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I've decided to come back to write an update on how I'm doing. Last time I posted was 3 years ago when I was 8 months into my withdrawals. I will post a link to my post 3 years ago. To sum it up 3 years ago I was having feelings of depression, hopelessness, inability to feel emotions and I felt like nothing excited me in life. The inability to experience emotions and the ability to experience excitement took a long time to come back. It was sort of a gradual process. I would say I felt perfectly fine after around 3 years of withdrawing from citalopram. Keep in mind that I had only taken it for around 4 years and varying doses between 10-20 mg. 

 

 After 2 years of withdrawing I felt a lot better, and I could clearly see the patterns of windows and waves. However, now thinking back the years I was withdrawing was quite a constant struggle. I wish I could tell you to do this and that etc. but I've come to the conclusion that the biggest healer is time and that it really gets better. I've been really fortunate to have great friends that have always been there for me when I needed someone to talk to. I also spent a lot of time in the gym and did everyday normal stuff like going to school. I was able to maintain quite a normal life and still progress in my life even though I wasn't feeling well all the time. 

 

Right now in my life I have 1 year left of my master's degree in my business school, I'm exercising a lot, I'm dating a new great girl, I have great friends and overall my life feels great. The most important thing though is that my mental health is great now. I don't get depressed any more than a normal person, I don't suffer from an inability to feel emotions or feel a lack of excitement in my life.  I could go on to tell more about my life, but I don't think it's necessary since the message is that I feel cured now. 

 

My heart truly goes out to anyone suffering from these withdrawals. My years withdrawing destroyed many  of my relationships and made my whole life a constant struggle. I remember at my worst constantly checking these forums and constantly thinking about starting to take antidepressants again. It truly felt like I was trapped. I wish everyone that is suffering from these withdrawals to know that it truly gets better with time!

 

I also hope that more people that have gotten trough these withdrawals would come back to write their stories. I remember these stories being really helpful while I was withdrawing and I probably read all of them. That is the biggest reason I decided to come back and post.

 

Take care!

 

 

 

The link to my previous post 3 years ago (8 months into withdrawals)

https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/15408-boomshakalaka-my-journey-of-becoming-a-better-person/?tab=comments#comment-297353

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Altostrata

Congratulations! Thanks so much for coming back and letting us know you're doing so well, boom.

 

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sunnysideup69

Wow, this is great to read.....thanks so much ❤️ 


January 2008 to April 2015 Citalopram 20mg to 5mg, reducing in 50 per cent leaps. Jumped off at 5mg

March 2016 used MDMA triggered setback

April 2016 Citalopram 10mg October 2016 cut to 5mg, May 2017 cut to 2.5mg

May 2018 used MDMA triggered setback

June 2018 Citalopram 2.5mg up to 10mg, then back to 5mg

July/ August 2018 7.5mg, then 10mg

June 2019 updosed to 20mg Citalopram

August 2019 cold switch to Venlafaxine 75mg XR

 

 

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Cocopuffz17

Amazing! Great work! I am super pumped that you are doing well! Congrats! 


I follow The Plant Paradox lifestyle by Dr.Gundry. This lifestyle has given me my life back and I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. It has enabled me to finally get off of this medication and truly live my life. Nutrition is the key to health!!!!! 

 

2008 to 2019  - 20 mg Paroxetine

 

Attempted 2 CT's around the 5-6 year mark. Were absolutely terrible and reinstated. Was never explained by the doctor the seriousness of the short half life of this drug. 

 

2017 - Attempted a tapered discontinuation of this drug and reinstated after being unsuccessful.

 

2019 - Feb. 12 - After a three month taper I am off of paroxetine. The 3 months were terrible, awful withdrawal feelings. I followed the doctors guidelines for the reduction of this drug and now know it was way too fast. 
 

2019 - Oct. 12 - 8 months off paroxetine. 75% improvement since coming off the drug. Definitely have had tons of challenges along the way. Let’s go!!!! 

