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Hello guys I'm new here and my English language is a bit bad but i will try my best to explain pls stay tuned ūü•ļ ..... I was suffering from anxiety which is kinda severe at first only social anxiety and moderate depression it all started when i was around 13 years old i just couldn't take any bad word or anything i may see it bad or not appropriate to say so if i here bad word or someone makes jokes about me or anything like that i enter a severe depression/anxiety state for 3 days and then it resolve . I return normal after 3 days and ....i cand handle being with ppl i get anxious and shy and get low confidence and like so .... .....

 

HOW IT ALL STARTED! .....

when i entered 24 i tried to cure myself so i went to a therapist then i was put on multiple drugs changing for 1 year with no significant effect on my overall health until the day i tried ecitalopram i really felt great everything was ok and i gained my life back and more i was so happy and enjoying but after 6 months i quited cold turkey and......

 

HELL OPENED THE DOORS!. Panic attack and anxiety and severe depression like hell i couldn't handle this until i contacted my physician and returned to another med (zoloft) i was kinda better but not good no panic attacks then after 3 months on it i tried to get off of it so i took 25 mg down from 50 mg for 1 week and then i dropped it i suffered withdrawal at first and then after a few weeks i was good and getting better my motivation returned and i was like a day good and a day not really but getting slightly better day after day but i suffered fear from dark with low confidence but i was feeling better ..

 

THEN.... i married my girl and after a while i was hard with her like focusing on the minor things so i decided i need to return to my medication to help me with this thing but then everything was bad i was so depressed and so anxious for 2 months with returning to ecitalopram then i moved to prozac and i was a little better with it but still not feeling good so i decided again to quite so i dii like zoloft 1 week 20 mg down from 40 mg and then dropped it .

 

WHAT'S ABOUT NOW. 

at first i was good first weeks then i entered in severe depression anxiety state then it got lifted a lil bit my anxiety is better then when returned to ecitalopram or prozac but i feel low self-esteem and excessive thinking and and i think I'm recovering but Very slowly like I'm feeling like the old me when i was so anxious when i hear anything about me and i feel like I'm having weak personality but zero motivation and sometimes i feel so sad not like when i dropped my zoloft after few weeks my motivation returned no its different¬† ūüėß!

SO GUYYS WHAT SHOULD I DO?!. sometimes i think about returning to the meds and sometimes I'm afraid of going back to my old self when i was triggered by anything into depression anxiety cycle I'm really confused and i don't know what to do? 

 

 

5 months without the meds !

Every single drug ... changing thru 1 year till 

Ecitalopram the one that worked for me before .....2018

Zoloft 50 2019

Prozac 2020

5 months without any drug 

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Hello Aliaok1

 

And welcome on SA. 

 

This site is run entirely by volunteer Administrators and Moderators, all have been through or going through withdrawal.

There are no commercial interests or influences  involved.

 

--„Äč I understand that you've given the infos above but could you please¬†

please create a drug signature ? Please include drugs, dates, discontinuations. Also include supplements. This will help us give you the most accurate advice we can, and allow us to see your history at a glance.
 

This is¬†a¬†direct link to¬†your signature:¬†¬†Account Settings ‚Äď Create or Edit a signature

 

-> If I'm right, you quit Zoloft 5 months ago and are now drug free ?

 

-> Are you taking supplements ?

 

You are describing common withdrawal symptoms from a lot of drug changes and a fast taper.

We usually recommend very slow tapers with no more than 10% drops every four weeks.

This might help you to understand what is happening :

 

 

  On 8/30/2011 at 9:28 PM, Rhiannon :

"When we stop taking the drug, we have a brain that has designed itself so that it works in the presence of the drug; now it can't work properly without the drug because it's designed itself so that the drug is part of its chemistry and structure. It's like a plant that has grown on a trellis; you can't just yank out the trellis and expect the plant to be okay. When the drug is removed, the remodeling process has to take place in reverse. SO--it's not a matter of just getting the drug out of your system and moving on. If it were that simple, none of us would be here. It's a matter of, as I describe it, having to grow a new brain. I believe this growing-a-new-brain happens throughout the taper process if the taper is slow enough. (If it's too fast, then there's not a lot of time for actually rebalancing things, and basically the brain is just pedaling fast trying to keep us alive.) It also continues to happen, probably for longer than the symptoms actually last, throughout the time of recovery after we are completely off the drug, which is why recovery takes so long."

 

 

--„Äč The only way we know to mitigate withdrawal syndrome is reinstatement. However, it has to be done cautiously, at a¬†very low dose.

