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Hanna. Are you taking any multivitamins or supplements? Any change in diet? Exercise or meditation?


Jan 2001, was prescribed split personality medications and psychotic meds for severe anxiety, change of behavior and stress and overthinking.( Was 16 years old). I was very very quiet, shy, serious person. Do not remember name of meds. 

2005 to 2008 - on and off on same medications. Didn't use any meds for 2 years and had severe panic and psychosis.almost hospitalized. Went to new psychiatrist and gave Zoloft and Xanax for a month. Didn't work much. 

2011 - was prescribed cymbalta (don't remember dose) .it changed my life. Felt like I was born again. Did good for about 4 years. 

Became less effective slowly. Tried to withdraw myself through amino acids. Worked for some months but then had serious psychosis and panic. Felt like dying and loss of complete control of mind and body.2016 - prescribed 20mg Lexapro and 1mg rexulti. I stopped rexulti after like 2 years 6 months on my own. It was successful.Currently on Lexapro 20mg and this dose is going to go lower soon.....this time I am confident about it. March 9 2020 - reduced dose to 17.5 mg. After 2 days, had severe withdrawal symptoms of headache, dry mouth, brain zaps, fever, body and muscle pain, lack of control and coordination, improper sleep.

March 13 - went back to 20 mg.

March 22 2020 - reduced dose to 10 mg

Made significant diet and lifestyle changes. Became vegan, gluten free ( no processed or junk food). April 11, 2020 - dose reduced to 5 mg.having no withdrawal symptoms. 

May 4, 2020 - dose reduced to 2.5 mg. Started meditation daily. Having no withdrawal symptoms. Just a little disturbed sleep. May 11 - Having improved sleep, increased libido, feeling inner joy, happiness and calmness, increased energy levels, lost 10 lbs in 2 months, increased sense of humor. May 17 - having 2.5 mg dose on alternate days only. COVID-19 has turned out to be a boon for me indeed, since I have more free time for myself for meditation and relaxation and exploring alternative ways of better lifestyle. May 26 - having 1.25mg dose everyday. For the first time in my life, I am experiencing that how it feels to be normal and in peace because I have never felt calmness in my life. The best is still yet to come. June 1, 2020 final dose of 1 mg Lexapro. End of POISON. Please note that this success is due to the incredible help from experienced people on this forum, knowing real truth behind this harmful drugs, significant diet and lifestyle changes, meditation, strong positive belief system, support from family, having faith in God, making use of lockdown during COVID-19 to spend more time with self realization and nature. I have also finally realized that only nature has a cure for all the sufferings and diseases, but most of us do not know how to use it's secret power of balance and healing.

God bless us all.🙏

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Hanna72

@Victor3 yes I take vitamins, I meditate and walk few times of week. Trying to get my sugar intake in control, not doing very good there at the moment. Just don’t have a lot of appétit these days. I am just always waiting for a window. I just want one glimpse of calm and piece 😔



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Gridley
9 minutes ago, Hanna72 said:

I just want one glimpse of calm and piece 😔

It will come, Hanna.


Gridley Introduction

 

Lexapro 20 mg since 2004.  Began taper using Brassmonkey slide Jan. 2017.   

End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg 

End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg

End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg  

Current from Sept.23, 2020 at 0.05mg

Taper is 99.75% complete.

 

Lorazepam 1 mg 1986-1991 CT, resumed a few months later. CT 2000.  1 mg 2011-2016.  Sept, 2016 increased to 0.5 X 3 in split dose. Sept. 2019 increased to 0.625 X 3 after crossover to new brand

 

Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986.  Jan. 2016 began every 3-weeks 10% taper, down to 15mg.  Aug 2016, discovered SA, updosed to 25mg and holding.  Taper is 66% complete.  

  

Supplements: omega, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, melatonin .33mg


I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

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Victor3

Thank you Hanna for the info. 

You will feel sense of peace pretty soon. Keep believing in yourself.


Jan 2001, was prescribed split personality medications and psychotic meds for severe anxiety, change of behavior and stress and overthinking.( Was 16 years old). I was very very quiet, shy, serious person. Do not remember name of meds. 

