Nelis: my story with Lexapro

[Nelis]

Hey guys,

 

I want to tell you my story. At the moment I am doing very bad. I have very severe anxiety and I don't have any idea on what to do.

Let me tell you my story first.

 

I was on Lexapro from January 2019 untill August 2019. I was also on Wellbutrin from May 2019 until August 2019.

Although I was doing quite well I for some reason wanted to get off those medications.

I tapered the Lexapro from 10mg to 2,5mg over the span of I would say 2-3 months (I am not exactly sure).

I was decreasing with 2,5mg at a time. At the time I didn't know that this was probably too fast. Also I thought it would be hard and useless to try to divide my 10mg pills into smaller pieces.

Only later I found out that Dutch pharmacies have lexapro in a liquid formulation. One drip from the liquid is 1mg of Lexapro.

Anyways, when I was down to 2,5mg I thought it would be safe to quit. I was on 150mg of Wellbutrin at the same time and since there is no smaller dose available and it's only extended release I thought it would be safe to quit this medication cold turkey at the same time I quit the Lexapro. I thought this was possible, especially since I had dropped it cold turkey before and at the time didn't face withdrawal after doing so.

This time I had severe withdrawal, but I am still kind of convinced that the Lexapro caused this withdrawal not the Wellbutrin.

 

Fast forward 1 year and 3 months later I still feel like I am in some sort of withdrawal.

My perspective on the world is very different from what it was before I took Lexapro, and I live in fear everyday.

Some of the symptoms I have are:

• I just feel very restless in my body and mind, little things can set me off such as a weird sound or something flashing in the corner of my eye.
• I worry all the time and I am also quite depressed.
• I fear that this state of mind will last forever and I can't imagine how it could be different.

 

Still, I have hope. I am a young male with a life ahead of me, and although this drug has damaged me there must be some way I can survive. At least survive until the withdrawal is over, because it must be over some day right? Can someone please tell me I will not face this fate for the rest of my days?

 

I have tried reinstating Lexapro, but to no avail. I have tried a tricyclic antidepressant for 6 days and it made me feel very weird. In hindsight, maybe I should've tried it a little longer.

What can I do now? Is there any drug (a psychiatric one of a herbal/nature one I don't care) that could relieve some of my symptoms? At the moment my life is unbearable and I can't find something that would make it bearable, but is there such a thing?

 

Please, if you had a similar experience, can you help me?

If my story is too brief and you have extra question just ask them here, I'd be happy to answer them. I tried to be as complete as possible haha.

 

Nelis

[Gridley]

Welcome to SA, Nelis.

 

To give members the best information, we ask them to summarize their medication history in a signature -- drugs, doses, dates, and discontinuations & reinstatements, in the last 12-24 months particularly.

 

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The symptoms you describe are typical of antidepressant withdrawal, likely from both the Lexapro and the cold turkey of Wellbutrin.  Withdrawal is not permanent and you will heal.  You will not face this fate for the rest of your life.

 

What is withdrawal syndrome.

 

Daily Checklist of Antidepressant Withdrawal Symptoms (PDF) 

 

The Windows and Waves Pattern of Stabilization

 

When we take psychiatric medications, the CNS (central nervous system) responds by making changes over the months and years we take the drug(s). When the medication is discontinued, the CNS has to undo all the changes it made. Rebuilding the neurotransmitter production and reactivating the receptor and transporter cells takes time -- during that rebuilding process symptoms occur.  

 

These explain the healing process really well.

 

Brain Remodelling 

 

Video:  Healing From Antidepressants - Patterns of Recovery

 

23 hours ago, Nelis said:

Is there any drug (a psychiatric one of a herbal/nature one I don't care) that could relieve some of my symptoms? At the moment my life is unbearable and I can't find something that would make it bearable, but is there such a thing?

We don't recommend taking another drug in order to deal with withdrawal from previous drugs.  There is no way to predict how another drug (or herb) will affect you and could make matters worse.

 

We don't recommend a lot of supplements on SA, as many members report being sensitive to them due to our over-reactive nervous systems, but two supplements that we do recommend are magnesium and omega 3 (fish oil). Many people find these to be calming to the nervous system. 

 

Magnesium, nature's calcium channel blocker 

 

Omega-3 fatty acids (fish oil) 

 

Add in one at a time and at a low dose in case you do experience problems. Get supplements that ae single ingredient (not mixed with other types of supplements).

