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Hi. I started Lexapro roughly 15 years ago, 20mg, for anxiety/panic attacks.  I did fine on it (although I experience emotional numbness).  Toward the beginning of this year, the Lexapro seemed to stop being effective/stopped working, as I was experiencing some depression.  The psychiatrist (assistant) added Abilify toward the end of May.  It didn't seem to work, so I was advised to stop it at end of June.  He then told me to stop my Lexapro all together and start Cymbalta 30mg immediately.  I listened and did this on 7/4/2020.  I plummeted into withdrawal hell (unable to function/bedridden)  On 7/16/20, he upped the dose to 60mg.  The withdrawal hell continued.  On 8/3/2020, the doctor agreed that I should restart my Lexapro 20mg, and told me to immediately stop the Cymbalta.  I did.  Withdrawal continued.  On 8/19/2020, Wellbutrin (generic), 150mg was added.  Started seeing different psychiatrist's office.  On 8/29/2020, Rexulti 0.5mg was added, and Wellbutrin name brand was prescribed.  I was able to gain some energy, but my anxiety went through the roof, along with heart palpitations.  On 9/9/20 Rexulti was stopped.  On 9/24/2020, Lexapro upped to 30mg.  On 9/27/2020, Wellbutrin stopped.  

 

Currently, I am having debilitating migraines headaches every day, depression/feeling overwhelmed (especially in the morning - including suicidal thoughts never had before), nausea, severe brain fog/forgetfulness, fatigue, irritability, crying, and a general feeling of sickness.  I started taking a multivitamin, B vitamin pill, iron/folic acid (low on iron), magnesium and Omega fish oil.  Although everything is hard to do, I have managed to take care of my young son (ie. meals, drop off and pick up from school, etc.)  I am unable to work at the moment, but I am expected back soon.  My goal is to get off all antidepressants now, but I am struggling, so I am thinking that I need to stabilize before weaning off of Lexapro (that I just upped, ugh).  I would really appreciate any help and/or guidance, as I feel like I'm going crazy and feel defeated ... I really wish that I found this site sooner.  Thank you so much for taking the time to read this.

 

2005 - Lexapro 20mg for anxiety/panic attacks

End of June 2020 – started Abilify 15mg

7/4/2020 – Stopped Lexapro and started 30mg Cymbalta 

7/16/2020 – Increased Cymbalta to 60mg 

8/3/2020 – Restarted Lexapro 20mg and stopped Cymbalta 60mg 

8/19/2020 – Started Wellbutrin XL 150mg – generic

8/29/2020 – switched to Name brand Wellbutrin, same dose

8/29/2020 – started Rexulti 0.5mg

9/9/2020 – stopped Rexulti

9/24/2020 - Lexapro increased to 30mg

9/27/2020 - Wellbutrin stopped

2005 - Lexapro 20mg for anxiety/panic attacks

End of June 2020 – started Abilify 15mg

7/4/2020 – Stopped Lexapro and started 30mg Cymbalta 

7/16/2020 – Increased Cymbalta to 60mg 

8/3/2020 – Restarted Lexapro 20mg and stopped Cymbalta 60mg 

8/19/2020 – Started Wellbutrin XL 150mg – generic

8/29/2020 – switched to Name brand Wellbutrin, same dose

8/29/2020 – started Rexulti 0.5mg

9/9/2020 – stopped Rexulti

9/24/2020 - Lexapro increased to 30mg

9/27/2020 - Wellbutrin stopped

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Welcome to SA, HoldingOnToHope. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad and that you've been put on this drug merry-go-round. You are absolutely not going crazy (all this is caused by the drugs) and you will heal.

 

To give members the best information, we ask them to summarize their medication history in a signature -- drugs, doses, dates, and discontinuations & reinstatements, in the last 12-24 months particularly.  All you would need to do is pick up the history in your post, click on the link below, paste the information and click "save."  You would need to do this on a computer rather than a phone.

 

Account Settings – Create or Edit a signature.

 

You are experiencing withdrawal from so many drug changes (substitution of a new antidepressant doesn't necessarily eliminate withdrawal from the old drug(s).  The symptoms you're experiencing are typical of withdrawal.

