Administrator Altostrata Posted March 1, 2020 Administrator Share Posted March 1, 2020 Since you went off citalopram, when did you start to feel worse? Who told you to skip doses of Pristiq to taper? When you were taking citalopram, did you ever forget or skip a dose? Please take 1mg citalopram at the same time each day. It's very important that you be consistent. You need to note how you feel BEFORE and AFTER you take it. Do you have any new symptoms after you take it? When was the last time you took Ativan? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 1, 2020 Author Share Posted March 1, 2020 10 minutes ago, Altostrata said: Since you went off citalopram, when did you start to feel worse? Who told you to skip doses of Pristiq to taper? When you were taking citalopram, did you ever forget or skip a dose? Please take 1mg citalopram at the same time each day. It's very important that you be consistent. You need to note how you feel BEFORE and AFTER you take it. Do you have any new symptoms after you take it? When was the last time you took Ativan? When i went off celexa i think it was a month before major symptoms. With pristiq nobody told me i was just doing it myself..i realize now that wasnt good. Sometimes i missed a doze for celexa but usually ever day in the morning. I havent taken a ativan since feb 3. I havent notice any difference before or after i have been taking celexa 1mg but i have been putting the daily notes on here. I was given advice on here if i wanted to move the celexa time to morning to do it 1hr eatlier each day . Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 1, 2020 Author Share Posted March 1, 2020 13 hours ago, Ella56 said: When i went off celexa i think it was a month before major symptoms. With pristiq nobody told me i was just doing it myself..i realize now that wasnt good. Sometimes i missed a doze for celexa but usually ever day in the morning. I havent taken a ativan since feb 3. I havent notice any difference before or after i have been taking celexa 1mg but i have been putting the daily notes on here. I was given advice on here if i wanted to move the celexa time to morning to do it 1hr eatlier each day . Just wanted to say i realize now Celexa always gave me anxiety and depression and maybe stopped working long before i stopped it. That is why i tried the other meds. I have more anxiety and crying last few days on 1 mg celexa. Only saying this because pristiq i was on for 3 months and felt better but wanted off meds and was afraid of the stories i heard about it. Just wondering should i have taken low doze of pristiq if it worked better as a ad for me? I am having constant strong anxiety in my stomach which i dont think i had as much before reinstate. Just a q not changing. Also just wanted to say i can feel the cortisol or whatever it is just draining into my stomach last night. Can u explain this..what is happening ? Thank you Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Colonial Posted March 1, 2020 Share Posted March 1, 2020 Can you explain what you mean by: " I can feel the cortisol or whatever it is draining into my stomach"? Cortisol is a stress hormone in Your glands. Starting ds 2 (12.5 CR'S) = 25 MG PAXIL CR 1/21/15: 1 Pill + 10mg liquid (2 weeks) 2/4: 1 Pill + 9mg Lq (3 weeks) 2/25: 1 Pill + 8 mg lq (1 week) 3/4: 1 Pill + 6 mg lq (2 weeks) 3/18/15 1 Pill + 4 mg lq (2 weeks) 4/1/15 1 Pill + 3 mg lq (2 weeks) 4/14/15 1 Pill + 2 mg lq (2 weeks) 4/29/15 1Pill + 1 mg lq (16 days) 5/15/15 1 12.5 mg Pill ONLY (9 days) 5/24/15 12 mgs liquid (8 days) 6/1/15 11mg lq (12 days) 6/13/15 10 mg. 12/3/15 Drop from 8mg to 7.6 (24 days to) 12/27/15 7.2mgs 8/4/16 6.8mgs, 11/1/16 6.4mgs, 2/5/17 6 mgs 4/3/17 5.6mgs, 4/24/17 5.2mg, 6/13/17 4.8mgs, 9/20/17 4.4mgS, 11/23/17 4 mgs, 1/1/18 3.6 mgs, 2/15/18 3.2 mgs. 4/13/18 2.8mgs, 5/11/18 2.4mgs, 6/10/18 2.0 mgs, 8/4/18 1.6mgs, 9/27/18 1.2mgs, 12/24/18 0.8mg, 3/24/19 0.64 mg,(syringe change issue date?) 4/22/19 0.60 mg, 5/24/19 0.60 mg, 7/7/19 0.52 mgs, 8/4/19 0.44mgs, 11/4/19 0.36mgs, 2/1/20 0.28mgs, 3/1/20 0.24mgs (crash April 6) Compound started 6/28/21: 0.24mgs, 8/29/21: 0.22mgs, 10/31/21: 0.20mgs, 1/03/22: 0.18mgs, 3/5/22: 0.16mgs, 5/5/22: 0.14mgs. Original Wellbutrin Dose: 6 months from 9/14 to 3/2015, 300 XL 3/15/15: Half to 150 XL ( severe symptoms started on day 12) 4/16/15: 125mg for 20 days to: 5/6/15: 100mg for 15 days to: 5/21/15 75mg for 10 days to: 6/1/15: 56.25mg 13 days to: 6/13/15: 37.25mg 7 days to: 6/20/15 28.12mg 14 days to: 7/4/15 18.75mg, 7 days to: 7/11/15; RAISE BACK TO: 28.12 to 8/14/15: 18.75mg 20 days to :9/3/15 : 12.5mg, 8/4/16 9mg 1/9/17: 8.5mg 2/8/17 8mg, 3/9/17: 7.6 4/9/17 7.2 5/27/17 6.4 6/24/17 5.8, 8/1/17 5.0, 8/29/17 4.2mgs, 10/2/17 3.5mgs, 12/28/17 2.5mgs, 2/27/18 1.7mgs, 4/19/18 0.8 mgs, LAST DOSE: 6/11/18: 3 YEARS, 2 MONTHS, 27 DAYS... Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 1, 2020 Author Share Posted March 1, 2020 16 minutes ago, Colonial said: Can you explain what you mean by: " I can feel the cortisol or whatever it is draining into my stomach"? Cortisol is a stress hormone in Your glands. Sorry i didnt know how to explain it.... It feels like a chemical release when i feel.panic terror or anxiety. Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Colonial Posted March 1, 2020 Share Posted March 1, 2020 Got it 🙂 It's incredible all the different ways our bodies express Our symptoms. Hope you have a better day! Starting ds 2 (12.5 CR'S) = 25 MG PAXIL CR 1/21/15: 1 Pill + 10mg liquid (2 weeks) 2/4: 1 Pill + 9mg Lq (3 weeks) 2/25: 1 Pill + 8 mg lq (1 week) 3/4: 1 Pill + 6 mg lq (2 weeks) 3/18/15 1 Pill + 4 mg lq (2 weeks) 4/1/15 1 Pill + 3 mg lq (2 weeks) 4/14/15 1 Pill + 2 mg lq (2 weeks) 4/29/15 1Pill + 1 mg lq (16 days) 5/15/15 1 12.5 mg Pill ONLY (9 days) 5/24/15 12 mgs liquid (8 days) 6/1/15 11mg lq (12 days) 6/13/15 10 mg. 12/3/15 Drop from 8mg to 7.6 (24 days to) 12/27/15 7.2mgs 8/4/16 6.8mgs, 11/1/16 6.4mgs, 2/5/17 6 mgs 4/3/17 5.6mgs, 4/24/17 5.2mg, 6/13/17 4.8mgs, 9/20/17 4.4mgS, 11/23/17 4 mgs, 1/1/18 3.6 mgs, 2/15/18 3.2 mgs. 4/13/18 2.8mgs, 5/11/18 2.4mgs, 6/10/18 2.0 mgs, 8/4/18 1.6mgs, 9/27/18 1.2mgs, 12/24/18 0.8mg, 3/24/19 0.64 mg,(syringe change issue date?) 4/22/19 0.60 mg, 5/24/19 0.60 mg, 7/7/19 0.52 mgs, 8/4/19 0.44mgs, 11/4/19 0.36mgs, 2/1/20 0.28mgs, 3/1/20 0.24mgs (crash April 6) Compound started 6/28/21: 0.24mgs, 8/29/21: 0.22mgs, 10/31/21: 0.20mgs, 1/03/22: 0.18mgs, 3/5/22: 0.16mgs, 5/5/22: 0.14mgs. Original Wellbutrin Dose: 6 months from 9/14 to 3/2015, 300 XL 3/15/15: Half to 150 XL ( severe symptoms started on day 12) 4/16/15: 125mg for 20 days to: 5/6/15: 100mg for 15 days to: 5/21/15 75mg for 10 days to: 6/1/15: 56.25mg 13 days to: 6/13/15: 37.25mg 7 days to: 6/20/15 28.12mg 14 days to: 7/4/15 18.75mg, 7 days to: 7/11/15; RAISE BACK TO: 28.12 to 8/14/15: 18.75mg 20 days to :9/3/15 : 12.5mg, 8/4/16 9mg 1/9/17: 8.5mg 2/8/17 8mg, 3/9/17: 7.6 4/9/17 7.2 5/27/17 6.4 6/24/17 5.8, 8/1/17 5.0, 8/29/17 4.2mgs, 10/2/17 3.5mgs, 12/28/17 2.5mgs, 2/27/18 1.7mgs, 4/19/18 0.8 mgs, LAST DOSE: 6/11/18: 3 YEARS, 2 MONTHS, 27 DAYS... Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 2, 2020 Author Share Posted March 2, 2020 Sat evening feb 29 reinstate 5th day 830 pm headache and tired. Omega 600mg vit e 400 magnesium100mg Feel adrenaline. 930 pm watching tv dont enjoy. 1130 pm went to sleep Sunday morn march 1 7am woke up ok 8am depressed thoughts ringing in my ear/head. Headache not to bad. 9am anxiety again. 1030 agitation .scared yelled in my car, 12pm went out lunch w friend talked about what is going on. Only person i can talk to. 2pm back home took 1MG CELEX..agitation still 230 went for walk up hill..might help with agitation.. but it was too much made me dizzy./ringing in my head 3pm had a nap 430 feeling depressed. 6pm dinner. Roommate is noticing im more agitated. Hard to take all these emotions. Will try a epsom bath now to relax. Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 2, 2020 Author Share Posted March 2, 2020 13 hours ago, Ella56 said: Just wanted to say i realize now Celexa always gave me anxiety and depression and maybe stopped working long before i stopped it. That is why i tried the other meds. I have more anxiety and crying last few days on 1 mg celexa. Only saying this because pristiq i was on for 3 months and felt better but wanted off meds and was afraid of the stories i heard about it. Just wondering should i have taken low doze of pristiq if it worked better as a ad for me? I am having constant strong anxiety in my stomach which i dont think i had as much before reinstate. Just a q not changing. Also just wanted to say i can feel the cortisol or whatever it is just draining into my stomach last night. Can u explain this..what is happening ? Thank you @Altostrata can you please read what i wrote about celexa and pristiq and let me know your opinion? i