Hanna72: I will be free

[mustafa]

@Hanna72

Just here to tell u that yes, you have to be careful with b vitamins; for me, all types of vitamins are bad so be careful.

[Hanna72]

Thank you so much @Mimi79

for your kind words. Means a lot 💖

[sunnysideup69]

Hello @Hanna72,

thought I'd drop by to see how you're doing. Wishing you a good day  

[Hanna72]

Hi @sunnysideup69 Thank you for dropping by😊  Hope you are well.

I have been waiting for some stability in my progress, and I didn’t want to give an update until I could feel a consistent progress. 
 
But here is my progress since last time 😊

I want to start out by saying that my experience on this journey was by far the hardest after I reached zero. That’s when I really had the most difficult time. 

My improvements are:

I can walk fast paced for 40-50 min now

My blurred vision has improved tremendously 

I can be in a crowded area with out any problems 

My connection to people has taken  an amazing shift, and I have been told by family and friends that they see so many positive improvements in me😊

My sleep is mostly good 

I have more energy 

My anxiety is improving slowly and surely. I don’t wake up with a knot in my stomach anymore 

I am much calmer over all

Depersonalisation is improving greatly 

My concentration is improving, that is I can feel that if many things are thrown my way I don’t get as overwhelmed.

I have so much connection to my body, and I am learning to listen to it

I have made many mistakes along the way, my biggest one pushing myself way to much, and being impatient.

I wish I could give you ( who ever is reading this) the feeling I am getting being drug free. I have had doubts creeping in along the way, that I have been damaged. So I know the feeling for sure.

I have the utmost respect for you all. And without all the great tips and people on this site, I would not be where I am today. 

Thank you and I am so grateful for all of you💖

 

[Cocopuffz17]

32 minutes ago, Hanna72 said:

Hi @sunnysideup69 Thank you for dropping by😊  Hope you are well.

I have been waiting for some stability in my progress, and I didn’t want to give an update until I could feel a consistent progress. 
 
But here is my progress since last time 😊

I want to start out by saying that my experience on this journey was by far the hardest after I reached zero. That’s when I really had the most difficult time. 

My improvements are:

I can walk fast paced for 40-50 min now

My blurred vision has improved tremendously 

I can be in a crowded area with out any problems 

My connection to people has taken  an amazing shift, and I have been told by family and friends that they see so many positive improvements in me😊

My sleep is mostly good 

I have more energy 

My anxiety is improving slowly and surely. I don’t wake up with a knot in my stomach anymore 

I am much calmer over all

Depersonalisation is improving greatly 

My concentration is improving, that is I can feel that if many things are thrown my way I don’t get as overwhelmed.

I have so much connection to my body, and I am learning to listen to it

I have made many mistakes along the way, my biggest one pushing myself way to much, and being impatient.

I wish I could give you ( who ever is reading this) the feeling I am getting being drug free. I have had doubts creeping in along the way, that I have been damaged. So I know the feeling for sure.

I have the utmost respect for you all. And without all the great tips and people on this site, I would not be where I am today. 

Thank you and I am so grateful for all of you💖

 

This is great news!!!! I am glad you are doing well!!! Here is to many more days of improvements! 

[Cigale]

What a beautiful and inspiring update @Hanna72! It is so uplifting to hear you are doing well and thriving. I am learning so much from this community and you have been so generous in sharing your insights and healing advice. Thank you! 🤗

[Erell]

So sweet of you to take the time to share your improvements, and so happy to read them !

I don't know if you realize how much an inspiration you are here ❤

I'm relieved to read things are improving, and so glad about your connection to people.

Sending lot of hugs ☀️

[BadMedicine]

What a fantastic update @Hanna72. Sounds like you have healed enormously and are now reaping the benefits of being drug free. I hope the improvements continue and you find yourself feeling better and better.

[Hanna72]

You guys are so amazing, thank you all for your kind words. You just made my day💖

[Noh1995]

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[Longroadhome]

@Hanna72

 

let me start by saying you ARE giving us the feeling what it’s like to be drug free just by your enthusiasm optimistic outlook and drive. 
You are an inspiration,  brave,  fearless and determined !! 
I’m so proud of you . You are there for everyone with motivation and  positivity . 
 

Thank  you for sharing your progress Showing it can be done xx

[Hanna72]

@Longroadhome Thank you so much💖 It means a lot. I know you will get there too, and we will dance together in spirit ,both Paxil free🙏 

[Longroadhome]

@Hanna72

 

youre such a lovely person x

[Hanna72]

@Altostrata
 

Prozac Bridge :

 
Week 1= 10 mg Paxil + 10 mg Prozac

 

Week 2= 10 mg Paxil + 20 mg Prozac, started tapering Paxil. Until I reached zero.

Was hit with really bad withdrawals symptoms, paranoia being the worst one.

