Phoenixmama: cold turkey after 3 weeks on Celexa

[KenA]

@PhoenixmamaHang in there! You are going to be ok!!

[Phoenixmama]

@KenA thank you comment means a lot to me 

[Fightinghard]

@Phoenixmama  just wanted to send you some good vibes.  Hope you’re doing ok today!

[Phoenixmama]

@Fightinghard I'm doing ok , I'm at work , just made a mistake at work and started to have a melt down , lol dizzy , dry mouth felt like i was about to faint... wow I'm sensitive!!!! but its simmering down now 

I'm usually ok at work , i work 8-1pm and about 12 pm thats when i start feeling really bad until about 6pm , i look forward to the evenings , what about you how are you now

[Fightinghard]

I’m glad you’re doing ok.  I’m In a tough spot today.  My symptoms change each day. Yesterday i was completely jumpy and sensitive to things.  Today, it’s a feeling of sadness and surges in my chest that I think is fear?   I was pacing a lot because of the discomfort. Honestly it’s like i was 7-9 months ago but no anxiety.  I’m hoping this wave passes quickly.  I’m really starting to question the impact melatonin has had on my recovery since i reduced it a few weeks ago and my symptoms ramped up.  May be coincidence but I’m thinking there is something to this. 
 

anyway, keep up the positive vibes.  We’ll get there.  One day at a time!  

[Phoenixmama]

is there any success stories about adverse reaction with short time use ????????? 

[getofflex]

Go to the main page, and in about the middle is the success stories link.  Browse through there and see if you can find any.  We have lots of success stories. 

[Phoenixmama]

@getofflex i have done that , and noticed theres other topics mixed in and im so scared od reading horror stories at the moment , i see a little with the blue success label and some with none 

[Phoenixmama]

@getofflex i found it thank you ❤️

[Phoenixmama]

The further I get into withdraw , the more I’m scared of every move I make everything I eat ( making withdraw worse ) , how much water I’m drinking ( so I don’t  get a full blown uti and have to take antibiotics) don’t get stressed , don’t get over stimulated 😞I feel like there’s booby traps everywhere and I can’t live , but if I do I can potentially be set back and make things way worse then they already are... I’m exhausted I’m tired of pretending , I’m tired of worrying , I wish I would have never taken that pill , I miss me , I see pictures of myself and watch videos of me and I her so much !!!! 3 weeks of celexa , ruined my life , it should be illegal, and I’m only one human with in thousands that are suffering from this god aweful withdraw , I feel so trapped !!! With no way out... my heart is so broken by this 

[Paxil3days]

17 hours ago, Phoenixmama said:

The further I get into withdraw , the more I’m scared of every move I make everything I eat ( making withdraw worse ) , how much water I’m drinking ( so I don’t  get a full blown uti and have to take antibiotics) don’t get stressed , don’t get over stimulated 😞I feel like there’s booby traps everywhere and I can’t live , but if I do I can potentially be set back and make things way worse then they already are... I’m exhausted I’m tired of pretending , I’m tired of worrying , I wish I would have never taken that pill , I miss me , I see pictures of myself and watch videos of me and I her so much !!!! 3 weeks of celexa , ruined my life , it should be illegal, and I’m only one human with in thousands that are suffering from this god aweful withdraw , I feel so trapped !!! With no way out... my heart is so broken by this 

Hey hang in there I agree with you, these drugs should be banned completely!!!!!! But you will heal hang in there , breathe , cherish the windows it will get better it has for lots of people and will for us too.

[Phoenixmama]

@Paxil3days thank you , i'm so sorry i'm so negative , i'm really not a negative person like this , but im just exhausted and scared , and its maybe just the withdraw that's making me like this... I JUST MISSSSS ME SO MUCH 💔

[Phoenixmama]

@Paxil3days i wish there was a place to go meet up with other people in withdraw or a center for people that are going through this.... like they have for street drugs 

[Paxil3days]

4 minutes ago, Phoenixmama said:

@Paxil3days thank you , i'm so sorry i'm so negative , i'm really not a negative person like this , but im just exhausted and scared , and its maybe just the withdraw that's making me like this... I JUST MISSSSS ME SO MUCH 💔

Yes this isn’t you, and that’s the devastating piece, we begin to believe this is us, and it’s not, we will get better, but we will have the trauma, but in time it will all get better I promise, bad days will be there , but they will be like the good old bad days. I hate these meds as much as you do, but rn all we can do is heal ! 

[Rosetta]

This is temporary.  You will get back to feeling that you are yourself.  In the meantime, I understand how distressed you are.  I remember that feeling very well, but please do not think this is permanent.  -Rosetta

[Phoenixmama]

@rosetta Thank you so much , idk why im spiraling like this , its so heavy , im due for my period in like 6 days maybe its that maybe not idk anymore.... thank you so much for that lift ❤️ i really needed it , looking forward to this evening

[KenA]

@Phoenixmama Just remember "This too shall pass" . I would tell myself this over and over and over again for hours until the symptoms would pass. And they always did! 