went up and down a lot when i was on celexa usually 10 on 20mg. I was wrong about what I wrote about anxiety i had about the same.. Thank you Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted March 2, 2020 Administrator Share Posted March 2, 2020 On 3/1/2020 at 8:19 AM, Ella56 said: Only saying this because pristiq i was on for 3 months and felt better but wanted off meds You felt better when you were taking Pristiq? Please explain. This is important. I believe your Celexa "poop-out" might be because you forgot to take it occasionally and became resistant to its effects. What do you mean by "agitated"? Please take 1mg Celexa at the same time each day. We need to know how you feel before and after you take it. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 2, 2020 Author Share Posted March 2, 2020 When i was on pristiq i didnt have anxiety and I had energy...i dont remember why i went off..i think i was sick of medicated...i cant remember the other reason..it didnt fix everything(grief) and i heard it was hard to get off of. Is one easier then the other i dont know. I took celexa regularly but went up and down on it..but always had anxiety and depression on it off and on. Just a feeling of agitation...cant relax, anxiety..irritated easy. . I am trying to take celexa at 9am because i know i am home then and it is to be refrigerated. But right now taking in afternoon and that wont work with my pt work schedule so trying to move it up 1 hr each day towards that goal. Is that ok? Thanks Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 3, 2020 Author Share Posted March 3, 2020 Sunday march 1 8pm 400 vit e 1200 omegas, mag 100mg, Thought. Where an I, i dont know. Feeling of disconnection 10pm bed. Awake on and off all night. Monday march 2 8am breakfast 600 omegas 10 am shaky, ringing in my head, no focus. 1pm lunch and 1mg Celexa 2pm went for walk anxiety, Feel i lost 6 months..feels surreal 5pm dinner. Feeling down diassociating a bit.. because scared to be rejected and explain to friend why i am the way i am. Sweating off and on last 2 days. Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted March 3, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 3, 2020 (edited) Hi Ella56, 8 hours ago, Altostrata said: Please take 1mg Celexa at the same time each day. We need to know how you feel before and after you take it. I think it might be a great idea to just hold your dose at the present time now. Looks like you've moved it back to 1 pm from a nighttime dose, as I told you too, after you were experiencing insomnia and restlessness. This will better allow us, you, and us moderators, to see how your reinstatement is going. And how you feel before and after each dose. So stick with the 1 pm dose, from here on out, okay? 1 mg Celexa at 1 pm. That's easy to remember too! You've gotten it moved earlier enough now. And with you just at 7 days now, post reinstatement, this will help to know if it's helping. We don't want to have too many variables in the mix right now. And I think you may have used different forms too, to get the 1 mg celexa, as well. What form are you taking now? e.g. homemade liquid, pharmacy liquid, or part of a pill/tablet? Try to also stay consistent with your present form. Any improvement in symptoms, during this past 7 days. I think most of your symptoms were present before the reinstatement? Is this correct. The insomnia, shaky, anxiety, and surreal-ness. Sometimes, improvement in WD symptoms, after reinstatement can take longer than just the 7 days. So hold tight. Are any symptoms worse? And okay, that's my peep. You are being a trooper. And keep up with the notes too! You are doing good with those. Do add in the whole 24 hours, if you can, just note bedtime, and then sleep, after the fact. Always note when you take your drug and the dose. And any symptoms before and after. Some of the notes have large gaps. Good job though, in any case! You're trying. Refer on back to the sample note, in the link, if need be. L, P, H, and G, mmt Edited March 3, 2020 by manymoretodays Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 3, 2020 Author Share Posted March 3, 2020 Ok will take doze at 1pm this week i will have to take in cooler to work..was trying to get it to 9am because i know i will be home for sure. I am taking pharmacy liquid form. The symptoms i have now that i didnt have before reinstatement are more depression, afraid to be rejected