 

Week 3 = was told to up dose to 30 mg Prozac (with out no relief) told again to up dose to 40 mg Prozac. Became extremely sedated and zombie like.   

Week 4 = Dropped my dose back down to 30 mg, and again dropped to 20 mg

This was all in about 1 month period. 
 

After 11 days on 20 mg finally stabilised. Manageable symptoms

Much easier ride down from there on.

 

[Altostrata]

Thanks for that information, Hanna.

 

It's a fairly conventional crossover, except your doctor had you start tapering Paxil before Prozac fully took effect, then compensated by boosting the fluoxetine dose.

 

Good to hear you're doing well.

[mustafa]

On 10/18/2020 at 7:26 PM, Hanna72 said:

@Altostrata
 

Prozac Bridge :

 
Week 1= 10 mg Paxil + 10 mg Prozac

 

Week 2= 10 mg Paxil + 20 mg Prozac, started tapering Paxil. Until I reached zero.

Was hit with really bad withdrawals symptoms, paranoia being the worst one.

 

Week 3 = was told to up dose to 30 mg Prozac (with out no relief) told again to up dose to 40 mg Prozac. Became extremely sedated and zombie like.   

Week 4 = Dropped my dose back down to 30 mg, and again dropped to 20 mg

This was all in about 1 month period. 
 

After 11 days on 20 mg finally stabilised. Manageable symptoms

Much easier ride down from there on.

 

Hello hanna,

Iam sorry but I think I miss something concerning your thread, I think u were totally drug free, right?, so I cant understand this last post from u.

I hope u are doing well whatever of course ❤❤

[Hanna72]

@mustafa

21 hours ago, mustafa said:

I think u were totally drug free, right?,

Yes I am drug free.

21 hours ago, mustafa said:

so I cant understand this last post from u.

The last post was a description for my bridge from Paxil to Prozac and how I did it.

 

I am doing well thank you and I hope you are too.

[sunnysideup69]

@Hanna72 that's a lovely update and great news! So glad to hear you are healing well 😊 So good for everyone to read it, too, as it's yet more evidence of healing.

[Hanna72]

My thoughts for today. And a gentle reminder to myself.

 

If there is unhappiness in you, anxiety, frustration or sadness, first I need to knowledge that.

The primary cause of struggles in life is never the situation, but your thoughts about it, be aware of the thoughts you are thinking, separate them from the situation, which is always neutral, which always is at it is. Here is the situation and here are my thoughts about it. Instead of making up stories, stay with the facts. 
For example: I am damaged is a story. It limits you and prevents you from taking affective  action.

If there is nothing you can do at the moment, face what is and say, well right now this is how it is, I can either accept it or make myself miserable.

Be aware that what you think to a large extent, creates the emotions that you feel. See the link between your thinking and your emotions.

Rather then being your thoughts and emotions, be the awareness behind them.
 

Never quit, when I stumble I chose to get back up.

 

 

 

[Longroadhome]

@Hanna72

 

Your message is so true . 
I can have a day where I feel positive even though symptoms are bad and I’ll get through the day in a positive way . On  another day my attitude to symptoms can make them seem unbearable yet they are no more intense than on a more positive day. 
yes what we think creates  the emotions we feel 

thank you for reminding me 

 

how are you doing Hanna ? X 

[Hanna72]

Hi @Longroadhome

Thank you for dropping by.

Yes the way we think is so important. 
I am doing ok, still learning how to lessen my anxiety which comes in waves. 
How are you doing?

[Longroadhome]

Sounds like your making improvements Hanna that’s great !

im waiting to stabilise from my July med reductions when I destabilised but getting there ! 
Keep moving forward your doing great 👍  👍 

[Hanna72]

Hi everyone 

Any suggestion would be greatly appreciated on this matter.

I have not been able to drive my car long distances since quitting Paxil. Get overwhelmed and panic sets in if I do.

I just practiced to day to face my fears, and had extreme panic set in were I had a panic attack for the first time in weeks. I have been dreading this practice, so I realise my thoughts are major factor in this. 
Should I avoid these practices while still so sensitive or should I push through some more?

Thank you

 

[Longroadhome]

Firstly @Hanna72

what are you afraid of the panic attack coming on or driving ? 
 

if it’s the panic attack you need to practice skills to get through it . Not in the car if you don’t have to pick a safer panic option . a safe situation that still sets panic off . And practice coping techniques. 
If it’s the car maybe drive down safe roads to get your confidence back but don’t push yourself to go into town yet as you’re obviously not ready . Start off with safe and small journies x 

 

[Hanna72]

@Longroadhome

20 minutes ago, Longroadhome said:

what are you afraid of the panic attack coming on or driving ? 

I am afraid of the panic attack itself. Having it while driving and no way out is my fear.

22 minutes ago, Longroadhome said:

Start off with safe and small journies

Yes that’s sounds good. 
I will then build up my confidence little step at a time. I am on it. Will go back out this evening with a small journey and less traffic.

