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This maybe long and confusing since I'm typing from my phone but I feel like I'm living in pure hell. 


Backstory- I'm a 30 year old single mother of two. I had my first anxiety attack when I was 11. Doctor prescribed me xanax as needed and I attended counseling on and off. I remember having panic attacks on and off my whole life. I honestly can't remember when I was first prescribed an antidepressant. Last year in july I decided I was done with the pills and the side effects so I did a taper and stopped, I was on lexapro. I remember coming on here when I was having a bad day and reading the success stories, things were getting better and I don't think I ever had a panic attack just a little anxiety here and there until about a month ago. I decided to try some fish egg supplements which sent me into a 3 day panic attack and I haven't been the same since, I even called the ambulance because I thought I was dying and I've been to the er once. I have no idea how fish eggs could possible screw up my entire progress and send my body into panic. So I had to call off work for a week because I couldn't even function the anxiety was too bad. I called my doctor and she put me on prozac 25 mg, took that for 8 days and I had enough, the anxiety, insomnia, sweating, feeling wired. I just couldn't do it. So she switched me to zoloft 25 mg I took one pill and threw them all away. So it's been 2 or 3 days without taking anything and I'm a mess. How can taking those pills for such a short amount of time cause this much of a mess. I can't live like this anymore, the constant panic, intrusive thoughts, feeling like I'm chocking. I have no support system. My mom tells me to get back on my medication ( which she's been on meds since she was 18) she keeps telling me this has to stop. I just don't know what to do, what happened to me, and where to go from here. 

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Hello, and welcome to SA.  We are a peer owned and run forum of people who have been or are getting off of psychiatric drugs.  I'm sorry for what you are going through.  You are not alone - many here have gone through similar situations.  What you are describing sounds to me like classic withdrawal from psychiatric drugs.  It's just how I felt when I was doing a too fast taper off of Lexapro 2 years ago, before I found this site.  Your symptoms may not have been caused by the fish egg supplements (did you mean fish oil supplements?).  Sometimes these withdrawal symptoms take a while to manifest, and they could be caused by discontinuing the Lexapro.  Lexapro is a very powerful antidepressant, and is 2-4 time stronger than most other antidepressants. 


First of all, can you please give us specific information about your drug history?  Please read the link below for instructions.  This will allow us to give you the best guidance.  


How to List Drug History in Signature


This helps you understand what withdrawal syndrome is: 


What is Withdrawal Syndrome?


Here is some information about how these drugs actually work.  


How Psychiatric Drugs Remodel Your Brain


This link has lots of good information about various issues around withdrawal, including fast tapers, reinstatement, the various factors that influence how long these symptoms will last, etc. 


Are We There Yet - How Long is Withdrawal Going to Take


Here are some techniques to cope with symptoms: 


Non Drug Ways to Cope with Withdrawal Symptoms



We don't suggest many supplements, but 3 that many of us find helpful are magnesium, omega-3, and melatonin. Here are the links for info about those. It is suggested to add one at a time, and start with a low dose to see how it affects you. 


Omega 3 Fish Oil



You could possibly try a reinstatement, which means to go back on your drug temporarily.  You would then stabilize on that for a while, and then do a very careful and gradual taper off of it.  There is some risk involved, and we need more specifics about your drug history before we can suggest a good dose at which to reinstate.  Here is some information about reinstatement.  


About Reinstating and Stabilizing to Reduce Withdrawal Symptoms


The other option is to stay off the drugs altogether, and try the non drug coping techniques talked about in the link above.  


I've given you quite a bit of information here.  Please read through it, and mull it over, and we will take it from there. In the meantime, take care of yourself, and take heart.  We in this forum have been through this, and we understand first hand the pain and discomfort you are going through.  Please know that the brain is amazing in it's healing abilities.  It takes time, but healing can and will happen. 


Please do not private message me or tag me.


***Please note this is not medical advice.  Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a doctor who understands psych meds and how to withdraw from them, if you can find one.


Lexapro   Started Apr 15 2010 - 10 mg;  started taper August 2017, recent taper info: Apr 2 '20  0.18 mg; Jul 16  0.17 mg, Aug 23  0.16 mg, Oct 7  0.15 mg, Nov 8 - 0.14, Jan 16 '21 - 0.13, Feb 7 - 0.12, Feb 22 - 0.11, Mar 26 - 0.10, May 21 - 0.09, June 15 - 0.08 Aug 16 - 0.07, Oct 6 - 0.06, Nov 21 0.05, Dec. 17 0.04, Jan 14 '22 0.03, Feb 19 0.02, Apr 18 0.01, May 15 0.005,  Jul 8, 0.00.  Psych Drug Free as of July 8, 2022!!  Woohoo!!!

other meds: Levothyroxine 75 mg

magnesium in small amounts at 4 AM, 3 PM, before bed

suppl AM: fish oil, flax oil, vit C, vit E, multivitamin, zinc

suppl 8 PM: magnesium 350 mg, Estroven, melatonin 2 mg


Paxil 2002 - 2010, switched to Lexapro 2010 

Trazodone 50 mg. 2002 - 2019, fast tapered in 2019 

Xanax 0.5 mg as needed 2002 - 2019, up to 3x weekly 

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Hi here wondering how are you 

2021:  started celexa 10mg feb 2nd 

feb 25th took my last 10g; feb 26th 5mg; feb 27th 5mg; feb 28th 2021 cold turkey 

currently taking mag

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