 

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Erell

Thank you boomshakalaka for taking the time to share your Success Story !

You're right, these stories are very helpful !

 

And Congratulations, I'm happy for you and this new free life ! ❤


2006 : 20mg Paroxetine + Bromazepam(no specific dose) 

2008 : cold turkey of both

2010 : 20mg Deroxat + Bromazepam(no specific dose) 

2013: Switch from Bromazepam To Prazepam (long half-life)

2014-June2017 : Prazepam taper, 3% drops. 

2018 to August 2019 : weaning Paroxetine 20mg. 3% every 15 days.

- 22nd August updosed To 10mg (was at 8.4mg) because of a big wave. 

25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paroxetine. 

 

April 2020-August 2020 : Paxil to Prozac bridge. Details https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/21457-erell-struggling-with-paroxetine/?do=findComment&comment=499847

 

Current Supplements : magnesium citrate/ fish oil/ evening primrose oil 

Current medication : 7mg Fluoxetine + 1mg Diazepam + toothpick Paroxetine 

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PH1

Great to hear this good news, Boomshakalaka (love that name!).    Thanks for coming back to share your success and to give others hope.    All the best to you!


2010:  Escitalopram (Lexapro) 10 mg.   Mirtazapine (Remeron) 15 mg. 

2011:    Tapered Mirtazapine: 5 month successful taper.  Then tapered Lexapro:  4 month successful taper

May 2011 to August 2017:   No medications, full recovery

September 6, 2017:  started Mirtazapine (Remeron) 15 mg  - due to severe sudden insomnia (I believe caused by statin use)

November 16, 2017:   started Escitalopram (Lexapro) 10 mg

January 1, 2018:  Started taper of 15 mg Mirtazapine (Remeron)  -- went too fast the first few months, now micro-tapering

June 16, 2018:  Started taper of 10 mg Escitalopram (Lexapro) --  alternating micro-tapering with Mirtazapine

On 1/1/2019:  3.00 Mirtazapine,  5.37 Escitalopram;     On 7/1/2019:  1.90 Mirtazapine,  3.96  Escitalopram;   On 1/1/2020:  1.30 Mirtazapine,  3.35 Escitalopram;  On 7/1/2020:  0.40 Mirtazapine,  3.00  Escitalopram

Current (mgai):   0.19 mg  Mirtazapine;   2.77 mg  Escitalopram

Supplements:  Fish Oil, Curcumin, bio active B vitamins, zinc, magnesium glycinate, Vitamin D, Vitamin C

 

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."  Matthew 6:34

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Glosmom

Thanks for coming back to share your success story!! Congratulations!


2016 - Oct -Daughter started Risperdal (for steroid induced psychosis that never went away after stopping prednisone)

Nov - dose increases stopped at 1.5mg in Dec

2017 - Jan- weaned from 1.5 to 1.0 in 2 weeks then 1.0 to .5 in two weeks and then off. Feb. 3 weeks of increased psychosis, pacing, insomnia, other awful symptoms so late Feb  - Back on 1.5 mg Risperdal. May  - decrease to 1.25mg, two weeks later 1.0mg - symptoms started again. June - held steady at 1.25mg for 6 weeks and switched to liquid (3 ml syringe). July - started 10% taper every 3 weeks, October -  .8 mg, December - .7 mg .

2018 -Jan- 0.65 mg,  Feb- 0.59,  Mar-0.50, late April - .40mg, July- .36 mg, Aug - switched from 3 mL syringe to 1 mL syringe for more accuracy (her dad and i were not sure we were giving her the same dose when in between the 'dashes' on the 3 mL syringe.) Aug -.30 mg (3mL syr)/.44 mg (1 mL syr) difference due to med in the tip of both syringes). Sept- .28 mg (3mL syr)/.42 mg (1 mL syr). Oct - .16 mg (3 mL syr)/.30 mg (1 mL syr). Nov.- .06mg (3mL syr)/.20 mg (1mLsyr). Dec. - tip only/unmeasurable (3mL syr)/.10 mg (1mLsyr)

2019- Jan -.06 mg (1 mL syr), Feb- .025 mg (1 mL syr), Feb 27, 2019 - jumped to zero!!

