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On 5/27/2020 at 2:05 PM, marie123 said:

This is so wonderful for you. You made it out of the cave and are doing so well. This is just what I needed today, very moving. Marie.

 

16 hours ago, Timberline said:

wow @Shep....you're my hero. what an inspiring journey.

 

Thank you, Marie and Timberline. 

 

 

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MisterG
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As a marxist, i share your view of the world and I'm so glad that now your feeling good. I hope this process will be stable in the time, and that you will feel better everyday. I've read some of the books that you quote, and even if they are controversial, i feel like they say the truth. I've read a lot of researches, studies and documents from official psichiatry, i gave them a chance, and It never was like they say. 

Now i'm trying to be off from medications, I don't feel good but hey, it's just the first day. After how much you notjced your improvements?

Mister G.

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Hanna72

Your story is so inspiring Shep Loved reading it, gives me so much hope. Thank you.

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sunnysideup69

Wow, that's an incredible story, @Shep ! Really gives me hope that I, too, will recover from big pharma. 

I've been a little freaked out lately as I realised I've used drugs (prescription and non prescription) since the age of 21. I'm now 51. Actually, so many of you on this site give me hope that recovery is still possible. 

Thanks so much for posting.

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Shep
On 5/29/2020 at 10:53 AM, MisterG said:

As a marxist, i share your view of the world and I'm so glad that now your feeling good. I hope this process will be stable in the time, and that you will feel better everyday. I've read some of the books that you quote, and even if they are controversial, i feel like they say the truth. I've read a lot of researches, studies and documents from official psichiatry, i gave them a chance, and It never was like they say. 

 

Very true - "It never was like they say."  Marxism is about solving contradictions. 

 

On 5/29/2020 at 10:53 AM, MisterG said:

After how much you notjced your improvements?

 

It took about 5 years after coming off all drugs, but most of my recovery has been in the past few weeks. 

 

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Shep
15 hours ago, sunnysideup69 said:

Wow, that's an incredible story, @Shep ! Really gives me hope that I, too, will recover from big pharma. 

I've been a little freaked out lately as I realised I've used drugs (prescription and non prescription) since the age of 21. I'm now 51. Actually, so many of you on this site give me hope that recovery is still possible. 

Thanks so much for posting.

 

Yes, I also enjoyed reading the success story of folks who were on these drugs for decades. There's hope for us all. 

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Amira123

Your story gives us hope. Thank you so much and congratulations on healing

 

may i ask you did you suffer from emotion nubmbess,apathy, anhedonia? And if yes when did they go away?

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gigi63

Hello Shep.  A huge congratulations to you Shep.  I am so inspired by you.  All of your healing!!!!  All of you perseverance!!!  I am at the four year , one month in mark and still waiting for good and steady to arrive, after my CNS crashed on April 22 ,2015.  I would like to ask you how in the midst of the waves and symptoms you began to increase your exercise? I currently walk a couple of miles about four or five days a week but it’s tough to get beyond that with the relentless dizziness and brain fog, muscle and nerve pain. Also, may I ask you what you do for a living?  I am so inspired by you.  Thank you so much.   Gigi. 

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On 5/30/2020 at 7:35 PM, Amira123 said:

Your story gives us hope. Thank you so much and congratulations on healing

 

may i ask you did you suffer from emotion nubmbess,apathy, anhedonia? And if yes when did they go away?

 

Thanks, Amira. For me, it was less about apathy and more about fatigue. I had tons of stuff I wanted to do, but not the energy, and I also had cognitive issues that made it difficult to do more than the basics. I think there's a lot of overlap with these types of symptoms. 

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14 hours ago, gigi63 said:

Hello Shep.  A huge congratulations to you Shep.  I am so inspired by you.  All of your healing!!!!  All of you perseverance!!!  I am at the four year , one month in mark and still waiting for good and steady to arrive, after my CNS crashed on April 22 ,2015.  I would like to ask you how in the midst of the waves and symptoms you began to increase your exercise? I currently walk a couple of miles about four or five days a week but it’s tough to get beyond that with the relentless dizziness and brain fog, muscle and nerve pain. 

 

Thanks, gigi. My advice for increasing exercise is to taper it in. I started out doing cardio at about 5 minutes at a time, 3 or 4 days a week. I added in 1 minute each week. There were times when I had to stop, sometimes for weeks at a time. And then start the process over, 5 minutes at a time, increasing by 1 minute each week. It was incredibly frustrating, but once I was able to get up to running a minimum of 30 minutes at a time, my recovery accelerated. And then I added in biking, which also accelerated my recovery because my brain was having to process information very quickly, especially in busy traffic. 

 

There's a lot in exercise science about how high intensity exercise improves brain function. There are a number of scholarly articles on the web about neurogenesis (cell regrowth) in the hippocampus, which is one of the brain's memory and learning centers. 