 

We strongly recommend the use of non-drug techniquesto deal with withdrawal.  Take a look at these techniques and see which you think might help you.

 

Non-drug techniques to cope

 

This is your Introduction topic, where you can complete your drug signature, asks questions and connect with other members.  We're glad you found your way here.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Yesyes123]

On 1/25/2021 at 7:34 PM, Nelis said:

At least survive until the withdrawal is over, because it must be over some day right? Can someone please tell me I will not face this fate for the rest of my days?

 

Be sure it will be over eventually.

 

You will not feel like that forever.

 

There are many stories here in this website of people who managed to get off Lexapro and have been free of the drug and enjoying life.

 

One thing that might relieve your symptoms is reinsating a small amount of Lexapro - maybe 0.1mg since it's been so long since you stopped. (We have to check the dosage with the mods)

 

Then you can very slowly taper that off too. How are you now?

 

Do you take any supplements?

 

Peace, love and healing

[Nelis]

On 1/28/2021 at 3:58 AM, Yesyes123 said:

 

Be sure it will be over eventually.

 

You will not feel like that forever.

 

There are many stories here in this website of people who managed to get off Lexapro and have been free of the drug and enjoying life.

 

One thing that might relieve your symptoms is reinsating a small amount of Lexapro - maybe 0.1mg since it's been so long since you stopped. (We have to check the dosage with the mods)

 

Then you can very slowly taper that off too. How are you now?

 

Do you take any supplements?

 

Peace, love and healing

 

Thanks for your response! Do you really think that it might be a good idea to reinstate Lexapro? It's been more than a year since I stopped. 

Today I am not good, the past weeks have been very hard, but so has the last year. I am just hoping to get better.

Today I started Omega 3 fish oil and I just bought a container so I will be continuing this. 

I was planning on starting with 2 capsules a day (2 capsules contain 375mg of EPA and 250mg of DHA). I want to increase the dosage to 4 capsules a day soon.

Is that a good idea?

[Yesyes123]

You might be able to reinstate an extremely small amount of Lexapro and get sooo much relief. Like 0.1mg. We need to ask the mods tho!

[Gridley]

8 hours ago, Nelis said:

Do you really think that it might be a good idea to reinstate Lexapro? It's been more than a year since I stopped. 

Today I am not good, the past weeks have been very hard, but so has the last year. I am just hoping to get better.

Today I started Omega 3 fish oil and I just bought a container so I will be continuing this. 

I was planning on starting with 2 capsules a day (2 capsules contain 375mg of EPA and 250mg of DHA). I want to increase the dosage to 4 capsules a day soon.

Is that a good idea?

After a year of being off Lexapro, reinstating is risky and could make things worse.  RI works most predictably within 3 months of your last dose and you're well beyond that.  

 

Re the omegas, start off slowly (the dose you've chosen seems about right) and increase very gradually as you figure out what dosage works best for you.    

[Nelis]

21 hours ago, Gridley said:

After a year of being off Lexapro, reinstating is risky and could make things worse.  RI works most predictably within 3 months of your last dose and you're well beyond that.  

 

Re the omegas, start off slowly (the dose you've chosen seems about right) and increase very gradually as you figure out what dosage works best for you.    

I understand that it might not work anymore, but why would it be dangerous?

[Gridley]

27 minutes ago, Nelis said:

but why would it be dangerous?

Your system has become accustomed to functioning without the drug and is also sensitized from your fast taper. Reintroducing the drug at this point could overwhelm your central nervous system and also could have other unknowable effects.  The fact that reinstatement didn't work last time also points to potential problems.

[Nelis]

55 minutes ago, Gridley said:

Your system has become accustomed to functioning without the drug and is also sensitized from your fast taper. Reintroducing the drug at this point could overwhelm your central nervous system and also could have other unknowable effects.  The fact that reinstatement didn't work last time also points to potential problems.

Do you have any advice for me? Is there anything which could give me some relief? I am really desperate at the moment, my anxiety is so sky-high...

[Gridley]

11 minutes ago, Nelis said:

Do you have any advice for me? Is there anything which could give me some relief? I am really desperate at the moment, my anxiety is so sky-high...