2005 to 2008 - on and off on same medications. Didn't use any meds for 2 years and had severe panic and psychosis.almost hospitalized. Went to new psychiatrist and gave Zoloft and Xanax for a month. Didn't work much. 

2011 - was prescribed cymbalta (don't remember dose) .it changed my life. Felt like I was born again. Did good for about 4 years. 

Became less effective slowly. Tried to withdraw myself through amino acids. Worked for some months but then had serious psychosis and panic. Felt like dying and loss of complete control of mind and body.2016 - prescribed 20mg Lexapro and 1mg rexulti. I stopped rexulti after like 2 years 6 months on my own. It was successful.Currently on Lexapro 20mg and this dose is going to go lower soon.....this time I am confident about it. March 9 2020 - reduced dose to 17.5 mg. After 2 days, had severe withdrawal symptoms of headache, dry mouth, brain zaps, fever, body and muscle pain, lack of control and coordination, improper sleep.

March 13 - went back to 20 mg.

March 22 2020 - reduced dose to 10 mg

Made significant diet and lifestyle changes. Became vegan, gluten free ( no processed or junk food). April 11, 2020 - dose reduced to 5 mg.having no withdrawal symptoms. 

May 4, 2020 - dose reduced to 2.5 mg. Started meditation daily. Having no withdrawal symptoms. Just a little disturbed sleep. May 11 - Having improved sleep, increased libido, feeling inner joy, happiness and calmness, increased energy levels, lost 10 lbs in 2 months, increased sense of humor. May 17 - having 2.5 mg dose on alternate days only. COVID-19 has turned out to be a boon for me indeed, since I have more free time for myself for meditation and relaxation and exploring alternative ways of better lifestyle. May 26 - having 1.25mg dose everyday. For the first time in my life, I am experiencing that how it feels to be normal and in peace because I have never felt calmness in my life. The best is still yet to come. June 1, 2020 final dose of 1 mg Lexapro. End of POISON. Please note that this success is due to the incredible help from experienced people on this forum, knowing real truth behind this harmful drugs, significant diet and lifestyle changes, meditation, strong positive belief system, support from family, having faith in God, making use of lockdown during COVID-19 to spend more time with self realization and nature. I have also finally realized that only nature has a cure for all the sufferings and diseases, but most of us do not know how to use it's secret power of balance and healing.

God bless us all.🙏

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Hanna72

Hi. Can someone tell me what’s going on in my brain when brain zaps are occurring?

Been trying to find out but with no success. 



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Hanna72
On 3/29/2020 at 6:02 PM, Victor3 said:

Thank you Hanna for the info. 

You will feel sense of peace pretty soon. Keep believing in yourself.

Thank you @Victor3for your kind words🙏



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Hanna72

Been having horrible withdrawals. 
I feel like a drug addict in recovery. So angry that I was subscribed this hell of a poison. Can’t do anything but lay in bed. Sensitive to light( wearing sunglasses indoors) sensitive to noise, nausea, brain zaps, can’t focus on anything. No joy in my life. Just crying all the time. So angry, and I am not an angry person😢 
I know it will pass, but I hate feeling like this. Feels like never ending story😔



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Cocopuffz17
1 hour ago, Hanna72 said:

Been having horrible withdrawals. 
I feel like a drug addict in recovery. So angry that I was subscribed this hell of a poison. Can’t do anything but lay in bed. Sensitive to light( wearing sunglasses indoors) sensitive to noise, nausea, brain zaps, can’t focus on anything. No joy in my life. Just crying all the time. So angry, and I am not an angry person😢 
I know it will pass, but I hate feeling like this. Feels like never ending story😔

Yes, this is exactly how I felt. It is extremely tough. You will get through it and will feel way better! 
 