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Amira123

Thank you for coming back to share your story. Congratulations!


Cymbalta 30 mg- 60 mg 

June 2016- October 2018 ( Cold Turkey) 

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anytriptaline

Congratulations, success stories are the always needed hope here


2007-2018 25mg-50mg Amitriptyline, 4mg Perphenazine, 500mg Valproic Acid

Nov 2018-February 2019 quetiapine, mirtazapine, pregabaline, estazolam, agomelatine, levomepromazine, trazodone, sulpiride

March 2019 - 37.5mg Amitriptyline, 4mg Perphenazine, waiting to tapper off slowly

September 2019 - Started tapering. 6.77mg Amitriptyline, 4mg Perphenazine (as of September 5 2020)

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DaBro

Thanks for coming back. These posts give us hope. I’m coming up to 2 years off Sertraline. I lost my job (but kept my family and friends) due to WD (took redundancy before I was pushed) but just got a new job and feel this is the beginning of the end. My symptoms now are down to insomnia once a week or so, daily tinnitus and morning cortisol rush and the occasional low mood that I know will pass in a short time. These are all manageable but not debilitating. I hope like you at 2 years my worst is over and by 3 years (or less)  it’s insignificant. My WD time is coming up to the time I took Sertraline. 


50 mg Sertraline Nov 2016 to Dec 2016

100 mg Sertraline Jan - March 2017

50 mg Sertraline April - June 2017

25 mg Sertraline July 2017 - Sept 2018

12.5 mg Sertraline Oct 2018

0 mg Nov 1 2018

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Kimboslice

Hey @DaBro.. Great to see your getting better and back on the horse in working terms. Like you, I had to pack my job as a door to door salesman in after 1 year of withdrawal primarily due my complete loss of social competence which is obviously a vital skill to perform well in the job. As of the beginning of the month I passed the 18 months mark off sertraline and have started to improve somewhat albeit in a completely non linear fashion which, as I’m sure you know, makes it bloody difficult to keep tabs on the positives. You stated previously you hope your nearing the last straight. Quick question. Have the symptoms  impaired brain function and social capability been ones you’ve been challenged with and if so did you  experience any notable progression between months 18-24?

 

Any feed back would be great.

 

kind Regards,

 

kimbo

 

 

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DaBro

Hi @Kimboslice, 

 

So first let me talk a little about quitting my job. I came off Sertraline because I didn't like the fact it muted how I felt, never really down, but never really up either. I also felt tired a lot, I'd get home from work and lie on the sofa in a Comatose state (not sleeping though). I also had tinnitus which I thought was due to the Sertraline. So I saw my Doctor, who said that because I was down to 12.5mg Sertraline, It probably wasn't doing anything anyway, so I decided to stop and go through the alleged 3 weeks of pain coming off SSRI's (ha ha).

 

When I quit on Nov 1 2016, I didn't really notice any change for 3 weeks, then the zaps started and Insomnia returned. I had a few 'black dog' moments too. I knew nothing about SSRI WD and so saw a specialist. I should point out that I went on SSRI's due to Chronic Fatigue caused by my work (company was taken over and I was sidelined) and heart surgery all within 2 months. My new manager was not sympathetic to my condition, my performance wasn't good (I had no mental stamina) and a number of (medical) people were telling me that until I left work I wouldn't feel better, so I left. It was only then I found out about SSRI WD.

