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First off, I am so incredibly thankful for this forum. I would of never ever got off this medication if I had not found this forum. A big thank you to Alto and all the mods that work hard to help everyone. A big thank you to everyone I talked to daily on here as well :) 

 

Here is my intro thread  ☼-cocopuffz17-paroxetine-free-but-not-trouble-free

 

When I came to this forum I had no idea what was going on with me after coming off 11 years of paroxetine use @ 20mg. I was told by my psychiatrist that this drug isn't known to cause this, I know that's not true after going through the hell of AW/PAW. My body was being ravaged by chronic fatigue, autoimmune conditions and a plethora of AW (acute withdrawal) and PAWS(post acute withdrawal) symptoms. I was terrified and did not think I could get through it at the time. But I constantly read stories of success and knew that it was possible and my mindset slowly shifted. I knew that whatever this would throw at me I would be able to take it after making that decision in my mind.

 

Here is some back story of my battle against depression/anxiety and the war I went to with getting off this medication. In high school I struggled immensely with anxiety. I would have panic attacks almost everyday and missed a lot of school because of it. Shortly after graduating I was diagnosed with social anxiety disorder/depression and told I had a chemical imbalance from a psychiatrist that I was seeing and would need an antidepressant (paroxetine) to fix this imbalance. I trusted the psychiatrist as this is what they are educated to do. Never once was nutrition ever mentioned, this will make sense later in my story. Things did get a bit better. I no longer had this terrible anxiety and could function better out in public. So this led me to believe the doctor was right and that I needed medication to function as I was told I had a chemical imbalance. 

 

Over time I slowly slid into a deeper depression and struggled with sleeping. I went to my family doctor and he said to just take sleeping pills. So I took sleeping pills to sleep. I now know this was insomnia caused by the medication. I continued my life and took my antidepressant for multiple more years before I had a health condition pop up. In 2011 I was diagnosed with having erythema multiforme. The E.R. doctor told me it was from an allergic reaction to penicillin. I believe it was caused from long term antidepressant use. It was the most painful thing I have ever experienced at that point in my life. I had a full body rash that was the itchiest thing you could imagine and every time the rash hit a joint I was unable to bend that joint. It was terrifying and painful as could be. It lasted around 2 weeks. 

 

Here is a reference pic before any of these health conditions. 

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I don't remember the exact time frame on this. But it was in the 2013-2015 range. I was feeling way better and decided that I didn't need my AD anymore. So I cold turkey'd. All hell broke loose and I literally went crazy and was uncontrollable. All my anxiety symptoms came rushing back and nothing but pure rage for everything in the world. I reinstated and everything slowly returned back to medicated normal. I tried this twice with cold turkeys, I failed hard both times. The third time I spoke with my psychiatrist and he suggested doing a taper of 3 months @ 25% per month. I made it about 1 month and had to reinstate because the "original symptoms" were too strong, which I now know were withdrawals from coming off the medication. Once again this just supported the psychiatrist's theory of the chemical imbalance and I was like okay I guess I'm on this medication for life. 

 

Late 2014 to early 2015, I was having trouble swallowing food. My tonsils were so swollen. I ended up getting a tonsillectomy in 2015. Yet another random health condition that popped up out of the blue. I blame this excessive inflammation on the medication I took long term.

 

Fast forward to late 2015.... I started losing my hair. I ended up going to a dermatologist and he diagnosed me with alopecia. This sucked. I went into a further depression.

 

 

After recording this video I immediately changed my nutrition to a paleo diet. I saw regrowth on my scalp(not full growth though). The results slowed down and I stopped eating paleo and my condition got worse. 

 

 

I ended up losing all my hair on my scalp and was feeling the worst I had felt in my life and slid into a deeper depression. 

 

 

 

I was not feeling like my current psychiatrist was helping me. So I asked my family doc for a referral to another psychiatrist. I got an appointment a few months later. I went to it and it just so happened there was two psychiatrists in the room. At first I was like yes! Multiple opinions!  I told them I was feeling suicidal and thought about it constantly. They both agreed that this was a normal feeling and everyone feels like this at times. This was the point where I realized I was not going to receive the help I needed to get through this from these doctors. It is not normal to feel like this and absolutely ridiculous that the trained professionals can say that. I now know this was caused by my antidepressant. 

 

Shortly after this all happened my alopecia was progressing. It was going from alopecia areata to alopecia universalis. I was slowly coming to terms with having no hair on my scalp and knew I could not handle losing my eyebrows and facial hair. I lost 50% of my leg and arm hair. This is the point when I looked myself in the mirror with tears rolling down my face and said I will never let myself be this depressed again in my life. I had no idea how I was going to do it at that time. But I made myself a promise and I refused to break it. I had some success with nutrition changes when I did the paleo diet a few years prior. So this is where I started reading more on nutrition. 

 

So after doing that I started reading a lot on people who had reversed autoimmune conditions and how they did it. There were two main contenders I found. A) ImmunoSuppressants B)Nutrition changes. I refused to be on another drug. I thought I needed to be on an antidepressant for life, like hell I was going on another drug for life with all the side effects associated with it. So I chose nutrition changes. In October of 2018 I started The Plant Paradox by Dr.Gundry! In 6 weeks I felt the best I had ever felt in my life. This gave me the confidence to attempt another taper. So I went back to my original psychiatrist(I was still going to him as I needed prescription refills). He suggested the 3 months at 25% per month. I agreed....I just trusted the doctor for tapering as I knew nothing about it at this time. This is where the hardest year of my life is about to begin.

 

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It took almost 5 years and a lot of pain, a lot failing and a lot of learning. But I grew my hair back after being told I would just have to learn to live with it from doctors. I thought this would be the hard part....not the case. Getting off of my antidepressant was.

The first drop from 20 mg to 15 mg was not bad. A slight headache. I stayed at 15 mg for 30 days.