Remember everyday that passes is one day closer to being healed! 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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Hanna72

@Cocopuffz17 Thank you, I know, just so frustrating😔 These pill makers should all go on these meds themselves, and then quit, see how they will handle these “none addicted “ drugs they make for people 😖 



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Cocopuffz17
7 hours ago, Hanna72 said:

@Cocopuffz17 Thank you, I know, just so frustrating😔 These pill makers should all go on these meds themselves, and then quit, see how they will handle these “none addicted “ drugs they make for people 😖 

Yes, they should. Thankfully that is how this has gained steam with psychiatrists in the UK being on and going through withdrawals. It is the first country in the world to actually admit long term withdrawals. The drug companies need to be held accountable. 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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Hanna72

Seriously😡😡 Can’t drive, extreme panic, my head can’t function, I feel like I am loosing my mind🤬 Want to scream out loud. So angry, my emotions have no filter. 
This poison WILL NOT take me down. I will fight until I reach my goal. 
Bring it on 💪💪💪



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Happy2Heal

hi Hanna

just popping in to see how you are doing.

sorry you're dealing with all those feelings but wow, Look at you!

nope, these poisons are no match for you!! 

you go, girl!!

 

I hope every day the fight gets easier


  • pysch med history: 1974 @ age 18 to Oct 2017 (approx 43 yrs total)
  •  Drug list: stelazine, haldol, elavil, lithium, zoloft, celexa, lexapro(doses as high as 40mgs), klonopin, ambien, seroquel(high doses), depakote, zyprexa, lamictalBrief trials of dozens of other psych meds over the years
  • started lexapro 2002, dose varied from 20mgs to 40mgs. I tried to get off it several times. WD symptoms were mistaken for "relapse". 
  •  2013 tapered down to 5mg but WD forced me back to 20mgs
  •  June of 2105, tapered again, too rapidly to 2.5mgs by Dec 2015. Found SA, held at 2.5 mgs til May 2016 when I foolishly "jumped off". Crashed in Sept, reinstated at 0.3mgs in Oct. 2106
  • Tapered off to zero by  Oct. 2017 Doing very well
  • Nov. 2018 feel 95% healed, current age 63 
  • Jan. 2020 feel 100% healed, peaceful and content 
 

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Hanna72

@Happy2Heal Thank you so much 🙏for your kind words.

I am just really struggling right now. Can’t eat, feel nauseous of all food, can’t sit still, been pacing in my appartement, shivering inside, constantly cold. My brain can’t focus, I am having panic attacks for no reason. 😞

I know I have to go through all this to heal, but after 16 months of tapering and all kinds of symptoms, I do get so frustrated. 
I know I will be fine, there is no other option for me. This just makes me want to fight harder💪
I will be free🙏 
By the way, I am so happy for you that you are healed. People like you, just give me so much hope, thank you🙏



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Victor3

Hi Hanna. Did your withdrawal symptoms appear right after you lowered your dose ? Or did they appear after couple of weeks?

I lowered my dose 50% 3 weeks back and have not felt any symptoms. I am feeling even better.


Jan 2001, was prescribed split personality medications and psychotic meds for severe anxiety, change of behavior and stress and overthinking.( Was 16 years old). I was very very quiet, shy, serious person. Do not remember name of meds. 

2005 to 2008 - on and off on same medications. Didn't use any meds for 2 years and had severe panic and psychosis.almost hospitalized. Went to new psychiatrist and gave Zoloft and Xanax for a month. Didn't work much. 

2011 - was prescribed cymbalta (don't remember dose) .it changed my life. Felt like I was born again. Did good for about 4 years. 

Became less effective slowly. Tried to withdraw myself through amino acids. Worked for some months but then had serious psychosis and panic. Felt like dying and loss of complete control of mind and body.2016 - prescribed 20mg Lexapro and 1mg rexulti. I stopped rexulti after like 2 years 6 months on my own. It was successful.Currently on Lexapro 20mg and this dose is going to go lower soon.....this time I am confident about it. March 9 2020 - reduced dose to 17.5 mg. After 2 days, had severe withdrawal symptoms of headache, dry mouth, brain zaps, fever, body and muscle pain, lack of control and coordination, improper sleep.

March 13 - went back to 20 mg.