 

 

 

When we take psychiatric medications, the CNS (central nervous system) responds by making changes over the months and years we take the drug(s). When the medication is discontinued, the CNS has to undo all the changes it made. Rebuilding the neurotransmitter production and reactivating the receptor and transporter cells takes time -- during that rebuilding process symptoms occur.  

 

You will heal, but it's going to take some time.  These explain the healing process really well.

 

 

 
The most important thing right now is to make no further changes.  Your doctor(s) will likely suggest changing doses, changing drugs, adding and subtracting, hoping to find the magic drug.  What they're doing is like playing blindfolded pin the tail on the donkey.  If you are tolerating the Lexapro (and I know it is difficult to tell given all the drugs you've been put on and off), hold there.  30mg is a high dose of Lexapro, but we can help you taper off it.  But that's later.  You're right that you need to stabilize, and it's going to take several months.  That's the best advice I can give you now: make no further changes.
 
We don't recommend a lot of supplements on SA, as many members report being sensitive to them due to our over-reactive nervous systems, but two supplements that we do recommend are magnesium and omega 3 (fish oil). Many people find these to be calming to the nervous system. 

 

 

 

Add in one at a time and at a low dose in case you do experience problems. Get supplements that are single ingredient (not mixed with other types of supplements).

 

This is your Introduction topic, where you can complete your drug signature, ask questions and connect with other members.  We're glad you found your way here.
 
 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Gridley Introduction

 

Lexapro 20 mg since 2004.  Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017.   

End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg 

End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg

End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg  

Oct. 30, 2020  Jump to zero from 0.025mg.  Current dose: 0.000mg

3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete.

 

Ativan 1 mg 1986-1991 CT, soon reinstated.  CT 2000. RI 1 mg 2011-2016.  Sept. 2016  0.625mg X 3

Nov.27, 2020 Begin 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover and change from 3 daily doses to one 18.75mgai dose (0.311mgpw). Jan. 11, 2021 begin hold at current bedtime 18.75mgai dose.

 

Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986.  Jan. 2016 began every 3-weeks 10% taper, down to 16mgai (0.44mgpw).  Aug 2016, discovered SA, holding at 16mg.  Taper is 78% complete.  

  

Supplements: omega, vitamins E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, melatonin .3mg


I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

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HoldingOnToHope

Thank you Gridley!  I appreciate the quick response.  Any estimation as to how long it will take before I am feeling more stable?

2005 - Lexapro 20mg for anxiety/panic attacks

End of June 2020 – started Abilify 15mg

7/4/2020 – Stopped Lexapro and started 30mg Cymbalta 

7/16/2020 – Increased Cymbalta to 60mg 

8/3/2020 – Restarted Lexapro 20mg and stopped Cymbalta 60mg 

8/19/2020 – Started Wellbutrin XL 150mg – generic

8/29/2020 – switched to Name brand Wellbutrin, same dose

8/29/2020 – started Rexulti 0.5mg

9/9/2020 – stopped Rexulti

9/24/2020 - Lexapro increased to 30mg

9/27/2020 - Wellbutrin stopped

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6 hours ago, HoldingOnToHope said:

Any estimation as to how long it will take before I am feeling more stable?

Unfortunately, there's no way to predict how long it will take.  It varies according to the individual. As time passes, you should gradually feel better and better as your body gets accustomed to a stable dose.

Gridley Introduction

 

Lexapro 20 mg since 2004.  Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017.   

End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg 

End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg

End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg  

Oct. 30, 2020  Jump to zero from 0.025mg.  Current dose: 0.000mg

3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete.

 

Ativan 1 mg 1986-1991 CT, soon reinstated.  CT 2000. RI 1 mg 2011-2016.  Sept. 2016  0.625mg X 3

Nov.27, 2020 Begin 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover and change from 3 daily doses to one 18.75mgai dose (0.311mgpw). Jan. 11, 2021 begin hold at current bedtime 18.75mgai dose.

 

Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986.  Jan. 2016 began every 3-weeks 10% taper, down to 16mgai (0.44mgpw).  Aug 2016, discovered SA, holding at 16mg.  Taper is 78% complete.  

  

Supplements: omega, vitamins E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, melatonin .3mg


I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

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