 

The second drop from 15 mg to 10 mg was much harder. This is when I started reading forums and found so many struggles of what people were going through and truly how hard it is to get off of these drugs. I had fevers, cold shakes(I would have a hot bath 3-4 times a day to stay warm), headaches were picking up in intensity, fatigue was starting to happen daily and insomnia. I stayed at 10 mg for 30 days

 

The third drop was from 10 mg to 5 mg absolutely wrecked me. I had even worse insomnia, lightning bolts in my visions, headaches got worse, I was unable to focus, fatigue was even more crushing(I was sleeping 14-16 hr days), cold shakes, tinnitus, vertigo, light sensitivity(I was wearing sunglasses at night it was that rough) and lagging vision ( I would turn my head and know my head was moved but by eyes were still seeing the image from 5 seconds before). I stayed at 5 mg for 15 days. 

 

I added another drop in here.... because I was suppose to go from 5 mg to 0 mg but I felt so awful and panicked so I went to 2.5 mg for 15 days with all the same symptoms. I know this is way too fast of a taper now. I did not know at the time as I was just following my doctors instructions. 

 

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I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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YAYAYAY! Now I was at 0..........Not so fast. This is where the real challenge came for me. A few days later I felt absolutely awful. I would puke all day. I combated it by using tums. I actually had knew this might happen as I had a conversation with a friend and she said that they prescribe the same drugs to dogs and if they come off them too fast they puke. Low and behold I started puking my guts out. But it gave me time to think.... why would my body want to puke all of a sudden. An increase in pH level of my stomach acid. So I used tums to neutralize this spike and it was the only day I had to, thankfully! What I learned is this drug acts like a PPI's (proton pump inhibitor)  Mine being suppressed for over 4000 days and now being able to function normal increased my pH too much and that is why I started puking. I wish I would of had pH tests done on my stomach acid pre/post to see the results.  I had roughly a 2-3 month window of feeling well after this. 

 

After that "Honeymoon" period I got crushed by symptoms. Post acute withdrawals I could barely function and these hit way harder than the acute withdrawals I had. This is when I joined SA as I thought I would never get through it. But I kept leaning on the success stories and that people went through and got through it! For over a year from May 2019 to May 2020 roughly. I got absolutely crushed. I experienced every symptom on the list minus brain zaps. My muscles would twitch randomly, vertigo, anxiety, depression , flu like symptoms, tinnitus(all day), headaches(all day), complete loss of libido,fire going through my veins, terrible nightmares,suicidal ideations, blurred vision, inability to focus, anhedonia, metallic taste in my mouth, crushing fatigue, my skin would shed at excessive rates, brain fog(I literally could not add 2 + 2 in my head), loss of memory and hallucinations. These symptoms came and went, cycling for over a year. 

 

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This picture is from January of 2020. I was getting smashed with headaches/tinnitus on and off for over a year. The further I got away from my last dose the more spaced out they became. These two symptoms and fatigue were the ones that pushed me to the absolute limit. They would not stop, but there was zero chance I was letting this get the better of me. They are almost gone now!!! :) I listened to 1000's of hours of motivational videos on youtube. They are what got me through this constant onslaught of headaches/ringing ears. I would turn the music louder so I couldn't hear my ears ring and this was my relief. 

 

I am a Journeyman Electrician by trade and I was unable to go back into that field at this time as I could not bear the challenge of having to make critical decisions. I ended up taking another job for 55% of the pay for almost the entire year as I healed. I am very fortunate that I was able to work while going through this as I know many aren't and I can see exactly why. I was so close to quitting my job and living off money I had saved up and if it got worse I would of used my line of credit and lived off of it till I was capable of working again.

 

 I told myself 1 year I can make 1 year and ill get through this. I hit one year and was feeling way better than when I made that original statement. So now I tell myself 2 years. I took my last dose ever of this poison on February 12, 2019. I am just past 17 months and every month I feel better than the last and symptoms just keep dropping off the list. When I was in the worst pain of my life I never thought this was possible. Do not listen to your mind, you will get through this. Feed your mind positive thoughts and your body healthy foods. The window and waves pattern is exactly how I healed. At the start the waves were way longer than the windows. This slowly but surely reversed its tide. I now have way more windows than waves. I am not 100% as I still get headaches and tinnitus. These happen very little compared to when I had them 24 hrs a day for many months. I only dreamed of feeling this well a year ago. It is now reality :)

 

Coming off of this medication made me realize how much a zombie I was on it. I was unable to cry or feel emotions except extreme rage. Since coming off of it. I am now able to cry :) I get goosebumps from certain situations in life now which is amazingly refreshing :D.  I can now look at other human beings and see their emotions and understand what they are feeling. I was such a zombie that I did not feel anything different when someone was crying or smiling. The best way I can describe it is I was on autopilot and was so damn close to being this way for my entire life. So all these health conditions that pushed me to my mental limit are truly a blessing in disguise as it forced me to get off this poison and finally feel real emotions again. I can now be out in nature and feel connected to the world :D:D 

 

I always had masseuses/physiotherapists ask me to relax and not be so tense. I did not know any better that my muscles were always contracted from this medication and it was a struggle for my body to heal with my muscle being contracted all the time and limited blood flow to go in to the muscles. Another big one was the clotting of my blood. My blood would not clot while on the medication. Now it clots normal after coming off of it. All these subtle things that I did not notice as I was so zombied on the medication but were little signs I wish I knew to look for.  

Yes,  I am angry that I had to go through this. But anger does no good. I want to help as many people as I can. I know for a fact I would of not been able to get through it without this forum! 

 

After all these health conditions, blood tests, surgeries and numerous doctor visits not one doctor even considered it being the medication. They all knew I was on it. These drugs are extremely powerful and very challenging to get off of. You can do it though, I am proof! 

 

Keep pushing your best days are ahead of you!! The past is there for you to learn from! If you dwell on the past you will never enjoy your future. Always remember everyday that passes is one day closer to being healed :D  

 

I love you all! You will get through this! Never stop smiling!!! :D

 

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I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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Patti2057

You are truly an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your incredible story. What you suffered through is a travesty however, you using that now to help others is a blessing.  For myself, and I am sure also for many others, you have given me hope and strength to keep pushing through. 🙏🏻💖🙏🏻

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mustafa

Wooooooow, you did it coco, finally did it 😂😂.