I'd suggest you start with the magnesium and find a good dose for you.  Then you can introduce omegas.  Many members have reported they are calming to the system.

 

These links are helpful with anxiety.  I've found the last link about the restorative yoga pose to be good in the relief of anxiety.  Also check out the techniques in this link:

 

Non-drug techniques to cope

 

Audio:  First Aid for Panic (4 minutes)
 

Audio:  How to Recover from Anxiety - Dr Claire Weekes
 

VIDEO:  Peace from Nervous Suffering - Claire Weekes (1 hour) (http://sendvid.com/vgquc1dg)
 

Anxiety Stuff - all kinds of stuff about anxiety attacks and things that help …

 

10 minute Restorative Yoga for Relaxation | Up the wall

 

 

 

 

 

Edited January 31, 2021 by Gridley

[Amira]

Hello @Nelis I am sorry you are feeling bad. Gridley has done a good job as usual providing support. Things will get better. Just let more time pass.  So you are now 1+ year off meds right? What are you doing to distract yourself from the bad symptoms? 

 

 

Stay well and take care of yourself!

 

[Nelis]

34 minutes ago, Amira said:

Hello @Nelis I am sorry you are feeling bad. Gridley has done a good job as usual providing support. Things will get better. Just let more time pass.  So you are now 1+ year off meds right? What are you doing to distract yourself from the bad symptoms? 

 

 

Stay well and take care of yourself!

 

Thanks. Yes, I thank him for that :). I am not completely off meds, I am on 75mg pregabalin twice a day since november/december. I am thinking of going off this as well. It's not helping me I think, and maybe it's making my CNS confused? Is that possible?

 

Anyways, I have been off antidepressants since about 6 months. But my withdrawals started almost 1,5 years ago when I quit Lexapro in August 2019.

 

I have always been working during my withdrawal and still am. I will start working as a teacher 3 days a week soon (just accepted a new job). I am studying as well.

I consciously decided to work 3 days a week because I need some days off every week. I have had very hard days at work because my anxiety was so high. On the other hand, my anxiety is high when I sit at home doing nothing aswell. Sometimes work takes my mind of anxiety.

 

Anyways, can someone help me with a schedule to build off my pregabalin 75mg? I have learned from past mistakes haha, and even though this isn't an antidepressant I still guess it would be wise to taper slowly.

 

Apart from pregabalin I asked my doctor for a script for dexamphetamine. This is a med that has helped me and hurt me in the past. It helps me with productivity though. However, I don't know if it's wise for me to start taking this again. I haven't taken it for months. I can pick up the script tomorrow. Another why I asked my doc for this is because I am hoping it might help me stay awake from coffee. I feel that coffee is causing me major anxiety, but I take it to cover some of my ADD symptoms. I figure an actual ADD med might be a better solution for covering symptoms of bad focus and fatigue. However, I have noticed increased sensitivity to dexamphetamine since quitting lexapro in May 2019.

[Amira]

I am not sure about the medications you are currently taking. I pretty much cold turkeyed so i have no experience in this area. You can ask any of the Admins or moderators and they might help you with this issue though.

 

I understand work can be extremely hard while having wd symptoms. But i am glad you find it distracting. A part time job is less stressful than a full time job, right?

 

Acceptance, patience and a positive attitude are very important during wd. Take care!

Edited February 4, 2021 by Amira

[Cat416]

You mention “only Pregabalin”. I experienced total hell being on Gabapentin (a similar drug). It made me manically depressed and agitated. Could you suffering be caused by the presence of Pregabalin as well?

[Nelis]

Hi, maybe it does. I was thinking of tapering it and see if I feel better off it. Now you've mentioned this I will definitely try.

[Nelis]

Hi Guys, 

 

I updated my signature a bit. I think it's 95% complete now (because maybe I forgot 1-2 meds I took).

 

How am I feeling? Very very bad, I am thinking of suicide every day. I don't know what to do anymore. 

 

I found a study https://bit.ly/2ZoQ746 about this very website. One of the paragraphs was this:

 

''In total, n = 69 individual reports of protracted withdrawal were selected for analysis. At time of the subjects’ most recent reports, duration of PWS ranged from 5 to 166 months, mean = 37 months, median = 26 months. Length of time on the antidepressant causing protracted withdrawal ranged from 6 to 278 months, mean = 96 months, and median = 79 months.''