March 22 2020 - reduced dose to 10 mg

Made significant diet and lifestyle changes. Became vegan, gluten free ( no processed or junk food). April 11, 2020 - dose reduced to 5 mg.having no withdrawal symptoms. 

May 4, 2020 - dose reduced to 2.5 mg. Started meditation daily. Having no withdrawal symptoms. Just a little disturbed sleep. May 11 - Having improved sleep, increased libido, feeling inner joy, happiness and calmness, increased energy levels, lost 10 lbs in 2 months, increased sense of humor. May 17 - having 2.5 mg dose on alternate days only. COVID-19 has turned out to be a boon for me indeed, since I have more free time for myself for meditation and relaxation and exploring alternative ways of better lifestyle. May 26 - having 1.25mg dose everyday. For the first time in my life, I am experiencing that how it feels to be normal and in peace because I have never felt calmness in my life. The best is still yet to come. June 1, 2020 final dose of 1 mg Lexapro. End of POISON. Please note that this success is due to the incredible help from experienced people on this forum, knowing real truth behind this harmful drugs, significant diet and lifestyle changes, meditation, strong positive belief system, support from family, having faith in God, making use of lockdown during COVID-19 to spend more time with self realization and nature. I have also finally realized that only nature has a cure for all the sufferings and diseases, but most of us do not know how to use it's secret power of balance and healing.

God bless us all.🙏

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Hanna72

Hi @Victor3

Wow that’s amazing 💪 So glad for you. You will make it
I started having withdrawal symptoms when I lowered my meds under I would say about 5 mg. Not unmanageable though, but I always felt some kind of symptoms. That’s why I had to stabilise each time after each drop. 
Now almost 4 weeks off I am having all kinds of symptoms, brain fog, brain zaps, extreme fatigue and déréalisation. Had insomnia but, have been sleeping like a rock for the past few days. With those symptoms I can work and function, so that’s a good thing👍
So it seems it all takes time and we will make it for sure to the end of the line🙏
I would say to you, please go slow for the rest of your taper. It’s said that 80% of the drug potency is under 10 mg, so bare that in mind.


We will be free victor 🙏



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Thank you Hanna for the info. This will be very helpful. I believe one thing that really helped me is that I became vegan and avoiding all processed food. Mainly eating raw veggies and fruits. You can try for couple of days if you can.


Jan 2001, was prescribed split personality medications and psychotic meds for severe anxiety, change of behavior and stress and overthinking.( Was 16 years old). I was very very quiet, shy, serious person. Do not remember name of meds. 

2005 to 2008 - on and off on same medications. Didn't use any meds for 2 years and had severe panic and psychosis.almost hospitalized. Went to new psychiatrist and gave Zoloft and Xanax for a month. Didn't work much. 

2011 - was prescribed cymbalta (don't remember dose) .it changed my life. Felt like I was born again. Did good for about 4 years. 

Became less effective slowly. Tried to withdraw myself through amino acids. Worked for some months but then had serious psychosis and panic. Felt like dying and loss of complete control of mind and body.2016 - prescribed 20mg Lexapro and 1mg rexulti. I stopped rexulti after like 2 years 6 months on my own. It was successful.Currently on Lexapro 20mg and this dose is going to go lower soon.....this time I am confident about it. March 9 2020 - reduced dose to 17.5 mg. After 2 days, had severe withdrawal symptoms of headache, dry mouth, brain zaps, fever, body and muscle pain, lack of control and coordination, improper sleep.

March 13 - went back to 20 mg.

March 22 2020 - reduced dose to 10 mg

Made significant diet and lifestyle changes. Became vegan, gluten free ( no processed or junk food). April 11, 2020 - dose reduced to 5 mg.having no withdrawal symptoms. 