Please read this thread carefully and ask questions :

 

about-reinstating-and-stabilizing-to-reduce-withdrawal-symptoms

 

 

Reinstatement or not, people do get better. It can take time and is often a very gradual process but healing happens.

You might find comfort in our Success Stories  :

 

success-stories-recovery-from-withdrawal/

 

 

Again, welcome¬† ‚ėļ

 

2006 : 20mg Paroxetine + Bromazepam(no specific dose) 2008 : cold turkey of both

2010 : 20mg Deroxat + Bromazepam

2013: Switch from Bromazepam To Prazepam

2014-June2017 : Prazepam taper

2018 to August 2019 : Paroxetine 20mg taper (3% every 15 days).

- 22nd August updosed To 10mg (was at 8.4mg)

25th Sept 2019 To April 2020 : found SA, holding at 10mg Paroxetine. 

April 2020 : Paxil to Prozac bridge. Details : topic/21457-

 

Current Supplements : magnesium citrate/ fish oil/ evening primrose oil 

 

Current medication :  7mg Fluoxetine (since 20 Aug 2020)

+ 1mg Diazepam (since 29 Aug 2020)

(Toothpick Paroxetine from September 2020 to 17th March 2021)

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On 2/18/2021 at 10:39 PM, Erell said:

Hello Aliaok1

 

And welcome on SA. 

 

This site is run entirely by volunteer Administrators and Moderators, all have been through or going through withdrawal.

There are no commercial interests or influences  involved.

 

--„Äč I understand that you've given the infos above but could you please¬†

please create a drug signature ? Please include drugs, dates, discontinuations. Also include supplements. This will help us give you the most accurate advice we can, and allow us to see your history at a glance.
 

This is¬†a¬†direct link to¬†your signature:¬†¬†Account Settings ‚Äď Create or Edit a signature

 

-> If I'm right, you quit Zoloft 5 months ago and are now drug free ?

 

-> Are you taking supplements ?

 

You are describing common withdrawal symptoms from a lot of drug changes and a fast taper.

We usually recommend very slow tapers with no more than 10% drops every four weeks.

This might help you to understand what is happening :

 

 

  On 8/30/2011 at 9:28 PM, Rhiannon :

"When we stop taking the drug, we have a brain that has designed itself so that it works in the presence of the drug; now it can't work properly without the drug because it's designed itself so that the drug is part of its chemistry and structure. It's like a plant that has grown on a trellis; you can't just yank out the trellis and expect the plant to be okay. When the drug is removed, the remodeling process has to take place in reverse. SO--it's not a matter of just getting the drug out of your system and moving on. If it were that simple, none of us would be here. It's a matter of, as I describe it, having to grow a new brain. I believe this growing-a-new-brain happens throughout the taper process if the taper is slow enough. (If it's too fast, then there's not a lot of time for actually rebalancing things, and basically the brain is just pedaling fast trying to keep us alive.) It also continues to happen, probably for longer than the symptoms actually last, throughout the time of recovery after we are completely off the drug, which is why recovery takes so long."

 

 

--„Äč The only way we know to mitigate withdrawal syndrome is reinstatement. However, it has to be done cautiously, at a¬†very low dose.

Please read this thread carefully and ask questions :

 

about-reinstating-and-stabilizing-to-reduce-withdrawal-symptoms

 

 

Reinstatement or not, people do get better. It can take time and is often a very gradual process but healing happens.

You might find comfort in our Success Stories  :

 

success-stories-recovery-from-withdrawal/

 

 

Again, welcome¬† ‚ėļ

 

Hello erell...yes 5 months ....and no motivation and a little bit sad ...less anxiety.........but dude my biggest now is that that I'm sensitive to my wife not like when i was on prozac now I'm thinking about anything she says and sometimes fighting with her over minor subjects and I'm thinking that she might hate the new me and its exhausting me thinking about that subject man sometimes i think about returning to the drug! And i don't take any supplements

Every single drug ... changing thru 1 year till 

Ecitalopram the one that worked for me before .....2018

Zoloft 50 2019

Prozac 2020

5 months without any drug 

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Altostrata

Hello, Aliaok1.

 

We can't offer relationship counseling here, but you may work with a counselor or have some open conversations with your wife if issues have come up that were hidden by your taking antidepressants.

This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

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Aliaok1
16 hours ago, Altostrata said:

Hello, Aliaok1.

 

We can't offer relationship counseling here, but you may work with a counselor or have some open conversations with your wife if issues have come up that were hidden by your taking antidepressants.