 

Diet also plays a key role in my ability to exercise. The Paleo diet works well for me (please note everyone is different when it comes to diet). I try to target foods that increase neurogenesis, such as flavonoids found in foods such as blueberries and dark chocolate, as well as eating a daily serving of fish, which is high in Omega-3 fatty acids. I eat red meat once a day, which is something holistic psychiatrist Dr. Kelly Brogan advocates (Red Meat for Your Depression).  I explained my transition from vegetarian to Paleo in this post here on SA.  Again, everyone is different, but this is what helped me recover and begin to exercise with high intensity. I avoid dairy, gluten, sugar, and I cook everything from scratch, avoiding any processed foods. 

 

Since you're still dealing with a lot of dizziness, brain fog, and pain, gigi, you may want to keep to walking as you're doing for now. Don't push yourself more than you can take. Perhaps concentrate on diet and see if there are any things you could do to improve, if you're not already doing so. For me, I had to improve my diet first and then tackle exercise. 

 

 

14 hours ago, gigi63 said:

Also, may I ask you what you do for a living?

 

I work for a small social justice non-profit. They've been wonderfully supportive during my recovery process. The concept of structural violence in medicine is understood within social justice circles - the history of trauma to marginalized people is well documented in the literature on Western medicine, including Nuremberg Code violations against the so-called "mentally ill." 

 

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FarmGirlWorks
On 5/27/2020 at 4:28 AM, Shep said:

Due to Mad in America being a reformist site and not an abolitionist site, a lot of the articles there are limited, but if you're interested in a really good abolitionist writer, Dr. Phil Hickey has a number of articles that are really great. 

Thank you and will do. I am (as of a week ago) kundalini yoga certified and am creating a class on ADWD and trauma and want more ADWD supporting info.

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gigi63

Thank you Shep. You know how DP/DR were your signature symptom? Well, brain fog and dizzy have been mine.  

 

Diet, I am so very clean.  I eat whole food plant based nearly exclusively now for 18 months.  No dairy, minimal sugar, low concentrated fats. Once in a while I eat shrimp.  I love them.  I am working on whole body wellness.  99.8 percent of what I eat also is cooked from scratch. I get my omega 3 from flaxseed.  I am so conscientious about what I put in my mouth.  I drink water, water, water. A little almond milk in my morning cereal.  And blueberries, every single day. I purchase them so frequently and in large quantities.  A cup a day.  

 

I am going to plan on incorporating my bike this June.  I bought a beautiful new bike last year this time but due to dizziness and brain fog, only got on twice briefly.  I plan to continue on with my walking.  I also do core body work about 3-4 days a week.  Nothing strenuous but, to deal with my core muscles. Oh the muscle tightness and pain along with nerve pain, have been difficult.    

 

You are so admirable Shep.  Very very courageous.  Every class of psych drugs and you are healing from them all.  I Praise God in heaven!!!!!

 

now, your work.  I am very interested in what you do.  I have been a practicing RN for 35 years.  I had my rose colored glasses stripped off my eyes when I went into WD.  My provider as well as others are so ignorant as to WD let alone the drugs and the effects of these drugs and most drugs and a lot of treatments that culminate western medicine.  I have read so much material on psychiatry, it’s origins, it’s sick practices, and also now I am seeing firsthand my doubts and the myriad of questions that have come to me about western medicine as a whole.  A sad sad state of affairs driven by greed, agendas, money, power.  To name a few. A great injustice to humanity.  I have a series of books that speak directly to the origins of psychiatry from Nazi Germany and some German men/ psychiatrists , Major game players, just prior to Nazi Germany.  It’s all documented history for the reading.  If one care to look. 

 

Shep, thank you.  I truly appreciate you!!! Congratulations again.  I pray the best for you.  Gigi.   

 

 

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15 hours ago, FarmGirlWorks said:

Thank you and will do. I am (as of a week ago) kundalini yoga certified and am creating a class on ADWD and trauma and want more ADWD supporting info.

 

That's really impressive, FGW. Best of luck to you in this wonderful work you're doing. 

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15 hours ago, gigi63 said:

now, your work.  I am very interested in what you do.  I have been a practicing RN for 35 years.  I had my rose colored glasses stripped off my eyes when I went into WD.  My provider as well as others are so ignorant as to WD let alone the drugs and the effects of these drugs and most drugs and a lot of treatments that culminate western medicine.  I have read so much material on psychiatry, it’s origins, it’s sick practices, and also now I am seeing firsthand my doubts and the myriad of questions that have come to me about western medicine as a whole.  A sad sad state of affairs driven by greed, agendas, money, power.  To name a few. A great injustice to humanity.  I have a series of books that speak directly to the origins of psychiatry from Nazi Germany and some German men/ psychiatrists , Major game players, just prior to Nazi Germany.  It’s all documented history for the reading.  If one care to look. 

