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Jodier212
57 minutes ago, Kindler said:

So sorry, it sounds all too similar to my ordeal. It makes me so angry that this is happening to people, yet the medical community are oblivious to it. It's ruining people's lives, and they don't even know it. 

 

Hope you start to get some relief soon. I try not to think about the years this will take, and the years already lost to these poisons... 

It’s criminal what they’re doing! I’m meeting with a lawyer soon that’s very interested in my case. Only prob is that it’s hard to find other medical “experts” that can verify it all stems from the medications. I think the worst part of all of this is that nobody believes us!

 

I hope we both can beat the odds and heal quickly! 💪🏼 Until then, we’re in this together!

2012-July 2020 Zoloft 50mg. Cold turkey’d due to adverse reaction after Ativan withdrawal. 
 
March 2020 High dose of Prednisone caused lump in throat feeling. Taken a course of steroids before this with no problem. 
 

April 2020-May 2020 Ativan 1mg 1x a day for 6 weeks. Cold turkey’d May 23. Reinstated a couple days later, tried to taper for a few days because I didn’t know any better. Back to ER in psychosis. None since. 

 

June 2020 Shot of steroid and antibiotics because I thought the pain in sinuses was due to sinus infection but was due to withdrawal. Didn’t help and made things much worse. 
 

August 2020 Paxil 10mg. 13 days. Cold turkey’d it after adverse reaction.


Currently only taking marshmallow root, slippery elm, digestive enzymes, probiotic, aloe Vera, and Pepcid. 

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Hello Kindler, I am sorry that you are going through a bad time. Yes, at least I feel like that. This is the worst thing I have ever had to face. I guess we just need to hang in there and

Now there's an option I hadn't thought of 🤔

Glad to say after a day from hell yesterday, today has been pretty good. Mild symptoms, but so relived that things are moving in the right direction. Was really worried I'd really messed myself, clean

51 minutes ago, Jodier212 said:

It’s criminal what they’re doing! I’m meeting with a lawyer soon that’s very interested in my case. Only prob is that it’s hard to find other medical “experts” that can verify it all stems from the medications. I think the worst part of all of this is that nobody believes us!

 

I hope we both can beat the odds and heal quickly! 💪🏼 Until then, we’re in this together!

Hope you get somewhere with the lawyer. As you say it will be difficult, I can't find a doctor that knows anything about it. 

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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Jodier212
1 hour ago, Kindler said:

Hope you get somewhere with the lawyer. As you say it will be difficult, I can't find a doctor that knows anything about it. 

I can’t find one either 😔

2012-July 2020 Zoloft 50mg. Cold turkey’d due to adverse reaction after Ativan withdrawal. 
 
March 2020 High dose of Prednisone caused lump in throat feeling. Taken a course of steroids before this with no problem. 
 

April 2020-May 2020 Ativan 1mg 1x a day for 6 weeks. Cold turkey’d May 23. Reinstated a couple days later, tried to taper for a few days because I didn’t know any better. Back to ER in psychosis. None since. 

 

June 2020 Shot of steroid and antibiotics because I thought the pain in sinuses was due to sinus infection but was due to withdrawal. Didn’t help and made things much worse. 
 

August 2020 Paxil 10mg. 13 days. Cold turkey’d it after adverse reaction.


Currently only taking marshmallow root, slippery elm, digestive enzymes, probiotic, aloe Vera, and Pepcid. 

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Not having a good morning, these dam Trimipramine symptoms. It's been 3.5 weeks, and still dizzy, tired, pain and anxiety. NONE of which I had before. Went to a health spa yesterday which I did before this setback and felt great the next day, also had an alcohol free beer which I'd never had before. So obsessed now with why I'm so bad today. Or is it just natural??? 

 

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2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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Please see this post about saunas:

 

 

NEW!!!              INTERVIEW with Altostrata, SA's founder               NEW!!! 

 

ADs:  25 years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after)

Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering Oct 2015  Current from 14 Nov 2020:  Pristiq 0.50 mg

My tapering program                                      My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)

My website - includes my brief history + links to videos & information on the web

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

REMINDER TO SELF:  I don't need the drug now, but my still brain does.