 

So basically it says that 69 people from this website were studied. Their duration of antidepressants (mostly SSRI's) ranged from 5 to 166 months, with a mean of 37 months. Their duration of PAWS ranged from 6 to 278 months with a mean of 96 months.

 

I have so many questions about this:

 

1) I quit Lexapro 18 months ago (for the first time), but reinstated twice after that. Does that mean I am only 5 months into PAWS (since September 2020, the last time I quit Lexapro), or am I 18 months into PAWS (since the first time I quit Lexapro)?

note: since I quit Lexapro in august 2019 I feel terrible, every single day. I don't have any windows, never had one. Reinstating Lexapro didn't do ****.

2) The mean duration on antidepressants in this study is 96 months. I was only on Lexapro for 8 months, does this mean that my duration of PAWS will also be shorter than the mean of 37 months?

3) How did your PAWS end? Did u suddenly wake up one morning and felt better? Or was it a gradual process?

4) Did anyone try taking an MAOI for relief of symptoms? I read online that MAOI's are considered the best antidepressants. I am wondering if there is any drug that can give me some relief? Or is my CNS so severely impacted that no drug will help?

 

Also, at the moment I only take pregabalin 75mg twice a day (have been doing so for about 3-4 months). I also occassionaly take lorazepam to easen my anxiety (I take it 2 days in a row, then stop for 3-4 days to avoid becoming dependent on this stuff). I know benzo's are bad, but it's the only thing that somewhat helps me find some relief in these very very dark days. Sometimes I think I should just take this stuff regularly for the coming years. At least to survive and not commit suicide. If my PAWS at some point then ends, I'll see what to do with the benzo's. Sounds bad, I know, but I don't really have a lot of options.

 

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist next Tuesday. I don't know what to ask him anymore. We can try a drug maybe? 

 

I would really appreciate some insight from you wonderful people.

[Yesyes123]

@Nelis,

 

How long did you hold the Lexapro reinstatement before tapering it off again? It took me about 3-4 months of reinstating it to feel better.

[Yesyes123]

Maybe you could try reinstating a small amount and holding it. Just an idea

[Nelis]

1 hour ago, Yesyes123 said:

@Nelis,

 

How long did you hold the Lexapro reinstatement before tapering it off again? It took me about 3-4 months of reinstating it to feel better.

 

I reinstated for ~4 months.

[Nelis]

1 hour ago, Yesyes123 said:

Maybe you could try reinstating a small amount and holding it. Just an idea

What amount would that be? I sometimes see people talking about 0,1mg or 0,2mg, but how do I even get that small an amount to ingest haha.

[Yesyes123]

@Nelis

 

You will need a Gemini 20 scale or other similar that measures down to 0.001g

 

https://www.amazon.com/American-Weigh-GEMINI-20-Portable-MilliGram/dp/B0012TDNAM

 

You will crush the pill and weight it, removing some powder to make a very small dose.

 

Then you put that powder in a empty gelatin capsule.

 

Here is more info:

 

If it seems complicated at first, don't worry, it's actually very simple. I can explain better to you later.

 

Are you thinking of trying reinstatement of very small quantity like 0.1mg?

[Frogie]

4 hours ago, Nelis said:

What amount would that be? I sometimes see people talking about 0,1mg or 0,2mg, but how do I even get that small an amount to ingest haha.

I would not reinstate any more than 0.5 mg. You could try 0.1 mg and always increase if needed after a couple of weeks.  Are you able to get liquid Lexapro? It is so easy to taper with if it’s available. If not, @Gridleydid his entire Lexapro taper using a scale and crushing the tablets.

[Nelis]

I can get Lexapro drips. They're 1mg per drop. Is that too much? Otherwise I can get the scale.

 

But assume I take this step. Would it really be of use? It's 1,5 years since I quit the first time. What would doing this achieve for me, or what could it possibly achieve for me?

[Go2zero]

Hi Nelis,

I have a lot experience with withdrawal from Lexapro and Wellbutrin. I am from The Netherlands too, where I was given this cocktail about 15 years ago. Have experience with 3 times quitting (too fast, because I just did not know then how to do it "the right way".

 

I made a lot of mistakes and reinstated several times (I wish I hadn't). When interested read my topic. I am still on a small dosage SSRI (prozac, because I was told a switch to prozac might make things easier, which wasn't the case..) and Wellbutrin.