withdrawing from people..cant explain to them and not being patient with myself,..withdrawing into myself want to crawl in a ball, also headaches but they are going away. Anxiety a lot but i have been going for walks everyday and epsom baths teying to combat that. Improvements are my muscle are not as sore and been reflecting on what has happened to me these last 6 months, but cant get it clear because I am still messed up and not out of it and really traumatized by it all. i am concerned about the down withdrawn feelings, depression and anxiety..it is worse I think. Sleep is about the same good days and bad days. On celexa, it helped at first but I had depression and anxiety while on it, as much as i can remember now, but i didnt make a change...because too busy and it kept me just afloat and I used ativan intermittently..o5 for years for the anxiety. I havent taken any Ativan since feb 3. My memory is not good and brain fog. Thank you. Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted March 3, 2020 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted March 3, 2020 (edited) Good then. If you do wind up taking Ativan again, please put it in your notes. The reinstatement is not meant, at all, to work like you expected the drug to before. It's more meant to reduce WD symptoms, if only by a bit. It's the only medically known way to treat withdrawal. And we go with just the little doses, to see if it will help. Like I said, it might help........a little more time with it, may tell. Keep the notes coming Ella56. And 6 minutes ago, Ella56 said: Ok will take doze at 1pm this week i will have to take in cooler to work..was trying to get it to 9am because i know i will be home for sure. I am taking pharmacy liquid form. Okay, thanks. Good, good on your non-drug coping too. Sounds like a little improvement, and then some WD symptoms too. To be expected now. 8 minutes ago, Ella56 said: i am concerned about the down withdrawn feelings, depression and anxiety..it is worse I think. Sleep is about the same good days and bad days. Yes. Could be some of the neuroemotions coming into play now. I think, if I were you, I'd stay with the 1 mg now, keep the notes coming, so we can see clearly, how symptoms correlate with your dose now. Same dose, same time, same formula. You are doing good Ella56. We all understand here. You are among friends who "get it". Okay? L, P, H, and G, mmt Edited March 3, 2020 by manymoretodays Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 3, 2020 Author Share Posted March 3, 2020 One month ago i was at the hospital lost, crying and didnt know if i could make it..still scared to dream I will be well some day. One week ago i found this site. Nobody should have to go through this. Praying for all our healing! Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 3, 2020 Author Share Posted March 3, 2020 Celexa always made me feel i am not authentic. Makes me feel i am behind a wall to myself. That is probably why i kept going up and down in doze. But i didnt realize that at the time. I should of went off of this years ago but i had trauma and lots of stress. I didnt realize i probably would of dealt with life better without it. It has a part of my brain controlled. Makes me afraid of being seen. Vulnerable. False self. I already have abandonment attachment issues... Maybe that is why but makes those comes out more. Feel like I am screaming inside to find myself on it. It controls me and i am pushing against it. I am only on it to help my nervous system. I dont want my nervous system dependant on it or controlled by it. I'm only on it to bring Comfort a bit to the system. I want off as soon as possible. Emotional this morning talked to daughter last night...she doesnt understand and starting to feel she thinks she has it all together and im not..makes me feel sad. She has things but in denial.. thats most of my family. So not supportive. Now tgat i am at a place where i am really healing they dont get it. Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Rozon1 Posted March 3, 2020 Share Posted March 3, 2020 Hey @Ella56 how are you feeling? Example: 2018 - Started Effexor 37.5 in Janurary of 2018 2019 January, 2nd - Cold Turkeyed from Effexor for 3 days. Reinstated on the third day, then stabilized(It took 3 months to stabilize) 2019 June - I switched from Effexor instant release to Extended Release 37.5 for better tapering. I tapered to 50% in 4 weeks before reinstating my dosage back to 37.5(due to withdrawls). I waited 2 months to stabilize but never did at 37.5 2019 September - continued to taper in to 25% on extended release 2019 October - continued to taper to half of the beads(18.75mg)... WIthdrawls were so bad I tried switching back to the instant release at the same dosage(18.75mg) 2019 November 28th - Discontinued effexor at 18.75 without anymore tapering. 