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Thanks chessie, 

 

I did read that after reading saunas are good for calming the CNS, and I don't have a problem with heat so thought I'd try. Felt fine, actually quite good during and after. Went for a meal (salad 😞) and an alcohol free beer. Was happy with myself. Just today I'm done in, really ramped up and can tell my CNS is affected because my eczema flares up. I'll stick to the pool next time, it's so frustrating

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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ChessieCat
9 hours ago, Kindler said:

I don't have a problem with heat

 

You didn't have a problem with heat.

 

Just because it wasn't a problem before doesn't mean that it isn't now.

 

9 hours ago, Kindler said:

I'll stick to the pool next time

 

A better idea, but don't overdo it.

NEW!!!              INTERVIEW with Altostrata, SA's founder               NEW!!! 

 

ADs:  25 years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after)

Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering Oct 2015  Current from 14 Nov 2020:  Pristiq 0.50 mg

My tapering program                                      My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)

My website - includes my brief history + links to videos & information on the web

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

REMINDER TO SELF:  I don't need the drug now, but my still brain does.

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Could do with some hope today. Had enough of this suffering. Soon to be 8 months, I just keep praying that the trimipramine symptoms will pass soon. But I think this is going to take years. I have 0 life, spend half my time in bed.. What is the point

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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manymoretodays

Hey Kindler,

Waves can be the pits.  And convincing that there will be no further change, while you are in one.

The Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization

There will be improvement.

And......you could look at the symptoms now as a sign that your healing is happening.  I don't know that we have data on this, but I do know that whenever I've felt really bad and then managed to be patient and accepting........that then when I improved, it really was an improvement that took me further than I had previously been.

Just believe it, even when your mind is trying to convince you otherwise.

 

When was your last window?  And keep a calendar of sorts, to note improvements, or better days especially.  And jot down what you practiced each day, in terms of non-drug coping.  That way you'll start to see your patterns and what helps or even what hinders.

 

Sending hope, sending healing.

 

L, P, H, and G,

mmt

Started with psycho meds circa 1988 I think 27 or 28 total.

AD's, antpsychotics, antiseizure mood stabilizers. Lithium, lamictal ,benzos, and stimulants. Some med. for narcolepsy once(Provigil,) Gabapentin........probably more.  Ask me?......I probably was on it.  Haphazard W/D's by Dr. recommend or uneducated self.

10/2014- off Lexapro--had been on highest dose 10 mg. then 5 mg. for a couple of years, went from 5 mg. to 3 mg. liquid and then CT in hospital(voluntary).  I got out of the hospital on a combination of low dose adderal salts x1/day and trileptal 150mg. x2/day.

5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014)

12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs.  My last psycho med ever!

 

3/21/2016---I did some unwise updosing of trileptal/oxcarbazepine with some stressful stuff......doubled the above dose x2 during this last wave but began liquifying again and on approximately 68mg. starting today.  11/12//2016 24 mg. oxcarbazepine  12/9/2016 off oxcarbazepine/trileptal!!!! :) optimistic  2016 December 9- completely off all medications!!!!!

Omega3's,EPA +DHA= 1800 mg/day. Magnesium complex, orally, diluted in a liter of H2O(that I can shake up.....it usually dissolves more completely as the water gets down to room temperature) and/or Epsom salt baths prn.   Vit. C, D3, and E.  B12, melatonin tapered to 1mg., and bioidentical hormones sublingually.  Trace mineral drops.  L-lysine.  L-methylfolate=400 mcg plus daily spinach. Totally ready for a good long window to hit soon and getting better strings of full days and partial days along the way.  Definite improvement overall since I first arrived on the SA survivor ship.  Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016.  None of my posts are intended as medical advice.  Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. manymoretodays

 

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Thanks, yes have been keeping track. Was showing some improvement. A couple of hours mild symptoms in the morning, then again late afternoon. A window back to my baseline every other evening. Now 2 days full on wave. Gets disheartening to say the least as I'm sure you know. Even the wave is better than 2 weeks ago tho, so trying to stay positive. Hoping for some improvement after this, it has been the case all along that I notice more improvement after a wave. Just so annoyed with myself for getting myself in this mess AGAIN. Still nowhere near as bad as I was 5 months ago in the ER. Don't know if I've got another 8 months in me tho, let alone years. 