[Phoenixmama]

@KenA thank you so much 🙏🏼 when it simmers down I feel like i was over reacting but I swear I wasn’t at the time it feels so strong and terrifying like there’s no hope no future no end , I’m so sorry to everyone here for my negativity and panic, I don’t want to scare anyone or trigger them that’s not my intention but I have no other place to release , I hope in due time I will know how to handle my self 

[Phoenixmama]

@Rosettahi good morning , all this talk about melatonin is making me nervous ,ive been taking my littles brand thats zarbees and its 1mg is that too high ???? 😰

[Phoenixmama]

@rosetta will i get ask if i stop taking it or cut down ??? 😥

[Phoenixmama]

omg and my little girl takes half every night too is that bad 

[Phoenixmama]

so ant flow showed up early , i wonder could this be why i've been spiraling so bad ?

[Rosetta]

Melatonin is ok for many people, but it should be tapered.  
 

Yes, my cycle caused me so much trouble in withdrawal.  Still does, but it’s milder.  Both ovulation and menstruation hormones give me trouble.   Sadly, I think that if I had not ever taken anti-depressants that would have been much less of a problem through the last three decades.  

[Phoenixmama]

@rosetta how long did you take ssri i havent read you story as you said i might get scared

[Phoenixmama]

@rosetta so am i taking too much at 1mg

[Phoenixmama]

@rosetta what should i do 

[Rosetta]

It may not be too much.  If your body is used to it, it’s ok.  Starting at that dose after wd set in might be too much.  When did you start taking it?  Before wd? Maybe it’s fine, but don’t suddenly drop the dose a lot.

 

I took Celexa from 2000 or 2001 to 2011 and Zoloft from 2011 to 2017. Before that I had various ADs for short periods — a few days, a week.

[Phoenixmama]

ohhh ok , @rosetta i was going back through my emails to my doctor when i first took the celexa and the first pill celexa 20mg gave me weird sleep like i was floating and i got up and had one lightening in my head , then the rest of the time i see my self complaining about being anxious , stuck feeling, nauseous , foggy brain and no appetite ... does that sound like an adverse reaction or no??? im curious if im in regular withdraw or adverse reaction withdraw

[KenA]

23 hours ago, Phoenixmama said:

@KenA thank you so much 🙏🏼 when it simmers down I feel like i was over reacting but I swear I wasn’t at the time it feels so strong and terrifying like there’s no hope no future no end , I’m so sorry to everyone here for my negativity and panic, I don’t want to scare anyone or trigger them that’s not my intention but I have no other place to release , I hope in due time I will know how to handle my self 

@Phoenixmama It's ok, I completely understand. The feelings we get truly are overwhelming and can be very hard to handle. I remember how they felt and am amazed that I was able to make it through that period, but the great news is I did make it through and so will you! Just remember that they are only feelings! As scary and as overwhelming as they can be, they will come and go. This is truly non-linear healing. It's a 1 step forward, 3 steps back, 5 steps forward, 2 steps back process. But healing is taking place! Just hang in there as best as you can! No need to apologize at all! You are doing awesome and you will make it through this

[Rosetta]

I think adverse reactions can mild enough that people go on taking the drug and get dependent.  Once the brain and nervous system adjusts to the drug being there, the upset it caused settles out.  The odd disturbances are called start up symptoms.  It’s all so perverse.  

You could have had an adverse reaction at first.  Then raised the dose and had another, but you could also have become dependent in the short time you took it.  Or not.  Both adverse reactions and withdrawal result in a dysfunction of the nervous system that manages hormones, neurotransmitters, and who know what else.  It’s the same condition in both instances.  The condition could be more severe for an adverse reaction or not.  I understand why it matters to you, of course.  For the purpose of healing and managing the dysautonomia, that’s not important except that any reinstatement by a person with an adverse reaction might be considered somewhat more risky. 
 

 

[Phoenixmama]

@i will never take them again it’s not an option I’m just trying to figure out what my withdraw  is like if it’s an adverse reaction or regular ct from short time use.... thank you @Rosettaby the way how are you ? 

[Phoenixmama]

@KenA thanks for your reply , I’m just so curious why there isn’t a clinic for ssri withdraw by now because there’s so many people suffering and it’s nothing new.... I feel so embarrassed and guilty that I’m just finding out about withdraw from ssri’s and the fact that I just a couple weeks ago found out that my 77 year old grandmother went threw it two years ago alone... I’m very amazed that no one has came up with a rehab like they have for street drugs... no doctor interested in it ? 

[Phoenixmama]

@roetta I started taking 1mg melatonin every night in withdraw and before I’d take it here and there 

[Phoenixmama]

ok new symptom that came in this week is with my memory, omg my short term memory is getting bad , and i had a very good memory before all of this, i forgetting little things and its scaring me... bath water running . food cooking on the stove , just little things , DOES THIS IMPROVE???????

[KenA]

38 minutes ago, Phoenixmama said:

ok new symptom that came in this week is with my memory, omg my short term memory is getting bad , and i had a very good memory before all of this, i forgetting little things and its scaring me... bath water running . food cooking on the stove , just little things , DOES THIS IMPROVE???????

Yep had that one as well. It went away  It was only temporary.

[Phoenixmama]

@KenA thank god