Iam very happy for this and for u.

Congratulations for everything and,

ENJOY YOUR LIFE.


i wasn't on a certain drug all the period. i took many drugs many times and for no very long period but to simplify.

--fluvoxamine maleate100 mg + amisulpride 200mg------started july 2012 and total taper in february 2015 ( 9 months without drugs then)

--sertraline 100mg -------started november 2015 and total taper (withoud reduction slowly) in november 2016( 4 months withoud drugs then).

--sertraline 100mg + quetiabine 25mg ( started in mars 2016 and for 7 months) then fluvoxamine maleate 100mg again for another 7months and after that a something like to use every drug for 14 days and for about 1.5 years.

--my last drug was trintellix 10 mg ( used it in 12/2018and total taper in 4/2019).

symptomts i have now ( bad concentration and problems in short and long memory+ bad depersonalization).

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Hanna72

What an awesome read💖 You are a true inspiration and a Paxil survivor💪 This post gives so much hope to all of us. Thank you for sharing, and enjoy your new med free life🙏


2000/ got 20mg Paxil  

2003/ quit cold turkey, went back on

2004/ tried again quitting, no success 

2010/ Another taper, approx 2 months taper, got acute withdrawal syndrome. Back on Paxil 

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 4 times 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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Frogie

Congratulations 🎉🎉🎉

 

What an amazing story.

 

Thank you so much for sharing!

 

Now on to a better/happier life for you😊

 

Take care,

 Frogie xx

 


PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. 

 Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal and Prilosec from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist.

 Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form)

---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3

 Xanax 1mg three times a day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) three times a day to .003 grams three times a day.

19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!!

 

 

I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience.

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Longroadhome

@Cocopuffz17

 

well done Coco I’m  very  proud of you!

yet another Paxil survivor!!!

how much do you attribute the Plant P diet to your success  ? 
and do you still remain on it ? 
 


October 2004 -  October 2018 Paxil 20mg

October 2018 - November 2018 15mg Paxil 

Nov 2018 -  2x50 mg Pregabalin to help with Paxil WD

December 2018 - January 2019 10mg Paxil  

January 2019 - February 2019  7.5mg Paxil crashed 

February 2019 - 8.5mg Paxil

August 2019 - stopped both meds for 2.5 days meltdown 

August 2019 -  daily: 50mg Pregabalin April 2020 45mg May 40mg June 35mg, beg July 30mg, end July 25mg

Nov 2019 - 8mg Paxil, March 2020 7.2mg April 6.5mg May 5.9mg June 5.4mg July 4.8mg

 

these dates are approximate 

 

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14 hours ago, Patti2057 said:

You are truly an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your incredible story. What you suffered through is a travesty however, you using that now to help others is a blessing.  For myself, and I am sure also for many others, you have given me hope and strength to keep pushing through. 🙏🏻💖🙏🏻

 

Thank you :) Yes, you will get through it! It may not feel like it at times, but it will happen. All the best to you :) 

 

4 hours ago, mustafa said:

Wooooooow, you did it coco, finally did it 😂😂.

Iam very happy for this and for u.

Congratulations for everything and,

ENJOY YOUR LIFE.

 

Thanks Mustafa! I appreciate it a lot! I look forward to reading your success story soon as well! 

 

2 hours ago, Hanna72 said:

What an awesome read💖 You are a true inspiration and a Paxil survivor💪 This post gives so much hope to all of us. Thank you for sharing, and enjoy your new med free life🙏

 

Thank you! That is exactly why I am sharing it. I relied on the success stories of others when I did not think I could take anymore. They are what kept me going in the really dark days. You are welcome have a great weekend! 

 

1 hour ago, Frogie said:

Congratulations 🎉🎉🎉

 

What an amazing story.

 

Thank you so much for sharing!

 

Now on to a better/happier life for you😊

 

Take care,

 Frogie xx

 

 

Thanks! I could of not done it without the help of everyone on this forum :) I appreciate the kind words :D 

40 minutes ago, Longroadhome said:

@Cocopuffz17

 

well done Coco I’m  very  proud of you!

yet another Paxil survivor!!!

how much do you attribute the Plant P diet to your success  ? 
and do you still remain on it ? 
 

 

Thanks!

If I were to a put a % on it I'd say in the high 80%'s. I had tried in the past and was incapable of getting off of paroxetine. When I switched to that lifestyle I felt soooo good that I knew I could get off of paroxetine. I have been around 98% compliant now for close to 2 years. But every single time i slipped and ate non compliant foods I would get a spike in WD's, sometimes even so bad they would trigger a wave for weeks. I was fortunate that I started the lifestyle before tapering as then I knew what my pre-taper baseline was. After reading that Dr.G's book I completely changed my outlook on how I view nutrition. Essentially, I got way better results by reading a book and learning from it than I did with over 7-9 years of doctor appointments and $1000's of out of pocket expenses. Now I supplement everyday and have for about 20 months.


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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Amira123

Thank you for sharing your story @Cocopuffz17

Congratulations and enjoy your life 🎉🎊


Cymbalta 30 mg- 60 mg 

June 2016- October 2018 ( Cold Turkey) 

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Sheera

Congratulations!!  ❤️❤️


Started Lamictal and Brintellix in November 2015

May 2016 Discontinued Lamictal 100 to 50 and then stopped completely.

October 20, 2016 discontinued Brintellex 10 to 5 then went from 5 to 0 on November 10, 2016.

 

Currently off all antidepressants

 

Current Supplements:  L-Theanine, Natural Progesterone, L-Methylfolate, Vitamin D, Omega-3's, Probiotic

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trenace

I really like that you posted pics lol. I'm having a rough day so far and its cheered me up ☺. You're a legend!


Fluanxol dosage n/a - 6 months cold turkey Start/ may 2015 end/august 2015

Sertraline 100mg - 10 months cold turkey start/ may 2015 End/Feb 2016

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On 7/18/2020 at 12:27 PM, Amira123 said:

Thank you for sharing your story @Cocopuffz17

Congratulations and enjoy your life 🎉🎊

 

Thank you. It is the very least I could do after all the help I received from this forum. 

