ScottishLass: hello and some help please

[ScottishLass]

I think the future is bad but likely even worse than I perceive. That’s what is dawning and it's just too much. 

[Rosetta]

I know it seems that way, but a large part of this syndrome is having the feeling the future will be much worse than it will be.  Most of us here have struggled with those thoughts and feelings.  When we feel better, we look back and see that the state of our brains caused us to see the situation as worse than it was likely to be. 
 

It’s hard to overcome, but it is the reason that people become Moderators here or, like me, step in give support.  We know there is bright future for you that you cannot begin to imagine.  Imagination, like many other abilities, can be blunted by the syndrome.  What we do imagine while suffering from this syndrome is often a very bleak future.  It was the same for me.  In windows, I caught glimpses of positive outcomes.  That kept me going on some days.  
 

Please believe us when we say you are not thinking the same way you would if you were not dealing with AD WD.  If any illness lasts for weeks, the mind gets pessimistic.  Chronic pain is an example.  This may be more difficult than chronic pain in some ways and easier in others, but the pessimistic mind set of both is very problematic.  I can tell you a thousand times that there is hope when you feel that there is not, and it will be very irritating, but I do think it is both what you need to hear and the truth.

[ScottishLass]

@Rosetta

Thanks 

[ScottishLass]

@Altostrata@Gridley

Or any mods, please can you give me advice about increasing the reinstatement dose. Would it be advisable now and what increase would you suggest? 

Thanks 

SL

[Gridley]

45 minutes ago, ScottishLass said:

@Altostrata@Gridley

Or any mods, please can you give me advice about increasing the reinstatement dose. Would it be advisable now and what increase would you suggest? 

Thanks 

SL

It's been 13 days since you reinstated.  Have you noticed any improvement since you reinstated?  

[ScottishLass]

@Gridley

Initially but it’s all over the place now and WD symptoms are too much. My hands are burning, my mood is really very low, panic high, I can’t sleep properly and I feel removed from myself. I don’t think its sustainable. If I knew this would end soon it would maybe be manageable but not for much longer. That’s why I am asking about increase? I am concerned if this continues as is. I feel like I’ve had a week of some kind of hypomania which I thought was the old me. Now it feels like a massive crash. I don’t know what’s me, what’s not. How to gauge it. 

[Altostrata]

As requested before, we need to see your symptoms 24 hours at a time, in this format 

 

 

This will help tell if you're having a bad reaction to reinstatement or if it's helping. That is the information we need to see if you need to decrease the dosage, or if an increase is warranted.

 

Symptoms that "are all over the place" don't tell us anything.

[ScottishLass]

18 hours ago, Rosetta said:

I know it seems that way, but a large part of this syndrome is having the feeling the future will be much worse than it will be.  Most of us here have struggled with those thoughts and feelings.  When we feel better, we look back and see that the state of our brains caused us to see the situation as worse than it was likely to be. 
 

It’s hard to overcome, but it is the reason that people become Moderators here or, like me, step in give support.  We know there is bright future for you that you cannot begin to imagine.  Imagination, like many other abilities, can be blunted by the syndrome.  What we do imagine while suffering from this syndrome is often a very bleak future.  It was the same for me.  In windows, I caught glimpses of positive outcomes.  That kept me going on some days.  
 

Please believe us when we say you are not thinking the same way you would if you were not dealing with AD WD.  If any illness lasts for weeks, the mind gets pessimistic.  Chronic pain is an example.  This may be more difficult than chronic pain in some ways and easier in others, but the pessimistic mind set of both is very problematic.  I can tell you a thousand times that there is hope when you feel that there is not, and it will be very irritating, but I do think it is both what you need to hear and the truth.

@Rosetta

Thank u so much for this.🙏🏻 It was so welcome and really needed. It’s been a really difficult, dark few days.  However, I have taken heed of your words and am out of the house and now sat beside a beautiful stream in the sunshine nearby and things seem a little more possible. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 Thanks for your kindness, it saved the day...

[Rosetta]

You are welcome.  One thing that is nice about SA is that we can read that sort of thing anytime, and we can read other threads for inspiration.  Reading other people’s threads can be upsetting; there are threads in the Symptoms forum about finding strength to carry on.

[Rosetta]

 

The caveat is that we don’t recommend pushing through symptoms.  We have found it’s important to be very gentle with ourselves.  The extra stress caused by trying to force ourselves to live normal lives slows down the healing.