 

Yes, I've been reading about the origins of psychiatry, too -- everything from the history of psychiatry's takeover from the Inquisition (from Dr. Thomas Szasz's monumental Manufacture of Madness: A Comparative Study of the Inquisition and the Mental Health Movement) to Dr. Peter Breggin's writings on the Nazi "doctors" of the Holocaust. Yes, you're right - it's all documented history for the reading. And I hope more people do take a look at that history. We can't know why we're at the place we're currently at without knowing the history. 

 

 

15 hours ago, gigi63 said:

I am going to plan on incorporating my bike this June.  I bought a beautiful new bike last year this time but due to dizziness and brain fog, only got on twice briefly.

 

It's great to have something to look forward to. I'm sure you'll get back to biking, if not in June, then when your symptoms allow. Healing is frustratingly slow, but it does get better. 

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Malon

@Shep
Thank you for sharing your success story. You have been through so much! You can be so proud of yourself for surviving all of this. Really inspiring and encouraging story. You need to be very strong for surviving all of this.
Life can be so brutal and its sad how much people/ society/ life can harm us and let us suffer.
I am wishing you that now without the drugs and WD you can have a better and a happy life. Do you feel some profundity, spiritually, calmness and strength because of all the pain? For me it feels a bit like this from time to time.

May I ask you in which pattern your fatigue improved? Its my major symptom now on my recovery road.

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hennie86

Shep I want to thank you so much for helping me so much and I am really inspired of your success story. Your support has meaned a lot for me.  You have helped me a lot to get this far in benzo tapering with your advices, and I have learned techniques to cope with symptoms and get through horrible waves.

Thank you so much. 🙂 Hopefully I will have a success story some day when I am finally med free.

 

Hennie

 

 

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Rosetta

I have always found you to be so gracious.  I would not have imagined that you had been wronged at an early age, wronged by so many nor that you struggled for numerous years yet emerged as a kind, compassionate, and giving person.  That is nothing short of a miracle, Shep.  What I have seen you do for members of SA through your loving guidance in the benzo forum and in other areas here gives me so much hope that people can heal not only physically, but spiritually.  That you have avoided the effects of a bitterness such an experience would commonly engender is not only fortunate for you but for all with whom you come in contact.  I hope you live a long, peaceful and joyful life, Shep.

 

Yours,

Rosetta

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xyz

Shep, are you okay? you haven't been on here in a while....

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Frogie
12 minutes ago, xyz said:

Shep, are you okay? you haven't been on here in a while....

Shep is on leave for a while.

 

Take care,

 Frogie xx

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Moonpie

Beautiful Shep!   What a testimony.  With all you have been through, thanking you for your compassion, sharing, and wisdom to help us!!! 

 

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Amira123

Did you suffer from despersonalization, brain fog, unable to concerntrate, lack of creativity and imagination, have you fully recovered from these symptoms? and if yes, how long did it take to fully recover from them?

Did you feel disconnected from life and people and do you feel more connected now?

 

I am sorry for asking alot if questions but these are the symptoms i suffer from and i find them scary

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Happy2Heal
On 5/25/2020 at 4:45 PM, Gridley said:

@Shep

 

A powerful and utterly uplifting account, beautifully written.  Thank you for this beacon.  You have helped so many, myself included.  You are my heroine.

what Grildley said !!!!

 

You are incredible Shep!! I have long admired your selflessness, courage, intelligence, perceptiveness, and utter grace in the face of such horrors that you've endured 

 

I am so thrilled to see your success story, but in my mind, you've been a success all along.

I'm glad your experiences are catching up and that you're feeling better.

I had a very short bout of DP/DR and it was so scary. I've actually avoided reading your thread sometimes because it made me feel so bad for you,  having that as a main symptom.

I wanted to make it go away you, and of course I couldn't, so it only frustrated me and made me incredibly sad for you. 

 

I hope that any waves you have are tiny and very short and that when they are over, you are tossed up onto a much higher level of being healed. you so deserve this.

❤️

 

 

 

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Melissa5000

What a beautiful succes story! Thanks a lot for sharing your story!

 

I also love to ride a bike! I ride an ebike now because I am still to weak for my regular bike. But it gives you so much freedom. I love it for transportation and grocery shopping.

I hope to ride on my old regular bike again some day in the future.

 

I train on a stationary exercise bike at home. I hope to develop more muscle tissue and slow down my nervepain by training . 

 

It improves very slowly for me by gentle training. It goes with ups and downs. 

I feel it helps.

 

Your story is very inspiring! Thanks again!

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