 

So I left work 10 months after quitting SSRI's and it was in month 12 that things really went bad. I was bedbound with Nausea, sweating, zaps, etc....to this day I don't know if the trigger was stopping work so my body took the opportunity to properly heal, or whether it's just a thing that symptoms get worse after 12 months off SSRI's. I would say I had 3 big waves, each 6-8 weeks long with 1 week (amazing) windows in between. The first wave was very nauseous with low mood and fog, the second was more gastric with sickness, dizzyness and pressure behind my left eye. The 3rd wave has been more muscular with shakes and spasms in my legs and right arm. I get lip twitching and lose my voice 50% of days for 30 mins or so, but the good news is that though this my mental stamina and sharpness has improved. The symptoms I get now are sufficiently mild that I can do stuff and kind of ignore them, but they are there. The Insomnia is the worst, I hate going into a day with 3-4 hours sleep in me.

 

So to answer your question, a year ago I was lying in a chair on a daily basis to recharge plus I was typically 'hiding' somewhere in work once a day for 30 mins, also to recharge. I'm not doing that now, but I wouldn't say I'm back to how I was before my Chronic Fatigue, but I'm optimistic I will get there. And yes, months 12-18 were worse than 0-12. I take Fish oil and eat lots of greens and oily fish. I do mental exercises daily on apps. It's like my RAM is a bit broken still but my Hard Drive is OK. I think working again will help my cognitive skills improve, but I do need to pace myself carefully as if I do too much I pay for it the next day(s) still. Social Capability and Brain function are probably 80-90% back. I've gut Pulsate TInnitus and tingling hands as I write this, but I've done it. I remember thinking at 18 months I'd never work again, but at 21 months I'm ready to try going back. 

 

As Winston Churchill said, "If you find yourself in hell, keep going"

 

Hope this helps.


50 mg Sertraline Nov 2016 to Dec 2016

100 mg Sertraline Jan - March 2017

50 mg Sertraline April - June 2017

25 mg Sertraline July 2017 - Sept 2018

12.5 mg Sertraline Oct 2018

0 mg Nov 1 2018

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LarryS
On 8/5/2020 at 8:47 AM, boomshakalaka said:

I remember at my worst constantly checking these forums and constantly thinking about starting to take antidepressants again.

Your sentence above relates to me.  Thank you for your success story.

I know of one other person on this forum who gave into going back onto his antidepressant.  I'm not judging, but it seems sad to me.

As you say, only time will heal.  I'm 2 years and 2 months into my taper.  Keeping on, slow and steady.

 


5/1999 to 6/7/2002 Celexa (Citalopram) 30 mg  3 years 1 month.  6/7/2002 to 6/26/2002 switch from Celexa to Zoloft then wean off.  8/2014 start Venlafaxine 225 mg.

Other Pharmaceuticals per day:  Amlodipine 5 mg

Vitamins per day:  C 2,000 mg; D3 1.25 mg; Probiotic 218 mg; Fish Oil 1,600 mg; Magnesium Glycinate 240 mg; Red Yeast Rice 1,200 mg; CoQ10 100 mg; Saw Palmetto 320 mg;

Start Taper: 225 mg to 55 mg; June 5, 2018 to June 15, 2019

55 mg (10%) June 15, 2019;  49 mg (10%) July 16, 2019; 44 mg (10%) August  13, 2019; 49 mg (up 11%) Aug. 26, 2019: 44 mg (10%) Sept. 10, 2019; 40 mg (10%) Oct. 8, 2019;  37.5 mg (6%) Nov. 6, 2019; 49.5 mg (up 32%) Nov 18, 2019; 44.5 mg (10%) Dec. 30, 2019; 40 mg Jan. 27, 2020; 36 mg Feb. 24, 2020; 32.5 mg March 23, 2020; 29.2 mg April 20, 2020; 26.3 mg May 18, 2020; 23.7 mg June 15, 2020; 21.3 mg July 6, 2020; 19.2 mg Aug. 4, 2020; 17.3 mg Sept. 1, 2020;

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FarmGirlWorks
On 8/5/2020 at 8:47 AM, boomshakalaka said:

I also hope that more people that have gotten trough these withdrawals would come back to write their stories. I remember these stories being really helpful while I was withdrawing and I probably read all of them. That is the biggest reason I decided to come back and post.