May 4, 2020 - dose reduced to 2.5 mg. Started meditation daily. Having no withdrawal symptoms. Just a little disturbed sleep. May 11 - Having improved sleep, increased libido, feeling inner joy, happiness and calmness, increased energy levels, lost 10 lbs in 2 months, increased sense of humor. May 17 - having 2.5 mg dose on alternate days only. COVID-19 has turned out to be a boon for me indeed, since I have more free time for myself for meditation and relaxation and exploring alternative ways of better lifestyle. May 26 - having 1.25mg dose everyday. For the first time in my life, I am experiencing that how it feels to be normal and in peace because I have never felt calmness in my life. The best is still yet to come. June 1, 2020 final dose of 1 mg Lexapro. End of POISON. Please note that this success is due to the incredible help from experienced people on this forum, knowing real truth behind this harmful drugs, significant diet and lifestyle changes, meditation, strong positive belief system, support from family, having faith in God, making use of lockdown during COVID-19 to spend more time with self realization and nature. I have also finally realized that only nature has a cure for all the sufferings and diseases, but most of us do not know how to use it's secret power of balance and healing.

God bless us all.🙏

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So impressed by those like you that can change their diet like that. Have to say I have been struggling with my diet, but food is I believe a huge factor in recovery. I would say I have done a 70% of diet changes, but I can do better that’s for sure

 



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Soooo, best day yet. 😀No withdrawal symptoms..yay🤩

So much energy, been dancing and smiling all day( looking all “crazy “)

YES... thank you for this day👍🙏

And I will having them coming some more 😃

 

 



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Cocopuffz17
2 hours ago, Hanna72 said:

Soooo, best day yet. 😀No withdrawal symptoms..yay🤩

So much energy, been dancing and smiling all day( looking all “crazy “)

YES... thank you for this day👍🙏

And I will having them coming some more 😃

 

 

Yay! That is great to hear! Here is to many more! 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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Hanna72

I am at work right now, and I just want to hide. 
Having so many emotions just feel like crying. I feel like I need my filter for protection. Can’t sit close to my coworkers, get really bad social anxiety, and I don’t want anyone to see how weak I am today. 
I need to pull myself together, just breathe and tell myself I am safe

The anxiety and emotions are my biggest challenge in this recovery 

 



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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47 minutes ago, Hanna72 said:

I am at work right now, and I just want to hide. 
Having so many emotions just feel like crying. I feel like I need my filter for protection. Can’t sit close to my coworkers, get really bad social anxiety, and I don’t want anyone to see how weak I am today. 
I need to pull myself together, just breathe and tell myself I am safe

The anxiety and emotions are my biggest challenge in this recovery 

 


You got this! Power through, this is chemical from the withdrawals. You are strong! 
 

 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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@Cocopuffz17

yes, thank you for your kind words 🙏

I have also been eating trash and I believe it makes everything thing worse



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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2 hours ago, Hanna72 said:

@Cocopuffz17

yes, thank you for your kind words 🙏

I have also been eating trash and I believe it makes everything thing worse

You are welcome!

Yes, it does not help. The food we put in our body directly impacts how we feel.... especially when we are sensitive during wds. 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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Hello Hanna, 

 

I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate the positivity you spread on SA, and thank you for this :)

 

Take care ❤️

Edited by Erell

2006 : 20mg Paroxetine + Bromazepam(no specific dose) 

2008 : cold turkey of both

2010 : 20mg Deroxat + Bromazepam(no specific dose) 

2013: Switch from Bromazepam To Prazepam (long half-life)

2014-June2017 : Prazepam taper, 3% drops. 

2018 to August 2019 : weaning Paroxetine 20mg. 3% every 15 days.

- 22nd August updosed To 10mg (was at 8.4mg) because of a big wave. 

25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paroxetine. 

 

April 2020-August 2020 : Paxil to Prozac bridge. Details https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/21457-erell-struggling-with-paroxetine/?do=findComment&comment=499847

 

Current Supplements : magnesium citrate/ fish oil/ evening primrose oil 

Current medication : 7mg Fluoxetine + 1mg Diazepam + toothpick Paroxetine 

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2 hours ago, Erell said:

Hello Hanna, 

 

I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate the positivity you spread on SA, and thank you for this :)

 

Take care ❤️

Thank you so much for your kind words 🥰 Just warmed my heart 💓 

I see you have reduced your Paxil💪 I will be here on SA cheering for you, well done @Erell 🙏

One day at a time, patience and time, and it will be done.