2020 January - Just can't sleep, have constipation, low libido and still lack of full emotion Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 3, 2020 Author Share Posted March 3, 2020 7 minutes ago, Rozon1 said: Hey @Ella56 how are you feeling? I just posted what I felt both Celexa now and in the past. I'm just trying to find some balance everyday. Trusting the mods their advice. How are you doing? Have you made any decisions / changes and doing nothing is a decision too. Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Rozon1 Posted March 3, 2020 Share Posted March 3, 2020 Hey @Ella56 I guess I missed that. And no, I haven’t made a decision yet. Reading what you just posted about celexa making you feel that way, I understand, too. Effexor made me feel like I was sorta behind a wall as well. It’s just not your natural self, so I can completely relate. I’m a bit past the 3 month reinstatement window. Anxiety has calmed but no where near it was. Woke up this morning with it debating on reinstatement, lol. My mental self is returning day by day but my physical symptoms are not subsiding. And if they are, I certainly cannot tell. I want to keep updated with you. I hope you start to see some improvements soon. Example: 2018 - Started Effexor 37.5 in Janurary of 2018 2019 January, 2nd - Cold Turkeyed from Effexor for 3 days. Reinstated on the third day, then stabilized(It took 3 months to stabilize) 2019 June - I switched from Effexor instant release to Extended Release 37.5 for better tapering. I tapered to 50% in 4 weeks before reinstating my dosage back to 37.5(due to withdrawls). I waited 2 months to stabilize but never did at 37.5 2019 September - continued to taper in to 25% on extended release 2019 October - continued to taper to half of the beads(18.75mg)... WIthdrawls were so bad I tried switching back to the instant release at the same dosage(18.75mg) 2019 November 28th - Discontinued effexor at 18.75 without anymore tapering. 2020 January - Just can't sleep, have constipation, low libido and still lack of full emotion Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 3, 2020 Author Share Posted March 3, 2020 5 minutes ago, Rozon1 said: Hey @Ella56 I guess I missed that. And no, I haven’t made a decision yet. Reading what you just posted about celexa making you feel that way, I understand, too. Effexor made me feel like I was sorta behind a wall as well. It’s just not your natural self, so I can completely relate. I’m a bit past the 3 month reinstatement window. Anxiety has calmed but no where near it was. Woke up this morning with it debating on reinstatement, lol. My mental self is returning day by day but my physical symptoms are not subsiding. And if they are, I certainly cannot tell. I want to keep updated with you. I hope you start to see some improvements soon. If you see improvement, that is great. Why would u reinstate? I dont mind u updating with me. Giving yourself downtime from this is good too Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Rozon1 Posted March 3, 2020 Share Posted March 3, 2020 Hey, @Ella56 it’s because my nervous system is certainly in a bad place, I can tell. I just don’t have faith it’ll recover. That’s why I always lean back on the reinstating. My sleep is still broken. I sleep about 2/3 hours before I wake up. I cant really feel tired. It’s just that my body seems to always be “on” and it’s certainly frustrating as well as scary. Reinstating kinda gives me that “if I do this, it would calm my nervous system down” but who knows. hows your sleep as of late? How is your daughter taking all of this? You’re strong! You and I are getting through this no matter what we do! Example: 2018 - Started Effexor 37.5 in Janurary of 2018 2019 January, 2nd - Cold Turkeyed from Effexor for 3 days. Reinstated on the third day, then stabilized(It took 3 months to stabilize) 2019 June - I switched from Effexor instant release to Extended Release 37.5 for better tapering. I tapered to 50% in 4 weeks before reinstating my dosage back to 37.5(due to withdrawls). I waited 2 months to stabilize but never did at 37.5 2019 September - continued to taper in to 25% on extended release 2019 October - continued to taper to half of the beads(18.75mg)... WIthdrawls were so bad I tried switching back to the instant release at the same dosage(18.75mg) 2019 November 28th - Discontinued effexor at 18.75 without anymore tapering. 