 

As you can read in my topic there is an important interaction in metabolizing a SSRI in combination with Wellbutrin. Therefor both medicines better should not be decreased in dosage at the same time. But also that I had to find out through making errors.

 

Anyhow you have quit both medications. If reinstating the Lexapro is a good idea, I find very hard to say. But I would like to give you two suggestions which help me in the withdrawal process. Of course we are all different, but it might help.

 

1. I often have periods with anxiety because of the withdrawal. What helps me very good and fast is Lavender essential oil. Take the organic quality only and put 2-3 drops in a glass of water. This helps me extremely good and it works within 15 minutes. No side effects! I just take it when needed. And as said, almost direct effect.

 

2. I read that you have taken dexamphetamine for ADD. Mean stuff IMO. You might try L-Theanine for ADD, when you really need something for that. I took it when having heavy withdrawal effects of Wellbutrin. L-Theanine raises dopamine level, just as Wellbutrin and dexamphetamine do. I would not recommend to take it every day, but only when needed. In my case I feel effect after 1 hour. No side effects either in my case.

[Nelis]

Early April and I'm doing even worse. Let me tell you what has happened in the past year and a half. Ever since I quit Lexapro and Wellbutrin in the summer of 2019 I have been feeling very ill. Constant anxiety, depersonalization and severe depression are making my life a living hell at this moment. However, I do not want to be too hard on myself at this point. I was on medication feeling fairly stable, but not completely happy. Although feeling quite confident in that I was in a good state of mind. I had no idea what these medications would havok on me once I would stop taking them. That has all happened. I don't want to blame psychiatrists of the pharmaceutical industry, because unlike a lot of people on this forum I don't truely believe that these doctors are doing something evil. Depression is a terrible disease which hits a lot of people. These drugs they give us help some people. There are people who have taken them for life and have lived a happy life till the day I died. Unfortunately, the effects of stopping this drug vary greatly among people. I know of people (close friends) who have temporarily stopped taking their antidepressant for some months felt unwell and reinstated. The drug is doing the same thing it did before and they're feeling fine. This did not happen for me, or maybe it did and I didn't recognize in time and decided to quit again. I did this with a number of drugs. After my first withdrawal I have tried to reinstate both escitalopram (2 times) and Wellbutrin (3 times) a number of time. I no longer want to do this but am in severe mental pain. Apart from that I am so unstable and also impulsive which has led me to deciding that I need to try medication again because maybe it will help me get relieve from this pain. 

 

I also take dextroamphetamine occasionally, although only for a few weeks usually, then get scared of it and quit. I then often pick up drinking coffee and quit also for the same reason. This vicious cycle and the vicious cycle of trying new antidepressants doesn't work and will ultimately drive me insane (I really feel that). This has to stop.

 

But, I have an idea. And although it scares the living hell out of me because I fear for homesickness like hell, I do feel that this might be a good idea. I want to go on to live with Buddhist monks for a while. I have the financial means to buy basically any kind of trip because my parents have a lot of money in the bank they don't really use. They will spend it if I really want to do such a trip. They know about my daily struggles and I've been very open with them. They will support me.

 

My question to you guys is: does anyone know of a website or something where such trips can be bought?

 

 I would also be open to any kind of retraite, yoga stay or whatever it's called in the United States. But it has to be a place where I can practice mindfullness on a daily basis and have access to a room and food. Please help me with any kind of resource. Oh, and if there is people here from the Netherlands, ik ben een Nederlander. Anything in the Netherlands or elsewhere in Europe would be best of course, but I am not aware of such places Maybe there are some in Spain or Switzerland or w/e?

 

Another thing I was considering is just straight up walking into a hospital and asking if I can please speak a doctor because I am in urgent need of care and might need to be hospitalized. I would want to be hospitalized, but I would not want them trying a bunch of psychiatric medications on me. I don't know if any of these things are even remotely possible.

 

Anyways, I am very desperate. Please help me out.

[Rosetta]

Do not come to the U.S.  The most barbaric of barbarism would await you if you had a psychiatric crisis here.  This country is falling apart, for one thing.  The way that people are treated here when they have problems is beyond atrocious.  It has been that way for decades.  Your parents’ money would eventually get you out, if they could find you, but you would be broken and destroyed by then.
 