Ok ..but what about the other things what should i do and I'm just thinking about returning to antidepressants man ūü•ļ

Every single drug ... changing thru 1 year till 

Ecitalopram the one that worked for me before .....2018

Zoloft 50 2019

Prozac 2020

5 months without any drug 

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20 hours ago, Aliaok1 said:

Ok ..but what about the other things what should i do and I'm just thinking about returning to antidepressants man ūü•ļ

Making impulsive decisions is anxiety. 

Learn to accept the feelings until you gradually feel better. It doesn't get better overnight.

It's taken 2 + yrs for me but VERY worth it.

March-2017-Dec-2017 ativanCT /reinstated ativan 1mg tapered 2 months/June 2017-April 2018 zyprexa 10mg switched to seroquel 200-300mg in april 2018/dec-2017-present zoloft 100mg/ quit seroquel 200-300mg cold turkey May 6 2018 reinstated seroquel 100mg around May 25 2018 since then tapered to 50mg zoloft and 50 mg of seroquel presently other medications Testosterone cypionate 2oomg every 4 days

UPDATE -August 20 2018--october 20 2018 tapered off Testosterone/Nov 7 2018 --Dec 20 2018 Lamictal micro dose 2.50mg 1 1/2 weeks then reduced to 1.25 then fast tapered as it became paridoxial.nausea- racing thoughts- agitation and insomnia.

August 28 2018 to Present Cannabis indica micro dose PM bedtime only.

Presently Seroquel 37.5 mg bedtime /Zoloft 47mg morning

May 2018-Present Multivitamin/ Bcomplex/Vit C 1000MG/B12 1000MCG/Fish oils 2grams/

Jan 2019-Trace mineral liquid low dose

Update dec 2019 -29mg of zoloft tapering/Seroquel 37.5 holding/1 or 2  ativan 1mg a month as needed if that.

Black seed oil-caprylic acid-/b complex/b12/multi/D/E/melatonin

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Hello aliaok1 welcome to SA!  If you want off this meds you are in the rt place for help and support!  
One question to ask yourself-

Did you have these issues before taking the medication or withdrawing from this medication?

Be honest with yourself so you can go to the next step in a resolution!

 

Now I will tell you these drugs will cause relationship and social issues for sure! You can search this on SA. For me personally Over the years I can look back and see it plain as day that ssri caused me a few issues as you described. Being on lexapro and especially tapering too much causes me to be sensitive to negative statements and comments made to me at home and work . It’s almost like it causes me to obsess over little things good or bad. I have noticed more arguments at different times on this medication. These symptoms has been more or less intense during taking ssris . I haven’t figured out rhyme or reason. It has only happened to me a few times. When it did I would notice it a few hrs later. But it is more during withdrawals. 

I didn’t not do this before I took this drug!

 

Donot make any major decisions during this time of withdrawals!

Be mindful of what is happening to your body !

hang in there !

09/2000 paxil 20mgs, 06/2006 stopped Paxil crashed, 10/2006 progressed back up to Paxil 20mgs, 2012 -2013 Paxil 12 month taper crashed, 09/2013 Zoloft 50 - 100, 2015-2016 Zoloft taper crash, 2016 cymbalta, 01/2017   lamictal , 05/2017 Prozac 20 mgs, 06/2017 Prozac 40mgs, 02/2018 Prozac 20 mgs, 05/2018 Prozac 30 mgs, 11/2018 lexapro 10 mgs, 01/2019 lexapro 15 mgs, 12/07/2019 lexapro 13.75 mgs ,01/04/2020 lexapro 12.5 mgs, 02/08/2020 lexapro 11.25 mgs, 03/07/2020 lexapro 10 mgs, 07/25/2020 7.5mg pill&2.5ml liquid, 08/04/2020 5mg pill&5ml liquid, 08/17/2020 2.5mg pill 7.5 ml liquid, 08/24/2020 10 ml liquid lexapro, 09/05/2020 9 ml liquid lexapro, 10/05/2020 8.5 ml liquid lexapro,10/12/2020 9 ml, 04/17/2021 8.78 ml, 04/24/2021 8.56 ml, 05/02/2021 8.34 ml, 05/09/2021 8.10ml,

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Aliaok1
On 3/3/2021 at 9:23 PM, Heath said:

Hello aliaok1 welcome to SA!  If you want off this meds you are in the rt place for help and support!  
One question to ask yourself-

Did you have these issues before taking the medication or withdrawing from this medication?

Be honest with yourself so you can go to the next step in a resolution!