Thank you much appreciated 🙏

 

[Longroadhome]

@Hanna72

if you’re afraid of the panic attack then you need to practice in situations that make you feel uncomfortable  and learn how to get through them . You won’t faint and even with a panic you will be able to park up because you will feel it coming on . So as said start with easy situations to get out of knowing it’s the panic you have to overcome. 
Don’t put yourself in danger do quiet easy roads. 

you can’t run away from panic the only way is through 

let us know how you go xx 

[mustafa]

Hello @Hanna72, I read your pist about panick attacks while driving and if I were u, I would resort to one of 2 solutions, the first is to throw myself in situations, nothing severe or wrong will happen but I know this solution is too hard but it is a good one, the 2nd you expressed it which is to build your condidence a step by step, I think this would be of use too.

I found exercise of calming and some types of yoga are very good to make the brain quiet and this will help u hang on while feeling fears, while driving.

I hope u can overcome this and let me know how it goes please 

[Hanna72]

@Longroadhome and @mustafa

I did it💪 Went the same route and even made a detour.

Your advices stayed with me the whole time. Thank you💖

I will practice now steadily until I will overcome this.

[Ymmit]

Hi @Hanna72!

 

So good that you managed to do it and even took a detour! 😃 Good sign that the anxiety for the anxiety was far worse than it actually was!

I have exactly the same fear about being trapped. Which like really never happened. On many occasions I felt really close on getting a panic attack while driving , but never actually got it while driving. I think mainly because driving itself is a distraction that helps to not focus on yourself continuously. 

Things that help me are listening to stand-up comedy while driving and making a promise to myself for when I get back, like having a nice cup of tea with some chocolate on which I can focus whilst driving. I also find comfort in the thought that if there is a chance of something bad happening there is also a (much greater) chance of it not happening.

 

 

 

 

[Longroadhome]

12 hours ago, Hanna72 said:

@Longroadhome and @mustafa

I did it💪 Went the same route and even made a detour.

Your advices stayed with me the whole time. Thank you💖

I will practice now steadily until I will overcome this.

Well done Hanna 

make sure you do those journies every couple of days snd keep practicing getting through the panic 

 

you’re such a strong positive character xx

[Hanna72]

So I have been in a wave for some time now. Man this is the hardest thing I have done in years.

The good thing is though that I have never taken such good care of myself🙂

I am also in menopause, so I have realised that some of my symptoms might be due to that.

 

My symptoms are:

High anxiety 

Aches all over my body 

Brain fog

Headaches

crying spells 

sadness

memory issues 

 

Just gonna sail through it, one day at a time😏

 

 

 

 

[Istm]

Sending strength Hanna! You’ve got this! One day at a time. You’ll make it to the other side ❤️

[Longroadhome]

@Hanna72

 

How long has your wave lasted? 
You’re  8 months clear of drugs and you’re bound to have ups and downs at the moment. 

Keep going you’re heading in the right direction.
You have strength and resilience and you most definitely WILL make it to the other side x

[Erell]

Hello dear Hannah, 

 

Ugh, I'm sorry to read that you hit another wave.

 

I don't know if you had already seen this quote, I found it brilliant !

 

On 7/24/2020 at 9:27 PM, Katy398 said:

I don’t know whether this helps but I I’ll share it anyway just in case it does.

For this to be beneficial there has to be an initial belief that everyone heals eventually. With this in mind I imagine that I have a set number of waves that I am going to go through on this journey. No one knows what that number will be or how long it will take but there is a set number. Everyone who has healed had a set number of waves,  too many to count but a set number non the less. So after each wave I try to visualise that I’m now one wave down and one step closer to healing. A midwife recommended this technique to me. She said to welcome each contraction rather than fear it. Each contraction will be one step toward welcoming your  beautiful baby into the world 🧡.I’m not very good at welcoming waves yet but after one I always see it as a step closer to healing. 

 

 

I hope you won't take this the wrong way : I'm just glad that on your way to healing you have one wave down and are one step closer to healing. You deserve i so much !

Remember, we are constantly moving toward a window ☀️

 

But ugh, what a challenge it is ! 

I find that help me the most during hard times is visualisation, even if it means living only in my fantasies : imagination can help us so much !

 

Meanwhile, be sure you have all my support ❤️ 

[mustafa]

4 hours ago, Hanna72 said:

 

Just gonna sail through it, one day at a time

Good to read this hanna, this solution is always useful.

I support u and hope you get a lovely window soon.

Pls take care 

[sunnysideup69]

Hi @Hanna72, been catching up on your thread. I know you've been in a wave - am really hoping it is beginning to ease a bit for you.

You're doing so well over all, and are very firmly in the healing process.....waves are evidence of healing happening, as well as windows.

There are so many variables in the world right now that are stressors, too - was thinking the other day, what a time to be going through all of this.

Just wanted to send you warm wishes from London. Hugs xxx