Purplestars22: Celexa Success Story (Celexa Free Seven Years)

[Purplestars22]

 Purplestars22: celexa withdrawal   Purplestars22, Introduction topic

 

Hello everyone on this forum,

      Wow I cannot believe that its been three years that I have been on this forum. Time definitely flies by. In regards to my journey in withdrawal, I can honestly say that my windows/ waves dissipated by late 2017, and I recovered from withdrawal. Of course, that is not to say that I may have some issues with anxiety or other things but its not the cause of withdrawal, I believe. All my symptoms of rumination, depersonalization, derealization, irrational thoughts, akathisia, head pressure, racing thoughts, insomnia, a sense of uneasiness, unable to exercise(because it would worsen my symptoms), agoraphobia,  feeling loss of control, severe brain fog, low blood pressure are all gone. With the pandemic going on that is another major stressor on staying healthy and safe, but sometimes I think if I survived withdrawal then I am resilient and can handle anything. By surviving withdrawal it has given me a sense of strength and courage.

 

I have come a long way since my last dose was December 2013, which I mistakenly did the worst possible way to taper and hence my withdrawal it was such a horrendous and arduous experience which I hope no one ever goes through and learns from my experience. (If you are easily triggered I would recommend to avoid reading my thread). I remember that for a whole year I experienced horrible withdrawal symptoms but I never lost hope and faith that one day, I would be okay. Also, I want to mention I had two major crashes which spiritually and mentally drained me. I just want to say if someone reading this and are in the depths of withdrawal please do not lose hope and it will get better and just know that recovery is most definitely not linear and there will be many setbacks but trust that your nervous system is healing itself in the background of all these symptoms. And please follow a conservative tapering schedule that fits you and take it easy during this time when the nervous system needs the minimal stimulus. And one more thing please do not compare your healing process to another person this process is individualistic just because it happens to someone does not mean that it pertains to you or it will happen to you. 

 

During withdrawal, it was hard for me to do stuff but I still pushed myself, which I do not recommend. I still went to works for a couple of days and went to school but I believe that hindered my recovery process and may be the reason why my withdrawal took five years. Since, withdrawal I have been able to work and go to school successfully, travel and take flights by myself. And I have even dated lol which I never did in withdrawal that was out of the question, during that time I was only able to concentrate on healing and not on another person.

 

I want to thank all the members that encouraged me, gave me advice, listened to me and most of all gave me hope when I most needed it. I greatly appreciate Altostrata and I want to thank her for making this forum when a previous forum closed down. Atostrata, you have worked hard and just know that your hard work does not go unnoticed and you are saving many lives. I remember when I was at my lowest point of withdrawal and was desperate because I felt I was loosing control and I messaged you. Without this forum, I do not know where I would be today, it has saved my sanity and taught me that its not only in my head what I was going through and I was not the only one going through that withdrawal journey. Now I know why people would disappear from this forum not from malicious reasons but just because they were regaining their life and it was too fresh the wound of withdrawal.

 

I want to wish recovery and well wishes to everyone in this forum. Please take care and lets believe in the healing process.            

                                                       Best wishes, Purplestars

Edited January 19, 2021 by manymoretodays
added link to Introduction topic

[manymoretodays]

Oh, and awww.......thank you so much Purplestars22 for writing this!  And yah, great name, you know I do like purple......LOL.  Quoted some of my favorite parts.

 

On 1/15/2021 at 5:08 PM, Purplestars22 said:

but sometimes I think if I survived withdrawal then I am resilient and can handle anything. By surviving withdrawal it has given me a sense of strength and courage.

 

On 1/15/2021 at 5:08 PM, Purplestars22 said:

And please follow a conservative tapering schedule that fits you and take it easy during this time when the nervous system needs the minimal stimulus. And one more thing please do not compare your healing process to another person this process is individualistic just because it happens to someone does not mean that it pertains to you or it will happen to you. 

 

On 1/15/2021 at 5:08 PM, Purplestars22 said:

Since, withdrawal I have been able to work and go to school successfully, travel and take flights by myself. And I have even dated lol which I never did in withdrawal that was out of the question, during that time I was only able to concentrate on healing and not on another person.

 

Best Purplestars22.  Thank you again, for writing this, and posting.  You......are......a.......success, my gosh, so very proud of you.

 

L, P, H, and G,

mmt

[Kimboslice]

Well done Girl.. you should be so proud!! 😊😊

[Cocopuffz17]

Glad to read another success story! Amazing  I hope you all the best

[Pina]

Congratulations 💕

 

Well done. I know how hard is the way. 