Have a wonderful day🙏



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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So it’s been 39 days off Prozac and over three months off Paxil. 
Last few days have been extremely bad. I am trying to stay positive, and focusing on that I am med free, but hard to do at this point.
I have had constant symptoms, blurred vision, can’t focus on anything, extremely sensitive to everything, consistent anxiety, nausea, aches all over my body, feels like a stone in my head all the time, so much headache, crying all the time, no motivation, no joy in life. 
I am just so negative today, sorry 😒

 



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Hello Hanna, 

 

I'm sorry you're struggling so much.

 

It sounds like you went too quickly with your tapers. : have you considered reinstatement?

 

Anyway, I know exactly how you feel right now : good news is it will pass. Very slowly, very gradually, but it will.

 

Give you my hand from France ❤️

 

 


2006 : 20mg Paroxetine + Bromazepam(no specific dose) 

2008 : cold turkey of both

2010 : 20mg Deroxat + Bromazepam(no specific dose) 

2013: Switch from Bromazepam To Prazepam (long half-life)

2014-June2017 : Prazepam taper, 3% drops. 

2018 to August 2019 : weaning Paroxetine 20mg. 3% every 15 days.

- 22nd August updosed To 10mg (was at 8.4mg) because of a big wave. 

25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paroxetine. 

 

April 2020-August 2020 : Paxil to Prozac bridge. Details https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/21457-erell-struggling-with-paroxetine/?do=findComment&comment=499847

 

Current Supplements : magnesium citrate/ fish oil/ evening primrose oil 

Current medication : 7mg Fluoxetine + 1mg Diazepam + toothpick Paroxetine 

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Hanna72

Thank you @Erell Really do appreciate it 🙏

47 minutes ago, Erell said:

 

It sounds like you went too quickly with your tapers. : have you considered reinstatement?


Yes it probably is true I did it to quickly. The way I feel now is just so much anger, sadness and it’s like I will never go back on this poison, not even 0.001 mg. I have wasted to much time already, and had to have my life revolve around this taper, and withdrawal symptoms for so many months already. 
I keep telling myself this:

 

I don’t know how I am going to win... but I know I am NOT going to lose 💪

 

Thats my mantra today🙏

How are you doing? 
My best wishes to you🥰

 



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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@Hanna72 i am cheering so much for you and hoping it ll pass  soon. Yesterday I was also so bad,today I am ok,like never knowing what is going to hit me when I wake up. Scary to live like this but we ll go through this 💪 I also can't wait to get rid of this poison I feel rage every time I take it. Can't wait to begin taper.


20 mg seroxat from december 2012,several failed attempts to quit.

10 mg march 2019

20 mg september 2019

tapered 20 mg till end of november 2019

13 february 2020 crushed

1 March reinstated 10 mg seroxat

 

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I just don’t know where I would be with out this forum. Hard to explain this to my loved ones here, they just don’t understand. And since I live alone, it gets hard sometimes. 
I totally agree with you @Melissa03  about the anger I feel towards this poison. And I feel so much anger to the doctor that prescribed this to me 20 years ago. He told me that I needed this pill cause of my imbalance in my brain, and I would have to be on it for life. I will never forget that moment, I was 27 years old, and to think I needed antidepressants, just baffled me. Never had I ever been depressed. I had suffered anxiety attacks, due to abuse in a marriage and had social phobia from childhood caused by extreme bullying. I was never taught  any coping skills, just told to take Paxil like any other patient with diabetes 🤨

Now at 47 I have to learn new coping skills, plus deal with these horrible withdrawals symptoms, and it’s extremely hard.