 

1 day at a time

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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Really bad this morning. I can't believe how much worse I am after 1 dose. Anyone reading this, things can get worse, much worse if you experiment. I was having nice happy windows until I did.... How much longer can this last from 1 dose???? 

 

Don't think I can take much more. What do I do? 

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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I think I've been experiencing WD from omega3. I can't believe how sensitive I am now. I experimented for 3 days last week low doses, then had a bad day Saturday after my trip to the sauna Friday. So as I couldn't be sure, thought best to stop the fish oil for a week. Yesterday was bad, then last night didn't sleep well, awake since 4. By 6 I thought I was having a complete psychotic break, panic set in! Tried chamomile, no effect. Considering ER, took 120mg fish oil and it stopped instantly. I mean WTF, I only tried it for 3 days and 120mg! 

 

Is that even possible? 

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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I think it's more likely that the increased symptoms were from the heat of the spa/sauna.  It may have just been coincidence that the symptoms subsided at the same time as you took the Omega.  It might have been a placebo effect.

 

It's a good example of how confusing it is when you make two changes at the same time.  You don't know what helped/worsened things.

NEW!!!              INTERVIEW with Altostrata, SA's founder               NEW!!! 

 

ADs:  25 years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after)

Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering Oct 2015  Current from 14 Nov 2020:  Pristiq 0.50 mg

My tapering program                                      My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)

My website - includes my brief history + links to videos & information on the web

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

REMINDER TO SELF:  I don't need the drug now, but my still brain does.

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You could be right, 1st couple of hours after waking up are always the worst. Hopefully that's the end of that ramp up in symptoms anyway

 

I do feel my brain adjust to everything thought, only 1 way to find out I suppose

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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46 minutes ago, Kindler said:

Considering ER

 

Q:  How do you think that going to the ER is going to help you?

 

Q:  What do you think they would do if you went there?

 

We tend to think/dream that there is a safe place that will "magically" solve our problems.  We want someone to fix us.

 

I actually think that you make things worse for yourself if you keep entertaining the thought of going to the ER.  It gives you an excuse not to use the non drug coping techniques to get through the rough patches because you keep thinking that there is a possible solution without making any effort.  I think it would be better if you stop using it as an option and start using coping techniques earlier in the piece.

NEW!!!              INTERVIEW with Altostrata, SA's founder               NEW!!! 

 

ADs:  25 years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after)

Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering Oct 2015  Current from 14 Nov 2020:  Pristiq 0.50 mg

My tapering program                                      My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)

My website - includes my brief history + links to videos & information on the web

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

REMINDER TO SELF:  I don't need the drug now, but my still brain does.

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I wouldn't have gone. I know there's nothing they can do. It's just part of my thought process when in shear panic. I can normally calm myself, deep breaths, music etc. Just occasionally there's nothing I can do, it just takes off. I was walking a lot when it happened previously, but struggling to get out of bed lately

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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44 minutes ago, Kindler said:

I wouldn't have gone. I know there's nothing they can do. It's just part of my thought process when in shear panic.

 

Okay, that's good to know.  But from now on please either don't post saying that OR clarify it (write it in such a way) so that we know that it's just a thought process.  The mods see it as an emergency when we read that a member is posting about going to the ER.  We feel a lot of concern and stressed that the member will end up drugged and then we spend time posting accordingly, like I did previously.  And when we are compiling posts like the one I did, we tend to take a lot of time over the post making sure that we have worded it carefully.

NEW!!!              INTERVIEW with Altostrata, SA's founder               NEW!!! 

 

ADs:  25 years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after)

Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering Oct 2015  Current from 14 Nov 2020:  Pristiq 0.50 mg

My tapering program                                      My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)

My website - includes my brief history + links to videos & information on the web

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

REMINDER TO SELF:  I don't need the drug now, but my still brain does.