 

20 hours ago, Sheera said:

Congratulations!!  ❤️❤️

 

Thanks :) 

 

7 hours ago, trenace said:

I really like that you posted pics lol. I'm having a rough day so far and its cheered me up ☺. You're a legend!

 

:) The saying goes one picture is 1000 words. That stinks, you will get through it and have many great days ahead! 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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sunnysideup69

Gonna take time later to read your story, but first wanted to say, thank you so much for sharing good news. It's really important to be able to read about healing. Well done, dude!


January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

 

 

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nick1990

So stoked for you bro! 


Started Citalopram in 2005 (aged 15) for apparent "OCD" - 60mg 

July 2015 attempted 2 x 10% + cuts 4 weeks apart. WD symptoms intense at times. Need to slow down.

 

November 2016 - Resumed taper. 1.25 - 1.5% decrease weekly approx.

44.5mg November 2016. Jan 2017 42.5 mg. March 2017 40 mg. June 2017 37mg. September 2018 22mg. Nov 2018 Holding at 22mg to stabilise from moderate wave. January 2020 - Holding, mostly feeling fine, but still having some waves at times. 

 

February 2020 - Resumed taper , 1.5% reduction weekly/every two weeks. 

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Armorall

Congrats Cocopuffs. You are always a shining light on the forum. I admire you for your fortitude and consistent positivity. You've helped me and I'm sure many others with your stories and encouragement. I'm glad you're feeling so much better! Your improvements are huge! I'm always inspired to stick to a good diet and exercise after reading anything from you. 


3/21/19 started Bupropion XL 150 mg

3/21/19 started Risperidone 2mg

7/7/19 start Abilify half dose 5 mg. discontinue Risperidone

7/9/19 full dose Abilify 10 mg

7/29/19 discontinued Abilify due to panicky side effects

8/2/19 Began Latuda 20 mg

8/5/19 discontinued Latuda due to similar side effects 

8/10/19 discontinued Bupropion after realizing it was causing the insomnia

From 8/10/19 no drugs whatsoever

Currently taking Magnesium 150mgs daily

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Melissa5000

That was a bumpy ride!

 

Thank you for sharing your story!

 

I also enjoy dr Gundry on you tube and I am reading his books after you told me about him. I recently bought dr Gundry's : The longevity paradox.

I'm not sure if it will help with withdrawal pains for me. But I am very interested in a healthy diet to stay healthy till a ripe old age as dr Gundry says.

 

I am so happy for you that you improved so much!


2019 2.1 mg amitriptyline ,15th july 2.1 mg, 22-7 2.09 mg, 29-7 2.08 mg, 5-8 2.09 mg , 7-8 2.1 mg . 2020 Holding at 2.1 mg

2019 125 mg lyrica, 15th july 124,5 mg, 22-7 124 mg, 29-7 123,5 mg, 4-8 124 mg 2020 holding at 124 mg

2015 january building up my medication to 450 mg lyrica and 50 mg amitriptyline for face ache after a rootcanal treatment at the dentist. 2016 february start tapering lyrica from 450 mg to 200 mg 2016 october tapered 25 mg amitriptyline to 25 mg 2017 tapered lyrica from 200 mg to 100 mg 2017 september tapered my last tablet of 25 mg amitriptyline to zero  (horrible muscle pain started) 2018 february tapered lyrica from 100 mg to 75 mg (my muscle pain got worse and I have a lot of nervepain in my arms and legs, sometimes all over musclepain and nerve pain and burning pain) 2018 may reinstated 25 mg lyrica. My current dose is 100 mg lyrica. My pain is still very bad but a little less intense, my mood improved. 2018 since 22th may updose amitriptyline.  9 beads. 2018 june updosing lyrica. 2018 16 th june 125 mg lyrica and 9 beads amitriptyline ( 2mg) Now I'm doing a long hold. I can't taper anymore. Too much pain. I hope to stabilize and improve while holding. I'm trying graded activity to get rid of my pain. 2019 1 jan. Lyrica 125 mg (holding) 2019 1 jan. Amitriptyline tapering from 9 beads to 8 beads (1 jan. 2019),  8,5 beads (5 jan 19), 9 beads (16 jan 19) tapper attempt failed

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17 hours ago, sunnysideup69 said:

Gonna take time later to read your story, but first wanted to say, thank you so much for sharing good news. It's really important to be able to read about healing. Well done, dude!

 

You are welcome :) Absolutely it is, it got me through the dark days. 

 

12 hours ago, nick1990 said:

So stoked for you bro! 

 

 Thanks :)

 

2 hours ago, Armorall said:

Congrats Cocopuffs. You are always a shining light on the forum. I admire you for your fortitude and consistent positivity. You've helped me and I'm sure many others with your stories and encouragement. I'm glad you're feeling so much better! Your improvements are huge! I'm always inspired to stick to a good diet and exercise after reading anything from you. 

 

Thank you, I really appreciate your kind words! I am glad you found strength in my words! Yes, nutrition/exercise are key! I attribute a massive amount of success to my nutrition changes. 

 

47 minutes ago, Melissa5000 said:

That was a bumpy ride!

 

Thank you for sharing your story!

 

I also enjoy dr Gundry on you tube and I am reading his books after you told me about him. I recently bought dr Gundry's : The longevity paradox.

I'm not sure if it will help with withdrawal pains for me. But I am very interested in a healthy diet to stay healthy till a ripe old age as dr Gundry says.

 

I am so happy for you that you improved so much!

 

It sure was! I got really good at steering around the potholes :P  

 

You are welcome!

 

I read that book a few months back and started doing 48 hr fasts and found that helped a lot!  I am sure it will help you. Yes!!! I love that saying! 

 

Thanks :) Have a great day! 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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Hey @Cocopuffz17,

congratulations and many thanks for sharing your success story with us and thanks for your encouraging words!
I think you put a lot of effort in it and also very brave of you to share your photos and videos with us.

