Administrator Altostrata Posted September 18, 2021 Administrator Share Posted September 18, 2021 Sounds like you're doing tolerably, @Bruci That's good to hear. Most likely, those waves of "depression" are withdrawal effects. You'll have to surf the waves. Please update your signature. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Bruci Posted September 28, 2021 Author Share Posted September 28, 2021 Hitting a very bad patch of suicidality. I’ve updosed to 10 mg and waiting for relief. Small amounts of ativan help. I consulted a shrink and he recommended stopping citalopram CT and going on Abilify 15 mg plus Depakote plus Seroquel 25 mg for sleep. Cant do it. No way. Thoughts of possible akathisia, emotional numbness, and more withdrawal down the road are just too much. Part of this is situational. I am living in Greece with someone who is likely undiagnosed BPD, so every day is full of conflict. She has a son who is oppositionally defiant which increases the stress. I might have to leave for my sake. I must get off psychiatric drugs and this is not the environment to do it. It’s like a war zone. 1980s: First diagnosed with depression. Treated with a tricyclic. 1988: Switched to Prozac 20 mg. 1990s to 2010: On and off Prozac. Increased dose led to side effects. 2011: Put on Zyprexa. 2011: Work burnout and breakdown. Hospitalized for suicidal depression. Switched to Seroquel. Switched to Celexa 40 mg and lithium 300 mg. 2019: Stopped Seroquel. 2020 July: Decreased Celexa to 30 mg in attempt to alleviate sexual dysfunction. Worked somewhat. 2020 August: Decreased Celexa to 20 mg. Sexual function improved but w/d effects started. 2020 September: Maintaining Celexa at 20 mg. Experiencing w/d effects - fatigue, dysphoria, mood instability 2020 September 13: Increased Celexa to 30 mg due to w/d effects. Still on lithium 300 mg/day. 2020 October 3: Reduced Celexa to 27 mg. Started taper. 10% per month as recommended. 2020 October 18: Reduced to 24 mg. 2020 December 4: Reduced to 21 mg. 2020 December 23: Reduced to 20 mg (spacing out taper intervals due to persistent w/d effects) 2021 September 23: Several reductions over the past 9 months to 7.0 mg. Stressful life circumstances led me to feeling very depressed with suicidal feelings, so upped to the dose to 10 mg until I feel better. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus arbor Posted April 28, 2022 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted April 28, 2022 Hi @Bruci How are things going? Sending you healing wishes, Arbor Zoloft: 1995 - 2015 Prozac: 2015 - 2018 (tapered from 40mg x day on July 31 to 30mg on August 31 to 20mg on September 31 to 10mg October 31 to 0mg on December 15, 2018 Gabapentin: 2016 to 2019 (tapered from 300mg x day to 150mg on August 31, 2019 to 75mg on September 15 to 50mg on September 31 to 25ishmg on October 15 to 0mg on December 1, 2019 Enalapril: 2010 - 2019 Lipitor: 2017 -2017 Metformin: 2000 - 2020 Liothyronine: 2007 - 2019 Levothyroxine: 2000 - 2022 Link to comment
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