2020 January - Just can't sleep, have constipation, low libido and still lack of full emotion Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 3, 2020 Author Share Posted March 3, 2020 4 minutes ago, Rozon1 said: Hey, @Ella56 it’s because my nervous system is certainly in a bad place, I can tell. I just don’t have faith it’ll recover. That’s why I always lean back on the reinstating. My sleep is still broken. I sleep about 2/3 hours before I wake up. I can really feel tired. It’s just that my body seems to always be “on” and it’s certainly frustrating as well as scary. Reinstating kinda gives me that “if I do this, it would calm my nervous system down” but who knows. hows your sleep as of late? How is your daughter taking all of this? You’re strong! You and I are getting through this no matter what we do! Have you been given any suggestions like magnesium and omegas bedtime? Just going for a short visit with neighbour ..thats all i handle get tired easy. Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Rozon1 Posted March 3, 2020 Share Posted March 3, 2020 @Ella56 I sure have! Not sure I’m going to do either to be honest. I’ve read overall mixed reviews from previous members. I did the fish oil for two weeks but I was in a really bad wave, I wasn’t sure if the fish oil made it worse or not. I’m not really in a financial way to continue supplementing myself at the moment anyways. I just think if the body is going to heal itself, it’s going to do it, regardless. but I’d definitely try it if you haven’t yet. although I do admit, my sleep has improved overall but it’s still broken and I never feel tired. It’s discouraging to say the least. Example: 2018 - Started Effexor 37.5 in Janurary of 2018 2019 January, 2nd - Cold Turkeyed from Effexor for 3 days. Reinstated on the third day, then stabilized(It took 3 months to stabilize) 2019 June - I switched from Effexor instant release to Extended Release 37.5 for better tapering. I tapered to 50% in 4 weeks before reinstating my dosage back to 37.5(due to withdrawls). I waited 2 months to stabilize but never did at 37.5 2019 September - continued to taper in to 25% on extended release 2019 October - continued to taper to half of the beads(18.75mg)... WIthdrawls were so bad I tried switching back to the instant release at the same dosage(18.75mg) 2019 November 28th - Discontinued effexor at 18.75 without anymore tapering. 2020 January - Just can't sleep, have constipation, low libido and still lack of full emotion Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 3, 2020 Author Share Posted March 3, 2020 1 hour ago, Rozon1 said: @Ella56 I sure have! Not sure I’m going to do either to be honest. I’ve read overall mixed reviews from previous members. I did the fish oil for two weeks but I was in a really bad wave, I wasn’t sure if the fish oil made it worse or not. I’m not really in a financial way to continue supplementing myself at the moment anyways. I just think if the body is going to heal itself, it’s going to do it, regardless. but I’d definitely try it if you haven’t yet. although I do admit, my sleep has improved overall but it’s still broken and I never feel tired. It’s discouraging to say the least. I take a higher DHA Omega because the brain heals itself while you are sleeping. I buy a higher DHA then epa because the dha works more on the cognitive and EPA body inflammation. Glad u are getting sleep..so important. Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 4, 2020 Author Share Posted March 4, 2020 March 2 evening 8pm omega mag vit e 11pm bed slept til 6am. Slept ok only awoke once. 8am ringing in my head 9am breakfast dizzy 11am met friend told him a bit of what dealing with 1pm lunch , highenergy but anxiety not to bad.Took 1 mg celexa 4pm feel sometimes frustrated feeling like..screaming it outward or sometimes to punch myself stomach when it feels so bad..its my stomach is where i feel the sick feeling the most..like self harm feeling. 