After how much time your hair began to regrowth? I lost many hairs in the last1.5 years (I have androgenetic alopecia). So I hope some hair will regrowth as well. Hair loss gives me additional depression as well 😕
I also took Paxil and struggling mainly with a lot of fatigue and tiredness.  I wished more people would know how much damage this drugs can cause.
I also think food is very important. I recently started a vegan diet.

 

On 7/18/2020 at 12:57 AM, Cocopuffz17 said:

 

(..) I hit one year and was feeling way better than when I made that original statement. So now I tell myself 2 years. (...)

 

 

 


Thats exactly the same thought that I had :)


All the best! 👍


AD since 2006 (16 years old). Prescribed on Citalopram, Fluoxetin(2x), Opipramol, Paroxetin. All with CT except Paroxetin (fast taper).
Last medication was Paroxetin for 3 years. Tapered fast (big mistake):
- October 2018: 10mg -> 5mg
- December 2018: 5mg -> 2,5mg
- February 2019: 2,5mg -> 1,25mg
- March 2019: 1,25mg -> 1 mg
Since May 2019: 0 mg

Supplements:
- Omega 3 (2200mg EPA + DHA )                                   - Vitamin D 2500 i.u. and Vitamin K2 100 µg           - Vitamin B12 (500 mcg)
- Zinc (8 mg)                                                                       - Magnesium-Bisglycinat (100mg elemantal Mg)   - Folat (200mcg)
15 months off. Major symptom now is severe fatigue. Link to my introduction: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/21876-malon-14-years-of-ssri-since-youth-last-was-paroxetin/?tab=comments#comment-486450

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6 hours ago, Malon said:

Hey @Cocopuffz17,

congratulations and many thanks for sharing your success story with us and thanks for your encouraging words!
I think you put a lot of effort in it and also very brave of you to share your photos and videos with us.

After how much time your hair began to regrowth? I lost many hairs in the last1.5 years (I have androgenetic alopecia). So I hope some hair will regrowth as well. Hair loss gives me additional depression as well 😕
I also took Paxil and struggling mainly with a lot of fatigue and tiredness.  I wished more people would know how much damage this drugs can cause.
I also think food is very important. I recently started a vegan diet.

 


Thats exactly the same thought that I had :)


All the best! 👍

 

Thank you :) I thought long and hard about sharing it. But it would be selfish of me to rely on other peoples success story's for my own healing and then when I get there not do the same thing to help others. 

 

I experienced regrowth of vellus very rapidly. These are white and very thin. Before I thought this was bad... but this is the first stage of regrowth. Over the next year my hair gained more and more pigment each month and grew thicker. I have all the photos of that as well. I know exactly how you feel with getting more depressed because of hairloss. You can get through it and grow it back. Look what I did. 

 

The fatigue and tiredness will get better... I used to think it never would. I was so drained I could not do 1 pushup. Now I can do many everyday! 

 

Awesome! How do you feel with changing nutrition? 

 

All the best to you as well :) 

 

 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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Wonderful to read your success story!! I’m also a big advocate of nutrition. It’s such a crucial piece to overall health, preventing diseases, and also to providing nourishment through the assault of ADWD. 
 

You’re right—often reading books and educating yourself on health and nutrition can be invaluable and way more helpful than a doctor visit.

 

Would be neat if we could come up with nutrition recommendations or protocols for folks going through ADWD. The tricky thing is to actually make nutrition recommendations it’s recommended you have a degree and training in nutrition. I’m actually in school right now for nutrition (it’s a dietetics program) but I feel I have so much knowledge already and could help the community in this way. 
 

I’m curious, what were the main recommendations you followed? I know it was mainly to remedy the alopecia but I’m sure they’re good nutrition recommendations in general. 


Apr 2018 - 10 mg Amitriptyline (Rx’d by neurologist for headaches & insomnia)

Jul + Aug 2018 - Reduced to 5 mg in July and then 2.5 mg in Aug (was too fast, hellish withdrawal at 2 weeks on 2.5 mg)

Sept 2018 - reinstated 10 mg Amitriptyline (emotional symptoms improved immediately, physical symptoms improved over time)

Oct 2018 - updosed to 11 mg Amitriptyline (compounded pills)

Stabilized in Apr 2019 (had 2 waves while stabilizing).

Began taper at rate of ~0.2 mg per month with liquid/dissolved taper. Current (Aug 2020) 5.3 mg.

 

Supplements: Omega-3 fish oil, Vit B12, coenzyme Q10, Hawthorn extract (for tachycardia)

Tools for insomnia/waves (as needed) : Epsom salt foot soaks, 0.5 mg Melatonin, quality time with supportive friends/family, remembering waves WILL PASS.

Lifestyle: Eat real foods, mostly plants; daily walking (30 min); track symptoms when needed on paper (adapted Glenmullen chart)

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15 minutes ago, composter said:

Wonderful to read your success story!! I’m also a big advocate of nutrition. It’s such a crucial piece to overall health, preventing diseases, and also to providing nourishment through the assault of ADWD. 
 

You’re right—often reading books and educating yourself on health and nutrition can be invaluable and way more helpful than a doctor visit.

 

Would be neat if we could come up with nutrition recommendations or protocols for folks going through ADWD. The tricky thing is to actually make nutrition recommendations it’s recommended you have a degree and training in nutrition. I’m actually in school right now for nutrition (it’s a dietetics program) but I feel I have so much knowledge already and could help the community in this way. 
 

I’m curious, what were the main recommendations you followed? I know it was mainly to remedy the alopecia but I’m sure they’re good nutrition recommendations in general. 

 

Thank you :) It was extremely challenging but things are looking way up! 

 

Absolutely, I got better knowledge from reading books than I did in over a decade of doctor visits. 

 

That it would be. I know I would of not been able to get off of this medication without nutritional changes.

 

The elimination of lectins or drastically reducing them in my diet. They are the self defense protein in plants. They wreak havoc on our gut walls and promote leaky gut, which leads to a whole plethora of heal issues as you have seen with me. I follow the Yes/No list by Dr.Gundry and will continue to follow it. 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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11 minutes ago, Cocopuffz17 said:

The elimination of lectins or drastically reducing them in my diet. They are the self defense protein in plants.