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Ok, sorry about that. Will remember for future. Hopefully it won't happen again for a while

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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Craving alcohol with this anxiety I'm having, it's been 2 weeks so thought sod it, fed up of suffering, a few hours of feeling "normal". 1 beer and my vision has gone funny. That trimipramine has really messed me up now, been having a glass of wine on a Saturday night with my meal for past few months, no ill effects. Looks like I won't be drinking for a long long time... Looking forward to tomorrow

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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Having some payback from the beer this morning I think. Won't be doing that again

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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Lesson learned 😉

NEW!!!              INTERVIEW with Altostrata, SA's founder               NEW!!! 

 

ADs:  25 years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after)

Pristiq:  50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity)  Tapering Oct 2015  Current from 14 Nov 2020:  Pristiq 0.50 mg

My tapering program                                      My Intro (goes to my tapering graph)

My website - includes my brief history + links to videos & information on the web

PLEASE NOTE:  I am not a medical professional.  I provide information and make suggestions.

REMINDER TO SELF:  I don't need the drug now, but my still brain does.

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Yeah, not worth it. Haven't been drinking much, and it wasn't a problem till now. Hopefully 1 day I can at least enjoy a glass of wine with a meal again. Not bothered on getting drunk. But I do like a glass of wine or the odd beer. These drugs have already taken so much from me

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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Think I've been traumatized by all this. Keep thinking about walking the streets at 3 in the morning with looping suicidal thoughts. Keep crying about it now. Not sure weather to distract from it or just cry. But you can't just cry all day

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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Scared thinking this is me now for years. Still cycling through the symptoms, although milder. Depressed and still have my anxiety from original symptoms. Can't talk to anyone, all I think about is what a mess I'm in. Really don't know how I'm going to live like this for years. How long can this last? 

2006 - 2009 20mg Citalopram fast taper2011 - 2016 40mg Citalopram fast taperJune 2016 10mg Valium 1 month CT
Jan 2018 40mg CitalopramFeb 2019 cymbalta for pain - too many side effectsApril - 10mg Valium for 1 month- made me depressed stopped CTJuly - 0.5mg of Xanax + Prozac, bad reaction stopped after 6 weeks CTSept - 14 days Ativan CT


October 2019 - 5mg Valium + 10mg Citalopram, too much,

December 2019 - CT Citalopram, 

February 2020 - reinstate 5mg Citalopram

April 2020 Stopped Valium CT, sart May tried to increase Citalopram to 10mg, think I OD'd 

22 June  ER visit tried to reinstate Valium, paradoxical

2 failed attempts to reinstate Citalopram 1mg and 0.5mg

20 Oct CBD oil - wave, 27 Oct 10mg trimipramine BAD IDEA

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Daisygirlsk
5 hours ago, Kindler said:

Scared thinking this is me now for years. Still cycling through the symptoms, although milder. Depressed and still have my anxiety from original symptoms. Can't talk to anyone, all I think about is what a mess I'm in. Really don't know how I'm going to live like this for years. How long can this last? 

I had a citalopram reinstatement turn nightmare on me too and I am in a similar boat. I have bad looping thoughts, severe anxiety, trembling and dizziness and I havent slept in 4 days. The ONLY thing that helps me relax is being around other people that I trust like family. I was completely disoriented and dissociating and panicked this morning from sleep deprivation and on the verge of phoning 911. Nothing calmed me down not dramamine or ativan or meditation. But once I got around my mom my nervous system completely settled. Physical touch is one thing that always calms me even during the worst anxiety of my life. 10/10. I was lucky to just be able to lay down with her and she held me. Sounds lame when I'm 38 but I was in total crisis. I think a pet would help withdrawal immensely 

April 2011 - citalopram 20 mg

April 2018 - tapered in 4 weeks

Nov 2018 - reinstated 20 mg on advice of psychiatrist.  Didn't know about withdrawal yet.

Stopped all of it 8 days later very bad physical reaction 

November 5 2020 - symptoms still quite bad, at least mentally so reinstated 0.5mg. 

November 8 2020 - went up to 1mg. 

November 10 2020 - stopped citalopram.  Worst anxiety I have ever experienced. 

November 13 2020 - seem to be returning to baseline WD

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