Ebee12058: trying to decide if should reinstate or forge on with withdrawal

[Ebee12058]

So, I'm a little confused on kindling. Or, I should say, I'm confused if that is what I experienced. I've read about kindling under Reinstatement. 

 

I went on & off Lexipro CT between 6 & 8 times from 2004 to 2019. (Incredibly naive & stupid). Every time I would go back on Lexipro, my blunting & Anhedonia was worse. To be clear, I experienced the Anhedonia WHILE TAKING the Lexipro. Not when I stopped. Until by 2019, it was unbearable. So, is this kindling? Was the drug more powerful, & the side effects worse, bc of all the stopping & starting? Would taking a tiny dose possibly avoid or lessen the Anhedonia? I had tapered all the way down to .625mg in Jan 2021, & the Anhedonia was still as strong. I ask bc I want to reinstate, but cannot bear/would really like to avoid the Anhedonia. Or is there another reason people experience this? As always, thank you for your help.

 

 

[Colonial]

On 4/7/2021 at 1:31 PM, Ebee12058 said:

So I'm debating reinstatement of buspirone after 2 months of intense anxiety & depression & extreme sensativity to food. My question is: if I reinstate at a very low dose & wait a week to see if the reinstatement is helping or hurting, do I have to then taper off that dose of say .1mg if I decide the reinstatement is making my symptoms worse?

 

If you reinstate a med and have a negative symptoms in less than 7 days I stop immediately.

The question is, would a week be enough to know if it was going to help the WD symptoms?

I don't think it would be.

 

I also question if that is the medication causing the issues or the one to reinstate.

 

(Sept 2020 Wellbutrin 300mg, OCD, anxiety, while taking, CT, WD anxiety, depression Dec 2020 Wellbutrin 150mg 3 days stop CT WD anxiety, depression, suicidal durations (seemed to stop once drug out system)

 

After reading more of what you added, it seems you had adverse symptoms to both the Wellbutrin and the Buspirone. 

My question is, why do you think reinstating the Buspirone is the better option, when the Wellbutrin WD is just as likely, for the symptoms?

 

The last medication we take is not necessarily the reason we are struggling with WD, nor is necessarily the best bet for symptomatic relief by reinstatement.  You took the Buspirone to offset the Wellbutrin symptoms, yes? 

 

What is your reasoning for choosing the Buspirone over the Wellbutrin, since both were about the same time?

 

 

Edited April 9, 2021 by Colonial

[Manati]

Hi @Ebee12058,

 

just stopping by to say that it is the same for me - complete emotional anesthesia and anhedonia after reinstating only a microdose (0.6mg) Effexor. So I can imagine very well that the anhedonia would come back for you when you reinstate. I think it's a decision between the anxiety/depression on one side, or anhedonia on the other. Did you also experience complete emotional ansthesia? And did your anhedonia lift as soon as you came off the reinstatement?

Sending you my healing wishes 🌻

 

On 4/8/2021 at 5:16 PM, Ebee12058 said:

So, I'm a little confused on kindling. Or, I should say, I'm confused if that is what I experienced. I've read about kindling under Reinstatement. 

 

I went on & off Lexipro CT between 6 & 8 times from 2004 to 2019. (Incredibly naive & stupid). Every time I would go back on Lexipro, my blunting & Anhedonia was worse. To be clear, I experienced the Anhedonia WHILE TAKING the Lexipro. Not when I stopped. Until by 2019, it was unbearable. So, is this kindling? Was the drug more powerful, & the side effects worse, bc of all the stopping & starting? Would taking a tiny dose possibly avoid or lessen the Anhedonia? I had tapered all the way down to .625mg in Jan 2021, & the Anhedonia was still as strong. I ask bc I want to reinstate, but cannot bear/would really like to avoid the Anhedonia. Or is there another reason people experience this? As always, thank you for your help.