 

Now I will tell you these drugs will cause relationship and social issues for sure! You can search this on SA. For me personally Over the years I can look back and see it plain as day that ssri caused me a few issues as you described. Being on lexapro and especially tapering too much causes me to be sensitive to negative statements and comments made to me at home and work . It’s almost like it causes me to obsess over little things good or bad. I have noticed more arguments at different times on this medication. These symptoms has been more or less intense during taking ssris . I haven’t figured out rhyme or reason. It has only happened to me a few times. When it did I would notice it a few hrs later. But it is more during withdrawals. 

I didn’t not do this before I took this drug!

 

Donot make any major decisions during this time of withdrawals!

Be mindful of what is happening to your body !

hang in there !

Not gonna lie i was super sensitive before starting ssris and the meds made it better somehow I don't know,?

Every single drug ... changing thru 1 year till 

Ecitalopram the one that worked for me before .....2018

Zoloft 50 2019

Prozac 2020

5 months without any drug 

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Aliaok1
On 3/3/2021 at 9:23 PM, Heath said:

Hello aliaok1 welcome to SA!  If you want off this meds you are in the rt place for help and support!  
One question to ask yourself-

Did you have these issues before taking the medication or withdrawing from this medication?

Be honest with yourself so you can go to the next step in a resolution!

 

Now I will tell you these drugs will cause relationship and social issues for sure! You can search this on SA. For me personally Over the years I can look back and see it plain as day that ssri caused me a few issues as you described. Being on lexapro and especially tapering too much causes me to be sensitive to negative statements and comments made to me at home and work . It’s almost like it causes me to obsess over little things good or bad. I have noticed more arguments at different times on this medication. These symptoms has been more or less intense during taking ssris . I haven’t figured out rhyme or reason. It has only happened to me a few times. When it did I would notice it a few hrs later. But it is more during withdrawals. 

I didn’t not do this before I took this drug!

 

Donot make any major decisions during this time of withdrawals!

Be mindful of what is happening to your body !

hang in there !

ōĆman i can handle anything but being sensitive to anything comes from my wife its just make me wanna return to SSRIs

Every single drug ... changing thru 1 year till 

Ecitalopram the one that worked for me before .....2018

Zoloft 50 2019

Prozac 2020

5 months without any drug 

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Aliaok1

Guys I've been without medication since 6 months my symptoms vary from severe to mild. But a couple days ago i started feeling irritability in my chest and palpitations what should i do is it withdrawal symptoms?

Every single drug ... changing thru 1 year till 

Ecitalopram the one that worked for me before .....2018

Zoloft 50 2019

Prozac 2020

5 months without any drug 

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Gridley
2 hours ago, Aliaok1 said:

irritability in my chest and palpitations what should i do is it withdrawal symptoms

Chest pain and palpitations are common withdrawal symptoms.  It would be a good idea to see a doctor to make sure there aren't non-withdrawal heart issues.

Irregular heartbeats, palpitations, tachycardia, bradycardia ...

 

 

Gridley Introduction

 

Lexapro 20 mg since 2004.  Begin Brassmonkey Slide Taper Jan. 2017.   

End 2017 year 1 of taper at 9.25mg 

End 2018 year 2 of taper at 4.1mg

End 2019 year 3 of taper at 1.0mg  

Oct. 30, 2020  Jump to zero from 0.025mg.  Current dose: 0.000mg

3 year, 10 month taper is 100% complete.

 

Ativan 1 mg 1986-1991 CT, soon reinstated.  CT 2000. RI 1 mg 2011-2016.  Sept. 2016  0.625mg X 3

Nov.27, 2020, 7-week Ativan-Valium crossover + change to one 18.75mg dose, w/1 month hold.

Feb. 9, 2021, begin 10% every 4 weeks taper.  Current dose as of April 10: 13mgai.  Taper is 31% complete.

 

Imipramine 75 mg daily since 1986.  Jan. 2016 began every 3-weeks 10% taper, down to 16mgai (44mgpw).  Aug 2016, discovered SA, holding at 16mg.  Taper is 78% complete.  

  

Supplements: omega, vitamins C, E and D3, magnesium glycinate, probiotic, zinc, melatonin .3mg.


I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.

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On 3/14/2021 at 12:26 AM, Gridley said:

Chest pain and palpitations are common withdrawal symptoms.  It would be a good idea to see a doctor to make sure there aren't non-withdrawal heart issues.

Irregular heartbeats, palpitations, tachycardia, bradycardia ...

 

 

Man my h.pylori test its positive and my stomach pain is killing me!

Every single drug ... changing thru 1 year till 

Ecitalopram the one that worked for me before .....2018

Zoloft 50 2019

Prozac 2020

5 months without any drug 

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