Lectins are found in higher amounts in legumes, grains, and nightshade vegetables. Do you avoid all of these?

 

How about sprouting or soaking your grains and beans to reduce lectin content...have you tried this?

 

Interesting... I was not familiar with this Yes/No list by Dr. Gundry so I looked it up. It appears he recommends somewhat of a keto or paleo-type diet with few starches, high-fat oils, fish, meat and specific fruits and veggies. Surprised to see things like squash and quinoa on his No list. This is all rather specific but I’m glad it worked for you. 
 

As far as nutrition recommendations go, I would think general guidelines that could apply for anyone would be things like:

- eat whole, unprocessed foods and reduce processed foods (fast food, frozen food, high sugar/corn syrup foods)

- consume plenty of colorful fruits and vegetables daily

- eat nutrient dense foods whenever possible to meet nutrient needs — leafy greens are a great example of this like kale and cruciferous veggies which are also high in calcium and other micronutrients. 

- for protein, consider foods that are also high in omega-3s that can boost brain health such as fatty fish, grass-fed or pastured meats, and walnuts and chia seeds

- be aware of food sensitivities or foods that can increase inflammation such as dairy products, gluten, sometimes soy and foods high in phytic acid like legumes and grain products.

 

What do you think?


Apr 2018 - 10 mg Amitriptyline (Rx’d by neurologist for headaches & insomnia)

Jul + Aug 2018 - Reduced to 5 mg in July and then 2.5 mg in Aug (was too fast, hellish withdrawal at 2 weeks on 2.5 mg)

Sept 2018 - reinstated 10 mg Amitriptyline (emotional symptoms improved immediately, physical symptoms improved over time)

Oct 2018 - updosed to 11 mg Amitriptyline (compounded pills)

Stabilized in Apr 2019 (had 2 waves while stabilizing).

Began taper at rate of ~0.2 mg per month with liquid/dissolved taper. Current (Aug 2020) 5.3 mg.

 

Supplements: Omega-3 fish oil, Vit B12, coenzyme Q10, Hawthorn extract (for tachycardia)

Tools for insomnia/waves (as needed) : Epsom salt foot soaks, 0.5 mg Melatonin, quality time with supportive friends/family, remembering waves WILL PASS.

Lifestyle: Eat real foods, mostly plants; daily walking (30 min); track symptoms when needed on paper (adapted Glenmullen chart)

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8 hours ago, composter said:


Lectins are found in higher amounts in legumes, grains, and nightshade vegetables. Do you avoid all of these?

 

How about sprouting or soaking your grains and beans to reduce lectin content...have you tried this?

 

Interesting... I was not familiar with this Yes/No list by Dr. Gundry so I looked it up. It appears he recommends somewhat of a keto or paleo-type diet with few starches, high-fat oils, fish, meat and specific fruits and veggies. Surprised to see things like squash and quinoa on his No list. This is all rather specific but I’m glad it worked for you. 
 

As far as nutrition recommendations go, I would think general guidelines that could apply for anyone would be things like:

- eat whole, unprocessed foods and reduce processed foods (fast food, frozen food, high sugar/corn syrup foods)

- consume plenty of colorful fruits and vegetables daily

- eat nutrient dense foods whenever possible to meet nutrient needs — leafy greens are a great example of this like kale and cruciferous veggies which are also high in calcium and other micronutrients. 

- for protein, consider foods that are also high in omega-3s that can boost brain health such as fatty fish, grass-fed or pastured meats, and walnuts and chia seeds

- be aware of food sensitivities or foods that can increase inflammation such as dairy products, gluten, sometimes soy and foods high in phytic acid like legumes and grain products.

 

What do you think?

 

I avoid all those and have for almost 2 years. The only grains I have are sorghum and millet, both have no lectins. 

 

You can do this to beans and pressure cook them to reduce it and it works well. In grains it does not work well. 

 

I did a paleo diet for 13 months and only ate fruits,veggies and meat. I had very little success as commercially raised meat is garbage. It is fed corn/grains and is pumped full of antibiotics. I have not ate fruit or meat like this in a long time and I feel amazing. 

 

I agree with some of those. But a lot of veggies are bad because they contain lectins. Fruit is too high in sugar and causes issues. I noticed whenever I ate higher containing sugar foods my withdrawals would spike. I love that his list is so specific and that I can keep to it and if I try to incorporate new foods I know exactly what one is causing the issue. :) 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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Hmm that’s interesting! With nutrition we can’t necessarily make one-size-fits-all recommendations so I’d be wary of saying that the dietary changes you made would be ideal for others. But I’m glad they really helped you and I’ll look into the book a bit more. 
 

In general I think the best we can hope for and encourage other people to do is to eat real foods and greatly reduce processed foods high in sugar, salt, etc. 


Apr 2018 - 10 mg Amitriptyline (Rx’d by neurologist for headaches & insomnia)

Jul + Aug 2018 - Reduced to 5 mg in July and then 2.5 mg in Aug (was too fast, hellish withdrawal at 2 weeks on 2.5 mg)

Sept 2018 - reinstated 10 mg Amitriptyline (emotional symptoms improved immediately, physical symptoms improved over time)

Oct 2018 - updosed to 11 mg Amitriptyline (compounded pills)

Stabilized in Apr 2019 (had 2 waves while stabilizing).

Began taper at rate of ~0.2 mg per month with liquid/dissolved taper. Current (Aug 2020) 5.3 mg.

 

Supplements: Omega-3 fish oil, Vit B12, coenzyme Q10, Hawthorn extract (for tachycardia)

Tools for insomnia/waves (as needed) : Epsom salt foot soaks, 0.5 mg Melatonin, quality time with supportive friends/family, remembering waves WILL PASS.

Lifestyle: Eat real foods, mostly plants; daily walking (30 min); track symptoms when needed on paper (adapted Glenmullen chart)

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On 8/9/2020 at 9:56 PM, composter said:

Hmm that’s interesting! With nutrition we can’t necessarily make one-size-fits-all recommendations so I’d be wary of saying that the dietary changes you made would be ideal for others. But I’m glad they really helped you and I’ll look into the book a bit more. 
 