6pm dinner had a emotional moment a past event i am still trying to heal. Omega and vit e 8pm really too busy of a day. I am trying to take it easy but it wasnt. Trying to put lots of self care in each day. Bath now. Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 5, 2020 Author Share Posted March 5, 2020 March 2 evening 8pm omega mag vit e 11pm bed slept til 6am. Slept ok only awoke once. 8am ringing in my head 9am breakfast dizzy 11am met friend told him a bit of what dealing with 1pm lunch , highenergy but anxiety not to bad.Took 1 mg celexa 4pm feel sometimes frustrated feeling like..screaming it outward or sometimes to punch myself stomach when it feels so bad..its my stomach is where i feel the sick feeling the most..like self harm feeling. 6pm dinner had a emotional moment a past event i am still trying to heal. Omega and vit e 8pm really too busy of a day. I am trying to take it easy but it wasnt. Trying to put lots of self care in each day. Bath now. Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 5, 2020 Author Share Posted March 5, 2020 March 3rd 8pm omega vit e probiotics 10pm emotional very painful in my stomach 11pm bed still feel bad 430am woke up still feelbad 8am crying..hard night 9am omega vit e breakfast 12 still emotional 1pm took 1 mg celexa 3pm so tired had a slerp til 430pm 6pm depressed 7 dinner 930 pm going to bed. Real tired feeling depressed. Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Rozon1 Posted March 5, 2020 Share Posted March 5, 2020 Hey @Ella56 good to see you do your updates. Have you seen any improvement since when you first reinstated till now? Or do you generally feel the same? Example: 2018 - Started Effexor 37.5 in Janurary of 2018 2019 January, 2nd - Cold Turkeyed from Effexor for 3 days. Reinstated on the third day, then stabilized(It took 3 months to stabilize) 2019 June - I switched from Effexor instant release to Extended Release 37.5 for better tapering. I tapered to 50% in 4 weeks before reinstating my dosage back to 37.5(due to withdrawls). I waited 2 months to stabilize but never did at 37.5 2019 September - continued to taper in to 25% on extended release 2019 October - continued to taper to half of the beads(18.75mg)... WIthdrawls were so bad I tried switching back to the instant release at the same dosage(18.75mg) 2019 November 28th - Discontinued effexor at 18.75 without anymore tapering. 2020 January - Just can't sleep, have constipation, low libido and still lack of full emotion Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 5, 2020 Author Share Posted March 5, 2020 @Rozon1 I think the symptoms are not as bad. Luckily i am on medical leave so do as much self care as possible. So tired today but have 2 commitments. I looked at your signature and see your tapering before and reinstating. I only reinstated at a really low doze. You could do that and might help you get a little relief and then stabilize til ready to go off totally again...even lower reinstatement then me. These drugs are so powerful that 1mg can make a difference. Only thankful it is. I am new to this so dont want to presume I know anything yet. I eat a raw diet 50% now. Take high omegas, and mags, no sugar or coffee. It all helps i think. Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Rozon1 Posted March 5, 2020 Share Posted March 5, 2020 Hey @Ella56 for sure. Foods don’t really seem to have much of an effect on me, thankfully. My feeling of terror and doom has gone but has been replaced with normal anxiety due to my physical symptoms. So I’m debating on rather I want to reinstate or not. I’m glad you’re feeling a bit better. Example: 2018 - Started Effexor 37.5 in Janurary of 2018 2019 January, 2nd - Cold Turkeyed from Effexor for 3 days. Reinstated on the third day, then stabilized(It took 3 months to stabilize) 2019 June - I switched from Effexor instant release to Extended Release 37.5 for better tapering. I tapered to 50% in 4 weeks before reinstating my dosage back to 37.5(due to withdrawls). I waited 2 months to stabilize but never did at 37.5 2019 September - continued to taper in to 25% on extended release 2019 October - continued to taper to half of the beads(18.75mg)... WIthdrawls were so bad I tried switching back to the instant release at the same dosage(18.75mg) 2019 November 28th - Discontinued effexor at 18.75 without anymore tapering. 