I am still struggling after 31 month after zero. 

 

You are so right with what you write. 

 

Thanks for your post. A bright spot for the day.

 

Wish you all the best for your life. 

 

 

[Istm]

Congratulations on your recovery!! Enjoy your life!! 🤍 

[benesh]

Purplestars22,

THANK YOU seems so inadequate BUT it will need to suffice. Woke up this morning with the familiar dread. Read your very hopeful post, went for my walk and am now reminding myself based on your post to never ever give up hope. Know that your post helped springboard me out of a recent wave. Ugh. My version of waves is relentless tears. How on earth can a person generate that much moisture from inside? I wish I knew how to turn these tears off. Any ideas?.......
Enjoy the journey and again thank you for helping me keep the faith as I continue along. 
Best to you.

[Amira]

Thank you for coming back to share your story and congratulations on your recovery. Did you suffer from emotions numbness( unable to feel love, joy, excitment..,? And a chemical feeling of dread/fear/depression/hopelessnes during WD? When did you feel like you have turned a real corner in your recovery. Thanks

[Purplestars22]

On 1/18/2021 at 6:57 PM, manymoretodays said:

Oh, and awww.......thank you so much Purplestars22 for writing this!  And yah, great name, you know I do like purple......LOL.  Quoted some of my favorite parts.

 

 

 

 

Best Purplestars22.  Thank you again, for writing this, and posting.  You......are......a.......success, my gosh, so very proud of you.

 

L, P, H, and G,

mmt

Hello manymoretodays, you are welcoming it was therapeutic for me to write my success story and closing that chapter of my life. Thank you so much for referring me as a success.     Takecare, Purplestars

[Purplestars22]

On 1/18/2021 at 7:05 PM, Kimboslice said:

Well done Girl.. you should be so proud!! 😊😊

Thank you Kimboslice, I cant wait to read your success story one day!    Take care, Purplestars

[Purplestars22]

On 1/18/2021 at 10:50 PM, Cocopuffz17 said:

Glad to read another success story! Amazing  I hope you all the best

Hello Cocopuffz17, thank you and wish you the best as well.      Take care, Purplestars

[Purplestars22]

On 1/18/2021 at 10:51 PM, Pina said:

Congratulations 💕

 

Well done. I know how hard is the way. 

I am still struggling after 31 month after zero. 

 

You are so right with what you write. 

 

Thanks for your post. A bright spot for the day.

 

Wish you all the best for your life. 

 

 

Hello Pina, I totally know what you are going through during 31 months I was experiencing horrible wd symptoms. Please hang in there, have some distractions, practice acceptance/mindfulness and know that it will slowly get better. Thank you so much for your warm wishes and wish you the same. I believe in your recovery.     Take care, Purplestars

[Purplestars22]

On 1/18/2021 at 11:15 PM, Istm said:

Congratulations on your recovery!! Enjoy your life!! 🤍 

Hello Istm, thank you so much!     Take care, Purplestars

[Purplestars22]

On 1/19/2021 at 5:24 AM, benesh said:

Purplestars22,

THANK YOU seems so inadequate BUT it will need to suffice. Woke up this morning with the familiar dread. Read your very hopeful post, went for my walk and am now reminding myself based on your post to never ever give up hope. Know that your post helped springboard me out of a recent wave. Ugh. My version of waves is relentless tears. How on earth can a person generate that much moisture from inside? I wish I knew how to turn these tears off. Any ideas?.......
Enjoy the journey and again thank you for helping me keep the faith as I continue along. 
Best to you.

Hello benesh, you are welcome. I know that feeling oh so well of being in dread, but just taking a walk or doing something you enjoy will clear your head and give you a sense of inspiration that things will get better sooner or later. Your tears are just neuroemotions that are coming to the surface, maybe journaling how you are feeling, writing in your thread and communicating on other peoples thread may help. Just know you are not alone going through this, I had the most horrible wd suffering years endlessly with only a couple of hours a day of feeling okay and I got better and you will too. Thank you so much, I am glad I was able to offer a glimpse of hope.      Take care, Purplestars

[Purplestars22]

12 hours ago, Amira123 said:

Thank you for coming back to share your story and congratulations on your recovery. Did you suffer from emotions numbness( unable to feel love, joy, excitment..,? And a chemical feeling of dread/fear/depression/hopelessnes during WD? When did you feel like you have turned a real corner in your recovery. Thanks

Hi Amira123, you are welcome its my pleasure to let people know that recovery does exist and especially with cases like me. Thank you so much. Yes during the first years around 1-2 I suffered anhedonia and was a zombie not feeling any emotion, also I had the urge to cry but could not. Yes and also the chemical feeling during wd. I would say after the third year or third year and a half progress was more noticeable and was experiencing more windows.   Take care, Purplestars

[cleopatra]

Hi, 

Congratulations on your recovery. 