In general I think the best we can hope for and encourage other people to do is to eat real foods and greatly reduce processed foods high in sugar, salt, etc. 

Absolutely, I know individuals who have great success with completely different strategies! I just kept failing till I found something that worked really well for me. 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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@Cocopuffz17

 

hi Coco

hope everything still going well for you on the recovery front :) 

 

I am 4 days into the plant paradox diet the easy plan one. 
did you find you felt sick when starting it at all ? 
im finding I’m feeling queasy and not hungry to eat it 

also when did you start to notice changes

I’ve  has hives for a year wd related I think as I never had them before .  And although much better Over the course of the year,, I don’t take any medication like when it first came on ( after two courses of antibiotics) I would like to

see if I can get rid of it permanently. 
I also have hair loss and breakage quite severe. 


How do you cope sourcing and prepping the food it takes so long to do? 
 

 

thanks Coco great success story Only the very brave  quit the “beast” !!!!! Im

proud of you !!!! 
 


October 2004 -  October 2018 Paxil 20mg

October 2018 - November 2018 15mg Paxil 

Nov 2018 -  2x50 mg Pregabalin to help with Paxil WD

December 2018 - January 2019 10mg Paxil  

January 2019 - February 2019  7.5mg Paxil crashed 

February 2019 - 8.5mg Paxil

August 2019 - stopped both meds for 2.5 days meltdown 

August 2019 -  daily: 50mg Pregabalin April 2020 45mg May 40mg June 35mg, beg July 30mg, end July 25mg

Nov 2019 - 8mg Paxil, March 2020 7.2mg April 6.5mg May 5.9mg June 5.4mg July 4.8mg

 

these dates are approximate 

 

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5 hours ago, Longroadhome said:

@Cocopuffz17

 

hi Coco

hope everything still going well for you on the recovery front :) 

 

I am 4 days into the plant paradox diet the easy plan one. 
did you find you felt sick when starting it at all ? 
im finding I’m feeling queasy and not hungry to eat it 

also when did you start to notice changes

I’ve  has hives for a year wd related I think as I never had them before .  And although much better Over the course of the year,, I don’t take any medication like when it first came on ( after two courses of antibiotics) I would like to

see if I can get rid of it permanently. 
I also have hair loss and breakage quite severe. 


How do you cope sourcing and prepping the food it takes so long to do? 
 

 

thanks Coco great success story Only the very brave  quit the “beast” !!!!! Im

proud of you !!!! 
 

Hey it has been going well! 
 

I felt awful when I started. The first 3 days were worse than some withdrawal days. Cold turkeying sugar kicked my butt. That sounds exactly like me. I didn’t eat much for a week and slowly gained my appetite back. It took about a month before I felt good! 
 

I keep my meals very very simple. I use a ton of extra virgin olive oil, a mix green salad from Costco it’s organic, organic guacamole pods, I pop sorghum and rotate broccoli, cauliflower and a few other veggies. Whenever I feel like I have low energy I crank up my oil intake. I’m around 1 L a week and now I started adding organic coconut oil. 
 

Thank You! I would of not have been able to do this without this amazing forum! I hope all the best to you!! 😊


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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15 minutes ago, Cocopuffz17 said:

Hey it has been going well! 
 

I felt awful when I started. The first 3 days were worse than some withdrawal days. Cold turkeying sugar kicked my butt. That sounds exactly like me. I didn’t eat much for a week and slowly gained my appetite back. It took about a month before I felt good! 
 

I keep my meals very very simple. I use a ton of extra virgin olive oil, a mix green salad from Costco it’s organic, organic guacamole pods, I pop sorghum and rotate broccoli, cauliflower and a few other veggies. Whenever I feel like I have low energy I crank up my oil intake. I’m around 1 L a week and now I started adding organic coconut oil. 
 

Thank You! I would of not have been able to do this without this amazing forum! I hope all the best to you!! 😊

Thank you for your reply 😊


October 2004 -  October 2018 Paxil 20mg

October 2018 - November 2018 15mg Paxil 

Nov 2018 -  2x50 mg Pregabalin to help with Paxil WD

December 2018 - January 2019 10mg Paxil  

January 2019 - February 2019  7.5mg Paxil crashed 

February 2019 - 8.5mg Paxil

August 2019 - stopped both meds for 2.5 days meltdown 

August 2019 -  daily: 50mg Pregabalin April 2020 45mg May 40mg June 35mg, beg July 30mg, end July 25mg

Nov 2019 - 8mg Paxil, March 2020 7.2mg April 6.5mg May 5.9mg June 5.4mg July 4.8mg

 

these dates are approximate 

 

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4 hours ago, Cocopuffz17 said:

Hey it has been going well! 
 

I felt awful when I started. The first 3 days were worse than some withdrawal days. Cold turkeying sugar kicked my butt. That sounds exactly like me. I didn’t eat much for a week and slowly gained my appetite back. It took about a month before I felt good! 
 

I keep my meals very very simple. I use a ton of extra virgin olive oil, a mix green salad from Costco it’s organic, organic guacamole pods, I pop sorghum and rotate broccoli, cauliflower and a few other veggies. Whenever I feel like I have low energy I crank up my oil intake. I’m around 1 L a week and now I started adding organic coconut oil. 
 

Thank You! I would of not have been able to do this without this amazing forum! I hope all the best to you!! 😊

Hi Coco,

 

I got a lot of encouragement from reading your success story. Can you tell me what symptoms are left over for you now? How did you sleep with the tinnitus? This is my newest symptom and it's driving me absolutely crazy. I look forward to hearing back from you, thanks!