2020 January - Just can't sleep, have constipation, low libido and still lack of full emotion Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 5, 2020 Author Share Posted March 5, 2020 2 minutes ago, Rozon1 said: Hey @Ella56 for sure. Foods don’t really seem to have much of an effect on me, thankfully. My feeling of terror and doom has gone but has been replaced with normal anxiety due to my physical symptoms. So I’m debating on rather I want to reinstate or not. I’m glad you’re feeling a bit Thank you. I see why u go back and forth but if terror is gone..u could just think of it as a illness to wait out. It is an illness to your nervous system. Needing physical and mental relaxation. Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 6, 2020 Author Share Posted March 6, 2020 March 4 11pm sleep March 5 430 am awake. Still so tired went back to sleep after an hour til 8am. 8am woke in panic shaky dizzy 9am breakfast omega, vite mag Depressed, brain fog. 11 am depressed still 1pm celexa 230 so tired rested for an hour 6pm dinner feel ok still tired 8pm feel ok i know symptoms are a bit better. Been having hot waves, tired a lot last two days Omega, probiotics, vit e Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 7, 2020 Author Share Posted March 7, 2020 March 4 1pm sleep March 5 430 am awake. Still so tired went back to sleep after an hour til 8am. 8am woke in panic shaky dizzy 9am breakfast omega, vite mag Depressed, brain fog. 11 am depressed still 1pm celexa 230 so tired rested for an hour 6pm dinner feel ok still tired 8pm feel ok i know symptoms are a bit better. Been having hot waves, tired. Omega, probiotics, vit e Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 7, 2020 Author Share Posted March 7, 2020 March 4 1pm sleep March 5 430 am awake. Still so tired went back to sleep after an hour til 8am. 8am woke in panic shaky dizzy 9am breakfast omega, vite mag Depressed, brain fog. 11 am depressed still 1pm celexa 230 so tired rested for an hour 6pm dinner feel ok still tired 8pm feel ok i know symptoms are a bit better. Been having hot waves, tired. Omega, probiotics, vit e Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 7, 2020 Author Share Posted March 7, 2020 March 5 evening 10pm Sleep off and on during the night March 6 7am woke emotional..painful situation in my life I am not getting pasr. Self hatred. 8am I got up. Depressed, crying 9am omega vit e deep grief 1030 bath, muscles sore 1pm 1 mg celexa 2pm still depressed hopeless, staying in all day 330 tired/sad thinking about the past still, 6pm still depressed. March 4 1pm sleep March 5 430 am awake. Still so tired went back to sleep after an hour til 8am. 8am woke in panic shaky dizzy 9am breakfast omega, vite mag Depressed, brain fog. 11 am depressed still 1pm celexa 230 so tired rested for an hour 6pm dinner feel ok still tired 8pm feel ok i know symptoms are a bit better. Been having hot waves, tired. Omega, probiotics, vit e Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
Ella56 Posted March 7, 2020 Author Share Posted March 7, 2020 I have a question about waves and windows. Tuesday morn this week I felt ok but by evening i was not. I think i am starting to have waves and windows does that seem correct? Today I felt depressed all day. Muscle sore. Argued with roommate. There is a situation loss in my life regarding my daughter that i have not been able to get over. 2 years now. When i see her the next day i am depressed . So this may be just a situation not WD factor. Or could this deep depression by wd? Feel hopeless and i will never get better and.deep depression cant pull myself out of...How do you know the difference? Also been on 1mg reinstatement of celexa since feb 25th, 11 days, what do i do now just stay on it for 3 months? Thank you Age 21 started on antidepressants, Paxil, Zoloft cant remember dozes. Most I remember is being on Celexa 10 - 40 mg since 1996 to 2019 up and down. Changed to Pristiq March 2019 to May 2019 lowest doze but quit scared ot it. Went back to Celexa 20mg may 2019 to sept 2019.Tried Cipralex, 3 days, Went off celexa 20 mg Sept 16/19 taper 1 month. Took Ativan .5 to 1 mg on and off for years and some Clonazepam for anxiety. Ativan in dec 2019 about 10 and in jan 2019. .05mg. Brain zaps Agitation, terror and dread, suicidal feelings, stomach in fear. afraid to be alone. Depression Now: feeling disconnected from self and inability to connect with others, anxiety, depression,.emotionally weak and helplesd, ringing in my ears. Feb 25, 2020 reinstated 1mg celexa. Link to comment
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