last night. My sleep was a little worse and I had more morning symptoms again, but pretty close to my WD normal, I would say. We'll see how it goes. I do feel like the WD symptoms that hit in August are mostly gone though, as far as the hypersensitivity to light and sound and the increased anxiety. Feels more like back to my usual.

 

I can usually nap if I have the time but since I have to work--no naps most days. It's always such a treat when I can get one.

 

I like my little house quite a lot but I wish I had done more research about them before I bought it. Mine is in an over-55 community where we own the piece of land it's on, it's an HOA kind of thing, so I was able to get a regular mortgage on it. But they don't appreciate in value like stick built houses do, they supposedly depreciate, and mine is already pretty old and into the range where they can be hard to resell. Also it's on a wood foundation and those can be hard to sell too. However, here in Oregon there is a big housing shortage and we are getting more and more people moving here, so I'm hoping when it comes time to move, that will work in my favor.

 

The bath paint job is not yet full swing, I haven't tackled it again yet, you are optimistic! I appreciate your optimism though, I need the encouragement 🙂

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Guilietta
4 minutes ago, Rhiannon said:

I do feel like the WD symptoms that hit in August are mostly gone though, as far as the hypersensitivity to light and sound and the increased anxiety. Feels more like back to my usual.

 

This is such great news. I am really happy for you - and also that you are sleeping well. Codeine cough syrup or not. :)

 

5 minutes ago, Rhiannon said:

I like my little house quite a lot but I wish I had done more research about them before I bought it. Mine is in an over-55 community where we own the piece of land it's on, it's an HOA kind of thing, so I was able to get a regular mortgage on it. But they don't appreciate in value like stick built houses do, they supposedly depreciate, and mine is already pretty old and into the range where they can be hard to resell. Also it's on a wood foundation and those can be hard to sell too. However, here in Oregon there is a big housing shortage and we are getting more and more people moving here, so I'm hoping when it comes time to move, that will work in my favor.

 

I have seen some double-wides and they are very nice. I hear what you are saying that they don't appreciate in value like stick built homes (or prefabs). If you own the land - that is a good thing. Here people end up selling the house for land value because the house may be older (and smaller). It sounds like you will come out on top though given the supply and demand.

 

You are such a fine writer and so knowledgeable about this - and guiding people in a positive way. Thank you. :) 

 

Hugs,

 

Giuilietta💗😪

 

 

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Erell
12 hours ago, Rhiannon said:

 I do feel like the WD symptoms that hit in August are mostly gone though

What a lovely news !! So glad for you !!! 😙

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Erell

Hi Rhi

I've read that you had a so-so mood these days, so I wanted To send you all my support ! 

Do you have holydays soon ? 

 

Big hugs 

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Rhiannon
1 hour ago, Erell said:

Hi Rhi

I've read that you had a so-so mood these days, so I wanted To send you all my support ! 

Do you have holydays soon ? 

 

Big hugs 

Oh thank you Erell that is very sweet.  I appreciate the support and the hugs.

 

No I don't have any vacation time for a while, until the end of November.  Work isn't too stressful right now though, which is a nice change, it was pretty intense in the summer as we lost a lot of staff. We have some temporary workers now and we have hired new people who are training, so it's better now.

 

I went to the gym yesterday and I think that gave me some energy, I am going to try to go again this morning. Tomorrow I will be having lunch with a friend before work. Then my weekend is quite busy as my younger daughter will be in the city visiting my older daughter (about 100 km from where I live) and I will go to spend Saturday evening and Sunday morning there with them and with the grandbaby. It should be fun. I think we are going to go to a farm and buy a pumpkin on Saturday and then carve it on Sunday. 

 

I can't remember, is pumpkin carving for Halloween something that is done in France?

 

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Erell

I'm glad To hear that things are easier at work! And congratulations on the motivation To go To the gym ;) not always easy To find motivation when one is working ! ;)

When I worked, I used To tell me every night : "ok tomorrow i'll make some exercise"...good  résolutions 😉

 

That sounds like a really lovely weekend! Happy times in family are priceless !

 

About Halloween  : pumpkin carving is done in France, but I think Halloween is less présent in France than in USA. Actually, I never really did anything for Halloween so I'm the wrong person To talk about it 😉

 

Kisses!

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getofflex

Rhiannon, what an incredible story.  You have truly been though hell.  You are very strong and courageous for dealing with all these issues head on, and not trying to escape it all through drugs.  I haven't read the entire thread, just the first first post, but I must say it is a miracle you came through all of this so well. 

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Erell

Hi dear Rhi !

I've been thinking of you this weekend! 

How did the french talking go ? Tu as réussi à papoter ? :)

 

I hope that you had a great time with your petite-fille! How is she doing ?

 

Hugs To you !

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Rhiannon
On 10/25/2019 at 6:24 AM, getofflex said:

Rhiannon, what an incredible story.  You have truly been though hell.  You are very strong and courageous for dealing with all these issues head on, and not trying to escape it all through drugs.  I haven't read the entire thread, just the first first post, but I must say it is a miracle you came through all of this so well. 

Thank you. Most of the time I can look at my life and be grateful for where I have come. Other times I am just angry about how much better it could have been, and how much I was harmed by other people when I either was too little to protect myself, or was older but didn't know the truth about the drugs I was taking.

 

I think today I am...well, not exactly happy, but mostly at peace with my life. It is what it is. I do try to escape sometimes, mostly with television or Twitter, but really there is nowhere to go, you know? You always come back to yourself.

 

Some days I think about my life and I feel proud, like a hero. That's the best take on it, I think. I try to remember that one. 🙂

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Rhiannon
23 hours ago, Erell said:

Hi dear Rhi !