The only thing Paxil did for me was to numb me through life, didn’t help with anything, still had anxiety and panic attacks on them. Oh then my doctor answer to that was benzodiazepines, which I have only used in crippling situations.
So yes I am furious. 
Sorry about the rambling, feel so frustrated 😒

Thank you for your kind words

@Melissa03Yes this will not take us down, it will in the end make us stronger 💪



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Yes I understand,I feel rage towards my doctor too,I came to her for talk and she gave me seroxat instantly ,without warning me about any side effects like they don't exist. I was 22 and trusted the Dr. I also didn't need them at first place at all it was manageable social phobia. And guess what ,three months after my fast taper I went to her totally miserable ,she told me wd after 3 months doesn't exist,that there are bunch of other drugs that can help me mentioning Zoloft ,Prozac ( like you can try this try that) and when I said this is wd she basically kicked me out of the office. I can't imagine being  almost suicidal at that point and being kicked out of the office by physiatrist who gave me the poison in the first place. I feel rage now just by remembering and writing this. I am imagining after I heal some day ,going to her and giving her bunch of articles about wd and explaining how her profession is one big joke, and that meds should be given only to serious cases when there is no other way. How this drugs do more harm then benefit.


20 mg seroxat from december 2012,several failed attempts to quit.

10 mg march 2019

20 mg september 2019

tapered 20 mg till end of november 2019

13 february 2020 crushed

1 March reinstated 10 mg seroxat

 

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So the last few days have been hard. Constant headache, ringing in my ears, dizziness, feelings all over the place, brain fog, seems sometimes it just doesn’t work, extreme fatigue and little joy overall, irritation, blurred vision and anxiety.

Need to up my game in regards to nutrition. Can definitely tell that sugar intake triggers me. Been without it now for two days, and I feel less anxious, so that’s a relief.

The good news is I am sleeping like a rock, thankful for that🙏
Also have been practicing mindfulness. 
Best wishes to you all, and have a great weekend 

 



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Just wanted to say that today has been the best day yet for me.😃 I need to put those good days in too

And I know they will keep coming, how ever few they are, just having one today will remind me that this suffering of withdrawals is so worth it🙏
I am so thankful 



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Hi @Longroadhome

Yes I was on it for 20 years. 
Actually, I did not find the pill ever helping me at all, they were just numbing me, and I still had anxiety and panic attacks  when  I was on them, quite frankly I was worse on them then before I took them. That’s why I tried so many times to get off
For me personally I feel like yes my  bridge with Prozac has been truly beneficial, even though I didn’t do the bridge  right, had my doctor guide me. And yes I had withdrawal symptoms, during the bridge and after also, still do,  but I can truly say that this time its different. I can cope, work and function. Which is huge for me.

You can do it too 💪 
By the way good job on your journey, 6,3 mg is a great accomplishment 😃 

 



2000/ got 20mg Paxil  for panic attacks. Many attempts to quit through out the years, without any success.

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 5 times 

Suppliments: Magnesium, omega 3 fish oil ( epa&dha) D vitamin 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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7 hours ago, Hanna72 said:

Just wanted to say that today has been the best day yet for me.😃 I need to put those good days in too

And I know they will keep coming, how ever few they are, just having one today will remind me that this suffering of withdrawals is so worth it🙏
I am so thankful 

Yes Hanna,

We should talk about good days alot and alot, 

It isn't all hell, good days and wonderful days exist as well.

Keep healing, you are strong enough to do ❤️.


i wasn't on a certain drug all the period. i took many drugs many times and for no very long period but to simplify.

--fluvoxamine maleate100 mg + amisulpride 200mg------started july 2012 and total taper in february 2015 ( 9 months without drugs then)

--sertraline 100mg -------started november 2015 and total taper (withoud reduction slowly) in november 2016( 4 months withoud drugs then).

--sertraline 100mg + quetiabine 25mg ( started in mars 2016 and for 7 months) then fluvoxamine maleate 100mg again for another 7months and after that a something like to use every drug for 14 days and for about 1.5 years.

--my last drug was trintellix 10 mg ( used it in 12/2018and total taper in 4/2019).

symptomts i have now ( bad concentration and problems in short and long memory+ bad depersonalization).

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7 hours ago, Hanna72 said:

Just wanted to say that today has been the best day yet for me.😃 I need to put those good days in too

And I know they will keep coming, how ever few they are, just having one today will remind me that this suffering of withdrawals is so worth it🙏
I am so thankful 

Yes, it is very easy to forget the positive when you are dominated by the bad. Glad you are having some good days :


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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