 

Congratulations so much @boomshakalaka (great name, btw). I read the Success Stories a jillion times to remind the little spark that was hidden deep inside the body that was healing from the carnage wreaked by psychiatric drugs that *recovery happens.* Good on you for coming back and adding to the Success Stories.


  • Prozac | late 2004-mid-2005 | CT WD in a couple months, mostly emotional
  • Sertraline 50-100mg | 11/2011-3/2014, 10/2014-3/2017
  • Sertraline fast taper March 2017, 4 weeks, OFF sertraline April 1, 2017
  • Quit alcohol May 20, 2017, quit coffee October 2017, quit cannabis 😩 July 2018
  • Magnesium powder, fish oil, estradiol, kombucha, gluten/dairy/histamine-lite
  • Lifestyle changes: AA, kundalini practice

 

"If you've seen a monster, even if it's horrible, that's evidence of divinity." – Damien Echols

 

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persistente

thank you

On 8/5/2020 at 5:47 PM, boomshakalaka said:

My heart truly goes out to anyone suffering from these withdrawals. My years withdrawing destroyed many  of my relationships and made my whole life a constant struggle. I remember at my worst constantly checking these forums and constantly thinking about starting to take antidepressants again. It truly felt like I was trapped. I wish everyone that is suffering from these withdrawals to know that it truly gets better with time!

 


3/2012 - sertralin 50 mg, no major side effects

1/2014 - ct sertralin 50 mg (tappered 3 weeks as doctor ordered)

7/2014 - back to sertalin 50 mg, no issues

4/2016 - ct sertralin 50 mg (tappered 3 weeks, my decision)

12/2016 - back to sertalin, major side effects from the first pill and the begginning of hell

2/2017 - mirtazepine 15 mg added for insomnia

6/2017 - stopped sertralin (2 months tapper)

9/2017 - stopped mirtazepine (3 weeks taper)

waves and windows

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arbor

Thank you, boomshakalaka, for your kind encouragement.  It's so good of you to come back to give someone like me (still very much in the thick of it) hope.

All my best to you,

Arbor

 


Zoloft: 1995 - 2015

Prozac: 2015 - 2018 (tapered from 40mg x day on July 31 to 30mg on August 31 to 20mg on September 31 to 10mg October 31 to 0mg on  December 15, 2018

Gabapentin: 2016 to 2019  (tapered from 300mg x day to 150mg on August 31, 2019 to 75mg on September 15 to 50mg on September 31 to 25ishmg on October 15 to 0mg on December 1, 2019

Enalapril: 2010 - 2019

Lipitor: 2017 -2017

Metformin: 2000 - 2020

Liothyronine: 2007 - 2019

Levothyroxine: 2000 - 

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Naczoz

@boomshakalaka did you have pssd? what sexuall symptoms did u have? Did they resolve?


01.12.2018 - 01.03.2019 - Took sertraline and than fluvosamine for major depression. 

 

Got SEVERE PSSD (no libido, no erections, pleasureless orgasma, total genital anesthesia, emotional numbness, lost of personality)

 

No wave and windows, no improvement so far. Just lije 1-2% in numbness in first two months post quitting. 

 

Im suicidal because of pssd. I dont believe in recovery since my state didnt improve in any significant way.

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boomshakalaka

@Naczoz Sorry for taking so long to respond. Yes I did have quite a lot of sexual symptoms. First of all I had a lower sex drive for quite some time during my withdrawal. I would say my libido was back to normal after around 2 years of withdrawals. My somewhat young age could be a reason for my somewhat quick recovery. I recommend supplementing with maca powder, doing nofap and living a healthy lifestyle. Those 3 things helped me a lot. Another quite bad sexual symptom I had was premature ejaculation. I really have no idea why that was the case, however this side effect disappeared when my withdrawals got better.

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