If I were you, I would stay in the E.U. You are a citizen there, I assume.  It’s not safe for you elsewhere.  You need to be where people can see that you are “one of them” by your language and mannerisms just in case you are separated from your passport.  They would be more likely to try to get you to your consulate and your home if something happened.  

 

It sounds to me that you wish you could find a “soteria.”  Oh, how I used to dream of a soteria.  They are hard to find, and often, they don’t last.  They were originally meant for people having a psychotic episode, but the concept is perfect for ADWD.  The problem is that it’s not financially feasible to do the same sort of gentle caretaking for us.  Our syndromes last too long.  It would be a brilliant solution if money were not an issue.
 

Please stop trying different drugs, supplements, anything.  Do not take stimulants at all.  They are so very dangerous to a compromised nervous system. Take the pregabalin very consistently, at the same time of day, never missing a dose.  You need to stabilize.  Your brain needs consistency.  It can’t heal without consistency.
 

Every time you take a drug, your system pushes back hard.  Your brain is like a ping pong ball with all these drugs coming and going.
 

Can you tell the Mods how often you have taken lorazepam in the last 2 weeks?  Can you count the pills and check the date on the bottle?

 

Taking lorazepam and pregabalin together is causing you further destabilization, don’t you think?  Maybe you have taken it too often, and you are hooked, but I hope not.

 

I would be afraid of going to a hospital.  Yes, that would probably make things worse.  I wouldn’t risk that.
 

The best way to go forward is by taking the pregabalin very faithfully and taking Epsom salts baths or taking a small amount of magnesium or fish oil, but not both.  See how one affects you before you try the other.  Otherwise, you have to distract yourself from your misery.  TV, books, movies.  If you can meditate, that’s wonderful.  How lucky.  I could not do that when I was desperately ill.

 

Rosetta

 

[Yesyes123]

7 hours ago, Nelis said:

Another thing I was considering is just straight up walking into a hospital and asking if I can please speak a doctor because I am in urgent need of care and might need to be hospitalized. I would want to be hospitalized, but I would not want them trying a bunch of psychiatric medications on me. I don't know if any of these things are even remotely possible.

 

I would strongly recommend you do not go to a hospital and be hospitalized by any means. They will most of the time drug you more. There have been cases here in SA where the patient asked NOT to be drugged and the almighty doctors still drugged them.

 

@NelisAre you able to read books? 

[Nelis]

Thanks for ur reply.

 

I don't take the pregabaline anymore. I quit taking that about 2-3 weeks ago after tapering by 25mg per week. I ran out of lorazepam, haven't taken any for a week or so. At the moment what I take is this: St. John's Wort 900mg a day (started that 4 days ago) + 5-10mg dexamphetamine a day.

 

[Rosetta]

Oh.  Well, I guess we all have to find out own way.

It would be a good idea to change your drug signature to reflect the past few months.  Thanks.

[Nelis]

Hi Guys,

 

I have some good and some bad news. The good news is that I am not constantly thinking about withdrawal anymore. I don't actually feel a lot better (although my anxiety has diminished a bit), but I have a different perspective on things.

 

A few weeks ago I opened up to my dad and told him one of my biggest secrets. Ever since doing so I feel a sense of relief. It's weird because I still feel terrible, but now I feel like my symptoms (anxiety and depression) are mostly linked to life circumstances and not drug withdrawal. More than 1.5 years after stopping lexapro it really feels like my withdrawal is over. 

 

Something else really sucks. When I was in the depths of withdrawal I would always tell myself: 'if I ever get out of this, I will he happy again'. Unfortunately that doesn't appear to be the case. Still, I am glad it's over. 

 

Oh, I am aware this might be a window. Maybe it'll come back. However, I don't feel like it will. My experience with my own body is that once something is over it's over.

 

I thought about writing a recovery story, but since I still feel horrible depressed I decided not to. This is kind of a recovery story however. Where I was once very much in withdrawal and facing the agony of it everyday, I am now still in a bad place but at least I understand why. That's the thing with withdrawal: you feel terrible for no reason, now I feel terrible but at least I know why. And I can work on my problems and beat them.

[Yesyes123]

I am so happy for you. Take your time with your success story! It will definitely come and you will be happy.

 

Peace and healing