Have you suffered from low blood pressure, poor circulation, numb extremities and overall numbness too? Have they completely resolved? 

Also, since I am a sufferer of an adverse reaction, were you having side effects when you first took the drug? 

I am still very worried that people always recover from withdrawal, but not from an adverse reaction.

[Amira]

That's Great!  Seeing someone who had all these stuff and then recovers gives me alot of hope that someday i can have a normal brain/life again. yes i know the zombie/dead feeling, we have been friends for 28 months now

[Purplestars22]

21 hours ago, cleopatra said:

Hi, 

Congratulations on your recovery. 

Have you suffered from low blood pressure, poor circulation, numb extremities and overall numbness too? Have they completely resolved? 

Also, since I am a sufferer of an adverse reaction, were you having side effects when you first took the drug? 

I am still very worried that people always recover from withdrawal, but not from an adverse reaction.

Hello cleopatra, thank you. I did suffer from lo blood pressure, I remember taking my bp and the reading was 94/72 and the average or normal bp should be 120/80. I did have numbness in my hands and all that has resolved. I did not have adverse reaction when I first started the medication only when I reinstated for the five days and stopped taking it immediately. The symptoms that I got from reinstating was the high feeling, and my mind was clear with no thoughts or anything and that scared me.  I believe that people do recover from an adverse reaction, I am sure there are some in the success stories. Hang in there, you got this.         Take care, Purplestars

[Purplestars22]

7 hours ago, Amira said:

That's Great!  Seeing someone who had all these stuff and then recovers gives me alot of hope that someday i can have a normal brain/life again. yes i know the zombie/dead feeling, we have been friends for 28 months now

Hello Amira, glad I was able to offer some hope and yes you will have a normal brain/life again soon.   Take care, Purplestars

[Carolina]

Congratulations! Must be such a relief! Enjoy this AD free and joyful life!

[Purplestars22]

8 hours ago, Carolina said:

Congratulations! Must be such a relief! Enjoy this AD free and joyful life!

Hi Carolina, Thank you so much, it really is a relief and sense of accomplishment that I was able to get through this. Take care, Purplestars

[spagett]

Thanks for the words of hope.  I'm nearing 8 months AD free and experiencing a pretty major wave.  I also took caffeine out of the equation 15 days ago.  and alcohol 8 months ago.  God it's hard to keep the faith that I can actually recover but this is helpful.  Thank you!

[Purplestars22]

On 1/29/2021 at 9:43 PM, spagett said:

Thanks for the words of hope.  I'm nearing 8 months AD free and experiencing a pretty major wave.  I also took caffeine out of the equation 15 days ago.  and alcohol 8 months ago.  God it's hard to keep the faith that I can actually recover but this is helpful.  Thank you!

Hello Spagett, I am sorry to hear that just know that it will pass. Caffeine is very activating and should be avoided and alcohol is not helpful during this time of wd. I would recommend magnesium, fish oil supplements, ginger and chamomile tea. I have been in your position and know what you going through, if I revovered you will too!     Take care, Purplestars

[Barney]

God bless purplestars home I can do same               barney

[Purplestars22]

On 2/6/2021 at 4:47 PM, Barney said:

God bless purplestars home I can do same               barney

Hello Barney, thank you. Yeah I am sure you will recover too.   Take care, purplestars

[Pit138]

Hello @Purplestars22

 

Congratulations 😀😀😀😀

I read right that you reinstated in 2012 and  then tapered too fast till 2013?

 

How was your sleep, do you had Insomnia too With no sleep?

[Elyssa143]

@Purplestars22 

 

so nice to read another success story and congratulations! I am coming up on 4 years since withdrawal started but 43 months pharma free with no other meds and a short stint on zoloft. Overall I am much better. But I still struggle with some si, some inner aka, some dread, some depression some anxiety. Did you still struggle at 4 years. I am way more functional and overall much. Better but it’s never easy for me to have these symptoms or to feel like life isn’t worth it. I also have physical symptoms but mental always over takes them. Did you take anything? Did it just really slowly over more time continue to improve? Thank you!!!