I've been thinking of you this weekend! 

How did the french talking go ? Tu as réussi à papoter ? :)

 

I hope that you had a great time with your petite-fille! How is she doing ?

 

Hugs To you !

 Papoter maybe not, but I did manage to say a few words correctly and to communicate a little, with much waving of hands and facial expressions, lol!

 

The little one is doing great. She's a funny little thing, very intelligent and sensitive and serious. Sometimes normal life situations are harder for her than for the other kids, she is sensitive to loud noises and too-boisterous activity frightens her. Her mother was the same way. But she seems to have her mother's courageous attitude and as long as she is not overwhelmed by the challenges, she will push herself and make an adventure out of anything.

 

These days everything is motion--jumping, running, rolling, climbing! She is advanced in language, so even though she is only three and a half she is starting to like chapter books with not so many pictures. She's also very affectionate and silly and cuddly.

 

I guess I could go on talking about her all day! She's my heart. 🙂

 

 

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Erell

Haha I totally can imagine the waving of hands and the facial expression  😄

 

Your love for your petite-fille sweat from your words  (don't know if this french colloquial is right in English) : she  is very Lucky To have une mamie like you  !

 

I'm glad To hear that this weekend was great, can't wait To hear about next adventure! 😄

 

Good day !

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Guilietta

Hello Rhi

 

I have been wondering what you have been doing and how you are feeling. What good news you saw your 'heart'. I know she treasures time she spends with you. :)

 

About how many hours do work a week? Is it M-F or weekends?  I hope hte new staff is working out - adjusting and getting trained and fitting with the culture.

 

4 hours ago, Rhiannon said:

Most of the time I can look at my life and be grateful for where I have come. Other times I am just angry about how much better it could have been,

4 hours ago, Rhiannon said:

mostly at peace with my life. It is what it is.

 

I agree. Mostly of the time I am grateful for what I have - the good things I have been able to do and what I have. You didn't ask for the terrible things that happened to you - including these so called medications. As you said - it is what it is. You (and most of the human race) continue to strive for something better than they have - and to have control over our lives. Like you - I find some kind of escape in television. Even at night when I'm not suppsoed to be watch TV - it is more relaxing (I wear amber glasses :) ) than doing things I am supposed to be doing - gratitude lists, meditating/being, etc. -  maybe because I am forced to confront my life.

 

Have you considered what you do to be to be more happy? It  is a place to start. I was once told I should always have a goal to shoot for and work towards it. It is elusive.

 

4 hours ago, Rhiannon said:

but really there is nowhere to go, you know? You always come back to yourself.

 

What do you mean by this?

 

I have been thinking of you - not had a chance to stop by to check on you, too. I am grateful you look in me once in a while.  🤗

 

Hugs,

Giuilietta 🌹

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ShiningLight
11 hours ago, Rhiannon said:

Most of the time I can look at my life and be grateful for where I have come. Other times I am just angry about how much better it could have been, and how much I was harmed by other people when I either was too little to protect myself, or was older but didn't know the truth about the drugs I was taking.

 

I think today I am...well, not exactly happy, but mostly at peace with my life.

 

Rhi, I relate to all of it, though not currently in much of a gratitude cycle. Seems to be a bit of a demolition cycle for me personally at the moment. But anyway just wanted to let you know I'm with you. I'm sorry you have to struggle through this too--but as long as you do, it is comforting to hear you talk about it! Peace has become my new goal.

 

I'm very happy that your reinstatement continues to go well!

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Guilietta
7 hours ago, ShiningLight said:

not currently in much of a gratitude cycle. Seems to be a bit of a demolition cycle for me

 

Demolition is one way of thinking about this. ;)

 

I  try be grateful and positive - to 'accept' it with serenity. And to problem solve to the extent I can - by how can I do to improve my situation. I know I need to ask others to help me find my way out of this box. 😢

 

Hugs to you Rhi -

 

Guilietta

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Guilietta

Dear Rhi,

 

Congratulations to you on your 'new'? status as a mentor. I noticed htis morning and I am so proud and pleased you have this special recognition.

 

Hugs,

 

Giuilietta 💗

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Erell

Hi dear Rhiannon!

 

Thank you so much for sharing régularly your wisdom with us 😙

How was your weekend ? 

 

Hugs

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Rhiannon

🙂 Well, I ended up having to work 5 hours yesterday to help cover for somebody who called in sick. Right now it's 11:12 my time so my weekend is still in progress. I'm planning to meet with friends soon and go to a high-school play this afternoon, which is always fun. I also got a little bit more painting done last night after work and hope to get a little more done tonight so at least I am making some progress with that. I did have some issues with my gut problems this morning but that seems to be settling down.

 

Hugs to you too, have a good night!

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Erell

Oups, sorry for shorten your weekend! 😉

Glad To know the painting is in progress ! :)

Oh yes, I love seeing play! I have a friend who works in a theater, and sometimes she gives me tickets ;) It is so Nice To just sit in an armchair and let people tell you stories 😘

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Adili13

Hey Rhiannon,

 

Your posts have been a source of inspiration to me all throughout my taper/WD experience. I’m sorry if it’s rude of me to ask for you to take a gander at my page on your page. I know this is your space to talk about your own issues and struggles in WD. Just thought I’d give it a shot. 
 

P.S. Rhiannon has always been my favorite fleetwood song! 
 

Anthony 

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Erell

Hello dear Rhi, 

 

Thinking of you in this week of extra work.

I see that despite your very active life and work you spend time on here : I wanna thank you for all the positivity  you share with us , you are a gem ❤

 

Hope you take care of yourself 😙

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