  1. Started Wellbutrin 75 mg IR the end of 2015.
  2. Tried quitting cold turkey in June 30th- July 3rd 2017.
  3. Had severe withdrawals.
  4. Was placed on Wellbutrin 100mg SR so I could taper without withdrawal.
  5. Stabilized on 100mg SR for most of the month of July.
  6. Started tapering on July 17th,  2017.
  7. Completed taper on August 8th, 2017.
  8. Currently experiencing severe withdrawal.
  • Symptoms- Currently experiencing anhedonia, depersonalization/derealization, concentration/memory issues, chronic congestion, chronic dry eyes, dry skin, dislocated TMJ joint from teeth grinding during C/T withdrawal, waves of depression, anxiety, nausea, morning cortisol spikes, insomnia, agitation, food sensitivities, no tolerance for caffeine and chronic fatigue, burning muscle pain in upper and lower back and occasional tinninitus.
  • Supplements- Omega-3 fish oil supplement twice daily, 100 mg of magnesium once daily. 

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1 hour ago, Hellbutrin said:

Hi Coco,

 

I got a lot of encouragement from reading your success story. Can you tell me what symptoms are left over for you now? How did you sleep with the tinnitus? This is my newest symptom and it's driving me absolutely crazy. I look forward to hearing back from you, thanks!

Hey!

 

That is great! This is exactly why I share my story. I get headaches/tinnitus still. Not constantly but on and off during the day, very mild compared to what it was. It's a cake walk now. I took a lot of melotonin at the start and with it lessening I was able to just adjust and sleep with it without the use of melotonin. You are welcome :) 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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elbee

Thank you for sharing your success story, @Cocopuffz17 -- wow, such a courageous journey!

 

What you wrote about emotionally coming back to life really resonates with my experience in recovery, too. As you say, getting under the anger/rage and feeling sadness / grief was transformative.

 

On 7/17/2020 at 6:57 PM, Cocopuffz17 said:

 

Coming off of this medication made me realize how much a zombie I was on it. I was unable to cry or feel emotions except extreme rage. Since coming off of it. I am now able to cry :) I get goosebumps from certain situations in life now which is amazingly refreshing :D.  I can now look at other human beings and see their emotions and understand what they are feeling. I was such a zombie that I did not feel anything different when someone was crying or smiling. The best way I can describe it is I was on autopilot and was so damn close to being this way for my entire life

 

I too love feeling goosebumps in life again . . . it feels like a little boy's heart in me is being touched ❤️

 

I wish you the best in your continued healing and moving forward courageously through life!


My suggestions are not medical advice. They are my opinions based on my own experience, strength and hope.

You are in charge of your own medical / healing / recovery choices.

My success story |  My introduction thread

 

ZOLOFT FREE - COMPLETELY DRUG FREE 4/28/2019! - total time on 28+ years

BENZO FREE! 4/7/2018 - total time on 27+ years

REMERON FREE! 12/11/2016 - total time on 15 months

Caffeine & Nicotine Free 2014 / 2015 - smoked for 28 years

Alcohol Free 4/1/2014 - drank for 30 years

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12 hours ago, elbee said:

Thank you for sharing your success story, @Cocopuffz17 -- wow, such a courageous journey!

 

What you wrote about emotionally coming back to life really resonates with my experience in recovery, too. As you say, getting under the anger/rage and feeling sadness / grief was transformative.

 

 

I too love feeling goosebumps in life again . . . it feels like a little boy's heart in me is being touched ❤️

 

I wish you the best in your continued healing and moving forward courageously through life!

 

You are welcome! It was tough but necessary to get back to a happy life! 

 

Yes, I feel like I was reborn. Absolutely, I had to go through this to realize that there is so much more to life. 

 

It is great to feel emotions again! It is awesome! 

 

I wish the exact same to you as well! You story is powerful and you are stronger for going through it! You will thrive on the other side! 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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Malon

Hey @Cocopuffz17

I think you recovered quite fast. Do you still have waves?

 


AD since 2006 (16 years old). Prescribed on Citalopram, Fluoxetin(2x), Opipramol, Paroxetin. All with CT except Paroxetin (fast taper).
Last medication was Paroxetin for 3 years. Tapered fast (big mistake):
- October 2018: 10mg -> 5mg
- December 2018: 5mg -> 2,5mg
- February 2019: 2,5mg -> 1,25mg
- March 2019: 1,25mg -> 1 mg
Since May 2019: 0 mg

Supplements:
- Omega 3 (2200mg EPA + DHA )                                   - Vitamin D 2500 i.u. and Vitamin K2 100 µg           - Vitamin B12 (500 mcg)
- Zinc (8 mg)                                                                       - Magnesium-Bisglycinat (100mg elemantal Mg)   - Folat (200mcg)
15 months off. Major symptom now is severe fatigue. Link to my introduction: https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/21876-malon-14-years-of-ssri-since-youth-last-was-paroxetin/?tab=comments#comment-486450

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4 hours ago, Malon said:

Hey @Cocopuffz17

I think you recovered quite fast. Do you still have waves?

 

Hey, absolutely I do. They are much much more manageable now. I made massive changes to my nutrition which I attribute the faster recovery to. Whenever I slip from my nutrition I have a flare up in symptoms and it reminds me to get back on track. 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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Hey coco, I have a question for you.

Do you still have anxiety, and also do you think that your nutrition keeps it in place or is it all about time? Much appreciated 🙏


2000/ got 20mg Paxil  

2003/ quit cold turkey, went back on

2004/ tried again quitting, no success 

2010/ Another taper, approx 2 months taper, got acute withdrawal syndrome. Back on Paxil 

2019- January started tapering Paxil, 2019-October 10 mg Paxil , getting ready for a bridge with 10 mg Prozac  Took about 1 month during switch. Done with Paxil 2019/ November started tapering 20 mg Prozac  .Took alcohol and coffee out.2019/December 8 mg Prozac 

2020/January 4 mg Prozac 

2020/15/3 .09 mg jumped off

2020 March 16 off Prozac  Quetipine 25 mg used 1 time in 15 months, oxezapam 15 mg used 4 times 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time” Leo Tolstoy 

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On 9/2/2020 at 3:44 AM, Hanna72 said:

Hey coco, I have a question for you.

Do you still have anxiety, and also do you think that your nutrition keeps it in place or is it all about time? Much appreciated 🙏

Hey! I get it from time to time. No where near what it was and I notice it a lot more when I eat unhealthy, highly processed foods. Time definitely helps with letting your body heal but being coupling it with nutrition is what got me through this! 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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